Chapter 16 Chapter fifteen

Tomorrow came, as always, without stopping for a moment because of my fear.When the first ray of golden light on the window passed through the curtains and sent a ray of light into the room, I, who had been insomnia all night, not only did not appreciate the sun's fulfillment of duty, but was frightened by its premature arrival.For the upcoming interrogation, or called acceptance, this ray of sunshine is more like a mocking voice, which sets off my depressed and even desperate mood even more gloomy.I think, on such a day, if it is rainy or snowy, it may comfort my mood.Because the bright sunshine made me feel that the ugliness in my human nature is being fully exposed, and the illegal activities I have done as a businessman are also being seen at a glance.

After breakfast in the morning, I did not give up and called Yu Zhi's work unit. This was also the first time I called Yu Zhi on my own initiative after we divorced.As a result, I had to completely give up: Yuzhi went to Europe for investigation.If this is a coincidence, I prefer to believe that this is God's will: it is punishing me, it is driving me to a corner.I slumped on the sofa in despair, searching for someone I could turn to for help.But nothing.Usually, my contacts are too narrow. Not only do I have no close friends, but I don’t even have any relatives to turn to. When it was almost nine o'clock, I walked out of the house with a gray face from insomnia, fear and despair.This is really a sunny day, just like the day Yu Zhi divorced, I don't know why I always have the most unlucky things on this sunny day?It seems that my fate is not born to see the sun!At the corner of the building, there were a few old people exercising in the sun, and a black car was coming. When I saw the number of the car, I realized that it was a neighbor's car.At that moment, I was extremely ashamed, and I had a strong thought in my mind, that is how to avoid him, or how to escape from him, I thought if there was a crack in the ground, I might quickly get into it as people often laugh at me. disappear.The car drove towards me little by little, and I could almost see the smile on the familiar face behind the car window, and my nervous heart was still looking for the exit of fear.When the car was approaching me, I suddenly threw the key in my hand to my feet, and quickly bent down and turned my face to the ground. When I stood up straight and looked forward, the car was already beside me After driving, there is only a cloud of flying dust mixed with a wisp of gasoline smell in the air.

Walking through the corner of the building, I hurried around a few old ladies who were exercising in the morning.If God can still give me a little hope of survival in despair, then the phone call from Zhang Zhiyou, who provided me with the source of goods, can be regarded as the only life-saving signal in the desperate situation.That was the first call I got when my phone was just turned on.He said that as long as I don't bite him, he will help me deal with the next situation.He also told me that his original pager had been shut down, and that it was handled by a fake ID card. I could provide the callsign to the public security department, and he said he didn't know anything about the rest.

Like receiving a life-saving straw in drowning, I clung to it tightly.I didn't take the bus, but just walked along the sidewalk under a row of bare poplar trees.The sun is like an omnipresent gigantic god, passing through the intertwined space of branches overhead, pouring endless cold, decay and desolation.I went from a rough freehand drawing to another graffiti-style pattern under my feet, and I really hope to go like this forever.When the sun disappears, the pattern disappears, and I also disappear like a fixed stroke in the pattern, and I will never remember anything again.However, how is that possible?A quarter of an hour later, the road under my feet began to fork, and I had to go to another path without the shade of a big tree, because this led to the unpredictable future.When the sign marking the Public Security Bureau suddenly came into view, the fear that had been suppressed all the time quickly plunged into the body like a winding snake and began to move up and down.

I stopped at the door, trying to adjust my fear to calm myself.However, as a result of the adjustment, I found that instead of calming down, my legs and lips began to tremble. Someone was talking in my ear, and like a dreamer, I slowly recognized who was this familiar voice?From where?Before I could judge clearly, a man in a bulging down jacket and a big white mask stood in front of me! Chenchen! I seemed to be in a dream suddenly, staring at the son who seemed to have fallen from the sky in front of me, and then looked around, as well as the terrible sign, not knowing what to say.My son didn't move, looking at me with heavy, concerned eyes.Next, he suddenly reached out and put something warm in my palm, and said vaguely through the mask:

Mom, this is the Jade Bodhisattva you bought for me a few years ago, he will bless you to be fine. Two big tears burst from my eyes and rolled down my cheeks.I don't know whether it was these two tears that washed away my despair, or the appearance of my son made me realize my obligations and responsibilities. I felt my stiff body begin to soften.I reached out and patted my son's shoulder, and finally made a relaxed gesture: Son, don't worry, nothing serious will happen. Five minutes later, under the escort of my son's concerned eyes, I walked into the Public Security Bureau pretending to be calm.

