Chapter 22 in love with a friend's boyfriend

I used to be a fat person with no future.I started getting fat in elementary school, and then I was invincible all the way, only increasing but not decreasing, and developed horizontally.But fortunately, like most fat people, I don't lack friends, and Xiaoyu used to be one of my best friends. Xiao Yu never encouraged me to lose weight.She would say, it's good that you are like this, how safe you are, I think how many years I have to eat so fat.Xiao Yu is the kind of skinny beauty who doesn't get fat no matter how much she eats, which makes people envy and hate her.And she has many suitors, and the boy I like is one of them.

I have known Lu Lei for a long time, and his family lives next door to my grandmother's.When I was in high school, I borrowed from my grandmother's house because it was close to the school.And it was my grandmother's pampering that made me fat for granted.The platform on the second floor of grandma's house is facing Lu Lei's room.Every morning, after I wake up sleepily, I can always see him doing morning exercises.He has a somewhat thin back, which looks extraordinarily handsome in the morning sun.At that time, I was obsessed with Jin Yong, and I always felt that there was a word to describe it: the bones are clear and strange.

In fact, Lu Lei looks ordinary, but he is very smart, and his math, physics and chemistry scores are very good, and he wins chess prizes in the province every year.At that time, my academic performance was not good, and I only liked reading novels and drawing pictures.Drawing the plots of my favorite novels is something I never get tired of.In the summer vacation of the second year of high school, my grandmother and Lu Lei's mother reached a verbal agreement that I would teach Lu Lei sketch and he would tutor me in mathematics. Lu Lei said that he only learned to draw because he wanted to cultivate his three-dimensional sense of chemical element symbols.I can't understand the three-dimensional effect of chemical elements, but I have a taste of love for the first time.It was also at that time that Lu Lei's love affair first opened.

It was the first time Xiaoyu came to my grandmother's house to find me, and Lu Lei and I were converting line ratios to Voltaire.He fell in love with her at first sight.The way he looked at her, he had the infatuation of a teenager who couldn't hide it. At that moment, I seemed to see that something very important between me, Lu Lei and Xiao Yu, broke apart between the three of us.But this kind of brokenness accelerated my feeling towards Lu Lei.The first night he went out alone with her, I was alone in the room and I broke the mirror. Zheng Zhongji's song "The Dilemma" couldn't be more appropriate to my state of mind at that time.I even imagined that if Xiaoyu and I switched identities, then I would give up love and fulfill friendship.

Fantasies are the worst kind of stuff. After the college entrance examination, Lu Lei, who originally had the ambition of only studying in Peking University, went to the second school.All the colleges that applied for the examination were located in the city where Xiao Yu was located.And I was a bit lucky, because an oil painting won an award, and I went to the best art academy in China. For a while, I felt that I didn't like Lu Lei anymore.Occasionally, Xiaoyu chatted with me about him on the Internet, and I could still tease some of his embarrassing things, and I felt calm. In the summer vacation of my sophomore year, I went back to my grandmother's house and saw them kissing under the plane tree at the entrance of the alley.They are together.The sun was shining brightly, and I seemed to see that young man with strange bones coming back.I stood there in a daze for a long time, and was shocked to realize that I still liked him, and it hadn't weakened in the slightest.

At that time, I had lost one hundred and thirty catties, but I still had the image of a broad-minded, fat, and nice guy without any threats.I enthusiastically returned to Xiao Yu's foil, Lu Lei's hair.That's fine, but it's too hard to pretend to be innocent in front of someone you like. Like holding back a cough, God knows how I got through it.And just like that, I'm best friends belonging to both of them.I am their best mouthpiece when they have conflicts.I am fair, generous, careful and gentle, and I never tire of looking left and right. After graduating, we all returned to our hometown city. Xiaoyu was doing advertising planning, I was doing publicity work in government agencies, and Lu Lei was waiting for the civil service exam.During that time, they started arguing.Lu Lei started to lose his temper, and Xiao Yu even accepted flowers from other boys.

On a spring night, I had finished talking with Xiao Yu who was going to break up all night, and received a call from Lu Lei.He said he wanted me to have some barbecue with him.On the platform of my grandmother's house, we drank beer and ate barbecue, talking about the past.After drinking a little too much, Lu Lei hugged me and said, "It would be great if Xiao Yu was as understanding as you." I replied casually: "It would be great if you like me." At that time, I had already lost a hundred catties, but my feeling for Lu Lei was still plump.The moment I was held in his arms hoped for eternity.The world is suddenly no longer important, and forbearance has finally reached a critical point.I confessed.The inspirational story of six years of secret love left Lu Lei dumbfounded.

I knew by the look on his face that my bitter crush was over and my friendship was dying. The day ended with Lu Lei saying sorry.He ignored me for many days afterwards.During this time, Xiao Yu told me that she broke up with Lu Lei. About a month later, when I saw Lu Lei again, it was my grandmother who called me.Said that Lu Lei was drunk and stayed at home to see me.In this way, Lu Lei and I were together through a mess of drunken crying. After Xiaoyu found out, she was very angry and ignored me.The last text message she sent me was: "I didn't expect you to have such a hand, you fat man."

