Chapter 9 goodbye diaphragm

Sometimes I am amazed by the precise depiction of subtle human feelings in movies, such as a certain moment in Italian director Marco Bellocchio's movie "Goodbye, Long Night". The protagonist Anna lives a divided life. During the day, she is a company employee, but after leaving the company, she is a member of a terrorist organization.Together with his partners, she thinks she will create an ideal world.In one of the most important activities they organized, they kidnapped a political figure and hid him in a secret room in a residential house in the city, while Anna and her partner acted as masters and hostesses to deal with neighbors and friends who came to the door. All kinds of people and so on.This sensitive and delicate woman actually already had doubts about this so-called ideal, but the real turmoil in her heart was the most ordinary moment.One morning she's out on the bus with a group of women talking about family, the weather, vegetables, and it's there that Marco Bellocchio, in the most dispassionate shot, expresses the isolation she feels , she stared at them, almost in a daze, they felt her gaze and looked at her suspiciously, so she had no choice but to turn her head away.That estrangement is the result of her alienation and self-alienation. She cut herself off from the crowd, from real happiness, and became a stranger, alienated from women like her.

Diaphragm is sometimes self-protection. It is an emotional blocker secreted by itself when emotions and life suffer a huge blow, so that feelings only stay on the surface, numb pain and joy together, so as not to arouse a deeper heart turmoil.As the Israeli writer Amos Oz wrote in his novel "Understanding Women", the protagonist Kir has a strange feeling after his wife's death: "He is indifferent to all this, only one A constant vague feeling that he wasn't really seeing each other again, that the diaphragm was waking up...it was all in a dream. If he still had hope, he had to come out of this thick fog. He had to get out of it at all costs. Awakening from this deep sleep, even a disaster for it. I wish something could cut through the soft, fatty jelly that surrounded him like a womb and suffocated him."

Indian female writer Kieran Desai's novel "Lost" also described this feeling. Sai's grandfather studied in Cambridge. In a foreign country, he was not tolerated, and he was always separated from everything around him.When he was shopping at the grocery store and heard the lady who owned the landlady say that her husband used the same shaving brush, he was amazed that "they have the same human needs and intimate connection", "this bold idea Make him dizzy." But people "must wake up from this deep sleep at all costs", just like the moment in Ang Lee's movie "Lust, Caution", Wang Jiazhi let Mr. Yi go, and everything in front of him suddenly became clear and slow in the rickshaw. Now, she stared at the windmill on the rickshaw in a daze, her past was a Chinese story of a Chinese girl leaving the soul, but now her body and soul are united, she wakes up.At that moment, we all knew what Li An was going to say.No wonder Tao Jie said: "That rippling, seemingly irrelevant moment is the most memorable moment in Chinese-language movies."

Maybe many people who like movies are like me.There are only eight and a half works of Fellini, and I have seen less than half of them; there are only seven and a half works of Tarkovsky, and I can only see them all through one film exhibition; Jeslowski, or Akira Kurosawa, every time they want to read their works, they have to make up their minds like they finally decided to do their homework when they were young, before they dare to press the "play" button.Not only them, any movie, as long as I have heard other people's praise and know that it is really good, it is enough to make me lose the courage to watch it.

Not because I worry about them being obscure, difficult, and slow, no, but because I have already experienced the power of those masters. Bergman's works always remind people of unhappy childhood, and David Lynch always makes you stare into your heart The fear of Kieslowski, like an oracle, will always limit the possibility of fate. "Dancer in the Dark" made me sad for days, and "Lover in the Arctic Circle" made me want to rush to the screen and kill the tram driver.Compared with them, Hollywood action movies are more appropriate. The hero always cuts the red or blue line on the time bomb at the last minute, thus saving the entire earth. The weak woman always touches a knife at the last moment and kills the A murderer who killed the entire town on Halloween.After watching a good movie that shakes people's hearts, it is always necessary to watch ten movies that are very satisfying to undo its bad influence.Therefore, in my movie viewing records, most of them are commercial movies and B-grade movies. I have watched more than 80% of the movies under the "horror" and "thriller" labels of Douban, although I admit that most of them are rubbish.Not just movies.All those things that are too beautiful, too good, too deep, too prudent, and too important always make people subconsciously want to avoid them.