Chapter 7 Chapter Seven: Spring

It's cherry blossom viewing season in Tokyo, but the weather is still cool. After mid-April, the climate gradually warmed up. The zelkova trees on both sides of Harajuku's Omotesan Street are covered with rich green clothes. The spring is beautiful and the climate is pleasant. There are groups of young men and women on the road, and there is an endless stream. The four seasons in Harajuku have different tastes.In midsummer, when the sun is scorching, you can rest under the zelkova trees; in late autumn, the leaves are everywhere, giving people a feeling of desolation; Dongzi likes this green spring the most.

The fashion shops on both sides of the street are full of fashionable clothes, and the clean glass windows are shining in the sunlight. These fashions are of average texture and exquisite workmanship, but the price is not expensive, so they are favored by young people.From T-shirts to denim fashion, express youthful ingenuity.Everyone's face shows the reserve and self-confidence of leading the new trend of clothing. The vigor of young people is integrated with the green of the street, full of vitality.Strolling along this bustling street, the first thing that catches your eye is the pedestrian bridge in front of Harajuku Station.Standing on the bridge, looking into the distance, you can have a panoramic view of Biaosan Street.

The road winds under the bridge and leads to Meiji Road.On one side of the intersection, there is a low-lying area.After passing the low-lying area, the slope gradually increases, leading to Qingshan. Every time Dongzi passes the pedestrian bridge, she likes to stay in the middle of the bridge for a while.On the road from Aoyama to Yamate, vehicles shuttle endlessly.For some unknown reason, I always felt that the bridge was shaking slightly. Every time Dongzi looked down the bridge, he felt a little dizzy.Over time, he developed the habit of looking into the distance. If the east side of Omotesando is regarded as the moving part, then the two sides are relatively quiet parts.Standing on the bridge, looking to the right, you can see the forest of Yoyogi and the shrine of the Meiji Shrine; looking to the left, you can see the roof of the modern streamlined indoor playground, the gymnasium and the football field.

Dongzi likes to watch the sunset from the pedestrian bridge.Often in the evening, I board the footbridge alone.The setting sun turned into a big red fireball, and the afterglow of the setting sun filled the forest of Yoyogi, and disappeared near the indoor playground in a short time. It is rare to see such a bright red sunset in a metropolis. Today, Dongzi unconsciously had the idea of ​​watching the sunset, so she left the hat shop.From the store to the pedestrian bridge, it takes about two or three minutes to walk. It's past 5 pm, which is close to the peak time for getting off work in the evening.Dongzi boarded the footbridge, stopped in the middle of the bridge, held on to the railing, and looked to the west.

It was mid-April, and the sunshine time was gradually getting longer. The lower part of the sunset was covered by the tall buildings of the gymnasium, and the sky was full of red clouds in the west.The great red sunsets of winter are now enveloped and blurred by the warmth of spring. Standing in the middle of the bridge, Toko saw the afterglow of the setting sun dyeing the Yoyogi forest bright red, and the sun had disappeared without a trace.At this time, Dongzi reluctantly walked down the footbridge, put his hands in the pockets of his skirt, and strolled on the street. From time to time, she glanced at the clothes displayed in the window, looking at ease.At this time, Dongzi looked like a girl of seventeen or eighteen years old, innocent and lovely.

The clothes displayed in the windows of fashion shops are changed only once a week at the fastest, but there are row upon row of fashion shops, and the clothes in the windows are indeed dazzling. Occasionally, you can see clothes sold in Paris high-end fashion shops and fashionable clothes published in magazines. As Dongzi walked, various clothing styles came to mind.Strolling in the bustling streets, you can forget the tiredness and troubles of working in the past, and at the same time, you can recharge your batteries for better work. Around 7:00 pm, Fuyuko returned to the hat shop, and Maki in the shop told her that Funatsu-kun had called.

"He said he'd call back later." "thanks." "He's so ridiculous, he mistook me for the boss's wife." "what?" Dongzi asked. "The phone rang, and I went to answer it right away. He said that he had something to discuss. I asked, 'What's the matter?' He heard the voice was wrong, so he knew that I was not Ms. Kinouchi." Fuyuko and Funatsu haven't seen each other since they parted ways in Kyushu.Since then, Funatsu has been running around investigating the operation, but what is the progress now?Dongzi was worried, but never contacted him.

"I guess, maybe you are begging me to buy a hat?" Dongzi walked into the studio after finishing speaking. In the studio, Tomomi is making sash, and Tomomi's ingenuity is just right for this job. "Thank you." Dongzi said.She wanted to help today, but was very tired physically.So I sat there, flipping through a fashion magazine.Suddenly, the phone rang. Dongzi ran out to answer the phone, and it was indeed the call from Funatsu. Funatsu learned the lesson from last time, and after confirming that the other party was really Dongzi, he said, "Because of the operation, can we meet some time today?"

It's been a long time since I heard Funatsu's voice, so it sounds very friendly, but Fuyuko doesn't want to see him right away.Every early spring, when the trees germinated, Dongzi felt unwell. It was not a disease, but he felt lazy and listless.After the severe winter, as soon as it enters the warm spring, the body changes immediately. Dongzi thinks it is because she is too thin!In fact, this is not the case. Women may feel more or less uncomfortable in spring.Since going to work in the morning, Youmei has been unable to cheer up and is unwilling to do work.As a woman, Dongzi couldn't understand such things very well.At the same time, Tomomi and Maki can also understand Fuyuko.In a month, Dongzi only feels happy and energetic for about 10 days, and for the rest of the time, she is mostly listless and distracted.