That's how it started. After a lot of twists and turns, I was taken into a large room, walked past two people who were being interrogated, and was taken to a table in front of two stern police officers. line of interrogation. After the initial fear, he was neither severely reprimanded nor tortured as imagined.Especially when I saw so many people being interrogated in various ways like myself, I unknowingly became relaxed.Sitting at the table, looking at the people in the world who I once regarded as scum, but they are no different from me and work with me, I feel that the world is really ridiculous.I have always felt that I am innocent and upright in my soul. Although I have done some things that violate my conscience and even morality, in my bones, I feel that I have not fallen, because those things are life that makes me have no choice.And now, after years of self-importance and arrogance, I should be a scumbag, a clown accused of being a clown.From a researcher with a deputy senior professional title to a small bookseller, and then became a pornographic criminal in a blink of an eye, what kind of time and what kind of events have passed in this process, I can hardly think clearly at this small table.Maybe life is just a play, and I'm just changing from one role to another, and when the final scene is over and the curtain falls, everything will really become clear.

At nearly twelve o'clock at noon, I finally signed and pressed my thumbprint on a thick stack of investigation records.About ten minutes later, I was taken into another room and stood before an even more commanding officer.He held my materials in his hand, stared at my face with lifeless eyes, and said in a calm tone: "Your traffic in pornography is quite a lot. If you are strictly investigated, you will be able to pursue criminal investigations." responsibility. I... His words without emotion immediately awakened me who had been dreaming like a dream, and the fear when I first entered the police station seized my heart again.I looked up and looked desperately at his face, trying to find a hint of menace in it.but!He is as calm as water, and seems to be reading the letter of the law without emotion.He's still looking at me!What he said was true!

Suddenly, I was dizzy with fright.A few seconds later, I heard myself yelling in fear in my husky voice: No—no!I can not.I can accept any punishment, but I can't go to jail.I have a son and a father.My son won't accept such a mother, I can't embarrass my son, and my sick father can't take this kind of blow, he will die... shut up!In my desperate begging, the policeman on the opposite side suddenly uttered a stern reprimand, which hit my heart like a flying stone.I couldn't help but screamed all over my body, and cut off the second half of the sentence that was flying out of my throat.

Listen up, it's up to you now.If you can help us catch the drug dealer and plead guilty with a good attitude, we can give appropriate leniency to your family situation. I was completely paralyzed, and it was only then, so to speak, that I realized the dire consequences I faced.Next, I behaved like a docile lamb, listening carefully to the police on the opposite side as if to flatter me: In the past few days, you'd better not wander around and wait for our investigation and subpoena at any time. In the afternoon, I was again called to the Public Security Bureau for interrogation and investigation.By the time we left the police station, it was already dark.Stepping into the twilight of the evening, the prosperity of the city in front of me is like a piece of fragmented rotten glass slag, glowing with various lusters and smells, constantly rushing and flowing around.On the surface, the scene was lively and charming.However, when an unprepared and vigilant person is placed in such a world, even a small hard corner may destroy all his good impressions. At this time, he may have paid the price in blood.I have walked through such a world. Although I have learned to protect myself and even learned to fight fire with fire, I still fell into such a failed situation in the end.Is this my fault?Or is it a catastrophe arranged by fate for me?

