Chapter 9 7(1)

At noon on October 6, 1956 Dear child: I didn't expect to be able to talk to you on the phone yesterday: even though the thousands of calls are all practical affairs, how many words of love have been conveyed!It's a pity that I couldn't say a few more words, so I hung up the phone, as if I had missed some important instructions in panic.We went home and talked for more than a month, but we still haven't had a smooth talk, not to mention this short three minutes! You're gone, and there's an epilogue.On the morning of the 4th, the Music Association called and said that there was a Bulgarian musician——

I teach singing at the music academy. After listening to your concert, I want to write an article and send it back, asking for your materials.I was busy all afternoon, typed a review of Yugoslavia and Paris, and wrote a brief study of your study in French.The whole day yesterday, plus the whole night the day before yesterday, I wrote more than 7,000 words. The title is "Talking Music with Fu Cong", which is divided into three sections: (1) talk about skills, (2) talk about learning, and (3) talk about expression.Hand it over to Wen Wei Po. The first two paragraphs are shorter, each accounting for 2,000 words, and the third paragraph is the longest, accounting for more than 3,000 words.The content may be slightly different from what you talked about, but I declare first, "I'm afraid my memory is not clear".The text is written in a question-and-answer style; the main purpose is to keep a record of what you talked about this time; publishing it may also be helpful to music students and music-loving people.After publication, I will send newspaper clippings to Warsaw.

Late night on October 10, 1956 In the past two days, I have resumed my work; while reading the documents, I have read Comrade Liu Shaoqi's report at the "Eighth National Congress". Inspire the masses.I hope you will calm down and think about the process of coming back this time, and you can draw many useful conclusions.My quick temper, in particular, should serve as a mirror to keep you on your toes.Emotional problems must be grasped by yourself, be firm, look at the big picture from a long distance, take into account the overall situation, don't simply show off temporary feelings, be extremely calm, and take care of the happiness of several people, short-sighted soft hearts often Inflicting unnecessary suffering on others and oneself for a long time!Children, remember these words.This is what parents are most worried about.

In terms of learning, I will repeat again: key plans are essential.Live a more regular life on weekdays, and don't go to bed too late at night. Afternoon of October 11, 1956 Thank you for your kindness, I want to give me the "Sukarno Collection of Paintings", but my child, I saw it in Shanghai, and I think it is not worth spending one hundred and fifty yuan.Really good paintings, really good printing (In the 1930s, only the art printing of Germany, the Netherlands, and Belgium was world-class; Britain and France were not good. After World War II, most German Jews fled to the United States. In 1947 The famous American paintings I saw when I was young are only decently printed), and if you haven’t seen them, you think the album is very good.Shanghai second-hand bookstores often have good picture albums printed in Western Europe, but they are reluctant to buy them because they are expensive.I can't let you spend the money you earned through hard work and your body suffered a lot.

So in addition to your own one, I have written to Mr. Ma to return one.The saved money can be used to buy books and scores for you slowly. There are many uses, and you won’t think it’s too much money.In the past few years, my income from royalties has been low, and all my purchases depend on the sum of money you earned when you came back this time. Speaking of pride, after careful analysis, I think that your lack of tact with people is certainly one reason, and it is also the reason why people feel inferior when they see you; and the main reason is that you sometimes speak too straightforwardly.For example, when you first met Ende and heard her play the piano, you said she simply didn't know what to say.There is of course a problem with this way of speaking.

Wouldn't it be easier for the listener if she could analyze her faults in detail without using a big hat first? One night it was almost past ten o'clock, and you still had to practice the piano, and she advised you to practice again tomorrow; you replied: like you, will I still have grades?Naturally, counter-criticism cannot be used to deal with the kindness of others.Mom wants you to add clothes and eat meat, and you often use this kind of tone.You are used to it, and you don’t feel it; but Ende is not a real sister, even a real sister, and sometimes I can’t stand it. I often make these mistakes myself, and I hope to encourage you! ——From these small things, you and I must have hurt people unintentionally. It's no wonder that others say we are proud.After thinking about it calmly, I have this feeling, what do you think?