"I have time today, either 8 o'clock or 9 o'clock." Men probably don't know the physiological changes in women. In their view, there is no big difference between men and women. "I have something to tell you." In any case, it was hard to refuse Funatsu's request.He was investigating the situation of the operation.It's been a long time. "Then, is 8:30 okay?" Dongyu asked. "Shall I pick you up? Or are you waiting for me at the fourth station in Shinjuku where we met last time?" Funatsu asked Dongzi. "I'm sorry, but could you come to the 'Mimosa House' near the hat shop?"

"Is it the restaurant on the side? Okay, I'll wait for you there at 8:30." After Funatsu finished speaking, he hung up the phone. Dongzi put down the receiver and let out a sigh of relief.I thought to myself, how nice it would be if my body was comfortable!Seeing Funatsu in this state might make him unhappy. Dongzi didn't know what to talk about after seeing Funatsu.To be honest, of course I was happy to see Funatsu, but at the same time it was also accompanied by a certain sense of melancholy.The good news is that he has a good impression of himself, and after rejecting Funatsu's courtship last time, he didn't make trouble for himself.Dongzi thought that Funatsu must be in great pain, and she stifled her own emotions. This may be extremely cruel to men, especially young people.In a sense, Dongzi is a kind-hearted woman. Funatsu is a man who obeys orders, and in this regard, Fuyuko's self-esteem is satisfied, but the thought that Funatsu knows everything about herself, including physical defects, makes Fuyuko restless.Talking about surgery with Funatsu always made me feel embarrassed. The hat shop is open until 8 pm, and Maki and Tomomi have gone home.Dongzi fixed the window panels of the hat shop, came to the studio, stood in front of the mirror, and began to dress up. Women are strange things.As long as one hairstyle is not satisfactory, the whole day will be unhappy.Today I don't know why, I can't lift my spirits. Restaurants near Harajuku usually close very early, and only "Hanchasokan" stays open until 10 o'clock in the evening.When Fuyuko came to the restaurant, Funatsu was already waiting on the seat next to the red brick wall inside.After not seeing him for a few days, Toko felt that Funatsu's shoulders had broadened, making her look even taller. "Long time no see, are you all right!" Funatsu greeted solemnly. "The last time we met was in February, right?" "Yes, it's not long since I returned from Kyushu." "I heard that a hat exhibition was held not long ago?" "At that time, Mr. Director also came to watch, but it was a pity that I couldn't see you." "At that time, it was kind of..." "Busy with work?" "No." Funatsu shook his head and asked suddenly. "Ask you something, can I?" "What's up?" "Not long ago, when you went to Kyushu, you went with the director, right?" "..." "If I'm wrong, please forgive me." "You are mistaken. How did you ask that question?" "Okay, let's call it a day!" For some unknown reason, Funatsu did not begin to doubt the relationship between Toko and Takashi until now.Toko suppressed the impulse in her heart, didn't question Funatsu, but just drank coffee alone. Funatsu also remained silent, took out a cigarette from his pocket, and lit it. "About the last operation, I managed to find the medical records of that hospital. I looked it up. It was my friend's classmate who was in the upper grade in college who diagnosed you first." Funatsu seemed to be observing Dongzi's emotional changes. After a while He added, "From the initial diagnosis, only the removal of the fibroids is enough." "But that's just a young doctor's diagnosis." "Yes, but he still insisted that there was no need to remove the uterus. I am very angry about this and the doctor should be held accountable." "Then what to do..." "I'm going to ask the director, why the uterus was removed? Your medical records clearly only include fibroids. To remove the uterus, you must state the reasons in detail. Most of the medical records in private hospitals are insufficient, and only doctors can understand the medical records. Doctor Caution should be exercised and surgery should not be dismissed as child's play." "..." "In short, I must go to see the dean and ask him to give a convincing reason why the uterus was removed together?!" "But……" "It's okay to be accompanied by a professional doctor." Toko slowly stirred the coffee.Now that things have been lost, things that have been lost will not return, and if they just swallow their breath like this, there may still be victims.What should I do?Dongzi hesitated. "If you agree, I will go directly to the dean." "you?" "I'm not a patient, but people may find it strange to ask about this kind of thing. But if I say that I am an acquaintance or relative of Ms. Kinochi, I think the director can see me. Otherwise, I will sue the doctor's association." "Doctor Association?" "There is a medical malpractice committee in the medical association. It is said that the committee understands patients' difficulties and investigates the truth of the matter. Doctors are