Chapter 3 1

On the evening of January 18, 1954 Son, this time you are really "smiling all day long"①!Teach people how to be willing!I kept thinking about what happened in the first month of 1953, and my conscience could hardly be dispelled.Child, I abused you, I will never forgive you, I will never make up for this sin!These thoughts have not left my mind all day, but I dare not tell my mother.If you do one thing wrong in life, your conscience will never be at peace!Really, Balzac said it well: Some sins can only be redeemed, not washed away! On the evening of January 19, 1954 Going to bed last night warmed up your childhood again.Poor child, how could your childhood be so similar to mine?I also know that the setbacks you suffered as a child are not unhelpful to your achievements today; but as a father, I always made a lot of big mistakes.Ask yourself whether you have done anything sorry to your friends or society in your life, but at home, you and your mother have done a lot of unconscionable things①. -

―These are things that I have often thought of in the past year, but these days, they have been circling in my mind, like a nightmare.It's a pity that after the age of forty-five, the fatherhood is really awakened! Today, the spirit has not recovered.The hurdles of life are endless, and when you are almost done, you have to leave the world again.Analyzing the mental fluctuations in the past two days, most of it is because: I have never loved you so deeply as now, and at this moment when I love you the most, I have to say goodbye!This level is an unprecedented test for me and your mother.Don't forget that your mother is not just an ordinary mother's love, but especially because she has spent the most for you, and she has suffered grievances for you-of course it is my fault-the most, the deepest and the most painful.Sooner or later, the flowers and fruits irrigated by the gardener with blood and tears must be sent to the world for others to enjoy, but at the moment of parting, how can we avoid the emotion of parting?

What passed along with your painful childhood was my prime of life who didn't know the art of being a father.Fortunately, you are so blessed that no amount of blows can destroy you, thus reducing part of my crimes.But the result is one thing, and the facts of the year are another: Although I buried my past, I still couldn't bury my mistakes.boy, boy!child!How can I hug you to express my regret and love! On the evening of January 30, 1954 Dear child, the day after you left, I wanted to write a letter, and I was afraid that you would find it annoying, so that's all.But there was not a single day when I didn't miss you. I woke up at six or seven every morning, tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep, and I couldn't explain why.

It seems that Christophe's mother is alone at home, remembering the scenes of the child's childhood. Your mother and I always think about your stories from the age of two to six or seven. ——We don’t know how much we can talk to you about this kind of thing, but we dare not say it. At your age, everything is going forward, and you don’t want to look back; we chatter about the past of your diaper era, which will cause your loathing.My child, I know all this, and so does my mother.It’s just that everything about you will be imprinted in our minds anytime, anywhere① In 1954, Fu Cong went to Poland to participate in the Fifth Chopin International Piano Competition and studied in Poland. On January 16, 1954, the whole family was in Shanghai. The train station sent Fu Cong to Beijing to prepare to go abroad.

① The father taught his children very strictly, sometimes almost unreasonable, and the mother was often mentally tortured because of this. It will float up, like a series of sketches, making us happy and melancholy. Really, you were at home for a month and a half this time, and it was the happiest period of our lives; I don't know who to thank for this happiness, even if I have no religious beliefs, I can't help but thank God so far!I am happy that I have another friend; my son has become a friend, what in the world can compare with this kind of happiness! Although there will be more and less separation between you and me in the future, I am at least warm in spirit and not lonely.I believe that I will not be too outdated, not too wintery, so as not to annoy you.I also hope that you don't think that what I think and see at the top of the peak is more unreal than yours.Older people always look to the future. Many things you think I am wrong for a while, but as time goes by, the reality proves to you that I am not wrong.

My child, I am afraid that I have learned as much from you as you have from me.Especially in the past three years, you have given me a lot of profound experience in life. I have learned patience, learned the skills of speaking, and learned to sublimate my feelings from the process of getting along with you! The day after you left, Mom cried, and her eyes were swollen for two days: these are called tears of bittersweetness and joy.We can tell you this without being shy, or we can tell you this without worrying that you will hate it.Humans are emotional animals after all.There is nothing shameful about casual revelations.What's more, mother's tears are always holy and loving!

