Chapter 19 Chapter Nineteen

Wei Mingkun didn't expect that he hadn't found Zhou Dongjin yet, but Zhou Dongjin found him first.Zhou Dongjin said on the phone that he decided to return to the army immediately and wanted to talk to Wei Mingkun before leaving.Well, it's time for them to sit down and talk. Wei Mingkun finally found this place called the Red House.Ordinarily, he had eaten countless wines and meals over the years, and he couldn't find any other places. Basically, he knew the places to eat, but he had never heard of the Red House.Seeing that the red house is a western restaurant, Wei Mingkun felt a headache.Wei Mingkun never liked to eat western food, and he even felt guilty when he went home to eat KFC or McDonald's with his son once in a while.He really couldn't get used to those strange foreign things, no matter how they smelled, there was a sweet and greasy foreign devil smell.Wei Mingkun really doesn't understand what's so delicious about Western food, anyway, he would rather eat Chinese cabbage stewed vermicelli than those inexplicable fancy things.

Even though the lights were dim, Wei Mingkun could still see Zhou Dongjin's back in the corner at a glance.Declining Miss Yintai's greeting, Wei Mingkun went straight to Zhou Dongjin. sit!As soon as Wei Mingkun walked behind Zhou Dongjin, Zhou Dongjin said without turning his head, and then he drank a glass of wine on his own. The seat opposite Zhou Dongjin was empty, Wei Mingkun just wanted to sit down, but Zhou Dongjin stopped him.You sit here.Zhou Dongjin pointed to a side seat and said.Zhou Dongjin obviously drank a lot of wine, although his face didn't change much, but his eyes were red.Wei Mingkun was somewhat unhappy.

Come, drink first.Zhou Dongjin said. Wei Mingkun glanced disdainfully at the half-bottle of red wine placed obliquely in the ice bucket and said, is this also called wine? Zhou Dongjin pushed a goblet in front of Wei Mingkun as if he didn't hear it, raised the glass and said, do it!The three of us drink it first!After all, he first touched Wei Mingkun's cup hard, then lightly touched the cup on the empty seat next to him, and then finished it in one gulp. Wei Mingkun was a little puzzled, but he didn't ask anything. Just about to drink the glass of wine in his hand, Zhou Dongjin pointed to the glass on the empty seat and said, touch it before drinking.

Wei Mingkun looked at the cup in puzzlement, and then at Zhou Dongjin. Touch it!There was an undeniable toughness in Zhou Dongjin's tone. Unhappiness suddenly rose in Wei Mingkun's heart, and he stared at Zhou Dongjin sternly. Zhou Dongjin's eyes seemed to be soaked in red wine, with many contrasting colors floating on the blood-red background, including fire-like excitement, burning anxiety, watery sadness and ashes-like depression.But the tone of those eyes was sincere, as sincere as ever.Wei Mingkun looked carefully for a long time, but he couldn't find any provocative and deliberately embarrassing elements in it.

I never drink unremarkable wine, Wei Mingkun said, pointing to the empty seat next to him and saying, what do you mean? Zhou Dongjin silently looked at Wei Mingkun without saying a word. Wei Mingkun saw some sad water color suddenly overflowing from the depths of Zhou Dongjin's eyes, which instantly annihilated the burning flame, and the ashes made a pained sound, struggling to emit wisps of blue smoke.Zhou Dongjin's eyes were gradually scattered and blurred in the thick green smoke. That's Nina, Zhou Dongjin said.After a pause, he almost begged Wei Mingkun, let's have a drink with Nina!

Wei Mingkun's hand trembled, and the wine in the glass splashed out.The wine dripped drop by drop from Wei Mingkun's hand onto the white tablecloth, slowly bleed like fresh blood, and bleed into pieces of red petals.Wei Mingkun controlled the trembling of his hands, lightly touched the rim of the cup, and drank the wine in one gulp. Both of us had blood on our hands.Zhou Dongjin said. Wei Mingkun grabbed the napkin and slowly wiped the wine on his hands, and asked suddenly, have you always loved her? Zhou Dongjin nodded. Why not tell her? Because I'm too selfish, because I'm too self-respecting, because I'm too ignorant of how to cherish, because I'm... too messy!

