Chapter 36 A contest of two wills (3)

1. The second interrogation This chapter describes the second interrogation.The second interrogation went a step further than the first.No one informed K, K took the initiative to find the door.During the entire interrogation process, there was no judge or audience, and there was no court session.However, this is indeed a self-reliant and silent interrogation; K encounters the law again, and the trial of the soul develops in depth.How meticulous the arrangement of the law is, and how strong the atmosphere hints people encounter when they walk into the detective story! After the first interrogation, after the law was established in K's mind, K became more restless.Step by step, the law has transformed his life into a simple life, and all other lives are permeated by it, or give way to it.So he went there again the next Sunday morning.He has no choice. Can he not accept trial now?After arriving there, the court did not hold a session, so he left unwillingly, as if he still wanted to make something.What is he trying to get?Isn't it just to go deep into the interior of the law and further establish the existence of the law?Now he is so self-aware and has found some ways, so he knows how to do it without others pointing him out.Fa's strategy is to lure the enemy to go deep, and K's strategy is to follow the tiger's den, and the two fit perfectly.Superficial misunderstandings are actually the result of persuasion.What is pursued internally and externally is actually one and the same.

Once the law took root in K's soul, its unsightly true content was revealed.Since the court is set in the world, it cannot escape the absurdity and ugliness.The law even exaggerates the material it constitutes in front of people: obscene books are placed in the courtroom as a legal code, the judges are sneaky, and the subordinates are messy.In this way, Fa shows the tragedy of human beings, and also shows the magic of dialectics, and tells K in a wordless way: even at this point, people still have to judge themselves, because this is the only way to be saved.K, who was full of sense of justice, was shocked, and he wanted to fight against the corruption of the law.What is the essence of this struggle?The essence is not those floating concepts in K's mind; the essence is the reverse movement in the depths of K's soul, that is, the awareness of his sin.The more the struggle, the deeper the person, the clearer this consciousness becomes.Didn't he reach the point where he couldn't walk an inch in the end and had to be supported by two people to walk?It seems that K fell into the trap of the law, but in fact, the law made K use instinctive self-deception to guide himself to self-knowledge.After the hideous entanglement with the footman's wife outside the court office, K. entered the office again.The location of the office is separated from the world, so there is no ugliness here, and it can be said to be a relatively pure place. Only after K entered did he realize that he couldn't stay in such a place, because there was no air for him to breathe inside, and even his brain was gradually paralyzed in such an atmosphere, and he stopped thinking.This is the experience he gained from going deep into the tiger's den.Combining K’s experience outside and inside the courtroom, he formed the following impression: the law cannot really be entered, the end is a complete void, and exploring to the end must meet "death"; the law is not the same as "death" What is utterly empty, realized in the world, is nourished by worldly vices; the law is real because so many law enforcement officers serve it, and so many criminals have relations with it.

The Hth interrogation allowed K to greatly improve his understanding of the law with the experience of escaping death.While his fear of the law deepened, he also realized that "he still has autonomy" because everything he did came from free choices. 2. Ambiguous awareness The purpose of K's advance to the interior of the law is to expose the corruption of the law, so that one day he can overturn the charges against him and defeat the law. This is how K recognizes his behavior.This superficial or rational awareness is a self-deception that runs through.Self-deception does not hinder people's true understanding of the world, but promotes people's understanding, because beneath the rational understanding, the deep-seated subconscious mind that is in reverse movement is flowing at the same time.This vibrant subconscious fundamentally determines K's life activities.What it implies to K is the opposite: man cannot finally defeat the law, man must fail, man's failure is a crime, man can commit a crime, and he can only realize it in the act of committing a crime.Thus a situation emerged: the self-deception backed by rationality grasped the general direction of K's actions, and the spontaneous movement of the subconscious formed the rhythm of K's actions.When the servant's woman came into contact with K, she showed him Fa's dirty inside story, showing off and seducing him to the fullest.If K had been a perfectly reasonable person, he would have walked away immediately out of nausea.But K is not a monotonous and rational person, so his behavior runs counter to his original intention.When he met the woman, he put aside his pre-determined mission and fooled around with the woman first (elegantly called: grabbing the woman from the judge).Later, he was jealous of the college student who was the alternate law enforcement officer.He is always involuntary, farther and farther away from the rational goal.This is the magic power of the Fa acting on him.Before he knew it, the confrontation with the law turned into a contest between two wills, a confrontation with his own rationality, and turned into a series of nonsense. In this nonsense, he understood the secret of the law and reached a compromise with the law. Unite.