The more famous a person is, the less proud others will feel arrogant: this is also normal; so we should be more humble and polite! I also bought a copy of the seventh volume "Song People's Picture Album", "Maijishan Grottoes", and "Ancient Chinese Sculpture Collection" edited by Liu Kaiqu on your behalf; did you also buy them in Beijing?Please write quickly, so as not to send you double copies of such a heavy book. November 7, 1956* Since you left home, although the contrast between lively and calm is sharp, you can't help but feel a little empty in your heart, but you gradually get used to it and resume the peaceful and ordinary life in the past.I like to be lively, and sometimes I feel that I would rather be lively and busy than calm and idle.

Here, since November 3rd, masters of Kunqu opera from the north and the south have been watching performances in the Yangtze River Grand Theater for 20 days. We have seen four performances. The first night is performed by northern actors, and the most exciting one is "Zhong Kui Marries a Sister". It is a comedy with beautiful and poetic pictures. Dad has written a short article about this play, and I will post it to you after it is published.Hou Yongkui's "Lin Chong's Night Run" is extremely skillful, his every move is clean and neat, and his voice is beautiful, feeling (feeling), and loud, which is rare in martial arts.His appearance, performance, and figure are all beautiful, and he is really never tired of watching.Bai Yunsheng and Han Shichang's "A Dream in the Garden" is also good, especially the fifty-nine-year-old Han Shichang, who plays the role of Du Liniang.The second night I watched "Fat Girl Learning Tongue", which was also performed by Han Shichang. It describes a section where a country girl saw off the grand occasion of Tang Monk's Buddhist scriptures before the court officials saw him off, and reported it to her elders when she returned home. The vivid country girl makes people laugh.An accomplished artist, although blessed by nature, is also the result of hard work and research.It is said that he can play a lot, and Mei Lanfang has several plays, which he also learned from him.Among southern actors, I admire Yu Zhenfei the most. He can also sing and act well, with a bookish spirit, which is unique.The rest of the actors who have been handed down from generation to generation are also good.

In short, after watching Kunqu Opera, I am less interested in Peking Opera.There is one more thing to tell you, I am very proud of it. I first went to see the movie "Mulan" in Henan Opera, starring Chang Xiangyu, a famous actor in Henan Opera.Chang Xiangyu's voice is beautiful at birth, with a wide range of ups and downs, and he can act, and the script is well written. I watched it and went home and praised it; it happened that Chang Xiangyu's theater troupe was in The performance on the People's Grand Stage was broadcast live on the radio on the first night, and my father listened to it, and he also admired her singing voice very much.The next day, I asked Ende to go to Changning Cinema to watch the movie "Mulan".You know, my father has strict requirements for ari [art], after watching the movie this time, he was very satisfied. It was the first time since liberation that he went to a movie theater, but what he watched was a Chinese movie in ancient costumes. Easy.The only shortcoming of this movie is the shooting problem, the light is very dim and not sharp enough.Ende invited us to watch Chang Xiangyu's matchmaker on the People's Grand Stage. The little girl's pranks in "Kaohong" are exquisite and mischievous, and she performed vividly.I told my dad, if you were in Shanghai, you must be fascinated too!

February 24, 1957 Bronstein wrote a letter on January 29th, saying that on January 19th, I would send you (transferred by Mr. Jie) the following scores: ?? She entrusted an acquaintance to New York for the holidays. Yes, it's really hard to come by.In addition, the ancient Italian music you borrowed from Mr. Ma has also been found, and she will send it together after Mozart's 36cadenzas [Mozart's 36 cadenzas] get it. Shanghai has been extremely cold this winter, and it snowed heavily during the Lunar New Year, and there was no melting for a few days.Our cat froze to death for not having a warm nest for it.It is usually very close to people, and it is a pity to die. For half a month, I have been thinking about it all the time, the poor little animal was killed by our carelessness.

