Chapter 83 End of the World

Three years seemed like a dream that I couldn't wake up from. It turns out that it's not that people can't give up, it's just that they haven't reached the moment when all thoughts are lost. Three years ago, I left Changsha, turned off my mobile phone, disconnected the network cable, left the original life, the original friends, the original love, and the dream of writing that I have been pursuing for so long... I left the fame, money, and love that this dream brought me. Those words that kept me awake at night, the days when I was happy to have those readers’ likes, the days when I was disturbed day and night because of a bad comment, the dream that I thought was my life.

It turned out that letting go is so easy. It turned out that leaving is so easy. It's just because of a man, a man named Jiang Han, a man named Jiang Han whom I love deeply. resolute.conceited. Leaving without a sense of responsibility, those signed contracts, those anxious waiting—or, when one's heart dies, the feeling of hopelessness that can't be taken care of, everything seems to have nothing to do with her. Even the closest parents, not to mention those things that have been put down. For three whole years, one Spring Festival after another, I forgot to see what the two old people who were by my side looked like.

Until the early morning of my birthday in the lunar calendar, my father brought breakfast, and the moment I looked up, seeing his aging face, my throat seemed to be blocked severely. I accidentally choked, coughed continuously, and my eyes fell out. Lao Ai gently stroked my back and complained distressedly: "The boss is alone, and he can choke after eating a meal." .Is it right, Nian Nian? Nian Nian eats deliciously, let’s eat well, don’t follow mom, come, grandpa feed me.” Her name is Nian Nian. Never forget Niannian. She is my life, and I will never forget that man. I remember back then, when my mother found all connections and registered for her, I wrote: Jiang Nian on the registration form.At that moment, the mother snatched the pen and paper angrily, and she wanted to change the name to: Ai Niannian.

Because in her opinion, if this child takes his father's surname, it will affect my future marriage, and the child's name will betray my longing for her father. At that time, I pressed the piece of paper and shook my head at her, yes, this is my insistence - her name is Jiang Nian. Niannian nickname. She is my life, and I will never forget that man named Jiang Han. My mother cried at that time, she said: "You just don't want to live anymore, you should also think about your parents, and you should also think about Xiao Nian." At that moment, I couldn't understand her, why didn't she want to forget a man, refused to accept marriage with someone else, so she didn't want to live anymore?

Instead, I have to live well. If I am gone, there will be no place to hold his name in this world, the only place to hold his name is my heart. Every day of the year, my mother is urging me to go on a blind date and get married.It seems that if I don't do this, my life will be finished, and her and Lao Ai's life will be finished, and after that, Nian Nian's life will also be finished. Then, every Chinese New Year, especially shortly after my birthday, is more like the end of the world. My mother would always meditate after the New Year's Eve dinner that her baby girl was one year older and depreciated by one year, and she would hold Lao Ai and cry, and she said, "Go and see! How did I give birth to a baby girl?" Such a thing as your daughter!"

Lao Ai didn't speak, and his temples were a little white. He patted her on the shoulder, comforted her like a child, and then smiled generously at me. I think, Lao Ai knows my heart. I thought, I must have followed Lao Ai. Once I fell in love, it would be difficult to turn back, and there would be no shore to cross.In this regard, I will definitely not follow my old lady who looks like Hericium erinaceus. At first, I fought back against my mother, and I said: "If Lao Ai is gone, will you turn around and remarry?" My mother almost sucked me into a different dimension with a vacuum cleaner, she chased and beat me, and scolded me: "You have really been so aggressive recently! Lao Ai, Lao Ai, you don't care about your daughter! Could it be that you also want to piss me off on purpose! If you are so pissed off, you can marry again!" Then, she continued to chase and beat me, saying, "Why did I give birth to such a placenta as you!"

Later, when my mother calmed down, she sighed to me and said, "Lao Ai and I are married after all, the relationship is different." I was playing with Niannian at that time, I remembered the scenes of me and Jiang Han together, I remembered Fenghuang, I remembered the moment when he hugged me and climbed down the mountain, he said, if you want to die, let’s die together - at that moment, I In my heart, I decided that I was married to him. Thinking of this, my eyes became sore, Niannian raised her head, looked at me ignorantly, and said, "Mom, what's wrong with you?"

