Chapter 8 6

February 8, 1956 Dear child: I have wanted to write to you for a long time, and I have always been very busy.Meetings for several days.After the group discussion, I was pushed to speak on behalf of the group, and I had to prepare the speech when I got home; when I read it on stage, I couldn’t speak Mandarin, so I had to practice several times beforehand, trying to correct the Shanghai accent.As a result, when I spoke at the conference yesterday, it was still unavoidable that I was "blue and green". Very good, but much better than Uncle Tian's "Lanqing".There was a meeting, and I had to deliver a report when I got home. I also had a lot of thoughts, and I was talking to my mother and Amin while sorting out my thoughts.The National Committee of the Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference is being held in Beijing, and the materials are published every day; because the Shanghai Committee of the Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference also holds meetings at the same time, there is no time to read it carefully.

But I snatched some speeches at the Beijing conference, some of which were very exciting, and the opinions raised were very pertinent.The meeting of the CPPCC in Shanghai this time has also made significant progress compared with the situation at the meeting in May last year.The last congress was full of empty words and praises; this time the speakers all talked about practical issues.In this way, the meeting is meaningful and contributes to oneself, the people, and the party.The government does not want people to cheer all day long.But the progress of the people is also facilitated by the progress of the government.Because the chief's report has specific content, everyone's speeches also have specific content.I will sort out some materials and send them to you later.

Mrs. Bronstein has a letter.She has broadcast seven or eight times on the radio.At one point it was Schumann: Conceito [Schumann: Concerto] and the orchestra, once Saint-Saens [Saint Sang] ①'s G Min, Concerto (Op.22, No2) [Concerto in G Minor (Op. 22 bis)].Their life is very hard. There are 750 doctors in a city with a population of 350,000, and Dr. Bronstein is suffering.It is said that the income is not enough to cover part of the household expenses. In the materials sent from France, Belgium, and Switzerland, except for one, it is very clearly dissatisfied with the first place in the lines. It is obvious that he only said that he won the first prize and how much it was; he did not say a word about his acting skills. carry.The British reports only mentioned you.It's a pity that these are general news reports, which are very brief.

The words of the French newspaper Le Soiré put it most clearly: "No matter how high the prize is, it cannot make a twenty-year-old youth gain maturity and character"; this sentence is not well translated in Chinese, so let's translate it into English: "The prize in competition, however highmay6e, is not sufficient to gjve a pianist0f 20 the maturity and personality." "Especially the closeness of the first few scores, let alone the winner has won definite1y [champion deserves its name, the champion is absolutely leading]. All in all, the future time and the masses will In our opinion, the revelation of VCompetition0f Chopin is the Chinese pianist F0u, Ts0ng, wh0stands very high1y above the other competitors bya refined culture and quite matured sensitivity. Jia Fu Cong, because of his elegant cultural background and mature comprehension ability, stands out among all the contestants.]”

This is the clearest of the several reports. February 13, 1956 Dear children, the Shanghai CPPCC held four days of meetings. I spoke on behalf of the group for the first time, and made a supplementary speech for the second time. I have attached two copies of the manuscript for you to read.I will send you a pack of newspapers and newspaper clippings by ordinary mail on the 10th, including Premier Zhou’s political report, a report on intellectual issues, and a selection of speeches from the National Committee of the Chinese People’s Political Consultative Conference, all underlined with a red pen so that you can focus on the main points when reading. save time.There is also a booklet "Agricultural Development Outline".It is expected that the package will be in your hands in early March; if you are not free, you can ① Saint-Saëns (1835-1921), French composer.

You can read it on your way to the south.From the speeches of the National Committee of the Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference, we can see the situation in all aspects of our country, the opinions of all walks of life, and the talents of various fields. The meeting of the Shanghai CPPCC is quite different from last year's meeting in May.The attendees were not only in high spirits, but their speeches were rich in content, and they asked many and specific questions. (Seven to eight out of ten were empty words in the last conference.) Uncle Yang ① spoke on behalf of the music group, and it was very impressive and wonderful.He explained how much time is needed for musicians to learn professionally. Now everyone is in a hurry, and the professional level is declining every day; he not only said it visually, but also soundly.During the break, I met Xu Zhucheng, the president of "Wen Wei Po", and he said: "I took a lesson today (music knowledge)." It is very necessary to explain the nature of musicians' labor to the public.Only when the general public understands the special nature of labor can it become a kind of public opinion, urging the authorities to slowly improve the situation in the music industry.

Speaking at the conference, my characteristic is that among the plenary speeches, there are the fewest catchphrases and the shortest time.The first speech was no more than eleven minutes, and the second was no more than six minutes.Some of them are as long as twenty-five minutes, and they are procrastinated, with repeated sentences accounting for more than half. Uncle Lin was recommended by Uncle Zhou (Xu Liang, one of the nine deputy secretaries-general of the Shanghai CPPCC, responsible for cultural affairs), and as a member of society, he went to Beijing to attend the National Committee of the Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference.From January 30 to February 7, he held meetings in Beijing.Before the trip, I prepared a speech for him, talking about school medicine and hygiene (he is a doctor at East China Normal University) and his singing theory, and also about the situation in the music industry.As a result, he spoke in the group, and the effect was very good.After he arrived in Beijing, he added a paragraph of self-criticism, which was roughly the following: "Personally, I was oppressed by sectarianism, and I couldn't help teaching my students with revenge, thinking that good singers would come out. Naturally, you don't Decent people will collapse. My idea is actually to create sectarianism, to establish one's own way into another sect;

And I fell into sectarianism without knowing it. "Look, is this passage good? He has always been biased, only paying attention to singing and sound quality; he doesn't care about the general situation of the music industry, let alone things other than music.This return to Beijing finally broadened his mind and vision.Chairman Mao treats guests, and he also has a share, and he also has a share in clinking glasses.Many scientists talked very speculatively with him.Li Weihan, head of the United Front Work Department of the Central Committee, also talked with him about the "singing method", and called Ding Xielin, deputy minister of the Ministry of Culture (an older scientist), and Ding asked Lin to talk for another 20 minutes.Probably in this campaign to promote scientific research, Uncle Lin's research can get strong support from the government—all these things will keep me busy in the future.Because Uncle Lin has to discuss everything with me: making a plan, etc., editing the text, and supplementing ideas, all of which require my participation.

