Chapter 9 Chapter 9 Cold Summer

Although it's July, it still feels a bit chilly.The snow on the top of Mount Fuji has begun to melt, leaving only about 2 centimeters.Late frosts have occurred in Tohoku and Hokkaido, and people are worried about frost damage. According to the forecast of the Meteorological Agency, the temperature this year will be as low as ever since observations began in 1886. In previous years, girls in Harajuku would wear miniskirts and very short socks on sunny days, ostentatiously showing off their charm.This year, they are still wearing knee skirts and long skirts, and you can occasionally see one or two wearing short skirts on the street.

When Dongzi arrives in Futian, it will be bitter summer, and the weight will drop by two or three kilograms.She was already thin, but it would be ugly if she got thinner, Dongzi thought.Do everything possible to want to gain weight, but often backfired. However, this year is different from previous years. Perhaps due to the cool weather, Dongzi's body has not changed in any way.But when he thought of the things in the store, Dongzi couldn't be happy at all, and he was just restless. In summer, if it wasn't for the scorching sun, the market for hats would drop. Some people even think that if this continues, the inventory will be backlogged, and hat shops may be closed.

Fortunately, Dongzi's hat shop is mostly high-end, so the impact is not serious.Hat shop sales are generally down 20% to 30%, and if the cooler temperatures persist, there may be serious problems.Summer is not like summer, and it is indeed embarrassing. One afternoon in mid-July, Mrs. Zhongshan came to the store. "Hey, do you have time?" As usual, Madam invited Dongzi to go outside. Dongzi is usually fine at night, so Dongzi and his wife came to the "Mimosa Pavilion". After sitting down, Madam ordered a cup of coffee and said nonchalantly, "I decided not to leave home."

"The relationship between the two has eased?" "Without respite, I decided to stay home and let him out." "gentlemen……" "If I leave home, it will not only involve children's schooling, but also a family with only men is outrageous. He lived in the apartment with his mistress not long ago, and it would be best to let him out." "Then you manage the household." "For the time being, he is still the parent in name, but after I leave home, I don't have any scruples. It will be more convenient to be at home." Madam said.

"It's okay to divorce at any time, but I'm content with being separated from him now." Women are weak, but occasionally they will become strong. After hearing what my husband said just now, Dongzi thought more about the professor. "Did you say you won't get a divorce?" "Of course, he doesn't have the courage to do things too much. His words are terrible. If he really divorces, it will damage his dignity. After all, he is a university professor." "Then when did sir leave home?" "I moved out a long time ago." "It's just you and your child at home."

"I cleaned up the room thoroughly yesterday, so I am in a good mood today, so I went out for a walk." "Where does Mr. live now?" "It's like renting an apartment in Meguro. He gave me the address and phone number, but I don't want to go to him." "Then, he and the assistant in the laboratory..." "Probably so, I don't know." Madam frowned. "Anyway, he'd better live with another woman for the time being." "However, you can't just sit back and watch each other." "Of course, it's fine if it goes on like this. He is over half a century old, and he can be romantic for another two or three years at most. In the end, he can only end up being disgusted by others."

"How old is his mistress?" "It's a 35-year-old spinster. There is more than a round of age difference. Sooner or later, they will not get along. He will be kicked out." "In order to be able to return home by then, did you agree to a divorce?" "I'm not joking. When I get there, I won't answer him when he comes back." "So, sir?" "His business has nothing to do with me." After hearing what his wife said, Dongzi felt that the man was a little pitiful. "What about Mr.'s letter, mail, etc.?" "Of course it will be forwarded to him."

"It's not convenient, sir!" "This is what he himself did. There is nothing he can do about it, unless he repents and apologizes to me." Madam spoke very hard, maybe in fact she was expecting the professor's repentance. "In short, there is nothing annoying anymore, so I just came out for a stroll." "Where is Takeda-kun?" "We're just playing around." "Does Takeda-kun know about your wife's separation?" "Of course, I've told him, but it has nothing to do with him." "I understand that."

"Taketa and I don't want to be together forever; neither of us has to be responsible for each other, it's just mutual needs between lovers." After hearing his wife's confession, Dongzi was at a loss. "Generally speaking, a woman must be accompanied by a man. Even if she doesn't like someone, she must pretend, otherwise she is not called a woman." "Is this the kind of man Taketa is?" "Yes, he is my lover." Dongzi thought of Funatsu. According to his wife's logic, Funatsu might be a stimulant for him.Guizhi is different from Funatsu, he is the spiritual pillar of life.

However, Funatsu will be leaving Japan soon, and Toko has been thinking about him.After breaking up that night, there has been no contact. "I want to ask you a question. You may think it's ridiculous. Do men sometimes fail right away?" Dongzi asked bravely. "Have you encountered such a situation?" "No, I heard it from a friend, it seems from being too young." "It has nothing to do with age. Taketa-kun didn't do it when he first started." "Really?" "It's not that they don't have this kind of ability at all. Men are mostly neurotic and their feelings are relatively fragile. Don't pretend to be strong on the surface. Right?"

