Chapter 5 3

The night of November 1, 1954 Dear children, I just came back from the Regina Smangianka concert in Poland; in the first half, the Shanghai band played Tvorak’s Fifth (New World), and in the second half It is Beethoven's first Concerto [Concerto] played by Egmond Overture [Egmond Overture] and Smangianka [Smanzianka]. Encore [Add music according to the request of the public] four pieces: 1, Beethoven Ecossaise [Beethoven: Ecossaise] ②; 2, Scar-latti: Jonata in CMaj. [Scarlatti: Sonata in C major] ③ ; Three, Chopin: EtudeOp.25, No. 12 [Chopin: Etude Op. 25 No. 12]; Four, Khachaturian: Proccata [Hachaturian: Tokata] ④.

The Concerto [Concerto] was played very well; the orchestral accompaniment was also very decent, which was unexpected, because according to Tvorak in the first half, it made people sweat for them. Scarlatti [Scarlatti] is brilliant, and the Italian style of brio [energy, anger] pops out. Chopin's Etude [etude] is both angry and clean.This is the best concert I have heard in recent years. We sent a flower basket tonight with a letter (in French) to her saying that you reported back in mid-September, and I take this opportunity to welcome and congratulate you.I don't know if she can receive it, because the clerk at the door may be surprised that there has never been a "personal" gift to a foreign guest.

Two days ago, I listened to the concert of the Czech delegation: a baritone, a pianist, and a violinist.The latter two are both gray-haired professors. The cello’s tone [sound quality] is very poor, the technique is not very good, let alone the relationship; the pianist is Hungarian Rhapsoy NO .12 [Hungarian Rhapsody No. 12], each section is incoherent, and there is no briancy [brilliance, excellence]; playing Smetana [Smetna] ②'s COcert Fantasy [Fantasy Concerto] is also a scattered rate, Tasteless and not particularly Czech national.Among the three, I still sang better, but the sound quality is not beautiful enough, a bit "empty"; singing Mozart's Marriage of Figaro ["The Wedding of Figaro"] does not have that kind of soft and charming atmosphere.Singing "Matador Song" in Carman ["Carmen)] is not bad, but not angry enough, not wild enough. Encore (additional song) sang Mossowski's "Flea Song", which was very humorous, but the piano accompaniment (that is, the professor who played the solo) was very dull, not humorist (humorous, witty).Of course, those who stay can stay everywhere.The one who sang was the first prize of this year's "Prague Spring". It can be seen that there are very few really good singers in the world.

My Verde was finished at the end of August, and they have been delayed, and now it is only 80 pages long. It won't be published until next month or so.The new Erzak has translated half of it, and it will be completed by the end of the old calendar. By the time it is printed, I am afraid that your competition will be over for a long time.The weather has been very good for the past month, and it is really tempting to look out the window, and I can't wait to go out once.But because the work progress was too slow, I had to press hard. ① Antonin Dvorak (Antonin Dvorak, 1841-1904), Czech composer.

② Ecoses, a kind of dance music, was popular in Britain, France and other countries in the 18th and 19th centuries. ③ Scarlatti (1685-1757), an Italian composer. ④ Khachaturian (1903-1978), Soviet composer.Toccata, the name of the piano piece. ① Liszt (1811-1886), a famous Hungarian pianist and composer. ② Smettner (1824-1884), Czech composer. At noon on November 6, 1954 Say you work mostly on weekdays.Too excited to work too.She practiced the piano by herself very calmly, and your practice is the same as playing on stage from the beginning to the end.She said it was too traumatic, too emotional, and very injurious to health.

I think that's true.Art is your lifelong career, art itself is exciting, and you must not be overly nervous when practicing.Life is limited, energy is also limited, you have to take a long-term perspective, and you can run a marathon well.You are an impulsive person, so you need to restrain yourself. S said that Mr. Drz② also talked to you about this point several times.I hope you follow their advice and slowly learn to control.This is also a big project of life cultivation.On the afternoon of November 17, 1954, after you arrived in Bobo, you often mentioned that you were extremely exhausted. In addition to the "time" of work, the more important problem is probably the problem of "energy consumption" during work.If you can restrain your emotions more, focus more on technique, and use your reason more when practicing the piano, I believe that fatigue will be reduced.There are still more than three months before the competition, and the long-term psychological tension and high emotions are enough to affect your performance; be careful, be vigilant, and try to be as calm as possible!I translated books more than ten years ago, and sometimes I was very emotional while translating, but I gradually changed it.

