Chapter 10 Chapter 11 Jumping from a height of 5,500 meters, you have 55 seconds to choose between life and death

——I can't erase the scars left in my heart Interview time: Monday, December 8, 1997 at 1:30PM Interview location: "Beijing Youth Daily·Youth Weekend" office Name: Tang Jin Sex: Male Age: 28 years old Graduated from the university majoring in law, a skydiver, now acting as an agent for a communication equipment company in the United States, and starting a communication equipment company. I'm not that good at dealing with women - that's what money is for people who make money, and especially good things for people who don't - so many years in business Field mix.The old thief was deceived by the little thief—I really didn’t believe that we had such a good relationship, and we could break up with just a word—I admit that some money was not so glorious—the better she treats me, the better I feel. I think there is a story in it—fate has a beginning and an end, what is yours is yours, and what is not yours will leave you in the end—maybe all men think so, and women all over the world have learned it badly It doesn't matter, as long as one's wife is a good person—feelings are really weird, no matter how good a person is, no matter how bad a person is, they can't hide from these two words

When Tang Jin called me, I was interviewing outside.What he left on my pager was this sentence: "I read your article and wanted to chat with you. I don't know if you will call me back." I don't know if the lady on the pager forgot to put a comma or he talked too much Urgent doesn't need punctuation at all. He told me on the phone: "I am even more stupid than the person you wrote. My girlfriend told me that I lost my mobile phone, computer, checks and cash that day. After she left, I made a deal." It didn't work out, and now I can't even sleep..." I made an appointment with him in two days.

On Monday, December 8, 1997, Tang came to the newspaper office to look for me.He is not tall, but looks very strong.He looks very simple, a sportswear-style down jacket with a clean shirt and a plain tie. When we sat down in an empty office, the first thing he said was, "I've only had two solid nights of sleep since I got off the phone with you, and there's no one around me who can sit and listen to what I'm saying. thing." Tang Jin is the only "big money" among my interviewees. He acts as an agent for an American company, owns a shop and operates communication equipment, and is also a lawyer.In his own words: "For people like us, making money is our career."

Speaking of which, we met on the train. Tang Jin smiled a little embarrassedly, as if he was asking if I thought their way of understanding did not meet the usual criteria for judgment.I didn't comment, and he laughed it off. Returning to Beijing from Tianjin, she came to Beijing to play with a classmate.She looked so small at the time, I thought she was just a high school student.So I took good care of them along the way, and even sent them to the university they were going to when they arrived in Beijing.I think it's over.As a result, a few days later, I received a letter from one of the girls who was studying medicine at university in Tianjin.

At that time, I was working alone in Tianjin, and I still couldn't believe that she was a college student.On Saturdays and Sundays, I went to school to look for her.We both love sports. I was born as an athlete who practiced skydiving, and now I still lead students.I play table tennis with her.At that time, I just felt that there was nothing to do on weekends, and it was boring to be alone in the Tianjin branch. Tang Jin waved his hand and said that he should tell me some of his personal situation first.He went to a sports college in middle school, and then went directly to university, where he majored in law, but after graduation he worked in communications.Now he also takes some students practicing skydiving.

It should be said that I have been playing with her for more than a year, and I am not good at dealing with women.It was not until September of 1996 that I asked her if she would like to make friends with me. At that time, she had already graduated from university.At this point I want to interrupt.I arranged for her to be assigned to Beijing after graduation, her household registration, etc., and I spent about 100,000 yuan for her.Money, I don't care.After she agreed to make friends with me, I bought a house in Tianjin, very close to her school.Later, I bought her a BP machine, and she said that the BP machine was not easy to use, so I bought her a mobile phone and taught her how to drive. When she learned how to drive, I spent money to buy her a car notebook.Originally, I planned to get married this year. I thought I would buy her a car when I got married.It can be said that I have used my relationship to earn some money these years, but this year is different, because of the changes between me and her, I hardly do any business.After we blew it, I can say that I lost all fighting spirit.

