Chapter 2 Case2. Between economic marriage and cheating

Carrie. 35.company director. I only have titles and no sex with my husband I have a so-called husband. Sometimes, I think I am Clinton's wife: strong, ambitious, capable, patient, generous, in short, a strong woman who has everything except love.But this is hitting a woman's Achilles' heel: the most powerful woman finally hopes to have a love that will last until death and has no regrets.I own the world, I'm young enough to be able to make the wind and rain in the enterprise, to do a good job in the business, but I'm just the wife of so-and-so, man, I really forgot what Clinton's wife's name is.Is this the fate of women?

The husband is the so-called husband, because the relationship between us has long existed in name only, and we are just a couple in name only, and we still have a name. It is all for the company, and we are afraid that the separation will affect the customer's confidence in the company. We are all calculating people, know how to build relationships and grasp favors. It can be said that the entire corporate kingdom is a whitewashed show. When necessary, I will attend big scenes with him and talk about business. I am the best so-and-so Madam, her husband's right-hand man, is full of Song Meiling's demeanor, bringing the Chinese people to the peak of the world stage.My foreign language ability is better than that of my husband, and I negotiate almost all foreign orders, so I often travel to other places, leaving him a chance to enjoy himself in China.

I have no regrets because I simply have no leeway, nothing to do.He is a playboy, and he had countless love histories before he got married. We can also be regarded as a "political" marriage, the result of the manipulation of the parents of both parties.It may not be fair to say this, because we were really in love at the beginning, and he gave up a few beautiful girls who he had been dating for a long time for me. Maybe men are actual animals, and they will temporarily please her when they identify a marriage partner. At that time, I thought I was very lucky to be adopted by a playboy to sacrifice for me. Of course, within half a year after marriage, all my dreams were shattered.

I can be bothered, but I dare not My husband likes flowers, so can I.Fortunately, I have a strong appearance and can comfort myself rationally. Unfortunately, I know how to think and dare not do it.This is my biggest shortcoming: I am a strong woman on the outside, but I am a small bird on the inside. How long has it been since you made out with your husband?The last time was probably 3 years ago. It’s not that I haven’t hugged in the past few years, but I feel too hypocritical and too formulaic. It’s the grievance that when he wants sex for a moment, he is not surrounded by others but me. It’s really uncomfortable.After such so-called intimacy several times, I would rather escape, and even stated that I didn't want it, in exchange for his disdainful eyes and my torn self-esteem.This man who has slept with me for many years, what is left between us?

You can only make yourself busy. And at work, I encountered delicate A. A is an important client of ours. He was originally from Beijing. He moved to Hong Kong many years ago and is now developing in South Korea.I have known him for 3 years, and I have been ambiguous with him for a year and a half.I can only say ambiguous, because there was no physical relationship between us, but we had intimate physical contact. When it comes to feelings, I think I love him very much, but he is already his husband and I am his wife.It's unfortunate that the title has hung on us for many years. Everyone is unhappy, and it's the marriage that caused the trouble.

A initially pursued me actively, and I developed a relationship with him in other places behind my husband's back.At that time, because I just found out that my husband had made a woman pregnant, he wanted to hide his beauty in a golden house, and even bought a house for her. I was hit hard and fell into A's arms and cried all night.He kissed me, very softly.I said to him, "I don't want to be Clinton's wife, and I don't want to take this anymore. He has the guts to divorce me!" I cried into tears, and he kissed away my tears.I got my first taste of what it's like to be heartbroken by a man inside his brand new BMW.His hug is so warm that it melts the snow outside the small window and lights up my heart.How long has it been since you have tasted the feeling of being in love and being loved?I wish I could continue entangled with him physically, but the morality and reality of disappointment force me back.He said: "Don't you want to do it with me?" I said: "I can't afford it." I was so upset that I pushed the car door and walked into the snow and fog.

