Chapter 35 A contest of two wills (2)

1. Levels of Legal Attitudes K was notified by phone that he was going to participate in the preliminary trial, and the way of notification showed Fa's attitude.One is that the interrogation must be held from time to time, K must be present, and he is required to be clear-headed when he participates;These two gist of the verbal notice seem to contradict each other.Even more paradoxical are the unspoken demands that go unspoken.Fa neither told him the specific time of the interrogation, nor did he tell him the detailed address; Fa seemed to say to him in silence: Everything depends on his own self-awareness.So what happened to the previous strictness?This is exactly the way of the Dharma.What the law requires of K is a free trial, a conscious trial, not a restricted trial, a passive trial.That is to say, K is in the external form of being judged, and his own heart will launch a trial against himself; in this double trial, the law gives K real freedom so that he can experience the essence of the law.

The process of K finding the court is the process of overcoming his inertia, using his intuition to overcome the frame of mind, and doing the opposite.There are no coordinates, no clear guidance, no logic to escape, everything follows the mysterious desire in the bottom of my heart, everything is like happening in a dream.The law is just pulling him, asking him to take the initiative, asking him not to give up, asking him not to be clever, and not to be hypocritical to himself.The inexplicable atmosphere is full of hints, because Fa is everywhere because it is invisible and intangible.The law made strict demands on K but at the same time made no demands on him; K was more than clever, but also hypocritical; just as he was in a desperate situation, the court suddenly found him.Probably attracted by the crime he committed at the scene.It turns out that the law does not prevent crime, but encourages it, but in a unique way. It turns out that the law cannot be separated from crime, just like fish cannot live without water.A rare defendant like K is the fruit of Fa's years of business; once he is caught, Fa will never let him go. K's search was a real journey of freedom, a short moment condensed the experience of his whole life, and the extraordinary will in him who came to seek refuge in the Fa has been seen in his search.Hesitant on the surface, but actually led by intuition, this is K's style.It seems that every step has to be thought over and over again, and I am not sure, but in fact, every step follows the desire deep in my heart.

The trial of the simulated law has begun—the trial can only be simulated forever, and K cannot meet the real law in this life.Dhamma asks the eternally old question: Who are you?The law does not require K to answer, because a verbal answer is meaningless.Fa provoked K. with this humiliating question and made him perform a criminal act, thus answering the age-old question by deeds.What a wonderful answer he had!This outbreak of trampling the law opened the eyes of every law enforcement officer present, and made them experience the devilish joy that the law can be trampled like this!His actions are exactly what the law expects from him: to make him feel clearly that he is still under the control of the law at the moment of mad rebellion.No matter how crazy you are, you still have a guilty conscience in the end; and no matter how guilty you are, you will still repeat the same mistakes and continue to be crazy next time.This is the will of the law. K's speech this time is a great humor of his own one-man show.He is self-taught, and he has brought out the top secret of this world to the fullest while he understands it.When he did this, the Dharma came to his heart, and the Dharma had frequent sympathies with him, giving him a steady stream of inspiration, which made him overcome and completely defeated him.His eloquence is eloquent, and his heart is transparent; his profane eloquence proves his devotion to the law from the negative side.Isn't resistance a form of confession?Just because of the acknowledgment of its "existence", the "nothing" is repeatedly emphasized, and the almost hysterical pleasure can be obtained from this emphasis.Who did he defeat in this confrontation with the law?He triumphed over himself, and the results were queer and rightful.Admiration must have been included in the final advice given to K by the examining judge;But K would not think about it in such a clear and orderly manner;So, whether it was for or against it, he went all out.

2. Inward Tracking In the process of fighting against the law, the process of inward tracing and questioning unfolded at the same time, and these two main lines are completely consistent. First, K decided to take his case seriously.Just because the man informed him on the phone?Of course not quite.All kinds of signs showed what he was unwilling to admit in his heart, and he was about to take action.He intends to consciously revolutionize and arrive at that place before nine o'clock.His move was a move of submission, but he himself thought it was resistance.In order to fight independently against him he refuses anyone's help and must liberate himself by his own strength alone.But whether he should resist or submit, he was not sure.This is a big problem.So, not wanting to get there exactly, he hastened his pace at last, in order to try to be there by nine o'clock.It can be seen that it is not only judgment that plays a role here, but the hidden rebels are repeatedly asking him: Is there or is there no law?If not, why take it so seriously?If so, why not act according to the law?To act according to the law is to act according to the explosive power of the rebel, which was fully revealed later when looking for the location.

