Chapter 6 Chapter Six Spring Buds

It's only been 3 days since I went out, and when Dongzi comes back, Tokyo is already full of spring. When the lights were turned on, Fuyuko arrived in Tokyo.When she got off the train, she had the illusion that she had brought back the spring of the southern country. The signboard of the Harajuku hat shop is still fluttering in the breeze. "It's hard to go once, why don't you stay for a few more days?" Zhen Ji said, asking in an inquiring tone: "Who did you go to? Everyone is talking behind their backs." "I lived in a university for a few days, so of course I was alone."

"Really!" The girls all giggled. "Madame Zhongshan is also muttering." A girl said. "Did you see her?" "Come here yesterday to buy a pair of boots and want to buy a hat." Mrs. Zhongshan is a rare regular customer in Dongzi's shop, but she just talks too much. "If it is said that I went with Guizhi, I'm afraid everyone will have to guess even more." Thinking of this, Dongzi's heart became heavy. Dongzi walked into her room slowly, the work she had left behind when she left was still on hold.Just as he was about to clean the room, Funatsu called.

"You're back?" "Well, just arrived." "But I've been waiting for your call!" Funatsu muttered dissatisfiedly, "Can we meet today?" "This..." The hands of the watch have already pointed to eight o'clock, and Dongzi is really tired after watching Fukuoka Street and Dazaifu. "How about I go to your place and talk about the past." Funatsu said. "Where are you now?" Dongzi asked. "In Yotsuya, I'm already off work, so I can go anywhere." "Can I go to Shinjuku?" "Well, we'll meet at the tavern at the top of the station building at half past eight."

"Understood." Dongzi put down the phone.She knew that if Funatsu came to her, maybe she wouldn't talk about the past. After finally getting home, I really don't want to move anymore, but for my own sake, Funatsu has suffered a lot, so I can't let him down. "Are you still talking about the operation with me..." Dongzi thought gloomily. "Maybe he knows something." When he arrived at the restaurant, Funatsu had already arrived, drinking coffee. "How is Kyushu?" Funatsu asked with concern. "Very good, and the climate there is comfortable."

"Just tell me, I've been there and I can be your tour guide." "I decided to go suddenly, so I didn't have time..." "Where have you been playing?" "Miyazaki and Fukuoka." "It's interesting." "Yes, also for work." "yes." At this time, Dongzi's face showed an impatient look. "When will you go next time?" "I don't want to go anywhere recently." Funatsu nodded, and seemed to remember something: "Our director recently went to Fukuoka, did you see it?" "I didn't see it!"

"I went there the day before yesterday and stayed there for two or three days." Funatsu doesn't seem to know that Fuyuko is going with Takashi. Dongzi breathed a sigh of relief and took a sip of coffee. Funatsu lit a cigarette, took two puffs, straightened his body and said, "You're tired, I didn't want to tell you anymore, but this is a hospital matter you care about." "Do you know what?" "I asked a lot of medical questions." "..." "In her twenties and unmarried, if you want to remove your uterus, you must be very cautious. There is no doubt about it."

"What if it is absolutely necessary?" "Yeah. The hospital you went to, who was the doctor who examined you first?" "Which doctor..." Dongzi recalled. "Dean, he is very tall." "No, at the beginning, the dean didn't come." "Then it's another doctor." "A young doctor, in his thirties, I think." Dongzi finally remembered the doctor who examined her in the first place. Although the doctor was very serious, he was still a little young, which made people a little distrustful. "Is the surname Maehara?" Funatsu asked again.

"Maehara..." Dongzi couldn't remember. "Because he only checked once." Dongzi explained. "When was that time?" "In mid-September, if you want to know more details, you have to read the diagnostic record book." "Go back today, can you let me see right away?" "Okay. But that kind of thing..." "The dean of that hospital is a district councilor. In order to participate in the election, he often goes to meetings. In order to fill the temporary vacancies, he often recruits young doctors from various university hospitals."

"So, the doctor that day was also..." "Probably. It takes three people to do a temporary job, and it changes often." "Which university are they from?" At this moment, Funatsu took out a notebook and said, "Did the young doctor say something?" "What did you say?" Dongzi asked puzzled. "Are you talking about removing the uterus?" "He said it was just a fibroid and told me to have it removed." "Didn't you say the uterus was removed?" "I didn't say anything, but during the operation later, the director told me that it had to be removed."

"That is to say, the doctor told you everything." "I was worried about going to one hospital, so I went to Mejiro Hospital again." "What did the doctor at that hospital say?" Funatsu asked hastily. "That is to say, it's just a fibroid, let it be removed." "And what about the uterus?" "That didn't say that, it just said that the fibroids will be cured after they are removed." "So I agree with the young doctor." "I don't know the details, it's just the same in terms of saying." "You went to Metropolitan Hospital, why didn't you do it there?"

