Chapter 26 November 25

In the past four or five days, I don't know what I have done.I even forget the days, and sometimes I feel that those things are far away, and I don’t turn over the diary, it’s a bit blurry; but there are also times when I seem to go back to the "past", and the agitated emotions at that time seized me , don't let him breathe a sigh of relief. Moreover, the surrounding scenery is also changing from time to time, and it is deliberately contradicting me.The day before yesterday, I was ordered to move out of the "special zone" and returned to my old apartment; when I was "ordered", to be honest, I was really happy--believe my "struggle for the initiative" has already paid off, and I have not yet been accepted. If you step on people's feet, you can only bear pity.However, this feeling of "spontaneity" disappeared as soon as I entered my apartment; the obese wife of the second landlady disgusted me, and the coquettish talk of the third wife of the officer in the same courtyard made me even more angry. Rats run rampant even more unscrupulously... In the middle of the night, when I dreamed back and heard the wind whimpering outside the window, I felt mixed feelings. Is there any direction in this heart, and is there a place in this body?

Yes, in the past few days, I have indeed done a little bit of what I call "strive for the initiative".On the twenty-second day, with the determination of "breaking the boat", I asked for a chance to clean myself up and - "revenge".Knowing who was behind the sudden change in the "Xiao Zhao incident", I exposed it positively and muddied the water in the tank. Then, wouldn't it be easier for the person who spoke for me to speak up?This plan was thought up during the period of "waiting for orders", and after direct and indirect "efforts", he made "contact" with Fatty Chen, and then started.

Regarding "unable to complete the mission", I am willing to be punished, however, "Xiao Rong also has to bear some responsibility", - I used their usual bloody method to invite them to "enter the urn", - "Why did she Want to destroy my credit once, twice, three times in front of Xiaozhao? Why does she want to make out of nothing, saying that I have three or four men at the same time, and that I can get a bonus of several thousand yuan for this job? Doesn't she know that if Xiaozhao Zhao has doubts about me, so it's not easy for me to carry out my work?..."

"Since there is such a situation, why didn't you report it earlier?" "It's also my own ignorance to blame. There were only seven or eight days in total, and I was still in the dark until the last day. I was always surprised by Xiao Zhao's unpredictable attitude and sneering sarcasm, but how could I have expected it to be so?" The reason why Xiaorong was behind the scenes? In the next two days, I figured it out a little bit, but I didn’t investigate and understand what leaked from Xiaozhao’s mouth, and I couldn’t report it rashly! Now I know, eight Within a day, Xiaorong went behind my back four times,—about once every other day; she was getting a little clueless about her work, and she went to talk nonsense, and all previous efforts were wasted! Even if she had a personal grudge against me, she shouldn't This disregards the overall situation!" "Oh, according to what you say, you have suffered on behalf of others?" R said impatiently, but I could see that my defense had already taken effect.

"I don't dare to shirk my responsibility," I replied quickly, "I know that there are shortcomings in the work. However, if there is no damage from Xiaorong, under the correct guidance of the director, the grades may be even better." I paused, Estimating the hope that the situation will improve, he didn't have time to think, and went further, "It can't be said that there is nothing to gain in the past few days. At least his attitude is much more docile than when he first came." But R rolled his eyes and scolded impatiently: "Nonsense! Damn docile! What's the truth?"

"Oh, yes, there are." I was really embarrassed, and I couldn't see R's true intentions.When these characters are friendly, they may not be treating you well, and on the contrary, their expressions of stern voices may not necessarily be evil to you——if I guess it is a little bit worse, it is not a joke.Immediately, I calmed down and replied frankly: "In fact, there is a little bit. Secretary Chen and the others went to talk to him that day, and his behavior was not so bad. "Hmph, what did Secretary Chen say when he came back?" He seemed to be recalling: "Huh, do you think this is tame?"What kindness, that guy is really cunning!Did he confess, tell me! "

"But," I can only move forward at this time, I can't sweat back, "I also reported it last time, if I ask him directly, there will be no results, I have to slowly draw out his words..." R became angry, cut off my words, and asked, "Have you figured it out?" At this moment, if I continue to prevaricate with empty words, disaster will happen, but if I can come up with some "facts", it will immediately turn evil into good luck!I was born in a hurry, and I only cared about the danger in front of me, so I calmly replied: "Report: I have already obtained a little bit. I found out that he has two relationships here..."

I told K and Ping out! At that time, I actually did such a thing—not only harming K and Ping, but also betraying Xiao Zhao's entrustment, just to protect myself.Who wants to judge that I did this intentionally, then the injustice is too great, but when things come to an end, I can't hold back anymore, I sacrificed others! This was only three days ago.Only three days!However, the constant reproach of conscience for three days is more uncomfortable than three years.Am I going to be insane?I didn't have the courage to think about it.