Chapter 15 Part IV: Ten Years of Wind and Rain-1

The early spring of 1974 was a time of turmoil. The spearhead of "criticizing Lin and Confucius" was directed at Premier Zhou.Then, the movie "China" incident, Jiang Qing's letter to the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, etc., caused a mess of the Ministry of Foreign Affairs.It was supposed to be the perfect time for our honeymoon, but we had to deal with the constant vicissitudes of life every day.Really exhausting at the end of the day.In the first half of 1971, Guanhua was hospitalized due to tuberculosis and vomiting blood. After being discharged from the hospital, she became very thin and weak.Especially in winter, I have the old disease of coughing and bronchitis every year.After I lived with him, I realized that it was mainly because he could say that he was called up once or twice every night by urgent mail all year round.The temperature was low in winter, so he got up from the hot bed to pick up the documents, and then went back to sleep after the approval, his weak body naturally couldn't bear it.After we got married, I took over the documents for him at night, and he could read and approve them in bed, avoiding the cold, so he didn't have any old problems this year.Having a stable home is the greatest comfort for Guanhua in difficult times.

At this time, an extremely important turning point appeared in the political situation.After Premier Zhou decided to be hospitalized for surgery, Chairman Mao resolutely decided that Comrade Deng Xiaoping would preside over the work of the central government and the government.A glimmer of hope appeared in the dim sky. In April, the chairman suggested by name that Comrade Deng Xiaoping lead a delegation to participate in the special session of the General Assembly, and appointed Guanhua to assist.The Chairman's decision came suddenly, but the Ministry of Foreign Affairs was overjoyed.The doubts that had weighed on people's minds for nearly a year disappeared. While they were infinitely anxious about Premier Zhou's illness, Comrade Xiaoping's administration finally gave people a glimmer of hope.Guanhua was so excited that he assisted Comrade Deng Xiaoping in writing the special UN General Assembly report in only three days, in which he put forward a new viewpoint of dividing the three worlds based on Chairman Mao's incisive analysis and Comrade Xiaoping's instructions. It provoked a strong reaction from Member States.This has been an extremely enjoyable task.Comrade Deng Xiaoping met with the heads of delegations from many countries in just one week, which attracted the attention of the world.As Comrade Xiaoping's assistant, Guanhua was in a great mood.At that time, Comrade Deng Xiaoping had the habit of getting up early and going to bed early.But Guanhua happened to go to bed late and wake up late.But he made sure he would be up for breakfast at seven o'clock.As a result, of course, I often can't get up.Several times Comrade Deng Xiaoping would walk from one end of his bedroom in the tenth-floor long corridor to outside our bedroom on the other end of the corridor at seven o'clock, shouting in a strong Sichuan accent: "Master Qiao, get up and have breakfast!" Chang laughed and said he was blocked again!At that meeting, Guanhua said that his nickname "Master Qiao" was first given by Comrade Deng Xiaoping in the 1960s, and later it almost became synonymous with Qiao Guanhua.I think apart from Premier Zhou, the leader Guanhua relies on the most is Comrade Deng Xiaoping.I believe Comrade Xiaoping also understands him.Therefore, when the political disaster at the end of 1975 came and Comrade Xiaoping was in a difficult situation, Guanhua completely lost his support.Recall that by early 1976, the situation had deteriorated further.Guanhua went to seek help from Comrade Xiaoping.Several comrades from the Ministry of Foreign Affairs and I waited anxiously for his return.But Guanhua looked depressed as soon as he came back, and we hurriedly asked what was going on.He said: "I see that Comrade Xiaoping is very tired, and his hands tremble slightly when writing. I have never had it before. How can I trouble him and make it difficult for him!" To die, put him in a cell, and it was Comrade Xiaoping who stopped him.Later, before Guanhua’s cancer operation, the leaders of the Ministry of Foreign Affairs wanted to cancel his high-ranking medical treatment, and it was Comrades Xiaoping and Wang Zhen who protected Guanhua.Although Guanhua was never able to meet Comrade Xiaoping, he always remembered the care he received when he was in trouble.

At that special session of the General Assembly, I acted as the English translator for Comrade Deng Xiaoping.Before departure, Comrade Xiaoping told us that he was hard of hearing and that we should speak louder when translating.I usually speak quite loudly, so I said there is no problem, and I ensure that Comrade Xiaoping can hear clearly.But when translating live, I still intentionally raised the volume.Finally one day, when I was halfway through the book, Comrade Xiaoping turned around and said, "Please lower your voice, it's too loud!" After returning from the special session of the General Assembly, the situation has completely changed.Because it was Chairman Mao himself who ordered Comrade Deng Xiaoping to take charge of government work, even those troublemakers in the central government dared not openly oppose it.The foreign ministry finally found stability again.It was a rare period of peace.Although the situation of the leading group in the ministry is extremely abnormal, there is no system of collective decision-making, no decision-making power of the ministers, but major and minor matters are "communicated" by "communicative figures" and they frequently reprimand lessons, but everyone believes that as long as Comrade Deng Xiaoping is leading Post, the big situation will not be chaotic.

