Chapter 51 February 8

What a big fog!I seem to have mold all over my body.Walking into N's bedroom, she was still asleep, blushing very much.I closed the door gently, and she woke up. "I figured you'd come," she said with a smile. "But, sister, it's not good for you to come too much." "I don't worry about how you are doing here..." I sat beside her bed. "Very good. They treat me like one of their own." N reached out and took my hand. "Oh, why are your hands so cold?" "I'm from the hospital—but don't worry, I'm not sick..."

N raised his body, put his face on my forehead, and lowered his head to listen to the beating of my heart. Then he complained, "Fake illnesses will lead to real illnesses..." But he giggled and said, "Sister Well, they invited me to play cards last night, and I won! You see..." While talking, N jumped up, ran to the table and took out a stack of banknotes, happily: "I will pray secretly first, if my sister and I can go back smoothly, I will win the money; now you see, I am not a winner." Is it gone?" "Don't be too happy," I took out the clothes and put them on for her, while teasing her, "I heard that the old man swore that if he didn't find you, he wouldn't be..."

N's face immediately changed, but he still insisted: "You lied to me again, I don't believe it!" "What are you doing lying to you?" I said with a straight face. N's eyes widened, looking extremely disappointed, but suddenly he smiled and said, "No one can find me. Because I have become Miss Zhao Er's cousin, and I live in the house of the businessman Boss Wang." "You're so optimistic," I also laughed, "Forget it, the old one probably has nothing to do. But there's still a nine-headed bird..." "How about the nine-headed bird?" N's expression changed again.

"It's all right. But, you put on your clothes first, and then you got sick from the cold, . . . " "No, you talk first. I hug you, so you won't be cold." "Nine-headed bird is nothing. It's just that I saw from his words the day before yesterday that they wanted to report a fall into the water and plan to take their lives privately! I don't agree with this!" N was at a loss at first, then started giggling, entangled my body like a wet rope, and said in a low voice, "Okay, see if you don't follow me, see if you don't follow me!"

I got rid of her entanglement, brushed my hair, and said with a smile: "As for the life of a female student N, I naturally don't agree. However, about the matter of Miss Zhao Er's cousin, that's another matter. Report to Miss Er's cousin : Boss Wang informed you just now that the ticket will be available soon, within two weeks." Suddenly the naive look on N's face disappeared. She put on her clothes quickly, bowing her head in thought while she was putting on the clothes; when she put on the cheongsam, she walked up to me before she had time to button it. , put his hands on my shoulders, and asked quietly: "So, sister, how about you?"

"What about me?" "When are you leaving?" N's face moved closer, and the tip of her nose almost touched mine. "Me—you don't need to worry about it. Maybe a month, maybe more. The biggest problem, I have to ask for leave first. You see, this is not in the hands of others!" N seemed to be taken aback, but then he put his face close to mine and said in a voice so low that he could hardly hear him, "I'll wait for you. My sister and I are going all the way." I couldn't help laughing out loud: "Are you waiting for me? There's no need, don't be childish!" "We must wait!" N's voice sounded a little louder, and he sat on me with a twist of his waist. "I won't go. Did you ask someone to tie me into the car? I won't let you stay here alone!"

I smiled and shook my head, stretched out my hand and turned her face around, but saw her eyes flickering, as if she was about to shed tears.I sighed, and said softly, "Sister, but it's better for you to leave a day earlier. What if our trick is seen through?" "I've thought about it too. But, sister, think about it, I won't be able to leave until two weeks later," she suddenly laughed out loud. "However, there are always some discounts in what the businessmen say. If we say two weeks, I'm afraid it will actually take three weeks and four weeks. Hurry up, it's not just right, we're still going together."

"Well,"—I just responded vaguely, without saying anything.She is so optimistic, I can't bear to disappoint her.She is stubborn and can act like a baby, and I can't do anything about it.But I still have my own ideas, and I'm not afraid that she will really insist on not leaving.I pursed my lips and smiled, urging her to get dressed quickly. N was very happy, she walked on tiptoe, and looked back and smiled at me from time to time. Suddenly, she narrowed her gaze, walked gently back and forth, and took me to the window, saying: "Sister, besides father, who else is there in your family?"

"It seems that there is a younger brother." I replied casually. She smiled: "If there is, there is, why is it 'like'?" "Because I can't remember, I've never seen it. . . . It was born by my father's concubine." She lowered her head and her steps slowed down, and asked again: "Is my aunt talking to you?" "But she's dead..." "How old is younger brother?" At this moment, N had already stopped, still holding my waist. "Ten years old at most." I pondered for a while. "It seems to be gone..." I saw that N's eyes were fixed on me, and his eyes were so gentle, I couldn't help smiling and said: "Sister, you have inquired so carefully, it seems like you are coming to my house to be a wife. Yes, unfortunately I..."

She asked blankly, "What's the pity?" "It's a pity I don't have an older brother." N shook his head and said, "Not necessarily. But it's a pity that I'm not a man!" I laughed; remembering how she had joked about being a boy when she first met me, I laughed even louder. N didn't seem to understand why I was smiling, and looked at me in surprise. "Aren't you shy," I stopped laughing and said, "I always want to take advantage of others." "Oh——" N didn't laugh, "Since you think it's cheaper to be a man, I'll let you be a man. Anyway, no matter who does it, if you and I are together for the rest of our lives, how good it is!"

