Chapter 52 late at night on february 9

I just rushed back from the city yesterday, and I heard bad news, and I only confirmed it this afternoon; damn it, what the hell is this! The matter of N really messed up. F has been dismissed, and it is said that he is suspected of "protecting" N.The old scorpion and the like are still unharmed, hell! It seems that they have not suspected N's "suicide"—at least at this time.This is the blessing of misfortune.But I'm really in a hurry, and it's inconvenient for me to go to the city twice in three days; what kind of tickets the fellow villagers have agreed to, how much money is still short, and how to raise funds are not something that can be done in the countryside.

And, maybe it's going to happen to me. Doesn't F often come to my place?People will naturally feel that the relationship between me and him is not general. N also often comes to my place, F knows about it, but it is hard to guess whether others know about it.But even if no one noticed it before, it is different now. Once people inquire, then... The old clerk and others are still in good health, so not only is there a 100% possibility of being raped when I go out, who can guarantee that I will be safe sitting at home?Forced at gunpoint, isn't that something I've already witnessed?

The more I thought about it, the more afraid I became.Moreover, if N's affairs fail, I should be responsible; if I didn't come up with some "solutions", it would be no big deal for her to sit back and wait for changes, but now, if I get self-defeating, I will kill her. —Naturally, I hurt myself again. What the hell!It seems that everything is united against me!