Because the weather was so good, I couldn't help but went to Hangzhou for three days, and spent a whole day at Huang Binweng's house looking at his collection of paintings, including Yuan, Ming and Qing.After returning to Shanghai, I was extremely busy, and "worked overtime" all day last Sunday. In addition to my own work, there are still things entrusted by my friends.For example, recently xxx translated a childhood memory written by Romain Rolland and asked me to review it. It took me half a day from beginning to end to draw the problem in the 5,000-word translation with a red pen, and it took another three hours to explain it face-to-face with x.He used to have good writing skills, but he had too little translation experience, so he couldn't appreciate the style and rhythm of the original work.The short sentences and adjectives in the original text are all translated into long sentences, and if they are put together, they will be out of shape and lose the charm of the original text.And there are inappropriate words in almost every line.The problem is that he doesn't use enough kung fu; he can't get good grades if he doesn't suffer enough!

On the evening of Monday (15th), I went to the Conservatory of Music to listen to a solo performance by a Soviet pianist (currently teaching in Shanghai).The program is as follows: (1) Handel〔Handel〕①: SuiteGMin. [Suite in G minor] (2) Beethoven [Beethoven]: Rondo, Op, 51 [Rondo, Op. 51] (3) Beethoven [Beethoven]: Sonata, Op. 111 [Sonata, Op. 111] Ⅱ (4) Choph 〔Chopin〕: PolonaiseC Min, 〔C Minor Polonaise〕 (5) - Mazurka EMin. [Mazurka in E minor] Mazrka C#Min. [Mazrka in C sharp minor] (6) Ballad No. 4 [Fourth Ballad] (7) Nocturlne Db Maj. [Nocturne in D flat major] (8) ScherzoNo.3 [The Third Scherzo]

─────Encore [Addition] 3 pieces (1) Mazurka [Mazurka] ① s is the famous pianist Smanzianka of Bilan. ② That is, Jewiecki, a famous Polish piano professor, died in 1971. ① Handel (1685-1759), a great German composer in the late Baroque period, became a British citizen in 1626. (2) Etude [Etude] (3) Berceuse [Lullaby] (1) (2) The two playing are very ordinary, (1) the lines of both hands are not prominent enough, the contrast is not enough, and there is no brilliance; (2) there is no fresh and lovely masculinity of Beethoven's early days. (3) There is a large section of trill in the second movement (do you remember how many pages there are in total)!It was played very lightly, and the tempo was too slow, making the variation (there are five variations in the second movement) featureless. (4) POlonaise [Polonaise] has no impression. (5) The two Mazurkas have no poetic flavor; (6) The contrast is not enough, extremely ordinary, let alone depth. (7) The tone [sound quality] of the nocturne has not changed, and the lines of the melody [melody] are not soft enough. (8) It can be regarded as the best playing in all programs, because there are more technical elements.The general criticism is that the technique is quite good, but there are a lot of clips; the tone [sound quality] has not changed, only p, mp, mf, f, ff①, so it is dull from beginning to end, with very little poetry, and no delicate and soft beauty. There is no radiant splendor, and no boldness.

He was only thirty years old, and he looked gentle and refined, with a scholarly demeanor.Probably teaching can't be bad. But when he is in class, he not only asks the students to recite the tunes for the first time (for example, if he assigns you to play three tunes today, and you have to memorize all three tunes in class three days later; otherwise he will not teach you at all), and When correcting, you are not allowed to look at the score (the score was removed from the piano on the spot), and you are only allowed to correct while memorizing.What do you think of this teaching method? ――I don't think it's reasonable. (1) The speed of reciting score varies from person to person, and has nothing to do with the level of musical talent; It is not enough to give full play to the power of intellectual (reasonable), students must understand the reasons for mistakes and the principles of correction intellectually before they can talk about "digesting" and "absorbing".I'd love to hear your opinion.

