Chapter 4 2

September 4, 1954 Satoshi, dear boy!What a pleasure to receive your fourth letter from Poland and many photos. The postage is only nine days, one day faster than before.Looking at the photo, you are not fat. Are you working too hard and not getting enough sleep?Or is it a photo taken indoors, which looks thinner under the contrast of light and dark?And who took the picture for you?Where was it filmed, why are there two pianos in the room?And there are advertisements for competitions on the back of some, what's going on?Usually, the date and place should be printed on the back of the photo for future reference.

Always write "Don't" in your characters, remember: the upper part is "shadow", the lower part is "pine", "pine" It is the pronunciation of the word. If you remember this, you will not make a mistake.To write running script, you can write like this: .The cursive script of Gaozi is. There is another important little thing: the letter on the envelope should not be too large, it fills up the entire cover; two letters, one is that the road name is partly covered by the stamp, and the other is that my name is pasted on a horn.Because there is really no room for a stamp on the envelope.Just look at the words on the envelope I gave you, and you will know what is proper.

Your critical spirit is getting stronger and stronger, and I am so happy that you have not been "forgotten" by others!What you say about your head and heart is especially comforting to me.Only when you have this understanding will you show your real progress.When I arrived in Poland, I was very lucky to meet such a strict, calm teacher who focused on measures and analyzed the composition.After his training, in addition to being passionate, you also have a steel-like skeleton, which makes people feel warm and solemn, emotional and rational, and gives people deeper and stronger strength!I congratulate you, child, and I believe you will come to this road sooner or later: After a few years, your cultivation will be able to keep your brain [reason] and heart [feeling] in balance.The deeper and richer your spirituality is, and the more refined your skills are, the more you will find a wider audience and critics will appreciate you.I'm so happy for you, boy.

You are nervous on stage this time, according to my analysis, it’s not because the scene is too serious——wasn’t the competition in Luo Jing last year just as serious and terrifying?The main reason is that I didn’t try the piano first. When I went up, I heard the tone [sound] was loud, and I was startled. The touch [touch keys] was uneven, and I was shocked again. The pedal [pedal] was not good, and I was shocked again. These three stimuli are the biggest reasons for your nervousness on stage on the 20th.dont you agree?So in the future, you must keep in mind that no one can touch the piano first unless it is a competition on stage. Otherwise, whether in a private home or at a classmate recital, you must first try the touch (touch key) and pedal (pedal).I believe you will never be nervous again next time.

Everyone appreciates you, and my mother shed tears while reading the letter.See, my boy, what joy your success gives us!And your self-criticism delights us beyond description. If you read my letters, you always feel that there are lessons, as if your father is always a pastor; or if you have heard my words too familiarly since you were young, and your ears are callused; then I hope you can understand my feelings from the perspective of emotion At the same time, we must think: as long as it is the truth, it is a real lesson, no matter it comes from the mouth of parents or friends, or from acquaintances, it must be accepted.Don't be indifferent just because you are tired of listening to it, just ignore it!Don't forget: Your family background from childhood to the present is not only unique in China, but also rare in the world.Who would teach a young art student so much morality besides art?I completely trust you, the seeds I have sown for so many years will surely bear fruit in you one day--I mean an artist with both moral skills and outstanding personality!

Your easy-going temper has to be changed somewhat.It is easier for foreigners, sometimes you might as well just say: I have something to do, or: I want to write a letter home.Artists especially need to meditate.If you are always in the crowd (you are already upset), you will lack opportunities for reflection; thoughts, feelings, and feelings cannot be well organized and summarized. Krakow [Krakov] ① is an ancient city with quaint streets, churches, and bridges, all of which are intriguing.Early in the morning, in the evening, in the middle of the night, wandering in this kind of place must have a different feeling, which is enough to be your poetic and picturesque material.I used to live in an ancient city in the interior of France called Peitier, an ancient city in the thirteenth century. I still can’t forget the atmosphere of ancient culture, and I often dream of wandering there.There must be a lot of Gothique architecture in northern Europe, and there must be a lot of Krakow, which also has a special style.

From August 16th to 25th, the National Literary Translation Work Conference was held in Beijing. When ×× made a summary, he said: (Auntie Bi participated and told me) the technology is one-sided.How can there be such words?How many times have you heard of British chemistry and French chemistry?As long as it is advanced experience, we must learn from the Soviet Union, as well as from other Western European capitalist countries. In the past few days, because I finished translating Fude and took a few days off, I am very tired physically and mentally.Working in summer is not as usual, and it is particularly tiring. ×× is very insightful when talking about translation on weekdays. The day before yesterday, he sent me a translation manuscript with more than 10,000 words that he had painstakingly trained for, but it was a mess.It can be seen that the distance between theory and practice is huge!The Soviet drama expert in Beijing always blamed the directors: "Why are you all theorists, why don't you ask specific questions?" I really feel the same way.Three years ago, the Beijing "Translation Bulletin" asked me to write articles several times, but I refused. The reason was that it was useless to talk about theories, and I mainly did it myself.

