Chapter 19 November 15

No wonder Xiao Zhao asked me repeatedly, "What kind of dream is this?" Even today I feel this way myself.Aren't I more "boring" than Xiao Zhao: my "gourd" has both yin and yang, but up to now, I haven't figured it out myself——no, I still can't make up my mind, it's "yang" versus them, " What about "yin" to Xiao Zhao, or is it the other way around? But of course my "Tai Chi Diagram" also has a center, and this is me!And Xiao Zhao belongs to me. According to the result of "asking for instructions" last night, I packed up some necessary things and took them to Xiao Zhao.

The duty officer has received the order first and is directing the servants to look for a pair of planks.Seeing me coming, this guy put on a strange face and asked: "Comrade Zhao, if you think this plank is not soft, then go to your house and move your own..." "Don't be busy!" I interrupted his nagging, and put on a solemn face, "Leave it here and talk about it later." Temporarily, I was worried about Xiao Zhao's "emotions", so I had to find out first. Sure enough, I had the foresight. Although Xiao Zhao smiled when he saw me, the content of the smile was not simple.

"Oh, what's the matter?" I grabbed his hand and asked kindly.His hands are cold. He just smiled lightly and remained silent.So I said again: "Xiao Zhao, have you forgotten my instructions again? Hey, you are really going to grind me to death! I don't know which life's enemy it is..." I laughed sarcastically. "Now I'm going to perform the duties of a nurse. Anyway, this room is still spacious. I'll move in, so that you won't be bored all the time, okay?" He didn't seem to understand, he didn't say a word, and stared at me in a daze.

"Although there is an order from above," I whispered in his ear, "All preferential treatment; but, wouldn't it be better for me to move here with you? It would be more convenient to discuss something." "Is this your idea?" Just by hearing the voice, he knew that he was suspicious. I immediately gave him a clear answer: "It's their idea, but it's beneficial to us." "Oh, this—in a word, surveillance!" His expression was cold. "Xiao Zhao!" I felt as if a needle had been stabbed in my heart, I didn't expect him to be so disgusted, "You shouldn't doubt me..."

He immediately interrupted my words: "Forget it, forget it, do whatever you want, anyway, I'm a prisoner, and you are—" He suddenly shortened the last word and lowered his head. "What am I?..." I sneered, but my voice was trembling uncontrollably, "Xiao Zhao!" But he eased his breath again, and put his arm on my shoulder: "What I mean is that people who have lost their freedom have to be at the mercy of everything." "Then you mean to think—that I still have some freedom?" "Oh! Huiming, why are you so angry?" He suddenly called up my old name, and I almost suspected that something was wrong with my ears; but this name, sour, made me feel even more sad.I still like to hear it though.I pressed his hand and said, "Xiao Zhao, you used to call me 'Sister Ming', didn't you? I'm a month older than you, and you sometimes call me sister,...well, I want you to call me sister again." shout."

He wouldn't bark, but he was laughing—so innocently; and his eyes... I squeezed his hand tighter, and said involuntarily: "I have never forgotten the words you said to me in our last few days-even if there are thousands of bitterness among us, there should be some The sweetness of the day! Let us forget the bitter ones in the future and always remember the sweet ones! Xiao Zhao, you said this, do you remember it, but I will always remember it!" He didn't answer, but from his eyes, I could see that his heart was also beating faster and faster. "Who would have expected us to meet again. We have seen a play called "Second Dream" before, Xiao Zhao, this is our "Second Dream", isn't it?"

"It's not certain-hey, Huiming, it's not certain-yes." "Who says not sure, why can't you say sure? Xiao Zhao, I want you to say: definitely." "You want me to tell?" Xiao Zhao smiled wryly, "Hey, Huiming, you forgot where I am!" "How can I forget! But, Zhao, do you still remember the four words I told you yesterday? ——It depends on human effort!" He smiled strangely, pondered for a while, and said: "But I have been thinking about these four words for half the night and I still can't figure it out. What is the 'thing' and what is the 'why'?

You won't let me..." "Why don't you? Hey, you don't know how weird your temper is!" Xiao Zhao smiled wryly again, and raised her eyes, as if she was angry and didn't speak anymore. I thought about it for a while, and persuaded him gently: "Since you know where you are, why don't you think about it, is it good to just be irritable and angry? You should believe that people are so How much, let’s settle for a long time. You blame me for not letting you ask more questions, but you ask me how it ended when you opened your mouth. What do you think people will answer? If I had a number in mind, I wouldn’t Tell you? However, I am not completely confused, and I still have a rough plan in my heart; for example, you relax, just think this is my home, you are lonely, I will accompany you all day Now, what do you want, I will give you an idea. After a while, we will see the opportunity. You and I are still young, as long as we are good, this life may not be over? Xiao Zhao, my heart is in the past few days It was broken because of you, but you were still cold for a while, and hot for a while, I don’t know when I will understand. You shouldn’t be so cruel to me!”