February 2, 1954 (New Year's Eve) Last night, from 7:15 to 8:50, the radio station broadcast the four pieces of Chopin [Chopin]② you played in City 3①, plus a piece of Polonaise [Polonaise]④ by encore③. The effect is very good, but the bass part is fuzzy Very loud; the sound of the piano is too loud, like the first night when I went to listen to it in the empty room of the small auditorium.As far as the performance is concerned, I think it is generally very good. It is done in one go, full of energy, and the delicate parts are very delicate. There are indeed many changes in tone colour.We were all very happy and moved to hear it.Good boy, I should really praise you a few words.Thinking back to the time when you just returned to Shanghai from Kunming in April 1951, you were really halfway up the mountain from a low-lying place.I hope you will pay attention to your overall self-cultivation from now on, and you will be able to climb the peak in the future.From your recordings, I clearly feel that everything about you is much more mature, especially your will, which I have been looking forward to for so many years, has finally raised its head.I'm so happy, I value that more than anything else.If you can master the whole piece of music, it means adding depth to art, which means that your artistic soul is stronger and broader, which means that your entire personality and heart are enlarged.Boy, I want to repeat a sentence from Bronstein's letter, that is, I am proud of you!

Today is New Year's Eve, thinking of you studying and working hard in the distance, I can't tell the joy in my heart.Farewell, baby, I hug you in my heart! February 10, 1954? I wanted some pictures in the house, but I could only pick a few printed materials.Beijing is very windy and sandy, and there is no glass frame, and better things cannot be hung; Huang Binweng's works, there are also small ones, I can give them to you; just don't frame them. ① Before Fu Cong went to Beijing to go abroad, the Shanghai Music Association held a farewell concert for him at the former Shanghai No. 3 Girls Middle School.

② Chopin (1810-1849), Polish composer. ③ It was originally French, but it was used in slang, meaning "one more". ④ Polonaise, a Polish dance music, originated from the accompanying music of Polish court etiquette in the sixteenth century. ① Bronstein, former Soviet teacher of the Piano Department of Shanghai Conservatory of Music, once supervised Fu Cong's piano. Fortunately, your stay in Beijing this time is not long, so let's talk about it later. The portrait of Chopin [Chopin] was bought in Paris when I was twenty-three years old, and it is also a photograph of the masterpiece of the great romantic painter Delacroix [Delacroix]①; the Mozart [Mozart]② is a relic of Paci[Hundred Instruments]③ , It is also a good engraving version, I can't bear to let them go to Beijing to eat the dust naked, so I won't give it to you.

Don't read Russian too fast, otherwise you won't be able to remember it firmly, and you will have to start over again in the future.At the beginning, you must be calm and unhurried, and the characters and cases must be memorized. It is useless to memorize temporarily like preparing for an exam.Reading Russian now has no choice but to seek a concept, don't be too ambitious.The main thing is to work harder on music theory.It is always faster to study foreign languages ​​abroad.At present, if you are greedy for too many things, you will not actually benefit much, so remember!Wang took the initiative to explain to the teacher that it would take at least two or three months to speed up.

In the past two days, Shanghai has suddenly been extremely warm, with southeast wind and sandy soil, much like spring in Kunming.Amin and Ende read "Poetry" to me together. Min said that you often recite the two lines "Chaohui Day, Dayan Spring Clothes, and Jiangtou Drunken Every Day", and now he can also recite it.I am preparing a small gift for you to take abroad in the future, I expect you will be very happy.It's your mother's birthday in a week, and your birthday in a month. I can't help but feel sad and happy when I think about it. Hindmith's music theory will be sent out tomorrow. In the past few days, I have started to read the works of Fude. His storytelling is not strong, and it all depends on the vague allegory of the article.I saw that I was really terrified and felt incapable of expressing it.That kind of style is best followed by Aunt Bi and Aunt Qian.My writing is too rigid, too "real", not playful enough, not light enough. The results of the March 5th Night Concert in 1954 were not completely satisfactory, but it was also because of the problem of hating the radicals.In the future, if you practice more, overcome your skills, and train your mind to concentrate easily, you will definitely be able to greatly improve it.Uncle Qian wrote a letter a few days ago, because I mentioned it to him, so he said, "At that time, I will be a cow and listen to