When practicing the piano, you must control your emotions. Since you know that you have a heavy responsibility, you should try your best to cherish your spirit.Just like a player participating in the World Games, in the few months before the competition, he must take good care of his physical and mental health, so that he can have plenty of energy to participate in the competition.As the saying goes, "Raise soldiers for a thousand days", the word "raise" is very reasonable. You also need to keep accounts for sending and receiving letters from home. You can check on weekdays and see how many days you have not written letters.Recently you wrote the letter on October 12th, do you remember?How much love and friendship I have for you, I don't know how to convey it to you under my pen!My child, I am always with you in spirit! On the night of November 23, 1954, you were so excited that you couldn't sleep all night because of the Russian pianist; we also often couldn't sleep because of some special things.All the same, sensitive blood; so I often advise you to be as temperate as possible.That pianist has the same temperament as you, and some words can only increase your bias.For example, every time you practice the piano, you must arouse your emotions.I admit that in some rom-antic (Romantic Dirk) characters, this is inevitable; but "inevitable" is not necessarily an ideal in art; on the contrary, sometimes it is a big burden!For the cultivation of art, people who have too much heart (feeling) need to try their best to control themselves.The ideal of Chinese philosophy, the ideal of Buddhism, is to be able to control emotions, not to be controlled by emotions.If you can arouse the emotions of the audience, make them be intoxicated, cry and laugh, and you yourself are as calm as Mount Tai, like a general who dispatches thousands of horses and horses, that is your greatest success. It is the highest state of art and life.You should remember the story of Beethoven, once he finished playing the piano, he saw and heard ① p=plano is weak, mp=mezzo-piano is moderately weak, mf=mezzO-forte is moderately strong, f=forte is strong, ff=fortissimo is very strong . ① Refers to the famous Soviet pianist Richter. Everyone was in tears, he laughed and said, "Hey! You are all idiots." Art is fire, and artists don't cry.Of course, this cannot be accomplished overnight, especially for you, but you have to take this realm as the goal of your lifelong efforts.The great artists in Romain Rolland's mind are also of this school. (About this point, I have often mentioned it to you in recent letters; what do you think?) I said to Ender the other day: "Music mainly uses your brain to shake your feelings (for every piece of music, every piece of music) One chapter, each relationship.) Distinguish clearly, figure out what your feeling is all about; when you figure it out, your realm is very clear, and then your technic (skills) will automatically follow "Listen, isn't this exactly the same as what Richier [Liket] said?I am very glad that my general artistic understanding of musical matters is no different from that of a professional musician. The guest-host relationship between technique and music, you and I have already affirmed; there is no need to ask each other for advice, and we can’t finish discussing it between you and me, just because your technique is behind, and you have a sense of inferiority, I also feel sorry for you Worry; plus, in the past two years, why schools [schools] and what factions in the country have been in a state of panic and confusion, so I have unconsciously paid special attention to this issue.Now I firmly believe that this is a demonic obstacle, and those who have trouble with their skills all day long are art craftsmen, not artists.If a person cannot escape this level, he will never dream of art in his life!Art is the end, technique is the means: a man who always pays attention only to the means will inevitably forget his end.Even all famous virtuoso [performers, master performers] also fall into this problem, but only to a higher degree. Your concerts everywhere, as far as I guess, are probably invited by music groups or symphony orchestras from all over the world, because November to April and May next year are music festivals all over Europe.You are a Chinese and you can play Chopin well in Chopin's home country, so they want you to perform even more.You said I guessed right? I went to watch Kunqu Opera with your mother last night: it’s much worse than before.Several operas have been changed to vulgarity by the "drama reform committee", with the shallow sentimentality of Shaoxing opera and the deceptive colorful costumes.There is also too much skill (Wu Sheng).Chen Xihe was also greatly moved, saying that this is a "purely technical point of view". In fact, this kind of antique is only something in the music museum and drama museum. Not only can it not be changed, but it does not need to be changed.It can only be used as a reference for future generations. It has no future by itself. Why change it?It's meaningless to change it well, let alone change it so that "the touch of gold turns into iron"! The night of December 2, 1954 The Soviet Opera Troupe was performing in Beijing, and the Central Song and Dance Troupe took advantage of the opportunity to ask their chorus director to train the chorus in the troupe from four to six every day.She sang a Soviet opera, and was taught by the conductor line by line, with good grades.It's just that the sound is not good enough, and the musicianship of the players is not good enough.The conductor said that singing in a soprano sounded like the strange cry of a caught hen.He also sang a happy song, and his facial expression