That period of time, from the summer of 1974 to the end of summer and early autumn of 1975, was also a relatively stable and peaceful period in the family life of Guanhua and I, perhaps it could be said to be the only period in ten years!Guanhua's body is getting healthier, her weight has returned to normal, and her face is rosy.His life is also more regular.Once Comrade Huang Zhen returned to Washington, Guanhua and I went to the airport to see him off.I chatted with other comrades in the department outside the lounge. When I entered the room, Comrade Huang Zhen shouted: "The breeder is here!" Everyone laughed, and I didn't know why.Comrade Zhu Lin said with a smile: "We all say that Lao Qiao is very healthy now. It has been many years since he looked so good. Lao Huang said that it was thanks to a good breeder at home who fed the cow so well. .”

Guanhua cherishes our hard-won love and our family very much.Whenever I come home after a tiring day, after I help him change into casual clothes, he always likes to lie in his beloved rattan chair, drink a sip of his favorite Biluochun tea, and ask me to lean against him and gently Clapping my hands, I muttered to myself: "Darling, how nice this is! This is our home for both of us!" Guanhua cared about me all the time in his own way.I remember that at the beginning of June 1974, I went to the countryside for the Ministry of Foreign Affairs to harvest wheat.At that time, during the wheat harvest season every year, cadres from various central agencies would go to the countryside to help the commune harvest wheat.I set off on a big truck at three in the morning, went to the field before dawn, and finished work in the afternoon.It is indeed hard labor, and my legs will hurt for many days after one day.Leading cadres at the division level took the lead in participating.That time when I got home, it was already dark, and I was so tired that it was difficult to lift my legs.After taking a quick shower, I lay down in the wicker chair and couldn't move anymore.At this time, the nanny brought a bowl of cold mung bean soup and said: "Mr. Qiao has a banquet tonight. Please tell me that I must make the mung bean soup and let you come back to drink it." The mung bean soup is cold and refreshing, but what flows into my heart is a stream The warmth of warmth!No one has ever cared about me so much in my life. Father's love, mother's love, and husband's love have all flowed into this small bowl.

Just after nine o'clock, Guanhua came back.As soon as I entered the yard, I heard his hurried footsteps and calling loudly: "You're back? Darling, are you back? Are you tired?!" I wanted to stand up and go out to meet him, but my legs couldn't move, so I had to lean on the recliner The handles stand up.At this time, Guanhua had already hurried straight to the study, pushed me back to the recliner with one hand and said, "Don't move, don't move, have you drunk the mung bean soup?" I said yes, it's good.At this time, Guanhua said with a childlike mischievous expression: "I brought you something novel, guess what it is called?" I laughed at why he was so excited.Guanhua took out two light brown objects, shaped and sized like duck eggs, from his two Mao suit pockets, and put them in my hands, saying, "Do you know what these are?" Soft fruity, but never seen.I said I don't know.Guanhua proudly said to me: "This is called Kiwi Fruit! I saw this kind of fruit written somewhere. This is the last fruit served at the New Zealand ambassador's banquet tonight. I ate it for the first time and brought two Come back to you." I saw him dancing and dancing like a child who had done a great deed, so I couldn't help laughing, and I said: "You are a dignified minister, why did the ambassador treat you, you picked two fruits and put them in your pocket , This is outrageous!" Guanhua said confidently: "That's so amazing! There are more good things in China that foreigners have never seen. I said to the ambassador: "Today, my wife went to harvest wheat and work with farmers. I Take these two fruits back to comfort her, and tell her that this is Kiwi Fruit from New Zealand, she must be happy.' The ambassador immediately ordered to take a box, and I said that it would be interesting to only have two on this table. No need to pack it, put it in My sincerity is in my pocket. The ambassador kept saying yes. In fact, this thing still came from China. The Chinese don’t eat or look at it, but let the New Zealanders ship it to China!” Guanhua peeled the fruit with his own hands, and the inside It has emerald green flesh and black sesame-like seeds. It tastes sweet and sour, very delicious.After many years, this kind of fruit appeared on the Chinese market, named kiwi!

