Chapter 49 Part III.6.2

Dreams often imply things that a person (present, past, even childhood) longs for but cannot get. Do you remember that ditty I wrote to you in the past? They are all beautiful memories in our life, every word and every action of yours is right in front of us. Bing Chen, who loves you forever, seems as if they have never had those vulgar quarrels, as if they have returned to their love time more than 20 years ago. But it's just "as if"... Wu Wei knew that he was sorry for Bai Fan, and he also refused Hu Bingchen's call, and when he heard that it was his call, he put it down without saying anything.

He also rejected his love letter and said to him: "Stop writing letters, and live with Bai Fan. The reason why our relationship broke down is not because you have too many women? Now she can give you such a You should cherish the opportunity to turn back, and don't repeat our unfortunate mistakes." But Hu Bingchen's phone calls or letters are like marijuana, knowing that there is nothing to do but can't refuse, Wu Wei even secretly yearns for this pleasure like "taking drugs".Relying on this "drug abuse", he lingered on and lived a life that Hu Bingchen couldn't say was discarded, but he couldn't help but be said to be discarded.

They either snuggle up on the sofa without saying anything, like two old birds in winter, snuggling up on a cold branch under the setting sun. What do you say?For decades, good and bad things have already been said, and there is no time for them to say more. What topics can be clearly explained in a few words?Hu Bingchen even closed his eyes, enjoying the pleasure of just sitting down.He didn't expect that it would be hard to get a seat now.Their meetings are often disappointing.But Hu Bingchen can't be blamed either.This really isn't his home anymore— That's why the phone rings so abruptly and so thrillingly;

or someone knocks at the door; The most terrible thing is that you have to look at the clock from time to time, and you have to go back to his and Bai Fan's house before Bai Fan goes home... Every time eleven o'clock struck, Hu Bingchen had to wake up from his obsession, and often repeated what he had said many times: "I have known you for nearly thirty years, and I am still fascinated every time I see you. I really can't forget...your quality, your demeanor, your temperament... This is the result of years of culture and civilization. No woman able to rival you." Wu Wei believed in Hu Bingchen's true intention at this moment.

But he also noticed that Hu Bingchen, who was fascinated, slipped into the thief's eye of the clock from time to time. So Wu Wei felt that he was getting more and more trivial. She didn't understand, what was he afraid of?Nothing transgressed between them. Even when he was old, Wu Wei still didn't understand the truth that acting can also make people happy. "Then why did you divorce me?" The moment when Hu Bingchen was talking about love was the most defenseless moment, and she thought that she could find out the secret of this love affair by this.But the eleven o'clock bell had already struck, and Hu Bingchen was already awake.The sober Hu Bingchen is a Hu Bingchen that no one can understand or grasp.

"The specifics and trivialities of life will destroy our love, and it is better to be like this." Hu Bingchen's prevarication was justified.Aren't they just respecting each other now?It will no longer be ruthless because a teacup is not placed in the right place. Instead, it has become an interpretation of the best relationship between men and women since ancient times. "Isn't that what I said? We don't want to get married, it might be better to be a lover, but you won't listen. What's the point now; okay? You don't have to live in secret again!"

Hu Bingchen bowed his head and remained silent.Wu Wei smiled, and she no longer indulged in discussions.But she didn't understand before that a wife who likes to discuss is a wife who doesn't please her husband.Everything is over, what more can she say? Occasionally, Hu Bingchen would show his strength: "If you could write our current relationship into a novel, it would be so touching." Wu Wei said: "A relationship? But do you still love me?" Hu Bingchen didn't dare to answer. "What if Bai Fan reads this novel? Didn't the Yide warlord start the war again?"

Hu Bingchen said: "I just said, it's all made up by the writer." Only for Wu Wei, Hu Bingchen dared to be so brazen. "Don't you dare to say that you still have such a little emotional attachment to me?" What attachment is not attachment! Hu Bingchen was just unwilling to be silent, unwilling to be unknown without even a single wave, and wanted the silly x Wu Wei to set off one last wave for him and make a bright ending—a final service, including sex, reputation, and all-round services free service. Zhen also bought a set of erectile devices and put them in Wu Wei's place to restore the love of the bed.