sued for medical negligence, and if they lose the case, they will pay a certain amount of compensation." It was the first time Dongzi heard about the Medical Malpractice Committee. "Once the committee determines that it is indeed a medical malpractice, the physician must pay compensation." "Is it up to the doctor to decide?" "Yes, the members of the committee are composed of scholars and doctors from universities and public hospitals. They are more impartial and conscientious. They proceed from a neutral point of view and make decisions. If every medical dispute is appealed to the court, then both parties Couldn't stand it, so a medical malpractice committee was formed." "You understand it in great detail." "I also heard from the doctor that most of the disputes are now appealed to the committee." Funatsu talked eloquently, with joy in his eyes. "Absolutely should be prosecuted." "But is it really all right to appeal?" "Don't worry, whether it's a doctor or anyone else, negligence is negligence after all. Although it is an appeal, the matter is not made public and strictly confidential, and the decision is made within the committee." Dongzi fell into deep thought, and Funatsu emphasized his tone again. "It doesn't have to be removed. This kind of operation has indeed been increasing recently. If you sue the committee, it may serve as a warning." Unwilling to remain silent, Funatsu insisted on appealing.For Dongzi, it doesn't matter whether she wins or loses by suing the Medical Malpractice Committee. "So, try to buy time, go through the formalities within this week, and write whose name?" "But, I'm busy every day." "I will draft the indictment, you just need to stamp your seal on it." "..." "Then the committee may issue you a subpoena." "Not recently?" "Of course, summoning you is a matter of future." Dongzi took another sip of coffee.With too much time, the coffee cools and the bitterness increases. "Why are you so devoted to my affairs?" "how to say?" "This matter has nothing to do with you." "This is a big problem for Ms. Kinuchi, and I lost my trust in the doctor very early on." "..." "My mother, died of a cardiac catheterization." "Your father has passed away?" "When I was in high school, my mother was sick and hospitalized. During the operation, a thin catheter was inserted from the vein to the heart. She died halfway through the operation, although there was nothing serious about it." "Still sick." "Of course, the mother's heart is not good, but it didn't reach the level of death. I think the responsibility is 100% on the doctor, but the doctor emphasized that the mother's physical abnormality is not a medical accident. I still clearly remember the scene of my father and sister crying bitterly. .Therefore, I absolutely cannot remain silent about such matters!" In Dongzi's eyes, Funatsu seemed to have matured. "So, I wanted to be a doctor and thoroughly investigate the cause of my mother's death." "..." "But later..." "Right now, I still don't trust the doctor. It's ridiculous to say that this investigation into the responsibility of the operation, I feel it is revenge for my mother." Funatsu's mood is completely understandable. If she wants to pursue it, Dongzi has no objection, but she doesn't want to Tangled with this question.No matter what the result is, the uterus is impossible to return, and I can't help but feel miserable when I think about it. "It's been a long time since we saw each other. What have you done?" Dongzi changed the subject. "There's nothing to do but work." "Do you have trysts with pretty girls every day?" "do you miss me?" "Of course I do." "Do you know why I didn't call you?" "why?" "I never knew about the relationship between you and the director." Funatsu moved his body a bit, sat up on the chair, and put his elbows on the armrests. "In short, I don't know the intimacy between you." "..." "I'm so stupid. The director should have understood the first time he sent me on a business trip. However, it wasn't until the last time I went to Kyushu that..." Dongzi lowered his head and remained silent. "Although I was rejected by you, I neither hate the director nor you. I like the director and I like you more. When the hat exhibition was held, I wanted to visit it, but I thought it might hinder you .” "Funatsu-kun..." "However, after understanding these, I feel relieved." Funatsu forced a smile on his face and said to Dongzi, "Go back!" Dongzi looked around and found that when he first came in, the guests were almost full, but now more than half of them have left. Dongzi picked up the receipt, stood up first, and came to the automatic payment machine.The proprietress squinted at them with one eye closed.When the two came outside, the slightly warm night wind rushed towards them. According to the evening weather forecast, today's temperature is about 10 degrees higher than every day, warm like the weather in June. It's past 9 o'clock, perhaps because of the mild weather, there are still many pedestrians on the street.Under the beech trees, young vendors are setting up stalls selling necklaces and brooches. "Where are we