It was at that moment that I finally understood that no matter what kind of animal it is, it is only instinct to value sex over friends.I couldn't hold back love, and Xiao Yu couldn't hold back anger either. As Hemingway said: Nothing is simple here, not even poverty, windfall money, moonlight, right and wrong, and the breathing of the person who sleeps beside you under the moonlight. Lu Lei asked me why I was giggling, and I said, "Your breathing is not easy." I used to envy Ye Fei very much, it's true.At that time, she weighed 160 pounds, but she was not depressed or afraid at all. She carried a Ferrero to school every day.She lived a very carefree life. If she was fat, she would get fat. If her grades were not good, her grades would be bad. She didn't seem to worry about the future at all.Therefore, she still enjoys delicious food every day, still reads novels, draws pictures, and does what she likes to do.

However, maybe she really doesn't need to worry much, because her family conditions are very good, and the biggest expectation of her parents is that she can be happy, healthy and happy. How could she not be envied?Because of me, it is never possible to have her mentality and live her life.For girls, envy is another meaning of liking.In this way, we became best friends, so good that we were almost inseparable, and we always went to the bathroom together. The first time I went to Ye Fei's grandmother's house, I pushed her room on the second floor and saw her teaching a boy to draw.They were very close, and the sun was particularly good, shining on Ye Fei's smooth skin, her eyes sparkling as she looked at him.I understood her mind at a glance.But the boy named Lu Lei didn't understand at all.

Lu Lei is very good, and he chased me very hard.I can't say that I don't feel anything about him, it's just that this feeling is a bit strange.On the one hand, I don't dislike his enthusiasm for me; on the other hand, I am afraid that his enthusiasm will pull Ye Fei away from me. Perhaps, everyone is black-bellied and proud.When I saw Ye Fei's disappointed look when she saw me again, I was a little bit happy. People have no way to choose their background. My mother, who runs a fruit stand, will only let me get into a good university and find a good son-in-law.And Ye Fei's mother, in order to make her daughter smile knowingly, asked for leave to take her to Japan to see cherry blossoms. We were in the third year of high school that year. How many parents could help her ask for leave in order to take the child to play?But maybe it was unintentional, and when Ye Fei came back to paint, she had aura.One of her oil paintings "Cherry Blossom" won a national award.This provided her with a stepping stone to the best art school.When she was in college, she also drew a picture book for a novel and published it.I am so happy for her.Innate talent, coupled with a little bit of luck, destined Ye Fei to have a broad life. Lu Lei said that he has seen all of Ye Fei's paintings, and each one has a little artistic conception, but he can't even paint Voltaire. I teased him: "Then you didn't find anything else in her paintings, such as love or something." "Haha," he laughed, "I only care about your love, and I don't care about anything else." After graduating from high school, Ye Fei and I only communicated online because we were not in the same city.Occasionally we chat about Lu Lei.Maybe distance can make people look beautiful.The days when we only chatted online were the closest time between Ye Fei and me.I applaud her achievement sincerely, and she also sincerely blesses my love. Lu Lei is my first boyfriend, he is very nice, pure and happy like Ye Fei.Liked me for so long, just like Ye Fei liked him for so long. In the summer vacation of her sophomore year, Ye Fei lost some weight, and some boys began to pursue her.Occasionally she would go on a date and ask me for my opinion.We are often together.Eat and drink, watch movies, and occasionally go on a recent trip together.I think that when Ye Fei looked at Lu Lei, the light in Ye Fei's eyes dimmed a little, and it wasn't as embarrassing as I thought it was.Ye Fei is like a flower on the icing on the cake. After graduating from university, Ye Fei became even thinner.I have to admit, she looks kind of amazing when she's slimmed down.I asked Lu Lei how Ye Fei was doing.He smiled and said: "That's right, the little girl is getting slimmer, I have to pay attention to her boyfriend in the future." Very innocent. I started working as soon as I graduated from university, but Lu Lei was still preparing for the civil service exam under his mother's command.After work, a few boys with good conditions chased me. To be honest, I was a little tempted.At that time, Lu Lei and I were going through three years of pain, and we quarreled fiercely.I couldn't help it once and broke up. But that day, Ye Fei stayed with me for a long time, always persuading me.On that day, Lu Lei disappeared.Lu Lei disappeared for a week, and his QQ signature read: "That person is in a dimly lit place." Later I realized that it was Ye Fei who gave him that subversive feeling of looking back.Maybe Ye Fei has always been living in his heart, but I am just a young man who is greedy for novelty. On the day of the official breakup, I asked Lu Lei: "If it wasn't for me, would you like Ye Fei first?" He replied: "The person who taught you to dance may not be the best dance partner." Yes, there would be other girls without me.Too many times it is like this, wandering back to the original point.Fortunately, that person is still waiting. I also finally understood that Ye Fei and I were never the same kind of people, we were just attracted to each other for a while.And I, the envy of her may always be malicious.I like her getting fat, and I like that the person she loves hopelessly is crazy about me. It seems that in this way, I have a little sense of satisfaction. So, for one last confrontation, I dedicate the malice with a text message.Then, I fell in front of the ruins of my love, friendship and youth, and felt a little bit more satisfied and relaxed.In the end, I hid in a nearly empty shell, crying loudly.