the wise man's wonderful performance". In fact, you have already played it at that time, so it can be seen that he didn't know it at all.Aunt Qian has been ill for a week recently, fearing that the news in the school will be even more estranged. I'm still busy, the class has not yet started, and the old translator is proofreading; and there are a lot of miscellaneous things.Uncle Lin's manuscript on singing must be finished for him in the first half of the year, but now he spends four or five hours a week for him. Mr. Ke Ling wrote a movie script and asked me to comment. In the middle of the night on March 13, 1954*?? Sichuan Opera was performed in Shanghai. When entertaining the literary and art circles, a ticket was sent to me. I went to see it, and I was very satisfied after watching it.Dad really wants to go and watch it.Last week the tickets were sold publicly, and I had to queue up to buy tickets. I rushed to buy tickets and saw a long snake formation. Auntie sent two cards, which happened to be on March 10th. We invited Aunt Niu and Ende to go with us. They were very happy. It was your birthday. Aunt Niu specially invited us to Xinya for dinner and noodles. They were really thoughtful , I went to watch the show after dinner. ① Delacroix (1798-1863), a French romantic painter in the first half of the nineteenth century.With rich imagination and quick wit, he is the pioneer of impressionism and modern expressionism. ② Mozart (1756-1791), Austrian composer. ③ That is Mei Baiqi, a great pianist in the 19th century and a disciple of Li Sidai who composed the music.Former founder and conductor of the Shanghai Symphony Orchestra.Fu Cong has been studying piano under him for three years since he was nine and a half years old. ④ Hindemith (1895-1963), an important German composer and theorist. ① Voltaire (Voltaire, 1694-1778), a famous French writer. ② Aunt Bi is Yang Bi, the translator of Thackeray's famous novel "Vanity Fair".Aunt Qian is Qian Zhongshu's wife, Ms. Yang Jiang, sister of Yang Bizhi. ③ Lin Junqing, a famous physician, a famous baritone singer, an expert in acoustic research, and former director of the Institute of Acoustics. There are five titles in total, "Autumn River", "Gift of Ti Pao", "Brothers in Wutai", "Returning Boats and Throwing into the River", and "The Story of Cuixiang".We watched it very interestingly, and the work was very delicate, but the music was monotonous, which is the same problem regardless of Peking Opera and Kunqu Opera. In terms of screenwriting, some parts are not compact enough. Generally speaking, this kind of local opera is worth preserving. "Autumn River" The old man in "Wutai Brothers" is very wonderful, and Yang Wulang in "Wutai Brothers" is very moving in singing and acting.Originally, my father was going to write to you in the next few days to talk to you about drama issues, especially after watching Sichuan opera, I had many opinions. It's a pity that he is ill, and he will talk to you when he recovers. March 19, 1954 How have you been doing lately?Did Le Li start?I hope you spend part of your practice time studying theory.Qin's problem can't be rushed for a while, and the technique needs to be changed at all.However, music theory can catch up as soon as possible, no matter what, you need to have a preliminary concept.Otherwise, if you go abroad, plus the difficulty of writing, it will be slower to read music theory.Pay attention to this point. In "Autumn River" in the Sichuan opera, the boatman did a good job, but unfortunately the opera itself did not pay equal attention to Chen Miaochang's eagerness to catch up.For the rest, Yang Wulang in "Wutai Brothers" is the most wonderful, vivid, emotional, and good at singing and acting.Because the roles of "sheng" in Sichuan opera are poor this time.It's especially bad for decent singers, who have neither voice nor training.On the contrary, the "life" of the villain is better.In general, Sichuan opera is the same as all Chinese operas. The advantage is that the workmanship is extremely delicate, and the disadvantage is that the music is too childish, and the scriptwriting is not good enough;Moreover, the tempo [rhythm] is slack, and there is always too much unnecessary idle drama. On the morning of March 24, 1954, in public organizations, it is inevitable to catch up with tasks and hinder normal study. I had expected this. Everything is only for you to use your firm will and stand to fight for the leader in a subtle and powerful way.Otherwise, how much can you prepare for going abroad? ――Especially in terms of music theory, I have always been worried.From now on, everything depends on your personal perseverance, belief and will - the will to practice. Another point I can tell you: even at any time in my life, when I was in love with the most passionate, I did not forget my loyalty to learning.Knowledge first, art first, truth first, -- love second, this is my principle that has not changed so far.Your situation is different