I revised Balzac's first translation, which took much more effort than the first time. The night of March 17, 1957 Dear child in Beijing at 11:00, I answered the phone on March 2. The Shanghai Municipal Party Committee wanted me to attend the National Propaganda Work Conference of the Central Committee of the Communist Party of China. I left on the 4th and arrived in Beijing on the evening of the 5th.On the morning of the 6th, I listened to the recording of Chairman Mao’s report in Huairen Hall. In the afternoon, I held a small group, held a local group for two days, and then held a professional group. I joined the literature group.Discussions and speeches every day, speeches at the conference all day on the 11th, speeches at the conference in the afternoon on the 12th, Chairman Mao himself gave a speech from 5:00 to 6:50.On the afternoon of the 13th, Comrade Lu Dingyi made another summary and announced the end of the meeting.This meeting is an internal party meeting, and it is the first time that people outside the party have participated together.Chairman Mao summoned some representatives of various professional groups to talk every day, and called the conveners of each group to report to him every night. It is conceivable that the nature is important.The main reason is that the "contention of a hundred schools of thought" was not carried out, and dogmatism was recalcitrant. Therefore, after the Chairman spoke at the Supreme State Council, the Central Propaganda Department immediately summoned the leaders of propaganda, culture and education of the provincial and municipal party committees across the country, as well as representatives of higher education, science, literature and art, and press and publication inside and outside the party. The "National Propaganda Work Conference" was held in Beijing. ??People outside the party mostly speak freely without any scruples, but those inside the party are a little timid.Everyone has gained a lot, and I plan to talk about it in detail in the next letter. March 18, 1957 Dear child in Beijing late at night, yesterday sent a letter with seven pages of delivery report attached.Four more pages of the transmission report are hereby sent. There are other materials, which will be sorted out and sent after returning to Shanghai.I really can't spare time in Beijing, running around, even if I have a car, I am very tired.These two letters were written with force. The tone and tone of Chairman Mao's speeches are particularly friendly and easy-going, with a great sense of humor; and there is no lecturing tone, the speed is appropriate, and there are appropriate pauses between them, which cannot be conveyed by notes.His Marxism has come to the fore, and when he picks it up at his fingertips, it becomes a wonderful truth, and it comes out with a very natural attitude, imperceptibly penetrating the hearts of the audience.The logic of the speech is hidden but not exposed, what a master of art.The literary and art circles in Shanghai have been depressed for the past six months, and the local leaders have grasped it tightly, as if criticizing the shortcomings of the organization will incite the masses; Newspapers are more and more emphasizing "affirmation", and they always talk about "achievement is the main thing, and shortcomings are secondary" and so on. (This is not bad, but if you keep talking about it, it becomes stereotyped.) Chairman Mao must have already smelled this smell, so from January 18th to 26th he proposed it at the National Conference of Provincial and Municipal Party Secretaries. As for the contention of a hundred schools of thought, the Supreme State Council at the end of February made it more clear that the speech to us on March 12 was more specific, which shows that his thinking is gradually developing in depth.He repeatedly said that how to deal with internal conflicts among the people is also a new issue for the party, which needs to be studied together with people outside the party;He also ordered the provincial and municipal committees to call non-Party people to discuss matters within the Party.He is broad-minded and free-thinking, no different from our old intellectuals, coupled with his extremely flexible use of dialectics, of course he has a good grasp of state affairs.Chairman Mao is a person who has truly integrated ancient and modern Chinese and foreign philosophies. My feeling is that letting a hundred flowers bloom and a hundred schools of thought contend is indeed decades of education. We have to wait patiently and fight friendly; There are several reasons: First, the class struggle is too intense. After decades of brutal civil wars and revolutions, the veteran cadres are now middle-aged and have reached the stage of physical decline; The spirit is even less energetic, and the motivation to seek knowledge and study is naturally insufficient.The second is that during the class struggle, the enemy is right in front of you, and if you don’t actively learn to fight, you will die. The interests of personal and collective security are closely