After remarrying Bai Fan, Hu Bingchen threw away the erection device he used to have sex with Wu Wei, and bought a new set. He couldn't use the same erection device to shuttle between two women.What's more, the old-fashioned ones are of such poor quality that they creak when squeezed.One night, he knew the situation upstairs from the chirping sound upstairs. In other words, the people downstairs could naturally know his situation from his chirping sound, so they raised Throwing the thing out of the window.The new brand is much better quality than the old ones, and the work with Baifan was not very successful, but not the quality of the erectors.

Hu Bingchen complained and tentatively said to Wu Wei: "Oh, Bai Fan is not doing his best." Wu Wei sighed, which woman could sacrifice herself to Hu Bingchen who could only become a man with the help of his erection like himself? For so many years, wasn't she the one who created this myth for Hu Bingchen? " Until now, Hu Bingchen still thinks that his vigor remains the same as before.Since their marriage, this man old enough to be her father, never capable of making a powerful impact, never able to make her rise to immortality in an instant, is still as enthusiastic about it as before, still as ineffective as before busy.

At that moment, Hu Bingchen was more like a baby with pure desires; and his ineffective rush reminded Wu Wei of the sunset. Before that, the warm light that was still able to shine, fell to the horizon in an instant, and it was really bleak. Why does anyone need to comment on her love for Hu Bingchen?Why do you need Bai Fan to comment?Let me ask, is there any woman in the world who can do such a thing for a man, a man who doesn't have much ability in this area?Which woman is willing to play such a supporting role in such a performance that castrates the nature of women?Not overnight, but willingly, for ten years? Except for Sally, the heroine in the American movie "WHEN HARRY METSALLY" (WHEN HARRY METSALLY), who pretends to have an orgasm during sex and yells -- but that's a movie. After the divorce, she no longer has such obligations, and Bai Fan can only take over such services.Whether Bai Fan's work was good or bad, Hu Bingchen could only accept everything he ordered.Now she can only play a cutscene role in Hu Bingchen's embrace, and she has to work hard to perform this cutscene role to the bone.This will make him who is passionate about this way, who is full of masculine vanity, who cannot get such selfless service from any woman... to get the final satisfaction of a man.Even if it's just for a while, even if it's false.Apart from this, Hu Bingchen, who has nothing left, what else can he hope for?Just like the man at the end of his life, all he has left is that sip of wine. Compassion rather than love filled Wu Wei's heart, and with the mood of a mother rather than a lover, he stroked his cheek and sighed: "Poor!" Hu Bingchen's old heart, which is empty and unwilling to be empty, really needs some love. As expected, the beard was shaved today.She had to admit that Hu Bingchen was indeed a man who could create flair. Which woman could resist the teasing from such a man? "Oh, I have to solve it myself." Hu Bingchen said sadly. "It's not good for your health, let's try again with Bai Fan." Wu Wei was able to discuss how to have sex with Bai Fan with him in such a casual manner! Her heart was no longer affected by the relationship between Hu Bingchen and other women. Hu Bingchen, who has always positioned himself as a woman will prostrate on the ground no matter what he is, can see that Wu Wei, who was willing to sacrifice everything for him in the past, will not sacrifice a single bit for him even though he can "fall in love" with him again.In other words, he who once worked hard for Wu Wei will never pay anything for Wu Wei again.Their second "love affair" will never reproduce the brilliance and brilliance of the previous love, but it has to be carefree. Hu Bingchen had no choice but to turn to Bai Fan, and bought some for Bai Fan, which was said to be a more effective lubricant for women. It was still very uncomfortable, but better than nothing.Afterwards, Hu Bingchen called Wu Wei to discuss how to further improve the effect of having sex with Bai Fan: "So I did it, and the feeling is still worse." "You can't ask too much." Wu Wei had no choice but to comfort him in this way, hoping that he would realize and understand the crux of the matter. Even now, she is unwilling to expose that myth. Even if it wasn't smooth, it added some warmth to the relationship between Hu Bingchen