Dongzi understands this truth, but Dongzi doesn't know what to do in such a situation. "A man is cute even when he does something rough." Dongzi finally experienced this feeling.A man is not an enemy to a woman. "Besides Takashi, do you like other people?" "No." The lady lit a cigarette and stared at Dongzi. "After falling in love with Mr. Taketa, I don't want to make that kind of request to you, but the two of us are connected." After hearing what his wife said, Dongzi felt a subtle emotion. "I like you," said Mrs. So far, Toko has never taken the initiative to call Funatsu.Since Funatsu Takashi was in an office, and there was no urgent need to call his office.Today is different from the past. Fuyuko really wants to call Funatsu. If he doesn't see him, he may leave Japan for the United States immediately. After Dongzi broke up with Mrs. Zhongshan, she kept thinking about calling Funatsu.Funatsu had left the firm in May, and of course wasn't there.Let's call the apartment, Dongzi hesitated. Funatsu once said that he went to America to forget Fuyuko.The day before yesterday, he persuaded Dongzi to go to the United States together, perhaps on impulse.Afterwards, Funatsu remained silent and left Dongzi. Dongzi hesitated whether to see him. If he called Funatsu, it might be too selfish, and it might disturb his hard-won mood.Dongzi thought. However, Dongzi was not reconciled to seeing each other, and felt sad at the same time.Meeting him may cause him trouble, but it doesn't mean going to America with him.Dongzi still wants to see him. Do I love him?Dongzi asked himself.I like it, but I like it, but it doesn't mean love, at least it hasn't reached the level of inseparable.With Funatsu not around, Fuyuko sometimes feels a sense of emptiness and loneliness, that's all. What kind of trouble has Funatsu been in since the last breakup?He must have suffered humiliation and heavy blows.Dongzi thought. At 6 o'clock in the evening, Fuyuko finally made up his mind to call the apartment where Funatsu lived and asked the date of Funatsu's departure.Dongzi finished dialing the number, waiting for the caller to answer, but no one answered, and hung up several times, with the same result. Has he already left for America?Dongzi thought. Funatsu couldn't leave without saying hello, maybe he no longer lived in the old apartment. Dongzi put down the microphone as if lost. At night, Dongzi was in the apartment and called Funatsu again, but no one answered. Dongzi was a little impatient. Is he still in Japan? Ask Takashi, he might know, but Dongzi is worried that Takashi knows about their relationship.Dongzi hesitated, a feeling of betraying Takashi made her shudder. It was almost 11 o'clock, and Dongzi was flipping through popular European fashion magazines while drinking brandy.At this time, the phone rang suddenly. Recently, there are often inexplicable phone calls late at night.Some men deliberately play tricks on people, say some nasty things on the phone, and seek excitement. Tatsuji Toko picked up the receiver in trepidation, accompanied by the beautiful music, came the friendly and familiar voice of Funatsu. "You haven't slept yet, I thought you were asleep." "Where are you now? In Japan?" "Of course, we will leave tomorrow. Therefore, I am having a farewell drink with my friends. In Shinjuku's 'Maki' tavern, the address is the building with spiral stairs inside the top theater in Kabukicho. They are all my close friends. Please come. " Funatsu seemed to have drunk too much, so he finished speaking in one breath. "I really want to see you today, where shall we meet?" "Today is the last night, wouldn't it be better to be with friends?" "No, I've been drinking with them for a long time. I'll wait for you in the foyer of the Keio Theater Hotel in an hour. Please come there." "But……" "I beg you, please come, I will wait for you." The phone hangs up.Dongzi finished her glass of wine, dressed up a bit, and left the apartment. When Dongzi came outside, the weather was gloomy, giving people a feeling of depression.From Sangong Bridge to Theater Hotel, it takes 1O minutes by car. Dongzi walked through the quiet commercial street and hailed a taxi in front of the station.When Toko came to the hotel, Funatsu was sitting on the sofa in the lobby waiting for her, with his hands on the armrests, his head bowed in thought, as if drunk. Fuyuko greeted him, and Funatsu looked up. "You're going to America tomorrow, why didn't you tell me earlier." Dongzi asked. Funatsu didn't answer. "There's a bar downstairs, let's go there." After Funatsu finished speaking, he staggered and walked out. "You drank too much." "To see you." "why?" "If you're not drunk, you won't have the courage to meet you." The two took the escalator downstairs