12th morning of September 21st, 1954 What is written in the letter is your first low tide abroad.I have tasted them all.Children, be patient, depressed time, no matter who will encounter it from time to time, but it will pass soon.You will often have the taste of homesickness in the future. The East China Artists Association organized a personal exhibition for Huang Binhong. The opening ceremony was held yesterday afternoon, with a discussion.I went and the painting is very nice.There are more than one hundred recent works, although the tone is thick and black, they are very thick and deep, and many works are very detailed when viewed from a distance, but the brush strokes are still thick when viewed close up.This technology is top grade!I was forced to do nothing by Lai Shaoqi (chairman of the Artists Association), and I also spoke at the symposium.It is roughly: (1) Western painting and Chinese painting have developed on the same road in modern times; (2) Chinese painters should learn from Western painters in terms of technical foundation, such as sketching from life, plastering, etc.; (3) Chinese and Western painters should observe each other, (4) Artists in any department should be interested in other arts.Most of the speakers were praising the author, which I don't think is the meaning of the discussion.Too many compliments to hear.

Before the meeting, Mr. Huang came to my house at 8:30 yesterday morning.Yesterday at the venue, I met many old friends from the traditional Chinese painting circle, such as He Tianjian, Liu Haisu, etc. They all said: Mr. Huang often mentioned me to them, thinking that I was a great friend in his life. In the past few days, I have had a severe cold again and feel very uncomfortable.Balzac, who just started, can only translate two or three pages a day, which is really a snail climbing a mountain!Don't take the "race" too seriously.Try to ignore success or failure as much as possible, and just try to do your best and be ashamed of your heart; on the contrary, the effect is good, and you can reduce your mental burden on weekdays, and you will not be nervous on stage.Thousands of thousands!

October 2, 1954 Cong, dear child.I was very happy to receive the sixth letter sent on the evening of September 22.We are not troubled or disturbed by your previous letter.I also foretold you in my eighth letter that this depressed Krakow, the third largest city in Poland. There will still be situations in the future.I'm someone who has been there, so I won't make a fuss about it.You don't have to worry about it, let alone keep it to yourself and not tell us.If the distress in my heart is not vented in letters home, where can I vent it?If the child does not complain to his parents, who can he complain to?If we don't come to comfort you, who should comfort you?People are always ups and downs in high tide and low tide all their lives. Only mediocre people can live like stagnant water; or they must have a very high level of self-cultivation before they can feel completely relieved and truly freed.As long as the highs don't overwhelm you and the lows don't overwhelm you, you're fine.If the sun is too strong, the grains will be scorched; if the rain is too strong, the crops will be drowned.We just want a fairly balanced mind so that we don't get hurt.You're not someone who stumbles and can't get up.I expect that the past few years abroad will also be of great help to your whole person.I understand the pain mentioned in this letter; I sympathize with you, and I am willing to try my best to comfort and encourage you.Didn't Christophe go through this situation many times?Isn't he the epitome and crystallization of all artists?