linked; Not willing to actively learn the way of socialist construction.The third is that the success of the revolution has given veteran cadres some complacency, and they pretended to have worked hard and made great achievements. Of course, they are not willing to condescend to experience new things.Fourth, society is developing rapidly, and how many things need to be decided immediately every day. Instead of studying hard, we can only simplify and deal with it with dogmatic bureaucracy.These four points are important factors that create bureaucracy, subjectivity, and dogma.Otherwise, Chairman Mao once said, "We did not learn the same thing first before we engaged in class struggle, but struggled while learning." Why can't we learn while building socialism?Conversely, I have personally seen middle-level cadres demobilized from the PLA to do gardening work, and after four years they have become excellent experts.The commander-in-chief of the Foziling Reservoir was also a demobilized soldier. When the engineers disagreed and disagreed, he came out based on Marxism-Leninism and his professional studies, and his conclusions were correct every time.It can be seen that as long as you are young and vigorous, as long as you have self-confidence, perseverance, and unconvinced learning skills, it is not too difficult for an amateur to become an expert.If there were more people like this in the party, bureaucracy and so on would gradually decrease. Chairman Mao's words and this meeting have inspired me a lot, and I will talk to you next time. I know from Mr. Ma that you are not in a good mood recently. After reading the above words, you may feel better. Don't forget that we are in an era of great changes, not only in our country, but also in other countries.There is only one Chairman Mao, and there are no other countries. It is inevitable that there will be more detours, and intellectuals will inevitably suffer more depression. This is inevitable and not surprising.The failure experience of the Soviet Union has saved us a lot of energy; the countries in Central Europe will gradually improve in the future by referring to our practice.When studying in a country, you can only concentrate on learning what it is good at; don't worry too much about the situation in the host country, let alone be depressed by it.I often feel that there are fewer and fewer friends who are truly active, enthusiastic, and willing to work hard for the cause of socialism, but I still cheer for them, and I still work hard.When I come to Beijing, I will cheer Uncle Lou, Uncle Pang, and Mr. Ma. I have to train myself to be strong first, so that I will not be dragged down by the negative factors in the environment, so that I have the remaining energy to shout "Come on, come on" to my friends!Your current learning environment is really ideal, try your best to study it.Low air pressure outside, ignore it.You are a friend of Poland, a son of Poland, but with your bare hands you cannot help in their building.The only way to repay her is to study hard, bring the skills of Polish teachers and the encouragement and inspiration from the Polish music industry back to the motherland, and sow some seeds of true friendship to Poland in China.Their intellectuals are hesitating, you don't have to.The great Chairman Mao shines from afar, illuminating your path forward, and you have to live up to his old man's leadership. I also discussed carefully with Mr. Pang, Mr. Ma. If you change to study in the Soviet Union, the atmosphere in the general cultural circle may be healthier, which is good for you; but there is also some dogmatism, which you must bear; As the days go by, you will also complain.Their music world is generally of the cold [calm] type. It is difficult to be sure when you can find a teacher who can tolerate and give in to you and allow you to fully develop freely. Mr. Ma thinks that the Soviet schools and teaching methods are not very suitable for you.I also agree with this point.In the end, if you change to the Soviet Union, you will have to start all over again in terms of language and writing, and you can't afford the delay now.Mr. Zhou Yang heard me talk about Teacher Jie's knowledge, and said: "Learn a few more years." (Minister Xia wrote to me a few months ago, afraid of the turbulent environment in Poland, and wanted you to go to school sooner. Returning to China. Now his views are different.) You should remember that in the year before the victory, I gathered twelve or thirteen friends in Shanghai (including Song Uncle, Jiang Chunfang, two Qiu Uncles, etc.) and got together every two weeks , a small academic speech by one person; Then we had refreshments, talked about the current situation, and exchanged news.That period was the most depressing period for us, but we were not depressed. Instead, we gathered some friends to create a healthy little world and hide for a while. Your situation is very different now than we were then, and there is no need to be depressed.The tenacity of my character is worth learning from you.My vulnerability