The next day, the New Zealand ambassador still asked someone to send two boxes of kiwi fruit to the Ministry for "Deputy Minister Qiao and his wife".Guanhua called the duty to be assigned to the ministers and leaders of the party group and the comrades in the duty room of the general office.After I found out, I told Guanhua that sometimes when he gets emotional, he does things without thinking.The ambassador sent me two more boxes of this fruit after packing it for me. It's not good, don't let people gossip.Guan Hua didn't care, he said: "What's the matter? Whoever likes to talk can tell him to talk. If you don't have time to study everything, who will say what."

Qiao Guanhua is such a free and easy, bold and unrestrained person.I remember one time when we visited France, at the extremely elegant dinner held by the French foreign minister at the Elysee Palace, one of the dishes was chicken legs.Everyone was gentle and elegant, and they used shiny silver knives and forks to cut up the chicken leg meat bit by bit without making a sound, and put it into their mouths in small bites.Guanhua never likes to put on a pose, and deliberately dresses elegantly.He has always advocated a natural and generous style.Halfway through eating on this day, he suddenly said to the French foreign minister: "It is not as convenient for Westerners to eat large pieces of meat with a knife and fork as it is for us Easterners to cut the meat into small pieces and then burn them. If your Excellency allows, I would like to use them like you usually do at home." Grabbing this chicken leg, what do you think?" The French foreign minister also had a diplomatic sense of humor, saying: "Your suggestion is really good! If you agree, I suggest that we all do it!" For a while, the atmosphere of the formal dinner It became very active, and both China and France gnawed on the chicken legs in their own pots.

During another UNGA session, we attended a dinner hosted by Pakistani representatives to the UNGA.During the conversation before the banquet, Guanhua had a lively debate with Professor Brzezinski, who later served as the US Secretary of State.There are many listeners around.Whenever Guanhua is in the middle of a lively discussion, he tends to ignore his surroundings completely and concentrate on his debate.This time too.Just as Guanhua was speaking extremely attentively, a waiter came to him with a silver tray.On the silver plate was a large tall glass, half a bowl of bright red tomato sauce was in the glass, and there was a circle of pink cooked shrimp on the outer edge of the glass.There are small paper napkins and bamboo skewers with colorful flowers on a silver plate.If the guest likes, usually take a napkin, a stick, insert a

Cooked shrimp, dipped in tomato sauce, nodded and thanked the waiter, and put it in the mouth gracefully.At this time, the waiter was standing beside Guanhua, holding out the silver tray to him.But Guanhua turned a blind eye and neither took the shrimp nor signaled not to.Seeing that he was noncommittal, the waiter dared not move.I was Ren Guanhua's translator at the time, and I gently pushed him to order the big cup of shrimp, and asked him if he wanted it.Guanhua seemed to be listening but didn't understand, he glanced at the waiter's silver plate, and while he was still talking, he reached out and grabbed the huge glass in his hand without looking at it, and held it to his chest, one after another. I kept eating shrimp, and ate a small half at once.Many people around pursed their lips and smiled as they watched him argue while eating shrimp.I was a little anxious, no one would hold that cup of shrimps in their hands, if Guanhua ate all the dozen or so shrimps, wouldn't it be a joke? !I quickly took the shrimp cup from him, put it back on the silver plate, and thanked the waiter.Guanhua didn't feel that there was something missing in his hand and mouth, but he was still talking.Later, a foreign representative from the audience came up to me and said, "Please tell your leader, I like him so much! He is so eloquent, so humorous, and has his own unique style! He is a world-class diplomat." He is not a civil servant, I think he is a politician with a poetic temperament!" The representative only knew that I was the translator of the head of the Chinese delegation, but did not know that I was his wife.And I was naturally very proud when I heard these comments.

