Chapter 25 November 21

If one day yesterday one lost the "I" as "I" under the shock of thunder and lightning, then today is a bit of a shock.That nightmare last night seemed to save me from depression and numbness, it was really a fault! I dreamed that Xiaozhao and I were carrying out Xiaozhao's "fantasy" when the electric light went off work at dusk!I still dressed as before, but Xiao Zhao dressed up as a woman.Hand in hand, we made our way out of the last line of guards—but, within a stone's throw of the tiger's lair, the pursuers came, and... shot, and I was shot. When I woke up from the pain, it felt like something was stabbing my left flank.

It was as if a bullet in this dream woke me up from the state of depression and numbness. I can think, feel happy and angry, and calmly remember:—— Yesterday, at ten o'clock in the morning, before I made my last effort, I met Xiao Zhao; at that time, I overestimated him, and I never thought that this time my meeting with Xiao Zhao would be a forever farewell, (although These two words may be a little too much, who dares to say that there will be no second "November 12th" comes suddenly, but it is probably rare to see again,) every word I say is to comfort him of. But Xiao Zhao is not so "optimistic".He seems to have a foresight—perhaps he draws negative conclusions from my words of "relief", thinking that I already know that the "inevitable end" is coming, and there is nothing else to say but empty "relief" .But whatever his guesses, he had no doubts about me at that time, as evidenced by his farewell orders.

He knows me: he talks about my strengths and weaknesses, he encourages me, hints that I "get out of it early."At last he entrusted me with two friends, to tell them his case. I just heard the names of these two people, and I was at a loss as to who they were; however, when Xiao Zhao explained how to find them, I suddenly realized——it was K and Ping!Xiao Zhao is so angry!I really shouldn't, especially because Xiao Zhao was not angry, and explained to me gently.And maybe because I'm too stingy after all, our meeting this time, in the heart-to-heart connection, can't help but have some grievances; if Xiao Zhao is still alive at this time, I don't know if he hates me? ...

Later, I went to find Fatty Chen, trying to carry out the "rescue" method I had planned in advance. I took advantage of those relationships that I thought were "beneficial" to me, and spread out all the things Shunying told me in front of Fatty Chen. I also "fabricated" a sentence: Shunying thought that "You Secretary Chen" would definitely be able to contribute Solve this difficulty for me. "Haha, what about this?" Fatty Chen pretended to be dumb, and answered out of the question, "Just joking. Besides, you know this kind of thing about the couple best, why—haha, come and ask me Woolen cloth!"

I was in a hurry, so I had no choice but to hold back my temper, and followed his slobbering evil look, pretending to be pretty: "You're talking nonsense, too,--excuse me? People are manipulating me in secret, don't you help me?" It’s a favor, but it’s also included in it to make fun of others——think about it, are you embarrassed?” "Ah, I—" Fatty Chen suddenly changed his tone of aggrieved, "People say that you are like this, but I haven't seen you,...ha," he came closer, leaned into my ear, and said softly, "What the hell What’s the matter? I heard that you lived in another room, but—haha, tell me how it goes, I’ve seen it too…”

"That's all their nonsense!" I pressed Huoxing hard and replied with a forced smile. However, Fatty Chen put his hand on my back, breathlessly uttering some words that were as nasty as his bad breath.I almost wanted to slap him a few times, however, for Xiao Zhao's sake, I had to endure his insult.No, I still held back a bag of tears and used the usual methods of women... I smirked and encouraged him to act wilder further with a gesture of ignoring... Even when he dared to go from not covering his mouth to not covering his hands, I also take a laissez-faire attitude. "Tease him again, and then I'll take advantage of the situation and threaten..." I was planning like this.

I deliberately half-closed my eyes, ready to "take him down" at the most appropriate time. Unexpectedly, this short-lived guy wanted to slip away after getting a bargain. "I have something to do, let's talk about it later," he said suddenly, patted his body and stood up. "Don't be busy! What's the matter?" I quickly grabbed her and forced a smile at the same time. "Haha, isn't that bad?" There was dishonesty in the fake foolishness.I tried my best to control the anger and grief in my heart. "Hey, you man! Don't pretend, what is my business? You don't need to bother, just see the opportunity to clear the air, don't you?" I felt that my voice was trembling a little.