... How about you?did you love her ... You don't love her.Zhou Dongjin sighed and said, this world is so unreasonable, you don't love her but you get her, you got her but you don't cherish her.Why?Why it came out like this? Because... she loves you. ……I know.I thought that sooner or later she would come to me, I have been waiting for her to tell me how much she regrets leaving me, and to tell me that she only loves me in her heart, but... Dong Jin, don't blame yourself too much. How can you be so calm?Kunzi!Even if Nina is not your wife, but she is your child!don't you have any...

Go east! why don't you let me talk?You have never fulfilled any responsibility to that child, never given that child even a little paternal love, dare you say that death is not your responsibility? !Do you dare to say that Nina's death is not your responsibility? ! Go east! You do not dare!You are like me, none of us can shirk responsibility! No!I am different from you!Wei Mingkun said, I have suffered much more pain than you!Because I am morally more responsible than you are! Do you have liquor?Wei Mingkun asked suddenly. Zhou Dongjin signaled the waiter to bring a bottle of white wine.

The waiter replied respectfully, I'm sorry sir, our western restaurant is not prepared... buy it!Zhou Dongjin roared. Excuse me, sir, what brand of liquor do you buy? As long as it is high enough, no brand will do! Filling up a glass of white wine, Wei Mingkun couldn't wait to drink it.The wine was very spicy, and as soon as it stumbled into the stomach from the throat, the flames jumped up immediately, and the flames rushed straight to the top of the head, as if people were set on fire all at once. Dongjin, Wei Mingkun said, actually... I envy you. I?Zhou Dongjin stared at Wei Mingkun in surprise with blood-red eyes, thinking that Wei Mingkun was lying, but Wei Mingkun's eyes were clearly sincere.

Really, I mean it.I envy you because you have love.Dongjin, you have people who move your heart and love you, as well as people who care about you and really love you.But I... I have nothing. Zhou Dongjin stared blankly at Wei Mingkun, a sad and sad smile gradually appeared on his face.I have love, Zhou Dongjin said, yes, I have love.But I...Zhou Dongjin suddenly grabbed the bottle of white wine and gulped it down his mouth. Wei Mingkun took a lot of effort to snatch the wine bottle from Zhou Dongjin's hand.Dong Jin, what are you doing! What am I doing?I drink!Zhou Dongjin said, what else can I do now besides drinking?Tell me, what else can I do now besides drinking!

Didn't you want to talk to me? Yes, I want to talk to you.But can you tell me your heart out?Zhou Dongjin stared into Wei Mingkun's eyes for a while, no, you can't.You are all so hypocritical!You and Zhou Nanzheng, you all have the same number! The anger in Wei Mingkun's heart went straight up, he suppressed himself, and after drinking three or four glasses of wine, he said in a low voice, Zhou Dongjin, if you came to me just to talk about Huang Nina, then I'll tell you what to do.To tell you the truth, I owe her nothing, nothing! Zhou Dongjin's gaze was piercingly cold, and he swept over with a "swipe". Wei Mingkun met Zhou Dongjin's gaze without flinching, and said in a calm tone that Huang Nina and I are equal.I have no love, and she has no love either.Huang Nina doesn't love me, I knew this before I got married, but I didn't care then.Back then, love was a luxury for me in life, like...don't laugh, the way I felt about pork when I was a kid.I want to eat, but I know in my heart that if I really let my temper eat, I will not survive this month.I know very well that I can't afford luxury. If I want love, I'm afraid I won't have it in my life.It may be difficult for you to understand such feelings, because you have never worried about survival.I'm different from you, I know how hard it is to survive, so what I value most is survival, survival first.Of course, I had hoped for her at the time, hoping that marriage would lead to a gradual bond between us.But it wasn't until the divorce that I realized that I couldn't love her any more than she could love me.Divorce is a relief for me, and it is also a relief for her.Therefore, our divorce is also reciprocal.In this sense, we owe nothing to anyone. I know that many people, like you, blamed me for that child.But at the time of the divorce I really didn't know she was pregnant.To this day I can't figure out why she didn't tell me about it.After I heard that she had a baby, I deduced from the date that the baby should be mine.Believe it or not, I've seen kids, more than once.But she doesn't let me see the child every time.She insisted that the child was not mine, and