Nian Nian is a smart little girl. Every time Lao Ai patted my mother on the shoulder to comfort my mother, Nian Nian would always turn to me and ask me: "Is it okay for Dad to treat Mom like this?" She actually understood that this was a man's kindness to a woman. I just nodded and stroked her little head. Nian Nian would ask: "Then Mom, when will Dad come back? Nian Nian misses him so much." I have always told her that my father is very busy with work and has gone to a far, far place. When Nian Nian grows up, my father will come back. I was very sad, but I smiled at her and said, "When Nian Nian grows up, Dad will come back. Dad misses Nian very much too."

Niannian nodded, and she said, "Mom, do you miss Dad?" Her words almost brought tears to my eyes. i miss him. How I miss him. The day before this Spring Festival is my birthday. This year, Nian Nian is three years old, and I will be twenty-seven years old. No need to guess, my mother has already started to cry and cry with my childhood photos, beating her chest and feet, from sunrise to sunset. Lao Ai hugged Niannian and went out to hide, and I didn't dare to stay at home. Forgot to tell everyone, students from Hainan Island, two years ago, they suddenly had shit luck that was less likely than being thunderbolt, and suddenly became prosperous, the super-developed kind.

The thing is, that winter, the hemp spinning factory community was demolished. The opinions of the masses were not unified, and the demolition was difficult, but the Chinese nation has always been a wise nation. The developer had an idea on Xiaomi's bed and distributed a movie Tickets were offered as a token of condolence, and it is human nature to like welfare, so everyone, men, women and children, went to watch movies in groups. As soon as the results come back, I rely on it!The house is gone, in ruins. This is good, it has to be demolished, and it has to be demolished, and it has been demolished, and no one can be a nail household.So amidst the overwhelming wailing, everyone could only resign themselves to their fate—of course, they have also rushed to tell each other, but there are some things that everyone understands.

Hainan Island touched his pocket that night, and there was only one hundred yuan left. So, depressed, he had no choice but to relax his mind. After appeasing Lao Mu, he wandered off to buy a lottery ticket for 80 yuan, and another 20 yuan. For money, he bought Juewei duck neck for his fool adoptive father, Daguan Mu. Then, he hit it! ! ! Of course, that's what he told me, and he said he'd only tell me one person. I don't know if it's true or not. Anyway, the red envelopes he gave me on my birthday every year are getting bigger and bigger, his car and things are getting more and more fashionable, and the clothes he wears are getting more and more corrupt, and there are also private villas in the city There are several sets. On my twenty-seventh birthday, I went to Hainan Island to get a red envelope as usual. Hainan Island said: "Sister, do you know what gift my brother prepared for you this year?" Finally, he pulled out a car key. When I saw it, it turned out to be a blue Mini Cooper—actually, I was taken aback at first, but then I was quite happy, but I haven't learned to drive yet!Please exchange it for such a big lump of gold! Hainan Island said: "In the past two years, Tudou has become thicker and thicker." I said, "I can't help it, prepare a dowry for our family, Jiang Nian." Later, as soon as Guo Meimei’s Maserati appeared, I made a sarcasm about Hainan Island and said, “Look, our friendship of more than ten years is nothing compared to a godfather whom someone has known for several years.” Hainan Island said: "You don't write anymore, your mouth is still so poisonous." I said, "I'm just telling you the truth." Suddenly I looked at him and said, "One day, when I stop telling you the truth, how cold will this world be?" Hainan Island said: "Don't give me these literary accents, you go to hell!" I said: "I'm dead, you raise me Niannian!" Hainan Island lowered his head, smiled suddenly, and became a little shy. He said: "Just now, at Uncle Ai's place, I saw Nian Nian... the little girl has grown up, should she go to kindergarten? Uh... Tian Ya, you Shouldn't it be time to think about it...to find a father for Niannian..." I froze for a moment, looked at Hainan Island, and said, "Damn it! Have you been bitten by my mother? I dare say that this disease that urges people to get married is also contagious!" Hainan Island