Chapter 12 twelve

Xingzi didn't fall asleep for a while until the middle of the night.When I got up in the morning, my mother had already gone to work, and milk and bread were already placed on the table, and even jam was spread on the bread. Xingzi knew that this was what Yiwen did, so he sat down at the table and ate it without saying anything. Yiwen came out of the kitchen, sat opposite Xingzi, and said, "How is the service, isn't it good? I would like to serve like this for more than fifty years." Xingzi smiled and said, "Today you turned your back on the customer." Yiwen said: "Don't dare, I'm just fighting for it. What do you think?"

Xingzi said, "I don't think so." Yiwen said: "Last night, how did you talk? Why are you crying?" Xingzi said, "How do you know I'm crying?" Yiwen said: "It's not that simple, the red eyes and the sagging face." Xingzi said, "What do you want to know?" Yiwen said: "I want to know if you guys have made a clean break." Xingzi said, "So what?" Yiwen said: "Yes, it gave me a chance." Xingzi's heart skipped a beat, and she glanced at Yiwen.Yiwen was staring at her with piercing eyes.Xingzi smiled and said, "It's too late. We've already settled the relationship."

Yiwen said: "Really?" Xingzi said, "Really." Yiwen said, "Does your mother know?" Xingzi said: "You don't have to move my mother, this is my own business." Yiwen lowered his eyes, fixed his eyes on his feet, paused and said, "Then I have nothing to say." Xingzi said: "You are still young, what are you in a hurry for?" Yiwen said: "This is my business, you don't need to educate me." Xingzi secretly laughed.But Xingzi felt that there was something about Yiwen that had moved her.Xingzi thought, what is that? Xingzi hurriedly finished his breakfast and went back to his room.Her mind is quite messy, and Xingzi Xiangren sometimes likes to create chaos to fill life.Whose mess am I now standing in?ground rice?Yiwen?Perfume?Mother?or yourself?Xingzi suddenly recalled the words of the old man at the foot of Huangshan Mountain: "Girl, you are standing at the threshold of your life, you have to be careful and make a good decision."

Xingzi thought, that blind man is really smart, he should pay more money to ask him how to handle this idea. When Yiwen entered the door, Xingzi didn't know.Until Yiwen walked up to her.She was startled. Xingzi said, "Why are you so sneaky?" Yiwen said: "You want to stay alone, but blame others." Xingzi suddenly saw him carrying his travel bag and dressed for going out, and asked in surprise, "What are you doing?" Yiwen said: "I've lived here long enough, it's time to go." Xingzi said: "Why is it so sudden, I have to wait for my mother to come back before I can leave."

Yiwen said: "No need, I feel that I am already unpopular. My advantage is knowing the interesting things." Xingzi said: "Don't do this. I must keep it for you." Yiwen said: "It's not good for you to stay, I will fight with you before that guy..." Xingzi was startled, and said, "What nonsense are you talking about?" Yiwen said: "Don't be nervous, I'll scare you." Xingyu said: "Listen to me, talk about your departure when mom comes back at night." Yiwen said, "Then you have to promise me one condition, tell me what happened between you and Ji. Your mother told me a lot yesterday, and I still want to hear from you."

Yiwen's words were very sincere and gentle, which made Xingzi suddenly feel a sense of confession.She really wanted to pour out all the pain, doubts and anxiety that had accumulated in her heart for a long time, as well as all kinds of anxieties caused by the reluctance to love and the inability to stop. Xingzi nodded.Yiwen sat opposite her.So a long and distant story was torn out inch by inch from the bottom of Xingzi's heart.When Xingzi talked about Shuixiang, she began to cry. Afterwards, she cried more and more, and finally she couldn't cry. Xingzi didn't know when Yiwen sat beside her, and she didn't know when she was held in Yiwen's arms.She buried her face in Yiwen's chest, crying very sadly.Yiwen kept stroking her hair and her shoulders.

