Chapter 13 【Serial 9】When love is a thing of the past

In 1991, Yingda's father vomited blood for the first time.At that time, blood spurted out of my mouth like water in a faucet, and I was so frightened by the scene that I screamed.This happened several times from 1994 to 1996.After a long time, I got used to it, and every time I encountered this situation, I would show abnormal composure.I will send him to the hospital as quickly as possible, and then start a long wait.When the bed was allowed in the ward, I set up a camp bed, and when the bed couldn't be extended, I curled up on the sofa and lived there for a few months. "Go and do your work," I said to Yingda, "I can do it alone."

The old man suffered from alcoholic cirrhosis. Before he vomited blood, he would hold a glass of whiskey with ice cubes in his hand every night. After he vomited blood, he didn't even dare to eat wine.He's been sick for so long that I've completely become "special care."I borrowed medical books to study the pathology of liver cirrhosis, and I know how to rescue him and what medicine to infuse if something happens to him.I use the hospital's microwave to cook two meals a day for him. He needs to eat very soft food. The rice grains eaten by normal people may tear his esophagus.I'm also in charge of washing his feet, scrubbing his body, and cutting his nails

He lives in Xiehe Hospital.In the past, most of the medical staff of "Xiehe" lived in the hospital. They didn't see the sun for a long time, and almost all of them were pale. They called themselves "Xiehe face".One day, a nurse said to me: "Song Dandan, you also have a harmonious face." I once passed out after not sleeping for 48 hours. I once ate instant noodles for 10 days in a row. No one asked me, "How did you solve your eating problem?" and no one asked me, "Do you need to go back and take a shower?" The one time I didn't close my eyes for almost 48 hours, the third day I went out to buy drinks for old people.When I walked into the ward with two bags of drinks and ran into Yingda’s cousin Yingning and his wife, my eyes suddenly went dark and I fainted on the bed.I woke up crying and said I needed help, someone needed a shift and I was going to sleep!

It's not that Yingda doesn't help me, first of all he is very busy.He is either doing post-processing for the last film, or preparing for the next scene.And over the years, the concepts of "Dandan can do anything" and "Dandan doesn't need or like help from others" have been deeply ingrained in his mind. I remember an old man who had a high fever, talked nonsense, and had hallucinations for several days, which scared me so much that I didn't dare to take a good rest for a long time.Finally one day in the middle of the night, I fell asleep on the "bed" made of 3 chairs.At 3:30 in the morning, my pager beeped loudly.Get up and open it:

Thank you for keeping me safe and I will always love you. Inda This is him, when you need affection, he always exudes the warmth that makes you fall apart. I don't know which day our love slipped away quietly.In those years, I only knew that I was busy with work outside the home.No wife gives her husband more freedom than I do.I forgot to act like a baby, to be protected, to be given the tenderness and consideration I deserved.I was just busy giving and telling my relatives: "It doesn't matter, the world is peaceful, no matter how difficult it is, I can handle it alone."

To be honest, I was exhausted in those years, I reached my limit, and I was going to collapse.After the divorce, Yingda also said to me: "You should give me a little premonition and let me know that you can't support anymore."