patted me on the head and said: "Look at you dancing like a dancer! You don't look like a mother! If I were him, how dare I die so reassuringly and leave my seed Bring it to you!" At this point, he paused and said, "Hey—it's been so many years, are you still thinking about him?" I was stunned, smiled, and sighed: "What do you want to say, I never forget it." Hainan Island looked at me contemptuously and said, "Damn it, don't be so literary with me!" He said: "Tian Ya, you really should make plans for yourself, you are twenty-seven, you are not a child anymore! And your parents...and Niannian...they all need a complete family, and so do you... ..." After he finished speaking, I smiled, my eye circles were slightly red, and I said: "As long as he is in my heart and willing to appear in my dreams, I will never feel incomplete." Hainan Island said: "But he is dead!" I shook my head and said paranoidly, "He didn't. He's still in my heart, in my dream, and he will often come out to talk to me..." Speaking of this, my tears flowed down, and I said: "Once, I dreamed about him, and dreamed that we had a quarrel. After waking up, I would be extremely scared, afraid that the next time, I would never dream again." Seeing him, I was afraid that he would get angry, so he would never appear in my dreams again..." Having said that, I covered my face and cried, I really miss him. Have you ever loved someone so much?I love him so much that I can only see him in my dreams. Have you ever loved someone so much?Love so much that I am afraid that I will lose him in my dreams. When I learned the news of his sudden death in the detention center from my mother, it was as if the sky had fallen. I went to find Jiang Xiange, Lao Ou, and anyone related to him... Originally, I thought it was just a life sentence, and I would wait for him for the rest of my life. If I can't wait for the wedding dress, red makeup, dragon and phoenix candles in this life, I can give him a pale face and white hair a handful of loess. But in the end, a violent illness made me lose even the opportunity I was waiting for... Hainan Island watched me cry, his eyes were slightly red, he sighed, and said: "Tianya, but life has to go on, and love is always like this, passing it piece by piece. Even if we are not for ourselves, we have to do it for our family." For the sake of people." I wiped my tears, smiled hard, and said, "Actually, I know, I have made so many vows to be together forever before, Xin Baibai, Gu Lang, but what happened in the end? I also thought Love is just as lively as you today and me tomorrow. But boss, do you know?" Speaking of this, I tried my best to hold back my tears, and I said: "In Fenghuang, the moment he hugged me and rolled down the cliff, the moment he risked going to the hospital in order to see me who was chopped up, and I let me The moment the child was named Jiang Nian, I never thought about loving other people in this life. Having such a relationship and being loved by such a man, I think this life is worth it. Moreover, I feel that I am very When I am mature, I can make decisions for myself. I also feel that I am very considerate of my parents, and I did not do anything to make them sad. I just love him and my current life, and I don’t want to change it. " Hainan Island said: "Okay, okay, I won't say anything. But what do you do about your mother's test?" I smiled and said: "At worst, if she forces me to get married again, I will commit suicide, and the old lady will have nothing to do!" Hainan Island rolled his eyes and said, "Don't scare Nian Nian!" In the end, before I had time to commit suicide, my mother was already one step ahead of me. Because she called me and asked me to go on a blind date, and I was missing Jiang Han sadly with Hainan Island at the time, so I said angrily that if she wanted to get married, I should go on a blind date myself! Then I started crying with Hainan Island, and I said: "How many love stories have I written, life and death promises, nine deaths without regrets. Why can't I experience a life and death love in reality? Why? why!" Just when I was engaging in literature and art in Hainan Island, Lao Ai called me and frightened me silly with just one sentence. I thought she was playing tricks to scare me again, but was thrown to the hospital by Hainan Island. Looking at the operating room with red lights on, the strength I had built up collapsed—two hundred sleeping pills, even if it was just a show, it was too big determination and despair? I can't imagine