and entered the bar.In this hotel, only the bar was open until 2 am, and the two sat side by side on an L-shaped seat and ordered a drink.Funatsu bowed and said, "I was rude last time, please forgive me." "what?" "Thank you." Funatsu scratched his head vigorously. Maybe it was an apology for being rough in bed last time, or maybe it was feeling guilty about being incompetent.But Toko was not annoyed by what happened last night, but looked at Funatsu with kind eyes. "So, when will we leave tomorrow?" "4 pm." "4 o'clock……" "Of course, it's impossible for you to send me off, so I'll feel at ease when we meet tonight." "I'll see you off, if it doesn't hinder you." "No, it's enough to bother you, I'm satisfied." Funatsu brushed back the hair that hung down his forehead with his hands. "I just want to see you, that's all." "I also called where you were going, but you were not there. I thought you had gone to the United States." "Thank you for your great love." "What I said is true." "Do you like people like me? I'm young, but I can't do anything." "like." Funatsu looked at Fuyuko, shook his head and said. "No, you don't like me." He kept patting his head. "After I came to the United States, I not only studied architecture and design, but also learned how to play with women." "You went to America with this purpose?" "From now on, I will never encounter such an embarrassing and shy scene again." "I am incomprehensible." "I do not need your sympathy." "you are wrong……" In any case, the blow to Funatsu last time was too heavy. "Is this your first time in America?" "No, this is the third time. I went there twice when I was in college and the second year after graduation." "Then, you'll get used to it soon." "But it's the first time to come to the United States." Afterwards, the two talked about Europe, to which they both had been. After an hour and a half, the bar was about to close, and Dongzi stood up. It seemed that Funatsu hadn't had enough, and he was completely drunk. Dongzi finally got Funatsu into the car and decided to take him back to the apartment first. "You look down on me, you must think I'm a waste, it's just that I want to be strong on the surface." Funatsu said. "Stop talking about that." "However, there is no way to be laughed at by you. I am actually a waste." Funatsu pushed back the hair on the forehead again. "You said you had a hysterectomy and were a useless woman." "Funatsu-kun..." Dongzi was worried that the driver would hear it, but Funatsu had no scruples. "Maybe I'm too arrogant. I want to soothe your traumatized mind and restore you to normal, so I advise you not to think too much. The uterus has nothing to do with sex. I investigate hospital operations and report to medical malpractice The committee's appeal was all for you, to heal your wounds, but it's all a fantasy and the result of too much hubris." "You're done talking!" "I know that when you said that you were a useless woman, it was just an excuse to prevaricate me. You may think that I will give up if you do this. Who knows, I am..." "..." "You may feel ridiculous. After listening to your words, I want to work harder. If it goes well, I may be able to completely occupy you if I defeat the boss. In this way, you may follow me wholeheartedly. Men are strange guys." Funatsu smiled wryly. "I failed in the end, though. I don't know anything about women." "Needless to say, enough is enough." "All in all, I'm too impatient..." Dongzi nodded, thinking too much about boring things, not only Funatsu, but also Dongzi. "I'm still a yellow-mouthed child, not a real man." "However, men prefer to pursue young women who don't know anything." "Of course there are people like that. But if this goes on like this, you'll never get a wonderful woman like you. I like an older, sentimental woman like you." Funatsu chattered endlessly, shaking his body from side to side, and Toko hurriedly put his hand on his arm. "Take a rest for a while!" "No, I have to take this opportunity to make it clear, I love you, I like you. It is because I like you and love you that it ends in failure." Funatsu was also heartbroken for what happened last night.If he hadn't been drunk, he might not have been able to say this. "It's ridiculous to brag about yourself, I'm an upright man, I love you, you know that?" "I am very happy." "You are lying to me!" "not true." "Then, go to America with me tomorrow!" "This……" "Indecision is your weakness." Funatsu took a breath. "If you just think about it and don't do it, you will accomplish nothing. Abandon everything, even if you fall into hell naked, you are willing. In this way, you will become more attractive than you are now." "I don't want to rely too much on you, if one day you abandon me..." "I'm a man, I don't do that