and Bai Fan.Hu Bingchen even accompanied Bai Fan to the store to buy sundries such as hot water bottles and washing machines. For him, these actions were impossible in the past. Regarding the choice that has already been established, Bai Fan will also constantly seek Hu Bingchen's opinion: "How about it, do you think it's good? Do you think it's good!" Between words and actions, there is actually a little coquettishness. When Hu Bingchen was dealing with the two women like this, he didn't know that his fierce horse would never be fierce again. He always thought that Bai Fan was still a subordinate under his leadership during the underground party period, but he didn't understand the admonitions of "Strict teachers lead to high-level apprentices" and "The height of the way is one foot, and the height of the devil is one foot".Today is not what it used to be, if he has a plan, the current Bai Fan has a brilliant way to defeat that plan. Can these little schemes not be discovered by Bai Fan?She stepped up her precautions, even if Hu Bingchen went to the office to read confidential documents, she would sit in Hu Bingchen's special car and wait no matter how long the time was; sometimes she gave up piano lessons and "accompanied" Hu Bingchen to the hospital to see a doctor, and even Hu Bingchen had no chance to go to the toilet. let go. Losing his freedom, Hu Bingchen had no choice but to call Wu Wei at home, but Bai Fan appeared by his side at any time.Whenever he saw Bai Fan coming in, or felt that Bai Fan was bugging on another phone, he would immediately blame Wu Wei on the phone without thinking. In those accusations and stories, Wu Wei is simply a heinous woman. For example, Wu Wei once asked him: "Now, you should tell me the truth, you divorced me and remarried Bai Fan: Is it your idea or her idea? This is very important to me." At this moment, Bai Fan suddenly walked into the room, and the well-behaved Hu Bingchen changed his tone, looked at Bai Fan and said, "It was my idea, I was worried that no one would collect my body when I died." Can a man who is still in love with her shoot her in the back? God is truly omnipresent.Many years later, Hu Bingchen died of a broken heart during a violent quarrel with Bai Fan. God also answered his curse without conscience. According to relevant regulations, for a cadre of Hu Bingchen's level, his family members can get his ashes after waiting for three hours at the crematorium.But after Bai Fan's family sent him to the crematorium, they walked away, not to mention that no one looked back, and they didn't even shed a tear. A few days later, the staff of the Bureau of Veteran Cadres reminded Bai Fan: "Shouldn't it be time to go to the crematorium to collect Vice Minister Hu's ashes?" Bai Fanyi said relaxedly: "That's all idealism. We are materialists, so what's the point of keeping the ashes?" Even Fu Rong, whom Hu Bingchen cared and loved the most, and who even sacrificed Wu Wei for her, didn't say anything about it, only shed a few tears, and didn't even leave any souvenirs for his father, let alone receive his money. ashes. That is to say, Hu Bingchen's ashes were picked up like garbage like those unclaimed ones.What's the difference between this and Violent Street?Shouldn't he say "I'm worried that no one will collect my body when I die"? Can't blame Bai Fan for being ruthless, she spent her whole life with this half-hearted man who betrayed her countless times.In the end, in the end, Qi Bingchen did not change his course. After remarrying with her, he still went to Wu Wei's place for trysts from time to time. The issue of Hu Bingchen's crumbs was finally settled.Bai Fan won the final victory, and Hu Bingchen belonged to Bai Fan's name until his death, and the ghost was also Bai Fan's ghost. But who can say that Bai Fan's victory is not tragic? It's a pity that Wu Wei is no longer here?If she was still alive, she might buy a cemetery for Hu Bingchen to place his ashes; or scatter his ashes in Xin'an River, his favorite place; under the wintersweet tree, and he must not be allowed to die on the street... But Wu Wei's own ashes were not disposed of, considered, or taken in, and they were also treated like garbage. In fact, Hu Bingchen takes his own ashes too seriously. At most the next generation, someone will dust off the urn for you. After the next generation, who will remember who is in the urn? Maybe this is why Wu Wei burned all her photos long before she was still able to move freely?Maybe this is why after Wu Wei's death, people searched through all her belongings. Wu Wei, who had one legitimate