losing her life. Lao Ai kept holding Nian Nian, he didn't blame me, but he didn't talk to me either. When she came out of the emergency room, she was already emaciated. She refused to look at me and closed her eyes tightly. Hainan Island hugged Nian Nian, and Lao Ai held her hand tightly, tears streaming down her face.He said: "Old woman, don't worry about it. If you need something, how can I live?" We stayed with her in the hospital that night. She fell asleep in pain and anxiety, but she still refused to say a word to me. No matter how much I cried and begged her, she still refused to look at me. She didn't fully recover until the next day when I went to the hospital to replace Lao Ai. When I entered, Lao Ai was feeding her porridge. While drinking, she suddenly burst into tears, and she said, Lao Ai, am I forcing her by doing this?She said, hey, I'm sorry for the child.In fact, in the past three years, when has she had a better time?It's all because I'm a bad mother, I didn't even make my child's birthday easy... These few words of hers drew all my tears away, obviously it was my stubbornness that made her unable to think about it, but in the end, she still excused me. That day, instead of going in, I left the hospital. In the evening, Lao Ai picked her up and left the hospital, because tomorrow is the Spring Festival. In the evening, Lao Ai started to cook beef, tripe, and beef louvers, and the whole room was full of incense. Nian Nian hung around his neck and kept yelling "Grandpa, Grandpa". Suddenly remembered my childhood. The irreplaceable love he gave me. I suddenly wondered, am I really selfish? I sighed, adjusted my expression, and said to him, Dad, it's Chinese New Year, is there anything you want? How long has it been since you said "Dad, you are so amazing" to the person you admired so much when you were young, if not, then remember to say it. Because one day, you will become someone else's parents, and finally one day, you will also accept the challenge of self-esteem from that adolescent magic ball. ... That night, I watched Lao Ai's disappearing figure, and tears suddenly flowed down my face. I know that during those years, probably I, really unconsciously, became selfish towards him and my mother. On the reunion night, my mother made dumplings. I have always hated making dumplings, but I really like them. That day, for the first time, I started making dumplings. Lao Ai looked dumbfounded, he trotted over a few times and said, Tianya, don't be tired!or!Take a break! My mother is still sharp-mouthed, she gave Lao Ai a white look, and said, how can she be sympathetic to us!Isn't she afraid that she will raise a disaster in the future!Now start to learn and sell now, set an example! After finishing speaking, she pouted at Niannian. This is the first sentence she said to me after she committed suicide, and she still has her style!My mother is getting more and more handsome!Even Jiang Han is no match for her! Thinking of him, my heart ached slightly. When the dumplings were finished, my mother looked at me and looked at me for a long time. She took my hand with a flour-stained hand and said, child, mother will not force you anymore... You don't want to go on a blind date or get married... Mom I have you...Mom is just a girl like you...Mom is not willing to force you... After she said this, she burst into tears, on this New Year's Eve. I quickly hugged her, I closed my eyes, tears flowed out, I said, Mom!I'll listen to you!I'm on a blind date!I got married! In fact, I don't really want to mention what happened later, at such a moment when the mother and daughter's true feelings are revealed. But there is no way, I have a magical mother, do you think she will shirk?I thought so too.But she pushed me away in a hurry, jumped up, and said to Lao Ai, bring me the blind date phone list! I:…… When Lao Ai saw me, he was afraid of making mistakes. He hurriedly held down my mother and said, "I can't find it for a while, big time, who is going on a blind date." My mother thought about it, nodded in agreement, and suddenly she remembered something, and said, I can call Lao Mu, isn't his little Hainan also good!Tall and small, with a good-looking face!Although the father is stupid and the mother is also stupid!But the spirit of the mother-in-law and mother-in-law will do... After finishing speaking, she rushed to the phone! When I saw that the situation was not good, I immediately turned over - "Baji" cut off her phone, I smiled at her with a shy face, and