"The hospital is too big, there are many patients, and there are no beds. I think this hospital is closer, and I have been there before? It seems more convenient..." "Have you been there before?" "I've been there, but it was to see a sick friend." Dongzi hurriedly explained. "Anyway, whether it's the first-time doctor or the doctor at the Metropolitan Hospital, they say there's no need to remove the uterus, right?" Funatsu asked inquiringly. "Probably so." Dongzi gradually became uneasy again. Now that I think about it, neither the doctors at Yoyogi Hospital nor the doctors at the Mejiro Obstetrics and Gynecology Department said they would remove the uterus. At this point, the dean's diagnosis is a little bit wrong. "Let me ask you again, it was the young doctor who diagnosed you first, and the dean performed the surgery, right?" "I think it happened during the operation. Dongzi didn't know at all. Because she was injected with sleeping pills, she fell asleep after a while. It was not until after the operation that the director told her that the uterus was also removed." "Then let the young doctor take a look, and he will know the difference." "do you know him?" "I don't know. My friend's senior seems to have gone to work in that hospital." "From college?" "Yes. Because the dean is busy, he goes twice a week as a temporary doctor." "It's the Maehara I mentioned just now." "He's just one of them, there are two or three others." "But who is it that diagnosed me?" "I don't know if it's Maehara or another doctor. But if you know when you went there, you can know who it is." "..." "That hospital seems to judge patients' conditions based on how much money they make." "Is there such a thing?" "Yes. I heard it from my friend, Maehara. It's absolutely true." "But the doctor took me very seriously, and the hospital itself is very gorgeous..." "The hospital looks gorgeous on the outside, but the inside is not clean." "Not clean..." "With such a low health insurance system, the hospital may not be able to survive unless some improper means are adopted. There are also state hospitals to varying degrees. It's just that the hospital is worse." "..." "Because of dissatisfaction with this, my friend's predecessor resigned." "Among the doctors, are you also surprised by this kind of thing?" "Yeah, he is very young and is still a doctor in college, so he is very angry at the money worship of some doctors." "Although that hospital values ​​money very much, what does it have to do with the surgery it performs?" "Of course it has something to do with it. When you think about it, amputating a limb from one part is much simpler than bone grafting of hands and feet. In the same way, it is much easier and more thorough to remove the fibroids from the uterus." "They said that there is no need to remove it, but why..." Dongzi said doubtfully. "I think so too. It can't be said that there are no chaos and doctors in the world." Although Dongzi felt that what Funatsu said was a little too much, she had no basis for rebuttal. "And total hysterectomy is much more expensive than myomectomy." "yes?" "Yes. It is simple and profitable. That is to say, if the picture tube of the TV is broken, just replace it and buy a new TV. It’s hard to replace, so I’ll let you buy a new one.” "I'm not sure. I hope it's not like this. If so, they must not be spared lightly." "..." "Could it be true?" Dongzi thought, but Funatsu's words spread in her mind like a black shadow. "Whether surgery is really necessary, you have to ask Dr. Maehara, and you will know after reading your medical records." At this time, the kind and friendly figure who went to the hospital appeared in Dongzi's mind, and then the image of the young doctor with a stern face and indifferent attitude appeared. Maybe the dean misdiagnosed him? ... Although I don't know much about medical expertise, it can be seen from the surface to some extent. "No matter what, it's all the same to me." "It's not good for you to say that. You're the one doing the surgery." "But up to now, it's been wrong, and there's nothing I can do about it." "It is yourself who suffers from it." "Okay. Stop talking." Dongzi said calmly, but there were waves in his heart.If the dean really misdiagnosed, it is unforgivable.It's just that the operation is simple and the cost is high, but the removal of the uterus is really embarrassing. "It's come to this point, just take out your medical history and see the operation situation at that time, and you will understand." Funatsu said with determination. "Really stop talking." "But……" "Please shut up." Dongzi covered her ears with her hands. Indeed, she also wanted to know the truth about the operation and whether it was necessary.But she didn't want to lay bare what she thought was a shameful operation.Leaving aside Kishi, it