is in the details of life, not in the big issues.I hope you are strong, think of the hard struggle of the masters in the past, think of people like Christophe, think of Mozart, Beethoven; stand up, not casually affected by the environment!Why bother to look at other people's trash?Don't worry too much.A guest should pay more attention to the beauty of the host's house; you should be like a long-hungry bee, sucking the nectar from flowers as much as possible, and turning it into your own good honey.What's more, you have to learn piano [piano], learn theory, and understand characters. You are in the atmosphere of art and academics all day, and you are too busy. How can you have time to think about the neighbor's housework? Dear child, listen to my words. Dad has a sincere heart, busy cheering up the few friends around him, busy meddling in other people's affairs, doing a little bit for the cause of socialism, and also busy supporting the cause of socialism. I want to work on my business, but I hope that I can make progress; of course, I also want to work as a gardener and guard for your son: this is my responsibility and my pleasure.Rest more, eat well, sleep well, vent less emotions when practicing the piano, (no one is hardcore!) live a regular life, and naturally the body will be strong, the spirit will be full, and everything will be optimistic.In case there is any low ebb, think of your father holding his long and thin arms to support you from a distance; even more think of such a strong party, government and Chairman Mao, who have done many great things all the time, sent out Many great speeches, invisible but effective in encouraging you to move forward!It is good for young people like you to balance the body and mind, to balance the intellect and emotions, to control the flesh, to control the emotions, and to control the thoughts.Self-cultivation is holistic and comprehensive; not only about music, but especially about being a person—not being a person in a narrow sense, but including views and attitudes towards the world and the political situation.People in the 20th century, born in a socialist country, need calm reason even more. Only emotions controlled by iron-like reason can be healthy and make real contributions to art.My child, I can't say enough words, I believe you understand everything, it's just a matter of practice!My back hurts, my eyes are dim, and I can't write any more. I bless you, I love you, I hope you are strong, stronger, and always be a strong person, a strong person with a compassionate heart! May 25, 1957* Dear Cong'er: It's been a long time since I wrote to you. In the past few months, I've been so busy reading newspapers that I can't finish them.Dad came home from a meeting and had to deliver a report to me, so excited.Since the rectification movement at the Shanghai Propaganda Conference started, there has been a lot of contention. Old writers who have been writing for a long time, and experts and scholars who are depressed have written articles in response. They boldly talked about contradictions and shortcomings at the symposium. Most of them started from the viewpoint of loving the party. Hope to make great improvements.Especially those who were punished before, they are even more elated and full of energy.However, apart from the unprecedented contention in Beijing and Shanghai, the leaders of other provinces have not really comprehended the spirit of Chairman Mao, and dare not let it go. On the one hand, I was afraid of letting go and getting out of hand, on the other hand, I was afraid that I would be punished in the future, so I was full of worries, making my hands tied and lifeless.There are indeed many problems in this controversy, and the cases exposed from various aspects are both infuriating and anxious.The leadership’s appeasement of party members, suppression of democracy, unfair rating and salary evaluation, arbitrary style of work, isolation from the masses, etc. are quite serious. These are the reasons for building a high wall and gap with non-party people.Now people are required to demolish the walls and fill the ditches, because it didn't happen overnight, so we had to do it slowly. But no matter which institution or school, bureaucracy, sectarianism, and dogmatism (these were called the three evils in the past, and now they are called "elimination of the three evils"), the more serious the opinions of the masses are, the more sharp they are. If it is released, there will be a tendency to get out of hand, and even cause a big democracy.As for the general fake activists, those who flatter and flatter the public, alienate the masses, and make the leaders listen and believe, they will all be attacked.Dad wrote a short article, which was very gratifying.However, we realize that we have made mistakes during the "Three Antis" and "Thinking of Reform" in the past, and have hurt many good people. This time, we must not create a great democracy and repeat the same mistakes. We must follow the spirit of Chairman Mao, treat diseases and save people, and