My son, you must be very happy. Everyone is moving forward, and they are moving forward in a down-to-earth manner, not just shouting slogans.Although our country is still far from the "Age of Atomic Energy" in terms of scientific achievements, the pace of development of the overall social situation has indeed reached the "Age of Atomic Energy".Everyone feels that they cannot keep up with the objective situation.Let me just talk about myself. Although I have plenty of time, there are all kinds of news reports, study documents, newspapers, magazines, and pamphlets.The work in this field is so time consuming, it is almost the same as your piano practice.Eight or nine hours a day, only one or two thousand words can be translated;

When changing, it takes another day for the 1,2000 words. The progress is as slow as a snail, and the technical distress is the same as yours. There are problems everywhere. The ability to understand is at least four or five times the ability to express... Do you think so? Is it similar to you? Ordinary children who are self-taught at home have a big problem: they are too indifferent to the overall situation, and they are very indifferent to the cause of socialist transformation.I have talked to Mingqiang, Xisan, and Ziqi several times, but it doesn't work.They only know how to practice piano.If this continues, the boy becomes an old man.Being out of touch with society is really undesirable.I said that the boy has become an old man, and I insulted the old man!How many elderly people today are very active and open-minded.

① That is, Professor Yang Jiaren of the Shanghai Conservatory of Music, who died in 1966. Even the mother-in-law of the Song family is very clear-headed.The root cause of such children lies in family education. Parents only saw that you used to close the door to practice the piano, but they never imagined that you also cared about knowledge and current situation other than the piano; they also never imagined that the air in our home is definitely not pure, blindly music, music, music!Of course, the children's own intelligence and feelings also have a lot to do with it; otherwise, why would there still be vigorous children in many conservative and stubborn families? ??Really, look around the youth, very few really hopeful.When I say "hope," I don't mean "professional" accomplishment, but personality development.So I feel more and more important for the all-round development of youth. If you have read my letter, my speech, and Premier Zhou's report, etc., I hope you will turn your enthusiasm into strength and your shame into determination.The most important thing for you is to seize the time and make your life disciplined and scientific; you can't waste your rest time!Also, the study plan must be strictly implemented, and do not change it at will! Although it is the New Year, people come and go, and I am very busy, so I took the time to write this letter to you. I wish you a successful recording and a successful performance in Qunan! The night of February 29, 1956 Dear child: I sorted out your letters yesterday, and I have some thoughts. Many people seem to understand what Mozart said, such as his innocence, cuteness, freshness, etc.; But it still doesn't have that naive, cute, and fresh taste when playing it.This principle, I think, is the difference between "rational understanding" and "deep feeling".Perceptual knowledge is, of course, an initial impression, a general understanding; rational knowledge is a step deeper, to understand the essence.But the understanding of art cannot be limited to this.You have to go deeper and experience with your heart what you know rationally, so that the original author's joys and sorrows can be transformed into your own sorrows, joys and anger, and every nerve tremor of the original author can cause echoes in your nerves. .Otherwise, even if a lot of truths are said, there is still a gap.Generally, artists tend to be intel1ctua1 [reasonable] and co1d [calm], because they stay at the stage of rational understanding. For example, you yourself, in the past, you may not have known the characteristics of Mozart, but you did not have a real sympathy for him; if you didn’t feel deeply, you would naturally love him; And the less tasteful it is, the less interested you are.If the cycle goes on like this, of course you can't go deep into a writer. This time is not the case, you really resonate with Mozart, your pulse is in line with his pulse, your heartbeat is in the same rhythm as his; you live in him, and he lives in you; yourself You have found out and grasped the common ground with him, so you appreciate and understand him in this way. From this, we can draw a conclusion: not only can art not be limited to perceptual knowledge, but it can also not be limited to rational knowledge, and the third step of emotional depth must be carried out.In other words, what artists need most, besides reason, is the word "love"!The so-called innocence not only refers to innocence and freshness, but also refers to love! There is a saying in French called "great heart", which means "love". The words "great heart" are really meaningful.And this love is by no means