said that if it was mine, she would have had an abortion long ago, and would never let the child be born.Dong Jin, you know Nina's temper.Now, I don't want to say anything more about her.But she's gone a little too far in this one.That child is mine, you can tell it's mine just by looking at it! Wei Mingkun poured the wine into his mouth in one gulp, and asked suddenly, do you know why she didn't let me recognize that child? Because she doesn't love you, because she knows you don't love her either. If only this is the case.Wei Mingkun said with a long sigh, his father told me that once he stopped the child in front of the shoe stall.Although I was married again at that time, my son had not yet been born.The old man liked children, so he carefully cut a puppy out of a piece of yellow leather and gave it to the child.At that time, the child was very happy, holding the puppy in both hands and shouting thank you grandpa.But not long after, the child was sent back crying, saying that her mother had beaten her to prevent her from having the puppy.Mom also said that she would not be allowed to play in shoe stalls in the future, so as not to get the smell of stinky leather all over her body.Father was in tears.With tears in my eyes, my father said to me, "Kunzi, father knows that he is looking down on us, and I will guarantee that he will never tease that child again in the future."Dad is not afraid of being looked down upon by others. Dad has been used to being looked down upon all his life. Dad loves our child so much that he can't let our child be subdued! Dong Jin, do you know what I can't stand Huang Nina the most?Wei Mingkun said that it was her waywardness, the sourness and arrogance of a cadre's child in her. Zhou Dongjin watched Wei Mingkun silently, he knew that what Wei Mingkun said was the truth.This is Huang Nina. Huang Nina has always been so willful. She always hurts herself more deeply while hurting others.He himself has been hurt by Huang Nina's willfulness more than once.Different from Wei Mingkun, he still loves Huang Nina, including her waywardness, and even loves her waywardness.Probably because he himself is willful, and he has hurt Huang Nina more than once, they are the same kind.Otherwise, it would be impossible for them to love each other; otherwise, it would be impossible for them to break up; otherwise, it would be impossible for them to break up and neither of them would want to look back. Although it was a failed marriage for me, I have no regrets.Wei Mingkun said that divorce gave me a very strange feeling. The moment I walked out of the small building of the Huang family, I seemed to have emerged from a cocoon, and found a pair of strange wings growing on my body. I felt a sense of relief and an urge to spread my wings and fly.I know that I have become, I have completed a new round of spiritual transformation again, I am more mature. Mature?Zhou Dongjin suddenly responded fiercely and asked in a provocative tone, Kunzi, do you know what I hate most about you?It is your maturity that you have cultivated in some lifetime!In my impression, you have always been mature. When you were very young, you seemed to have lived for several lifetimes. You were as mature as a stone that was neither hot nor cold, and you could never measure the temperature. No shape change! I don't think there's anything wrong with being mature.Wei Mingkun replied coldly, people always want to mature, this is a natural law, whether you like it or hate it, you can't refuse to be mature. To be honest, Kunzi, do you think I am not mature enough? You are much more mature now.Wei Mingkun replied with reservations. Zhou Dongjin smiled helplessly, okay, it can be regarded as an answer.At least it's more eloquent than Zhou Nanzheng's.Do you know what he said? ... Romance at fourteen is cute, he said, but romance at forty can only be ridiculous.Did he look for you?Zhou Dongjin asked suddenly. looked for. Zhou Dongjin sneered, I knew he would find you, I knew he would make everything perfect!It seems that you are going to help him convince me? I'm going to help you with that expense. Oh, I see, Zhou Dongjin nodded and said, it can be regarded as a kind of persuasion. I have already said hello, you can go to the sub-district to withdraw money when you go back. I think you are more like Zhou Nanzheng's younger brother than me, no wonder he appreciates you. Dong Jin, you are still so impulsive.In fact, if you have any difficulties, you can bring them up. As long as it can be solved, I will try my best to solve it for you within the scope of the division. Why do you need to go to the military area?Why bother to go to Beijing?Your elder brother is