going?" Funatsu asked as the two walked towards Harajuku Station. "I want to go straight back to the apartment." "What I said just now made you angry?" "No……" Although Funatsu talked about the relationship between Dongzi and Takashi, Dongzi didn't mind, let alone get angry.This kind of thing can't be concealed. People say: "If you want people to know, you can't do it." Funatsu said to Dongzi while walking: "I want you to know that no matter what your relationship with the director is, I still like you." "Stop talking about that." "I'm not kidding, I really love you." The two passed by the front of the hotel, and through the glass window facing the road, they saw pairs of lovers having a conversation. "In short, please understand my sincerity." "thanks." Dongzi said sincerely. "Then, I'll drive back from here." "I'll take you back." "No need, the journey is not far away, we will be there in a while." Dongzi waved to the approaching taxi, Funatsu was at a loss and remained silent.The car has stopped in front of you. "The indictment drafted for the medical malpractice committee, I will bring it to you when it is completed." "You are so busy, don't worry too much." "Does the director know about this?" "I never said anything to him." "So be it, then! Good-bye." Funatsu watched the taxi drive away in a hurry. Dongzi sat in the car, looking at the ceiling, thoughtful.The spring breeze blows in through the slightly open car window, and the fragrance of flowers comes in. When she was in elementary school, Dongzi would wheeze when she came into contact with this smell. After her menarche passed, she died and healed. After being separated from Funatsu for a few days, Dongzi still felt unwell, her skin was astringent, her body was weak, and she was always restless.Hearing the noise in the street and the chatter and laughter of his girlfriends, he was upset. Dongzi realizes the misfortune of women. The general traditional view is that women are inferior to men, but in fact this is not the case.There is hardly any difference between men and women in ability, except in physical strength.Women are no less intelligent than men. In real life, thinking that women are weak is mainly determined by biological factors.Women themselves are also different. Generally, affected by the menstrual cycle, there are about 10 days a month of feeling uncomfortable and physically tired.During this period, I had no interest in anything and was listless.After the body returns to normal, everything has to start from scratch.Generally speaking, men are careless and do not seem to understand women's suffering.It is said that men occasionally experience depression, headaches, and general fatigue once or twice a month. If a cycle is formed, they will experience women's sincerity. Women are not suitable to be operators and managers, and it must be related to physiological fluctuations.When the body is unwell and the mood is irritable, it is often the easiest to lose your mind and become hysterical. In fact, women are not inferior to men in terms of knowledge and management ability, but because of physiological changes, women's emotions are affected, and "weak women" come from this.There is no difference between men and women before menarche in girls.In elementary school, girls' performance is often better than that of boys. From junior high school to high school, the difference between male and female performance disappears. In the upper grades, girls' performance tends to decline instead, and the gap between the two gradually widens. With the onset of menstruation, women's physiological changes bring about physical and emotional changes, often due to more than enough energy.Physiological cyclical changes make women lose the desire to resist and begin to adapt to the changes in their bodies.Generally speaking, women lack self-motivation and originality. Dongzi learned from books that female hormones are divided by menarche, luteinizing hormones gradually decrease, and egg cell hormones increase. The hormones that act on the autonomic nerves and the central nervous system gradually reverse with the arrival of menstruation, and menstruation can be said to be a time of chaos in reversal. Dongzi also often felt that the blood in his body was flowing backwards.Since then, interests, hobbies, and thoughts have all changed.These are not what I want, but inevitable periodic phenomena, which are imposed on me, and Dongzi has nothing to do. Dongzi believes that there is no difference in ability between men and women, but there are still some obstacles.The heavy burden of menstruation is not simply due to the complexity of things, but also a factor of unpleasant mood. However, in today's society, there are still many women who keep pace with men and are not to be outdone.These heroines do not seem to be affected by their bodies and physiology. Perhaps their physical changes are not significant. They may be affected by menstruation for only two or three days, or they may not be affected by it at all. The actresses and fashion models Dongzi knows are not affected by menstruation, and they are relaxed and