Chapter 23 Shared rental men and women

After graduating from university last year, I came to Shanghai alone.I vaguely remember my tired and hesitant eyes reflected on the window glass under the lights of the subway late at night. I have asked myself countless times why I am here.Nowhere gave myself a lot of answers again: youth, dreams, hopes and everything that I take for granted. At that time, I lived in an old elevator room in Minhang District, shared with two other young people.The girl's name is Fan Miaoting, who graduated two years earlier than me. She is a fair-skinned and gentle girl from Guangxi who cooks well.The boy's name is Zhang Yi, who is also from Guangxi and has just graduated from graduate school.

At first, we didn't know each other well, and then we started to eat together. Because of the smoke and fire in the hut, I felt "home" in the shared house, filling the emptiness that I had always felt that the world was an empty shell. Regarding the cooking, Miaoting is basically in charge, and Zhang Yi and I clean up after the meal.Once when Zhang Yi was washing the dishes, I put the dishes into the cupboard while listening to him talk about the embarrassing story of licking the lunch box clean every time he was too lazy to wash the dishes at school.I don't know if it's because his jokes are really funny, or because he's such a handsome guy, but I can't stop laughing.Later, he took the plate in my hand from behind me, and laughed again to be careful not to drop the plate.His hand, which was stained with some detergent, touched my fingertips, making me turn around in a panic, and bumped into his chest.

Although I had an expression of "it's not strange to see it", the heartbeat in my chest was messy like a rabbit. There's a line in the movie, "Y'all know you're going to have sex one day, but you don't know when you're going to have sex, and that's the best time." Thinking about it now, that was indeed the best time between me and Zhang Yi. The days of renting together are relatively harmonious.At that time, Zhang Yi was a person full of positive energy, very humorous and generous.He took care of many "things that a man should do" in the house.I often buy some snacks when I come back, and we all watch American TV series in the living room while eating snacks.

I don’t know if I’m overthinking, but once in a while, I said that I love to eat fruit skin, and then Zhang Yi always brought fruit skin in the snack bag. Sometimes when I came back late after working overtime, Zhang Yi would always sit in the living room and wait for me, exchange some pleasantries before going back to my room to rest. After the meal, the three of us went for a walk together. I love walking on the curb. Zhang Yi stretched out his hand many times and dragged me to the flat ground. Thinking about it now, Zhang Yi at that time was like a ray of light that penetrated the thick clouds of my youthful confusion, allowing me to bask in the sunshine occasionally, and even wanted to grab that light into my hands.

Another time later, he didn't let go of the hand he was holding. I don't know if it's because of the protracted loneliness, but I enjoy and like Zhang Yi's care and care for me.Most of the time, when encountering difficulties in work and life, I will consult him as soon as possible.And psychologically, I feel like I'm starting to get close to him as well.In short, Zhang Yi and I began to change from ambiguity to clarity. One night when Miaoting came back late from overtime work, Zhang Yi and I watched American dramas.You know American dramas, there are always scenes of hot men and women together.When Zhang Yi's lips fell, I didn't refuse.But afterwards, I was in a trance, did I fall in love with this person, or did I just compromise with loneliness?

Probably starting from that moment, for me, our best time is over. I still remember that after Zhang Yi grabbed my hand at the dining table and announced to Miaoting that we were in love, Miaoting's congratulatory expression made me doubtful.Of course, I understand Miaoting's feelings. She will be ignored or even rejected by our lovers in many moments in this house.However, whether she also likes Zhang Yi is like receiving a silent call in the middle of the night. It's fine if you don't go into it, but if you think about it carefully, there are many possibilities. Anyway, at the beginning, Zhang Yi and I were still sweet.Of course, I also gradually saw many shortcomings in Zhang Yi.When he brought the dirty clothes to me for the first time, I was in a daze for a long time.This catch foreshadowed my entire life as a laundry lady with Zhang Yi.He also stopped washing the dishes after meals and left it to me alone.Miao Ting quit the post-dinner walk, and occasionally watched American TV series together, but it seemed that she just regarded it as roommate socializing, and would go back to the room soon.