Gradually, you will develop another mood to deal with the past: you can think of it without being thrilled, and you can analyze the cause and effect from an objective standpoint, and use it as a reference for the future, so as not to repeat the same mistakes.Only by daring to face up to reality, face up to mistakes, use rational analysis, and thoroughly comprehend; will one not be eroded by memories.I believe you will learn this gradually and become stronger and stronger.I mentioned the emotional ruin [trauma, destruction] to you in my letter before, and I want you to see these things as the ashes of your soul. Ancient battlefields generally have a heart of condolences.If you think these words are correct and have some inspiration for you, then in the future when you encounter pain from memories (it will inevitably happen again), take out this letter and reread it several times. When it comes to the content of music, if it is not for the guidance of everyone, I also have another feeling, that is, the students themselves must first meet the conditions: for those who do not have a heart, it is useless to be taught by a famous teacher. For you, I have read the section on Krakow in "Encyclopedia Britannica" a few days ago, and I know that it was a city in the seventh century, and the history of the city is very clear from the tenth century .There are more than thirty churches in the city.I hope you buy some postcards and put them in a pack, and when the printed matter (not necessarily by air) is sent, let everyone look and like it. The night of October 13, 1954 ×× has been here several times, and the last time I listened to Ravel [La Verne] ①, it is considered that the paper has been handed in.Not only is Ravel completely breathless, but the whole song is still unreconcilable.It's like reading an article. I don't know how many broken sentences have been read, and the tone of voice is completely contrary to the momentum of the article.I really can't do anything with him. He asked me for my opinion again and again, but I couldn't speak directly. It would be in vain to discourage him, and I couldn't actively help him. I really felt sympathetic and disappointed. On the night of October 19, 1954, Sunday (17th), I went out to play all day.In the morning, I went to the museum to see ancient paintings, bronze wares of the Shang and Zhou Dynasties, etc.; in the afternoon, I went to the Cultural Club (the former French General Assembly, diagonally opposite Lyceum) to visit the preview of the works that East China participated in the National Art Exhibition.As a result, even Amin shook his head frequently, and couldn't stand shouting.Most of them are month cards, which are not as childish as a good factory poster.The childishness of comic woodcuts is nothing to worry about.The rest of the older generation painters are also fashionable, painting some smooth, large-scale colored postcards, which are more than ten feet long, and they look like stage sets from a distance, but there is no pen and ink in a close look. ① Laver (1875-1937), French composer. Ke Ziqi sent Franc K [Frank] ③ Sonata [Sonata] by Estella ① and Oberlin ② to lend us a listen.The first impression was that it was too hot and not enough Franck (Franck) flavor. The volume [volume] is too loud, and the melody [melody] is handled too rough.The third chapter is not mysterious enough; the fourth chapter violin [violin] is clearly cornered and not round, even I can hear it clearly. Piano [piano] also has a place where the change of tone [sound, sound quality] is not in harmony with the above.Later, they brought out Thibaud-Cortot (迪博一艺尔特) ① to take out a dagger, which further showed the self-cultivation and understanding of these two people.There are many sentences with very light endings (referring to the violin part) and very short, but they have a special charm, which I think is the expression of Frank's "forbearance" and "abandonment" spirit.This is completely absent among Russian performers. I think back to when you and Wei worked together the year before last, everyone listened to Thibaud-Cortot's records several times, and felt that there was nothing to learn; only now do we realize that our level is not enough. There is no such deep, subtle, inner beauty.And in retrospect, your pianopart [piano performance part] is also played much too romantic [romantic bottom Ke]. There is another wonderful thing about the performance of TC②, which is that the two instruments are well balanced.In the Soviet Union, the violin [violin] was overridden by the piano [piano], not only the volume [volume], but even the music [music] was monopolized by the violin.From what I heard this time, it seems that Oestella's tone [sound, sound quality] is too rough, not suitable for very delicate tunes. On the morning of October 22, 1954, XX called yesterday and asked us to go to his home to see the works and give him some advice.The words are quite that, I am sorry to refuse.At three o'clock in the afternoon, I went with your mother.The oil painting "Luo Shen", which he failed to participate in the East China Art Exhibition recently, is in the same category as his previous paintings of Buddha statues and Guanyin.The face has neither a solemn and serene expression (), nor an out-of-the-world attitude ("Luo Shen"), and the colors are neither strong and vivid, nor deep and reserved.It seems that the author's thoughts are just some inexplicable smoke, and the author's emotions are just a chaotic piece of nameless things.I asked: "Do you have religious emotions and Buddhist thoughts?" He said: "I only like rich colors. As for the spirit of religion, I have also traced their heaven...and other concepts from Buddhist paintings." I said: "They first had Buddhist thoughts and emotions, and then they asked for that kind of color to express their thoughts and emotions. Now you are doing it the other way around. And what you are after is only color, and your color has no root of affection. It is inevitable to be influenced by foreign art, but it must be combined with one's thoughts and feelings.Otherwise, just follow the appearance and just be someone else's slave.Buddhist paintings are not impossible to paint, but they must first have strong and sincere Buddhist feelings, and have a Buddhist outlook on life and the universe.Or I have a set of outlook on life and the universe, and feel that the composition and color of Buddhist art just express my own ideas and emotions, so I can borrow other people's appearance, which is of course possible.If one pursues it only from the aspects of shape and color, it would be a serious mistake of formalism. What's more, as far as