kind of thing, I keep my word." The taxi crosses Koshu Street and turns left, approaching Shimokitazawa. "Where are you going?" the driver asked. Funatsu opened his drunken eyes, looked out the window, and said, "Turn left at this corner." The car passed the fork and entered the narrow path from the wide road.Stop in front of a bush. "Here we are, get out of the car!" Funatsu looked outside, then turned back to Dongzi and said. "Please sit inside for a while." "No, you'd better rest tonight..." "Then, you walk me to the door." Funatsu paid the fare. "Leaving tomorrow, let's rest early today." Dongzi said. "I know, please sit in the house for a while." Funatsu staggered to the third floor, took out the key from his pocket, and opened the door. It was the first time for Dongzi to come to a man's room. There was a simple table and sofa near the door, a bed inside, and two large suitcases beside the bed. It could be seen that Funatsu was ready for departure. "Have a cup of tea!" Funatsu said to Dongzi while taking off her shoes. "I'm taking my leave now." "I'll make you coffee." Funatsu went into the kitchen to make coffee.He was drunk and turned on the gas valve, which is really worrying. Dongzi had no choice but to return to the house. "You stay here for one night, and we will say goodbye tomorrow." "What will happen to this house after you leave?" "From next week, my sister will come here." "You have a younger sister?" "Although she's not as pretty as you..." Funatsu fell silent after saying this. Fuyuko looked at Funatsu, who sat down gently on the chair. "What's wrong?" Funatsu held onto the bed with both hands, almost falling down. "Are you feeling bad?" "A little..." Dongzi looked around, found a few newspapers, and put them near Funatsu's mouth. "Just spit it out." "Do not worry about it." Funatsu gasped and lay down on the newspaper. "Wait a moment……" Dongzi put her handkerchief on the newspaper and brought the washbasin from the kitchen. Funatsu felt very sick. "Just spit it out." "No..." Funatsu shook his head, tears in his eyes. Fuyuko rubbed Funatsu's back from behind. Funatsu finally spat it out.Dongzi poured some water into the cup and handed it to Funatsu. He rinsed his mouth and sat on the sofa. "It's okay!" Under the fluorescent light, Funatsu's face was a little pale. "Better rest now." "No……" Dongzi pulled Funatsu to the side of the bed and ordered: "Take off your clothes quickly, lie down and rest." Perhaps Funatsu was too tired, so he lay obediently on the bed, short of breath.Fuyuko hung the suit and tie that Funatsu had taken off on the hanger. "I'm sorry, please forgive me." Funatsu closed his eyes and whispered. Fuyuko covered Funatsu with a towel, and the light from the kitchen shone on the bed. "Turn off the light?" Dongzi asked. Funatsu shook his head lightly. "Tonight, please stay here." "..." "You are sleeping on the bed, I..." Funatsu tried to sit up. "Lie down and don't move." "but……" "It doesn't matter." Fuyuko forced Funatsu to lie down.Funatsu felt uncomfortable.Still short of breath. "Let's cool down." Fuyuko got a wet towel and put it on Funatsu's forehead.Then, the dirt wrapped in newspaper was poured into the toilet.Funatsu seemed to be asleep, breathing evenly in his sleep, but his facial expression was still painful.The towel on her forehead fell, and Dongzi picked it up and put it on her forehead again.In his sleep, Funatsu muttered something in a low voice, but couldn't hear clearly. Why do you drink so much?Dongzi thought. Funatsu said that if he was not drunk, he would not have the courage to meet her, but perhaps it was due to the self-esteem of the youth. Except for Funatsu's breathing, no sound could be heard.The apartment is located in the center of Mansion Street, and the surroundings are completely quiet. Dongzi raised her arm and looked at her watch. It was past 2:30.Funatsu will depart at 4:00 p.m. tomorrow, so even if he wakes up late, there is still time.Call him again tomorrow.Dongzi stood up. In an instant, Funatsu seemed to notice something, and opened his mouth to say something, but finally fell asleep again without saying anything. "Goodbye." Toko whispered in Funatsu's ear. "Please take care..." Although Dongzi and Funatsu had no further physical contact, in a sense, they felt intimate... Funatsu understands Dongzi, who is suffering from the operation, and understands Dongzi's feelings.When she was with him, Dongzi sometimes felt depressed, but more often she felt lighthearted and happy. Now that we are parting, after a few years, we will definitely meet again.At that time, although we don't know how the relationship between each other will change, it is still too late to seriously consider the future of the two of them.The union of men