child and one illegitimate child, could not find a contact person? Hu Bingchen was too confident, thinking that he didn't have to pay the price for anything, that he could leave without debts, that all the women he had ever had would miss and guard him. Hu Bingchen finally paid the price for his frivolity.Bai Fan not only avenges Hu Bingchen's negative intelligence towards her all his life, but also avenges Wu Wei.I don't know if Wu Wei's spirit in heaven will thank Bai Fan? So Wu Wei knew that the moment when the good-natured Hu Bingchen suddenly blamed her on the phone and imposed all kinds of unreasonable things on her was the moment when Bai Fan suddenly appeared by his side. I don't know how they got into trouble in the end, forcing Hu Bingchen to divorce Bai Fan again. Hu Bingchen, an old underground party member, finally got rid of Bai Fan's tail, and stole an opportunity to discuss the future with Wu Wei again. But Wu Wei said to him: "How old are you, and you are still as self-willed as a child, even if you still have that interest, I will not play with you anymore." Neither soft nor hard, but there is no leeway. Hu Bingchen has never been as gray and gray as he is now, and what is even more strange is why he is wearing a bright yellow women's jacket?Why not wear that Italian trench coat she bought him? Wearing a pair of women's flower-frame glasses.What about the glasses she bought him?God, what happened to Hu Bingchen?Why was his downfall so swift? Don't talk about discussing the future with Hu Bingchen now, even drinking a cup of coffee with such a women's jacket is out of the question. When he left, Hu Bingchen stood still at the door, he couldn't understand why this woman, who was no longer young and beautiful but also sick like this, still had such great charm? Maybe her charm is not in her youth and beauty.It seems that she never talked about beauty, but her flying spirit gave her a distinctive spirit. It also lies in her every move, the feeling of every corner and every object in her room, that kind of feeling that people call unrestrained, newspapers thrown all over the floor, books scattered all over the place, scattered on bookshelves or Cups on the table... a bed with untidy bedding. Wu Wei does not advocate stacking quilts, "Doesn't it have to be used at night?" She said, and they quarreled a lot because of this. Now he went back to sleep on the neatly folded white sail bed, but felt the tediousness of making the quilt again.Once upon a time, he was still a scene on Wu Wei's bed. Facing this very familiar bed, which is now so far away, he really felt indescribable, "This was also my bed in the past." He said with nostalgia. "Hey, since this chicken rib has been discarded, don't regret it anymore." Wu Wei comforted lightly. Wu Wei's consolation was not without perfunctory, let alone the grief and indignation at the beginning of the divorce, which made Hu Bingchen very melancholy. What is he sad about?Is it better for Wu Wei to be hurt by this divorce forever? "You are still the same, you don't arrange it specially, and you don't have any valuable things... But there is a kind of crystal position. Now I have to work hard to keep a simple one. If I don't work hard, it will be difficult to keep it simple, and it will soon be It's going to be a mess." Wu Wei is lying on the sofa, throwing away the newspaper casually after reading, who can learn it?Even after he read the newspaper and learned to throw the newspaper away, he couldn't lose her charm.That is "natural beauty", not something that can be learned the day after tomorrow, and never expect Bai Fan to be in the slightest. Whenever he comes to Wu Wei, Hu Bingchen always feels that he is far away from contemporary civilization.Fortunately, returning to his and Bai Fan's home, he could regain some balance from the feeling of dignity. Hu Bingchen stands out from the crowd and has commanded, ordered and led his whole life.Life is too long, and the feeling of dignity and dignity has grown on him. Compared with a civilized life, it is even more inseparable for him. But, who else can understand his every move, every thought, every thought like this woman who looks muddled and always unconscious?Not even the old comrades who have lived and died together for decades, let alone Bai Fan.Up to now, the "upper class" Hu Bingchen has not only forgotten the bad words he once said to Ye Lianzi, "You petty citizens", "fuck you", etc., he even feels that Wu Wei and he grew up together in the old house of the Hu family. of. I suddenly remembered some sentences in the postscript written