Chapter 4 take a bath

I never knew that this road was so long, maybe it was because of Gao Shang’s company in the past, but now Zou Liling is alone, covered only by the clear light of the moon. Once, there were noble coats.And his arm around her shoulders.And his laugh along the way.His voice is a bit old-fashioned, very manly.He has a "opening Zen": "Reiko, do you know?" He is willing to share anything with her.Once, when they were under the covers, he covered her head and shared her first fart of the morning. Thinking about it while walking like this, Li Ling smiled.It's two street corners down and half the distance.

Even when she got home, she still missed him.When washing, when turning on the air conditioner, when getting ready to fall asleep.In the days when he is not around, I want him to be a necessity in life.Love, sweeping through people, takes away part of the soul, leaving only a trance. She lied to herself that everything would pass and go back to the way it was before she met him.But know that this will never be possible.She will never be able to dream of him like a little girl again, and she will never have any future with him again.They were lost in time, like two intersecting lines, and after the coincidence, they turned their backs and went further and further away.

When I first met Gao Shang, Zou Liling was 18 years old, with the age of white doves in her eyes.Gao Shang helped distribute textbooks in the student union, and Zou Liling was missing one.After she returned to the dormitory, she found out that she asked for it in a hurry, but she knew that he did it on purpose.He took out the "Calculus" from his bag with a smile, and said with a smile: "Student, let's make friends. My phone number and QQ are written on the title page of the book." Li Ling glared at him and left angrily. He is not handsome.Perhaps it was because she was too far from the male god in her mind.Her male god should be like the Korean man So Ji Sub, with thin single eyelids, firm lips, and a serious expression.At that time, her understanding of love was limited to TV dramas and novels.

But it must be said that she is a person with a talent for love affairs.She always quickly found out who the friends around her were interested in.For example, Huang Juan in the dormitory likes Jiacuo, a Tibetan boy in his class.And Jiacuo is only interested in Tsering, who is also from the plateau like him.For another example, Jiang Yu from the next class likes Gao Shang who likes herself. It seems that she is standing a little higher than others, Zou Liling thought, so she saw clearly the love game in this world. People all over the world know that Gao Shang likes her, Zou Liling, but she turns a blind eye.Thinking about the reason at that time, it turned out that she felt that he should not disappoint Jiang Yu's love.

In matters of love, there is actually no humility.The male number two in Korean dramas will say boldly: "Okay, I'll give you up to him." But when he turns around, there are self-deprecating tears on his face. But Zou Liling didn't know that sometimes people are born stupid, and it can't be taught well.Zou Liling's stupidity accompanied her whole life.Once the department organized a group to watch the sunset.It was a day in June, and the sun was fierce.Walking on the Yangtze River Bridge, the meat is three points cooked.Gao Shang lazily walked beside Zou Liling, holding a parasol for her.But she pushed him away more than once and said: "I have an umbrella, and the ginger taro is still drying, so go quickly."

Later, it is said that Gao Shang and Jiang Yu dated several times.It is said that Gao Shang received Jiang Yu's text message and was seen by a few guys in the dormitory. He went to the appointment under their coaxing.It is said that Jiang Yu ran back to the dormitory crying later.Later Gao Shang apologized and invited her to dinner.In the end, the two shook hands and made peace and became friends—the kind that would be awkward to meet and hardly talk to again. Jiang Yu's later boyfriend owned several villas in Qingdao.For their wedding, Zou Liling and Gao Shang were invited.At that time, they were still glued together.Jiang Yu introduced to her boyfriend that these are her bad friends.Time will eventually bring happiness and relieve the embarrassment of the past under the grand.Jiang Yu is holding Zou Liling in his left hand and Gao Shang in his right hand, smiling very sweetly.That photo is still in the album.

why do you like me? After being together, Zou Liling always asked Gao Shang like this. Ok.you guess?Gao Shang always answered like this.Maybe he couldn't answer anything, so he had to ask in return. But Zou Liling started to like Gao Shang for a reason.At that time, Gao Shang had been rejected by her so much that he couldn't think of anything to please her.Simply turned all love into a motivation to make money, and took on a lot of part-time jobs.He has distributed leaflets, sold Avon, and worked as a courier.Several times, Zou Liling met him on campus, he was always busy, riding a second-hand old bicycle, driving fast.

The wind shrouded his back away, and her heart gradually lost. Like something is missing. very important stuff. As a result, she had too much free time, and when she was in the library, his name would inexplicably appear in her pen.One day, she fell asleep in the library.The sunshine was particularly good. She lay on the table and had a brief dream.She dreamed of a kitten with white gloves on its limbs.It came back with a schoolbag and said to her: "Mom, Dad took me to play." She woke up smiling.When she woke up, she saw Gao Shang sitting next to her.He rested his head on his right hand and looked at her intently.It seems to be admiring her, admiring a piece of porcelain.She quickly sat up, wiped her saliva, and blushed.

He rubbed her hair and said, "It's so cute." His palm was big and warm, and she pushed his hand aside with chagrin, "I'm not a cat or dog." He looked at the clock on the wall and said, "I have to go to work." After he left, her face was still hot, and her soul seemed to follow him.The little cat in the dream called Gao Shang Dad.Because she dreamed of him, she realized that she liked him too. Life suddenly became more troublesome. But there are also some small sweets. With the money earned from a noble part-time job, he invited a few good friends to climb Mulan Mountain at night.Staying in a tent at night, Zou Liling and Huang Juan are in the same room.With the skylight open, the stars can be seen.The wind gently blew the leaves, and the boys drank beer around the campfire.The voice is not too high, and occasionally a few laughs can be heard.Zou Liling said to Huang Juan: "Tell me, are they secretly talking about girls?"