vulgar, mother-in-law, mother-in-law's feelings, but a warm, sincere, clean, noble, raging, selfless love. Starting from this theory, the reasons why many people can't play things well can be understood.Rational without emotion, of course, cannot express music: with general emotion instead of the fiery, noble and refined emotion, it will still be vulgar; the so-called sentinlental, sentimental, sad], I think it refers such vulgar sentiments. All great artists (whether they are composers, writers, painters...) must have both unique personality and universal humanity.As long as we can discover the humanity in our hearts, we will find a bridge to communicate with artists.And if you can carefully ponder it and feel its unique personality, then you can understand a work of art as a whole. ——Of course, it is impossible to have exactly the same understanding and feelings as the original author. There are still big differences in the amount, depth, breadth and narrowness of understanding; and our own personality also plays a big role in the middle. Most people who are engaged in art lack sincerity.Because of lack of sincerity, everything is said casually in the mouth, as a cover for bluffing, pretending to be one's own facade, but in fact it is just picking up people's teeth, not really feeling something. Therefore, they must not have a deep understanding of the writer, first of all, they have not analyzed themselves in depth.This meaning, Christophe (in the second book) seems to have said. Sincerity is the key to the first art.What you know is what you know, what you don't know is what you don't know.A sincere "understand" is more comfortable than an insincere "understand".The most disgusting thing is self-righteousness and self-righteousness.Only with sincerity can one have an open mind, and with an open mind, one is willing to abandon oneself to understand others, and one can let go of false self-esteem to understand oneself.Love based on understanding yourself and others is not blind love. Sincerity needs to be cultivated from an early age over a long period of time.In society and in the family, too many lessons prevent us from being sincere, and sincerity requires a lot of courage to back it up.So to be an artist, you must first learn to be a human being.An artist must be more sincere, more sensitive, more open-minded, braver, more persevering, in a word, less imperfect than anyone else! It seems that there is a generally accepted phenomenon in the world: a musician (referring to a performer) is mostly limited to playing the works of certain composers.In fact, such a person can only be called a performer rather than an artist.Because their minds are not broad enough, they cannot tolerate the vast art world, and cannot accept the infinitely changing shapes and colors. If one can always cultivate the field of one's heart, one should have no problem understanding any work of art. There's a little thing I want to talk to you about.Why are you always so unclean when you write envelopes?Neat [clean] in daily chores is the same as being clean in playing the piano.I always believe that the style of life should be consistent, otherwise it is disharmony; and those who are engaged in art should hate disharmony most.I am enclosing a small square of paper this time, which is smaller than the envelope you used, but it can still write generously.Can you pay attention?By analogy, it is also beneficial to your art to develop this neat (clean) habit in all small things.Because no matter how small and insignificant things are, they all reflect a person's consciousness and temperament.Modifying small habits is equivalent to modifying one's own consciousness and temperament.The so-called learning is not necessarily limited to books or a certain technology; otherwise, this sentence should be learned anytime and anywhere, so how can we say it?I think every time you receive a letter from me, or even send a large package of books, you should have the impression that my handwriting is neat and clear! The day you went to Yugoslavia on the morning of March 1, 1956 was your twenty-second birthday.You can use the time on the road to think carefully about the regularization of learning, planning, and scientific life that I mentioned in every letter. You may wish to reflect on whether it has begun to be implemented?What shortcomings need to be corrected?What past achievements need to be further consolidated?All in all, you should make a small summary. The speed of our society has caught up with the age of atomic energy.Everyone feels that the task is important and urgent, and that time and workers cannot be coordinated.So the main key is to buy time.It is this question that worries me most about you.You have been procrastinating and wasting a lot of time on trivial matters in life.I hope you will make great efforts to improve and make the greatest determination to reverse it. Dad's heart is always with you, happy for your success, worried about your troubles, and worried about your shortcomings!On your twenty-second birthday, I have high hopes for you especially!Be brave, boy! Be braver, overcome big and small shortcomings, and work hard to move