from mine: when you succeed at a young age, you have to think that "it is hard to live up to the great reputation", and you have to be cautious and live up to the expectations of the people of your country.Your gratitude to the government can only be regarded as real gratitude if you express it with actions!I think God in your mind must also be Bach [Bach] ①, Beethoven [Beethoven] ②, Chopin [Chopin], etc. first, lover second. That being the case, the energy and time you currently have at your disposal can only be dedicated to your first idol, not the second god.dont you agree?It's a pity that you didn't learn the technique of writing early, otherwise you can use writing (music) to vent your excess emotions. An artist must be able to "sublimate" his emotions in order to be beneficial to others.By no means did I read the letter and exaggerate your depression, so I was anxious; but I know that you are depressed to some extent, and I can talk to you casually, maybe it can help you clarify your feelings. ① Bach (1685-1750), German composer. ② Beethoven (1770-1827), German composer. April 7th, 1954 I remember that I studied French for three years from the age of thirteen to fifteen; the teacher's method of teaching was problematic, and I did not study hard, and my grades were poor (9 out of 10) has been forgotten).From the age of 16 to 20, I changed to English in Datong, but I didn't do well, but my grades were better than French.When you go abroad at the age of twenty, your knowledge of French will only be worse than your current level of Russian.When I arrived in France, within half a year, I hired a private teacher and the landlady to study French together. The teacher took care of the textbook and grammar, and the landlady took care of the conversation and pronunciation. They corrected all day long, not in class, but in conversation at any time.Half a year later, I was living in an intellectual family in France, and everything was fine.After ten months, I will be able to listen to a few not-so-difficult homework.It can be seen that learning Chinese abroad is one to five or six times faster than domestic progress in terms of applying it anytime and anywhere.You also heard Li Delun talk about this when you met him in Moscow.I specifically mentioned it to you so that you don't make your Russian learning a "surprise".After reading the grammar in a month and a half, it is a rote, and it must not be digested, and it will be forgotten after a while.I think that at present the main point is to grasp the main points of Russian and learn slowly, but what you learn must be kept in mind so that you can have a solid foundation.It is useless to be greedy for too many tasks, but it will affect the piano business, and even make you physically and mentally exhausted, and you will feel sleepy when you are free. ——I hope you will think about this question carefully. If you figure it out, you have to make up your mind to change the method and discuss it carefully with your Russian teacher.All knowledge is not instant, especially language.If you stop taking new lessons for now, and go over what you have learned, I dare say you will find that many of them have been completely forgotten. The biggest difficulty you encounter when going abroad is probably similar to my situation twenty-six years ago, that is, the language level of the host country is too shallow.It was for this reason that I repeatedly emphasized in the past that you were studying theory in Beijing.If you have a basic concept of theory, then when you study abroad in the future, you will not find it difficult to learn music theory because of language difficulties and music theory difficulties.In other words: in theory, after a little knowledge, it will be more convenient to read abroad.But you have never mentioned to me the situation of studying theory in Beijing from the beginning to the end, and you have not even mentioned whether you have started.I only know that when you first arrived, Mr. Guo Luo was sick and put it on hold. How will you be in the future? Although I have asked you many times in letters, you have not replied a single word. ——Now let me tell you again: I mean that it is best to allocate a part of the time for studying Russian and use it for learning music theory. Go abroad early, I am in favor.You used to think that your level of Russian was too poor, so you should prepare a lot before leaving. In fact, if you study Russian like you do, even if you try your best and study for another year, you may not be able to say that you are fully prepared—unless you don’t interact with Chinese in Beijing and live among Russians all day long. Blaming myself without acting out is what I disapprove of the most.This is the basic style of being a human being, not just for someone or something. I used to tell you that only facts can prove your intentions, and only actions can express your intentions.You can't be so sloppy with your friends.People who are not "thin" by