was the young Funatsu who was unbearable. "I'm sorry." After a while, Funatsu said hesitantly, "Are I doing too much?" "..." "A little too much?" Funatsu put his palms on his knees now. "But I want you to know something. I like you, so it hurts me to see you in pain, and I hate those who make you suffer." Funatsu said seriously. "..." "So, I want to try my best to do something for you..." "I understand your feelings, but it's hard for a woman to say that." Dongzi picked up the bill and stood up. "I say goodbye." "I just came back today and I'm a little tired." "So……" "Thank you very much." Dongzi said back. "I'll take you to the apartment." Funatsu also stood up. "No, I want to go back alone today." "But we are in the same direction." "Let me go alone today..." Dongzi turned around and walked out the door. Funatsu came to his senses and chased him out. Both were silent as they stood on the elevator.The elevator descends to the first floor, walks to the exit, and waits for the taxi. "Do you still want to go back alone?" Funatsu couldn't help asking. "Sorry, let's have dinner together next time, okay?" "Of course I'm happy." Dongzi lowered his head and got into the car. The car drove through the west exit and headed for Koshu Street. It was already 10 o'clock at night when Dongzi returned home. The vacuum cleaner that was left on the ground before I left was still there. At this moment, Dongzi suddenly felt a sense of panic. He didn't want to say anything, and lay down on the sofa. It's really not good for Funatsu to ask around, but on second thought, it's all for his own good. If it is really a wrong diagnosis and the uterus is removed, how much compensation is required? She suddenly had this brave idea. But immediately denied it.Although you get money, you can never get back what you lost. "What should I do?" Dongzi sat up and lit a cigarette. Taking a breath, he suddenly wanted to call Guizhi. After dialing the number, the operator on the other side said he was not there. "I can't come back until 12 o'clock." The other party said again. Still walking in Middle East Asia!Dongzi was a little jealous of the opponent she couldn't see. Too upset, she took out a bottle of brandy from the liquor cabinet, poured it into a glass, and drank it while watching TV. At 12 o'clock, Dongzi hung up the phone again, but Guizhi hadn't come back yet. "Didn't you date a woman from Fukuoka again..." Dongzi thought about it, took a sleeping pill left over from before, and fell asleep. The next day, she threw herself into work again. It is useless to think too much about the operation, the most important thing now is to participate in the exhibition. The hats for exhibitors are ready.Both Maki and Tomomi feel very good, but what will others say?Dongzi was a little uneasy. The "Castro" looks good this way, and the "Kuro Show" is a bit quaint, and depending on how the models perform, it might get good reviews.Dongzi still has a little confidence in this hat. On a Saturday in early March, Dongzi and the model came to the S Commercial Building in Ginza. The exhibition is scheduled to take place in the chapel of this building a week later. This time it is co-organized by the Hatmakers Association and the Commercial Building.Kida and art designer Fushiki also came. Dongzi put "Castro" on the head of Mako Uemura, who is young, beautiful and full of modern femininity.And let the steady and serious Aikawa put on "Kuroshu". No matter how well the hat is designed, it is also affected by the service and temperament of the wearer. Both Aikawa and Mako Uemura are high-powered fashion models, so don't worry about that at this point. "Long time no see, how about a cup of tea?" After the model tried on the outfit, the designer Fushiki said. Dongzi followed him to the underground cafe of the building. "You seem to have changed a bit." After sitting down, Fumu looked at Dongzi and said. "yes?" "A little skinny." "You shouldn't change your weight." Dongzi said seriously. "It seems to have become an adult." Fu Mu said with a smile.But Dongzi listened, as if saying that he was old. "You're getting old." To be honest, when Dongzi looked in the mirror recently, she felt that wrinkles appeared in the corners of her eyes.It was a little bit last summer, but it seems to be more obvious in the past two or three months.When she looked in the mirror yesterday, she rubbed her temples vigorously.While kneading, I was still thinking, maybe it has something to do with the surgery, if not, maybe it's the age of wrinkles. "You can change your career to be a model." Fumu said flatteringly. "I can't do it anymore." "Shortness may be a problem, but she is still charming." "Don't comfort me any more." "This is not consolation." Fumu said, taking a sip of coffee, "That Aikawa, didn't you notice that she has no big