The two got up quietly, walked a few more steps, and walked around behind the bushes near the campfire, just in time to hear a boy teasing Gao Shang: "What a lover, so we are all props for you to show your love." Huang Juan looked at Zou Liling and smiled secretly, Liling's face burned instantly.Something bit her, she pushed it away hard, and held back it so that she didn't cry out. Back in the tent, it was a sleepless night.Zou Liling became anxious while waiting.The sky turned from pitch black to blue and white, and the birds happily scrambled to be the wake-up call.Zou Liling's eyelids began to become heavy.

She seemed to have had a brief sleep, for the dreams were fragmented.It seemed that he had slept for a long time.She seemed to hear someone singing a song outside the tent.It seems to smell floral.It appeared that the tent door had been pushed open.It seems that someone exclaimed.She was hugged by someone again and ran all the way. In the hospital at the foot of the mountain, Zou Liling woke up after being put on a bottle for eight hours.The insect that bit her last night left poison in her body, and her whole body was swollen into a bun. When she woke up, Gao Shang was sitting next to her.His eyes were red. Seeing her wake up, he opened his mouth and vomited obscenities: "Damn, you scared me to death." Later, Huang Juan helped Zou Liling to restore all the details of Gao Shang's confession to her that day.But she still feels sorry.How could she faint? She became an outsider when she was most important. But if it was possible, she thought, it would be great if she could become an outsider in every quarrel they had together in the future.As a calm bystander, her love will not be poisoned by unscrupulous words. Huang Juan said that Zou Liling looked like a vicious dog when she was angry.Whoever catches and bites is not polite. Once on the bus, the two had a big quarrel because of a small matter.A sleeping girl in the front row was woken up, saying that they were going to quarrel and go home.Zou Liling was getting angry and immediately pointed the finger at the girl.Later the driver had to ask the three of them to get out of the car together.It was a winter, and Zou Liling's cheeks and nose were red because of anger.It was Gao Shang who laughed first. "I was wrong," he said, taking her in his arms. So immediately reconciled.At that time, he loved everything about her.Including her irascibility, her loudness, her low self-esteem, and her stupidity. It would be great if he could smile and then hug her during the last quarrel.She would make up with him immediately, too.But for the last quarrel, they exhausted all their strength and all their tenderness.Her shortcomings are just her shortcomings, and he didn't want to tolerate her, showing disgust on his face.Just because of seeing that disgust, Zou Liling's courage was gone.I didn't even have the energy to say goodbye to him. He was beginning to hate her, she thought.She sent him many text messages apologizing, but he didn't reply.Later, she decided to give up.Breaking up is also a way of sending text messages.She is leaving.He said, let me go.So she lived in the Motel for a day.It was a sleepless night, but I couldn't cry.I regretted it many times, and wanted to go home immediately, throwing myself in his arms, begging him not to leave, begging him to forgive, begging him to give her a chance to bear and make up for it together.But more times, she held back.It's the best as it is now, all she gets is his good.His badness has just emerged, so she doesn't want to look at it. After all, she was so spoiled by him that she was too weak. Everything in this world has a shelf life.So is love.They were together for four years and three months.She has done everything for him, from head to toe, from hat to socks, from haircut to toothbrush.She manages his daily routine like a mother.Also like a daughter, spoiled by him.They used to be too good to seem to melt into each other's blood.I have also planned how to pass the years after graying.They have named their children.They have developed new dishes together.They know each other better than they know themselves. But such a past cannot lock the future. In the second year they were together, the year they graduated from senior year, she and he went back to their hometown in the north.It was winter, and I had to go to the bathhouse to take a shower.He suggested that she take a bath.He said, you don't know, what I miss the most when I'm outside these years is the scrub in my hometown.That comfort, the body is separated, only the emptiness of the soul.What is empty is also full. The aunt who took the bath was fifty years old.It costs five yuan to rub once, and it takes no less than twenty minutes.Rub about twenty or thirty a day.Just like this one after another, she paid for her son to finish college, was admitted to the civil service, and contributed the down payment for his house. "What about now?" Zou Liling asked her aunt.Why didn't he pick you up to live the days when you don't need to take a bath?She actually wanted to ask that. The aunt said: "Now I have a grandson. I want to prepare money for my grandson." The auntie talked about how cute her little grandson was, and she worked hard with joy.Zou Liling turned her face away, but she wanted to cry.That was her first taste of how hard life is. I don't know why, three months after the breakup, Zou Liling suddenly remembered this matter.Perhaps the memories related to nobility are also like the flesh body that should be rubbed off. On a business trip, Zou Liling finally enjoyed taking a bath again.It's just that the young girl's hands are too gentle.There is also no feeling that the body is rubbed off and only the plump soul is left. After everything was over, Zou Liling lay in the bathtub full of water, because she couldn't forget him, she wanted to cry helplessly. "Are you really not going back?" In the cafe, Huang Juan asked Gao Shang after reading Zou Liling's "scrubbing" microblog. Gao Shang did not make a sound for a long time. He knew everything about her, but in the end he couldn't stay by her side.In the last quarrel, they both exhausted each other's strength and tenderness.Whenever I look back and think about the fragments of those memories, I can't piece them together into a complete love story. Reiko pushed his female colleague who sent condolence texts late at night but was just an ordinary relationship to the stairs. She rolled down and lost her three-month pregnant child. He resigned and lost all his savings, but he still couldn't escape the torture of his conscience.He couldn't get over the fact that a life that already had a heartbeat had died and went to love Reiko again.But he had to admit how seriously he loved.From then on, he never had such serious energy to love anyone again. Maybe he'll have to find a chance to take a bath, too, with his body scrubbed off, without thinking about anything, even if only for a while.