The wind became stronger and stronger at some point, and the whimpering of the branches full of trees became louder and louder.I tightened my neck and wrapped my coat around the wind-blown coat, like a lonely gray sheep, walking on the way home against the wind.When walking past a three-star hotel, among the diners coming in and out at the door, there seems to be a once-acquainted face flashing by.However, the wind was so strong that there were constantly big or small dust blowing in the wind, and I could hardly open my eyes to identify a person or a scene.As I walked past a huge parking lot and into the familiar streets I came home from, I felt a vague sense of unease, as if eyes were staring at me from behind.I walked faster and faster, and the faint footsteps behind me got closer and closer with the wind in my ears, and I could even hear the faint panting.I was extremely nervous. One after another, the images of horrific assassination movies flew from my mind to the night in front of me. Mixing with the night, the sound of the wind and the faint footsteps behind me, I felt that I was in a horror movie. inside.I judged that the supplier must be afraid that I would expose him, and was planning to kill him to silence him.As soon as this thought came to me, I suddenly felt flustered and short of breath. The footsteps behind me grew louder, and I was so frightened that I almost ran.I think, if my judgment is true, then I must find a way to stabilize the other party, especially if I want him to understand before killing me that there is no need for him to do so.Because I didn't betray him today, and I won't in the future. A mother and daughter who were chatting and laughing happened to be walking in front of them.Just as I was getting closer and closer to them, I turned around boldly and looked back. "Ah——" Just when I turned around and hadn't stood still, a bird-like thing suddenly faced my forehead, brushing the top of my head and rushing over.I turned around and looked in shock, and found a withered leaf, which was being blown around by the deep winter wind.I took a long breath, and found that the mother and daughter were staring at me in shock, and walked quickly past me.Then, a man in a black coat, who happened to meet the mother and daughter, was walking towards me with his shoulders shrugged. The pale street lamps were shining not far away, and the dust and sand blown up by the wind rolled and diffused in all directions.I opened my eyes wide, but my eyes were still blurred, only the bare branches above my head, accompanied by the continuous sharp whistle, a bunch of black lines of uneven thickness and criss-crossing, swaying and clawing in front of my eyes. what should I do?At that moment, I suddenly wanted to run away from this scary man in the dust. However, my feet seemed to be nailed to the ground and I couldn't move at all.Only my swollen heart was beating fiercely like a heavy hammer, and I was helplessly waiting for the man in black to approach. One step, one step, another step, two steps left, I could almost see his indifferent face, constantly changing from yin to yang under the shadows cast by the branches, and even saw a muscle twitch at the corner of his mouth.He's talking, he's talking to me: do not be afraid.I am Zhang Zhiyou's friend.He asked me to give you a note. When he finished this sentence, he had already missed my body.When passing by me, he lightly touched the corner of my clothes, and I felt a piece of paper stuffed into my hand.He said, look at it when you go home. He left and walked to a turning point in front of him, and disappeared as soon as he turned the corner, like the leaf that was blown up by the wind just now, suddenly appeared from the darkness, and then disappeared suddenly from the darkness. Ten minutes later, I was back home as fast as I could.My son had already opened the inner door when he heard my opening. I lightly patted my fearful son on the shoulder, pretending to be relaxed and said, it's nothing serious, it will be dealt with soon.Then rushed into the bathroom. Xie Yuping: Ping Ping Do not be afraid.We are trying to help you.We have advanced two thousand yuan for you.It is estimated that the whole thing will cost 5,000 yuan. I hope you can raise enough money quickly. In an hour, my friend will be waiting for you at the corner of the nearby "Mingzi Tavern".Don't worry, although we are members of the underworld, we still keep our promises. I stood in the bathroom and cried silently again.Not only excited for the sudden rescue, but also sad for the life-saving money of the old father who is about to work hard and save money.Looking at the gray-faced middle-aged woman in the mirror, I felt the cruelty and helplessness of fate.I really want to find the God of Destiny and ask, why punish me like this?Why not give me a way out?If it is true as my father said, what sins did I commit in my previous life, or which god I offended in this life, I can accept the punishment.But, why give me so many roles?Let me not even have the