teeth?" Dongzi only knows that Aikawa is a mixed-race model, and doesn't know anything else. "Why not?" "Unplugged." "No, it's to make the cheeks thinner." "cheek?" "Without big teeth, the face and jaw will appear angled. Recently, this practice has become popular among models." Dongzi also touched his face, and immediately touched his teeth.Tooth extraction for cosmetic reasons is incredible. "Without teeth, what should I do if I chew?" Dongzi asked worriedly. "Anyway, they eat less, and they can't get fat. This is a good time. To put it bluntly, in their profession, if they eat too much, they will immediately take laxatives." "Pitiful." "Professionals have to look professional, not ordinary." Dongzi nodded.Living in this world is really full of pain. "Fu Mu-kun knows a lot." "That's because of work, and I have more contact with him." Fu Mu explained. "Among the models, is there any better one?" "It's easier to talk with Kiuchi. Of course this is a joke." Fukugi said, "Have you met with Manager Kida? He has expanded to another side this time." "on the other hand?" "You don't know yet? He's having a hot fight with the girls in your shop." "The girl in the store?" Dongzi asked. "It's the one who is twenty-two or three years old, like a child." "Is it Maki?" "Yes, that's Maki. I saw them very close in Shibuya a few days ago, like a pair of lovers." "Maybe it happened by chance." "No, no, it was already late at night, and they were holding hands by the steps in Fanrang." "It's the store's mismanagement." It was the first time Dongzi heard someone say that.Kida also didn't seem to be aware of their affairs. "Kida-kun seems to have liked you, but he knew it was impossible, so he reached out to Maki." Fukuki said with a smile. Kida is close to Fuyuko. At that time, I called every day, had a few meals, and even kissed, of course only once. But Kida didn't come to the shop very much in the past few months. Of course it's work, he always said.Calls and meetings are just to talk about important things, and then we broke up in a hurry.Dongzi didn't care too much. "Are Shutian Zhen and Maki very close?" Dongzi asked in disbelief. "If I say it, you will reprimand her." "Why should I reprimand her?" Kida and Maki are in a relationship, and Toko has no right to make irresponsible remarks about it. "But Maki seems to have a boyfriend." Dongzi asked again puzzled. "Nowadays, young girls have four or five suitors. Isn't that very common. Kida-kun is also a very outstanding person, and they are a good match." Dongzi once talked about lovers with Maki. Maki said that there is a college classmate who is now working in a publishing house. Dongzi advised her to give up quickly if she did not intend to marry him.This was half a year ago. Since then, I haven't talked about that classmate.Maybe Kida replaced him.But Maki still receives calls from men all the time. Dongzi could only distinguish two or three different voices, and agreed on "what time" and "where to meet" on the phone. Toko doesn't know who Maki is with, and she doesn't want to know, but she wants to pay attention to the relationship between Maki and Kida. In fact, Honda is the manager of the commercial building in charge of shopping, and Toko used to be taken care of by Kida.It is also inseparable from Kida's support that the small shop has become what it is now. It was past five o'clock when Dongzi and Fushiki parted ways and returned to the shop.Tomomi was the only one in the store. "Where's Maki?" "Just now, a friend came to her..." Youmei showed a bit of embarrassment. Dongzi once strictly stipulated that they were not allowed to go out with their envoys during working hours, but they often avoided Dongzi and ran out. After thirty minutes, Maki came back. Seeing Dongzi coming, she immediately said "sorry" embarrassedly, and walked into the counter quickly. Every evening from 5:00 to 7:00 is the time when Harajuku Street is the most noisy.Even the small "Kuro Show" is often crowded with people.But there are very few people who actually come to buy hats. In the past, almost every month, Dongzi would take the shop assistants out for a meal, but in the past three months, he was too busy to go out. After closing the door at 7:30, Toko took Maki and Tomomi to Shinjuku. "Your treat, you can eat anything." The two said in unison. Finally, they walked into a Chinese restaurant in Kabuki Street and sat around. "I still came here with that architect uncle." "yes." "Is he in good health?" Maki asked. "Ah, maybe it's good." Dongzi replied pretending not to know.In fact, after that time, Guizhi called twice, but nothing happened, just chatting casually. The three ate and drank beer.When he was about to finish eating, Zhen Ji straightened his body and said, "Miss Boss, I want to talk to you. Now, there is a man who often