distinguish right from wrong. , starting from the desire of unity-criticism-unity, I hope not to retaliate, but to criticize each other in good faith, to improve relations, and to do a good job in the cause of socialism with one heart.Of course, there are many difficulties, which need to be overcome together, both inside and outside the party. Regarding publishing issues, Dad wrote long articles of more than 7,000 words and spoke at publicity meetings.It is unanimously recognized that his articles are very fair and reasonable.The publishing and literary circles in Beijing and Shanghai all believe that the existing system must be completely changed. The publishing industry is a cultural industry and cannot be regarded as an ordinary enterprise.The current merged publishing houses should be dispersed, the structure should be reduced, and the personnel should be streamlined, so that they should not be institutionalized or administrated; Xinhua Bookstore’s one-net exclusive distribution should be changed to multilateral distribution, and the phenomenon of "lack" and "indiscriminate" should be improved.In short, we can't go our own way as in the past, we must seek the opinions of experts and the masses.Maybe there will be a national publishing conference in Beijing to discuss how to carry out reforms. May 26, 1957 There have always been more meetings and more contact with the outside world, and I feel that ordinary people in society cannot keep up with the new situation.The remarks and opinions expressed by many people are not very pertinent and in-depth, because they do not think enough about the problem.It can be seen that in order to build the cause of socialism, not only people inside the party, but also people outside the party must study hard and use their brains more.In my letter to you in Beijing, I said that everything should be done slowly, and that the rectification movement and the development of democracy all need to be learned step by step inside and outside the party.Now everyone is a little impatient, which is actually wrong.Everything cannot be done overnight.Bureaucracy, sectarianism, subjectivism, and dogmatism have existed for a long time, and it will not happen overnight.Although we expose contradictions and raise opinions, we must not be anxious, we must wait patiently, we must always supervise, and we must put ourselves in the shoes of the government and think on behalf of the government.There are tens of thousands of problems, which must be prioritized and resolved in batches; some are limited by objective conditions, and they cannot be improved within a year or two.In short, we must not forget that everything must proceed from the population of 600 million, and from the specific situation of backward agriculture, industry and culture; The night of July 1, 1957 Dear children, tonight the Ministry of Culture sent a copy of the Tchaikovsky competition manual, and attached a letter saying that it intends to send you to participate, soliciting our opinions.I have replied to the letter, saying that I will make a decision after consulting you and Mr. Jie.The summary of the competition is copied on a separate sheet, and the program is also attached.The original text is in Chinese. I don't know some authors and works, so I can only copy Chinese.Fortunately, there must be Russian and Polish languages ​​in Poland, you can check them out.I sent it to you for your convenience. In this regard, you should especially consider the following points: First, since most international competitions focus on skills, do you think it is appropriate to participate this time?This point should be the center of consideration! Second, all competitions must play at least three Tchaikovsky works. How do you feel recently? You didn't like him much before. 3. The second round is very heavy, and the first and second parts combine to play five large-scale works; can your current body support it? (Of course for the second part of the second round, you only need to practice a new one; But in general, there are seven pieces to be played in the second round. ) Fourth, is it appropriate to delay your theory class for another three months?This should be considered from the perspective of your entire study plan. Five, either next year or the year after, France may invite you to perform.If I come next year, is it appropriate to break away from formal study twice a year?Will the school have any objections? Please write a letter after discussing the above five points in detail with Mr. Jie.Be cautious before making a decision, and be thoughtful everywhere. December 23, 1957* You have only sent one letter since the echo, and I am always thinking about it.I don't know how your body is?How is your study?Do you feel more at ease?I often dream of you, and even dream that you are back again. The Writers Association’s meeting to criticize my father was held ten times in total, and three times of self-criticism were made, and the last time it was said that it was an improvement.After going through this test, my father finally gained