Chapter 29 November 30

It took a day and a half to find K.He was going uphill at Lianglukou, and when we met, I grabbed him. "What a fluke, I met it today." I didn't hide my joy at all. He took out a handkerchief to wipe his face, and then said: "Long time no see, you have lost weight, at least a little haggard. Have you ever been sick? The weather is too bad, and many people have serious colds." "I'm not sick, but I'm not in a good mood." I made up my mind to confess to him. "When did you leave that newspaper office? I failed to find you twice. What about that room is also confusing."

"Oh——" he wiped his face with a handkerchief for the second time, and after a long time, he finally showed his face and said, "I still work there. But——I'm not in good health recently, and I took a period of leave." "I left you a note, please come to my house to talk about it..." "I didn't see it." He said quickly, wiping his face with a handkerchief for the third time.This time, I just felt that it was not necessary for him to wipe his face frequently, and it was a bit strange;——he used this to cover up his unnatural look, and he obviously had something about me.

"I went to the C-S Association the day before yesterday and yesterday, and there was no sign of you. If I don't see you again today, I will suspect that you are missing." "Where would it be..." He smiled, moved away, and continued to go up the slope. Seeing that I was also going up, he asked, "Don't you want to go down? This slope,—hey!" "I'll walk with you. I have something to tell you." I still answered his evasiveness with a frankness.He nodded his head, stopped, but walked slowly again, with his face facing forward, his reserved attitude was obvious.I ignored it and just said as I thought in my heart: "I have already found your friend who was arrested a few days ago. When we met, I realized that he is not someone else, but—"

"Is he in danger?" interrupted K., stopping. "I don't know now. Probably not." K sighed in disappointment and walked on again. "In the past eight or nine days, I have seen him almost every day, and we have been together every day. He mentioned you and Ping, and asked me to greet you on his behalf, thank you, and wish you a bright future. I hope you..." "But," K. interrupted me again, "you said just now that you didn't know if he was in danger, and now you said that you were with him every day; since you see him every day, why don't you know if he is in danger? "He stopped, and fixed his eyes on my face.

I saw someone near me, and I pulled him forward, and replied in a low voice: "Don't worry, listen to me. Then things changed again, and he was moved to another place,--a prisoner was changed." I haven't found out what the place is, whether it's good or bad. But guessing, it's probably not dangerous." "You haven't seen him since you changed places?" "How can we meet? I don't know where he is at the moment." K stopped suddenly, looked at me half-believingly, and strode forward, ran a relatively steep slope in one breath, and stopped at a flat place overlooking the Jialing River.

This area was originally very quiet, with only a few mansions of diplomats and dignitaries, and few pedestrians.I think this is a good place to talk, but the weather is not good, the clouds are everywhere, the wind is cold, and it looks like it will rain. "I've been looking for you all over the past two days, K.," I said calmly, standing diagonally across from him, "to tell you about his situation in detail. That's what he asked me to do." K. nodded , but asked again: "He is inside, but he is quite free? You can look for him, or you can talk casually? Are you being very polite to him?"

"Of course they are useful. But I am the only one who can meet him every day and stay together. They appointed me to do this. This gives us a good chance." "Oh—so it's... like this!" "He's not guilty. He's in there and he hasn't confessed to anything. If someone of high standing bails him out, he has an eighth chance of getting out. K., can you find bail for him?" K didn't answer in silence, he glanced at me, but then lowered his head to look at the sails on the Jialing River.Apparently, he took the attitude of "letting go of it" to my words, and maybe even suspected that I was here to test him.This can not blame him, the responsibility should be borne by me.

"Perhaps you feel that my words are not commensurate with my status. But if a person's situation is complicated, his heart is also complicated. K! I remember you said that you have a good friend who has been through thick and thin. He You once had a lover, and then they separated. When your friend told you about his lover, he didn't hate her, but he never forgot her. Of course, you understand what happened to your good friend, K., but you Do you know who that girl is?" K glanced up at me, and said hesitantly: "Could it be—you—" I hurriedly said, "Yes, I am that woman! He—Xiao Zhao—me and I met again this time, but in that situation But it is cruel enough: he is a prisoner, and I am a guard. But it is also miserable enough: although his body has lost his freedom, he still has many close friends like you. As for me, I have nothing but shame and guilt Oh! K, if you became me, serving tigers and wolves and dealing with fox ghosts every day, and suddenly someone who once loved you and has not forgotten you fell into your arms, what would you do? If you knew With this feeling in mind, do you still think that what I said just now is commensurate with my so-called identity, or is it not commensurate?"

At first, K. pretended not to be very interested, but in fact (I dare to say this), he chewed and tasted every word I said; afterward, his eyebrows furrowed slightly, and his eyes flickered. , asked in an impatient tone: "So, what's your idea now?" "Idea? Oh, you ask my idea? But let's not beat around the bush, shall we?" K smiled: "Then, please start..." "Your attitude is wrong!" I was a little angry. "I have already said what I should say. Now we should discuss some practical issues and some specific methods." "What practical problems?"

"Don't pretend, okay?" "Don't be in a hurry, I'm sorry. . . I hate it, it's raining." K wiped his face with his hand, then raised his face to see if it was raining. "Don't worry too much. But I really haven't figured it out..." "Haven't figured out if I'm real or not,—have you?" "Oh! You really..." K. felt a little embarrassed. "That's not the problem." "Obviously here!" I felt that my voice had changed a bit, and I couldn't restrain my passion. "However, K., I have a question for you: Is my relationship with him, compared with your relationship with him, which side is deeper and which side is shallower?"

K smiled bewilderedly and shook his head. "But here it is again, you don't answer: Well, let me tell you. He didn't tell me about you until the end. I don't need to tell you what the reason is. You understand it in your heart. But now I'm taking the place of Xiao Zhao was discouraged. He gritted his teeth and endured the torture without humming a word. He recognized that his former lover hadn't degenerated to the point of not being a human being, and desperately hoped that they would cooperate with each other. What is in front of you is you, for half a day, still hiding your head and showing your tail, half-deaf, half-deaf, and hesitant! I’m afraid that taking such a risk for half a day will drag you down for the rest of your life! You are still comrades, damn it, don’t worry, Babaer is looking for you. only me!" "Forget it, forget it; please forgive me." K. looked around anxiously. "Oops! This rain may not be big! Don't be too careful, I always blame my temper for being too bad-no, it's not the first time we meet, I've always been this slow person. But today we still choose what matters. Let me tell you first, how do you think about this matter?" At this time, the raindrops became thicker and thicker; if we stood any longer, the police over there would pay attention to us-not to mention we couldn't bear it. "How,—so I'm here to discuss with you—" I said as we hurried downhill, "He, you know what—what kind of social relations are here, but I—don't I know!" K just walked away without speaking.The rain had turned into a thin mist, and fortunately we were also on the street.Stopping in front of a shop, K. turned to me and said: "Where are we going?" "It's up to you." I was wondering if there was any suitable place nearby. "I still have something to do," K said after pondering for a while, "I can't draw conclusions from what I just talked about just now. Let's talk about it later. However, I'm afraid I won't be able to do it without some definite news about him?" "Of course. This is my business. Tomorrow—where shall we meet?" Seeing his hesitation, I added, "Come to where I live,—how? My address has long been left to You, you go to the newspaper office to find it!" Seeing him go to the Shangqing Temple, I seemed to have something else to tell him, but I couldn't remember it for a while; I stood there for a while, and then I stepped on a rickshaw. Go to Shunying to find out.