takes care of me." "That's good." Dongzi said with a smile. "But I don't like it very much." "Hate him?" "No. He is very good, but recently, he always asks me..." "how old is he?" "Thirty-five or six years old, but why do men want to be sexually satisfied?" "It's inevitable that two people only love each other to a certain extent." Dongzi explained. "But when I'm in love, I don't want that to happen." "yes?" "That kind of thing is not interesting at all. What does the proprietress think?" Dongzi didn't know how to answer for a moment, but just looked at Maki. Fuyuko was at a loss for Maki's sudden question.Regarding sex, everyone has their own privacy and cannot be compared. "I'm not sure. But women are very happy that men like them, especially when they hug and caress." Dongzi said slowly. "Of course, I hope that too, but I hate it very much once it passes the mark." "So, what did you do then?" Tomomi, who had been silent all this time, suddenly asked. "Say something else quickly, or get up and make some coffee." "If you do that, the man will be angry." "Yeah, you have no emotions at all, which is really disappointing." Dongzi said with a wry smile. "So I have to explain to him that I hate that kind of thing the most. If you want to do that kind of thing, you can buy a woman with money." Zhenji said firmly. "But that's not right. People really love each other. Does that make the relationship stronger?" "I still find it unacceptable." Maki said, lighting a cigarette swiftly. "Don't you feel good at all?" "Yeah, until then, I'll keep my eyes open until the end." "When a man is courting?" "Yes, why are men so interested in this? It's ridiculous." Hearing this, Dongzi couldn't help sighing. Maki looks beautiful, has a good body shape, and has protruding breasts, which is very sexy, but why? "Is that how you started?" "The first time, I was drunk and didn't know anything." "After drinking six cups, I went with them to Gyoen's apartment. There..." "When I wake up, everyone is goodbye." "Are you alone?" Maki nodded, lowering her eyes to show that she was taken. "what?" "No matter what you do..." "Is it your friend?" "It's too annoying." Maki said irritably. "..." Maki tried hard to control her bad emotions, biting her lip fiercely. "So, I've been raped by men..." "But that's because you were drunk." Dongzi tried to comfort Maki. "Just forget about him." Maki is very impulsive. "You will meet good people in the future." "It's all not very good." "why?" "I don't trust men anymore," Maki said. Dongzi tried to comfort Maki. "I don't trust men anymore." Maki said. "Don't think so." "Men are very rough, there is no good man." After Maki finished speaking, Tomomi immediately interjected, "No, there are good men." "Good people also want to satisfy their own carnal desires. They are just gentle and considerate at the beginning, but once the relationship is established, they will become cold." "Maybe there are such people, but we can't say that they are all." Youmei retorted. "Absolutely. Once a man has slept, the relationship ends. So I have many boyfriends, but very few close friends." Maki said with certainty. In the past, Dongzi always regarded Maki as innocent, like a child.Now it seems that the heart is also very complicated. "Honestly, I just hate men." "You like men, but you hate doing that with men, don't you?" "Yes, I like to walk and eat and talk with men a lot, that is, as long as it doesn't exceed that limit." "Is there such a person?" Tomomi asked, tilting her head. "Anyway, I'm not interested in men sleeping or anything." Maki's frigidity is probably caused by the failure of the first experience. "Boss, tell me, is the only way we can maintain our relationship is through sex? Without that kind of relationship, can we do it?" Zhen Ji asked as if asking for help. "..." "As soon as I am satisfied, he will leave me, but if he is not satisfied, he will go to another woman." "Do you like him?" Dongzi asked. "Of course I do." "Then satisfy him." "That's absolutely impossible, but I don't want to disappoint him." "That……" Dongzi suddenly felt that Maki's situation was so similar to her own. Now, neither Fuyuko nor Makoto can really accept the caress of men.One was due to the loss of the uterus; the other was traumatized in the first night. The reasons are different, and it is true that both are afraid of being close to the other person. Still, the psychology of women is delicate.Small things can deprive them of sexual excitement. It is conceivable that if you let the person you like hug, you will be fine. This is how a real woman's body is produced. The lover is Tomomi, an art designer, and is the luckiest of the three.She went on to express her opinion: "Sex life is full of joy, so when human beings live, they get a lot of things." But in fact, many people don't