Chapter 2 but you didn't

We just met at that time.That summer, we finished the college entrance examination and worked odd jobs in the same clothing store.It's the kind of job that stands at the door to attract customers, clapping their hands and shouting 50% off and 50% off. I stand on both sides of the store entrance just like your door god. You are too shy to shout like that, so I have to fight alone. You only need to shout to the customers who enter the store: Welcome. At noon, a couple of us were looking for food by ourselves.Walk left and right through the small alleys of the pedestrian street, and find a beef noodle restaurant.That noodle is very spicy, I eat it with joy, you eat it with pain.Later, we went to the milk tea shop next to the beef noodles to buy iced milk tea.The milk tea seller is an old lady. She has a very simple stall, a freezer for ice, and a stove placed outside. The stove keeps boiling water, and when it is turned on, it is poured into old kettles of various colors.The old grandma also has a raccoon cat, which nestled lazily at her feet while basking in the sun and licking its paws.

Milk tea is very sweet and greasy, I don't like to drink it, so you don't care to take the remaining half of my drink and stuff it into your mouth. The old grandma looked at us enviously and said what a good couple we were.What did I say with a smile, we are just colleagues. Later, every day at noon, we would go to that beef noodle restaurant to eat noodles together and drink milk tea at the old grandma's.You gradually get used to the spiciness of beef noodles, and I gradually get used to the sweetness of milk tea.We will drink milk tea while chatting with grandma.The old woman lived alone in a small room behind the shop.The screen window of the hut was drilled by a cat, and you volunteered to say that you would fix it after get off work.

You fluttered your bright eyes and asked me: Are you coming? Ok.I nodded, very determined. That evening, the weather was suffocatingly hot.You bought screens and nails at the nearby hardware store and fumbled to remove the old screens and install new ones.I'm standing right next to you, passing hammers and nails and stuff.You are very handsome when you are focused, you will secretly glance at me during the interval, your smile is so bright. The screen window was made ugly by you, and the grandmother didn't mind at all, and she prepared dinner for us to thank you.That meal was very simple, just rice, vegetables, and bacon.The cat, the alley, the sycamore tree, the silver-haired old man, the simple old wooden table and you are in love everywhere.

Later we each received a college acceptance letter and you would go to another city.On our last day at the clothing store, you and I are a little anxious.Although I did the same job and ate the same beef noodles and milk tea, everything changed that day. After get off work, we waved goodbye to each other.I walked ten steps, I thought you would call me to say something else, but, you didn't. College life made me almost forget you.But half a year later, we met again.It was winter vacation, I passed by the pedestrian street, and went to see my old colleagues in the clothing store where we worked together.They were glad to see me, they said, you were there just now, just now, ten minutes ago.

I am very frustrated, a little helpless like passing by.But you actually came back again.You said you forgot your hat here.You were slightly startled when you saw me, and you said, "Yeah, you're here too." We stayed in the clothing store for a long time that day, until we were kicked out by the store manager on the grounds that there were too many people.None of us wanted to go home, wandering the streets bored.That day, the 1,000-meter-long pedestrian street was about to be worn by us. You talked about all kinds of interesting things about you in school, and I also talked about my confusion.We just walked like that, I hope that time and that road will extend infinitely, forever.Then it got so late that we had to go home separately.You hesitated and asked me if you could play with me tomorrow, I nodded.You said, you take me to Forest Park.

The next day in Forest Park, you rented a barbecue pit and bought some sweet potatoes.It was cold then.You take a stick and turn the stove and sweet potatoes upside down with a red face.The sweet potatoes were charred and undercooked.In the end, our fingers and faces were smeared with raw sweet potatoes. During that winter vacation, we always saw each other.Take a walk on the road, go to a bookstore to sit on the ground and read comics, go to a cafe to play game consoles on the sofa.Every time you take me home, you will pass a road, and my home is on the opposite side of the road. Every time you are waiting for a red light, you will suggest: Let’s wait for the next red light.The red light is on again and again, and you just don't want to send me there.

On New Year's Eve, on the Internet, you asked me if I had a boyfriend. I said yes.You are silent.As if I betrayed you, I explained to you that the boy chased me very fiercely, so we didn't even hold hands when we were together.I kept explaining, you just didn't talk, and then I got a call from you.You hung up after saying only one sentence: You have a boyfriend and I like you too. I'm so lucky, I thought you would scold me for being foolish, but you didn't. After I went back to school, I broke up with my boyfriend and established a relationship with you.Our love event book is hundreds of text messages and N phone calls every day.The feeling of heartbeat and happiness will not become weaker because of the distance, on the contrary, it will become hotter.I proudly tell the girls in the dormitory how handsome, cute and kind you are.