forward! The night of March 26, 1956 In the afternoon, I saw a piece of news in "Xin Min Bao", which was from Xinhua News Agency Prague, saying that your first performance at Be1grade [Belgrade], accompanied by the People's Army Symphony Orchestra, won "abnormal" Successfully, the curtain calls up to fifteen times, and eight additional performances.We're so happy and don't know how to congratulate you. At this time, I was busy transcribing manuscripts, and I finally finished translating Vold's second collection of short stories ("Candide" published last spring was the first collection).The translation of Balzac ("Usul Miroet") was completed in April last year, and it has been put aside for eleven months in "Humanities".They reviewed and reviewed, but could not make any comments, but it took so long.In addition to translation work, the main thing is to read literary and artistic creations after liberation, which is also a "remedial" nature, otherwise it will be out of date.I also want to write some "book reviews" this year.The other is to mobilize some art and music people to do research work on behalf of the public. Just like other big cities, Shanghai has set up a "Philosophy and Social Sciences Academic Committee Preparatory Office", which includes a literature and art group, mainly headed by Tang Wei.He asked me to think about what talents I have in the fields of art and music. This preparatory office was soon abolished and became an academic committee; two years later, the academic committee established various research institutes, such as the Institute of History, the Institute of Literature and Art, and so on.This is like the branch institutions of the Chinese Academy of Sciences in various places.In order to mobilize people, we have to talk to them separately and design for them.For example, Uncle Lin's vocal research is of course the most readily available.Uncle Shen was hit by the Hu Feng movement last year, and his energy was low and he couldn't arouse himself.There was a telegram from Beijing looking for him the day before yesterday, probably because this kind of research work needs him.Once he left, there would be no one in Shanghai who could really study music.However, if the central government needs it, the local governments cannot fight for it from the perspective of egotism.I just can't keep my mind off this kind of business. Last week, the Propaganda Department of the Shanghai Municipal Party Committee convened more than 20 people to discuss the "publishing" issue, and I was also invited; one meeting lasted six hours.This is a substantial meeting. Although it takes a long time, it is meaningful after all.Everyone expressed a lot of opinions, and they all criticized the editing work, distribution work, and the management style of international bookstores.It took me dozens of minutes to speak alone.It was very interesting to hear the feedback from all sides at the same time.In addition, the CPPCC will hold its second plenary meeting soon (an enlarged meeting of the Standing Committee will be held in early February), and a notice will be sent out in advance. There are two types of recommenders who want us to be members. of.I nominated two people: Qiu Shaoheng (in attendance) and Yang Xinde (member).Pass or not, of course, is not up to me.Before recommending, I have to spend time talking with them separately to understand their work and thinking in recent years, as well as some past history that I don’t know in detail. Yang Xinde, I also recommend to the CPPCC to arrange him to be a printing plate research work.In this way, on the one hand, I have to talk to my friends, and after talking, I have to write.There are also sporadic suggestions to the central or local governments, which take up a lot of my time. April 14, 1956 The second plenary session of the CPPCC Shanghai Municipal Committee was held for five consecutive days this week.I participated in all meetings, even group discussions.There were 275 members in the original committee, and 87 members were newly recruited this time, making a total of 362 members.467 people from all walks of life were invited to attend.The venue is the "Friendship Cinema" in the Sino-Soviet Building.The meeting was very tense and lively.There were as many as 181 people who signed up to speak, but due to time constraints, only 69 people actually made speeches, and the rest were changed to written speeches.I proposed a motion (there were no more than 25 motions received by the General Assembly) and a written speech.I had planned to speak only in writing; I had already spoken twice at the enlarged meeting in early February, and this time it was time for someone else to take the stage.At the group meeting, everyone raised a lot of opinions, and the speeches at the conference were even more exciting.Fan Songfu, an old Kuomintang soldier (military commander class), burst into tears; Zhou Bizhen reported on participating in the performance of the Chinese Folk Art Troupe in Macao this spring, and the enthusiastic response from overseas Chinese in Hong Kong and Macao was really touching.I couldn't help but shed tears in the venue.It seems that I myself am a person living in Hong