and women is not limited by time. "Goodbye." Dongzi whispered again. It was cloudy outside, and the night wind was blowing.Although it was past 3 o'clock in the morning, there was no pedestrian on the residential street, only street lamps lined up, and under the lights, the leaves protruding from the stone wall rustled.Dongzi hurriedly walked towards the main street, crossed the path, and walked another 300 meters to the broad main street. Occasionally, there was the sound of cars in the distance, and the only sound I could hear was my own footsteps.The temperature is not high.But the humidity is high, giving people a damp feeling. Dongzi walked quickly, sweating on his body.Dongzi walked and thought.Whether Funatsu has been asleep or not, although the door is closed, but not locked, it may be dangerous, but it doesn't matter to the man, he must have slept soundly, and the thief entered the house, I don't know. Dongzi suddenly felt mature. After crossing a small road and walking forward for a while, you can hail a taxi. Dongzi thought that it would be about 3:30 to return to the apartment. After returning, he would take a shower and go to bed immediately. The sound of a car came from behind, Dongzi thought maybe it was someone who came home late at night, Dongzi turned his head, and in an instant, the strong car lights shot at Dongzi, and he couldn't keep his eyes open.Dongzi hid on the side of the road to give way to the car.She noticed that there was no word "rental" on the roof of the carport, as if it was not a taxi. The car drove over and stopped beside Dongzi, who was surprised.A man's face peeked out from the driver's window. "Hey, get in the car." The street lights were very dim, so I couldn't see clearly. The man seemed to be wearing a white shirt and looked very young. There was a man wearing sunglasses sitting next to him. "Come on, buddy will take you home." One of the men said with a smile. "No need." Dongzi shook his head. "Don't be afraid, we're just going for a drive around the neighborhood. We'll return to Shinjuku later." The man's voice sounded soft. Dongzi left without answering. It's so late at night, it's very dangerous to meet a man at this time, walk another 100 meters, and you will reach the street.Dongzi quickened his pace.The car caught up from behind again and stopped. "Miss, you lost something." "what……" Dongzi stopped and turned around.Suddenly the car door opened and the two jumped out of the car. "Hey." "..." In an instant, two men approached Dongzi from the front and back. The guy wearing sunglasses came to Dongzi with a smile on his face, and the guy in a white shirt stood behind him. "What do you want to do?" Dongzi wanted to run away, but couldn't move. "Just wanted to play with you." "Let go of me." Dongzi shouted. At this time, the two men sandwiched Dongzi between them. It seemed that they were used to doing this kind of thing, and they were quick and skilled.Block Dongzi's mouth, take out the knife, and put it on Dongzi's neck. "If you dare to shout, I will kill you." The man whispered, tearing off Dongzi's coat with his other hand. "You're very obedient, that's fine." Seeing the shiny knife, Dongzi lost the courage to resist.Cover your chest with your hands and be pushed into the car by them. The guy wearing sunglasses is holding a knife in the mountains, sitting next to Dongzi, he looks about twenty-five or six years old.The guy driving the car, in a white shirt, with long hair. "Okay, let's drive." The car moved. Dongzi didn't know where they were taking him.They didn't allow Dongzi to look out.Twenty or thirty minutes later, the car stopped. "Close your eyes," ordered the guy in the sunglasses.Dongzi closed her eyes obediently.The guy in the white shirt quickly covered Fuyuko's eyes with a cloth from behind.Dongzi got out of the car, led by them, got on the elevator, walked through the corridor, and heard the sound of the door opening. "Go in." After entering the house, Dongzi's blindfold was removed. This seems to be a room in an apartment, with a dining room the size of ten tatami mats at the entrance and a bedroom inside.There are no daily utensils in the center of the bedroom except for the futon.It's like a room where one person lives. "What we want to do now, you probably understand?" The guy in the sunglasses, smiling, stroking Fuyuko's jaw. "If you resist, I will kill you." The man put the knife on Dongzi's neck, and Dongzi closed her eyes. "Then take off your clothes." "..." "hurry up." Dongzi was at a loss, and the guy wearing sunglasses saw Dongzi standing still, so he slapped Dongzi on the mouth. "Are you deaf?" Dongzi felt that disaster was inevitable.If you obey them, you may be able to return safely, otherwise, accidents will really