We didn’t have any signs before we blew it. She said on May 1 this year that she wanted to play with her classmates. I gave her 10,000 yuan, but I didn’t accompany her because it happened to be my father’s memorial day. hometown.But when I came back, I found that she didn't go, she said she was to accompany me.I was very moved, so I said to take her out to play, and we went to Mount Wutai. I will return to Beijing on May 3rd, and I will go to Xi'an on a business trip on May 4th.When I called back from Xi'an, she said, "Let's break up." I asked her why, and she said there was no reason but she hated me.In good conscience, I think I did not feel sorry for her during the good days with her.She hung up the phone and turned off the phone.My mind was very confused. There were a lot of thieves in Xi'an at that time. I told you that I lost a lot of things this time.

Tang Jin touched his head and smiled helplessly.His expression seemed to say: You see, even a man like me would do this for a woman. I called and told her I lost all my belongings and money and all she said was "serve it".One of my partners in Tianjin said to me: "If you do this for a woman, we don't do anything. Or I'll beat you up!" But I was really in a bad mood.When I got back to Beijing, I immediately went to find her, but she refused to see me.I went back to the house I bought in Fangzai to get married, packed my things, and called her and said, "I'm moving out, this house belongs to you." At that time, we were already living together. relationship, and has been preparing to marry.I've always felt that money is what matters to those who make money, and it's a very good thing to those who don't.I really didn't care about the money back then.When I bought the house, I used her ID card. The owner of the house is equal to her. I paid for it but I don’t own it. Now she still lives in this house.I think we both love each other sincerely, so what should we do?Now it seems that I am really "big head".After so many years of messing around in the business field, the thief from the old family let the thief from the small family deceive him.

It’s ridiculous to say that on July 1st, the day when Hong Kong’s return was celebrated, I was arrested and stayed in the police station for one night, because I was looking for her, and I was still on the street in the middle of the night, with no documents on me, and a lot of money. and mobile phone.At that time, I was walking around the street in Fangzhuang, and I thought she was eating at a nearby restaurant. I thought I could wait for her just by walking around like this, so stupid! When Tang Jin smiled, he didn't have the air of a businessman at all, instead he had a kind of honesty that is not often seen in this kind of people.He was always laughing at himself, asking me from time to time: "Sister An, am I stupid?" I also nodded bluntly and said, "It's stupid enough." Then we laughed together.

I found her once in July and gave her a suet jade bracelet, but she broke it in front of me.I said to her at the time: "You don't need to throw things if you don't get along with me. This is also bought with money. One day you will be poor in the future, you can use it to exchange for a meal." At that time, I was preparing to go to the United States. I said please give me some time, and I will give her a satisfactory result when I come back.At that time, I really didn't believe that we had such a good relationship that we could break up with just one sentence. When I returned to Beijing in October, she said that there was nothing more to talk about, "If you need me, I will return the house to you".I said I don't need it, and the house was given to her.Then I let go of the company's affairs and went to Tibet alone. I just came back the day I called you.I thought it was all over, but it still wasn't.I'm also looking for you because I need someone to sit here and listen to me talk about myself.What I face in the company is either customers or our business partners. To put it bluntly, I want to make money from these people. I can only flatter them or play with them, or they are subordinates. I want to maintain a dignity .