nature, act like "thin" in actions, and they are the most wronged and unworthy.Just as a person who is not naughty plays naughty and suffers in the end, there is a reason. You understand all the principles of being a human being, and the disadvantage is that you don’t show the facts; I hope you will remember this from now on for the rest of your life.You have to explain everything to others, big or small! Secondly, you still can't have a clear and definite understanding and practice of time arrangement, academic arrangement, severity, and priority.This is what worries me most about you.Because your life will be as busy as mine, maybe even busier.If you can't fully grasp the time and distinguish the priority of things, everything about you will be compromised.Therefore, regarding these issues, I not only hope that you will listen to my opinions more, but also think about it yourself, and immediately find a way to implement it after thinking about it. What should be changed or adjusted should be changed immediately, and adjusted immediately, without any reason. delay. ① Luo Jun is Comrade Luo Zhong, a famous composer in my country. April 20, 1954 Child: Received the letter on the 16th. I'm glad you passed another level.The suffering of life, theme [theme] Only these few, the rest are just variations.The bitter juice of love is tasted early, and the middle-aged age can be calmer.As the old saying goes, if you lose your fortune, it is not a blessing.You experience human affairs earlier than the average youth, so you mature earlier.The painful experience this time probably made your spiritual growth a step further.You can go one step further in your understanding of art.I congratulate you for having the courage to fight yourself. One after another somersaults and stumbles, as long as you can climb up, you will gradually climb to the peak, detached from the ego.Bitter tears are the wine that nourishes your soul.People who do not experience acute pain cannot have deep and broad compassion.So child, I am very happy with your transformation process, and I hope that you will have a deeper understanding of life than I do, have a stronger love for human beings, and have more sincere confidence in art! Son, I believe you will not disappoint my expectations. For your study (before going abroad), I always advocate reducing the time for practicing the piano, and don't be too nervous about Russian; on the contrary, you should step up your preparations for music theory.I predict that within two years after you go abroad, you must deeply feel the lack of this aspect.Therefore, try to gain basic common sense before going out. March and April are the most beautiful seasons in Beijing (except autumn); the lilacs are already in bloom, and then the peonies are in full bloom.If you have time, you might as well go to Zhongshan Park to play.China's ancient cultural relics are of course fascinating, and I often cherish the memory of the ancient capital, too. Recently, I am working on revising and discussing singing for Uncle Lin; my spirit has not yet fully recovered, and my work has not yet officially started. Did you watch "Colonel Chapel" on May 5, 1954?Which one do you like?Do you have any comments on my translation?I myself feel more and more that my bowels are exhausted; the sentences are somewhat formulaic, the colors are not varied enough, and the words used are not wide enough.The People's Literature Society asked me to translate Fude, but after looking at it, I felt that the style was difficult to convey, and I cringed very much. Afternoon, June 24, 1954 Dear children: At last your letter has arrived!It's a pity that the Liaison Bureau didn't tell you when you went abroad, but sooner or later you will leave us, and sooner or later everyone will be tested emotionally;On the day you first arrived, I really wanted you to leave after 20 years, but my always-abiding and proactive temper suppressed my thoughts. During this waiting period, you should keep all the piano scores you have left in Beijing. Sort it out thoroughly, write two catalogs in English, and send one to your home for checking.This kind of work can also help you pass the time and save yourself the hassle.My child, you have a great future ahead of you. In the past few days, you should carefully summarize the past and make arrangements for the future; prepare mentally and spiritually, exercise your will, and prepare to endure the loneliness in four or five years. and emotional fluctuations.That's what you should be doing right now.Don't worry, kid.I told you what was going on in my heart in the previous letter, and I was relieved mentally.A person venting is asking for mental health, not making himself more and more depressed.Listen to Beethoven's fifth more, and read some of the difficult deeds of Christophe (the end of the first volume, the end of the fourth volume and the ninth volume), which can increase your courage and make you calmer.Good boy, quietly prepare to go abroad.All