Chapter 38 December 30

Either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, I am leaving this house.I lived there for more than six months.I usually have no feelings for it, but now I want to leave here, and suddenly I become attached to it; I remember an old saying: "It's always pitiful to think about it afterwards!" How much love, anger, sorrow and joy have been shared with me in this small room ,—a page that will never fade in my life history! I dreamed back last night that I didn't know what happened today, and I didn't think that I would have to leave tomorrow or the day after tomorrow; but I heard the sound of the rain hitting the banana leaves, and the mourning strings of the third wife of the officer in the same courtyard singing the erhu of Beijing opera, I suddenly had a sour and spicy feeling of pleasure.I feel that I am still a living person with vitality, with emotions, thoughts, compassion, that is, love.

The bleak and sad syllables can cleanse the filth even more; I suddenly feel that the third wife of the officer is not unlovable and pitiful. However, I will soon say goodbye to all this! I'm going to a strange place, the so-called University District.I may see the shadow of me six years ago among many students; I may see young people like me who are tempted, forced, and helpless, step by step on the road to destruction!Is there anything more cruel than this in the world?Bring back your accursed past and set it before you to chew it all over again! Probably because of this, I became more attached to the house where I had been blind dated for six months?

I want to know who came up with the idea to manipulate me like this! This morning, when F came to visit me, he talked about this new job transfer. I still didn’t believe it. He congratulated me: “Going over there for a change of air is better than being here every day to be on the lookout for people’s plotting. Isn’t it better?” For his consolation, besides smiling, is there anything else to say? Only then will people without a soul feel that "it's so much better to change the air over there"! I would rather "beware of other people's plots every day"; in the struggle, at least I can feel a little bit of life.I almost wanted to spit at him with all my might, you dumbass with no winks!

Guangjing also felt that my face was not right, and F changed the subject again: "Are you in good health now? I only got the news the next day—oh, the night of the twenty-seventh, I heard that you were admitted to the hospital, so I never came to visit. Where is the injury?" "It's not a big deal, but I scratched a little skin." I replied calmly. "But do you still remember the face of the murderer?" F seemed to be very concerned, and leaned over his head and whispered, "People suspect that it was ordered by that crooked face." "Who knows! I don't want to know at all." I replied with a smile, and at the same time felt that F's behavior was suspicious. "That afternoon, I was a little uncomfortable, but an old classmate from the past insisted that I go to have fun, and it was inconvenient to refuse. I really didn't expect a person to suddenly appear at the corner of H Street, and he stretched out his hand to shoot," I pointed Zuoxi, "It seems to be aimed at this place. At that time, I also fainted from fright, and fell to the ground——I later found out that I just scratched my skin."

"It's dangerous! Fortunately, the murderer's marksmanship is poor!" "I'm afraid he didn't intend to kill me." I pretended not to mind, and smiled again, "So he shot me once, and he left when he saw me fall. I think he came with me. Just kidding, at most I want to give me a little warning! I know that I am too self-willed sometimes, and it would be good for me to get a little warning. I should thank him." It seemed that my attitude was quite beyond F's expectation. He stared at me with wide eyes and remained silent for a while. "It's in the hospital. It's annoying. They're really nosy. At first they asked me why I was beaten. I said it was a robber, but they didn't believe me. They talked about it behind my back and invented a reason for me: jealousy! Thanks to their cleverness , I guessed it right away!"

"That's really unreasonable!" "No!" I laughed. "Guess what will happen after I hear such an argument? Hey, I said to the two nurses: Surely you guessed right, but don't say anything about it; it's not good for you if you say it out! F, you see, my method what? It turned out to be very effective! " I said and giggled again.I know that my playful and charming back then was rare in recent months.If F came here with "something to do", then when he returned, he would still be empty-handed. In fact, I really didn't waste my time trying to figure out who was behind the scenes.Both sides are possible.Moreover, even if I know who did it, what should I do?In vain to provoke a second shooting.When Shunying sent me to the hospital that day, I told her not to take it seriously.

But now that I am transferred to work in the so-called university area, I think it is more vicious than assassinating me!I really want to know whose idea this is. It won't work if you don't go.I just want to wait one more day and leave the day after tomorrow. I also knew that the shot at me declared that the secret war between Fatty Chen and G had been resolved.As I expected, it ended peacefully.