Chapter 17 three people

I am alone, Xiaobei is alone, and Xiao Xu is alone. We are three people. Xiao Bei is a not very lonely child, Xiao Xu is a bit lonely child, and I am a very lonely child. Xiaobei is my best friend of the opposite sex. We are pure friends. This is an unspoken agreement between Xiaobei and me.But we are too inseparable, so others define us as a very delicate relationship, I will not argue, just let it go. Xiao Xu is a friend of mine who has never met. We are very similar to each other.To be clear, we are pen pals and netizens. I am often lonely.So after evening self-study, I would tell Xiaobei to walk with me.Xiaobei would always stroke her hair and say yes.Xiaobei used to have beautiful long hair, but it was cut short, and I accompanied her to cut it.I tell the stylist how to cut it like I cut my own hair.The result of the cut was not very good. Xiao Bei scolded me for not being articulate enough to express clearly enough, and I scolded the hair stylist for not being good at learning.Then laugh together.Then we thought about how to meet people on the street together.

You see, I just can't tell stories, and I can go so far off topic. It seems that I may really be a little bad at expressing.Okay, let's bring the topic back.I said to Xiaobei to walk with me, and Xiaobei said yes, so the street lights on the playground stretched our shadows very long, then shortened them, and then stretched them again.We go from the light of one lamp to the darkness and from the darkness to the light of the next lamp.In the cracks of continuous light one after another, I told Xiaobei that I was a disobedient child when I was a child. I grew up in the countryside when I was a child. Many I can calm down to read books, don’t smoke, don’t drink, get good grades, basically a good boy, but sometimes very capricious, throw temper tantrums, and be sad for no reason.And Xiaobei told me that she doesn’t eat pork and pays attention to whether she has gained weight. She likes to watch it, but she can’t figure out the thousands of characters in it. The junior high school and a few girls are so good. There have been some changes in the definition, and I can't adapt, so sometimes I'm lonely. Although she was good at composition when she was a child, she can't write argumentative papers like formulas after high school, so she doesn't even want to learn Chinese, but she wants to take the Chinese department like crazy.

It is also my dream to be admitted to the Chinese Department, but I want to be admitted to Fudan University and Xiaobei wants to be admitted to Peking University.I said Xiaobei was greedy for fame Xiaobei said I was greedy for vanity.It is a bit shocking to think that Beijing and Shanghai are actually described like that by us. We walked, walked, walked, talking endlessly as we walked, darkness and light alternately staged around us, very symbolic. We are both very neurotic like Mrs. Xianglin, so we can talk for a long time. Later, the language is a little weak, so we have to add sign language.Passing your fingers through the night is like passing through black hair, there is a slight icy pleasure.

Xiao Xu and I are writers for the Sichuan reporter station of the same magazine.I often write some groaning words on it to cheat some royalties so as to maintain the nourishment of life.Sichuan is just the two of us, and we are in the same city.It's a coincidence. Xiao Xu was a boy when we were pen pals, but became a girl when we were friends.A very complicated thing.In a word: I was lied to.All my life, I hate others to lie to me, because when I am deceived, I am absolutely like a monkey who is being tricked.But then I forgave Xiao Xu because of Xiao Xu's tears.She shed tears and said on the Internet: I don't want to, I don't want to.

Xiao Xu told me that when she and I first met, she wanted to see if I was the kind of boy who wanted to deceive girls, so she appeared as a boy, and then slowly realized that I was not that kind of person.My palms were sweating when I heard Xiao Xu say this, because I was really disappointed when I knew Xiao Xu was not a girl.I am not a noble person, a pure person out of vulgar taste.I am just a layman. Xiao Xu's writing style is really good, and each letter is full of 3,000 words.From the billboard just erected in front of the door to Xi Murong's "The Bride", I will never be tired.Her letters always end with "Okay, it's too much to write again, let's put it down" instead of "Okay, I'm tired, I'll talk about it next time".Just like Nanfu battery.

Xiao Xu is a very fateful person. She told me that she likes the big jigsaw puzzles with thousands of pieces. When they are scattered, they look like fate, and after they are put together, they seem to create fate.interesting. Xiao Xu likes to tell me her big and small stories. For example, she once went to sell greeting cards with great enthusiasm, but after selling out, she found that she had lost fifty yuan. For example, she hates the girl at the same table who wears hand cream all day long, saying that she is too thin to hold back socialism. For example, she likes to run wildly in the rain with her skirt in hand, without an umbrella.