sporadic and small things must be thoughtful, don't be afraid of hot weather, greedy laziness, everything must be done properly.Before leaving, you must write down the clothes and things you bring in the "small handbook", and write down the accounts for the things you stay in Beijing and send to Shanghai.When you miss us, look at the photo album.Why is writing a letter so easy?If it were me, I would definitely describe the situation when Luo Jun came to Beijing and after he joined the regiment, even if it is a pity to practice writing. You are very much like your mother these days, which makes me very happy.But take things seriously, I hope you are like me.The most important thing is not to be afraid of trouble! Morning of July 4th, 1954 My child, I hope you pay more attention to practical affairs, do what should be done immediately, and don't procrastinate lazily. The time of setting up the Dragon Gate Array at night can kill a lot of things.I'd rather be ready before playing. Maybe this is the last letter you received before going abroad, maybe you didn’t even receive this letter in time, and I feel so sad.I can't finish what I want to tell you, I'm afraid you will get tired of hearing it.But regarding the relationship issue, I still have to solemnly warn.In any case, we must exercise restraint and put our future and health first.Make good use of time outside, not only to use time to work, but also to use time to rest and write letters.Don't forget Du Fu's poem: "A letter from a family is worth ten thousand gold"! July 15, 1954* I hope you put all your energy into research and knowledge, use more reason and less emotion. Of course, it depends on your strong faith. It is not an easy task to overcome all troubles, but you must overcome them.Regarding your emotional problems, I have never participated in any opinions. I think you are making progress in all aspects. You are a smart person and will realize your own consciousness.Since I am your mother, we are flesh and blood, so I have to chatter and persuade you. Recalling that since your father and I got married, our relationship has remained the same for more than 20 years. When I was fourteen, your father fell in love with me (he was as precocious as you), and when I was fifteen, I got engaged, and my father went abroad that winter. During his four years abroad, although there were unavoidable fluctuations, he was old-fashioned and quickly realized, so he got married after returning home.After marriage, because of his short-tempered temper, large and small tortures are inevitable, but our relationship is still so harmonious and strong. Now that we are older, the anger has subsided, and my father is more considerate to me and loves me more.Although I am unwise and cowardly by nature, relying on my patience, I can help him in a big or small way invisibly. This is something I can be proud of and comfort.We are truly lifelong companions now, inseparable.Now that you have grown up, parents often worry about the lifelong problems of their children, but you are still young, so don't act too hastily. Late night, July 27, 1954 The letter you wrote on the car is very interesting. It can be seen that as long as there are facts and facts, you can't write a bad letter.You mentioned the difference between Li and Du, and it is true.Realism, like other sects, has its strengths and weaknesses. The disadvantage is that the carving is too much and lacks natural and agile charm.But Du also has extremely well-formed poems, such as "the wind is rushing, the sky is high, the ape is mourning, all the clear sands and white birds are flying back, the boundless fallen trees are rustling, and the endless Yangtze River is rolling in?"There are also several poems "Dream of Li Bai" and "Concerning Li Bai at the End of the Day", which are also lingering, sentimental and sexual, and very touching.But compared with Su and Li's farewell poems, they seem to be lacking in simplicity and simplicity.This is due to the times and cannot be imagined.The minds of the people of the Han and Wei dynasties are closer to the original, with a strong taste and a vast expanse. After thousands of years, it is still memorable.Du Fu has many pastoral poems, Although influenced by Yuanming, it seems to be "separated" (in Wang Guowei's language) by comparison.Looking back, we can learn from realism, but not romanticism; therefore, Du can be learned, but Li cannot be learned; Chinese people respect Du more than Li when they talk about poetry, and this is also the reason.And after all, there are not many talented people like Taibai, and there are few people who resonate with them.The so-called high and low.At the same time, the peaks of snow cover also give people the feeling of "Qinglou Yuyu, the heights are too cold", and ordinary people dare not casually look up. The poets Zhongsu and Xin are indeed two great poets in the Song Dynasty, and they are also my favorite.Su's poems are quite idyllic, so they are freer and more