right to choose to be free? The more I thought about it, the sadder it became. Tears flowed down my dusty cheeks, and my son knocked on the door. I stopped crying and turned on the tap to wash the tears and pain away.I know that in such a predicament, my son is still an underage child after all, and I must prop up a peaceful space for his immature heart to block the invasion of wind and rain outside. I opened the door, trying to look calm.Perhaps my pretentious posture was too false compared to my mature son. My son was not moved by the calmness I pretended. He just followed behind me and kept asking, Mom, how did they treat you today? , reprimand you?scold you?What will happen to us? "How?" The son used such a vague sentence.Yes, how about one?It includes various situations such as "fine, detention, reeducation through labor, and sentencing." These are words that my son dare not say, and they are also words that I am afraid to hear.We all avoid such terrible words, lest we inflict terrible blows on ourselves and on each other's hearts.Of course, I also saw from my son's "how about" question that he was worried about the result.In order to comfort my young son, I told him softly that a friend was helping to get through the relationship, basically it would not be a big deal, the most fine would be a fine. The son was dubious and went back to the house to do his homework.An hour later, I took out 5,000 yuan from the 10,000 yuan left over to pay for my father's chemotherapy treatment, and sneaked out of the dormitory building in the dark.I know that the only way out for me now is Zhang Zhi, no matter whether he lies to me or helps me, and no matter what kind of help he will end up with, I have to try.After all, Zhang Zhiyou and I are almost comrades-in-arms in the same trench now, if he sees me fall in, it may not be a trouble for him.In this respect, when he helps me, he is actually helping himself. In the following week, I almost became a regular visitor to the Public Security Bureau.I was on call every day, the materials that required fingerprinting became thicker and thicker, and the plot became more and more detailed, but I still gritted my teeth and did not tell anything about Zhang Zhiyou, even though a police officer was dubious about my account and used Merit and leniency to induce me.At the same time, Zhang Zhiyou's secret activities were also taking effect. Individual police officers became more and more careless and lazy in interrogating me.Later, the number of summons I received began to decrease, from twice a day at first to once a day, and then once every two or three days, and there was even no news for a few days.One day, I finally received news from Zhang Zhiyou: the matter will come to a conclusion soon. That day, I was thinking about the remaining money at home, and I was going to call my father's doctor in charge to ask about the status of the chemotherapy and whether it was time to pay the next stage of the fee.When I was about to pick up the phone, the phone suddenly rang like an alarm.When Zhang Zhiyou's excited voice sounded, I knew that the moment I had been looking forward to and fearing was coming soon.Faced with this news, I don't think I have much joy except fear, although I have been looking forward to the swift end of this kind of day. I asked in a low voice, trembling uncontrollably, as if I was afraid that the loud voice would bring about some ominous disaster: What will be the result? We've done everything we can, you have to be prepared.According to inside friends, fines are inevitable. How much is the fine?When I heard money, my heart became very heavy, because money is almost the lifeblood for me and my family. Not a lot, don't worry.We have caught several people like you, probably no more than 10,000!But it won't hurt if you prepare more. Ten thousand, isn't that a lot?My heart despaired again. Three days later, I was last notified and called over.It seems that what Zhang Zhiyou said is very accurate, and my problem has finally been resolved.I was told to confiscate 3,000 yuan of illegal income and fined 5,000 yuan.As for the business license, it will not be canceled for the time being, and the unit will criticize and educate me before allowing me to operate. I had to hand in the money I was going to pay for my father's medical treatment during the restricted period.In this way, the last time I went to the provincial capital to bring my father's medical treatment, except for the 5,000 yuan and the activity fee to Zhang Zhiyou, almost all the rest was confiscated.I almost suppressed the trembling of my hands desperately, and handed over the money.When the money finally got out of my control and was put into the drawer of the woman across from me, looking at the thin receipt in front of me, I really wanted to say to those indifferent policemen, what you took was a woman Hard-earned money, an old man's life-saving money, a child's school tuition! The days of fear are over.After being empty-handed and devastated, I once again made up my