Kong and Macau.This kind of excitement has only been felt when listening to certain music in recent years.Of course, there are also a lot of stereotypes. Gossip and chatter take up ten or twenty minutes, all of which are self-examinations, with promises on the left and empty words of determination on the right.Returned overseas Chinese, pastors, and priests also spoke.The patriotism of overseas Chinese is particularly high, and their words are very down-to-earth.There is a Shanghai Pingtan (that is, storytelling) artist who made a particularly sharp opinion. He said: "We want to lead our cadres, we want strong cadres; we don't want cadres who don't care about food, we are not a nursing home..." Such words are unprecedented in such a meeting.Everyone on the rostrum was moved. ?? Such a democratic spirit can be celebrated for the country.It's a pity that intellectuals (the vast majority of those invited to attend this time) do not have such courage.At the meeting, there were also many wonderful remarks on the issue of the peaceful liberation of Taiwan.The conference mainly discussed the "1956-1957 Intellectuals Work Outline Draft" drafted by the "Shanghai Municipal Committee of the Communist Party of China". In it, there were 32 specific plans for the future arrangements for Shanghai intellectuals: roughly divided into three categories: (1) ) Improve the relationship between the party organization and the existing intellectuals, improve the working and living conditions of intellectuals, so as to fully develop the potential of intellectuals; (2) expand and cultivate new forces, carry out academic research and improve the professional capabilities of intellectuals (3) Strengthen leadership and arrangements for ideological transformation of intellectuals and study of Marxism-Leninism. Part (1) has already been implemented: there are about 10,000 senior intellectuals in Shanghai, and 3,000 of them will be taken care of first, such as allocating housing; so that intellectuals can have a quiet study room, the Shanghai Housing Management Bureau has 500 houses were allocated to some professors, experts, writers, and artists whose living conditions were particularly bad and who had made achievements in research.They also distributed a variety of "treatment certificates", which allowed people to make appointments at designated hospitals on the same day and receive treatment on the same day; they also distributed "non-staple food (such as fish, etc.) supply cards" to buy from designated food supply stations without having to wait in line. (I also got these two cards).From this you can see how much the government values ​​intellectuals now.Just because the objective conditions are not enough, we can only start from high-level intellectuals for the time being.In addition, in late February, the Shanghai Municipal Party Committee held a half-monthly meeting, convening nearly 10,000 party and youth cadres from various agencies, schools, and organizations to study this policy, asking them to get close to intellectuals and achieve "mutual trust and mutual learning." Work supports them in every way.Those who spoke at the meeting all expressed that in order to repay the care and attention of the party and the government, they must step up their efforts and actively improve themselves in all aspects of business and ideological transformation.You must be very excited to hear this news.As an intellectual, I really want to do some work on the transformation of intellectuals.For example, write some articles, criticize the shortcomings of intellectuals, and so on.Since the government has made such great efforts to help us, we should redouble our efforts to cooperate with the government.Improving the relationship between the party and intellectuals is a key issue, and the solution to this issue is two-sided and by no means one-sided.So I am going to write a series of essays to dig out and analyze the root causes of intellectual illnesses, so as to raise everyone's awareness, urge everyone to work hard in practice, and do what they say.Originally, I wanted to write some book reviews in terms of literature and art, but after reading more than 20 kinds of works recently, I feel that I can’t start writing rashly; most of the works describe the countryside, the War of Liberation, the War of Resistance Against Japan, and a few are about factories; I don't know anything about the actual situation, and criticizing only from the works, there must be a gap.So I want to go out slowly, take a look, and write after observing more. After reading more than twenty kinds of creations, I received a very profound education.I used to be too ignorant of the party's arduous struggles in all aspects for decades; the price of blood, sweat and lives paid by the people for resisting Japan, feudalism, the enemy and puppet, and Chiang Kai-shek, etc., and the inhuman cruelty they lived through. Days, also I did not understand before.I deeply feel that if there is no hatred, there will be no struggle, and there will be no revolution.Thinking back to my anti-imperialist sentiments when I was seventeen, eighteen to twenty years old, I can’t say that they were not high. Why did