by Wang Tao of the Qing Dynasty for Shen Fu that I had read in my youth: "...there is no way to know the truth, and things are not inevitable. There is no room for love. The couple is guaranteed to spend their whole life, whether it will happen or not. Why? A beautiful woman cannot be cultivated for a long time, but a woman who is talented and talented is often tabooed by creation, and she will die if she is widowed. However, talented men and talented women have always been inconsistent. What's the pity, it's just that he is widowed and his love is deeper; otherwise, even if he stays together for a hundred years, will he be embarrassed? Woohoo... even if the mediocre stays together for a hundred years, it doesn't have to be a hundred years. It's not necessary for a hundred years to be exhausted. Creation is so taboo , is the reason for creation?" When he was a teenager, he had read quite a few sweet poems and pornographic songs, and it was an era when there was no ban.But Zhong Shen Sanbai and Chen Yun's boudoir happiness is what he admires the most, and he always thinks, don't mention the six notes, even if there is one note. Can't help hugging Wu Wei and kissing him.The difference was that Wu Wei became suspicious of Hu Bingchen's kiss. On this threshold, Wu Wei studied Hu Bingchen again.The time is short and the place is not right. It is a bit like a person on the verge of death looking back at his life in a very short and limited time. Since their divorce, she thought for the first time that Hu Bingchen was no longer her husband. He has never seriously thought about what Hu Bingchen did to her after the divorce, but now, on this threshold, he stubbornly thinks about it. This man who was born in a yard full of thread-bound books, what he did after divorcing her, including this kiss; if it is not the mentality of prostitution, how can it be explained? Birthplace is - a place of personal importance. Men born in that kind of yard, apart from their mothers and daughters, ideal women in their minds, who are both practical and playful. Women like Chen Yuanyuan, Dong Xiaowan, and Su Xiaoxiao are not even Zhuo Wenjun, let alone Zhuo Wenjun. Said Li Qingzhao. However, even the mentality of being a prostitute is a betrayal of Bai Fan.All the sacrifices Bai Fan made for the return of Hu Bingchen's prodigal son, and all the painstaking efforts Bai Fan made to surpass Wu Wei after remarrying Hu Bingchen, all made him useless. This is the same as when Wu Wei was still Hu Bingchen's wife, no matter how much she worked hard, Bai Fan's pot of chicken soup, a phone call...or a smile or a wink from other women was wasted? Exactly. How her affection for Hu Bingchen was pretentious and hopeless. She is really a woman who has lost everything before she is willing to turn back. However, the wet stream in Hu Bingchen's eyes did have the meaning of "holding hands and looking at teary eyes", and Wu Wei couldn't help being moved by that already dry heart.That wet stream of fire was indeed not completely improvised.In their decades-long love formula, she had always loved him more than him, but now she was standing on the threshold and smiling at Hu Bingchen, but there was an element of entertainment mixed in.Compared with the moist water in Hu Bingchen's eyes at this moment, this entertainment element has a negative meaning. ...It's just a matter of passing thoughts.In the end, Wu Wei still viciously locked the wet fire in Hu Bingchen's eyes on the mentality of being a prostitute.But it was too late, she finally let Hu Bingchen play tricks again, this is something to comfort Bai Fan. On the other hand, Bai Fan has also been Hu Bingchen's sexual tool for decades, and Hu Bingchen still says this until now, which is worthy of comforting Wu Wei.Wu Weixin said, "Bai Fan, you also haven't won Hu Bingchen's heart. Hu Bingchen is a personal website that doesn't belong to any woman. Hu Bingchen can only be an Internet." Back then when Hu Bingchen's rectification of Wu Wei was conveyed to Bai Fan by Fu Rong, Bai Fan also said the same way: "You deserve it, Wu Wei, you didn't really get Hu Bingchen, Hu Bingchen finally avenged me!" When Hu Bingchen walked towards the elevator, Wu Wei stopped him and handed him a bag, which looked like a well-packaged snack box. "What is this?" Hu Bingchen asked. "Let's go back and see." It was the impetus for Hu Bingchen's vain attempt to rebuild the bed with her.Wu Wei, who was on the verge of madness, thought viciously, how good it would be if Bai Fan intercepted Hu Bingchen when he walked into the house carrying this "snack box". She