When I do shameful things at night, I am always afraid that the sound will pass through the thin walls of the old house and be transmitted to the next room.Occasionally, after taking a shower, Zhang Yi came out of the bathroom in only shorts, which would make me very annoyed. I began to yearn for privacy, and I talked to Zhang Yi several times about changing houses to live alone, but was immediately rejected.The reason, of course, is that the rent is too high.He also said that it would be great if Miaoting could cook, and we could only eat outside when we lived alone.The reasons for Miaoting surprised me.Thinking about his occasional conversations with Miaoting in Guangxi dialect, I stood aside like a fool and couldn't understand, and a thorn was planted in my heart.

Zhang Yi asked to move to my room and rent out his room.I also refused. I already felt that it was inconvenient for three people to live together. If I added one more person, my already fragile nerves would probably be messed up. In the days that followed, for me, there was little sense of happiness.Zhang Yi also seemed not as considerate and enthusiastic as he was to me at the beginning. Zhang Yi's parents came to Shanghai. In our shared house, he didn't introduce me as his girlfriend.And Miaoting, who cooked a table of good dishes, was praised by his parents.This incident was probably the last straw that broke my glass-hearted camel.

In short, Zhang Yi and I had a big fight, I scolded him for being lazy and hypocritical, and he said that I am no longer gentle, mean and domineering.I threw all the clothes he had piled in my hamper off the twenty-eighth floor.He watched coldly and said goodbye. He actually said break up? Although I said yes right away, the tears started to rage like a waterfall.My two-month love affair was a short-lived accident. That weekend, I moved out from the shared house.I can't live under the same roof as my ex-boyfriend.Miaoting came to see me off, but Zhang Yi didn't leave the room.Before getting into the taxi, Miaoting asked me to make more contacts.But I know that for a long time, I won't be able to have anything to do with someone who has seen me embarrassed.

Once, I thought that Zhang Yi was light, how could light be grasped in my hands, it would be broken just by grasping it.Light can only be spread in the palm of the hand and kept in the bottom of the heart.It would be great if we only kept a hand-in-hand distance at that time. I hate sharing with my lover, I hate it very much. I am not a single person. Before Xu Jingqi and Zhang Yi, I shared a rent with two couples.One of them was from the Northeast. They fought in the morning and reconciled in the afternoon. There was often chaos in the room.Another pair of dry wood and fire, once even occupied the bathroom for an hour, the two of them together.