should be happy, but the team members were all mournful, and it was not until after the song was finished that a relieved smile appeared.The alto has always sung in falsetto, and emphasizes the beauty of falsetto.Lin Bo was afraid that when he went to Beijing, he advocated using his real voice, and he would be criticized by them.This time the Soviet conductor said that the alto could not go down, it was very floating.Some of the students in the middle were Lin Bobo's current students, so they sang in real voice, and he said: By the way, it should be sung like this, thick, thick, smooth, how beautiful!The chorus suddenly realized, and one by one asked Uncle Lin how to start to correct. Of the Soviet operas, Lin Pabo saw two in Beijing, and the second was called "The Tempest" (I don't know which author, he didn't specify).He claimed that he was not musical enough, so he dozed off.Back in the troupe, I realized that there was someone who was less musical than him, and fell asleep for a long time, without even knowing how many scenes there were!Lin analyzed that the reason why this opera is not interesting is that none of the protagonists and supporting actors have great voices. He laments that there are too few voices in the world that people can never tire of listening to. Uncle Lin recorded twice in Beijing, accompanied by Wu Yuli.He recorded four pieces for the first time, and he chose four pieces himself, because he said: Singing is mainly based on emotion, and emotion is often the best for the first time, and the more you sing, the more you will become hypocritical. ——About this point, I think part of it is right and part of it is not.Mainly emotional, of course.Every time I sing, the mood may be slightly different each time; but generally the difference will not be too far.As for the emotion of singing the first time is more real, the more singing will gradually become hypocritical, it is still because the singer is not well-trained, the immersion in music is not deep, and the practice is not enough on weekdays.My opinion, what do you think?On the night of December 4, 1954, I just went to see Mr. Li and asked her what the school commented on after the expert gave a recital.She said up and down without comment.I say this is a comment.Probably teachers and students do not admire him.Mr. Li listened to him in class and said that he taught really well, but there was nothing remarkable about it, and there was no unexpected discovery of music.She also disapproved of his asking students to memorize it for the first time in class.Experts say that the Moscow Conservatory has four teaching and research groups, each of which has a different faction.One of them does not advocate practicing studies [etudes], but only practices skills in music.Mr. Li also disagrees with this.I told her what Richter said, and told her that I didn't agree either.None of the learning of genius can be made routine.If you don't practice the set of scale (scale) and studies (etude) since childhood, if you use it to deal with ordinary students, you will definitely make big mistakes.Unless the teachers who teach are top-notch professors. On December 26, 1954, I practiced three movements of a concerto [Concerto] with ca-denza [cadenza] in one day. Your technic [skill] and understanding are really amazing.You have to practice the piano for more than eight hours on the days when you are on stage, which is also admirable for your perseverance.Son, you are so energetic, everyone says you still look like me, I am flattere after hearing that!But you have to take care of your body, don't get exhausted just to fight for an extra half an hour or an hour.From now on, you especially need to take good care of yourself, don't be too tired, have enough rest, and always keep a fresh (full) spirit.Just like athletes participating in the World Games, the closer they are to the game, the more important it is to take care of their body and mind, and being full of energy is more important than anything else.The so-called The firsi Priae isa1wavs "luck" [the number one is always "by chance"] is partly the same.Now that your game program is almost done, technic [skill], pedal [pedal] are also solved, so don't drag your body too much!Add another one and a half months of pondering, and naturally you will make great progress and make further progress; You don’t need to worry, not only do you have confidence; the teacher also has confidence, we all have confidence: the main thing is to cultivate your mind, to cultivate your spirit, to have an unrestrained heart like "ignoring gains and losses" and "the usual way of winning or losing a military strategist". Pack you no problem.First, you must be extremely careful about eating and drinking, and there is nothing wrong with it. Before the game, don't even let him have a small cold, that's fine. After five months in Poland, I am afraid that you yourself have been surprised by such progress.Mr. Li said about you in early January this year: gains come with maturit [improvement due to maturity], that's true.It was prescient for Blonstein to appreciate you as he did in the past.As a father, I still have to be reserved. In fact, I also expect the worst, hope for the best. I am your helmsman, and I have the greatest responsibility; since you were a child, I am afraid that good words will spoil you.Now that you have reached this point, and you can control everything, of course I no longer have any scruples, and I want to tell you: I am so happy and proud!The Chinese temperament, the Chinese soul, is as strong in you as I am, and I am very happy. If you don't have a book of prose (referring to ancient Chinese), you can read it.The Japanese have regarded it as a secret treasure