natural than Du's pastoral poems.In addition, Ouyang Yongshu's kindness and subtlety are also very gratifying. Feng Yanji of the Five Dynasties also has a lot of good sentences, but because of his personality, I can't help but have some prejudice against him. ?? If you have any mental distress outside, don't hide it, don't be afraid of being blamed.It's never a bad thing for a person to have someone twenty-something years older to give him an idea.You must trust me, and don't be afraid that I speak too strictly. I usually have no scruples when speaking to old friends. You know that.And some psychological fluctuations or depression, writing it out is equivalent to venting, I can feel happier, and maybe I can avoid doing many stupid things.My child, I wish I could be by your side every day and be a good guardian angel, always encouraging you, comforting you, advising you, helping you pave the way for the future, preparing for your future studies and personality... The night of July 28, 1954 Last week, I spoke about "Pipa Xing" for Min, and I found it very wonderful.Bai Juyi had a deep understanding of the relationship between syllables and emotions.Whenever it turns to a sad place, it must be changed to Fengshengyun. In "Pipa Xing", the passages "big strings are noisy" and "small strings are sharp" are like staccato [staccato]①, which is like the sound of a pipa; while the sentences "silence is better than sound at this time" are equal to a long pause [ stop]. The two sentences "Silver bottle? Water slurry burst" are another sudden attack [clear onset], with a majestic momentum.As for the detached breath, the unconventional expression of love, and the nobleness [graceful style] of the emperor in every way, it is a wonderful pen through the ages.There are several different ways to read: one is to separate paragraphs to see the ups and downs of the narrative;From a general point of view, sending the tragedy to the fairy world makes the romance more beautiful and fresh, but still full of human flavor (such as what Taizhen said to the Taoist priest).Also, Bai Juyi's skill in writing movements is also remarkable: "The waiter is helpless to support the delicate", "The king can't save his face", and "The dream in the Jiuhua Tent" is so vivid! "Smoke and dust arose from the gates of the Jiuchong City, and thousands of riders rode to the southwest", writing about the emperor's flight from disaster has its own imperial spirit. "Cuihua shakes and stops again", what a vivid picture!Finally, there is another point of beauty: the whole poem is written so gracefully and delicately, but it still does not lose its grace and luxury, without the slightest delicacy! (There is a big difference between delicacy and delicacy.) It is obviously a tragedy, but it is written without excessive crying, how moderate, this is a wonderful example of romanticism and classical beauty. Supplemented on July 29, 1954 Dear Cong: Last Saturday (July 24th) Dad said that there should be a letter from Cong within three days. Sure enough, his premonition was not bad at all. I received your letter in the car on the 26th, Moscow How happy we are with the letter forwarded by Zhang Ninghe!Your letter, although the handwriting is sloppy, is so well written, we appreciate it a lot. I am alone, my thoughts are concentrated, and the feelings I send are all sincere.Li Taibai, Bai Juyi, Su Dongpo, Xin Jiaxuan and other major poets you admire are also our favorites, and we all feel the same, which is also a joy.When you feel depressed and lonely, get in touch with the great poets of our motherland, who can relieve your worries and give you warmth. ① The sound is disconnected from each other. ??Amin's piano is also unglued and is being repaired.In the past week, he has returned to normal. He also has self-knowledge and is not stubborn anymore, because we told him that appreciation and learning are two different things.He developed on average, so it is a pity that he gave up middle school. We agree that he should not give up the violin, nor should he give up middle school, and Chen Youxin's opinion is the same. Now he seems to have figured it out, and he is no longer emotional. He plays the piano for four hours a day, and in the rest of the time, he watches Christophe, listens to music, and occasionally goes out to watch movies.During Polish Film Week this time, he accompanied me to watch "Chopin's Youth", which was a bit unsatisfactory, the screenwriter had problems, and the light was too dark, which was not ideal yet.The repaired house is not completely dry yet. Dad is still working on the third floor. You know how he works regularly.Two-thirds of Verde's works have been translated, with a total of more than ten hours a day, and it is expected to be published in September.Recently, work has been stressful, and it is not easy to sleep well at night. I told him to do less, but he always insisted on completing the daily stipulations. With such a personality, there was nothing