happen. Dongzi lay on the big futon, distraught.The guy in the sunglasses patted Dongzi on the shoulder and said, "You've done well, you can go back." Dongzi slowly raised his head and sat up, and they threw Dongzi's clothes over. "Although you are skinny, you look good." Dongzi didn't answer, came to the corner and wiped his lower body.Dongzi felt a sore waist and leg pain, and a burning pain in her lower body.Dongzi put on her clothes, but the torn outer cover couldn't cover her chest no matter what. "Come on, I'll take you back," said the guy in the white shirt.They are very watchful of time, perhaps afraid of being seen leaving their apartment in the morning. After Dongzi finished dressing, the man wearing sunglasses covered Dongzi's eyes again.Said to Dongzi: "You also know that reporting to the police will not help, and it will not be good for you." "..." "You send her back," the guy in the sunglasses ordered. Dongzi was wearing a blindfold, and a man in a white shirt helped her into the elevator, where the car was already parked. The engine started and the car started. The man in the white shirt seemed relieved and took off Dongzi's blindfold.Dongzi took a careful look at him, and it looked like he was only about 20 years old, with good facial features, and seemed to have the innocence of a teenager. "Is it okay?" the man asked while staring ahead. Dongzi was silent, he pointed to Dongzi's handbag and said, "I left some change for you." It was broad daylight.A milky morning mist filled the streets. Dongzi thought, what did that guy with sunglasses do?Apparently, he is a brother-like figure, and this person may be his entourage.Dongzi thought that this man seemed to stop as soon as his body came into contact with her.Somewhat inexplicable. "Don't you want to see me again in the future?" the man asked. Dongzi remained silent.Looking at the faintly shining sky in the east.Dongzi didn't know where this place was. The streets were wide, and the footbridge was looming in the morning mist.When the car was driving around the circular No. 7 road, Dongzi suddenly realized. The car drove across the footbridge, and the young man asked, "Can you tell me your phone number?" Dongzi was silent. The young man said again: "If you don't tell me, I won't let you go back." It seemed that he was threatening Dongzi. Dongzi hesitated, changed the phone number of the hat shop a little, and told him. "Excuse me, Fang's name." "Zhongshan." Dongzi replied. "Really?" The young man stopped the car, took out a ballpoint pen, and wrote it down. "I'm not a hooligan, but a dutiful student." Dongzi looked at him calmly, and from his childish face, it could be seen that he was indeed a child of a dutiful family. "As long as the two of us are together, I will not do anything to apologize to you. I will wait for you there at 7 o'clock tonight." The young man stared at Dongzi. "It's just me this time." "..." Dongzi will never forget the humiliation he received just now. "Okay?" the young man asked again. Dongzi nodded slightly.But it's not a promise, just want to leave him early. "Then, I'll take you home." "No, I'll get off here." The young man patrolled around, and the car drove another two to three hundred meters and stopped. He pointed to the path on the left and said, "After getting off the bus, go straight to the left. After walking for two or three minutes, you can call a taxi." The young man blocked Dongzi's sight, as if afraid that Dongzi would write down the car number. Dongzi nodded slightly and got out of the car. Dongzi walked straight along the path, and the surrounding area was still surrounded by morning fog, and there was silence. "7 o'clock tonight, remember?" From behind came a man's shout and the sound of a bridge car rushing away.Dongzi stood there and saw that the car had disappeared without a trace, so she changed direction and walked towards the broad street. The sun is rising slowly from the east, and the milky white morning mist is gradually dissipating.Two large cars drove over from the opposite side and passed by. Dongzi stood on the street, waiting for a taxi.The left hand is holding the bag, and the right hand is placed on the chest, covering the opening of the outer cover.People who don't know the inside story will definitely think that they did this because of the cold weather. After a while, an empty car drove over, Dongzi waved, and the car stopped beside him. "Go to Sangong Bridge," he said and leaned back in his chair. In the early morning, a woman was waiting for a bus on the street, which was unbelievable. "Is there something urgent?" the driver asked. "Ok……" Dongzi was vague, didn't want to talk, and didn't have the energy to think about the problem.I just want to go back and rest early. Taxis