really worried about you, he asked me to persuade you. Do you think you can persuade me? If the difference is only in money and there are no other problems, I don't think the problem is big.Wei Mingkun said something in his words. What about other questions? That depends on the specific situation. The two looked at each other. Wei Mingkun stretched out his gaze as if scanning, searching the depths of Zhou Dongjin. Although Zhou Dongjin's eyes were wide open, his eyes seemed unable to gather together.The black pupils are like a piece of dark sea water—heavy and restless.Gradually, layers of waves broke out on the sea surface, and the sea water gradually became turbulent. Each wave was churning, rushing, and whistling with a violent impulse, desperately wanting to rush ashore... Wei Mingkun waited quietly, waiting for the rushing sea water, waiting for the impact of the rough waves. But the rushing seawater was blocked by the hard dam, and the huge waves smashed against the dam time and time again, turned into fine foam and retreated to the depths of the sea moaningly, disappearing like an ebb tide... Zhou Dongjin suddenly let out a long sigh.In fact, you all overestimate me, Zhou Dongjin said, I am not as low-class as you imagined, and I am not as lethal as you imagined.I might have been like that in the past, in the past... Zhou Dongjin was silent for a while and said, I don't want to mention those things in the past, I just want to talk about the present.Now, I always remember that I am the head of the Second Regiment, I have to be responsible to the Second Regiment, and I have to be responsible to all the officers and soldiers of the Second Regiment.All, including those who have died and those who have left the Second Regiment.Therefore, it is impossible for me to be as impulsive, romantic, and care about my personal psychological feelings as before. Suddenly there was a feeling of disappointment, and Wei Mingkun couldn't help feeling confused about himself, not knowing why he was disappointed, not knowing what he was looking forward to. Zhou Dongjin asked Wei Mingkun mockingly, look, am I mature enough? Wei Mingkun was taken aback for a moment before answering, I think it's time to wait, if you're really mature, I'm afraid you won't be chasing here for tens of thousands of dollars.After thinking about it, I said, in fact, your elder brother did this to... Don't mention him to me, okay?Zhou Dongjin interrupted Wei Mingkun impatiently. Wei Mingkun gave Zhou Dongjin a strange look, and continued, "Actually, your elder brother... Don't fucking mention him to me!Zhou Dongjin's fist hit the table hard with a "boom". Wei Mingkun was stunned. He saw Zhou Dongjin lower his head, as if he was desperately trying to restrain his emotions, but his chest was still heaving violently. Wei Mingkun didn't expect Zhou Dongjin to make such a weak voice, he was almost begging in a low voice: Kunzi, tell me something else, you can say anything. After being dazed for a long time, Wei Mingkun said dryly: Then...then let's go out for a walk, this room is really a bit too stuffy. Footsteps on the snow made a monotonous creaking sound.This year's winter seems to be extraordinarily long, and the snow seems to be extraordinarily abundant and heavy.This should be the last snow, right?After this snow, the weather should be getting warmer, and this long winter should be over. Dong Jin, I went to the hospital to see your father today. I know, Chuanchuan said that you sat by his bed for a long time. I asked the doctor, and the doctor said that it is very difficult for him to regain consciousness. The doctor has been saying that since the second cerebral hemorrhage, but I still don't believe it. That's right, the old man has been alive and well all his life, and it's really unpleasant to see him now.Dongjin, since you have come out, stay for two more days, do your best by the old man's side, and don't go back in a hurry. No, I want to go back.I have been to the hospital to see him today. Are you done with everything here? It's almost done.The communication equipment has been sent out, and the regiment will receive it soon, and the construction can start as soon as the weather turns warm.Didn't you also solve the funding problem for me?I think, I'd better go back sooner. Are you in a hurry to get back to work on your project? yes. I've just been meaning to ask you, how's it going? The drawing is done, and I can bring it back this time.The factory has also been contacted, and they can hurry up when they go back. Dongjin, if your project is successful, it will solve a big problem for the border guards. It can solve some problems, at least the monitoring of the border