said, not on New Year's Eve!Neither is Hainan Island!From tomorrow onwards, except for Hainan Island, I will go on a blind date with anyone you find! The moment Xia Tong fell from the sky, I was rushing to fight in the blind date army arranged by my mother. She suddenly woke up in my real life like a dream three years ago. She said, Tianya, we were so lucky to find you. Although I no longer miss my life back then, I still miss Xia Tong.So, in front of the gate of the community, I hugged her, and tears fell. She saw Nian Nian and said, this is it?Then she suddenly had an epiphany, smiled, and said, it really resembles her eyebrows and eyes. I nod. Yes, in this world, only three people know that Niannian is not Jiang Han and I's child, she is Hu Dongduo's child. These three people are me, Xia Tong, and Hu Dongduo. That day, Xia Tong was sleeping next to my bed, just like many years ago, our heads were next to each other. She asked me, do you still have contact with Hu Dongduo? I remember that when I insisted on adopting Niannian, Xia Tong reminded me that if you had this child, then the relationship between you and Dongduo would come to an end. At the beginning, I seemed to understand but not understand and nodded. Or, I knew very well at the time that Hu Dongduo was going to marry that Chinese American, and it was impossible for her to let that Chinese American know that she had a child with a man named Kang Tianqiao. In marriage, between husband and wife, they all keep their own secrets that they refuse to reveal to each other, for the sake of happiness, stability, and love. Xia Tong said, do you regret it? I shake my head. In fact, often in the boundless nights, I would dream of my dear Dongduo, she rushed towards me like a fragrant shiitake mushroom, still so enthusiastic. I will also dream of Xiatong, who blooms quietly and was my best partner in my youth. I understand and respect Hu Dongduo's decision. This decision is good for her and Niannian. They are big and small, and I like them. How can I regret it? It's just that sometimes it is inevitable to be a little disappointed. Losing a friend, losing a relationship doesn't necessarily mean that two people just saw such a huge conflict of interests, and it just ended because of a secret so naturally. Later, Xia Tong gave me Hu Dongduo's private Weibo. Then, I cried while facing her Weibo. In the past three years, every day of my birthday, she had a faint sentence, but she couldn't say it with deep affection. 2009 - happy birthday!My dearest child! 2010 - I dreamed of Kempinski again, but it has been renamed Narada Resort Hotel.Is it like me and you, never going back to that night, my dearest girl, happy birthday. 2011 - Actually, I miss her very much. ... In front of the computer screen, I pointed to that sentence and held Xia Tong's hand, as if holding an oath, I said with tears, Xia Tong!look!look!"Actually, I miss her too," she said. That's what she said. It's just a choice, we become the flowers left by the other party in the end of the world. Xia Tong said, if possible, you can go to Changsha.My trip represents both myself and the company.Mr. Ma misses you very much. I nodded and said, wait for me to visit before April. Hainan Island and I sent Xia Tong away. When Xia Tong left, she looked at Hainan Island and smiled. She took out a photo, showed it to Hainan Island, and said, look, this is my son!Very cute! Hainan Island nodded and said, Tongtong is so beautiful, Zaizai must be right! Xia Tong just laughed, looked at me, and said, if it wasn’t for having a baby, I would have come here a year ago, I’ve survived giving birth to him, I’ve survived breastfeeding, and I’ve come here...and Mr. Ma also knows about you Temperament, dare not let strangers bother you.Tianya, after I wash it, you can understand the intentions of Mr. Ma and the company. I nod. In the end, she gave me a hug and said, in fact, Ma Xiaozhuo has changed a lot in the past three years. She wasn't talking about Mr. Ma, but Ma Xiaozhuo. After Xia Tong left, I continued to fight against the army of blind dates selected by my mother. Hainan Island said, did your mother not see that you were dealing with business? I said, it's my mother who handles official business!She wished she could dig out all the male mice in the field and have a blind date with me!With this quality, I... I... Hainan Island rolled his eyes and said, stop talking!Brother, is the quality good? !Handsome and rich!You are thinking about it! I patted him on the shoulder and said, how