something, but people's opinions were too sharp or inconsistent with the facts, he was somewhat uncomfortable, his nerves were tense, he lost a lot of weight, he often suffered from insomnia, and lost seven pounds.The stoppage of work was the most painful thing for him, because the mind was restless. Recently I read some books on Marxism-Leninism, which solved many of his ideological problems.For five months, my father was in pain, and I was also restless, so I lost four pounds.Dad said that he used to always look at the good things about people, especially for powerful old friends. Only when he was fifty years old did he realize that judging people is not so simple. For his own interests, old friends will betray friends and raise Opinions can be raised indiscriminately, or even spread rumors, and you have to bite back. Fortunately, Dad has a clear conscience and seeks truth from facts.But from the meeting, we can see a person's true qualities, so he must be more vigilant in his future life.As a man, Dad has always been outspoken, never knew the word "beware", and dealt with all matters big and small seriously, not afraid of exposing his thoughts; the lesson this time is too big and too deep.I think of you even more. You have many similarities with your father's personality, and there are some differences. It's really chilling. April 19, 1958* Dad's health is very bad. In addition to general weakness and insomnia, he also has eye problems. When he first noticed it, he often had dizziness, soreness, tears, and headaches. He thought the glasses were wrong. Two months ago, he consulted an ophthalmologist for optometry, only to find out that they were not. The reason for the glasses is basically a disease of the eyes itself, because excessive brain vision has affected the decline of the optic nerve. The doctor said that he must rest for three to four months, absolutely not read books, use the brain, and have good nutrition, otherwise there will be a risk of blindness if it continues to develop .This "stuck" my father. It is not easy to ask him to rest and not work, and to idle his mind. Therefore, I strongly advised my father to listen to the doctor for life.In the past two months, his work has finally stopped completely. Sometimes he listens to music, and I often force him to sleep, because only when he is lying on the bed can he really lose his eyesight.My father's headache was diagnosed by Dr. Wu as trigeminal neuralgia. The pain occurred two or three times a day. When it was severe, the pain lasted for more than ten hours all night, which was very distressing.The teeth have also been checked, and a few have been pulled out, but it still doesn't solve the problem.Now I have recuperated for more than two months, but my eyes still haven't improved much, so I am also very upset.In the future, I will be asked to do more work for him, such as looking up dictionaries, sorting out manuscripts, finding materials, making cards, typing, etc., than before.And I also have a weak heart in the past few years, my face is often swollen and my feet are swollen, and my heart beats very fast, especially after I have been on guard or been busy for a while.But this is what you should do when you are older, so you don't have to worry about it.The most important thing is to take care of yourself, don't get overtired, and get enough rest! August 2, 1958* You know that he has always enjoyed work, so as long as he can bear it mentally and physically, he will work hard to learn Marxism-Leninism as the beginning of self-reform, to improve his political understanding and theoretical foundation; On the one hand, make some preparations for translation.Not receiving your letter makes him uneasy and often talks in his sleep, which is very painful.Dad seems to have aged a lot this year, with more gray hair.I have also lost a lot of weight compared to last year, and my face and feet are often swollen, which is a sign of an unhealthy heart.Son, after receiving this letter, please write as soon as possible. Only your letter is the only comfort for me and your father! October 1, 1959 My child, you should be able to imagine my mood for ten months; I don't want to say a thousand words, so as not to increase your burden.You have never forgotten the motherland, and the motherland has not forgotten you, and always leaves room for you, waiting for you to wake up.I believe: the door of the motherland is always open to you.A lot of words, my mother has said, I don't want to repeat.But I have to emphasize one more point, that is: an appropriate amount of music can stimulate your art and improve your level; too much music can only numb your feelings, make your performance lack vitality and freshness, and thus damage your Art.Since you value art more than life, you should be loyal to art and do everything possible to fight for the integrity of art.One of the most important items in this struggle is: we should not only consider all the reasons that need to be introduced, but also consider all the reasons that are not suitable for more introduction. Secondly, don't