For example, she likes to listen to Jacky Cheung's "With You Along the Way", even though that song is so old. For example, she is very good at playing badminton and is called "Phantom Killer". for example.for example.for example. I said that the most painful thing in the world is to go shopping with girls, and what is even more painful is to go shopping with a girl named Xiaobei. I once accompanied Xiaobei to walk the entire Binjiang Road, which was even better than the Long March. Xiaobei always asked me to look at the beautiful clothes of the beautiful girls on the road. She said, do you think that girl's skirt looks good?Do the shoes look good?I said it looks good, but it doesn't look good on you.Xiaobei said, I know you never said a word of truth.I immediately said oops, you are actually very beautiful.Xiaobei immediately said oops, I wonder how you said the truth.

Xiaobei once saw a silver ring and liked it very much.I said I bought it for you, then you have to wash my clothes, cook and sweep the floor for me.Xiaobei said yes, selling herself for this ring is worth considering.Later, I quietly went to buy this ring, but in the end I didn't show it to her.I gave Xiaobei a bottle of perfume for her birthday.The next day Xiaobei told me that the perfume was knocked over by a girl in the same dormitory.I said oh.She said why didn't you respond, you sent it.I smiled hey.Xiaobei shook her head and said that you are really numb.Later, on my birthday, Xiaobei gave me a grass-green camouflage wallet. She said that if you drop it in the grass, you won’t be able to find it. Be careful.I said you are very good at giving things.Xiaobei said of course, evil intentions are often covered up with a beautiful appearance.

Xiaobei and I used to go to the same middle school, but later we got admitted to the same high school.We both live on campus, so we go home together every week.Xiaobei always sits next to me, but she doesn't lean against me when she wants to sleep.I said to lend you a boy's shoulder to lean on.Xiao Bei said forget it, you are so skinny and leaning on your shoulder for an hour or two won't hurt you to death.I said it was because you were so fat and leaned over to not be killed by you, and you would be injured internally. Once it was February 14th, when we started school, the teacher was really more and more picky about the date.Xiaobei and I went to sign up by car.How do you feel when I say Valentine's Day with me?Feeling like Father's Day?Xiaobei said fuck you, I feel like I'm spending Mother's Day with my son.

Xiao Xu is older than me, calmer and more mature than me, in short, better than me. Xiao Xu, like me, is often sad, but Xiao Xu has a clear goal, but I am sad for no reason.Xiao Xu can clearly explain why he is sad, like a well-structured mystery novel.And when people ask me, I always say: oops... oops...you won't understand anyway. When Xiao Xu and I communicated for the first time, we were in high school, so I wrote to her first.I said I am, you and I will be pen pals.I said "I am" instead of "My name", as if the whole world should know me, it is very airy.Sure enough, the first sentence of Xiao Xu's reply letter was "Brother, you are so arrogant".It took me two months to receive a reply from Xiao Xu.I was sixteen two months ago and seventeen two months later.So I exaggeratedly wrote back and said: You made me wait from sixteen to seventeen, and you have to pay for my youth.Xiao Xu wrote back and said okay, then let me wait from seventeen to eighteen.At the end of the letter, Xiao Xu wrote: Actually, I will be eighteen years old next week.

