Chapter 5 Let's watch the cloud together

I met Qian Chen in 2009. At that time, I had just graduated, and I was working in a small advertising company under the name of a certain TV station.The operating mode of the advertising company is as follows: About 30 salesmen turn over the yellow pages every day to call small companies such as agricultural and animal husbandry in various places, inviting them to make a promotional video. The promotional videos will be made into DVDs for enterprises to purchase. Of course, because of our "special channels", they can also be sent to TV stations and broadcast on agricultural channels.This is a soft advertisement in the form of a program, which has a good effect on corporate publicity.Of course, the cost is much higher.

After the invitation is approved, the salesman and the photographer will travel together to the small company.After a few days of busy work, I will make the film well, invite non-famous radio station hosts to dub it, and then send it to the TV station. My job at the time was to run errands and deliver films. Later, a reporter who was going to coordinate and interview suddenly resigned, and I was forced to take over temporarily. I rushed to Xingtai, Hebei Province with my salesman to interview a feed factory. Qian Chen is the director of that feed factory. I didn't expect the factory director to be so young.He is tall, thin, and bookish, like a student who has not yet left school.

The feed factory is a family business. When Qian Chen's father passed away for some reason, he had just graduated and was forced to take over as the successor. When I first met him, he had been working hard for two years, and he had probably worked hard for the "face project" that a factory manager should have.When he speaks, he likes to use gestures, and often adds some very professional terms when he talks freely.Several times, one person talked enthusiastically for a long time, but the old fritters present did not respond.He still couldn't hide his embarrassment, his mouth stopped talking, but his gestures were still comparing.

I saw the deep disappointment in his eyes.every time. He seemed to be forcing himself to do something that would be painful for him but happy for others. Of course, I also heard that he was bragging about his dying factory that had not made a profit for two years.But not much confidence. In fact, the interview is just a passing one, and he will only be added a close-up shot of his work at the end of the film, saying something like choosing our products will make pigs fatter, horses stronger, cattle and sheep healthier.Therefore, most of the time, the camera is busy shooting things that "look more like showing the strength of the company".

In this way, Qian Chen was free, and I was also free. We didn't talk too much apart from routine.However, when the filming was over, he made a request: "Take a picture of the clouds in the sky. Since I was a child, I felt that I could see the best sky in Xingtai here. This is also the most beautiful place in our factory." Naturally, not many people would take up such a literary remark.But the camera still took it. Dinner together in the evening, drink a few rounds as usual. Qian Chen raised his glass seriously to thank us for coming, and said that he seemed to have seen a turning point.

How can I describe how I felt at the time?Very helpless, and a little distressed.Because I can't be sure whether this will really be a turning point for the factory, but I'm sure that he will have an additional expense of hundreds of thousands of dollars in his account books that cannot make ends meet. I drank that glass of wine in one gulp. On that business trip, the boss also followed.The boss is a southerner in his forties, his wife and children are in his hometown, and he works outside alone.Usually he looks more serious, but that night, maybe he drank too much, maybe it was planned for a long time, in short, I don't know how he has the key card of my room, when I came out of the shower, he was sit on my bed.

I can't bear to recall the details. In short, later, I fled the door, wearing pajamas and slippers, penniless, holding only a mobile phone. When I ran downstairs, I told the security guard about the situation. The security guard went upstairs and found that there was no one else in my room.I didn't dare to stay in the room anymore, so I just packed up my things, pulled my suitcase and left. Sitting on the downstairs steps of the hotel, I was shaking and didn't know where to go. Xingtai in September is already slightly cool.Under the thin shirt, my hair was still dripping, and I didn't have time to blow it.

Then, like fate, I received a call from Qian Chen.He said that he had prepared some Xingtai specialties and would send them to us tomorrow morning.Holding the phone, I burst into tears. Probably only a nerd like Qian Chen would clenched his fist and said to go to him after receiving me and listening to my cry. "Who are you to me, just go to him?" I almost laughed at him. That night, I stayed at Qian Chen's house.It was a new house, two bedrooms.He originally planned to move out to live by himself after graduation, but his family suffered a sudden change, so he would go home to spend most of his time with his mother.But he said that this is a small world for him to escape from the hustle and bustle, and occasionally come to clean his mind.

Later, I reflected on myself.Why are you so bold, dare to go home with Qian Chen, aren't you afraid that he is another wolf? Yes, I am not afraid.Some people, even if they have only met once, will trust them for a lifetime.Recognized from the first sight, he belongs to the same world as me. My hair was wet all the time because there was no blow dryer.He put a towel over my shoulders to keep my clothes from getting wet.The warmth of his fingers touched my neck, causing my skin to shudder. I regret that something didn't happen then. But also very fortunate. It was a sleepless night, I lingered in Qian Chen's small world, read his collection of books, screen movies projected on the mobile hard drive, and chatted with him without saying a word.

The night slips away quickly.When the sky turned pale, I didn't feel tired at all.I no longer remember the content of the movie, but the figure of Qian Chen standing in the open kitchen making coffee and frying eggs has been in my mind for a long time. I didn't have the courage to take the original train back to Beijing.Qian Chen probably also understood, so he said, "How about this? If you refund your train ticket, I'll drive you back." From Xingtai to Beijing, the expressway is only three hours away.For some reason, there were very few cars on the road that day.When I was speeding along the road with Qian Chen, I really hope that there is no exit on that road, and we can just go on like that.