The second interrogation has discarded the passive shell, and internal contradictions have become the only driving force. Therefore, compared with the first interrogation, it seems less confusing and more desperate.In the first interrogation of K, the main consideration was to get rid of himself, but this time it was to investigate the corruption of the court, which was completely proactive.At the same time, his obscene nature was exposed more and more fully than the first time.Sexual desire has become the irony of ideas, and the split personality has led to serious life dramas under the farce.When we say that this is an interrogation, we refer to this duality—both the continuing interrogation of K by the law, and the continued interrogation of K by the inner K against the outer K.The empty interrogation room, the unattended court session, the nonsense and jealousy between men and women, seem to be a kind of ridicule on the surface, but actually imply a serious nature.A man is stripped of all reason, even a reason and an excuse to die, and he has to live.But what the law requires is not purely relying on life, not being helpless, but to generate a reason from within oneself, to live with all your strength for this reason, and to negate this reason again in the process of living. When K arrived at the court, because no one cared about him, he had no choice but to make trouble by himself.He maliciously slandered the codes on the table, attacked the judicial system and the judges; The defendant also uttered wild words, making the law worthless.This time, he behaved like a shameless man, with the air of a street bum.This does not mean that he no longer uses his reason to dictate his actions.He's still on that relentless effort, and he does everything for good reason: he attacks the judiciary and judges to prove his innocence; he hangs out with women and fights over women to prove that the law is corrupt or broken It is the law; he humiliates the accused in order to declare the absurdity of the law in public, and thereby obliterates the existence of the law, and enters the office to investigate the institution.All justifications are self-deceiving efforts.After he broke into the interior of the law in self-deception, the law gave the best answer to his rebellion without saying a word, which is: the law not only exists, but can destroy him at any time—the air in the office can Let him die.This answer contradicted his rational efforts and matched his subconscious awakening.So after going through this adventure, he realized that maybe a drastic change was brewing in him to meet a new test; at the same time, he thought that he still had autonomy-that is, the right to continue to deceive himself.Reason and desire reach a temporary compromise here.

As the accomplice of the law, the servant's woman expresses the will of the law vividly.Everything she said and did was seductive, impulsive, K. could hardly resist.What's worse is that while she is seducing K, she uses her ugliness and despicableness to dispel K's desire.This entanglement couldn't have been better, not because K didn't get a woman, or because K was completely humiliated, but because K didn't know what was going on with him after being emotionally entangled.Do I like her, yearn for her, or despise her and want to avoid her?Nothing is certain and seems pointless.He didn't know what he had done, he was a fool; and before he could go away, the fool went to tell the footman himself about his wife's abominations.The footman himself was more sophisticated and ambiguous in his speech, and he was quite the legal expert.Maybe he felt that it was not enough for him to just talk, and the oral propaganda was not deep enough, so he encouraged K to get an education in person, so as to completely clear his position and complete the trial well. .

Although K's attitude in this interrogation seemed to be desperate, it was not the kind of confident and resolute desperate, but the same as before, hesitating, hesitating, and unknowingly made an irreversible thing.Every move is still the result of an internal conflict.Since there is no court session, why don't you go back?The reason is to not come here in vain; since seeing the law code is an obscene book, his case must be hopeless, why should he stay?It was because the page's woman was attractive and willing to help him.Since it was later discovered that the woman was a natural slut, she couldn't help him at all, and even lied to him, why did she still stand there and think wildly?It's out of curiosity.Anyway, no matter what, I can always find an excuse to be attached to the Fa.Hesitation is hesitation, the devil always wins.Similarly, no matter how arrogant the internal desires are, no matter how reckless the tramp's actions are, the iron walls of the law will always stand firm, and temporary victory is only a prelude to failure.In front of K, who came to investigate the law with hope and took advantage of the loopholes in the law, there were frightening scenes one after another, which shattered his original idea.This kind of teaching according to the situation made him understand: there is absolutely no way out, even death is not a way out, because there is no reason to die.The process of visiting the inside of the court was to let him experience what death is like, but K didn't think about death at all inside, because everything inside was meaningless to him, and all his meanings were outside.K, who was denied by the law and his own rationality, still cannot die, but still has to live.Knowing the despicable inside story of the Fa, and being full of hatred for the Fa, still attached to the Fa, entangled with the Fa, and living for the Fa wholeheartedly, how amazing this kind of inner tension must be!Hesitation is caused by internal strife, and since the devil occupies the soul, and since reason never gives up surrender, hesitation will always be K's way of action.Hesitation uses defense as offense and retreat as advance.In this chapter, hesitation makes him go deep into the inner law, the boundary between life and death.The kind of comprehension generated from this became the driving force for continuing to confront the Fa, that is, to continue internal friction.