Chapter 8 Eight

Xingzi hasn't seen Xiaozi for a long time.Although Xingzi thinks that he will never marry Xingzi in this life, Xingzi can't get rid of his attachment to Xingzi.This attachment is accumulated over time.The deeper the attachment, the heavier the pain, but on the surface, Xingzi always puts on an air of indifference. Xingzi often thinks.What would happen if there had never been water fragrance in the world? After thinking about it every time, Xingzi can answer himself very clearly, that there will be woody incense, fire incense, earthy incense and so on.I couldn't resist that temptation.

Facing the love affair between Shuixiang and Ji, Xingzi behaved calmly for a long time.In front of people, no one could see what hurt she had suffered.Someone asked her, Xingzi, why did you flirt with me?Xingzi always replied generously: "What, I've never been on good terms with Xie. We're just ordinary friends. If you don't believe me, ask Xie." Xie didn't feel that he had anything to do with Xingzi.I think it's fortunate that I didn't speak to Xingzi rashly, otherwise it would be too embarrassing for her to block her back.This is what I told Xingzi later.

But when Xingzi was alone with Ji.But he couldn't hide the anger in his heart, but he couldn't remain the same, Xingzi had to work hard to suppress the tears that would burst out of his eyes at any time.For this reason, Xingzi tried his best to avoid him. Xingzi was cold, but he could feel it.But Jie thinks this is because Xingzi has a girlfriend, and he is afraid that Shui Xiang will be unhappy if he gets in touch with him too much.I just think that Xingzi is very understanding.It was not until one night a few months later that I realized that it was not just these. That day, Ji and Xingzi went to the company for a meeting, which lasted until night.Jie still sent Xingzi home as before.The room was no longer buzzing with him as it used to be.It's so strange.Consciously seek out topics.But Xingzi always uses the simplest words to answer yes or no.

He said, "What's the matter with you, what's the matter?" Xingzi said, "Nothing." Ji said, "Did I accidentally offend you? But I don't seem to have done anything?" Xingzi said: "Of course you didn't offend me. Besides, what if you offended me?" He said, "Then why are you so indifferent to me?" Xingzi said: "It's funny, we are just ordinary friends, what's cold or warm?" Ji said, "This is not like you in the past." Xingzi said, "Aren't you still the old you?" Ji said, "Everything you say seems to be aimed at me. I don't understand."

Xingzi said: "Yes, you don't understand! Is there something that a smart person like you doesn't understand? You just know how to pretend. You pretend to be more like anyone else. You pretend to be more real than anyone else. I hate you !hate me!" Xingzi finally exposed himself.She burst into tears and couldn't make a sound. However, Ji was silent for a while.He realized that he had done something wrong.Xingzi's tears told him the girl's love for him. He hesitated for a long time and said, "Xingzi, I don't know, I really don't know. I just don't think I'm worthy, I'm not qualified to love a good girl like you."

Xingzi was still crying, but the three words "I hate you" kept coming out. Ji sent Xingzi home silently all the way.I was a little confused, but the chaos soon passed. Xingzi also acted as if he didn't enjoy it when he saw Xie the next day.But their intercourse seemed unnatural.Finally one day, Xingzi and Li had nothing to say.When encountering each other, they can at least nod to each other.Sometimes, there is not even such a hint, but this is a secret between Xingzi and Xingzi, as if it is a tacit understanding, Xingzi and Xingzi do not want others to know the tension between them, when there are many people, everyone mingles and laughs together , still as free as ever.

The days went on indifferently with the seasons.When Xingzi tried his best to hide the pain in his heart and put on a free and easy look, he gradually became more and more real: as if he was used to the facts in front of him.The pain in my heart gradually became numb.What is Ji, Xingzi thought, it's just that he is the only one out of this group of people who is unique. If you change a group of people, there may not be no one better than Ji.It's just that I haven't encountered it yet.Xingzi thought this over and over again, and his life became much more relaxed and calm. But Xingzi noticed Ji's depression.For a long time, I was lonely and lonely, and I didn't see him and Shui Xiang going in and out.People have said that Shuixiang and Jiqi were proposed by Shuixiang.Xingzi was too lazy to listen to these discussions.Xingzi thought it had nothing to do with me.

Suddenly one day, Yongzhi, a mutual friend of Xingzi and Yan, was injured at work and Yongzhi's leg was broken. At that time, Yongzhi's mother had passed away and Yongzhi's father was still in the labor camp.Yongzhi cooks his own dinner every day, and I should help Xingzi for a while. When Xingzi arrived at Yongzhi's house, Ji happened to be there.He sent Yongzhi to the hospital to get a plaster cast, and then returned home with Yongzhi on his back.I have been with Yongzhi since the afternoon, and Yongzhi later told Xingzi that I told Yongzhi about the three of him, Xingzi and Shuixiang that afternoon. Yongzhi said that he had just broken up with Shuixiang at that time. Love only stars.And he will never give this feeling to others easily again.Xingzi refuted Yongzhi at that time and said: "You are here to match us under his orders." Yongzhi said no, no, no, and said that he had no face to pursue you anymore, and he just put you in his heart. Xingzi just sneered answer.Xingzi thinks you miss me because you lost your girlfriend?