is still stupid, can Hu Bingchen let Bai Fan intercept what comes from her? 6 I don't know if it's a coincidence, but on the day of Ye Lianzi's death, Hu Bingchen came again.What did he say?Most of them are the boring and tormenting old affairs between him and Wu Wei. Gradually, Gu Qiushui's shadow appeared in front of Wu Wei's eyes, and she couldn't help but blurted out, "Dad!" Hu Bingchen didn't hear clearly, and asked, "What did you say?" Wu Wei said, "Father." After saying this, Wu Wei transitioned peacefully and calmly into a state where he didn't say anything and didn't know anyone. Childishness returned to her wrinkled face, and her face became simple and clear, like a white flour steamed bun that was always longed for but hard to get in her youth.Wu Wei failed to fulfill the wish he made at the beginning of his life - to write a book for Ye Lianzi. Chanyue once wanted to help Wu Wei complete the manuscript.In the end, she had no choice but to give up, because she had already walked out of a life that was only scorned by Ye Lianzi and Wu Wei. Hu Bingchen visited Wu Wei once in a mental hospital. Seeing Hu Bingchen, Wu Wei was no longer afraid or troubled, but he still called him "Dad".This made him very unhappy, and reminded him that it wasn't because of the age gap between them, so he stopped visiting her—anyway, Wu Wei didn't know anyone anymore, and it didn't matter whether he saw her or not. He also no longer studied communism or the leadership of the party, and dug out the materials accumulated for writing that big book in the past, as well as the floppy disk that Wu Wei copied for him on the computer.It's true that things are people and things are not everything.Randomly flipping through the previous text, I really look like the woman I used to be... Is this what he wrote?What's new in these words so far?As Wu Wei said back then, "The world has become so open, and it is bound to become even more open. If you put these things that others have chewed in your mouth, how much flavor can you chew?" Something chewed in someone else's mouth! Then Hu Bingchen burned and broke these things without hesitation or reluctance. Hu Bingchen not only stopped studying these theories, but also got in touch with Hu Bingan's descendants in Hong Kong.Using his past status, relationship network and his years of understanding of the planned economic model as intangible assets, combined with the financial resources of Hu Bingan's descendants whom he despises the most, he started to operate real estate and once again demonstrated his multi-faceted talents. The most developed, most visionary, and most accomplished red capitalist.The ancient Hu family, in the 21st century, came to Hu Bingchen's place to revive their family prestige.In fact, Hu Bingchen's earliest wish was to inherit the family business, not to go to Yan'an to participate in the revolution. It was during the Anti-Japanese War that he eavesdropped on the school's meeting to move the school to the interior. Furong's cross-century love is still unresolved, her lover is still waiting for the position of deputy minister, and the divorce from his wife is no longer mentioned... It seems that their marriage has no hope of being resolved in the 21st century.Hu Bingchen originally wanted to choose a wealthy son-in-law for Fu Rong from among Hu Bing'an's descendants, but Fu Rong had already grown old after a long wait, not to mention those old wealthy households, even upstarts would not choose such a bride. Besides, what can Hu Bingchen come up with to be door-to-door and door-to-door with them?The assets he has just accumulated are not strong enough, and his power network is like a cicada in late summer, I don't know how many days it will last. That day when I was going to the board meeting, the car passed Tiananmen Square and stopped suddenly.He told the driver to hurry forward, the board meeting was about to start.The driver said there was a traffic jam ahead. I don't know whether Hu Bingchen took a nap or was dazzled, but suddenly many sacrificed comrades stepped down from the Monument to the People's Heroes.They approached his car as if they had never parted from him, and asked him, "What happened?" He replied, "Traffic jam." Then there was a sting on the face, just like a slap in the face that Bai Fan had slapped back then.Hu Bingchen woke up from the daze, and remembered that this was an important meeting of the board of directors, which was related to the company's merger and expansion decisions. After waking up, Hu Bingchen suddenly said to himself: the course of history cannot be changed, whoever