happy every day.Actresses in movies and TV look gentle and delicate, but in fact they are lively, cheerful, and a bit masculine, at least not as emotionally lingering as they feel in the pictures. Dongzi heard from the K actress who frequented the hat shop that when she was tired, depressed, and unwilling to work, she took anesthesia and insisted on working, on average once a month. Dongzi also imagined that Ms. K would be strong enough to put aside the physical pain and live and work happily, but no matter how hard she tried, it was of no avail, and she could not get rid of the influence of physiological changes.Maybe it is because of this tendency that she is called a woman, but this is exactly what I hate as a manager.During this period, try not to make mistakes in your work, keep few words and few words, and there is no other way. However, despite this, there were frequent physiological changes and great mood swings this spring. This time, after a week, Dongzi still hadn't recovered.Perhaps it is due to the sudden warming of the climate!Perhaps influenced by hearing about the lawsuit to the malpractice board.Thinking of this, Dongzi lost confidence in life. Although she didn't have menstruation, she was still affected by it once a month, and Dongzi didn't understand what was going on. Three days later, Dongzi recovered from boredom and fatigue.After waking up in the morning, it started to rain, and the raindrops slapped the glass, and the boy who delivered the newspaper was running in the rain. Seeing this, the irritability and distress hidden in his body disappeared completely, and his mood suddenly became brighter. While taking a shower, Dongzi looked at her naked body in the mirror and found that her pale face was full of vitality. Toko goes to work in a pale pink blouse and scarf. "The lady boss is really energetic today!" Maki knew that she was in a good mood when she saw Dongzi's dress, so she said it half-jokingly. Everyone sat and chatted together, and after a while the phone rang, Dongzi went to answer the phone, it was Guizhi calling. "I'll leave for Kyushu in a while, and I'm in Haneda now." Guizhi's phone calls always came suddenly. "I have nothing to do, I just want to tell you." "Going to Fukuoka?" "Yes, it will take about a week to design the building. If it is convenient, can you come to Fukuoka on Sunday?" "Today is Wednesday, four days before Sunday." "The hotel is still a luxury hotel where I used to live, can you come?" "Right now, we can't decide." "If it's settled, call me on Saturday. When I'm away, ask the waiter to tell me." "Understood." "How are you?" "Thanks to you, very good!" "Goodbye, then." Guizhi's phone calls always have this tone.In the midst of his busy schedule, he made a special call, which shows his sincerity.After Dongzi received the call from Guizhi, she got a kind of spiritual satisfaction.Every time Guizhi told her his actions, she knew where Guizhi was going, which made Dongzi feel very relieved. The wind and rain stopped outside, and the trees on both sides of the street were washed by the rain, making them even more verdant.The street, which was sparsely populated for a while, became lively again, and the shop was full of customers. Dongzi is receiving customers. "Miss Boss, call." Shouted Maki. This time it was Funatsu calling. "The indictment has been written, can we meet today?" "Okay, what time is convenient for you?" "I can do it any time in the evening." "Then, let's have dinner together tonight, and I'll treat you today." Perhaps because she was in a good mood, Fuyuko couldn't help blurting out, and she was also surprised, and maybe Funatsu was even more surprised. After hanging up the phone, Dongzi continued to receive customers. A middle-aged woman and a female university student in the store were choosing hats. From their appearance, it could be seen that the two were mother and daughter.I don't know whether to buy a Breton hat or sell a Tyrolean hat, and I am hesitating.The mother recommends a Buttarellini hat, while the daughter prefers a Tyrolean one. "Although these two hats are suitable for you to wear, if you wear them on a daily basis, maybe the Breton hat is more suitable, with the brim of the hat facing up, it will look more chic and generous." Under Dongzi's suggestion, the girl finally decided to buy a Breton hat. When Dongzi is in a good mood, she is willing to introduce products to customers.Dongzi received another two groups of customers.Mrs. Zhongshan suddenly appeared in front of her eyes. "Rest today?" "Well, something happened." Madam and Dongzi left the hat shop without talking a few words. After the customers were gone, Dongzi came to the "Mimosa Pavilion". Mrs. Zhongshan sat opposite a young man. After Dongzi came in, the lady immediately introduced: "This is Mr. Takeda Nobuya, and this is the Miss Dongzi I told you about." Dongzi nodded to the young man. "Pretty, isn't he? But he already has a lover." Madam said to Dongzi.The young man smiled and remained silent. The young man was wearing a well-fitting suit, making noises with his fingers from time to time, looking