Xingzi cooked a pot of noodles for Yongzhi that day.Xingzi has never been in the kitchen, so Yongzhi said: "I don't know if Xingzi will cook the noodles into gnocchi for us to eat What Xingzi cooks is naturally noodles.She served Yongzhi a bowl. "Xingzi sat on the edge of the bed without moving his face or moving his hands. Xingzi had no choice but to serve him a bowl too. Xingzi put the noodles in front of Jie, and said to Yongzhi: "I still have something to do, I have to go back. " Yongzhi said, "It's getting dark, so you can see her off." Xingzi said: "No need, I'm used to walking alone, but I still feel tired walking together."

Ji said, "Then I don't have to talk." Yongzhi laughed.Xingzi gave him a sideways glance, and walked out the door amidst his laughter. After walking a few steps, Xingzi felt that Xingzi was behind him, Xingzi didn't turn his head, and walked straight to the station. Sure enough, Xingzi also arrived at the station after a while. Xingzi looked at Xingzi, but Xingzi pretended not to know him.Ji took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, tore off the pack, and wrote a few words hastily on it.He walked towards Xingzi for a while, and he handed the cigarette case to Xingzi.Xingzi hesitated for a moment, but took it anyway.

Xingzi opened the cigarette case, and saw the eight words on it, "I knew this before, so why did I do it in the first place." The pen was heavy, and the word "He" was so heavy that it broke the paper. Xingzi's tears couldn't help gushing out again.Xingzi felt wronged and panicked.This is exactly what Xingzi wanted to say a long time ago, but he took it and said it.And who should have done it in the first place?Xingzi didn't want to let Jie see that she still shed tears because of him, so when the car came, he squeezed into the car at a very fast speed. Jie sent Xingzi all the way home; as expected, Jie did not speak all the way.Xingzi thought about it, he and I have already turned the page, there is no need to get entangled with him anymore.That being the case, why bother to be angry with him all the time?Wouldn't it be better to be generous.Xingzi thought so, the moment she entered the house, she turned her head, smiled faintly at Ji, and said, "Thank you." Xingzi and Jie resumed talking naturally.But Jie didn't know at all, how Xing cherished the cigarette case with the eight scrawled characters written on it.It was a Pegasus cigarette case. In the end, Ji and Shui Xiang broke up, and it was Shui Xiang who proposed the breakup.Shui Xiang's uncle firmly opposes Shui Xiang looking for someone with such a background, and warns Shui Xiang that marrying him will not only affect her Shui Xiang's future, but it will also have bad results for her children.Shui Xiang felt scared after thinking about it, so she retreated.He worked hard for it.He said that we are no longer in an ordinary relationship, and I have a responsibility to you.Shuixiang told her parents again.Her parents knew that their daughter was no longer a virgin, and in a rage, they approached the family and demanded compensation.Helpless, Shui Xiang's family proposed 20 yuan for one time, and asked how many times Shui Xiang had done it, and Shui Xiang said more than 20 times.I feel sick.He knew that he had not slept with Shui Xiang ten times.But I don't want to bargain this time.Ji paid Shui Xiang five hundred yuan, and Shui Xiang went to Ji's house alone to withdraw the money.Shui Xiang said: "I know you've suffered a loss, I'll let you have enough fun today." With a sullen face, he took off Shui Xiang's clothes in twos and threes, and that day he tossed Shui Xiang so loudly, I am also exhausted.Xie thought, I would hate women, and when Shuixiang left, her steps were unnatural, Shuixiang put her hands between her legs with a sad face and said to Xie, "You hurt me so much." Xie smiled viciously. , I had an unprecedented pleasure in my heart. I said: "Five hundred yuan, there must be a price to pay. " Shuixiang once told Xingzi about this scene; Xingzi felt sick when he heard it.Shui Xiang said: "Actually, I pretended to be in pain. That day was better than the previous ones, and it was very enjoyable." Shui Xiang married someone else within a few months.Soon the transfer station spread the word that Shui Xiang asked her husband to have sex with him every night, causing the young man to buy aphrodisiac everywhere.Shui Xiang said that he was much worse than Ji.Shuixiang's indifference made him feel ashamed.Fortunately, Shui Xiang was transferred to the repair shop soon. On the day Shui Xiang bid farewell, she even went to find him once.Shui Xiang's eyes showed pity for Ji, but there was no trace of pain. Jie later said to Xingzi: "I only needed her physically. And I had a premonition that sooner or later I would have sex with her, but I didn't expect that the molecular reason was not me personally, but my father. Lian Shui If a fool like Xiang looks down on me, who else will I look up to?" Xingzi said: "Actually, you are as stupid as she is. Only a fool would care about anything else about you and not about yourself." Ji asked, "But you're a smart person, aren't you?" Xingzi said, "So what?" He said, "Then do you care?" Xingzi said word by word: "I don't care about your father, but I care that you used five hundred yuan to be the husband of a woman many times." Ji was shocked, thinking that Xingzi knew all this, which really made him feel ashamed.That day, Jie almost ran away from Xingzi.I think Xingzi, you really dare to say it. A few days later, when I saw Xingzi, I still felt flushed, which made Xingzi feel a little bit of pleasure.After the pleasure is over, what spreads in Xingzi's mind is the peach blossom like clouds and clouds.