On Xiao Xu's birthday, I gave her a set of Japanese textbooks, which she said she wanted to learn.I have written a lot of poems on greeting cards, both written to me and read in magazines.In short, Xiao Xu was very moved. On the Internet Xiao Xu is Leiyu and I am the fourth dimension.To be honest, I don't like the Internet very much, it brings me too much sense of unreality.And Xiao Xu became even more unreal on the Internet. Leiyu: Hello, old Guo Fourth Dimension: Thunderstorm?Leiyu?Thunderfish?  Fortunately, it is not a torpedo. Leiyu: It's tears and rain The fourth dimension: Why are you so pessimistic, unlike you. Leiyu: Hmph, I also had times when I was a little girl. Leiyu: Hello, dead? Leiyu: Hey, can you have a flashback? Leiyu: Can you explode the corpse and moan once? The fourth dimension: Mainly because what I just said made me sick, I was too busy to vomit so I didn’t type, forgive me. Leiyu: Where are you? Fourth Dimension: Maple Street. Leiyu: Oh, it's so close. I'm on Binjiang Road, and I'm just one step away. The Fourth Dimension: Hmph, be careful that the cowhide blows out, it’s up to you?I didn't tell you I took one step across the Pacific. Leiyu: The Pacific Ocean is a drop of my tear. The fourth dimension: the earth is a speck of my dandruff. This is how Xiao Xu and I played word games on the Internet to comfort each other's loneliness. Xiao Xu said: We are all free souls on the Internet.Very right very right. I am in the second year of high school, and the second year of high school is divided into arts and sciences.Xiaobei was determined to study liberal arts, and I naturally followed the advice of my family to study science.When Xiaobei went to the liberal arts class, she asked me: Will two good people forget each other if they are not together?I said I would and I would.Xiaobei said like a stranger?I said that I was like a stranger. I said this after the evening self-study, that day I first discovered that Xiaobei's eyes are actually very bright and beautiful. It turns out that Xiaobei and I always eat together. When we have money, we can eat dozens of yuan for a meal. When we don’t have money, we eat vegetables and radishes together. After the second year of high school, we were in different teaching buildings, separated by a large playground.Only when get out of class is over can I vaguely see Xiaobei in a red dress dangling at the door of the classroom.Very red very red red color. We seldom eat together after the division.I always rushed into the cafeteria like a group of boys descending like tigers, and then rushed past Xiaobei and a large group of girls around her.When I brushed Xiao Bei's shoulder, I would give her a tap on the head, that's all.Xiaobei raised her head and smiled at me in due course, showing her white teeth.Very tacit understanding. Xiaobei and I have a real tacit understanding.When we were doing activities in the class, Xiaobei and I played the game "Talk of Mind" and broke the record.Xiaobei understands how I say it. For example, when I said my favorite shampoo, Xiaobei immediately said Sassoon.Scared the teacher half to death. Last Christmas, Xiaobei and I drew all kinds of patterns on the blackboard, and my classmates said it was a masterpiece. Xiaobei and I once wrote a letter together to "trick" my classmate in junior high school, but in the end, we made the classmate think that Xiaobei was my girlfriend while driving her to death. And now we just hit each other on the head and say hello. In the first week of studying science, I received a letter from Xiao Xu. When I was halfway through it, I saw Xiao Xu wrote: If today is September 3, then you can come to me online.So I escaped the evening self-study and went to the Internet cafe. Leiyu: It seems that I was quite accurate in calculating the time when you received the letter. The fourth dimension: Yes, yes, you are amazing.Why do you want to find me all of a sudden? I'm still in school. If I get caught by the teacher tonight, you will be responsible. Leiyu: OK, I will act as your mother and lead you out of the office.Have you read the letter? The fourth dimension: Yes, I read it.Like reading a novella. Leiyu: Then you...you really read it? The fourth dimension: Of course I read it. Leiyu: Then you don't feel it? Fourth Dimension: It’s the same as usual, oh yes, your funny level has improved a bit. Leiyu: You are really numb, well, you have to live well by yourself, live well. After saying this, Xiao Xu went offline.I felt an inexplicable panic in my heart when I saw her suddenly disappear. On the way back, I finished reading Xiao Xu's letter. After reading it, I squatted on the side of the road and cried.Xiao Xu said at the end of the letter: When you read this letter, I have already left this city. I took all your letters and the things you gave me, and it feels like I am carrying all the happiness in my bag. A greeting card fell out of the envelope with a lot of poems written on it, just like the one I wrote to her. I am like a goldsmith / hammering and beating day and night / just to spread the pain into / gold ornaments as thin as cicada wings If you ask me how much I miss, not heavy, like an autumn leaf walking on the long road of years, day and night repeating monotonously, but I can no longer be calm and hold the dim time with both hands/ The direction of the two people along the back / The panic that can be concealed by two words / A place that can be forgotten two years later Cars drive past one by one, I say over and over again: I am not numb, I am not numb... Xiaobei came to me that day, and she said that I have a boyfriend.I said oh.She said why didn't you respond?I said what do you think of me, dancing happily like throwing off a nasty blood-sucking bug, or crying and beating your chest like losing a treasure?Xiaobei said that you are really numb.I said it's up to you.She said that I will never be able to say goodbye to you, I just want to tell you that I will not have so much time to accompany you in the future, you must live well by yourself. After Xiaobei finished speaking, she turned around and left. I said, look, the sun is really poisonous. I'm afraid autumn won't come, right?Xiaobei paused for a moment, then left without looking back. As a result, it started to rain the next day, and it rained continuously in autumn.Cool down cool down cool down.It turns out that autumn will come sooner or later. I start living alone.I was cooking alone, shopping alone, and driving home alone.I always wonder if I'm really numb.Until that night after self-study, I ran into Xiaobei on the playground, and we passed each other without even looking at each other.After walking over, I squatted down and cried. It turned out that two people can really be like strangers, and it turned out that I was not numb. A silver ring that was not given away, fifteen thick letters, three hundred and sixty-five lunches, countless words on the computer, a bottle of perfume, a wallet, a set of Japanese teaching materials, I bought for Xiaobei A week of milk, Xiao Xu copied a thick poem by Xi Murong for me. my life. Xiaobei once said to me, can you write about me well, not the exaggerated and deformed me in the past, but the real me.Xiao Xu also said, I want to be written into your story by you, I want to see it. Now I said to the computer screen: Xiaobei, Xiaoxu, I finally wrote you into my story.After I finished speaking, a drop of tear fell down and fell on the keyboard. I saw Xiaobei and Xiaoxu waving to me through the tears. They said that you should live well by yourself. I am alone.Xiaobei is alone.Xiao Xu is alone. I am alone now.