feel excited.Before that, Toko might agree with Tomomi.But now, she understands Zhenji's suffering very well. "It's unbelievable to like a man but not let him touch him." "That also makes sense." Dongzi looked at Youmei and said. "That's why women want to be free." "No, even if there is no physical relationship, I will fall in love." Maki said. "That's too much." "Stop arguing." Seeing that the two were arguing, Dongzi hurriedly intervened to stop them. "People are different, don't say anything." "If the proprietress has a sweetheart, will she agree to it right away?" "Not right away, but..." At this moment, Fuyuko thought of Funatsu.Funatsu asked at the time, but Dongzi refused. Although he had no malicious intentions, he couldn't accept it anyway.But in front of Guizhi, if he asked, Dongzi would rather offer her mutilated body than let him down. "Where does your friend work?" Toko asked Maki, changing the subject. "You know him." "I?" "Say it, you won't be angry." "Will not." As if making up his mind, Maki said word by word: "It's Kida from S Building." But Dongzi nodded as if he had just heard the name. "Actually, he likes the proprietress very much, but after you showed your attitude, he found me." "You are young and beautiful, it is natural for him to look for you." "So, I promise him." "of course." "Although he is a son of a rich family, he is very gentle with others. I think he is a good man." Maki used to love to speak ill of Kida.Now it seems that he may have fallen in love with him long ago. "Strange?" Maki asked. "Well, no." "But you have to remember that if you two really love each other, you should really love him alone." On the second weekend of March, the hat fair opened at the S Commercial Building in Ginza. There are two exhibitions a day, one in the day and one in the evening.At the fair in the evening, Mrs. Zhongshan and the proprietress of the "Mimosa Shop" both attended, and Guizhi also came, but a little late. There were many people attending the evening fair, and the small auditorium that could accommodate more than 300 people was full. The exhibited hats are provided by various hat shops, schools and graphic designers.At the opening ceremony, the representative of the host, the chairman of the association and the manager of the building all congratulated each other, and then the performance began. Models wearing hats and all kinds of well-fitting clothes stepped onto the stage accompanied by music, making various graceful gestures. The female announcer who often appears on the TV screen serves as the commentary. When Uemura Mako came out wearing "Castro", the music on the field suddenly accelerated, and she also shook her shoulders left and right to the rhythm of the music, which made people feel full of vitality. After a while, as the rhythm of the music changed, Aikawa came onto the stage wearing "Kuro Show", and there was a burst of exclamation in the venue. The female announcer explained, "Among the classic styles, 'Kurosoo' is the most suitable for ladies and wives." Aikawa with a long face wears "Kuroshu" like a crown. "Its maker is Kinochi Toko from Harajuku's Kuroshu store." Listening to the narrator's explanation, Dongzi was so excited that her work was accepted by everyone. At this time, Aikawa, who was wearing a navy blue dress that matched the hat, also walked to the front of the stage, greeted the audience, and then walked back slowly. Beautiful appearance and beautiful lines are the most basic requirements for a model, but too rigid facial expressions can also make people uncomfortable. In the exhibition hall, the models are different from the actors, the expression is too rich, people will focus on the face, and ignore the wear of the model.First-class models are often like puppet models, while doing various poses, there is no expression on their faces.He only smiled when he greeted the audience. Later, senior models such as Naoki Yoko, Yaskawa Anna, and Tama also appeared one after another. A total of seven people performed for nearly ten minutes. The trade show that started at 6 o'clock did not end until 8 o'clock. "Would you like some tea? Guizhi is going too." When Dongzi was greeting the participants, Mrs. Zhongshan came over and said. "No... Ah, I have to wait a while." "Then let's go first and wait for you at the 'Lianka' shop on Bingmu Street." After the lady finished speaking, she called Guizhi to leave. Thirty minutes later, when Dongzi arrived at the "Lianka" store, Mrs. Guizhi was sitting and chatting at a seat near the street. The two of them had nothing to eat but drank brandy. "Give me a drink too." After the fair ended, Dongzi's heart was drunk. "The three of you haven't been together for a long time." Madam said, pouring another glass. "Today's fair was great, especially you, Dongzi, who really stole