I become depressed in my comfort zone later on?At that time, because I witnessed the young classmates in the same class being arrested and murdered in the concession during the "May 30th" tragedy, it aroused hatred, and I had the mood of struggle and revolution.After that, everything went smoothly, and I never suffered setbacks in society, let alone oppression; on the contrary, because I was born as a small landlord, I was exploiting people's status to some extent, and I didn't have any outright hatred for the social system; Liberal intellectuals stand against a corrupt government with a pure sense of justice.This is a very naive anti-imperialist and anti-feudal thinking, and it will definitely not take the road of real revolution.Even though I once had the idea of ​​"not worrying about inequalities rather than scarcity", I also had some yearning for a communist society, but they were all limited to fantasy.Without the spur of reality, born in a wealthy Jiangnan where conflicts between the rich and the poor are relatively small, without seeing the bloody pain of exploitation of the working class, a person will never be able to get out of the circle of the petty bourgeoisie. Even if he hopes for revolution, he still holds It is the kind of scholar's view that "we must talk about the purpose and the means".Only now, from the cause of socialist construction in the past two years, from the many excellent literary and artistic works recently, and from the few theoretical books I have read, have I begun to realize my past mistakes and rekindle the extinguished. enthusiasm.I don't want to write off my past in one stroke, saying that I want it at all, and I don't want it.But my enthusiasm for work in the past was due to my natural disposition of being uncomfortable if I didn’t work, not because I had a firm and optimistic belief in the future; I used to criticize the various measures of the government from a purely objective point of view. It is proposed from the standpoint of liberalism, not from the standpoint of seeing oneself as a member of socialist construction.In other words: the starting point is narrow, negative, and pessimistic.When I say this, I don’t mean that I have changed since then (of course you understand that I don’t think so, I have always believed that a person must live to learn); , In the process of improvement and improvement, the mood is very different, and the views are also very different. ——Your mother also deeply understands these thoughts; In fact, she awakened earlier than me, but she couldn't explain the reason; everything had to go through my own groping and observation, coupled with the objective situation, and then I would slowly but surely wake up. (My mother also followed me and swallowed literary works one by one.) Speaking of the objective situation, the progress in the past few years is simply unimaginable. Just judging from the content and text of newspapers and magazines, there is no progress compared with five or three years ago. how much.As for the achievements of capital construction, it is obvious to all, so there is no need to elaborate.Mayor Chen said it well: Intellectuals are willing to bow their heads only in front of the facts.With such a fact in front of us, who wouldn't be excited and not feel a sense of enlightenment? April 29, 1956 I am very happy that you have such a strong fighting spirit.But don't be impatient and hinder the current study.Pay more attention in the future: When insisting on the truth, you must pay attention to the way, attitude, tone, and tone of your speech.The more reason you have to do, the more relaxed your attitude and the softer your voice.Upholding the truth is a difficult struggle, and it is also an educational work; it requires good methods, methods, means, and patience.It must not be touching and misleading.These cultivations are not easy, and I am still far away.But you can study hard early! After experiencing a torment, we must improve our thinking one step further.In the future, I have to improve my work style a step further, so that I won't be wronged.It doesn't matter if a person suffers hardships and bumps, as long as he learns lessons, that's what the so-called education of life or society is all about.If you look at some outstanding party members described in literary and artistic creations, they have that kind of great patience, willing to persuade people repeatedly and meticulously, never get angry, and never force orders.This is a real good example.And with this in mind, you won't worry anymore; you'll treat struggle as your daily work.To persist, to implement, but also to be patient! At 9 a.m. on May 15, 1956, in Songgu Nunnery, Mount Huangshan The newly built houses in the hot spring area are all red, green and green palace-style, which are not in harmony with the natural environment.The Qiu Hong paint on the pillars is also so red that it is "rural", and the painted pillars and carved beams are all deceptive things.The big pillar is thick and tall, but the stone foundation underneath is very thin.The architects in our country have no artistic accomplishment, the public lacks experts, and the approval of drawings does not