Xiao Zhao quietly took my hand and put it on his heart. I felt his heart beating fast, and my heart softened for a while, but he said: "Ming! If you really agree with what you want, then naturally Good; but—they arrested a man, is it just for him to live, feed him, and add you to accompany him to pass the loneliness?" "Then naturally I want to get something from you..." "Get something?" Xiao Zhao became excited again. "Ming, I'm just—I blame you for always hesitating. Do you want me to report myself to the newspaper and write a letter of repentance?" "Maybe." I paused. "But, I'm afraid it's unnecessary." "So, if you want me to join the party, you want me to do you too—well, what do they do?"

"Not necessarily." I hesitated for a moment, and finally decided to take this opportunity to make it clear. "They want you to have a report—a list; anyway, that's what you know." "Oh!" Xiao Zhao laughed. "It turned out to be the same way! Ming, it turned out that they used softening methods and sent you here. They still wanted a list, report! They used torture, whipping, tiger benches, and hanging upside down; they also used soft coaxing. They came yesterday. The guy playing cards pestered me for a long time with his mouth full of honey. But what can I turn myself in to? I have no regrets. To report, I do have a 'Gonghe' report, and they can go to the head office Go and check. Ming, I have already answered this way, and now I can't have another answer. "

"Look at how excited you are again!" I grabbed Xiao Zhao's shoulder and scolded him softly, "This is not the time to be reasonable. The real problem is that they insist, we have to find a way to deal with it. " This sentence angered him again.He pushed me hard and said, "Are you telling me to lie and make false accusations? Are you telling me to frame some people for nothing?" At this moment, I don't know where a force came from, I was very calm, he wanted to push me away, but I went up to him, squeezed his hand and smiled. Seeing that he had calmed down, I insisted but said softly: "We must find a way, Xiao Zhao. Don't be so angry, let's study it with peace of mind, there will be no way." He closed his eyes and shook his head, then opened his eyes again and smiled wryly, "I'll write your idea, okay? Let Zhang San and Li Si just write nonsense, is that okay?" "Of course not," I still smiled. To cover up the anxiety in my heart, "It's still a big deal to be exposed later. Xiao Zhao, think again." Xiao Zhao frowned, stood up, sat down suddenly; then smiled at me strangely. The content of this smile is not simple, but I have no time to deliberate; I pretended to ignore it, but pointed at his complicated psychological state, Zhuang Rong said: "Xiao Zhao, didn't you say this to a good friend of yours? Words: When I took a wrong step and caused us to break up, you tried your best to persuade me to save me. Then we finally broke up, and you didn't hate me; after many years, you I still feel sad when I think of this incident, because you were unable to persuade me at that time. Xiao Zhao, you still don’t know how much pain my upside-down life has caused me after we broke up. If you can know very One or two, then you will also understand how uncomfortable I felt after hearing what your good friend said that day!..." I paused for a while, turned around, and then continued, I The voice also raised slightly, "Xiao Zhao, although it is uncomfortable, it is extremely happy! Xiao Zhao, you naturally understand why I have never been so happy! " As if I had exhausted all my strength, I leaned softly on his shoulder, unable to stop my heartbeat. Xiao Zhao's strong arms held my waist steadily, and he stared at me -- I knew that he was probably feeling uncomfortable and happy at the same time.Later he called me softly: "Ming-sister! But seriously, do you have any way to get the best of both worlds for the problem just now? Recently, my brain seems to be frozen, and it doesn't work anymore." Before I could answer, he said anxiously, "Did they give you a deadline? How many more days can you delay?" "They urged you today," I said in a low voice, "but Xiao Zhao, I still have a way to deal with the one or two-day deadline. As long as you realize that this matter must be dealt with randomly. Xiao Zhao, in the past You tried so hard to persuade me, but I didn't listen, which caused a lifelong hatred between us. Now I'm here to try to persuade you. Although the situation is completely different, my heart is similar to yours back then. Whether our lifelong hatred can be redeemed depends on what we do this time." Xiao Zhao nodded and didn't speak; after a while, he sighed and said, "I'm at your mercy, but let me think about it." "That's all right," I stood up, "I'll be here in a moment. I have something to do outside—" As soon as I got to the door, the door opened in. Comrade Ma leaned halfway in, holding a newspaper in his hand. I took the newspaper and threw it to Xiao Zhao: "Just read the newspaper, I'll be here in a while." Xiao Zhao rushed to my side, looked outside the door and said, "Is it okay? We talked a lot just now." "Irrelevant." I smiled. "His job is to keep an eye on people coming in and out." I turned around to leave, but Xiao Zhao held my hand again, and I turned to look at him, but he didn't speak, showing hesitation.After a while, he asked softly: "In the end, are you moving here?" "Whatever you like, I will do." "Naturally it's better to be together," Xiao Zhao said, avoiding my eyes, "but, I know I'm too hot-tempered, and if I stay together all the time, I might quarrel with you.——What you can imagine, in this situation In any case, my mood will not be so good, nor will I be so calm." "Then," I pursed my lips and smiled, "I should come here a few times a day." "But how do you sell the difference?" "Don't worry!" I shook his hand again, and then slowly put it down. "I have my own method, and I will arrange it myself. But, Zhao, don't hesitate any longer about what you just said." Xiao Zhao nodded, but looked at me as if he was extremely wronged. My heart softened for a while, and the boss couldn't bear it, and wanted to stay for a while to "comfort" him; but after thinking about it, I still left.I flew him a kiss by the door and smiled.