could I be willing to harm such a beautiful Chinese youth like you!You are the future!It is hope! Before he could open his mouth, I pulled my face down and said, Boss, in fact, you are right, I never thought about getting married at all.But for my mother and father, I have to get married.So, in order to balance the two, go and find me a good gay friend from your group of friends!You heard me right, it's gay, I don't love him, and he won't love me.We only have one formal marriage, so it's good for both parties! Hainan Island stared at me with wide eyes and said, I am X!Are you burning your head? ! I nodded and said, no matter what you say, I know you have this resource in your hands.As soon as possible, otherwise, I will marry one of the weasels that my mother found for me tomorrow!You look done! Hainan Island rolled his eyes directly, and he said, you -_-!...... I waved my hand and said, don't forget!Pick a nicer one! Hainan Island: (>!<)... I sighed, my mother is so sharp-eyed, how can she not know that I have been good since I was a child, and you find me a sand Wujing, so she won't believe me!Please find me a little white dragon!I want to watch it for the rest of my life, don't make me look bad! Hainan Island: (+﹏+)~ crazy dizzy Hainan Island acted extremely fast, and found my marriage partner for me that night. His name is Chen Feiyang. This name is very good, it seems that it is very suitable for the role of a male supporting role, and it is the kind of male supporting role who rarely shows his face and drags the heroine to marry off in the end. This is the case in general novels. In fact, I met Chen Feiyang several times, at the dinner table organized by Hainan Island, otherwise, how would I know that there are relatively good private collections here in Hainan Island. Hainan Island warned me back then, watch less!He is not someone you can find, he is GAY! Lao Ai was pouring soy sauce into the pot, looked at me, smiled, and said, your mother and I are old, we don’t need anything, the happiness of our children is a blessing. He is so forgetful. I forgot in a blink of an eye, I provoked his old lady to commit suicide. At night, I was watching TV on the sofa with Niannian in my arms, when Lao Ai suddenly appeared wearing reading glasses, which shocked me. He saw Niannian Ka sleeping in my arms, quietly sat beside me, straightened his waist, and said, now, another year has passed.You are also a year older.In the future, what your mother says and does, whether you like it or not, whether you like to hear it or not.Hold on to it!Anyway, she is your mother too!She chatters a little bit, but it's not because you are her daughter, or because you are a stingy monkey like your mother, so she is reluctant to waste those words! I looked at him and nodded seriously. Lao Ai nodded in satisfaction and said, Dad has endured it for almost thirty years! When he finished speaking, the expression on his face was so proud and satisfied, it made my eyes turn red. This kind of love full of fireworks is what I want in this life, but the man I love... You can't fulfill this dream with me. When Lao Ai finished explaining to my mother, he patted my shoulder and said, I'm going to accompany your mother!You go to bed early too! I just nodded. After walking two steps, Lao Ai suddenly turned around and said something to me seriously, he said, are you asking me what I want for the New Year today? I nodded quickly and said yes, yes. Lao Ai thought about it, smiled shyly, and said, okay.After that, I will listen to Dao Lang's songs, but you are not allowed to say anything more! After speaking, Lao Ai left. Under the flickering screen of the TV, I was the only one left stunned on the sofa... This was all seven years ago. If he didn't mention it, I would have forgotten it long ago, but he remembered it. At that time, not long after I was in college, Daolang’s love songs became popular in the streets and alleys. At that time, I was young and proud, and I couldn’t understand the depth of this desolate voice, so I felt more like the crowd. His songs are special. One day, I went to Lao Ai's office and found that Lao Ai actually listened to Dao Lang's song!So, I despised him with great joy—— That is, the little bird learned to fly successfully and no longer needs the protection of the big bird, so the little bird with hardened wings hurriedly looked for an opportunity to "attack" the big bird's inferiority. I still remember that that day, it was dusk in Qingdao, and the dim yellow light shone on