know the standard of beauty and ugliness.It costs a lot of money and is not aesthetically pleasing at all.The internal room allocation is also poorly designed.Compared with the houses in Lushan, it is really a world of difference.They only want to be big and beautiful; The result is big, inappropriate, and vulgar.The Huangshan Management Office has always taken good care of the tourists, but it has not solved the problem of the sedan chairs well, so that unless the people who come here are strong and able to walk from beginning to end by themselves, they have to spend a lot of money—especially When it rains.All in all, there are problems everywhere and a lack of talent everywhere.Although one hundred and twenty percent of the heart wants to do things well, limited to the ability of knowledge, it is still not good.For example, in the restaurant of Hangzhou Dahua Hotel, the tablecloths are not clean. Wouldn’t it be disgraceful for foreign guests to see them?There is a lot of dust and dirt everywhere, the things displayed are not elegant, and the staff is very few and untrained; how can it be done well!When we were there, foreign guests traveling from Beijing to Shanghai to visit Hangzhou on May Day, the rooms were all full. Although this letter was written, it could not be sent for a while.You have to wait for the weather to return to the Lion Forest, and you can go down to the hot spring after staying overnight. You have to stay at the hot spring for another night before you can go to Tangkou to take a bus to Tunxi, and you have to stay at Tunxi for another night before you can take the bus to Hangzhou.Traffic is more inconvenient than before the Anti-Japanese War.It used to take only one day from Hangzhou to Huangshan, but now it takes two days.Tickets are also very difficult to buy.They only care about building in the mountains, but don't know how to improve external traffic. Afternoon on May 24, 1956 Two, I completely agree with you to participate in the Mozart competition: first, because you are sure; second, because you don’t need to work too hard on technical [skills]; As for the conservatory asking you to do theory, I also agree.I have always felt that you are too backward in music theory, so it's good to make a surprise attack on this.Just worry that there are too many subjects, and you will not be able to make time at once; you can also complete it in two years.Because your Polish reading ability may have problems, and it is easy to misunderstand the meaning of the textbook.The most important thing at present is to arrange time well: the busier things are, the more time you need to master: be regular and be economical everywhere; At the same time, it must not hinder physical and mental health. In Mr. Jie's letter, you valued Mozart's expression very highly, saying that you have discovered some beauty that no one has ever seen before.You have to study harder to live up to his high expectations! May 31, 1956 Dear child: Received your letter on the 15th.Mr. Jie's letter has been sent back.On the 24th, I translated Teacher Jie's letter into Chinese and sent it to the Ministry of Culture. I also typed the original letter and asked for instructions.Yesterday (30th) I received Xia Yan's reply to my letter at the end of last month, and I attach it here.The few things mentioned in the letter are indeed worthy of your warning in the future.I used to tell you to be careful with what you said, but I was remiss in not emphasizing what was said about the International.Mouth must not be smooth, especially in foreign countries!Don't talk to anyone about religion.We never discuss this matter with people in China.In Europe, it is especially taboo.You must deeply understand these and keep them in your heart!For any foreigner, the reference to our own country must also be specially reserved.Even though you are very strict with yourself, you are not complacent; but because you know a little more, it is easy to rely on your talents to make things and lead people to misunderstand.I have this problem myself, and I hope to work together with you to get rid of it.Regarding the Polish music scene, you can only express your opinions face-to-face among teachers, friends and classmates; academic discussions should be free, but you should not criticize others behind the back of a third party, let alone criticize the Polish music scene to people from other countries.don't forget you Now it's not an authority in the music industry! "Also don't forget that although you are taboo in China, you are also taboo in Poland. The higher a person climbs, the more he must work hard in all aspects of life. You are young and ignorant, but as long as you have determination, rely on your understanding. It is not too difficult to learn to be sensible. June 6, 1956 We had a great time in Huangshan this time. We met the secretary-general of the Anhui Provincial Party Committee. We got along very well. When you mention Fu Cong, they all know and appreciate your achievements.Mr. Changsha of Huangshan Management Office, a sixty-two-year-old man, is in good spirits. It is not uncommon for him to walk thirty or forty miles on the mountain road every day. Eloquent, elegant and polite, not stereotyped at all, hardworking and hard on himself.