a little sloppy. After talking for 20 minutes, the lady said to the young man: "Hey, it's already 3 o'clock, go back quickly!" The young man stubbed out his cigarette and stood up. "Then, excuse me, I will take my leave." "Thank you, I'll go to your place tonight." "I'm waiting for you." The young man replied politely, looking extremely out of proportion to his appearance. "Which one is he?" After the figure of the young man disappeared, Toko asked. "Last time, the lover I told you about was a nice man, right?" Madam made a face and smiled after finishing speaking. "I'm only 24 years old this year." "My wife is 41 years old, and the difference between the two is nearly 20 years old." "Feel ridiculous?" "No." Dongzi shook his head hastily. "A serious, honest lad, though a bartender." "What bar does he work in?" "Qingshan, I took you there on the way back last time." "what……" "Young man! Innocence, gentleness, giving people a sense of freshness. How about introducing it to you?" "No, I..." "You don't have to be too serious, you are only limited to Guizhi, and you can occasionally associate with other young people." Fuyuko thought of Funatsu.It is true that young people are simple and cute, but to Dongzi, it is a heavy burden. "Nothing happened, did it?" "What did you say?" "You were with him, your sir..." "As if nothing happened, each other each other." "Then he lives in the shop at night?" "Yes, to him at night." Madame lowered her voice. "You can see that he looks like a drunkard on the surface, but he is actually very innocent and doesn't understand anything. Let me teach him..." When Madam said this, Dongzi immediately felt a little sick. "I'm worried that seeing a beauty like you, he might be taken away by you." "I wouldn't do that kind of thing." "That's great." "How long have you known him?" "It's been two months." Dongzi turned her face away, and the lady said in a low voice, "But the feelings for you are different. Please don't mind. In the final analysis, a man is a man after all, and he will leave me soon anyway." "..." "However, once a woman has a lover, she pays attention to dressing up and becomes romantic. A man is a substitute for women's cosmetics." Madam said boldly. Dongzi doesn't admire his wife's excessive association with strange men, but she has to bow down to her fighting spirit. "Hey, let's go to his bar tonight? If you go later, you can still hear the guitar playing and singing. It's very lively." "Thank you for your kindness, but I have something to do tonight." "A tryst with Kishi, right?" "no." "Then, with another man..." "No." Dongzi denied it categorically, but secretly wondered who Funatsu belonged to him?He is neither a lover nor a friend. To put it bluntly, he is just a man who can understand himself a little bit. "Anyway, you lost your uterus due to surgery, so you just take this opportunity to enjoy the fun of life. We don't have to worry about getting pregnant, this is a good opportunity." "..." "Otherwise, it will be too late when you become an old woman." Perhaps, for Madam, there is a sense of age crisis, she is over 40 after all. "Going to a bar tonight? You'll love that place." "I do not want to go……" "Women are always inseparable from men, for example, he is the object for me to play with." "Having fun?" "Yes, a small love affair." "Don't you like him?" "I like it, but it's not love, I just think he is cute. Do you understand this feeling?" "Ok……" "He is very pure and honest. Although he is not very rich, he is gentle and kind compared to my man." When Madam said this, Dongzi seemed to understand something. "It's also temporary with him, although it's a bit immoral." "..." "Of course, if you associate with someone like Kizhi-kun, you may get married and start a family, and at the same time leave you." After Mrs. Zhongshan left, Dongzi returned to the store, and it was already 4 o'clock in the afternoon. There were five customers in the store, one of whom bought a large cap at the hat fair last month, and she came today to buy a Tyrolean hat. "I am very satisfied with the hat here." Dongzi only knew her surname was Sakano, but nothing else. There is also a twenty-two or three-year-old woman. I don’t know if she is married as a housewife or in other jobs. Judging from the clothes, she is extremely gorgeous. If there are no customers like this, the hat shop will be closed. Dongzi measured her and made an appointment to pick up the hat, and she left.After the customers left, the store looked deserted. At this time, Maki asked: "Miss Boss, are you free tonight?" "Have a date with a friend." "Then, let's talk about it later!" "Whatever, it's okay to say it now." Maki hesitated for a moment, then said: "I broke up with Kida-kun." "why?" "He doesn't understand me at all." Maki looked at Fuyuko and asked: "Why do men desire to possess a woman's body so much?" "You didn't promise her." "He was begging and pestering endlessly, so I reluctantly agreed, so I felt very bored." "That's what you told me about?" "His desire is so strong, it's really unbearable." This incident was indeed a heavy blow to Maki, she began