line will be stricter, the emergency response ability to deal with border emergencies will be greatly improved, and the operational intensity of soldiers' daily patrols will also be greatly reduced. it is good!If the partition is successful, I will give you credit. That's not necessary, if it's done, please reward us with some research funding.This project cost a lot of money in the regiment. It can be considered that spiritual rewards and material rewards can be done at the same time. There is something I want to discuss with you. What's up? The staff member who worked with me on the project research is called Chen Qi... I know, isn't it the college student you cheated on? how do you know? Wei Mingkun smiled, who in the whole division doesn't know? Yes, I cheated.This is a talent.I say this not only in terms of technology, I mean in terms of military thinking.In the past, I was very conceited and always thought that my military thinking had always been advanced. After listening to him talk about some of his views on the development of the world's military, I was shocked, only to find that my thinking has been greatly outdated.I think it was probably because the Gulf War gave us too much stimulation.When we see the "Patriot" missile intercepting the "Scud" in the air, seeing the precision-guided bomb go into the building and explode along the small vent, and see the "surgical" and After the new tactics of "non-contact strike", our brains were all messed up.This sudden surge of information is the most likely to cause people to have illusions under extreme excitement.Since the Gulf War, we have been full of high-tech modern warfare and high-tech weapons.I thought that compared with others, we were only inferior in equipment, and thought that as long as this aspect was improved, we would be able to deal with modern warfare.In fact, in the face of war, especially in the face of future wars, what often plays a decisive role is not the use of weapons and tactics, but the renewal of war thinking!The use of weapons and tactics are all determined by the thinking of war.War thinking, this is what we should pay the most attention to, study with all our strength, and most likely lead us to break through the constraints of backward equipment and enter the military frontier field! interesting!Wei Mingkun nodded thoughtfully, and suddenly said, hey, let's continue? no more.How can such an important idea be explained clearly in a sentence or a sentence? You can read it after I write the paper.Zhou Dongjin added complacently, however, I am a blockbuster, and for those mediocre minds who are used to mediocre thinking, I am afraid it will not be acceptable for a while. Wei Mingkun seemed to see the same Zhou Dongjin back then.He found that after so many years, Zhou Dongjin was still in a state of excitement as soon as he mentioned such topics as before, his eyes were round and bright, and the arrogance and arrogance in his bones had not diminished in the slightest.The only difference is that he no longer just repeats ancient and modern Chinese and foreign war examples and a few new terms to show off himself as before, and no longer only knows a little bit of superficiality before making a big discussion.It can be seen that his current thinking has jumped out of the general level, with a higher reference, a wider vision and deeper thinking. Let's talk about Chen Qi.Zhou Dongjin brought the topic back and said, I didn't expect young people nowadays, especially young people in the high-level intellectual class, to pay so much attention to the military.I talked with him a lot during these days, Zhou Dongjin suddenly asked, do you know what touched me the most when talking with him? ? old. ! A very uncomfortable feeling.Let me tell you, whenever he talked about the advantages and limitations of the digital army, the role of ultra-micro robots in future warfare, and the prospect of unmanned warfare brought about by nanospace technology, I would I will think of my father.Back then, one thing left a deep impression on me.I remember that once I showed off to my dad the performance of an advanced weapon just issued by the army.At that time, I was very excited and didn't notice that my father's face became more and more embarrassing. He obviously couldn't understand those technical parameters.Later, my father suddenly quarreled with me.At first I didn't understand why he was so angry, but I understood later, he said: Don't fucking think that I am old, don't fucking think that I can't fight without these fancy things.Back then we used millet and rifles to defeat the aircraft and cannons of the Japanese devils!Let me tell you, little bastard, I can still win