in their pillows for hundreds of years. I often cherish the memory of the literary talents of the Jin and Six Dynasties, and regard it as a peak of Chinese culture. , Young people can read too little; if there are not hundreds of poems and dozens of words in their stomachs, reading this book is useless.Besides, according to the current view, Wang Guowei's aesthetics is "idealistic"; At this time when Yu Ping was afraid of "eating life", Wang Guowei was also the target of criticism. In fact, idealism and materialism are just two sides of the same thing, so why be so rigid!I personally think that China is the best literary criticism in history.To develop the soul, this book is equal to a golden key.It is rare for a person who has no soul and only talks about theory to become a modern scholar, a worldly ruined Confucian, or an expert in stereotyped writing!The most important thing for learning is "communication", which can be non-sticky, not pedantic, not sour, and not stereotyped; "communication" can cultivate integrity, mind, and vision. "Tong" can become "big". If you don't have a big knowledge, you will be in danger of sitting in the sky.I have always believed that whether it is learning or art, the most important thing is to develop a "person" as much as possible. Before becoming a strategist, one must first learn to be a man; will not contribute much to humanity.You have been tired of hearing this set of words since you were a child, and I am afraid it will be even more annoying to hear it again. Mom said that your letter seems to be full of sparkling [radiant, dazzling].Of course, you are full of sparks of youth, the brilliance of youth, the life and talent of youth, and what you write naturally is so attractive.My mother and I often say that this is the golden age in your life, I hope you can enjoy and experience it well, and give you the foundation of the most wonderful memories in your life!Seeing myself grow up, mature and progress day by day, learn more and more things day by day, widen my spiritual field day by day, broaden my mind day by day, and make my feelings fuller and deeper day by day: Isn’t this the most perfect happiness in life? what!This is not what the most meaningful and charming poetry is!How lucky are you, kid! On the evening of December 31, 1954 In the books I sent you, "Selected Sources of Ancient Poems", "Selected Poems of the Tang and Five Dynasties", "Selected Songs of the Yuan and Ming Dynasties", there are prefaces in front of them, and the writing is not bad; you can read them carefully, and you have to read them several times; The days are warm and warm, which can virtually increase the knowledge of literary history and literary genres, and chat with foreign friends, as well as more materials.Both the prefaces of Tanci and Tanqu mentioned that the inherent Chinese music had declined in the Sui and Tang Dynasties, and foreign music was prevalent in the court; therefore, it is unknown how the real ancient Yuefu (referring to Wei, Jin and Han) sang in the Tang Dynasty.This point is not only historical knowledge, but also related to the music we will create in the future.In other words, not only do we not know how Tang and Song people sang poems and libretto, but even if we know it, we cannot say that it is the original Chinese way of singing.As for what Long Muxun said in the preface, "People in Tang and Song Dynasties often add 'overtones' in the middle of their poems and lyrics, which should not be" (to the effect);Later generations filled in the overtones with real characters, but it was a big obstacle to music.The reason why Kunqu opera is so laborious and contrived, and Chinese music is so constrained by words; it is because the ancients put too much emphasis on words and did not understand music; If you know how to do it, you can't develop it.During the Han and Wei dynasties, there was "Xiang He Ge", which was obviously the prototype of duet [due singing]. If it could evolve in this way, there must have been polyphonic [polyphonic] music.Unexpectedly, the words of "Xiang He Ge" were lost soon, so not only did there not have polyphony [polyphony music], even harmony [harmony] could not be produced.what a shame. The Ministry of Culture decided to set up a music research institute and asked Uncle Lin to preside over it.He wrote to me and discussed again and again, and decided to return to Shanghai temporarily to deepen the study of laryngology with Dr. Wang Pengwan. On the one hand, he would teach students and conduct experiments, and then set up a vocal music research institute in a year or two.Now he sings a one-man show alone, how can he teach more than 20 or 30 students?His theories and experiments are not enough, and more time for research, of course, can be more mature; only then will it be valuable to publish it. Gu Shengying had already joined the band after the summer vacation. Three months later, the higher-ups suddenly said that she would not enter the music school after graduating from high school, because she had mental problems, and she was no longer wanted.This is also unreasonable, probably caused by the personnel department again. ① humain, this is a French word, that is, human in English, meaning "person". I invited Tang Yun to dinner last night, looked at ancient paintings, listened to his talk, and learned a lot.This person is very insightful about art, and he is also elegant and gratifying. He is a rare talent among Chinese painters nowadays. It is a pity that he works in the Artists Association all day long, doing odd jobs, and his creation is greatly affected.Artists and administrative work are always at odds.Not much to talk about, I hope you will rest a lot and not be too tired! Speaking of