be a cash cow for managers!Their one thousand and one reasons for persuading you to come out are nothing more than to take advantage of the period when the artist is popular to earn a few more coins, and they are not thinking about real art!Seven or eight or even eight or nine concerts a month is really too much, much too much!If things go on like this, there is a great danger of becoming a pianist, or even a machine for playing the piano!You're going to run out of stock soon; trickle down is the way to go. If, in addition to such a busy schedule, new programs are supplemented at the same time, a person is not steel, and his whole body will collapse within a few months.Without green hills, how can there be firewood?What's more, if the body and mind are too tired, it will affect the mood and affect the feeling of art.You are not ignorant of these many ideals. Why don’t you struggle and discuss with the manager—persist if necessary—to reduce the number of concerts by half or more?I guess you will answer me: It has been agreed at present, and it cannot be canceled. If you cancel, you will have to compensate the loss and so on.But can you postpone all scheduled concerts with more gaps in between?Otherwise, in case of temporary illness, wouldn't the concert still have to be canceled?Is it true that the taxes and the manager's commission are so heavy that you get so little each time that you can't live without so many concerts?Since the letter said that you have gained a firm foothold, you don’t have to worry about your name getting colder if you only appear on stage once or twice a month (at most three times). The decisive battle has been fought, and sporadic and unsatisfactory battles are useless except to waste energy and serve the manager. Not only is it useless, but it will also damage the audience's impression of you because of your substandard performance.Now every time you appear on the stage, it is related to the face of the country; personal honor and disgrace are less important, and national honor and disgrace are more important!You love your motherland, especially this must not be forgotten.For the sake of body, spirit, art, and national honor, you have to greatly reduce your performance.Because of this matter, I haven't been able to sleep soundly since I received the letter, and I have often been shocked all night because of it! And what about your relationship issues?The letter didn't mention a word, but we haven't thought about it for a day. I know your character, and I can imagine your environment; : This is human nature, especially for artists, so we need to be more vigilant.You have been an adult for a long time, and you should be more rational and strong at the age of twenty-five, just relying on impulse Behavior should also be more restrained.I don't know if this is the case?If you want to find a permanent partner, you should also think rationally and don't be blinded by emotions!The lover's vision will change as soon as you get married, and you will not believe it yourself: if you don't think of this in advance, you will inevitably suffer endless pain later.This is what worries us about your outward appearance, apart from your art.Because this also indirectly affects the honor of the country and the nation, the British have always had a very puritanical view on men and women. I think you have also noticed that you know how to love yourself; self-love is to repay your parents and the country. A real artist, an artist worthy of the name, mostly lives his emotional life in memory and imagination.Only those who can sublimate their emotional life have left so many masterpieces to human beings.Repeated, never-ending, fruitless and impossible love will only turn people into Tang Su, make people frivolous, and make people—at least—paralyzed about love, and become cynical invisibly; And you know, the scourge of cynicism, among other things, will make your art decadent; if it is a real sword every time, then the energy consumption will be too much, and the life expectancy is not enough, and it is not enough to devote all to art. Such a waste!You should remember the story of Goethe's "The Sorrows of Young Werther".If Goethe did not have such great wisdom and courage, there would be no Goethe in history.If you think back on the emotional experience from the age of fifteen to the present, you will feel lost, right?It's time to change your eyes, attitude, and mood to look at love from now on, right? ――总之，你无论在订演出合同方面，在感情方面，在政治行动方面，主要得避免“身不由主”，这是你最大的弱点。 ――在此举国欢腾，庆祝十年建国十年建设十年成就的时节，我写这封信的心情尤其感触万端，非笔墨所能形容。孩子，珍重，各方面珍重，千万珍重，千万自爱！ 一九六○年一月十日孩子，看到国外对你的评论很高兴。你的好几个特点已获得一致的承认和赞许，例如你的tone［音质]，你的touch[触键］，你对细节的认真与对完美的追求，你的理解与风格，都已受到注意。有人说莫扎特第27 协奏曲K.595[作品595 号］第一乐章是healthy[健康］，extrovert allegro[外向快板] ，似乎与你的看法本同，说那一乐章健康，当然没问题，说“外向”（extrovert）恐怕未必。另一批评认为你对K.595［作品595 号] 第三乐章的表达“His［他的] 指你sensibilitv is more passive than creative［敏感性是被动的，而非创造的] ”，与我对你的看法也不一样。还有人说你弹萧邦的Ballades［叙事曲］和Scherzo［诙谐曲] 中某些快的段落太快了，以致妨碍了作品的明确性。这位批评家对你三月和十月的两次萧邦都有这个说法，不知实际情形如何？从节目单的乐曲说明和一般的评论看，好像英国人对莫扎特并无特别精到的见解，也许有这种学者或艺术家而并没写文章。