Lao Ai's face. His expression was extremely awkward, but he was helpless. With this level of appreciation, you kid... It was just such a tiny thing that happened in 2002, but he still remembered it in 2011. He is just an ordinary person, not a big shot, not trusted by tens of thousands of people, and his hard work is nothing more than the food, clothing and happiness of a family. When an ordinary man is over forty years old, his glory is fading, and he is getting old, the only thing he hopes for is a little admiration from his children, whether it is sincere or false. At this time, my children have gradually grown up, and they will no longer be like their childhood, staring at innocent big eyes and saying, "Wow, Dad, you are so amazing!" "Wow, Dad, you are so handsome!" Already!" As we gradually entered adolescence, we often said, "Dad, you are too rustic!" "Dad, what age is this!" At that time, we would never have imagined that such a prophecy would be the greatest humiliation and blow to self-esteem for the man who had been busy with our birth when he was young and prime. It's just that they never tell you that they were hit. I didn't really look at his beauty, I just thought he was a bit special, because his eyes kept glancing at Hainan Island's handsome little body. Later, I also vaguely heard Hainan Island mention it a few times. He was forced to marry by his parents, but he didn’t want to cheat on girls, because his natural sexual orientation prevented him from falling in love with women. Hainan Island even asked him to find a lesbian. marriage. Things are almost like this. Now, everyone can see that this Chen Feiyang is simply designed for the current me. On the night of the first day of the Lunar New Year, after being coaxed to sleep by Nian Nian, I crawled to my home in Hainan Island. I don't know where Lao Mu went to visit, but the door of the room was not closed. I thought to myself, fortunately you don't know how much your grandson is worth recently, otherwise you would have to come back even if you turned somersault. As soon as I entered the door, I heard Hainan Island punching Mr. Mu, yelling: "Hi brother, Liuliu Shun." I walked in quietly, and on the tatami mat in the living room, Hainan Island had lost a punch, with its back to me, and was throwing itself up; Officer Mu was clapping happily beside them; and Hainan Island's mother was sitting opposite them, still Holding the stolen water spray gun, three years have passed, and its color has gradually become old. She grabbed the vegetables with her hands, fed the gun, and said, come... Xiaotian... Be good ...eat eat... Hainan Island sniffed, picked up a towel, took her mother's hand, and said, come on, wipe!Use chopsticks, don't use your hands, be obedient. She just smirked at him, then lowered her head again, holding the handle, muttering, saying, Xiaotian... It's Chinese New Year... Go home soon... After finishing speaking, she continued to grab vegetables with the hands she just wiped... I watched from the side until my eyes became sore, I quietly held back my tears and prepared to knock on the door. Hainan Island suddenly said, he said, Mom, I like a girl.As he spoke, he lowered his head and continued to carefully wipe her oily hands. He said, Mom, if you... If you didn't do this, you would definitely tell me what should I do, right? Officer Mu clapped his hands and laughed, and said, what to do, what to do? After Hainan Island wiped his mother's hands, he glanced at the joyous Mr. Mu, picked up the wine on the table, and drank it down. Then, he smiled at him and said, Dad, don't you really look down on me too!I feel so useless that I dare not even confess my love to her!I dare not!You laugh at me! As he spoke, he poured another glass of wine, drank it down, and said, I'm afraid I've said it, from now on, I won't even be friends. Officer Mu laughed at the side, and said like a parrot, it's gone, it's gone! At this time, her mother got another hand of oil. This time, she obediently pushed her hand to his eyes, watching him wipe it carefully, and then she slowly recognized it, so hard, so hesitant, as if wanting to You want to see through, but you can't see through the beautiful boy in front of you. Hainan Island wiped her hands well, then wiped Mr. Mu's oily mouth, drank another glass of wine, he smiled wryly, and said, a long time ago, she said that if she stopped writing, she would ask me to raise her, okay? ?In fact, on that day, how much I wanted to say, good!it is good!it is good!I really