mind to revive the prestige of the bookstore management in the past, where I fell, and where to get up! After a few days off, I decided to quickly reopen the bookstore.However, the specific action has not yet started, but I received a call from the unit.I was informed that I would go to work in the third production department of my unit the next morning. What kind of department is the Ministry of Third Industry? I have never heard of it.When this department was established, who is in charge, whether the work involves my bookstore or my relationship, etc., I am even more unclear.It seems that on the day I left, the situation in the unit was changing all the time. I don't want to go to the unit during this time, especially because I'm afraid of seeing those familiar faces.I can imagine the conversations my bookstore accident brought to individual colleagues, especially Chang Tianli and Li Zifeng.I think this incident may make them go to a certain hotel to celebrate on a certain night, just like when we got the news that Chang Tianli's husband had an accident.Thinking of this, I felt that the shame in my heart was swelling into strong self-esteem, which made me have to hide my embarrassment and weakness deeply when I walked into the familiar courtyard, with a look of seeing the big wind, the big waves and the world. With a cheeky attitude, he took the initiative to say hello to everyone he met.I told myself that I would not fall down because of this, let alone feel ashamed because of it.I kept comforting myself in my heart: Fuck it, didn't you just sell a few dirty books?Nothing to fuss about! If it is said that this kind of bracing is something that my relatively strong heart can bear, then the news I heard next completely bent my spine.When I was sitting in front of the director of the Tertiary Industry Department—a woman who had lost her position due to the merger of divisions, I suddenly felt a little uneasy.She probably noticed my doubts, so she introduced me as soon as I settled down.It turned out that in order to manage some newly developed income-generating projects, the Bureau specially set up the Tertiary Industry Development Department, and my relationship was placed in her department a month ago.It seems that this is a department specially set up in the bureau for her losing her post! I've been wondering why I was called.I think the biggest possibility is to let me pay off the money I borrowed from the unit that opened the bookstore, so most of the time, I have been thinking about how to let the other party give me a few more days, because the unit that I just experienced was fined. clearly.However, the next thing she handed me was a document that proved me wrong, and dead wrong. The title of that document is in bold black number two: My mind suddenly went blank. For a few minutes I didn't recover, just stared blankly at the thin document.At the bottom right of the file, there is a small corner with a slightly yellowish water stain on the corner, as if someone had shed a tear here.This reminds me of my husband's Ph.D. in the UK, when I wrote to him, I occasionally shed tears on the letter paper because of missing... because they are very similar.Reflexively, I reached out and touched my face and eyes. I didn't think I had cried yet, so the stain must not have been my tears.I don’t know if the action of touching my eyes touched my tear glands, or the stain reminded me of my own loneliness when my husband went abroad, or because I woke up and understood the consequences this document would bring to me in the days to come, I suddenly Wept uncontrollably. No!I can't be laid off!So how?So how? Someone knocked on the door and came in. He stood in the house hesitating, as if he was considering whether to go out or stay.I couldn't stop crying, I thought, I don't even have the last support for my life, so what dignity can I care about?I thought, even if everyone in the unit knew that I was crying in the Third Industry Department, what would it matter?I have no job, why can't I cry?Although no one has pity on me, even my crying will not redeem me. After about two minutes, the man said hello and left first.The moment he closed the door, I heard the comfort from the so-called director opposite: I understand your difficulty, but this decision is made by the bureau committee.I'm just executing.If you have any difficulties, you have to find the bureau leader. Looking for the bureau leader, who are you looking for?Not only did I not feel any comfort in this proposal, but I was even more desperate because of the word "bureau leader".Because the current top leader has been replaced by Director Sun who has a close relationship with Chang Tianli.Li Zifeng, the other bureau chief, basically became an enemy after the mountain town broke up completely, and I almost only knew the other bureau chiefs.Who will help me? It didn't take me long to control my tears, then wiped the tears off my face and walked out.I didn't go to any leader, because I felt that there was no room for redemption.I