sped along the broad streets in the morning. After 1O minutes, park in front of the apartment. Dongzi opened the handbag and saw that the three 10,000-yen banknotes when she went out were missing. They must have taken them away. There was only one 500-yen banknote and four 100-yen coins left inside. .The fare was 730 yen, and Fuyuko paid the fare and got off the bus. The morning fog has completely dissipated, and the street lights on the street have been turned off.Milk delivery bikes parked in front of the apartment, early risers, exercising. The people in the apartment are still asleep. Dongzi left the apartment at around 11 o'clock last night, but it seemed like she had been away for a long time, and finally came back.Fuyuko walked through the main hall of the apartment and took the elevator. Everything in the room was as it had been, except for the brandy which had been left on the table when I went out.On the sofa lay the long coat that had been taken off.Dongzi took a breath and lay down on the sofa, feeling wronged, sad, and tired, and really wanted to just sleep like this. After a while, Dongzi stood up, took off her clothes, went into the bathroom, and soaked her whole body in the bathtub. An hour later, Dongzi came out of the bathroom.The postman came to deliver the newspaper, but Dongzi ignored it, and lay on the bed in new casual clothes.The curtains are still hung, and the morning sun shines through the gaps.People are up and getting ready for work. It couldn't be better to fall asleep like this.Maybe how many days later, someone will find the body, Dongzi thought wildly, and closed his eyes. When Dongzi woke up, he looked at the watch next to his pillow. It was just after 8 o'clock, and it was 6 o'clock when he went to bed, and he had only slept for less than two hours. In sleep, Dongzi always dreams of being chased by various people, including wild beasts and strong winds.Dongzi wanted to escape, but his feet fell into the swamp, unable to escape, and was finally buried in the reeds. When Dongzi woke up, her hair was heavy and her body was exhausted.It was already dawn, and the voice of a young mother calling for her child came from outside, and occasionally the sound of parking downstairs was heard. Fuyuko lay on the bed, looking at the ceiling, remembering that today was the day Funatsu left for America. Toko thought, how is Funatsu doing now?Whether you haven't woken up yet, still in your sleep.Dongzi left Funatsu's room at 3 in the morning, and then met the two men.Whether they were in ambush there, or it was a coincidence, from their conversation, it can be seen that they passed by there by chance, and they happened to be bumped into by Dongzi. Had it been a few minutes earlier or delayed, they would not have been met.If after sending Funatsu to the apartment, he returned immediately, there would be no accidents, Toko thought. Toko initially wanted to send Funatsu to the apartment, so she came back.Funatsu begged repeatedly before he could enter the house.Normally, Fuyuko would never enter the house, but that night, Funatsu was drunk and would go to America tomorrow.If he is not drunk, Dongzi will return immediately, and Funatsu will definitely see her off. Thinking about it carefully, last night, I met Funatsu, drank late, and sent Funatsu back to the apartment. All of this was accidental, so that kind of thing happened.Caught in a man's trap. Men are rough, especially the guy wearing sunglasses, who treats Dongzi like an animal, venting his animal desires, seems to be very interested in desecrating women, and produces pleasure.Suddenly, Toko felt that the man seemed to be the incarnation of Funatsu. Funatsu had this desire, but could not get it.Last night, he was very drunk, so of course he wouldn't think about such a thing, but Funatsu thought that he often had the urge to possess Fuyuko, which can be seen from Funatsu's conversation.It's just that Dongzi has cleverly avoided it many times.Last night, Dongzi was raped by a man, maybe it was a punishment for her! Dongzi thought of the man wearing sunglasses, couldn't see his face clearly, only remembered a mole on his right cheek.When it was the turn of the youth in the white shirt, he was over in a short time. Dongzi was lying on the bed, her head was still groggy, she had better sleep for a while.She seemed to be asleep, listening to the noise outside, and fell asleep again after a while. This time, I dreamed that men were chasing after me. Among them was Funatsu, who also looked stronger and taller than usual. He greeted Dongzi, but because of the noisy voice, he couldn't hear what he was saying. When Dongzi woke up again, the sunlight coming in from the gap in the curtains illuminated the room very brightly.Looking at the