Tang Jin grinned. Of course, it is also strong in the outside world.During that time, I often went back to the sports team, and those young students could teach me a lesson, which was a kind of venting.Skydiving is a test of people's endurance. If you are not in good psychological condition, you must not go to the sky.At that time, I was very depressed, but I was still in heaven.Twice, I didn't open the umbrella bag until the last limit time.We were jumping from a height of 5500 meters, and for 55 seconds, I asked myself: "To live or to die?" Tang Jin's face became very confused in an instant.I asked an extremely feminine question: What should I do if I don't have time to open the umbrella bag?He shook his head tactfully. Absolutely not.I started to learn skydiving when I was 7 years old, and it has been more than 20 years now, and I can completely master it by myself. Tang Jin’s narration is a bit confusing. I don’t think there is any need to block a person like this, because he is used to playing tricks in the business field and talking to people only in threes. If I am called “ People from "Sister An" can't go straight to him, then he will definitely be very disappointed in our meeting.So I said: "Tell me more about the two of you. I know what you want to talk about most is how you guys are blowing and how you are having a hard time, but I still don't know how good you two are and what is the relationship between you two." How wonderful, you don't even want to live." Tang Jin sank deeply into the chair, making him look a little short.He thought for a while and found a topic. As for her, her parents are both present, she has an older brother, she is the youngest, and her economic conditions are average. Her parents are honest farmers.In fact, she has never lived that kind of rich life, but she can just be with me. For example, if she likes a coat, she can buy it without asking the price; Buy 100 tickets for her, so that she can go anytime; she can use my car anytime; when she was still on the university campus, she was the first girl with a BP machine and a mobile phone... I have always been materially To satisfy her as much as possible... Tang Jin raised his head and took a deep look at me. There was a hint of anger-like toughness in his eyes, and the original ridicule and cynicism were missing. I think I really love her. I suddenly realized that in Tang Jin's superficial ease, there is actually a lot of mistrust and inability to let go. He has inadvertently chosen all the aspects of the things he wants to tell, except for the face of strangers. In addition to the normal pedicle and his habitual fortification as a businessman, another reason is our gender difference.Maybe he thinks it's unseemly for a man who can almost be described as successful to talk about his cohabitation life in front of a woman like me.So I made the necessary self-introduction, and also repeated the principles and ways of talking between us.He pondered for a while, expressed his understanding and was willing to cooperate. My family should be regarded as the kind of senior cadres. I made friends with her and everyone in the family objected. My relatives and my mother said that they would not help her with anything in the future. Their main idea was that the door Improper, wrong account.But in the end I still used my family connections for things like her work.We started living together when we were in Tianjin.I feel like I paid a lot.There are many examples that can be cited.She herself is a medical student, but her stomach hurts so much that I take care of her. At that time, I came back from a business trip in Lanzhou and took her to the hospital immediately.My friends think there is something wrong with me, as for?I love her very much, and my wish to find her is actually to find a companion. There is someone at home who is delicate and can chat casually.To be honest, not all the businesses I do are legal. Of course, I have never done anything that harms people, especially Chinese people, but I admit that some money is not so glorious.We had been living in one house, but nothing happened. Sometimes she would read novels or professional books at home, and I would do my work in another room, which was quite peaceful.I am a law student, and sometimes I help others write some things. I am more interested in the kind of high-intelligence things. Tang Jin seemed to be dodging something, he only said that people who study law are very good at "playing tricks", and then changed the topic to other places. There may be some places where I feel sorry for her, such as when I got into a fight with someone, or maybe even...maybe it's an intelligent crime...I didn't tell her.I think it's enough for her to live comfortably, and she doesn't need to know so much.There are some differences between us, such as origin and family.But I don't think I have any sense of superiority, so I didn't really take these things as things to tell her.After she came to my house for the first time, she complained about me, saying that we were not suitable and that the status was too different.I said: "Home is home, I am me." But when we were talking about friends, I often found that she had a sense of superiority. She was better off than her classmates, had an easy job and had a bright future.This is also using our family's relationship, and