Not to mention that I'm a big light bulb on weekdays, with little room for public space.Sometimes when calculating utility bills or something, you have to face the "same hatred" between lovers.If lovers share a room, is it calculated by room or head?In short, this is a headache. Xu Jingqi is a very simple girl.She is very much like me when I first came to Shanghai two years ago, ignorant, confused, full of expectations and fears for the future.But either way, it's beautiful.I liked her a lot before she was with Zhang Yi.We talked almost everything, she would confide to me her confusion and helplessness, and I would use my two years of experience to help her solve it as much as possible.On weekends, we went shopping and watched movies together, and we got along very well. We became alienated, of course it has something to do with her love with Zhang Yi. How to say Zhang Yi, I don't like him very much.Although we are fellow villagers, we should have cherished each other with tears in our eyes, and it is more likely to develop a relationship between men and women.However, things like aura are inexplicable.We don't get along.Indeed, when we first lived together, he expressed his affection for me.That was when I was cooking, he stood by and praised: "My mother will be happy if she has a daughter-in-law like you." I was sweating. He also went to my company to pick me up for dinner.I asked why, and he said, "I want to live a two-person world with you." I don't want to live a two-person world with him. It's okay to drag him to the supermarket to do coolies. When Jing Qi was working overtime, it was just the two of us in the house.I usually stay in the room, go to the living room to drink water or go to the bathroom, and I always see him warmly inviting me to watch American TV series together.What are you doing, watching "Game of Thrones" alone, it's obviously low-level sexual harassment.I always politely decline.Once, he even knocked on my door, entered my room, and lingered in front of my bookshelves.There are only six books on my bookshelf, and he is still looking through them endlessly.He made quips that didn't sound funny to me, or even harsh, and I couldn't get enough of him. Later at the dinner table, when he announced that he was with Jing Qi, I felt sorry for Jing Qi.I don't know when they started to have an affair, and of course I missed the opportunity to remind Jing Qi.So, when I said congratulations, I was somewhat insincere. In my opinion, Zhang Yi is a bit scumbag.When he was with Jing Qi, he didn't seem to want to find a lover who would hold hands with him for a lifetime.He was more like looking for a free hourly worker and bed partner.Of course, a smart person like him must have done some homework and put in some energy at the beginning.But say that he has used love, forget it, don't slander "love". Jing Qi is not deeply involved in the world, and when she first fell in love, there is nothing in front of her eyes.I will remind you again, but it seems a bit malicious.And there are many things in this world, many roads, only after passing through, can we understand whether it is scenery or ruins.Jing Qi is not a fool, and she will understand later that the short-term satisfaction she gets in a relationship is not a deep feeling. It was Zhang Yi who told me that Jing Qi wanted to move out and live alone with Zhang Yi. He told me in his native dialect, obviously behind Jing Qi's back.I asked him, "Why don't you want to go?" "Because of you." Zhang Yi said with a smile, "You cook delicious food." Although maybe he was just praising my cooking skills and wanted to continue to use me as a free cook, but I still feel disgusted.I still remember that I was trembling with anger, and used the beautiful and sharp national curse in my hometown dialect to ask him to accept his kindness. Don't think you are sentimental, but in fact it is sentimental.And the end of the promiscuous man is basically like a cucumber in my hand, cut in half with a knife. For a true love, there will be a honeymoon period of at least half a year.But obviously, Jing Qi and Zhang Yi have not been together for a long time, and their daily life tends to be dull.Zhang Yi rarely even took her out on dates.Jing Qi, who used to go shopping and watch movies with me on weekends, could only stay at home and help Zhang Yi clean up, clean his clothes, or play boring games with him. Zhang Yi's parents came to Shanghai and had dinner together in a shared house.I was also surprised that Zhang Yi did not introduce Jing Qi as his girlfriend.I still remember Jing Qi's hard-to-disguise expression, full of resentment and desolation.And when I took the initiative to talk about the relationship between Jing Qi and Zhang Yi, Zhang Yi began to show an irritable expression on his face. Later, in Zhang Yi's room, his parents reprimanded him in their native dialect.I can't hear clearly, but I can hear some information roughly.His parents are introducing him to a partner in their hometown. The condition of the girl from so-and-so's family is so good that she can't mess around outside.And Zhang Yi explained to his parents: "It's just for fun." Look, how shameless a scumbag is. Fortunately, after Zhang Yi's parents left, Jing Qi had a big fight with him, and they broke up.I hugged the weeping Jing Qi in my arms, with a hundred thousand regrets in my heart. Not long after Jing Qi left, I also wanted to find another house.I messaged Jing Qi asking if there was any room available there, but I didn't hear back from her. I don't know if there is a misunderstanding between us or if she still regards me as a friend. Before I moved out, Zhang Yi rented out Jing Qi's room.The new girl, like Jing Qi, is a fledgling girl with ignorant eyes.On the day I left, I told that girl about the affair between the former tenant Xu Jingqi and the current second landlord Zhang Yi. I still remember the girl blinking her eyes and looking very sophisticated.She said: "Sister, don't worry, my senior sister once told me the three laws of co-tenancy relationship that she worked hard to make: 1. Brothers should settle the accounts clearly. 2. If the accounts cannot be settled, they should be donated to friendship. 3. Try not to be lonely because of loneliness Develop a male-female relationship." "Yes," I patted the girl on the shoulder, "Otherwise, you will find that Oppa is not Gangnam Style, but Unbearable Style." We looked at each other and smiled, that law, I hope she can do it.