want to raise her, I want to be a cow, a horse, and suffer hardships!However, at that time, she was someone else's wife, living in someone else's luxurious small bungalow.And at that moment, her well-mannered man was staring at me in the yard!So, I can only say to her, "What a silly girl!" Oh, what a silly girl!He smiled wryly. In fact, I was the one who was stupid!Isn't it just a man falling in love with a woman?For so many years, I have danced and danced every day, living with five people and six people!But I dare not say that I like her!Since I was seventeen, I have been looking at her like this every day, watching her fall in love, watching her break up in love, watching her secretly in love, watching her get married, watching her have children...since she was thirteen years old , she called me the boss, and when she was twenty-seven years old, I still, still could only be her boss! Officer Mu continued clapping his hands and repeating joyfully, boss, boss. Hainan Island poured herself a glass of wine and said that she felt that she liked that bitter surnamed Gu for ten years.I like her more bitterly, 14 or 15 years!Later, when she finally let go of the one surnamed Gu, she fell in love with the one surnamed Jiang.Hehe, after finally waiting for Jiang to go in and die, she told me that she would never be able to love again in her life, she said she gave all her love to that Jiang! Having said that, he took Officer Mu's hand and said, try my clothes, look at this material, look at this brand!After Mr. Mu touched it, he still didn't forget to add what he had just been interrupted, clapping his hands hastily and said, Jiang's surname!The surname is Jiang! Hainan Island smiled bitterly and said, yes, that day, I suddenly won the lottery!I thought God opened his eyes!Finally, I can live in front of her like that man.I'm going to buy the car he used to own!Buy a small western-style building like his!I even buy his favorite brands for clothes—you must not know that three years ago, when she was packing her bags in his house, I secretly looked at those clothes one by one, and I thought I looked like He, she will fall in love with me!But in the end, she never opened her eyes to see whether I was wearing Jeanswest or Armani!Hahaha, Jeanswest is still Armani...hahaha...to this day, she still forces me to marry her to someone else!Why didn't she stab me to death!She forced me to marry her to someone else...hahaha... After speaking, he raised his head and drank the wine in the glass in one gulp. I stood outside the door in a daze, feeling so uncomfortable in my heart. Many years ago, I read the agreement note written by him and Huba, and knew that they once liked me. I always thought that it was an ignorant liking when I was young and ignorant, and would eventually be forgotten like a joke, but I But I never knew that in this world, there is a person who likes me so bitterly. Suddenly a heavy sigh came from behind me, I was startled, and when I turned around, I found it was Lao Mu. 他看着我，又望了望起居室榻榻米上的海南岛，说，孩子，你还年轻，一切，都还来得及。 我看着他，我懂他的意思。 我叹了一口气，说，听父亲说，穆奶奶当年芳龄早逝之后，穆爷爷您就再也未曾续娶……人幸福不幸福，只要心里有过那么一个人，这辈子都值了，不是吗？ 我知道，对一个长辈说这样的话，实在是唐突。可是，我也知道，这个世界上，有一种人，他们是心意相通的——那就是在最好的年华里，爱过最好的人的人。 海南岛大吼了一句，说，不行，我得去找她！我去告诉她我爱她！ 我吓了一跳，海南岛像个疯子一样推开门的时候，看到我和老穆，愣了足足十秒，他说，你们…… 老穆立刻就哈哈大笑，说，我们刚进来，你……这是要去找谁啊？ 海南岛一看我，摇摇晃晃地走上来，说，哇！妹子！我给你找到男人了！当哥的伟大吧！快跪下唱征服！Hahaha! 他说，哥刚才还在那里吼呢，哥也爱上一女的，等你结完婚，哥就给你领那女的回来给你当嫂子啊！Ha ha ha ha! 他始终没有说出来，我轻轻地松了一口气，可心却怎么也快乐不起来。 我妈看到陈飞扬的时候，就跟猫见了鱼。 陈飞扬抱着念念的时候，温柔可亲，我妈看得是老泪盈眶，于是，茶水、糖果、点心不停地伺候，就差指着床铺说，今儿姑爷您就留宿宠幸了我家姑娘吧！ 我看到她那殷勤的模样，恍惚中回到了当年，那个雪天，江寒来到我家的那一天。 我就怔怔地、怔怔地支愣着耳朵静静地听，我想，下一秒，一定会响起门铃声，就等着我开门的那一刻，江寒这个二大爷一定会出现在门外，抱着小童，面如冠玉，唇染桃花，笑得眉眼如画。 老艾看着我发呆，说，你这是怎么了？ 我像是没从这场环境里惊醒，我笑着看着老艾，说，我好像……听到江寒在按门铃呢。 我的话音一落，我妈给吓得丢了三魂六魄！ 且不说亲女婿陈飞扬正在，大正月里的大白天鬼敲门还不要了人命。 我妈立刻转脸拉住陈飞扬的小手，说，我闺女也就这情况，你也看到了，带个拖油瓶，你觉得什么时候结婚好呢？ 我的脸立刻拉得比驴还长，我说，妈，人家小陈刚来我们家啊！ 我妈不肯看我，说，小陈，不以结婚为目的的恋爱都是耍流氓！你跟我家天涯，是认真的吧？ 陈飞扬笑了笑，特斯文地说，伯母，一切都听天涯的。 我妈一听差点嚎啕起来，她压根儿就没想到，我这个拖着拖油瓶的二手货还能找到这么一斯文男人，这男人还对我充满了心疼和尊重。 夜里，念念突然爬起来，来到我房间，推开门，露出半颗小脑袋，吓了我一跳。 我连忙起身，走过去，问她，怎么了？ 念念说，妈妈，你不爱爸爸了吗？ 我愣了愣，说，怎么了？ 念念说，你爱爸爸，为什么要嫁给叔叔？你为什么不陪念念等爸爸了呢？ 她的话像刀一样，直插在我的心上。 我紧紧地将她拥抱在怀里，紧紧地，紧紧地，我怕自己会失去流泪的力气。 陈飞扬出现之后，我妈不停地在我耳边絮絮叨叨那一套套爱情婚姻理论，唯恐我再次，不幸福。 她说，不能无条件地对一个男人好，因为你不是他妈，不能要求一个男人无条件地对你好，因为你不是他闺女。 老艾就在她身边戴着老花镜看着她笑，那表情就像在说，你也不是我闺女啊，这么多年还不一样要求我无条件地对你好哇。 两个月后，我和陈飞扬的事情基本定下，海南岛拍着他的肩膀都快拍骨折了，说，你一定要好好对我妹子啊听到没有听到没有听到没有，我开始准备去长沙，拜望一下马小卓，同时，我也准备去北京，拜望杜雅礼。 毕竟，在这场变故之中，他们给了我足够的信任和理解，这是我需要感恩的地方。 当我愈合掉那些伤口之后，我总需要面对自己未能完成的合约，然后再离开这个圈子就是。 就想江寒这个冷静的男人教我的那样，要像一个成年人那样活着。 在青岛的街头，突然遇见顾朗，是我和陈飞扬开始采购东西，准备去长沙的时候。