During the seven-day long vacation, I bought a train ticket and rushed to your place.It was a surprise. When I found you, you were playing on the court, wearing a white T-shirt, beads of sweat glistening in the sun.When you saw me, you froze for a moment, rubbed your eyes, and then rushed over like a hungry wolf.I have nowhere to hide, being held by you.That was the first time we hugged, and I have never experienced such a blazing heartbeat.Like dying, but willing to die like that. You let me sit on the bench downstairs in your dormitory and wait for you.I carefully took pictures with my eyes, and kept the roads you passed by every day, the windows of your dormitory, and the canteens you frequented all in the memory card.Above my head is a sycamore tree, the shadows of its mottled branches shine on me, and a few birds flap their wings and fly into the twilight. When you come down from the stairs, you smell of papaya soap on your body.

You spent all the living expenses of that month to open the best room in the school hotel for me.And then you begged for nothing to stay.Since we were lying on the same bed, you kept saying only one sentence: don't leave, please. You are such a child. On the last day, I really have to go.You are about to cry, and I am about to shed tears too. Before the tears come down, the snot comes down first.I couldn't find a facial tissue for a while, so you wiped the snot off my nose with your hands.At that moment, I felt that you were as gentle as my father. Then, you took me to the train station, not to send me away but to refund the ticket.You are anxious and there are many people in line.You were scolded by a middle-aged man for selling the color clip team, and finally your ticket was refunded.I will never forget the way you were so happy.

So I skipped class for another three days.Finally it's the day of parting again, you sent me to the train with your palms sticking to mine through the glass.At the last minute, the siren blew and I thought I was going to make the trip extra difficult just because I missed you.I thought you were going to be thrown far away by the train and out of my sight, but you didn't. You got on the train at the last second, sent me back, and went back to your own city alone. I told this story to the girls in the dormitory, and they clicked tut after listening.They said, you really love me.Yes, I'm sure you were then.

It was this kind of love that made us stay together for four years despite such a long distance.Four years, how many temptations you have encountered, how many times I have been weak in my heart, but these are not important, what is important is that we are still together four years later.After graduation, we made an appointment to go to Beijing together, and shared a two-bedroom apartment with others in the North Fourth Ring Road. Our young self-confidence and self-esteem are constantly being hit and tempered.But anyway, we finally found the location.You have to run around in sales.You lowered your figure and lowered it.You said that you will give me a good life, and the sales income will be relatively higher, as long as you work hard.You work very hard, and after half a year, you always take the first place in the sales department of that pharmaceutical company.You hand over your salary card to me, and you say that I can buy whatever I want. But that money, I have been reluctant to spend a penny.All our food and clothing expenses are spent on my income.At that time, I was selling cars in a Mercedes-Benz 4S store.I am stupid, but I have always been thick-skinned, so my grades are not bad, and the money I earn is enough for the two of us for the time being. We have lived in the North Fourth Ring Road for two years like this, and we are getting busier and busier. Although we meet every day, we talk less.I think you are slowly becoming strangers, and so am I.Although I am sure that the love for you in my heart has not been subtracted, but I am not sure whether you have the same for me.You are always on business trips, and the calls outside are just to report that you are safe. When I fall asleep alone at night, I always think about what you are doing. Do you think of me the same way when you sleep alone in a hotel?I'm afraid that something will happen to you, all kinds of things will happen to you.In my imagination, all kinds of dangers are approaching you, but I can't do anything about it.I had to call you, one after another.In the beginning, you are very happy, and then you are bored.The so-called end of love probably starts from the first trouble. Finally one day, I called you and heard another woman's voice, and the world shattered. After you came back from a business trip that time, you had an open and honest talk with me.You say that girl likes you so much that she would do anything for you.You said that she would not ask you for marriage, and you hoped that I could grant you the two of us.You even cried, you said, isn't it too sad that a man only has one woman in his life? I think in my invincible belief, your occasional distraction should not erase anything.If it weren't for you talking to me from the perspective of another person, if it wasn't for your selfish and narrow definition of love.If you had given me an apologetic hug and promise, I would have forgiven you, definitely, but you didn't. This is the third year since we broke up, and I heard that you are getting married.I was traveling in the North Sea, lying on the beach in July, I thought of you.We only met in July ten years ago.All the memories come to me so clearly.I have no doubt that we loved.The sky suddenly rained the sun, and the rain under the sun was like a bunch of golden ears of wheat, like a bunch of memories about you, very dazzling. I still remember that when we first went to Beijing, we spent four hours commuting to and from get off work every day.In order to spend more time with you, I insist on finding a work unit in the same geographical location as you.Once on the subway, we all stood.A strange child who only reached your thigh held your hand.You held me with one hand and him with the other. The three of us were squeezed around, but you never let go.At that moment, I felt that the three of us are a family. If we have children in the future, you will hold our hand like this and not let go. After such sweetness, I thought you would definitely give it to me, but you didn't.