the limelight." Maybe it was flattery, but after all, words of praise made people happy, and Dongzi hurriedly thanked her. "From now on, I think hats like the 'Crow Show' will be popular, what do you think, Kishi." After Mrs. Zhongshan finished speaking, Guizhi said, "Your judgment may not be right either." "Isn't it impolite to say that. Isn't it, Fuyuko?" "But this is my real thought." After speaking, all three of them laughed. Dongzi finally succeeded. "I want to buy that hat. It's very expensive." Mrs. Zhongshan only said with a smile. "If Ma'am wants to buy it, it will be cheaper." "I'm not a beauty like Aikawa. If I wear that hat, will my family say I'm making a fool of myself?" "How could it be, but you can't go anywhere with it on. Hey, Kishi, don't you have a good boyfriend?" After drinking the brandy, the lady seemed a little drunk, and her eyes shone with a gleam that did not match her age. "If I introduce one to you rashly, the master will definitely scold me if he finds out." Guizhi said with a smile. "Don't worry about that, he hasn't interfered with my rights." After scolding the professor for a while, the lady picked up the handbag. "I seem to be drunk, am I blushing?" Madame asked. "No." "Looks like it's on fire." Madam wanted to take a look in the vanity mirror, so she put her hand into the bag, but something else fell out of her hand. Madam's face flushed red.Then hurriedly put the small blue box on the table back into the bag.And whispered "I'm sorry." Kishi looked at his wife inexplicably. "I'll go out for a while." Without waiting for an answer, the lady picked up the bag and went to the dressing room. "What's wrong with her?" Guizhi said to himself when he saw his wife panicked. Although Dongzi felt that this matter had nothing to do with him, his face blushed. It just happened in an instant, so I didn't see it clearly, but what fell out of the lady's bag must be something necessary for women's physiology. I wanted to get the makeup box, but I took the small blue box by mistake, and my wife went to the dressing room in a panic, which must be the reason. That being said, why did the lady put that thing in the bag again, and besides, the lady has no relationship with the complicated things of women's biology. "This time, it's just the two of us." Guizhi didn't care about his wife's departure. After a while, the lady came back.Sweeping away the embarrassment just now, a layer of lipstick was lightly applied to her lips. "Tonight, Guizhi must play with us all night, okay?" Madam said enthusiastically. "That can't be done." Guizhi hastily refused. "It was not easy for us to get together." "No, I still have something to do, I'll have a good drink next time." Said, Guizhi picked up the bill and stood up. Madam and Toko came to the door, and just as they walked down the steps, Kishi came up from behind and whispered, "Go to the 'Bailey Cafe' in Roppongi." Ginza's avenues are very lively on weekends, but some bars on the street have been closed due to the recession and rest, so the street looks deserted. "Then I'll take my leave here," Guizhi said to his wife as soon as he left the shop. "I can't help it, I must have a good time next time." "Definitely." Guizhi agreed, and strode towards the tram stop. "He ran away anyway, what a busy man," said the lady. "Well, now we have to drink. I know there is one in Roppongi." "I'm a little tired today." Dongzi said awkwardly. "What's wrong, you can't do it either." Madam said dissatisfiedly, suddenly seemed to think of something, "You saw it." "what?" "That, the blue card. Kishi-kun must pay attention." "That's great, you are laughing at me." "why?" "Walking around with useless things." The lady's face was flushed red by the neon lights. "Women are incredible. At that time, I thought not to disturb others, but I couldn't do without makeup, so I took it out." "..." "Great." When they reached the fifth street, the two stopped, dodged two cars, and crossed. The two came to Qinghai Street, probably because of the weekend, young people in pairs can be seen everywhere near Youle Street Station.It's not yet 9 o'clock, which is still early for people with nightlife habits. "Want to go back?" Under the neon lights, the lonely face of the madam was reflected. "Sorry." "Then, let's call a taxi and take you off first." "No need." Dongzi refused.But Madam waved for a car as if she hadn't heard anything. The wife's home is in Daikanyama, which is in the same direction as Fuyuko's home Sangong Bridge. "Send you near home." With that said, Dongzi couldn't refuse any more, so he got into the car. "Tonight? Sir, won't you go back?" "have no idea." Dongzi had heard about Professor Zhongshan, but his wife didn't care. The car drove from Kasumigaseki to Roppongi, and my wife leaned against Dongzi. "The fair is over, so I have time this time." “轻松点……” “我突然很想喜欢喜欢你。”