说起他的历史来，真是可歌可泣，沙老（大家都这样称呼他）是贫农出身，自小为地主看牛，有一次新年里偷跑回家，不愿干了，见了父亲，父亲非常生气，打了他两个耳光。可怜他们自己也吃不上，儿子回来了不是多一个人吃么，所以硬逼他回地主家，他无可奈何的去了，可是地主不要他了。于是他就只好投奔叔叔那里，他叔叔是摇船的，就收留了他，从此过船家生活了，这期间，接触到了共产党，干起革命了。解放战争时他有功，经他训练有一千多条船及二千余的人，渡江时只牺牲了七个人，真是了不起。他有五个儿女，一个是送掉的，一个是卖了的，自己只有三个，一个儿子在抗美援朝战争受了伤，一个儿子在中学念书，一个女儿出嫁了，也有工作。最惨的是他的老妻，解放战争后带了三个儿女，讨饭或拾野菜过日子，一直讨饭到一九五二年，才找到了沙老团聚的。这种人真是可敬可佩，解放后还是革命第一。我们碰到的党员，都是这样品德优良，看见了他们这种不怕艰苦的精神，真觉得惭愧。 ??还有一个三十几岁的复员军人，现在是合肥逍遥津公园的园艺及动物园主任，专门搞园艺花木，还搜罗各色各种的动物，听他讲来，头头是道，真是一个园艺专家。我们初碰见时，以为他是素来搞植物花木的，原来他只搅了四年。复员后，组织上派他干这一行，他本来一窍不通，可是钻研精神极强，非但钻研，还爱上这工作，所以越来越精通，一个货真价实的专家。他谈吐谦虚，绝对没有自满的流露。爸爸非常喜欢他佩服他。所以我们这次收获不少，学到不少。看见了那些淳朴而可爱的党员，真是感动。 ??刚才接爸爸自淮南煤矿局招待所寄的信。知道他天天工作紧张，因为他担任了第一组的副组长。他说小组中和沈粹缜（她是邹韬奋的夫人，是第一组组长）合作很好，大家很满意，说他是模范组长，因为处处帮人忙，上下车到处招呼人。爸爸说，其实没有小组组织，出门也该如此。他说一路上大家都搅得很熟，一向只知名而没见过的人，都交际过了。一路团方招待周到，看他很高兴。老实说，爸爸办事能力是相当强的，他今年参加的政协视察工作，因为认真，大家都对他很满意，到处受到欢迎。他是实事求是的人，做事不肯马虎，肯用脑子，肯提意见，所以各方面舆论都对他好。我在家里有机会就推动他，我总算也出了些力。 一九五六年六月十四日下午四时亲爱的孩子：我六月二日去安徽参观了淮南煤矿、佛子岭水库、梅山水库，到十二日方回上海。此次去的人是上海各界代表性人士，由市政协组织 的，有政协委员，人民代表，也有非委员代表。看的东西很多，日程排得很紧，整天忙得不可开交。我又和邹韬奋太太（沈粹缜）两人当了第一组的小组长，事情更忙。一回来还得写小组的总结，今晚，后天，下周初，还有三个会要开，才能把参观的事结束。祖国的建设，安徽人民那种急起直追的勇猛精神，叫人真兴奋。各级领导多半是转业的解放军，平易近人，朴素老实，个个亲切可爱。佛了岭的工程全部是自己设计、自己建造的，不但我们看了觉得骄傲，恐怕世界各国都要为之震惊的。科技落后这句话，已经被雄伟的连拱坝打得粉碎了。淮南煤矿的新式设备，应有尽有；地下330 公尺深的隧道，跟国外地道车的隧道相仿，升降有电梯，隧道内有电车，有通风机，有抽水机，开采的煤用皮带拖到井上，直接装火车。原始、落后、手工业式的矿场，在解放以后的六七年中，一变而为赶上世界水平的现代化矿场，怎能不叫人说是奇迹呢？详细的情形没功夫和你细谈，以后我可把小组总结抄一份给你。 五月三十一日寄给你夏衍先生的信，想必收到了吧？他说的话的确值得你深恩。一个人太顺利，很容易于不知不觉间忘形的。我自己这次出门，因为被称为模范组长，心中常常浮起一种得意的感觉，猛然发觉了，便立刻压下去。但这样的情形出现过不止一次。可见一个人对自己的斗争是一刻也放松不得的。至于报导国外政治情况等等，你不必顾虑。那是夏先生过于小心。 《波兰新闻》（波大使馆每周寄我的）上把最近他们领导人物的调动及为何调动的理由都说明了。可见这不是秘密。 看到内地的建设突飞猛晋，自己更觉得惭愧，总嫌花的力量比不上他们，贡献也比不上他们。只有抓紧时间拚下去。从黄山回来以后，每天都能七时余起床，晚上依旧十一时后睡觉。这样可以腾出更多的时间，因为出门了一次，上床不必一小时、半小时的睡不着，所以既能起早，也能睡晚。I am very happy. 你有许多毛病像我，比如急躁情绪，我至今不能改掉多少；我真着急，把这个不易革除的脾气传染给了你。你得常常想到我在家里的“自我批评”，也许可以帮助你提高警惕。 一九五六年七月一日晚 七时这一晌我忙得不可开交。一出门，家里就积起一大堆公事私事。近来两部槁子的校样把我们两人逼得整天的赶。一部书还是一年二个月以前送出的，到现在才送校，和第二部书挤在一起。政协有些座谈会不能不去，因为我的确有意见发表。好些会议我都不参加，否则只好停工、脱产了。人代大会在北京开会，报上的文件及代表的发言都是极有意思的材料，非抽空细读不可；结果还有一大半没有过目。陆定一关于“百花齐放、百家争鸣”的报告很重要，已于二十九日寄你一份。届时望你至少看二遍。我们真是进入了原子时代，tempo〔节奏〕快得大家追不上。需要做、写、看、听、谈的东西实在太多了。政协竭力希望我们反映意见，而反映意见就得仔细了解情形，和朋友商量、讨论，收集材料。 是否参加莫扎特比赛，三天前我又去信追问，一有消息，立即通知你。 来信说的南斯拉夫新闻记者关于宗教问题事，令我想起《约翰?克利斯朵夫》 中的事。记者老是这个作风，把自己的话放在别人嘴里。因为当初我的确是吓了一大跳的：怎么你会在南国发表如此大胆的言论呢？不管怎样，以后更要处处小心。 苏领馆酒会后①，招待看海军文工团的歌舞：第一支老的合唱，极好。新的歌曲，平常。新编的舞蹈，叫做“舞蹈练习曲”，极佳。戏剧与舞蹈是斯拉夫民族传统中的精华，根基厚，天赋高，作品自不同凡响。那个舞蹈既戏剧化，又极富于造型美，等于一出生动的哑剧。配音也妙。这是我非常欣赏的。 我写的《评三里湾》，在七月号《文艺月报》登出。下星期末可寄你。 一九五六年七月二十三日亲爱的孩子：又是半个多月不写信给你了。最近几个月很少写长信给你，老是忙忙碌碌。从四月初旬起，结束了服尔德的小说，就停到现在，一晃四个月，想想真着急。四个月中开了无数的会，上了黄山，去了淮南、梅山、佛子岭、合肥：写了一篇书评，二篇小文章。上周北京《文艺报》又来长途电话要写一篇纪念莫扎特的文字，限了字数限了日子，五天之内总算如期完成。昨天才开始译新的巴尔扎克。社会活动与学术研究真有冲突，鱼与熊掌不可得而兼，哀哉哀哉！这半年多在外边，多走走，多开口，便到处来找。 政协的文学―新闻―出版组派了我副组长；最近作协的外国文学组又派我当组长；推来推去推不掉：想想实在腻烦。一个人的精力有限，时间也不会多于二十四小时，怎么应付呢？挂挂名的事又不愿意干。二十多年与世界大局（文坛的大局）完全隔膜了，别说领导小组，就是参加订计划也插不上手。 自己的兴趣又广：美术界的事又要多嘴，音乐界的更要多嘴。一多嘴就带来不少事务工作。就算光提意见，也得有时间写出来；也得有时间与朋友来往、谈天；否则外边情况如何知道，不明情况，怎能乱提意见？而且一般社会上的情况，我也关心，也常提意见，提了意见还常常追问下落。 一九五六年七月二十九日 上次我告诉你政府决定不参加Mozart〔莫扎特〕比赛，想必你不致闹什么情绪的。这是客观条件限制。练的东西，艺术上的体会与修养始终是自己得到的。早一日露面，晚一日露面，对真正的艺术修养并无关系。希望你能目光远大，胸襟开朗，我给你受的教育，从小就注意这些地方。身外之名，只是为社会上一般人所追求，惊叹；对个人本身的渺小与伟大都没有相干。孔子说的“富贵于我如浮云”，现代的“名”也属于精神上“富贵”之列。 这一年来常在外边活动，接触了许多人；总觉得对事业真正爱好，有热情，同时又有头脑的人实在太少。不求功利而纯粹为真理、为进步而奋斗的，极少碰到。最近中央统战部李维汉部长宣布各民主党派要与共产党长期共存，互相监督，特别是对共产党监督的政策。各党派因此展开广泛讨论。但其中还是捧场恭维的远过于批评的。要求真正民主，必须每个人自觉的作不断的斗争。而我们离这一步还远得很。社会上多的是背后发牢骚，当面一句不说，甚至还来一套颂扬的人。这种人不一定缺少辨别力，就是缺少对真理的执着与热爱，把个人的利害得失看得高于一切。当然，要斗争，要坚持，必须要讲手段，讲方式，看清客观形势；否则光是乱冲乱撞，可能头破血流而得不到一点结果。 ① 一九五六年六月下旬，苏领事馆为苏联军舰来上海访问举行了酒会。 一九五六年八月一日 领导对音乐的重视，远不如对体育的重视：这是我大有感慨的。体育学院学生的伙食就比音院的高50％。我一年来在政协会上，和北京来的人大代表谈过几次，未有结果。国务院中有一位副总理（贺）专管体育事业，可有哪一位副总理专管音乐？假如中央对音乐像对体育同样看重，这一回你一定能去Salzburg〔萨尔茨堡〕了。既然我们请了奥国专家来参加我们北京举行的莫扎特纪念音乐会，为什么不能看机会向这专家提一声Salzburg〔萨尔茨堡〕 Woolen cloth?只要三四句富于暗示性的话，他准会向本国政府去提。这些我当然不便多争。中央不了解，我们在音乐上得一个国际大奖比在奥林匹克运动会上得几个第三第四，影响要大得多。 这次音乐节，谭伯伯①的作品仍无人敢唱。为此我写信给陈毅副总理会，不过时间已经晚了，不知有效果否？北京办莫扎特纪念音乐会时，××当主席，说莫扎特富有法国大革命以前的民主精神，真是莫名其妙。我们专爱扣帽子，批判人要扣帽子；捧人也要戴高帽子，不管这帽子戴在对方头上合适不合适。马思聪写的文章也这么一套。我在《文艺报》文章里特意撇清这一点，将来寄给你看。国内乐坛要求上轨道，路还遥远得很呢。比如你回国，要演奏Concerto[协奏曲] ，便是二三支，也得乐队花半个月的气力，假定要跟你的interpretation［演绎〕取得一致，恐怕一支COncerto［协奏曲］就得练半个月以上。所以要求我们理想能实现一部分，至少得等到第二个五年计划以后。不信你瞧吧。 一九五六年十月三日晨亲爱的孩子，你回来了，又走了；许多新的工作，新的忙碌，新的变化等着你，你是不会感到寂寞的；我们却是静下来，慢慢的回复我们单调的生活，和才过去的欢会与忙乱对比之下，不免一片空虚，――昨儿整整一天若有所失。孩子，你一天天的在进步，在发展：这两年来你对人生和艺术的理解又跨了一大步，我愈来愈爱你了，除了因为你是我们身上的血肉所化出来的而爱你以外，还因为你有如此焕发的才华而爱你：正因为我爱一切的才华，爱一切的艺术品，所以我也把你当作一般的才华（离开骨肉关系），当作一件珍贵的艺术品而爱你。你得千万爱护自己，爱护我们所珍视的艺术品！遇到任何一件出入重大的事，你得想到我们――连你自己在内――对艺术的爱！不是说你应当时时刻刻想到自己了不起，而是说你应当从客观的角度重视自己：你的将来对中国音乐的前途有那么重大的关系，你每走一步，无形中都对整个民族艺术的发展有影响，所以你更应当战战兢兢，郑重将事！随时随地要准备牺牲目前的感情，为了更大的感情――对艺术对祖国的感情。 你用在理解乐曲方面的理智，希望能普遍的应用到一切方面，特别是用在个人的感情方面。 ① 即我国优秀作曲家谭小麟（1911―1948）。 我的园丁工作已经做了一大半，还有一大半要你自己来做的了。爸爸已经进入人生的秋季，许多地方都要逐渐落在你们年轻人的后面，能够帮你的忙将要越来越减少；一切要靠你自己努力，靠你自己警惕，自己鞭策。你说到技巧要理论与实践结合，但愿你能把这句话用在人生的实践上去；那未你这朵花一定能开得更美，更丰满，更有力，更长久！ 谈了一个多月的话，好像只跟你谈了一个开场白。我跟你是永远谈不完的，正如一个人对自己的独白是终身不会完的。你跟我两人的思想和感情，不正是我自己的思想和感情吗？清清楚楚的，我跟你的讨论与争辩，常常就是我跟自己的讨论与争辩。父子之间能有这种境界，也是人生莫大的幸福。 除了外界的原因没有能使你把假期过得像个假期以外，连我也给你一些小小的不愉快，破坏了你回家前的对家庭的期望。我心中始终对你抱着歉意。但愿你这次给我的教育（就是说从和你相处而反映出我的缺点）能对我今后发生作用，把我自己继续改造。尽管人生那么无情，我们本人还是应当把自己尽量改好，少给人一些痛苦，多给人一些快乐。说来说去，我仍抱着“宁天下人负我，毋我负天下人”的心愿。我相信你也是这样的。