After finishing speaking, she sighed again.I also feel a little sad. We walked to the window silently, huddled together in a chair, and forgot to speak. Suddenly N held my face, stared at me, and asked softly, "Sister, guess what I'm thinking right now?" I pursed my lips and smiled, stroked her hair, and replied, "How can I become a boy..." "No!" N immediately interrupted me, "I'm thinking of you..." "Think I can become a man?" "No!" N smiled smugly. "I'm thinking, some parts of you are too much like a man, but some parts are more feminine than a woman..." I couldn't help laughing out loud: "It's nonsense again. How can there be anything more feminine than a woman? What is more feminine than a woman?" "That's a double woman! That's a woman who has become a mother!" I laughed again, but suddenly all kinds of old things came to my heart, my laughter was not natural, and I sighed. N also felt that there was a difference in my expression, and she seemed to understand the reason for it. She kept silent, and only put her face gently against mine.After a while, she said softly again: "Sister, I had a dream last night. We were walking halfway, when a man suddenly came and said he was my sister's lover, and dragged you away,—— I cried and cried, but woke up, still teary. " I was startled when I heard that, and forced a smile and said, "You're playing tricks again, I don't believe there is such a dream." "But, sister, such a dream will come sooner or later..." "What about you? You are younger than me, prettier than me, and smarter than me..." Before I finished speaking, N covered my mouth and said, "Come on, come on, sister, if you say it again, I won't agree! That's right, I'm better than you in everything, and I'm more naughty than you!" I gently pulled her hand down, rubbed it gently in my palm, and said with a slight sigh: "But what I said is also the truth!" N kept silent, just staring blankly at the long dawn mist outside the window.Suddenly she laughed to herself, turned her face to me and said, "Sister, if you have a child, I'll be your babysitter, and I—no, the two of us will feed the child until it's white and fat, and become the number one baby in the world." A sweet little baby." This completely stupefied me.I don't understand why N has these thoughts.However, the shadow of my "Xiao Zhao" also appeared in front of my eyes. I barely held back my tears and lowered my head. N also looked down at me in bewilderment, and caressed my hand anxiously.I forced a smile and said: "It's nothing. But, sister, you think too well, too much. ..." "Shouldn't it?" N's tone was a little defensive. "In front of us is a new world, we have to start a new life; naturally, there are still difficulties, but a new world is always a new world." I raised my head, sighed, and sincerely said to N: "You are right, why don't I think so. But I have experienced too much ups and downs, and I dare not have too optimistic thoughts. ,—and..." I paused, forced a smile, and pressed N's hand to my face. "And what? Sister, and what?" I smiled and reluctantly replied: "Besides, I'm different from you, I can't compare with you." N stared at me in astonishment.Although the clothes are sandwiched, I can feel her heart beating differently. I didn't say a word, just moved her hand to press on my chest.After a while, I said dejectedly: "Here is a heart full of scars..." "Sister!" N only called out, and then hid her face in my arms, as if she wanted to see my scarred heart.At this time, a feeling of pleasure and bitterness filled my whole body, and I seemed to murmur to myself: "Women often use a kind of cotton ball to insert sewing needles of different sizes. My eldest sister has Let me pass one, which is in the shape of a heart. My heart is just such a worn-out needle!" N suddenly raised his head, his eyes were shining, and his teeth were biting his lips.I know she is wronging me.But she loves me like this, which makes me sad even more.My voice was a little choked up and I said: "Sister, you still don't know my life experience. I had a lover who was worth sacrificing everything to love him... But at that time, I was young, confused,... Later, there was a chance for me to redeem my sins, and I loved him a hundred times and a thousand times more than before, but the evil environment did not allow..." "Where is he now?" N broke in suddenly. "I don't know—" I lowered my head, and a few tears fell, "Someone told me that he—he is no longer in this world!" "No!" N said resolutely, hugging me hard. "Sister, they lied to you; they lied to you, so that you would give up and obey them. I know they always use this trick. Sister, I will search for you, and I will search all over the world for you. Get him out and give it back to you!" "Okay—" I said these two words, but couldn't continue.I stared at her, she is so naive, enthusiastic, optimistic, she has only tasted a little of the bitterness and ugliness of the world.If I keep pouring cold water on her heart, isn't that a sin?I decided to end this conversation, so I smiled, pushed her up and said, "Okay. But it's up to people, and I still have a lot of things to do quickly. But, sister, if you love me and trust me, you have to listen to me If so, be good..." "Listen to you, everything!" she said hastily. "But one thing..." I didn't let her continue, so I smiled and said, "You want to go with me, don't you? Okay, let's see!" I kissed her, turned around and left with a smirk. ... I immediately went to my fellow countryman and asked him to get a ticket within five or six days no matter what. The fellow scratched his scalp, and after a while he said: "One piece, maybe there is another way. However, it has to be dug up, and it will cost a little more..." "Money is not a problem," I said. "But don't tell my cousin.Hearing that it will cost more money, she may not be willing.Do the math for me, how much do you want in total?How far away is it, so I can prepare..." "Success! Leave it to me, and let your cousin go in five days. There is a commercial car, I know it, and I can just let her take it. The car is also half-new." "Is the commercial vehicle reliable? My cousin has never traveled far..." "Don't worry. There are also female passengers in the car, and a family member of mine also left in this car." I thanked the fellow, and let go of a stone in my heart: N This little devil is really blessed!