even suspect that this result may be the result of Chang Tianli's full operation on the top leader, and even on Li Zifeng.If this guess is true, then my fate of being laid off cannot be changed.Walking down the stairs, crossing the compound, enduring utter despair and shame, hurriedly avoiding familiar faces one by one, wishing to become flying insects above the head, ants under the feet, fleeing without people's sight noticing here.I can no longer take care of my poor dignity.Like a thoroughly defeated dog in the water, with my tail between my legs, I left this place where I have worked for more than ten years with a heart full of sadness. Three days later, I got 5,000 yuan in cash out of the 25,000 yuan valuation obtained from the small bookstore.Following the end of my writing and research work, my business career also came to an end. When the winter cold is receding, the winter in my heart has fallen back into the harsh ice and snow.In the blow of being laid off, after a whole week of soaking in tears, my ashen heart was almost on the verge of stopping.However, this does not seem to be the worst thing.Just when I felt a breath of spring from the occasional scenery outside the window, a high fever that lasted for several days suddenly broke out, and once again destroyed the little vitality I had left. The days glide on in this half-asleep, half-dream feeling.In my vague consciousness, the pain in my body seems to come from a distant blow, and my wandering soul is more like a gray bird lost in the street, wandering in the dreams of groups of people of all colors competing with each other every day.I saw Li Zifeng's contemptuous eyes, Chang Tianli's bright red mouth mocking, my father's scorched face and son's thin shoulders, and even Yu Zhi and his new wife... Four days later, I finally brought my The responsibility of life has escaped from death. When I got up from the hospital bed and walked outdoors, I suddenly found that on the steps in front of a building, several lush winter jasmines were blooming with dazzling yellow flowers, silently meeting me like brilliant stars. Looking at each other, I seem to know the pain and pain in my heart.Accompanied by my son, I walked across the narrow road in front of me silently, stepped over the roses that had just been planted under my feet, walked to the clusters of flowers, smelled the fresh fragrance, and said softly: It is already spring! It's spring, and my son echoed me softly. The plan for a day lies in the morning, and the plan for a year lies in spring.My son and I said this sentence almost at the same time. I put my arms around his shoulders, and we laughed with tears.A few years ago, when my son was in the fifth grade of elementary school, his studies were delayed for nearly a month due to an illness, and he failed the Olympic exam of course.When spring first came, my son's illness gradually recovered.I took my son into the garden for the first time, looked at the early spring scenery just now, and recited this poem with my son to encourage his study.Today, facing the familiar scenery, I changed roles with my son.The consolation is that I found that the expression on the corner of my son's mouth became more and more determined.I told myself: My son has finally grown up, and he has become strong. The next day, my son resumed his normal studies, and I went to the provincial capital to continue to take care of my father's treatment. During my illness, my son had already gone to the provincial capital to pay for the next period of chemotherapy for my father.After further chemotherapy, his father's condition improved significantly.This may be a little compensation for me this spring!Even though I tried to smile, I still couldn't face my elderly father comfortably after going through such a big change.What disturbs me the most is that the treatment fee is like a tempting cake that is being eaten up every day at an alarming rate.I know that now more than ever I need to work and earn money.Therefore, on the second day after arriving in the provincial capital, I left the hospital and came to a talent market. I hoped to find a decent job with a higher salary in a provincial capital with more employment opportunities.That way, I can leave the city that makes me sad, and the people who make me sick. Surrounded by noisy crowds, I searched hopefully from nine to eleven in the morning without finding a single job for which I could apply.Almost all decent jobs limit the age below thirty-five years old, even if there is no job under thirty-five years old, it is not a general manager, it is a chief engineer, accountants, I have not only no experience, but also no experience. expertise.In addition, there are various marketers: pharmaceutical marketing, cosmetics marketing, health care product marketing, insurance marketing and so on.By noon, I had to make my way, dejectedly, through groups of frowning people.However, I can't give up. I feel that I need patience and perseverance more than ever.I think of "Who Moved My Cheese", and