tries to change it will give you a loud slap in the face. In a blink of an eye, I cleared up the troubles of dreams and vertigo just now, and moved on. One cannot make irresponsible remarks on Hu Bingchen being an outstanding capitalist again. Although he may be very similar to Hu Bing'an, the scum of the Hu family at this time, there is no priority in revolution, nor in capital, for the same reason. Hu Bingchen refused to be mediocre all his life. Hu Bingchen, who judges heroes by success or failure, naturally has a particularly good understanding of today's heroes who are judged by wealth.Hu Bingchen, who rejected mediocrity all his life, had to prove himself in this way again. When I have nothing to do, I will bask in the sun and read books on the rocking chair on the balcony. I seldom think about the past when I went to Yan'an for no reason and became a very sincere revolutionary. I will no longer discuss whether it is correct, whether it is correct, whether it can save the world from fire and water, and the ideal of life and death for this. Of course, occasionally I would think of the love experiment between him and Wu Wei that ended in failure, and the eyes that were not yet cloudy would light up, like the tail of lightning in the distance, and then wipe out the darkness.It is inevitable that he will discuss international and domestic affairs with Bai Fan and his sons and daughters, and ask his grandchildren about their homework to show that he is not out of date.Never been to a western restaurant again.Western restaurants and Wu Wei have become past enjoyments, and he has tasted it, and that's enough. After Wu Wei went crazy, Bai Fan no longer cared about the matter between him and Wu Wei, and regarded his behavior as a nightmare.Many people have nightmares when they sleep, and besides, isn't that just one of his nightmares? Sometimes they would quarrel, and at that time, Hu Bingchen himself would hold his breath and laugh cleverly——if Bai Fan made him lose his temper before, why would he let it go?It can be seen that he knows his destiny. If the infatuated Wu Wei is still conscious, he will be amazed that the charm of Hu Bingchen's clever smile has not completely disappeared at this age.Maybe I will think of decades ago, when I first heard Hu Bingchen's clever smile, my heart was so moved. Although Hu Bingchen's skin was already sagging when he got married, the two thin lips that were ready to be kissed at any time had been tightened into two dark hard lines, and the excess fat protruded from the left and right, protruding from the once narrow crotch. His face, his blue-steel-coloured, stern and sentimental peach eyes, also evolved into a regular triangular shape. Two high cheekbones... but the infatuated Wu Wei, sees youth through the traces of time, sees his toned skin, sees his two thin lips that are always ready to kiss, and sees his green Steel's cold and peach-like passionate eyes saw his narrow and sexy crotch... There is also the irrepressible indulgence when Hu Bingchen and her kissed for the first time, struggling to escape from the confinement; there is also the loss and confusion about oneself when he was desperate and desperate for indulgence. Not only did Hu Bingchen not die soon due to heart disease, but he also lived longer than many people—although when living with Wu Wei, Hu Bingchen always used his heart disease to frighten and torture Wu Wei, saying that he might die at any moment. Because of this, she tolerated him from the beginning of their marriage to the end of their marriage, for fear that if she offended him, she would have a heart attack and die at an undeserved time. It's hard to say that Wu Wei's madness has nothing to do with this perennial depression. Gu Qiushui is still alive, and like Hu Bingchen, after almost a century of tossing, he is as ferocious and rough as the dry land, but he still moves freely and does not need too many people to take care of him. I just keep dreaming, in my dreams I can't tell the past century or the century just started.Suddenly, his wife, who was younger than him but not as strong as him, said: "I have to persuade General Zhang Xueliang, no one can believe it." Fontaine also went to the mental hospital to see Wu Wei once, and then stopped going.She has developed very well. Since she can fight her way out of that courtyard with her own ability, she will certainly have a very good future.It's just that I have never been married, and I have no children. In short, I don't have what ordinary people call happiness.There is a grievance and a debtor, and this account