relying on my money. I'm willing to spend money for her, but it's not that the more she spends my money, the happier I will be.Sometimes she saves me a lot.For example, when we went to other places, she suggested staying in a guest house, and not taking a taxi when we could not, it was symbolic. Tang Jin returned to that cynical look again. I just don't understand why she blows on me.You said, I can give you money; Some time ago, I asked a friend how she was doing, and they said she was fine.I felt very uncomfortable at the time, and I said, even if everything is my fault, I asked that person to tell her, as long as she needs money, tell me, if she still thinks that we can be together, then I still will marry her... Tang Jin lowered his head as if talking to himself. I know that there are some places in Beijing that can do that kind of surgery, that is... to repair those who are no longer virgins... I have prepared a sum of money for her, so that I will have a little peace of mind. Probably Tang Jin frowned subconsciously when he saw me. He didn't say which hospital it was, but told me that it was very expensive. The first time for both of us... I lied to myself, it's embarrassing to say.I... can't prove she's a virgin.That day we laid out one of my white shirts... she didn't bleed, I pricked my own hand and spilled blood on it when she went to the bathroom... Tang Jin hesitated for a long time under my surprised gaze. I think this is the only way to prove that I really love her.Then I set that shirt on fire.In fact, she is not a very beautiful girl, but I cherish her very much, because I think she cares about our relationship very much, and she believes in me, otherwise, how could she have that kind of relationship with me?For the first time, it should be said that she took the initiative.We attended a friend's wedding together that day, and everyone was joking around.On the way back to Tianjin, she asked me that we wouldn't be so embarrassed when we got married, right?I also forgot where we started talking, and she suddenly started crying.When I arrived in Tianjin, she asked me to buy contraceptives.To be honest, she is the first girl I have contacted, and I have no experience in this area. ... and then there was the first time.I was really a little scared at the time, maybe our education is different.I remember the two of us seem to have joked that she was not a virgin, and she was very sad.But when she saw the wound on my hand, she said nothing.The next day she cooked for me, which I never had before, and bought me a new shirt... Anyway, she was very kind to me.But the nicer she is to me, the more I think there is a story in it, but I never asked her anything, I think it doesn't matter, as long as she really loves me. ...I feel so stupid.Later, I asked the Taoist of Baiyun Temple why the wound on my hand could not be healed. A small cut left such a big scar. The Taoist said that the wound was on my heart and it would not heal. Tang Jin stretched out his hand to show me, there was indeed a deep scar, definitely not just a small cut like he said. I think I love her deeply enough.Several times, I was in Beijing and she was studying in Tianjin. She called me at night and said she missed me, so I drove to see her overnight.It was morning when I arrived, and I liked it, because I thought she would see me as soon as she woke up.At that time, her mobile phone bill was more than 2,000 yuan a month, and we chatted like this when we were not together.She is a very willful person, I almost always around her.Once, I went on a business trip to the headquarters of the American company we represented, and when I called back, she said, "Come back, I miss you very much." At that time, I thought that men earn money just to make the woman they love happy. ?His own woman is unhappy, and everything a man does is nonsense.In the end, in order to make her happy, I just shortened the trip and came back early. No matter what I have done for her, she still left me.She is my first woman, and men actually care about their first time.And I thought that if I had money, I could keep my relationship. From her, I knew that was not the case.In the past six months, I have lived a dawdling life.Sometimes I think it doesn’t matter without her. I do work during the day, drink and play bridge at night, and fall asleep when I’m tired. It’s a good day when I wake up.It's just that I feel a little depressed, and no one can let me talk about my heart.I believe in fate.When I went to Tibet this time, I met a lama. He also told me that things like fate have a beginning and an end. What is yours is yours, and what is not yours will eventually leave you.I believe. In fact, emotionally, my wish is very simple. A woman loves me and lives with me well. It is best to be peaceful and quiet. People like us probably value sincerity and faith more than anyone else, because our This kind of thing is missing in the world.And I think I'm very traditional, a woman gave me her most precious thing, if I wronged her, who else could she go to?Maybe that's why I'm following her in particular.I met a lot of women in my business, and they were all prettier than her, and they could do anything.I admit that I have not been moved.Those women came here for the money and left after taking the money, but she was different.She knows that I have money