the little mouse in the book, the dwarf Haw.So I told myself that I was going to be like them, convinced that somewhere, there was a whole lot of fresh cheese waiting for me.Inspired by this spirit, that afternoon and the next day, with my self-confidence constantly piling up, I spent almost all of my time in a personal talent market, but when it was dark the next day, I Disappointed again. I remember that Haw was also disappointed many times, and he kept encouraging himself after each disappointment.In this way, on the third day, I once again cheered myself up and started to shuttle through the crowded talent markets.As the Chinese saying goes, "God can't kill a blind bird from starvation", when I was struggling again with depression and despair, there was an entry in a newspaper that collected all kinds of information on recruitment and job hunting. caught my attention.write on: Due to the needs of business development, we are now recruiting several people with experience in news gathering and writing.It is required to have a bachelor degree or above, relevant experience, and a certain pioneering ability... The signature is a certain business newspaper.I couldn't help but get excited, because this job has no age limit, no gender restrictions, and no household registration requirements, especially for my appetite.So at the moment, I excitedly followed the map to find the registration address. Sitting on a crowded bus, even though there were no seats, I still couldn't contain my excitement.As I traveled along the way, I kept imagining the next job I would face.For other positions, I am not completely sure of my ability, but I am still full of confidence in such a career related to writing.I even imagined myself becoming a citizen of this beautiful city. Half an hour later, I was standing in front of the recruiter.After a series of ups and downs, I found that the only thing I gained from many life changes was that I became calm and comfortable when facing strangers and challenges.Under the sharp scrutiny of the recruiters, I calmly handed over my resume, graduation certificate, award-winning thesis, and some published works that I had prepared before coming to the provincial capital. Obviously, my information aroused their interest, and a middle-aged man in a suit and tie raised his head and asked me: Since you have the foundation and ability to write, why don't you continue to write? I... I feel like he's asking me a difficult question.After a little thought, with a peaceful attitude, I had no choice but to tell the truth: The income from writing is too little, and the manuscript fee is not enough for the living expenses of me and my children.Having said that, I remembered the treatment I was concerned about, and asked casually: Can you tell me the specific work here and the future treatment. That's it, the middle-aged man said sincerely, our business daily is going to publish a special issue on the occasion of the tenth anniversary of its establishment, that is, six months later, basically gathering all merchants or enterprises from all over the province, and a big review.Therefore, we need a large number of interviewers. My heart began to sink.Because this job is actually a kind of advertising business job in essence.Perhaps my work experience and writing level are more to their taste. After seeing my depression, the middle-aged man seemed a little bit unbearable, and said in a consoling tone: To put it bluntly, this job is a kind of advertising work, a kind of advertising for enterprises.Aren't you in the Industrial Bureau?You should have contacted some companies, right?This is still more suitable for you.Besides, the conditions we give are very generous.In addition to the basic salary of 300 yuan, we will also give salesmen a 35% commission.According to the price of 30,000 yuan for one company, you will get more than 10,000 yuan in income for each company you write about. If you write about two companies, you will basically earn your salary for a year.Of course, this includes you putting your business into words.If you can't write, you will be deducted five hundred yuan and hire someone to write. In this way, before I find another stable job, this should be an optional career.Especially the staff's last words are more attractive to me and make me rekindle hope for the future. He said that if your work performance is outstanding during this period, you may be formally hired by our newspaper. In this way, I temporarily accepted the job and officially reported to work a week later.My father finished another chemotherapy course, and by now all my savings were gone.At my father's request, I had to ask the doctor to give him an examination, because if I continue chemotherapy, my savings may be used up before I earn new income, so I need to save some money to maintain our basic life .所幸的是，老天在这最后的关键时刻总算给了我一个出乎意料的惊喜：检查结果显示癌细胞基本消失，父亲暂时可以出院用口服药维持治疗。 Thank goodness!在听到这个消息后，我几乎脱口而出，然后飞也似地冲进了父亲的病房。 第三天是星期六，我与父亲终于披着满身的春光踏入了家门。儿子站在我们面前，在经过最初的惊奇后，突然惊呼一声跳过来搂住了姥爷。我看见祖孙俩的眼睛里同时盈满了泪水。