夫人咕哝着，冬子的身体都硬了。 “比起放肆的男人来，还是女人好吧？” 一说到这个令人肉麻的事，就觉得男人确实讨厌，可与女人交往，也会出现空虚的。 “今天到我家去吗？” "But……" “如果累了，就在我那儿住吧，别在意他在不在，我们最近已经分居了。” “房间也分开了？” “我可不想接近那么轻浮的男人。” 不知怎么搞的，夫人和教授之间的关系如此恶劣。 “怎么样，去吧。” “可我今天真的累了。” “你真的不想和贵志见面了吗？” “那件事……” 被说中心事的冬子，吐了一口气，夫人还是看着前面说：“事情该怎么做就怎么做，你们还没有完全破裂。” "..." “比起女人来，还是男人好啊。” 冬子沉默着。 车子顺着青山大道，又向涉谷驶去。 “现在回去，什么也做不成了。”夫人又嘟嚷一句。 “我从前面的青山下车去一家商店看着。” “这么晚了，能行吗？” “没关系，没人袭击我这老太婆。”夫人说着让司机停车，就跳了下去。 和夫人分手后，冬子就来了“贝莉”咖啡店，贵志正和这里的老板娘对饮着。 “对不起，'我来晚了。”冬子抱歉地说。 “中山夫人回去了？” “没有，又去哪玩了，在青山下的车。” “真了不起，精力好旺盛啊。”贵志苦笑着说。 冬子要了一杯掺水的淡酒。 淡酒端上来，贵志象要干杯似地举起了酒杯，“这么说，中山教授不理她也是有道理的了。” “不能那么说吧。” 贵志真不知道夫人也摘除了子宫吗？冬子想证实一下。 “中山夫人做手术了吧？” "yes?" “听夫人说的，从那以后，先生就爱别人去了。” “那就不对了，总出去的是夫人吧？” "Really." 她说不必再担心怀了，看上去她满不在乎。 “从那以后，她变得爱玩了。” 无论谁，做完那个手术，不变是不可能的。 冬子喝了一口淡酒。 脑海里又浮现出夫人来回徘徊的孤独的身影。 贵志说，夫人手术后变得爱玩了，真是这样吗？就是爱玩了，这也是手术造成的吗？ 现在，冬子一点也不想责怪单纯的夫人。 “藤井的夫人好象也做手术了。” “什么时候？”冬子急忙问。 “一周前，可能很顺利。” “也是全部摘除吗？” “说是那样。” 冬子想起了在福冈看见藤井时，那孩子气的样子。 “他看见了吗？” “第一次看手术，把他吓坏了。” 等待妻子手术结束，这是什么心情啊。冬子一想到这里，心都凉了。 “不管怎么样，他现在总算放心了。” 贵志换了一杯烈性白兰地。 “今天的展销会上，怎么没看见船津？” “他怎么会来？”冬子奇怪地问。 “你给我的两张票，我给了他一张。” 冬子给贵志两张票，是想让他带着妻子或其它女友来参加。 “船津对帽子之类不感兴趣。” “他喜欢你呀……” “这可成笑话了。” “我可没有恶意。女人被男人喜欢，总是件好事呀啊。” "Can……" 冬子嗓子好象被什么堵住似的，马上喝了一口酒。贵志喝了一口白兰地，然后对冬子说：“还没忘那件事呀？” "What's up?" “手术和那些无聊的事。” "..." “真的，还是忘了的好。” 冬子真想把船津说的都告诉贵志，自己的心里承担这件事真觉得有些沉重。 "Ok……" 冬子重新抿了一口酒说：“在代代木医院，好象结果还不太好。” "why?" “在这个金钱至上的医院里，不该做的手术都给做了，我的手术不摘除子宫也可以……” "Who said that?" “一个认识的人给我查的。” “这么说，你的手术很不正常？” “还没搞清楚，只是让在那个医院工作的医生给查的。” "Do you believe?" "that……" 还是别查了。 "..." “因为误诊而摘除子宫，这当然不是件好事。但是，你想的过多，只会给自己增加负担，于事无补。” 贵志说的也确实有道理。这次不单单是医疗上失误的问题，不仅对病，而且在心理上都留下伤痕。更进一步说，影响了男女之间的关系。“你最好还是忘掉它。” 确实，对冬子来说，现在重要的不是知道手术的真相，而是忘掉手术这件事。 “你在手术后并没什么变化。” 贵志拿起酒杯，认真地说。 冬子也点了一支烟。 “今天晚上怎么过？” “马上回家。” "yes." 今晚就是贵志邀请，也不想和他去，身心稳定之前不想再接近他。 但看到贵志点点头，没再说什么，就又有一种被冷淡了的感觉。一方面想着拒绝，另一方面，有一种没被邀请的寂寞。 "Then let's go." 冬子也只好跟着贵志走了出来。外面正下着小雨。 一进入3月份，睛天与雨天每隔两、三天就交叉光临。 “真冷啊。”贵志说着，立起了衣领。在霞街上走了一会儿车就来了。 “送送你吧。”冬子这回答应了，先上了车。 “刚才说的去医院查的事，还有人知道吗？” "Ok……" “如果真是误诊，我就该先道歉。” "you?" “最初向你介绍那所医院的是我呀。” “可那是别人做的……” “去年介绍的医生暴死了，医院就让别的医生治了。” “也是院长先生代替了。” “听说过前一个医生的情况，代替医生做出那种事可是没有想到的。” "yes……" “总之别放在心中。” "understood." “还想旅行吗？去北海道怎么样？” "I really want to go." “等再暖和一点儿的时候。” 冬子很理解贵志的温存。想让贵志把它治好。看得出来贵志很想用自己的力量把冬子从性冷淡和不能结合的边缘拉回来。 3月末，就传来了花的信息。 今年樱花开放得比往年要早些。但是4月初气温骤降，然而还未开放的花蕾并没受到太大的伤害。周六前后，市内的樱花一齐开放了。 从参宫桥到原宿沿途的樱花也在星期日开放了。 每次看到樱花，冬子既感到很美，又感到很难过。为什么樱花能这样顽强地开放呢？如果松口气或稍稍松一松劲会是怎样的呢？ 樱花没有人类那种奸滑，开放时，会竭尽全力，可又很快地凋谢。 男人们很欣赏它的纯洁，就把它作为国花。的确，它既有男人喜欢的顽强的一面，也有清苦的一面。 冬子喜欢无拘无束生长的花草，比如：含羞草、珍珠梅。它们都是慢慢开放，时间也长。 一般说来，女性没有男性那么喜欢樱花。虽然也认为它是纯浩、美丽的，但在心理上却无法与男性的想法保持一致。对花的不同看法，也许与男女生活方式的不同有关。女子的青春期，就象花开放时那么美，压倒群芳，但其时间是短暂的。 从男性的眼光来看，没感到花开的怎么娇艳，凋谢也未凋谢，对他们来说，花开放的时间是很长的。 女子看到樱花时，也许会感到自己青春的短暂，这与极力想避开与自己有相似命运的心理有关。 与此相反，男子之所以倾慕樱花，也许是因为自己与那种清浩无暇无缘吧。 男子认为含羞草和珍珠梅开放时间长，所以，争相去观赏樱花。 冬子一看到樱花，在生理上就有一种说不出来的难受。虽然花枝繁茂，但终归会凋谢。一想到这儿，冬子真有些受不了，就被这种空虚感而占据。 今年樱花开放，对冬子来说更增添了苦恼。因为自己的身体由表及里都失去了女性的魅力。这种想法，随着樱花的开放，而不断加深。 看着可太美了，冬子只站了一会儿，就匆匆从树下走过。 还是丑恶的世界好，整天在稀里糊涂、埋藏怨恨的地方活着，也许会更轻松。 不知为什么，冬子近来变得自暴自弃、冷漠起来。 神宫林中的樱花也开了。这天午后，冬子接到了中山头人的电话。“那预帽子怎么处理了？”夫人是指展览会上的那顶。 “托您的福，'卡斯特罗'已经卖出去了、'库罗秀'还没卖呢。” “在店里吗？” "yes." “卡斯特罗”是比较大众化的，而“库罗秀”在普通的外出中是戴不出去的，除非参加野游或游园会，可参加这些活动的人又很少。 参展的一位模特和一位演员来过，但没有决定买不买。 “还是卖了吧，在那摆着，多可惜呀。” 的确，如果不卖的话，就浪费了一些人力和物力。 但冬子对此还不太在意，正因为是很费力气才做出来的，她还想多摆几天。 “如果有时间，你拿着帽子来一趟，怎么样？”中山夫人试探地问。 夫人邀请冬子是很巧妙的，借口买帽子，把冬子请到家里。 “今晚或明天都可以。”这么一说，冬子还真不好拒绝了。 “那么就明天吧。” “7点行吗？” "Ok." 去夫人家，冬子总有些不安。害怕在谈话中又提到以前那次不明不自的事情而陷入不正常的关系之中。可心里又想夫人的爱抚。 第二天，冬子把“库罗秀”放入圆袋中，就走出了店门。在道上很快叫了一辆车，到夫人家时，已是傍晚7点多了。 “来了。”夫人穿着一件千岛格的连衣裙，上套一件外套，正笑咪咪地等着冬子。 "Sorry for the waitting." 夫人领着冬子来到了大门对面的一个起居室。 “中山先生呢？” “他今天很晚才能回来。还没吃饭吧？” “刚吃过。” “那就喝一杯葡萄酒吧。”夫人说着，兴冲冲地将酒杯摆在桌子上。 冬子从帽袋里拿出帽子。 夫人站着，让冬子戴上，然后走到穿衣镜前。 "How about it?" “太合适了。” “等等。”夫人照着全身，左右改变姿态，“向右歪一点，可能好看。” “帽檐是向上的，还是向下压点好。” 冬子在旁边，把帽子重新正了一下。 “还是这样好。再配上一身藏青色的晚礼服，就更动人了。” "yes?" 夫人又照了照：“好是好，是不是有点高了？” “夫人买去，我就放心了，便宜点卖给你吧。” "How much?" 如果是普通的帽子，看看所用的材料就能估出价来。可这顶使的是厚毡子，完全是用手工缝制的，特别是在展览会上展览的作品，从设计到制作都煞费苦心，到底值多少钱，一时间难以估量。 “五万怎么样？”夫人估价说。 “好吧，就五万。” 一般帽子，这个价就太高了，可这顶用了近一周的时间才做成，想想还是便宜了点呢。 “太高兴了，来，喝吧。” "thanks." “今天多坐一会，好吗？”夫人说。 “那太麻烦了。” “不必顾虑他，他很晚才能回来呢。今晚你就别回去了。” 看到夫人一动不动地盯着自己，冬子感到有一股电流传遍全身。 “今晚一定让你一醉方休。” “那真让我为难。” “你一向是个听话的人，不过有时象戴上了面具似的。” "no……" “你瞒我也没用，很了解你。” 就好象有了一次肉体结合的体验，夫人意味深长地笑着说。“你就不想和我在一起吗？” "..." “很想吧。” 如果说不想那是撒谎，喝完酒回家，或一个人独寝，夜里突然醒来时就有一种若有所失的感觉。 “那次以后，你怎么样？”夫人问道。 "..." “和男人拥抱过吗？”夫人接着问道。 "No……" “一次也没有？”夫人笑着，又马上移开了视线。 “谁比较好呢？” "..." 象是很自然地，夫人用手抚摸着冬子的头发。 “比起男人来，还是我好吧？” Isn't it.冬子这么想着，可全身就象被锁住似的动不了。 洗过澡的夫人，身体上散发出一种清香的气息。 “去洗洗澡吧。”夫人用温柔的语调说。那可不是在店里主人与客人的关系，而是一种女人间的亲密之情。 冬子坐起来，也围上了浴巾。 “今天舒服吗？”夫人问道。 "..." “喂，喝点吧。” “我已经……” "let it go." 夫人自己倒了一杯啤酒，可能是太渴了，一口气就喝了下去。 “和男人不一样吧，可还是挺好的。你不满意吗？” “不是……”冬子轻轻地摇了摇头。 “你真敏感。和贵志在一起也是这样吗？” "..." “太让人嫉妒了，所以贵志离不开你呀。” “别说了。” “你手术后，变得越快活了。” "Nothing." “别瞒我了。以前我也是马马虎虎，可手术后，精力也越来越旺盛了。” “真的吗？”冬子奇怪地问。 “心情一舒畅，心里就踏实。” 同样一种病，做的手术也一样，可不同人感觉也不一样。夫人说手术后兴致反而旺盛，而冬子却变得越来越冷淡。 那么，两人感觉不同是什么原因呢？ ... 此外还让冬子有些不解的是，与夫人一起感受到的，和贵志在一起就不能得到。 如果说喜欢贵志和夫人之中的谁，