Yiwen said: "You have been wronged greatly. It is not worth your memory, that water fragrance will always cast a shadow over the two of you." Xingzi cried, "Then what should I do?" Yiwen said: "Yongzhi's words are correct. Let him go to recuperate by himself, and you, naturally use a new life to wash away the pain in your heart." Xingzi said: But I am always concerned about Ji, I think I will feel sorry for him if I really leave him. " Yiwen said: "It is he who is sorry for you. It is he who ignores your feelings and finds Shui Xiang. It is he who does not value you. Since you have sworn never to marry him, why do you have such a platonic love and torture your body What? Don't you feel the urge of youth at all?"

Xingzi asked Yiwen to say this, and suddenly everything about Yongzhi's family last night appeared in his mind.She felt uncomfortable all over, and she couldn't help pressing her body closer to Yiwen. Yiwen began to kiss Xingzi, when Yiwen's mouth just touched Xingzi's lips, Xingzi had a feeling of being burned.She tilted her head back subconsciously.But when she met Yiwen's passionate gaze full of lust; Xingzi softened again.She felt a calling that transcended her mind and answered directly from the depths of her flesh.Xingzi lost her mind, she closed her eyes and sank into the enjoyment she had never experienced before.

Yiwen kissed her vigorously, Xingzi felt breathless but at the same time hoped that the kiss would last forever, after a long time, Yiwen finally put his hand on Xingzi's skirt button.Yiwen asked in a low voice: "Is it okay?" Xingzi replied eagerly: "I want you." When everything was over, Xingzi lay in Yiwen's arms, very excited.Xingzi thought, what's going on?How did I suddenly become a real woman?Why did I so recklessly give my most precious thing to this young man whom I met not long ago?Why am I so obsessed?However, all that is so good, so incredible, so happy.

Yiwen caressed Xingzi and said, "Xingzi, you seem to be very experienced." Xingzi said: "Shui Xiang told me everything. What about you? You seem to know a lot, so there is no Shui Xiang telling you what to do, right?" Also silent.Xingzi turned over and sat up.Xingzi said: "Have you ever? Who is she?" Xingzi shed tears unknowingly, Yiwen panicked and sat up too.He clumsily wiped away tears for Xingzi, and said, "That was a long time ago, it was just a game." Xingzi said, "Speak out." Yiwen said: "In the countryside, there was a mid-autumn festival, and everyone went back, only me and another girl were left. The two of us were bored, so we sat and talked together at night. One day some farmers came and told a lot of pornographic stories. .After they left, we couldn't help it and spent the night. That's it."

Xingzi said: "What happened later?" Yiwen said: "Later... when I was lonely, I lived together a few times. Later, I was admitted to university, and she was recruited to the county guest house as a waiter. We all knew that we couldn't get together, so let's forget it. In the future No contact either." Xingzi fell silent.Wuzi thought, what did Shuixiang say about the first time she and Ji had sex?How brilliant the peach blossoms are. Yiwen hugged him again.Yiwen said: "Xingzi, I swear to you, I don't even have a romantic relationship with her. I have never loved her, and she has never loved me. We are together, just a need. That is caused by the objective environment. ." Xingzi lay down again.Xingzi thinks that things are actually that simple.Sometimes people make such complicated preparations for such a simple matter.There is only one goal for men and women to go straight to, so why create some intermediate links?What is the meaning of love?What's missing if you don't love?Nothing more than that. Xingzi consciously had a kind of thorough understanding.She felt that she had kept an unimportant thing under close guard for many years, and when she took it out one day, she realized that it was worthless. When Yiwen approached Xingzi again, Xingzi still greeted him enthusiastically.Xingzi thinks that this is man, this is woman, this is enjoyment, and this is lust; The most secret, the most desired and the most despised, the most real and the most illusory. Yiwen said: "We will get married as soon as we graduate. We need to get a marriage certificate before graduation, so that I can not be separated too far away. Do you agree?" Xingzi nodded and snuggled into his arms docilely.Xingzi suddenly felt that he didn't have a sense of dignity about his marriage, and felt a little funny.Xingzi said to herself: "Oh, am I the wife of this little boy?"