and we have enough to eat and drink, but she doesn't know how much money I have and how to make money. I asked her what would I do if I were poor, and what she said really touched me. She said that she should be A doctor, I'm a lawyer, we can live well together.Maybe all men think so, it doesn't matter if women all over the world are bad, as long as their wives are good people. Up to now, the credit card she uses is still my secondary card, which can be spent but not saved, and I didn't ask her for it.The credit card will expire, and I will cancel the supplementary card at that time.The house did not come back either.I don't want it anymore.And if there is selfishness, I have selfishness in this house.I'm sure if she gets another boyfriend, she won't be able to explain where the house came from unless she sells it.And everyone around her knows that I bought this house for her. Other people's comments are enough to torture her, and I don't need to come back.Maybe it's worse to think so. Tang Jin seemed to think he was very sly and smiled. I can't be a fool all the time. I said Tang Jin, you are still stupid enough, isn't it a lot of money to sell the house?He blinked. I don't think I'm not kind. After all, she has been sincere to me, and she deserves the money. I also saw her after we broke up, in the Contemporary Mall.When I saw her, I went over and asked her if she wanted money.The people who came with me called me "sick" and said that if you have money and nowhere to spend it, you can pay for the big guys.She changed a lot that day.His hair was permed and his eyebrows tattooed.She turned out to be a girl who never dressed up. I once took her to a jewelry store and asked her to choose the jewelry she liked, but she didn't want anything.And I like girls with long hair, she has straight hair all the time, she said she doesn't like women with perms.That day I knew that I was really "out of play".If she is like this, if it is not for starting a so-called new life, then it must be for a man who likes her. Tang Jin looked at me silently, as if confirming whether I agree with his thoughts.I told you a detail I heard from somewhere. A couple had been divorced for a long time. One day they met on the street. Let Tang Jin guess what it is.He smiled and shook his head.I told him that the former wife had a pair of expensive CHANEL earrings on her ears.Her ex-husband hated women getting their ears pierced the most.Tang Jin wanted to laugh but he didn't. He was not as chic as he designed.Instead, his expression appeared uncomfortable, and he said he "deeply sympathized".After another silence, he said that he would tell me a story too, even if it was the end of our conversation. I don't talk nonsense in front of you.This is a real thing.I was young then, like fifteen or sixteen years old.There are boys and girls in the skydiving team. One day, something happened to a skydiving team from other places. A girl who was training fell to her death because the parachute bag could not be opened.Everyone thinks it was an accident, the girl is so pitiful.As a result, I filed a lawsuit with the umbrella factory, and finally the umbrella factory lost a sum of money.This matter is over.No matter how my life has changed over the years, the only thing I haven't left is skydiving.The year before last, by chance, I went with the students to the skydiving team where the girls were. Everyone had to put things in the boxes, so there were many people and few boxes.I found one box covered in dust and locked.I asked a practitioner to pry it open, and there was a small plastic bag inside.I was curious, and when I opened it, it was a diary.I didn't expect it to be such a coincidence that something that happened many years would be revealed to me.The diary belongs to the dead girl.There is no problem with Umbrella. She committed suicide because of a broken relationship. Tang Jin looked at the scar on his hand. I don't know if I'm the first person to see this diary, but I secretly burned the diary, it's best that no one will ever understand such a thing.I have always regarded this as a story in my heart. Feelings are really weird. No matter how good or bad a person is, you can't escape these two words. When Tang Jin left the newspaper office, it was already the time when the lights were flickering. He said that he felt a lot calmer in his heart, "I didn't expect talking to be so useful."I asked him if he had any plans for the future, and he thought for a while and said, "Now I really want to do something in a really poor area, such as investment, and I should be very happy to help some people. My parents That's what they did, of course their way is different from mine, isn't it called a peaceful age now? I think it's too narrow to wait for a woman to help me spend money, and I won't commit this kind of stupidity again." One day after New Year's Day in 1998, Tang Jin called me, and I called back right away. It sounded like he was in good spirits. He said, "Sister An, I'm leaving tomorrow to go to a county in Gansu for inspection. I will choose a project related to the local economic conditions to do there. Is this better than donating a year’s tuition to a primary school student? I will leave you a permanent mobile phone number, you can find it anywhere Look at me, if I'm stupid, wouldn't someone still be able to scold me?"