battles on the battlefield now!At that time, I didn't understand my father's mood, but now I understand a little bit. Zhou Dongjin's voice suddenly became a little heavy: When you find that the thinking of young people has surpassed yours, when you find that the knowledge you have mastered can no longer reach higher fields, you will feel a kind of sadness that old age is approaching.Of course, I am better than my father. Although I am not convinced, I still admire them from the bottom of my heart, even their unrealistic childishness.I want to discuss with you, how about transferring Chen Qi back to the division after my research here is over? Why are you willing to let him go? I want him to be trained on a larger level and play a role in a wider range. There is nothing wrong with young people practicing at the grassroots level for a few years. Even talents have to work from the grassroots step by step. I don't see it that way.I think you are also a rigid concept of talent.There are also various types of talents. Some talents are suitable for staying at the grassroots level for a long time, while others are not necessarily suitable.If talents who are good at macro research are placed at the grassroots level for a long time and they are not given the opportunity to see the overall situation, their vision will be limited and their imagination and creativity will be damaged. In addition, Chen Qi is too arrogant, has a strong personality, handles problems bluntly, and is immature.A person like him can easily offend the leader and ruin his future.Do you know what he said about my research?He said that my research can only be regarded as the primary product of agricultural mechanization-the walking tractor.Said that I just wanted to replace the ox-horse plow with a walk-behind tractor, not even a combine harvester!I was really pissed off at the time, I squeezed my fists and almost killed his two front teeth on the spot.You said, how could a brat like him be liked by the leader?How can it be possible to create a good development environment for yourself?So, I want to hand him over to you, and let you take care of him as much as possible, so that he doesn't die in a daze. Why should you give it to me? Because your current status gives you the ability to take care of him, besides... Don't be complacent after hearing that, I think you can handle him.Your maturity and sophistication make me have a special sense of trust in you, and I can trust you. Don't you hate my maturity that I don't know what life to cultivate? Yes, but it is this maturity that attracts me the most in you.Zhou Dongjin said sincerely, to tell you the truth, Kunzi, your maturity has attracted me very much since I was a child.I have always hated and admired, envied and envied your maturity beyond that of children of the same age.Zhou Dongjin suddenly smiled childishly, I never said it, I was afraid that you would be proud if you found out, and mistakenly think that you are better than me. However, I hope you, Commander Wei, can be more tolerant of Chen Qi.Be merciful, don't fix him easily, rather let him never mature, don't hurt his personality, don't kill his imagination and creativity.Zhou Dongjin thought about it and said that war actually requires imagination more than art, and no matter how bold the imagination is, it is difficult to exceed the development process of war.Therefore, the most valuable thing in war thinking is probably the imagination that is always ahead of reality, full of vitality, and endlessly emerging.There is no talented military strategist who is not full of rich imagination for future wars, and there is no successful battle that is not a masterpiece of imagination.Kunzi, our knowledge and experience have limited us, and what we can do now is probably to cherish them.Just cherish them! Wei Mingkun has been silently looking at Zhou Dongjin.This is a person who always maintains his sincerity and passion no matter how many setbacks he experiences. Feeling a little sick, a dull ache in your heart or somewhere in your body. At this time, Wei Mingkun really wanted to say something to Zhou Dongjin, it should be some words of praise, or some close and emotional words.But no, it might be okay for others, but he couldn't say these words to Zhou Dongjin.In the end, when Wei Mingkun opened his mouth, he said something that even surprised him: Dongjin, come to the division and become the chief of staff, let's do it together! Zhou Dongjin froze for a moment, not because he was surprised by Wei Mingkun's proposal, but because he was surprised by Wei Mingkun's straightforward expression.Based on what he knew about Wei Mingkun, it was absolutely impossible for Wei