the week late at night on January 9, 1955, do you have a complete rest all day?You have worked so long, and your personality is so emotional from beginning to end, that we should be worried if Sundays are not completely rested. On the day of the concert, you still work eight hours; your perseverance, spirit, and will are amazing and worthy of admiration, but we worry about you after all.Children, listen to us, don't force (force) yourself when you are already tired.Keeping a bit more vitality is still an advantage in the long run.Especially half a month before the competition, the working hours should be reduced. The most important thing is to keep your body and mind fresh and full of vitality. Then your performance will definitely be fuller and fresher in the future! Three volumes of the newly printed Balzac hardcover editions of the humanities have been sent. It is very pitiful. The printing and binding are terrible. The end was bruised.The format of the inside and cover is also messed up, which was arranged for them earlier, and they are all baffled. I supervised the illustrated copperplate in Shanghai, and sent it after it was completed; otherwise, it would be even worse. On the morning of January 26, 1955 I will definitely receive your letter during the budget New Year, we are all waiting for some gift. Sure enough, I received a letter from you (Bo 10) yesterday morning, and it's such gratifying news.child!If we were at the meeting, we'd be weeping.The highest and purest joy in the world is to appreciate art, and still less to appreciate the art conveyed by the hands and hearts of one's own children!Secondly, we are also happy because you have brought glory to the motherland!Even more joyful because of how many people you can make laugh with your music! Thinking that you will achieve greater achievements in the future, make endless progress, serve more people and the masses, inspire their hearts, and soothe their pain, our hearts really want to jump out!What a sacred and glorious mission it is to carry forward the immortal works of the immortal masters and spread them to every corner of the earth!Child, you are so happy, God treats you too kindly.What I am happier and more comforting is: No amount of excessive flattery or praise can make you lose your self-knowledge, and none of the applause, hugs, and compliments from celebrities can reduce your humility towards art!At last my education was not in vain, and your twenty years of torture were not in vain!You can be strong (not being dazzled by victory is the best proof of being strong), as long as you can be strong, I will rest assured for the rest of my life!The size and level of achievements are not within our control, half depends on manpower, and half depends on talent, but as long as you are strong, you are not afraid of failure, setbacks, and blows—whether it is personnel, life, or technology. , learning - blow; from now on you can fight alone.What's more, in fact, how many good teachers and helpful friends are around to help you and support you.It also adds ancient and modern masterpieces to give you spiritual nourishment all the time!Children, from now on, you will never be alone, even if you are lonely, you will not be afraid! I have always remembered the words "Children's Heart".Chizi just doesn't know loneliness.Chizi is lonely, he will create a world and create many spiritual friends!Always keep the heart of a child, and you will never fall behind when you grow old, and you will always be able to connect with the hearts of children all over the world!That friend of yours said it right, the moving artistic expression must come from the purity of the heart!It's not pure enough to be like a mirror, how can it be Feel the soul of the predecessors?How can it touch the hearts of the audience? The dean of music said that your performance is like flowing water, like a river; it reminds me of the symbol of Christophe.Uncle Tian said that when you were young, you often called yourself Christophe; but your personality is actually somewhat similar to Romain Rolland's ideal.The sound of the river, the Rhine, the mighty sound of the river? The bells are ringing again, and the sky is already dawning? China is approaching the dawn of Fudan. I hope you will be the bell of China - the bell of New China, and it will ring all over the world and every day. personal heart!The torrential water flows into everyone's heart, and takes everyone with you to the boundless ocean of sound!The Yangzi River and the Yellow River, which are famous all over the world, are even more powerful than the Rhineland! ??The water of the Yellow River comes from the sky, rushing to the sea and never returning! ??The boundless falling trees are rustling, and the endless Yangtze River is rolling in! ??A nation with such a tradition of poetic souls should have the performance of arrogance. You said that you are always in contradictions and joys, but I believe that without contradictions, artists will not progress, evolve, or deepen.Contradictions are evidence of vitality.What you feel right now is only the contradiction between skills and ideals. In the future, you will have repeated and even bigger contradictions: the exactness of form and content, and many unpredictable contradictions in your heart are waiting for you in the future.Don't worry, solving a contradiction is a step forward!Contradictions are endless, so there is no end to art, there is no perfect [perfect, perfect] day, and there is no perfect [perfect, perfect] day in life!Only in this way, we need our lifelong pursuit and hard training day and night; otherwise, everyone will become Master Xihuang, and the world will be ruled by hand, and being a human being is too boring!