the modern European painting school is concerned, the works of the purely sensual school have a very strong power to stimulate the senses.If you don't have strong feelings yourself, how can you teach the viewers to be aroused by your works?If the state in your chest is not beautiful, how can people think your works are beautiful?You think you are pursuing richness, but in the end there is no richness in the picture, only tacky rustic; doesn't it mean that your mood is tacky and rustic? (At that time, my wording was not so explicit.) Only in this way, although you have committed the fault of formalism, even the effect of formalism will not be produced at all. ① Oistrakh (David Oistrakh, 1908-1974), a famous Soviet violinist. ② Oborin (Ni kolayevich Oborin, 1907--1974), Soviet pianist. ③ Franck (1822-1890), Belgian composer. ① Di Bo (1880-1953), a famous French violinist.Cortot (1877-1962), a famous French pianist. ②T. C is the abbreviation of Di Bo and Cortot. I also said: "Mythological themes must be painted, but first, it is far away from the current environment; second, it is too far away from the current age and learning stage. I did not recognize reality and delved into mythology first, It is equal to the self-anesthesia of a young man drinking alcohol and a woman, which is very dangerous for the future. The first step for a person who studies Western painting is to train his skills, he must read more foreign works, and the second is to completely forget foreign works-this is a It's a tough job -- pursuing your own ethos and your own personality at the same time." Based on XX's foundation, it will take at least another five or ten years of work on the human body before he can paint the ideal subject, and whether he can succeed at that time depends on his talent.Later, I talked about many future issues of Chinese painting as a whole, so I won't go into details here.In short, I feel very sorry that people who study art do not have accurate guidance at all.Before liberation, the teaching of the three art schools in Shanghai, Hangzhou, and Beijing each had its own special shortcomings, and none of them had thought about or studied art education.After Liberation, ideological remolding was carried out all day long, without hitting the crux of ideological problems.A lot of basic technical training and ideological inspiration, and ideological inspiration other than politics, let alone no one has mentioned it, I am afraid that no one has even had a shadow in their minds. People who study painting are actually more depressed in the here and now than you people who study music.First, you have records to listen to, but they only have prints to read; the difference between the print and the original is the same as the difference between the record and the original performance.Secondly, you are explaining the works of Westerners (in terms of performers), they are the art of creating the Chinese nation.Even if you compose music, because music is a virgin land in China, it can develop freely; it is not like painting, which has a tradition of more than a thousand years that presses down on the spirit of young people and binds their hands and feet.No matter what kind of guidance you have, at least you have been trained in scientific methods since you were young. Hours of fingering practice every day will lay the foundation for you; their sketching time is far less than yours, and the most diligent students can only draw one or two. Years of basic sketching, followed by no help from the scientific method.Once you leave the Academy of Fine Arts, you have to "create", and if you don't create, you can't talk about performance; and since liberation, the entire literary and art circles, including Central and European countries, have been unable to find a way out. (The mental state and emotions are not yet mature, and you can naturally find the appropriate image performance.) Your competition problems are certainly a heavy burden, but you must make some mental preparations anyway.As long as you try to ignore gains and losses as much as possible, you will be able to calm down and relax your mind and body. Only in this way can you hope for good grades.There is still time to practice this kind of self-cultivation. If you can often think of the famous sentence of "articles are eternal things, you know the gains and losses at an inch", you will definitely relax a lot mentally.This is the only way to avoid feeling overworked and tired.The most torturous thing is not mental work, nor physical work (that kind of fatigue can be easily eliminated, and you can recover after a short rest), but worry!Children, please listen to me. Work hard to relax yourself psychologically and ensure that you have good grades.Nervousness is bad for everything. From now until the competition, there are still more than three months, as long as you follow the will of "Foolish Old Man Moves Mountains" and keep the concept of "I will do my best"; when you are nervous, let yourself relax immediately, and deal with your spirit like you deal with your body Hands and fingers are the same, pay attention to relaxation all the time, I guarantee you will have success next year.This mental hygiene is more important to you than practicing the piano, because the performance of practicing the piano is based on the mental state and is the main condition!You want us to worry less about you, and we can only try to tell you to relax.You must agree with these words, and you must have thought of them a long time ago, but the most important thing is to do it on the ground, and also to fight with yourself; the way to fight is of course not to be tense, but to dilute it, but to think more about life and the universe. If you look down on the individual, then you will naturally reduce your worry about gains and losses, and as a result, you will be more comfortable physically and mentally, and your work will be smoother! You can't be too busy on weekdays.When people drag you out, you have to make up your homework afterwards, which will hinder your energy.For the reason of practicing the piano, let's decline a few more times.If you are not nervous, you should not be too busy; I would rather take time off to think about it quietly, and read a poem or two for fun.Don't be too affectionate, sorry.If you don't go out with people during working hours and make it a habit, you won't offend people.The energy in life is limited, and everyone only has 24 hours; it is not strictly arranged, and people like you who want to damage the body do not need to work hard on their skills.On this point, you might as well always think of my example, and my friends don't blame me.