Chapter 60 Skeleton hanging, showing backbone (3)

Written in Taipei, China on June 21, 1997.Please pay attention to the changes in the verses of my poem, you see: I didn’t know death before I was alive, I didn’t know death before I was alive, I didn’t know death before I was alive, I knew death before I was alive, I really knew death before I was alive, some allusions are used here. For example, Liu Ling of the Jin Dynasty was a drunkard. While drinking, he asked his servant to follow him with a hoe, saying that you would bury me as soon as I died.That's why I have this kind of saying "talk about death in life, and bury it everywhere after death".This "I don't know death before I am alive, but I dream of three locust trees after death" is an allusion. To read its content, please read this book I wrote.

I will tell you this and say that although I cannot accept Tibetan religion, I will say: I think it is a very romantic way of dying to let these eagles eat your body after death.I am in Taiwan today, and I cannot use the method of sky burial to dispose of my body, but I will use this faith-based, ironic, and joking method to show my last bones. Grey, I wish my body would become a bone and a specimen.This may be my last vestige of China and Taiwan, and this vestige itself is also very special.So, if you see my joking side, you should also see my desolate side. I will read another poem to everyone, to show that you should not forget that I am not a TV host, I am a writer-although others do not admit it.Everyone read what I wrote:

There is always autumn in the four seasons, Autumn is a sigh, Because it is difficult for people to find spring, You can't jump in line against Summer. Don't be sad when the yellow leaves wither, And cherish the only green, There is always middle age in life, Middle age is a mess. Because you are no longer innocent, You are not one of youth, Don't look back on the old days, And nostalgia for the unbroken dream. What is approaching is the delicate sun of winter, Approaching is the old painted painting, Nearby is good wine everywhere, It's a pity that I'm hardly drunk.

That's exactly what I felt when I had prostate surgery. Let me tell you, in the past three years, I have had surgery three times and general anesthesia six times.On May 4th of this year, a minor operation was performed for bladder stones, and another anesthesia was performed.So, I feel like I'm really getting old slowly.I just said "Don't look back on the glory of the past, and miss the unbroken dreams", so, everyone has seen the structure of my poems, so I will introduce them to you.You see, at first there is autumn in the four seasons, and then autumn is a kind of sigh, it is difficult to find spring, and it is impossible to jump in the queue for summer.See? Spring, summer, autumn and winter.Don't be sad that the yellow leaves are withering, cherish the only green, there is middle age in life, just like autumn, middle age is a kind of embarrassment.Because you are no longer innocent, you are not in the same category as youth. Don't look back at the old glory, and miss the unbroken dreams.The first two paragraphs of poems are very contrastive, and the final conclusion is: what is approaching is the charming sun in winter, and I am like this now;It's a pity that I can't get drunk anymore. People like us really see life and death very clearly.

I think it's because of our uniqueness that I've been able to have a very playful, free-spirited approach to these life-and-death situations.However, it is not enough to be free and easy. I think it needs to be quite humorous, and it is also necessary to make jokes-make jokes about yourself and keep yourself silent.Life is like a play, this is a play.If you are sad all day, sad all day, it is wrong, this is a little bit of my outlook on life.Today I pursued its strengths, but made up for its own weaknesses. Why should I do this?Tell everyone that there is nothing shameful.Sima Guang said that he has never told a lie in his life, and let me tell you, I have never told a malicious lie in my life.