"Hey, but, as I said, it's nothing,—no, as far as I see, you're all right. Ms. Shunying said,—ah, you women are always nervous." The word "you" in his words was like a needle piercing my heart!From the implication, it is clear that Xiao Zhao is a bit "not able".But I'm not yet disappointed. "I beg you to think about it together, Secretary Chen, I will always remember your benefits!" I forced a smile with my lips pursed, and sent a glance, but a tear fell down. "Probably nothing will happen..." He said vaguely, eager to get rid of it.

What else can I do? I have exhausted all my strength. At that time, I didn't expect that the change had already happened, and I thought Fatty Chen's attitude was that he would not be troublesome.Even when I went back and was stopped by the duty officer outside the office, I was still dreaming. The duty officer said, G is here and asked me to wait for him in the office. I felt a little uncomfortable, and really wanted to go in to see Xiao Zhao first, but I also felt that patience and caution should come first when you are surrounded by enemies.But I feel like people are secretly looking at me.

After waiting for more than ten minutes, G still did not come.I really feel like a thorn in my back. Another five or six minutes, here we go.There was a strange fierce light in the triangular eyes, and the first sentence was: "Oh, comrade, you have worked hard these few days!" So he grinned, "From today, you can rest and rest. There is nothing else to say, you wait for the order stop!" I put on an air of having known it long ago, and silently accepted the unexpected blow. But people's stares were so horrible that I hurried out of the office.I have nowhere to go.I should ask clearly: what is going on?But I don't. "Even if it's against the law, I don't care!"—I walked towards Xiao Zhao's room, thinking in my heart.

But when I opened the half-covered door, I almost screamed.Nothing left, an empty room!At that time, I concluded that Xiao Zhao had been killed.I was like nailed to the ground, unable to move. When Comrade Ma approached me quietly, I jumped all over again like crazy, and almost rushed towards him.I didn't recognize who it was, I just felt that something that harmed me was coming, and I wanted to defend myself. "This is for you." Comrade Ma whispered, handing over a small ball of paper. I stared at him for a while, and then I seemed to understand what he said, but I looked at the ball of paper and dared not take it.Comrade Ma smiled bewilderedly, and moved his hand; I suddenly reached out and snatched the ball of paper in my hand. A few scrawled words: "Don't worry, I won't implicate you!" Alas - I breathed a sigh of relief, but was immediately dissatisfied.I surrounded Comrade Ma at a loss with a series of questions.He couldn't answer them one by one.In fact, what I asked him at that time, how should he answer it!But from his unorganized words, I also saw something: they moved Xiao Zhao to another place, and there is basically no danger of life in front of them, but I don't know how they would treat him... After returning to my room, the officer on duty came to inform me again: Although Xiao Zhao has moved away, I still have to stay here for a few days, "waiting for orders"! Am I locked up?OK!Do as they please.However, I later learned that it was not considered confinement, and there was still "freedom" in physical movement. At that time, only a few words on the note left by Xiao Zhao filled my whole heart. ——Will it hurt me?What does that mean?Is it to express his heart for me, or to imply the nature of the development of the matter?But at that time I had no ability to think.I'm completely petrified. Reviewing what happened at that time today, I feel that although Chen Fatty had "bad intentions", he also hinted at what would happen to me. Unfortunately, I didn't think about it carefully at the time.As for Xiao Zhao, he was able to write such a few words to me in private, which shows that it is not very serious.There is still hope to find out his whereabouts.The problem was me.What is the so-called "command"? I have been waiting for more than 30 hours, and I haven't seen you yet; do you always wait like this, or? I should strive for the initiative, not just sit back and wait for changes... I should cheer up, there are still unrequited favors and resentments!