still has to be attributed to Wu Wei, and it is another injury Wu Wei has done to her. As soon as she returns to China, Ru Feng will visit Wu Wei. Looking at Wu Wei who is now unconscious, she doesn't know whether she has harmed Wu Wei or helped him. Should she regret it, or shouldn't she regret it? Zen Moon's family life is not only normal, but unusually harmonious. In the past, Chanyue always told Wu Wei that 100% is an ominous number, one cannot devote one hundred percent to anything, and one cannot bet one's life on one thing. According to Zenyue's statement, looking at some people and things in this book...maybe there is some truth. Chanyue has given birth to many children, but it is a pity that Wu Wei was unable to see her children before going crazy.She never told Zenyue how much she wanted to see her child. Why? As early as in Linghu Village and outside Wuhou Temple in Wuzhangyuan, Wu Wei knew there was a gatha waiting for Chanyue's first child to break it.Only Wu Wei and Ye Lianzi knew this gatha, so not only Wu Wei was waiting, but also Ye Lianzi was waiting secretly.It doesn't matter how long I wait, I can't make Ye Lianzi wait too long... But when Chanyue had her first child, Wu Wei could no longer know whether the child had broken the gatha. Chanyue visits Wu Wei in China regularly, bringing a lot of Wu Wei's favorite food, clothes, utensils...and sometimes the children.Despite Chanyue's heartache and pain, Wu Wei still didn't respond.No matter what he said to Wu Wei, Wu Wei still said "mother" or "dad". Up to now, Zenyue has not given up, seeing so-called new medicines and new medical methods in the newspapers; she will look for them at any cost.There is no solution that she has not tried, but no one can save Wu Weiwei.In fact, Chanyue doesn't have to be sad, if it's for Wu Wei's sake, isn't this ending her best ending?She can't perceive anything anymore, which is her great fortune. At this point, this book can end, and most of the people in the book are already or are gradually dying. Full of shameless lies, fantasy adventures, extravagance, experimental struggles, turmoil, restlessness, confusion, hopelessness, melancholy decline, demagogy, self-contradictory, disappointment in hope, slanderous liars, cruel and bloody killings, self-importance The destructive destruction of the living environment and the fragmented schools of thought (there is no such century as the twentieth century was filled with as many theories and schools of thought)... The twentieth century has finally passed. This remnant game left to the next century is really a bad game. There is nothing more to say.But the story is not over,--but that's not a bad thing anymore. On a certain day of a certain year and a certain month, Wu Wei died.At this moment, many people left the world like her; at this moment, many children were born. This day is the beginning or end of an unforgettable story in their whole life. But Wu Wei died easily. I don't know if it was inspired by Ye Lianzi. When the nurse found Wu Wei dead, she also found that she had pulled out all the tubes that supported her life. The sky is high, the clouds are light, and summer is over. The tree is still green, but Wu Wei is leaving. This is death. As the tide recedes from the beach, so her soul recedes from her body. Like a fish swimming back to the sea, where life began.Like the last chord on a violin, weak, disappearing soundlessly. In any case, Wu Wei is lucky. Regardless of the luck or misfortune in this life, in the way she chooses to die, she finally, at least retains the dignity of life. The last Wu Wei was not as described by people who had been on the verge of death - embarking on a journey of death, passing through a time tunnel, and replaying his life. Her soul only floated in a meaningless place - when she was still young, she accepted court mediation for Hu Bingchen's divorce case. After the matter was over, she went out and found that it was raining heavily.She hid under the porch of a building, staring at the rain curtain in a daze, not sure whether she was hiding from the rain or didn't want to move.一支日本歌曲穿过雨幕断续飘来：我死了，不会有人为我流泪，只有屋后树上的蝉儿，为我失声悲鸣…… 小时在五丈塬武侯祠外占卜的一卦，也飘然而至。 确如卦上所说，吴为不是一个真实的人，不过在人世客串一把，体验一次“活”的滋味，所以她不能胜任任何正式的角色。比起那些到世上真活一世的人，她真说不上认真，总有逢场作戏的味道。 她从来没有与这个世界真正和谐过，大部分人与她只是擦肩而过，从来没有真正进入她的心，尽管她从未蓄意拒绝。胡秉宸并没有真正得到过她。就这个意义上来说，吴为欺骗了胡秉宸。 人们想要通知她的亲友，翻遍她所有的遗物，也没有找到一个亲友的电话或是地址，凡与文字有关的东西都没找到。这个与文字结缘几十年的人，死的时候和文字彻底决绝了。 倒是有禅月的来信，可是只有信纸没有信封。人们无法不怀疑，是吴为自己，截断了联系人间的所有渠道。 这是什么时候完成的工作？是吴为发疯之前还是之后？ 她到底疯了还是没疯？ 这个不论婚生子或私生子一个都不少的女人，如此一干二净地离开了这个世界，断然拒绝了这个世界最后的垂怜或饶恕。 对这个世界，还有比这种仇恨更深的仇恨吗？ 一九八九年-二○○一年九月二十八日