I had a very short sleep. The singing of the FM music station accompanies me to sleep. When I woke up, I rubbed my eyes and asked him, "How long have I been asleep?" He smiled, "About five minutes." right.Only five minutes.I was immediately revived with full blood.The nightmare-like experience of last night is no longer a fetter in my mind.I am very happy, and my heart is at peace, which is indescribable. But it didn't take long before I could find an answer to this peace of my own. I fell in love with this man simply and quickly. Outside my rented complex, I treated him to a bowl of beef ramen.Because I don't like meat, I naturally picked the meat into his bowl.When this action happened, I didn't think much of it at all. Qian Chen ate the sliced ​​meat with a smile, but his smile became a lot more shy.I don't know if the beef soup is too hot, his face is red to the ears. When I said goodbye to Qian Chen, I finally asked him the question that had been on my mind for a long time: "Do you have a girlfriend?" He lowered his head and answered me with some embarrassment: "Yes." I was dazed for a while before I smiled and said: "Then, I wish you happiness." He nodded and wanted to say something, but he didn't, and the car drove out of my sight. So the dream kingdom I had built collapsed in an instant. In this way, I talked about a relationship with myself, started it, and ended it. I never went to that company again.I also basically understood the reason for the sudden resignation of the previous reporter.But later, I still saw the soft commercial of Qianchen Feed Factory on TV. At the end of the film, Qian Chen is wearing a suit and leather shoes, smiling very confidently, but it is also difficult.Those clouds are also used, and it is really beautiful. I don't know if their factory has improved a bit since then. In fact, we have contacts, the kind of holiday greetings, and maintain a friendship that is farther than ordinary. A year later, I decided to leave Beijing.But not sure where to go.My old college friend is in Shanghai and invited me to hang out with her for a few days.I thought about it and went. The metropolis feels basically the same.I am more and more eager to be a heartless person in a small city.So, in Shanghai, I didn't even vote for my resume.Basically just eating, drinking and having fun for a few days.Later, I was dragged by an old friend to the famous Sweet Love Road.In front of the famous love mailbox, an old friend wanted to send a letter to the male god whom he had been secretly in love with for many years. He pulled me together, and I thought about who to send it to for a long time, but only Qian Chen came to mind. In fact, at that time, I felt that I had already let go, and sending this letter was more like an explanation and commemoration of myself. And there is no word in the letter, and the envelope has no sender's information.Basically, I don't think he will know who I am, and it shouldn't cause any trouble in his life. After posting the letter, my old friend and I strolled under the metasequoia tree. On the red brick wall, there were too many oaths engraved on the red brick wall, and there were also wishes for your happiness written by the frustrated forgiver.Passing the former residence of Lu Xun, I think of Xiao Hong, and love in turbulent times.I don't know if she and Xiao Jun held hands when they walked under the metasequoia tree. Standing next to the former site of Neishan Academy, I took a photo and posted on Weibo: "There have been lovers, inspiration for poetry, enthusiasm, tears, and love. Metasequoia witnesses." But later, I found out that when the white envelope with the postmark of love was sent to Qian Chen, he had just signed the factory transfer contract.That soft advertisement did not bring back to life the painstaking effort of his father's life. It's hard to imagine how he felt when he walked through the factory. There should be failure, frustration, self-blame, and relief. And before that, because of the failure of the family and no longer being in the right family, the girlfriend broke up. During the days when I was alone in a foreign land as a stranger, during many sleepless nights, I would always think of Qian Chen staying up all night, the occasional daze when watching movies with me, and the desolate back when I was cooking alone in the kitchen .Everyone will have a dark night of sobriety, and every minute spent alone is like being tortured by life and interpreting a difficult situation. I especially hope that Qian Chen has now gotten out of the predicament and can watch the cloud freely. About two months after the letter was sent, my Weibo suddenly received a private letter from someone I didn't follow.There are only a few words in the letter: "Look at my Weibo." It's not that someone has a crush on me, I thought to myself, if it is a Taobao customer who advertises, I will block it immediately. But when I clicked in, I saw Qian Chen's smiling face. One of the top microblogs is a photo of him standing next to the love mailbox, holding the envelope I sent him in his hand. It was not joy, nor emotion, but for no reason at all, my tears flowed out, and I replied to him: "Where are you?" All kinds of flash marriage stories listed on the news, whether they ended tragically or not.I believe that it was the heartbeat at first sight that brought them together. Because, at this moment, I, who was already with Qian Chen, would still feel my heart pounding when I saw him. It is a long and complicated story that Qian Chen finally persuaded his mother to give up the factory.Various conflicts, compromises, and intolerance with the ex-girlfriend are another long and complicated story.When the factory was sold, he kept an empty factory building and made it into a private library.This is what he has always wanted to do, expected, urged, and refined by his heart. The person sitting in the bookroom, the person sweeping the floor and sprinkling water and mopping the table, who speaks little, but the person who likes to look up at the clouds, is the real him. "Come to me, I need a lady boss. No one is more suitable than you." "it is good." I hardly hesitated.Maybe my life will never have such a love that started at the beginning, but being with him, even for a short time, is what I always want to do, and I am expected, urged, and refined by my heart. The sky is high and the earth is far away, and time is trickling down, pushing Qian Chen in front of me.No early step, no late step. In the days that followed, we watched the clouds together.