Mingkun to say such promise-like words easily, especially to him.After being silent for a while, Zhou Dongjin said with a complicated expression, Kunzi, I am afraid you have misunderstood.I didn't say these things to you as a friend. I didn't say this to you as a friend.Wei Mingkun said coldly, I just think you might be a good chief of staff. Then I will be at ease.Zhou Dongjin said, what about the two of us?For example, it's like two separate mountains.Mountains are different from water. Water can flow separately or flow together.But the mountains can't do it. The mountains are always at the center of each other, and they can never be approached or approached.In a word, you and I can't be friends. Dong Jin, do you know what I hate about you the most?Wei Mingkun said, it's the arrogance of a cadre's son in you!But I also don't want to deny that it is precisely this arrogance that most attracts me and arouses my passion in you.To be honest, Dongjin, I never thought of becoming friends with you, but I never thought that the two of us couldn't work together.Even if there are two independent mountains, even if they can never get close or get close, they can still echo each other and support a landscape together, right? The two stopped and looked at each other, their eyes were close but distant, stalemate and indifferent. Yes, at least your judgment is accurate.Zhou Dongjin said, I must be a good chief of staff! From a distance, Zhou Dongjin could be seen standing straight in the middle of the square in front of the station.Chen Jian quietly went around Zhou Dongjin's back, and just about to pat his shoulder with his hand, Zhou Dongjin suddenly turned around and grabbed Chen Jian's wrist.Chen Jian let out an "ouch", and Zhou Dongjin realized that it was Chen Jian, and immediately let go of his hand.But Chen Jian was already kneeling down in pain.Zhou Dongjin quickly squatted down to check Chen Jian's hand.Fortunately, it wasn't hurt. Fortunately, I let it go in time, otherwise this hand might not be twisted. Seeing Chen Jian's aggrieved expression with tears in his eye circles, Zhou Dongjin said angrily and amusedly, just because of your appearance, you still want to sneak up on me behind the scenes?I can tell you, don't make such jokes with me again in the future.I have been trained, and I have a habit of responding to emergencies. I can't do anything lightly or seriously. What if I hurt you? Who knew you were so cruel?Chen Jian said angrily. Who knew you were so stupid?Zhou Dongjin said with a playful smile. you? !Chen Jian was so angry that she withdrew her hand and turned to leave.Zhou Dongjin quickly chased after him. After chasing all the way to the entrance of the waiting hall, Zhou Dongjin blocked Chen Jian.Chen Jian glared at Zhou Dongjin angrily, wanting to wait for Zhou Dongjin to say a lot of soft words before deciding whether to give him a good face or not.Unexpectedly, Zhou Dongjin didn't say anything, he hugged her into his arms, and carried her into the hall under the eyes of everyone. The first time she walked in the arms of a man in front of a large crowd, Chen Jian felt a little flustered.But she soon calmed down.This broad, solid chest gave her a solid sense of security.She felt that there was a heart-stirring atmosphere that seemed to emanate from there continuously, lingering around her, warming her, and silently seeping into her heart.A sense of slightly drunk happiness suddenly arises spontaneously.She raised her face to look at the tall man beside her, and found that Zhou Dongjin seemed to turn a blind eye to everything around her.He just hugged her and walked forward without distraction, turning a long road into a very short one. After entering the coffee and tea room in the waiting room, he gently put her on the sofa like a valuable.any drinks?Zhou Dongjin leaned over and asked. The undisguised true feelings revealed in Zhou Dongjin's eyes suddenly moved Chen Jian very much.Have a cup of coffee.Chen Jian said meekly. When the coffee came, it was a poor-quality instant coffee with an inexplicably strange taste in my mouth. How about it?Zhou Dongjin asked with a smirk. Chen Jian pretended to take a sip, exaggeratingly speaking, it tasted so good! really good? really good! Then I can rest assured, Zhou Dongjin said.Only then did he take off his coat, and sat down in front of Chen Jian in a down-to-earth manner.There is still more than an hour before the departure, and they can sit here quietly for a while. Hey, why are you leaving all of a sudden?Chen Jian asked. It's all over.Zhou Dongjin obviously didn't want to bring up this topic. Chen Jian stared at Zhou Dongjin and said, do you have something on your mind? Zhou