he could do.Once he is free, he will still worry about you, thinking about this and that for you, because he has been abroad, and he will tell you his past experience as much as possible, which can reduce many unnecessary setbacks.He is thoughtful in everything and has many valuable opinions. He has to tell you, guide you, and remind you, son, don't take dad's words as wind, you must keep them in mind, and you have to think about them , Our letters can be put away, and we can flip through them from time to time when we are alone.As parents, for the sake of our children, we are not afraid of difficulties and work tirelessly. As long as we are good for you and can help you, we always try our best to give.I hope you can tell us more, your worries and joys are ours, let us be together forever.Although we will grow old, we are unwilling to lag behind, and we will always want to follow behind you. Before noon on August 11, 1954 I can imagine your life as I was in Switzerland in 1929.But you are even more fortunate to have good teachers and helpful friends as your companions, and your music as the object of your admiration.I was twenty-one years old in Switzerland and was suffering from adolescent and romantic depression; pessimistic, world-weary, anxious, bored, and boring; what I said in the preface to "Biography of Beethoven" refers to that period.Boy, you are much more mature than me. All the anguish of adolescence was spent in China a few years earlier; so now you are more able to calm down and study hard; Regret too late. Your achievements in playing the piano make us very happy.For your own parents, you don’t have to be afraid of the suspicion of “boasting yourself”, as long as you analyze your weaknesses at the same time, and tell us the weaknesses that others didn’t say but you feel.Reporting other people's compliments to us is your greatest comfort to us; but at the same time, you must deeply examine your own shortcomings.This way, your letter will not appear to be over the top; and this kind of self-criticism is also like a mirror, which will help you a lot.There is a big difference between writing down your thoughts (whether in a letter or otherwise) than just dreaming them up in your head.Writing down requires correct and precise thinking, so the self-examination written on paper is extraordinarily deep and impressive to myself.Do you think what I said is right? I have another deep feeling for your letter this time.That is, your sensibility is extremely strong and extremely fast.This is your strength and your weakness.As soon as you arrived in Poland last year, your style of playing Chopin (Chopin) changed immediately; after returning to China, you couldn’t keep it; this time it changed again when you arrived in Poland.This proves that your sensibility is extremely fast.However, there are advantages and disadvantages in everything in the world, and there are long and short. Often the feeling is quick, and you can't immerse yourself deeply or keep it for a long time.The short period of last year is certainly not conclusive.But you have to at least admit that your not easy "firm attachment" is a fact.我现在特别提醒你，希望你时时警惕，对于你新感受的东西不要让它浮在感觉的表面；而要仔细分析，究意新感受的东西，和你原来的观念、情绪、表达方式有何不同。这是需要冷静而强有力的智力，才能分析清楚的。希望你常常用这个步骤来“巩固”你很快得来的新东西（不管是技术是表达）。长此做去，不但你的演奏风格可以趋于稳定、成熟（当然所谓稳定不是刻板化、公式化）；而且你一般的智力也可大大提高，受到锻炼。child!记住这些！深深的记住！还要实地做去！这些话我相信只有我能告诉你。 还要补充几句：弹琴不能徒恃sensation〔感觉〕，sen-sibility[感受，敏感]。那些心理作用太容易变。从这两方面得来的，必要经过理性的整理、归纳，才能深深的化入自己的心灵，成为你个性的一部分，人格的一部分。当然，你在波兰几年住下来，熏陶的结果，多少也（自然而然的）会把握住精华。但倘若你事前有了思想准备，特别在智力方面多下功夫，那末你将来的收获一定更大更丰富，基础也更稳固。再说得明白些：艺术家天生敏感，换一个地方，换一批群众，换一种精神气氛，不知不觉会改变自己的气质与表达方式。但主要的是你心灵中最优秀最特出的部分，从人家那儿学来的精华，都要紧紧抓住，深深的种在自己性格里，无论何时何地这一部分始终不变。这样你才能把独有的特点培养得厚实。 你记住一句话：青年人最容易给人一个“忘恩负义”的印象。其实他是眼睛望着前面，饥渴一般的忙着吸收新东西，并不一定是“忘恩负义”；但懂得这心理的人很少；你千万不要让人误会。 一九五四年八月十六日* 这几天这里为了防台防汛，各单位各组织都紧张非凡，日夜赶着防御工程，抵抗大潮汛的侵袭。据预测今年的潮水特别大，有高出黄浦江数尺的可能，为预防起见，故特别忙碌辛苦。长江淮河水患已有数月之久，非常艰苦，为了抢修抢救，不知牺牲了多少生命，同时又保全了多少生命财产。 都是些英雄与水搏斗。听说水涨最高的地方，老百姓无处安身，躲在树上，大小便，死尸，脏物都漂浮河内，多少的党员团员领先抢救。筑堤筑坝，先得打桩，但是水势太猛，非有一个人把桩把住，让另外一个人打下去不可； 听说打桩的人，有时会不慎打在抱桩的身上、头上、手上或是水流湍急就这么把抱着桩的人淹没了；光是打桩一件事，已不知牺牲了多少人，他们都是不出怨言的那么无声无息的死去，为了与自然斗争而死去。许多悲惨的传闻，都令人心惊胆战。牛家的大妹，不久就要出发到淮河做卫生工作，同时去有上千的医务人员，这是困苦万状的工作，都是冒着生命危险去的。你想先是饮水一项，已是危险万分，何况疟疾伤寒那些病菌的传染，简直不堪设想。 我看了以后，更可以想像得出大小干部为了水患而艰苦的斗争是怎么一回事。那是一样的可怕，一样的伟大。（好像楼伯伯送你一部，你看过没有？）我常常联想起你，你不用参加这件与自然的残酷斗争。幸运的孩子，你在中国可说是史无前例的天之骄子。一个人的机会，享受，是以千千万万人的代价换来的，那是多么宝贵。你得抓住时间，提高警惕，非苦修苦练，不足以报效国家，对得住同胞。看重自己就是看重国家。不要忘记了祖国千万同胞都在自己的岗位上努力，为人类的幸福而努力。尤其要想到目前国内生灵所受的威胁，所作的牺牲。把你个人的烦闷，小小的感情上的苦恼，一齐割舍干净。这也是你爸爸常常和我提到的。我想到爸爸前信要求你在这几年中要过等于僧侣的生活，现在我觉得这句话更重要了。你在万里之外，这样舒服，跟着别人跟不到的老师；学到别人学不到的东西；感受到别人感受不到的气氛；享受到别人享受不到的山水之美，艺术之美；所以在大大小小的地方不能有对不起当当的！ 出台行礼或谢幕，面部表情要温和，切勿像过去那样太严肃。这与群众情绪大有关系，应及时注意。只要不急，心里放平静些，表情自然会和缓。 总而言之，你要学习的不仅仅在音乐，还要在举动、态度、礼貌各方面吸收别人的长处。这些，我在留学的时代是极注意的；否则，我对你们也不会从小就管这管那，在各种manners［礼节，仪态］方面跟你们烦了。但望你不要嫌我繁琐，而要想到一切都是要使你更完满、更受人欢喜！ 一九五四年八月三十一日 我译的服尔德到昨夜终算完成，寄到北京去。从初译以后，至寄出为止，已改过六道，仍嫌不够古雅，十八世纪风格传达不出。??我今夏身心极感疲劳，腰?得很，从椅上站起来，一下子伛着背，挺不直。比往年差多了。 精神也不及从前那么不知疲倦。除了十小时半以外的经常工作，再要看书，不但时间不够，头脑也吃不消了。