to cry while talking, Dongzi wanted to comfort her, but she didn't know what to say. "Don't mind these things too much." "What should I do in the future?" "You are still young, don't worry, you will be happy." "Madam, is it true?" "You are such a kind girl." Dongzi suppressed the urge to hug Maki, and just patted her on the shoulder lightly. That night, after get off work, Fuyuko and Funatsu met at Harajuku Station.The two could have met at the "Mimosa Pavilion", but since they had been there during the day with Mrs. Zhongshan, Dongzi didn't want to go there again. "I'm treating guests tonight, what do you want to eat?" Dongzi said. Funatsu didn't seem too convinced. "Are you really asking me?" "Then thank you for your kindness, I can eat anything." Saying this is the most embarrassing.Dongzi sees Mrs. Zhongshan during the day, and hears that Maki is broken in love. His mind is confused, but his mood is very comfortable.When you are in a good mood, when you hear any news, you never take it to your heart. The two thought over and over again and decided to go to a French restaurant. Dongzi had been here with fashion designer Fushiki. Although the tavern was small, it was delicious and cheap, and unnecessary services were omitted. Due to the large number of people at dinner time, reservations must be made first. After 8:00, the number of people eating will gradually decrease. "Recently, thank you for your hard work." Fuyuko filled the Funatsu glass with wine. "thanks." Funatsu didn't know what to say, and Dongzi invited him to dinner tonight, and he couldn't figure out what it meant. From admission to discharge, plus the investigation of the operation, Funatsu really worked hard enough. Although the result was not what Dongzi expected, he was indeed busy for Dongzi every day. After the two chatted for a while, Funatsu took out the indictment from the paper bag. "Ms. Kinouchi, please sign and seal this." Dongzi saw the five characters "Investigation Trust Letter" written on the white paper. "I was treated at Harajuku Meiji Hospital in September last year due to illness. I was diagnosed with uterine fibroids and underwent surgery to remove the fibroids. However, after the operation, I learned that the director ordered the removal of the uterus together. Intention, regarding this point, before the operation, other doctors believed that this type of operation only needs to remove the fibroids, and there is no need to remove the uterus, and Mejiro Metropolitan Hospital also thinks so..." Dongzi looked up after reading this. "How about it?" "That's what happened..." Dongzi took out a pen from her handbag, signed it, and stamped it with her seal. "Is it okay?" "Tomorrow, I'll go to the Medical Malpractice Committee." Funatsu took a sip of wine. After reading the investigation trust letter submitted to the medical association, Dongzi felt a little dizzy, perhaps because the events of the day affected her mood. "Where should I go for a drink?" "Ok." The two left the tavern and went to a nearby underground bar. Dongzi and Takashi had been there two or three times. "Is your aunt well?" Funatsu's aunt also had her uterus removed due to uterine cancer. "It's okay. I came to Tokyo with my uncle not long ago." "They are very happy." "Love each other sincerely and respect each other as guests." "After the hysterectomy, how is the relationship between the two?" "I really envy them." "My aunt said that this kind of thing doesn't affect the relationship between the two of them." "Thank you for your comfort." Dongzi poured some more wine into the glass.After the two of them drank for more than an hour, they went to the tavern frequented by Shinjuku Funatsu, and then went to the small bar in Nishiguchi to drink for a while.Dongzi was really drunk tonight. She felt her head was swollen, her whole body was tired, and her body was shaking slightly. She wanted to go back, but she just couldn't stand up. Maybe wine can strengthen courage, Dongzi is full of self-confidence. "I also want to have a fling today." "with who?" Surprised, Funatsu looked up. "Anyone is fine." "No, you are not allowed to do that." "Kiss me, then." "Ugh!" "It's dark in here, no one can see." "..." "what happened to you?" "Don't be joking, do this kind of thing, director..." "Leave him." "no." "You're really worthless, you don't look like a man, are you drunk?" Dongzi was lying in Funatsu's arms, really wanting to sleep like this. "We should go back." Funatsu whispered to Dongzi. "Stay a little longer." "It's already 2 o'clock." "Then, please take me back." Dongzi didn't know how she got back to the apartment.When I woke up, I found that I was wearing clothes, sleeping on the bed, covered with a towel, and one of the buttons on the chest of the dress fell off at some point.Dongzi looked at the watch on the bedside, it was exactly 4 o'clock. "At 2:30, I left the last bar in Shinjuku, so I only slept for more than an hour." Now I can only think of leaving the bar and taking a taxi. Funatsu was indeed sitting next to me. How I got back to the apartment and lay on the bed, I can't remember at all. In short, Futsuko, who must have been sent back by Funatsu, got up, came to the mirror, and found that her hair was disheveled, her face was pale, her eye circles were dark, her skin was dry, and her lipstick had disappeared when she looked carefully.Dongzi unbuttoned another button of the dress and checked her breasts. There was no abnormal change in the soft and elastic breasts. 