Dongjin sighed, why can't I hide anything from you? I am one of your ribs. Zhou Dongjin's expression dimmed, and he silently stirred the coffee in his cup. If you don't want to say it, don't say it.Chen Jian patted Zhou Dongjin's hand. Chen Jian, Zhou Dongjin suddenly asked, have you ever been deceived?Ever been lied to by someone closest to you? ... You have not, if you have been deceived, your eyes will not be so clear. A feeling of uneasiness suddenly hit her heart, Chen Jian quickly said, can we talk about something else?Dongjin, let's talk about something else. Chen Jian, just let me speak.Zhou Dongjin said almost pleadingly, besides you, I have no one to talk to and nothing else to talk to! Chen Jian stared at Zhou Dongjin in a daze, not knowing what to do for a moment. Zhou Dongjin lowered his head slowly.It can be seen that he is trying to restrain his emotions, his teeth are clenched, his cheeks are tense, his Adam's apple is sliding up and down with difficulty, his chest is panting and heaving sharply, and the two big hands that are twisted together also make a suppressed creaking sound . Chen Jian worriedly stretched out her hand and stroked Zhou Dongjin's back, and said softly, then say it, if you think it will make you feel better, say it. It took a long time before Zhou Dongjin raised his head, but his face had already calmed down.Zhou Dongjin said in a calm tone as much as possible, forget it, don't talk about it.Seeing the worried look in Chen Jian's eyes, she explained that some things must be borne by herself, and only by herself.Don't worry, I can take it. There is a smell of bad coffee in the air, which is so dull that it makes people breathless. Chen Jian suddenly remembered the blueprints she had brought, and her heart was shaken. She immediately made a fuss while taking out the blueprints, and said, ouch, I almost forgot the business.Give!She vigorously pushed the drawing to Zhou Dongjin. Sure enough, Zhou Dongjin's eyes lit up, is it all right?Zhou Dongjin asked. No problem at all! Great!Zhou Dongjin said, how should I thank you? I see, Chen Jian said with a smile, you can't thank me too much. That's right, Zhou Dongjin said affectionately, I can't thank you enough! Then don't look at it stupidly, and quickly put away the drawings.Chen Jian said. Seeing Zhou Dongjin carefully put the blueprints into the bag, Chen Jian couldn't help laughing, there is no need to be so careful, right?Those are blueprints, not expensive instruments. To me it is a precious instrument. Hey, let me ask you, Chen Jian suddenly asked, what am I to you? You are also a precious instrument.Zhou Dongjin said. Chen Jian burst into laughter, fuck you, who is the instrument? What are you not an instrument?Aren't all my drawings corrected with your instrument? you?Do you really treat me like an instrument? Of course, Zhou Dongjin said, you are the most valuable piece of equipment in my hand. Chen Jian gritted her teeth and said, Zhou Dongjin, so I'm just an instrument you use?So you just want me to correct those drawings for you? ! No, Zhou Dongjin suddenly withdrew his smile and said seriously, you are everything to me! Chen Jian froze for a moment, then smiled awkwardly, "Is...is it that serious?" Zhou Dongjin nodded sincerely. 心突然急促地跳起来，陈简的脸兴奋得绯红。 知道刚才追你的时候我是怎么想的吗？Zhou Dongjin asked. 陈简的眼睛里闪出一个问号。 我想，我不会让你跑掉的，无论你跑到哪我都要把你追回来，因为你是我的。 你就那么肯定？ That's right. 如果我不是朝这边跑，而是跑到那边上车走了呢？陈简调皮地笑着问。 那我就坐车追。 吹牛！你不赶火车了？ 不赶了。 Why? 因为火车还有下一班，可你只有一个。 我对你真的这么重要吗？ 比什么都重要！周东进对着陈简的眼睛说，过去我不懂得珍惜，我也因此失去过很多很多。说到这里，周东进的眼睛暗淡了一下。但现在我懂了，我知道我想要的是什么，知道什么是属于我的，知道什么是我不应该放弃的。我不会放过你的陈简，你休想从我手里跑掉。 陈简把额头伸过来抵着周东进的额头，低声说，我真想…… What? 陈简看了看四周，狠狠地说，我真想咬你一口！ 两人会心地笑了。 周东进缓缓搅动着咖啡，又陷入了沉思。 what's on your mind?Chen Jian asked. 我在想，周东进的声音突然变得很沉重，谁能真正知道自己想要什么，真正知道什么是属于自己的，真正知道什么东西是不能放弃的呢？ what happened to you?陈简诧异地打量着周东进。 我问你，如果一边是你想要得到的所有东西，一边是你心里一直坚守着的一种东西，你会要什么？ I do not understand. 这么说吧，假如你非常想要得到一些东西，而要想得到这些东西，你就必须放弃你始终坚守着的一种信念或是准则，你会怎么办？ 我会先搞清楚哪些是我最需要的。 可是你搞不清楚哪些是你最需要的。 那我就搞清楚放弃哪方是我心理能够承受的。 不，放弃哪方你的心里也无法承受。 那就简单了：放弃所有的，只留下你心里最后的那点东西。 Why? 因为只有他是你的，因为他就是你，因为你无论放弃什么也不能放弃自己。 It's that simple? 就这么简单！ 可是？ ... 没有可是。你就是这样一种人，永远得瞧得起自己，永远得坚守住自己。如果你放弃了自己，哪怕得到的再多，那些东西对你也是没有任何意义的。 周东进呆呆地看着陈简，忍不住问道，你怎么会知道？ 陈简一笑，又忘了，我是你的一根肋骨。 可是，我已经决定放弃了。周东进颓丧地说。 陈简认真地审视着周东进，轻轻叹了一口气说，你是在努力说服自己放弃。如果你真的已经决定了，就不会再来问我了。 咖啡早已凉了，周东进还在下意识地不停地搅拌着。 别苦自己了东进。陈简说，其实什么样的选择都有道理。无论你做出什么样的选择，我都理解。 我怎么选择你都能理解吗？ 都能理解！ 陈简，答应我，永远也不要欺骗我。周东进一把抓住陈简的手，死死地盯住陈简说，哪怕全世界都陷入同一个骗局，哪怕说真话会把我打入地狱，哪怕需要用你我的生命做代价，你也不要欺骗我！ 我答应。陈简认真地说。 周东进的眼睛突然湿润了，他动情地说，陈简，你是我的希望，是我在快要溺死之前抓到的惟一的一根稻草，我不知道你是不是有力量把我浮起来，但至少你没让我立刻就沉入水底，你是惟一给我希望的人…… 不，东进，你的希望是你自己，只能是你自己！陈简说。 周东进蓦地抬头看着陈简。 ... The phone rang suddenly.耳机里响起川川急切的声：东进吗，你赶快回医院来，爸爸…… 爸爸怎么了？ 爸爸病情突然变化，正在抢救，你快点来吧！