He was more or less wandering in search of the courthouse.But he didn't walk around casually, he followed the call of his heart.His actions are the result of an internal debate which has led him to choose the contingency which is the necessity of his free life.Blindly, but somewhat clearly, he ascended the stairs.This is when his everyday self begins to torment him with judgment, continually producing doubts and remorse in him, until finally, exasperated, he decides not to depend on anyone for guidance and to venture out on his own.As soon as the explosive force of instinct got the better of him, the court found it.In this process, daily judgment is not useless; its function is to irritate K with the torment of logical reasoning, because the outbreak is the result of entanglement and confrontation with logic.The free choice comes from K's unfree dual character.K, who had gained freedom, was still not free, so the woman told him that the court was here, but he still didn't realize it, and what he realized was only restrictions and osmanthus oranges.But he made a free choice after all.

Then he's going to play bigger, which is a typical fight for freedom.The devil was released from the bottom of his heart to make trouble in the court, but the purpose was to make him look ugly in public, shake the foundation of his existence, and make him a nondescript free man who was neither a painter nor a bank assistant.The higher he jumps, the more he discovers the bleakness of the truth, as well as the absurdity and helplessness of his own situation.But how can you not dance?How can he be caught in the hands of the law and be a dubious "painter" honestly?It is the nature of the devil to do what he knows he cannot do.The spectators, including the examining judge, act as obstacles, crossing K's path to inspire K to use his inner brute force to fly over them.This kind of game cannot be completed at one time. After crossing this obstacle, one will immediately face a new and more insurmountable obstacle. K was always out of breath in this game.Sometimes they pretended, sometimes revealed their true colors; sometimes they seduced K, sometimes attacked K; finally, they showed K with a conspiracy: he had failed completely, and punishment was about to come. If K removes the emotional color, these audiences have not actually pretended; everything is real, from the sternness of the examining judge to the fanaticism of some audiences, all reflect the requirements of the law, and thus also reflect K's deep heart. requirements for yourself.This is a kind of contradictory requirement, a requirement that cannot be realized but has to be realized.That is to say, the law requires K to submit and resist at the same time.Due to the eccentricity of the law itself, law enforcement personnel seem elusive, seem to be in harmony with each other, and seem to be thousands of miles away.Once the law is understood, the actions of law enforcement officers can be understood.Only by realizing that the law is K's deepest desire can we understand K's illegal behavior.What kind of law enforcement officers are these!They bluffed and looked cruel, as if they were about to perform their duties of punishment; once K made a scene in spite of everything, they stood idly by and let him go, and even encouraged K to continue to rebel; But in the end, K found out that they were in the same group; and when K finished this round and was about to leave, it was their turn to intimidate K again.Such a strange law enforcement officer, an extraordinary law enforcement officer, a guy who came from the depths of the underworld, how could K, who was raised by the world, recognize them?It doesn't matter that K doesn't have to recognize them right away; he will just have to perform as best he can with their cooperation at a later date.The results of the performance will be recorded in K's personal history and become a milestone on the road to the law.It would be wrong to say that K's performance was premeditated.This performance cannot be premeditated, because it is the first appearance of the dark soul.So K's eloquent speech in court was completely improvised under the influence of the surrounding environment, a reckless release, even he himself did not expect it, because at the beginning he planned to talk less and observe more!It's still the old trick of luring snakes out of their holes.There was an affinity and hope in the perilous courtroom, as if he had not been called to stand trial, but had been given a chance to make a treasonous declaration. K may have anticipated various difficulties before, may have prepared many reasons for defense, and may have planned his own goals; there is only one thing he cannot predict, and that is the desire in his heart, because the human heart is unpredictable.In the same way it can be said that Law never intended to judge him according to secular conventions; it was this particular kind of judgment that Law intended, a judgment against himself which K. trial.Only when K violates the law and tramples on the law, will K realize the crime; only if the devil in K's heart overcomes his rationality, will he know how evil he can be, and also know how incredible his existence is. things.Yes, what K does is what the law requires of him, a judgment on himself.Such trials can only be staged, not realized, due to their humorous nature.The blindness of the performers makes the humor so vivid that the audience bends over with laughter.It turns out that resisting the law is judging oneself, and it turns out that the trial of this special court and the secular trial are just reversed.Of course, such a brand-new thing was beyond K's expectation.