冬子猜想船津一定是在自己睡着后，悄悄离开的。冬子看到自己穿着衣服，脚上的长统袜没有脱掉，心想并没有发生什么事情。 但是，总觉得嘴唇产生一种异样的感觉，冬子来到厨房，刷牙漱口，然后擦点活面膏和香粉。 头痛得要命，不知到底喝了多少酒，过去，每次喝酒都是和贵志在一起，稍有些发醉，贵志便给予照顾。然而，昨天晚上，有些太不象话了。 喝醉了，没丢丑吧？船津不耐烦了，才返回去的吧？冬子暗自寻思。对方是船津，所以才什么也不会介意，若换成他人，冬子想自己也会有所收敛的。 冬子擦掉脸上的化妆品，走进浴室，头仍昏沉沉的，但不再出虚汗了。 洗完淋浴，喝了杯凉开水，冬子的情绪才稍稍稳定下来。船津是否已经休息了？冬子想打电话向船津表示歉意，但时间这么晚，又怕影响他休息，只好作罢。 冬子上了门锁，熄灯后又躺在床上。马上就到了5时了，从窗帘的缝隙中，看到天已朦朦亮了。冬子对昨天晚上烂醉如泥感到害羞。 天已大亮，冬子仍未起床。她今天上午休息，下午上班，躺在床上懒得动。 “怎么了，老板娘，脸色这么难看。” 下午来到这里，真纪问。 “昨晚有点喝多了。” “唉，老板娘也有喝多的时候，那么一定和美男子在一起吧。” "no." “想隐瞒，老板娘还拿我当外人，太见外了。”真纪说完，走了。 真纪非常信任冬子，对她无话不说，就连与恋人发生关系的事都告诉冬子，而冬子几乎从来不和真纪谈论自己的事，即使真纪打听，冬子也常常故意岔开。因此，真纪有些不满。冬子不愿向别人透露自己的事。由于身体做过手术，冬子经常有一种自卑感，这种自卑感不知不觉成为她的沉重负担。 冬子正在接待顾客，船津打来电话。 “昨天晚上，请原谅，我真喝醉了。”冬子向船津表示歉意。 “现在感觉如何？”船津问。 “头还有点痛，但不要紧，能坚持工作。” “昨晚，是你送我回公寓的吧？”冬子又小声问道。 "yes." “醒后发现躺在床上我很吃惊！” "Sorry." "what?" "No, nothing..." 船津默不作声，冬子也抑制自己的冲动，沉默着。 “下次我请你。” “最近吗？” “这周内，如何？有空吗？” “不过，昨天晚上……” “那么，明大或后天怎样？” “下周吗！” “就定在后天吧！” 船津这么着急，并不多见。 “到底怎么了？” "No, nothing..." 船津过了一会儿说：“下周所长返回来。他去九州，你知道吗？” "Ok……" “所长一回来，我们就不能见面了。” “并非如此，你的判断错了。” "yes?" “你太多虑了，不必介意那种事。” “昨晚的事，你还记得吗？” “什么事？发生什么事了吗？” “没有，反正今天或明天我们见上一面。” 船津似乎在强迫冬子。 “两、三个小时足够了。” 对方这么迫切要求，冬子反而感到左右为难，终于下决心下去见他。 船津今天的口气很强硬。他也许认为昨晚对自己够意思，自己就应该答应他的要求。但昨晚是昨晚，今天是今天。冬子这样想。 昨晚，确实是冬子邀请船津，一起去吃夜宵，船津趁自己喝醉后，送回公寓，虽然不敢肯定，也许他趁机吻了自己。冬子心里想。 船津也许因此必判断冬子对他有意。 “哪怕两、三个小时也行。” "..." “或许是身体不舒服吧？” 冬子保持沉默。虽说身体确实有点不舒服，但也不算什么事。只是昨天和今天不同。 “明天，或后天，总之无论如何这周内见一次面。” 船津知道本周内贵志出差去九州，不在家，所以才强行邀请冬子。 迄今为止忠诚、憨厚、温柔的男人，也变得不再安分守已了。 一想到这些，冬子的情绪便受到影响，产生一种忧愁、悲伤。冬子认为船津是个好青年，自己喜欢他，但只是喜欢而已，并不想进一步发展关系。 冬子拒绝船津的邀请，返回公寓，这时贵志打来电话。 已经11点多了，冬子正想休息。 “喂，你今天在呀？” “你给我来过电话？” “昨晚12点和1点。” “啊，昨天晚上有点事……去见一位朋友。” "That's great." 听贵志似乎从容不近的声音，冬子反而感到吃惊。 “与男朋友一起去了赤坂。” “2时左右，我又给你打了一次电话。” “我回来时，已经是3点了。” “噢，这么晚啊。” “我喝醉了，是男朋友送我回来的。” “那可了不得，若那时打电话，一定受到叱责。” "..." 冬子感到这些话，实在无聊，沉默不语。 “后天是星期六，你能来吗？若来，我事先准备一下。” “找别的女人不更好吗？” “你又喝多了？” “不，我很清楚。” “你似乎情绪不佳，到底来还是不来？” “想去，但不去了。” “你若想来，就来吧！” “不过，那样会影响您的工作。” “星期六，不要紧的，藤井也想见你。” “藤井，他好吧。” “他因夫人的事，正烦恼着。” “烦恼？” “在电话里很难说清楚，告诉我你到底来还是不来？” “我刚从你那里回来不久，这次就免了吧。” “那么，我给你买点礼品，你喜欢什么？” “我什么也不需要，请你早点返回来。” 冬子毕竟是女人，最后还是软了下来。 贵志从九州返回来的第二天，冬子和贵志在赤坂的酒吧见面。由于经常打高乐夫球，贵志的脸被太阳晒得发黑。 “这是给你买的礼物。” 贵志边说，边递给冬一个细长的小包，冬子打开一看，泡桐盒里装着博多绢丝带。 “给我买得吗？” “不知买什么好，不成敬意，望笑纳。” 贵志很难为情地笑着。 “藤井让我给你代好。” “你说藤井正在烦恼，到底怎么回事？” “他妻子住院了。” “病情怎样？手术结果如何？” “子宫完全被切除了” "..." “二人并不以为然，只是再也没有那种欲望。” “你说夫人吗？” “他也如此。” "Could it be..." “无论怎么说，反正我不能理解，藤井说他手术时并不想在场，因为医师是他的朋友，所以允许他进手术室，这对藤井来说，反而受到一次打击。” 冬子想象手术时若贵志在场，将会是什么情形，那么也许贵志再也不想拥抱自己。 “夫人知道这事吧？” “虽然没对她说，但不管藤井怎么要求，她一点也不想，也不配合。” "why……" “她认为自己已不是女性，所以拒绝藤井的要求，并劝慰与其他女人来往。” “那么，藤井……” “他是个妻管严，且非常爱妻子，从不做那种事情。” “夜里很凄惨。藤井总是握着妻子的手而睡。所以，每次在外吃饭，到11时，他必须回去。” 冬子眼前浮现出在福冈见到的藤井的和善面容。 从外表看，藤井象个酒鬼，嗜酒如命，吊儿郎当，实际上是非常精明强干的人，内含的敏感为其外在的温柔所掩盖。他和妻子同床时，只是握住妻子的手，在微弱的灯光下，在鸦雀无声的卧室里，二人以手传递感情，不一会便进入甜密的梦乡。 夫人已不再把自己当作女人，她想平平安安地度过余生。藤井理解妻子的心情，以温暖的手抚平妻子心灵上的创伤。 藤井今年才42岁，夫人则刚刚40岁，虽说是趋于平稳的年龄，但并不是性欲望消失的年龄。 “两人感到满足吗？” “当然得不到满足，与其说不满足，勿宁说没有办法。诚然，爱的表现并不仅仅局限于肉体的接触，但它毕竟是重要的组成部分。” “不过，男人在这方面，有时是无法忍耐的。” “尽管如此，但妻子若本分、检点，男人反而不会风流。” "yes?" “当然，妻子沉默寡言，男人也有在外拈花惹草的，但藤井与他们不能同日而语。夫人手术后。痛苦不堪，情绪一直很低落，这时若在外游荡，对她来说，也太不近人情了。” “他很爱妻子。” "Is such that." 冬子突然想起“退褥”一词。据说江户时代，夫人一接近30岁，便自动结束和将军的同衾，随着年岁的增长，一味地沉溺于性的欲望，便被看作是放荡不羁。 现在，人们观念发生变化，性爱并不受年龄的限制，过去的那种谬论，今天谁也不会承认。 然而，藤井夫人也许是个例外。 冬子又想起了中山夫人。藤井夫人和中山夫人完全不同。前者手术后，便否认自己是女性，而后者却越来越大胆地承认自己是主人，追求女性的快乐。 一方退缩，一方前进，是由于性格的差异，是出于其他原因，不得而知。这并不能说明谁好谁坏，只不过形成鲜明的对照。 把冬子置于二者之间，冬子也许倾向于藤井夫人。藤并夫人并不是禁欲主义者，她只是想从男女关系的束缚中，稍稍摆脱出来。 总而言之，中山夫人、藤井夫人、冬子都做了同样的手术，其结果对生活的态度义各不相同，可以说三种类型俱全。冬子感到不可思议。 贵志终于改变了话题，呷了口葡萄酒。冬子也醒悟过来。 “我设计的建筑开始破土动工。”贵志洋洋自得，好象自己已成为一名了不起的建筑家。 “何时完工？” “争取在今年内。” “那么你还要去福冈？” “不，工程刚开始，没有必要马上去。” “听说船津辞了？”贵志问。 “船津。” “我从九州回来后，他马上就提出了辞呈。” "why?" “我也不知道。” 贵志往杯中倒满了酒。 “辞职后，他打算做什么？” “听说他准备先在国内学习建筑，然后去美国深造。” 上周冬子遇见船津时，他对这件事只字未提。 “他年轻，才华横溢，是事务所难得的人才。” “那么，你没挽留他吗？” “我当然劝阻了，但他的决心很大。” “他以前提出过这种要求吗？” “没有，所以我感到很突然。” “简直不可思议，有点可笑。” 贵志微微点头，注视着冬子，问道：“你也不知道。” "What's up?" “船津辞职，或许与你有关。” "And me?" 冬子想起船津打来的电话。也许那时他已做出决定，所以才邀请冬子见面。 “这只是我猜测，也许他感到和我一起工作很苦恼。” “苦恼？” “他仍喜欢你，为此痛苦不堪，才辞职的。” “有这种事……” “他是一个一本正经的男人，过去曾参加过学生运动。” "It's the first time I've heard of it." “于是，他离开了大手建筑会社，经朋友介绍，来到了事务所。” “我去九州期间，你没见到船津吗？” 贵志目不转睛地注视着冬子，冬子低下了头。冬子不得不佩服贵志的判断。 冬子知道沉默就等于默认，但还是没吱声。“这样也好……”贵志点着了烟，从酒馆的二层餐厅窗户俯视热闹繁华的、令人眼花缭乱的大街。街道并不宽，车辆穿梭来往，最得拥挤不堪。 不大功夫，贵志移回视线，端起酒杯问道： “你对船津君的印象如何？” "what?" “喜欢他吗？” "No." “不喜欢？” “我认为他作为好朋友是完全可以的，但并不存在那种感情……” “现在，你可以和他结婚。” "marry?" “这也是他所希望的。” 冬子努力使自己冷静下来，喝了口酒。 “否则，他将离你而去。” 冬子抬起头，望着贵志。 “你也希望我和他结婚吗？” “我并不希望。” “那么，为什么说这种话。” “我担心你后悔。” “我并没有后悔。” “这么说，你离开船津也可以了。” "certainly." "Really?" 冬子点头，眼睛盯着贵志，心里烦躁不安，自己虽然憧憬结婚，但并不像和船津结合。她并不讨厌他，但很难下这个决心。 “船津君真的决定辞职？” “他说过的话，决不会反悔的。” “绝对吗？” "..." “你太漂亮了。” "you flatter me." “当然，这并不全是你的责任。” 贵志苦笑着，把烟掐灭。 “我们出去走走好吗？” “今天我必须马上回去。” "Is there anything urgent?" "No." 冬子今晚不想和贵志过分亲热。 出了赤坂的酒馆，两人漫无目的地向青山方向走着。 晚上9点，街道上仍是车水马龙，热闹非凡。二人来到展销外国汽车的商店门前，贵志问：“怎么样，可以吗？” “什么？”冬子迷惑不解。 "I think……" “不行，我说过。” “叫辆出租车。” “再走一会吧……” 冬子在酒馆里时，确实想立即返会公寓，但一出来，总感到