In this way, he and I are reluctant to let go, but we can't go any further.My husband didn't know about it. I think if he knew, he would definitely not let me go, because he wants to save face and is a conservative big man.He can spend, but I can't, because I am a woman.Because I don't want to have children, he has a reason to find a woman.In fact, I'm also glad that he is too busy flirting with women and has no time and energy to take care of my private affairs.I am also happy to live my free life outside under the banner of a business trip. I would rather be alone, shopping with my friends, talking about the plot of the series with my close friends, and now I have an affair with A.I thought, if he hadn't already had a wife and I couldn't get rid of my so-called husband, I would have already had a relationship with him.

Repeatedly deviant beyond the psychological threshold A said that I was too depressed, and I should let go of my knots and let go of myself when I was with him.He wanted to do that kind of thing with me, but after thinking about it, I didn’t have many moral thoughts left. Anyway, my heart has already been cast on him. The problem is this knot: I am afraid that I will not be able to Let go of him. As I said, I am a strong person on the surface, but I am actually a little woman. If I have a physical relationship with the man I love, I will be even more inseparable from him and will find a way to be with him. However, the road we are facing is too complicated. It's difficult, unless I give up everything, including reputation, status and wealth, and he, too, will be charged with abandoning his wife and fly away with me, a married woman.

I get annoyed when I think about it.He and I are realistic people and we can't give up everything we've worked so hard for, especially him.In fact, his wife is also a great contributor to his career, and he would not abandon her and stay with me, an unruly woman.The worldly vision and the burden of love make us doomed to take this insulated road of love, and God is so cruel to me. A began to be dissatisfied, and I also understood that the man actually only wanted to find some physical satisfaction to make up for the lack of emotion.He wants my body, and he loves me too, but I just thought about it and made him lose his temper. If I say quit, it's better to break up.I cried and blamed him for putting pressure on me, that he didn't love me and only wanted sex.He softened again, coaxed me, and said sorry, but I know that if this continues, the gap between me and him will become wider and wider. He is also a mortal, and sooner or later he will find another woman. qualified to protest or complain?Thinking of this, I feel even more desperate.

Me and him, from the beginning to the present, are nothing.A word of love, how weak, as unrealistic as a teenage student falling in love.I can't give him sex, just like my husband and I don't have a sexual relationship, it's nothing but a shell, isn't it? Su Hei Analysis: You can be Hillary, not Clinton's wife.You are still you, not a man's appendage.But the price is high, because the emptiness without love and the inability to openly seek it must be endured. This is a political marriage. Carrie's marriage is economic, and there are rules of the game behind it. She has to maintain her relationship with her husband. She can't go off the rails and love her.At this stage of career success, can she "get both money and sex"?If she can't give up her career and reputation for love, there will be very little she can do, and it will be even more difficult to find love.This is the price.

Hillary loves power more than love, so she is Hillary; Carrie is still hovering around love and money, so she can't help herself, and knows her pain. She has two paths: one is to pursue love, find ideal sex, be independent and self-love, manage herself well, and strive for freedom.To do this, she must give up her husband and lover.A lover with a family and unconditional love with her is simply the wrong choice for an affair.The second is to be realistic, to be the Carrie version of Hillary, to make up for the loneliness of the soul with material comfort and power pleasure.Some women can be like this, some women don't want to be like this but choose to be like this in the end, and some women's only goal is to be like this at all. Carrie can only honestly ask what kind of woman she is and how she should choose her own path. First deal with the relationship with your husband that has gone wrong. If you find that you are reluctant to give up your wealth and career achievements, then you have to be realistic and put your love on it. Don't complain. Exposure will affect your career and interests. Whether you want to have sex with your lover depends on whether you can deal with a sexual relationship with no future, whether you can bear the pain of separation after a short-term enjoyment. The world is not perfect, we can only be self-sufficient and manage ourselves well. The most lethal thing in married life is not extramarital affairs, It's inertia, which teaches feelings to stop. It is dangerous to think that you can grasp everything about each other and each other's future.