watch beside the pillow, it was already 11 o'clock. In my sleep, time passed quickly. Toko looked at the sunlight shining in, and thought of Funatsu again.Departure at 4 o'clock in the afternoon, maybe the preparations have been completed by now, and we are at the airport. Dongzi thought about what happened in the store again. Tomomi and Maki must be receiving customers, perhaps waiting for Dongzi.Although there is nothing important to do today, there are two customers who came to pick up the custom-made hats. Of course Maki knows about this, if he forgets, it will be troublesome. Dongzi was still lying on the bed, and when her mind cleared up, she picked up the receiver and called the store. "Ma'am, where are you?" Maki asked inarticulately.In an instant, Dongzi felt that he heard the most intimate voice. "I'm in the apartment and don't feel like going to work today." "Are you feeling unwell?" "It's nothing, just a little dizzy." "Is it a cold? Fever and cold are prevalent now." "In the afternoon, Satomi and Kawasaki came to pick up the hat, you hand it to them." "Okay, shall we visit you tonight?" "No, I must go to work tomorrow, if you need anything, please call." Dongzi put down the receiver, and suddenly remembered that Maki had also been abused by others.At that time, Maki was still a virgin, and she seemed to be invited by a man to drink together, and was raped after drinking.That time, the blow to Maki was too great.Maki said that she doesn't believe in men, men are not good things.The mental and physical trauma made her feel prejudiced and disgusted with all men. Dongzi suddenly had an urge to see Maki.Both she and Maki are unfortunate women who have swallowed the same bitter fruit. Dongzi bent forward and lay on the bed, her lower body was still aching. Dongzi lay on the bed again, thinking about the problem.Should we endure it?Or go to the hospital to have a look?This morning, in the shower, I felt cramps in my lower abdomen, although I didn't bleed. Should it be reported to the police station?Toko stared at the ceiling. 男青年在分手时曾说过，即使报告警察，也得不到什么好处，反而让别人知道这件事。 冬子认为，这只不过是他的威胁罢了，实际上，他们也惧怕警察，虽然是流氓、恶棍，但也没有什么了不起的。不过，报告警察，确实也起不到什么作用，就是将犯人抓住，但受污辱的事实不能改变，身心受到的创伤不能愈合。而且，若去警察署，还要询问当时的情况，甚至包括受污辱的细节，可能的话，还要接受医生的检查。 冬子感到浑身关节疼痛，尤其下半身感觉明湿，但并不要紧，估计两、三天使可恢复过来。 不知什么原因，冬子总觉得身体不舒服，情绪不佳，也许昨晚受到的打击太重了。今天，哪也不想去，躺在床上，似睡非睡。 冬子醒来时，已经是下午3点了。 从窗帘的空隙中照进来的阳光，已经移到床下，太阳开始向西偏移。 3点过后，船津马上就要出发了。Dongzi thought.她起床，仍感到四肢无力，腰、肩部隐隐作痛，来到厨房，拧开煤气阀，虽然没有食欲，但想喝一杯浓咖啡。冬子站在那里，等着水烧开，突然电话铃声响了。 是谁来的电话呢？ 冬子来到电话机旁，拿起听筒，里边传来嘈杂的嗽叭声和船津的声音。 “我在成田机场，你今天果然没来为送行。” “啊……”冬子喘了口气，坐在电话机旁的椅子上。 “昨晚给你添麻烦了，实在对不起，你什么时候走的，我一点也不知道。” "..." “我马上就要离开日本，最后想听听你的声音，今天你没上班？” "Ok." “很长时间不能见面了，中途我也许回日本，请多保重。” “你也多保重。” “你怎么了，听你声音，好象身体不舒服。” "nothing……" “你不想对我说点什么吗？” “请保重……” “冬子，我爱你，虽然去美国，但我仍忘不了你。”船津的声音和预告起飞时间的喇叭声重叠在一起。 “我爱你，冬子。” "thanks." “那么，我走了，再见。” “多多保重。” “你也多保重。” 冬子手里拿着受话器，呆呆地坐地那里。 冬子听到水开的声音，才站起来。过了一会，端着咖啡杯，坐在沙发上。 他已经走了…… 此时，冬子的心情很复杂，既感到孤独、寂寞，同时又伴随着某种轻松感。船津并不知道昨晚发生的事实，当然也不知道，冬子在被污辱的瞬间，眼前浮现出他的音容笑貌。冬子想，若将昨晚的事告诉船津，他会怎么想呢？是惊讶、悲伤、还是复仇呢？即使他说三道四，也无可奈何。 冬子想起，最初时，感到害怕！但过了一会也就无暇顾及这些了，反而越来越冷静。 这到底是怎么圆事…… 在陌生的地方，为陌生的男人所蹂躏，确实是一种虐待，冬子在绝望中，只有任其摆布了。 冬子慢慢地喝着咖啡，浓郁飘香的咖啡使冬子的大脑逐渐清楚过来。假如冬子内心接受男人的暴行，这又是什么驱使的呢？ 冬子决不会原谅他们，若今后再碰见他们，也许会立即报告警察署的，尤其不能容忍戴墨镜的家伙。 现在，确切地说，冬子憎恨男人，希望将卑鄙无耻的男人全部处以极刑。身体得到的感觉和压在身上的男人并不能相提并论。 冬子来到门外，取走当日的报纸，坐在沙发上，粗略地看当日的新闻，报纸与往日并无多大区别，只记载着受贿和重大交通事故。 社会版面上写着“年轻女子暴力”的标题，当然不是指冬子，出事地点在千叶县。 冬子略一过目，放下报纸，已经3点半了。公寓左侧茂密的树丛中传来蝉声。阳光很足，气温也上升了许多，看这个样子梅雨期马上结束，凉爽的夏季即将过去。 冬子点着一支烟。疲倦的身体需要得到咖啡和尼古丁的刺激。冬子吐着烟圈。身体的疲劳有所减轻，产生了一种轻松感，只是有些微颤抖。 冬子站起身来，控制住自己，看看手表，快到4点了，飞机就要起飞了，冬子有一种失落感。 冬子想，船津现在一定坐机舱里，是否在想我。她希望。船津真心想着自己。 冬子进了浴室，想用水冲刷掉一切，包括船津的事和身体残留的污垢、气味。但心灵上的污点是不能轻易洗掉的。 冬子这是今天第二次洗淋浴，此时，她的情绪稍稍稳定下来。 冬子从浴室出来，穿上件样式时髦、质地精美、做工讲究的连衣裙。将咖啡杯放进厨房的碗柜里，拉开窗帘，打开窗户，开始收拾房间。挪动家俱，彻底清扫，电动吸尘器的声音、轻轻哼唱的声音，使她忘却了昨晚的烦恼。打扫完房间，冬子心情豁然开朗，又煮了一杯咖啡。 从早晨到现在，冬子什么也没吃，一点食欲也没有。节假日，冬子总是以巧克力和饼干充饥。她边喝咖啡，边心不在焉地看了一个小时电视。 太阳开始西斜，房间逐渐变暗。冬子又想起昨晚的事。快6时了，她打开房间的灯，想起穿白衬衫的青年说过的话。“7点我在下北泽大街等你，请你一定来……我并不是流氓，而是一个本分的学生。”男青年近乎哀求，这与初次见到的他判若两人。最初他们用低级下流的语言挑逗冬子，动作极其粗暴、野蛮，但最后为什么乞求冬子呢？冬子迷惑不解。 冬子对男青年的做法感到费解，听他的口气不是在开玩笑，也不象在耍冬子，更不象威胁，而好象和喜欢的人商量事情。 这人真怪…… 冬子一离开公寓，便不感到这个男人可怕了，似乎和朋友同乘一辆车，并求他送自己回公寓。但当他问自己电话号码时，冬子还是骗了他，同时又拒绝了送自己回家的要求。 当男青年要求下次见时，冬子从容不迫，并不感到可怕，然而冬子并没有完全解除对他的防备。这种人什么事都干得出来。看其外表，他是一个朴实的青年，也许是一时糊涂，做了错事，但本质并不坏。比如，他们并没有将手提包里的钱全部拿走，而是给冬子留了一些。这也许是他们为掩盖罪行，故意装出来的，或许是一种奉承。 当然，冬子是不能原谅他们的。尽管他们从本质上来看并不是坏人，但用暴力奸污，心灵上的创伤是不能愈合的。 他们的行为本身，就无视自己的感情，只是单纯地为了满足自己的需要，而任意糟踏别人。他们就象吞食尸体的秃鹰一样，用冬子的身体，来满足他们的饥渴。 冬子想到这里，情绪又有些好转。冬子又喝了一杯咖啡，这是第三杯。 晚7时，冬子边喝咖啡，边想象男青年在大街一角焦急等待的情形。他穿什么衣服呢？是白衬衫，还是穿西服，系上领带呢？冬子想到这里，连自己都觉得可笑。 如果现在报告警察，也许能将他抓住。他是个很机灵的人，也许开车而来，看到警察的身影，他会迅速逃跑的。 不过，冬子现在并不想报告警察，只想把他们忘得一干二净。 冬子想，男青年也知道自己处境的危险，为什么这么做呢？冬子又喝了口咖啡，情绪稳定下来，一想起男青年在大街上等待的样子，冬子反而产生了复仇心理。 已经7点半了，男青年也许已经返回。今晚见不到他，也许永远见不到了。冬子感到男青年很可怜。 他真令人捉磨不透。 冬子终于有食欲了，但冰箱里只有火腿、莴苣、鸡蛋和卷心菜，只能做色拉。 冬子不想出去，看到窗外漆黑的夜，感到这一天终于要过去了。