I think if a mediocre person did something funny like Guanhua's, people might laugh at him.But because of Guanhua's brilliance, wit, and knowledge, his off-the-wall jokes became his style.Every year at the United Nations General Assembly, American newspapers followed Guanhua's figure and made various reports.These reports and photos are more colorful due to Guanhua's unusual temperament.For example, the photo of Guanhua raising his head and laughing when he answered the reporter's question when he took the Chinese seat for the first time with the delegation won the World Press Photo Award.It shows the momentum, confidence and pride of New China.The New York Times had a feature article on Guanhua titled "Joe's Big Laugh".Another interesting photo is Guanhua holding a baby Bengal tiger while visiting the park.When he saw the reporter taking pictures, he laughed and said, "Look, Mr. reporters, what's so scary about a tiger?! It's like a paper tiger!" For the "Paper Tiger" (Paper Tiger).Guanhua has conquered the international community with his skillful diplomacy and his charisma.When New China entered the United Nations for the first time after more than two decades of isolation, her representative, Qiao Guanhua, won glory for the motherland as a world-class diplomat.I firmly believe that one day in the future, when the dust imposed on Guanhua is washed away, the Republic will be proud of having a fighter like Qiao Guanhua in her history! To this day, whenever I look at the long white clouds in the courtyard, I can't help thinking about them.If it weren't for the complicated political environment and the "unique" situation of the Ministry of Foreign Affairs at that time, maybe Guanhua and I would have been very happy in both career and life.But that is just an illusion after all, the reality is harsh, and the answer can only be a sigh! The summer of 1974 to the summer of 1975 was the only time we had a relatively easy time.During that short period of time, Guanhua could sometimes get some fun in life.I still remember that one afternoon in the winter of 1974, we came out after an event in the Great Hall of the People.In the car, I had a whim and proposed to have a meal at a restaurant outside on this rare evening when both of us were free.Guanhua responded immediately and said yes.So we decided to use the three people in the car—Guanhua, myself, and the driver, Comrade Yang Erchun.Guanhua said to eat hot-boiled mutton, so we went to Donglaishun, Lao Yang stopped the car, and Guanhua and I went upstairs first.Dong Laishun's manager was surprised when he saw Guanhua and said that he hadn't been notified of his banquet.Guanhua said with a smile that today is a personal friend.The manager asked which country it was from, and Guanhua said Tanzania.I laughed out loud, Guanhua pinched my hand and joked that there are three people in total, just find a table with two or three catties of mutton, and there is no need to serve cold or hot dishes.I know that the Tanzanian foreign guest that Guanhua is referring to is Lao Yang, because he has a strong body and a dark complexion, and he probably worked in the Tanzanian embassy.The manager said embarrassingly that all the private rooms were full that night, only the banquet hall.Guanhua kept saying yes, yes, just set up a small table.So in the hall where twenty banquet tables can be set, the manager put a small square table in front.At this moment, Lao Yang parked his car and came upstairs.Guanhua patted Lao Yang on the shoulder and said, "This is my old friend from Tanzania." Everyone laughed.I was very happy with this instant mutton meal.All anxieties and troubles were temporarily put aside, and the old manager of Donglaishun stayed there to chat with Guanhua. He talked about the history of Donglaishun, the selection of mutton slices, and also talked about Comrade Ye Jianying and other Communists in Beiping during the military mediation period in 1945. The scene where the representatives of the company came here for dinner.Guanhua said that he also came to Peiping for a short time at that time, and he really remembered eating hot-boiled mutton here.On the way home, Guanhua was still in high spirits, saying that he would go again later.It's a pity that this is the only time between the two of us.There will never be another chance to be so relaxed in the future. Guanhua loves her family very much.Banqueting five or six times a week is just work for him.He often eats almost nothing, preferring to eat a bowl of chicken noodle soup when he gets home.He loves the southern dishes I cook, and I cook them for him myself whenever I have time.He said that no place is as good as home.It turned out that he was alone, and he never remembered to take health medicines.After we got married, I bought more than a dozen small powder injection bottles from the Beijing hospital. I divided the medicines that Guanhua would take every meal- heart protection, blood pressure plus vitamins, and put them into small bottles. Just pour a bottle after each meal and you'll have it.It is convenient even when I am not at home.Once, one of his friends saw that he poured out a bottle of pills of various colors into his mouth at once, and asked him what kind of medicine he was taking.Guanhua pointed at me and said, "I don't know, Han Zhi pretended. She gave me poison, and I swallowed it too!" I had never cared for or been cared for in the thirty-odd years prior to this.It wasn't until I fell in love with Guanhua that I suddenly had a strong desire to care for another person meticulously.To this day, I can't believe that Guanhua is twenty-two years older than me, because I have always put Guanhua under my protection, and Guanhua's dependence on me is getting stronger and stronger.All things in life listen to me.I get the satisfaction of love from the trivial things of taking care of Guanhua.I feel that being needed by a loved one is the highest happiness.Sometimes I think he's almost like a big kid.It was even more so after Guanhua became ill.In order for him to drink fresh watermelon water after his nap, I can take the seeds from half a watermelon and blend them into watermelon juice one by one throughout the hot summer at noon.I even peeled the bananas, cut them into small pieces and put toothpicks on them for Guanhua.My friend Hai Ying once watched Guanhua eat bananas, and joked: "If Teacher Zhang takes care of Uncle Qiao like this, in the future, Uncle Qiao will be like Dalin in "Da Lin and Xiao Lin", and the flesh will almost grow out of his nails! "However, this is a great satisfaction for me!When we first got married, Guanhua was not used to it and felt a little bit sorry for it, but later he understood that this was a wish of mine, so he calmed down.Later, he was almost a dependence.I haven't studied psychology, so I don't know if every woman who loves someone deeply is willing to give all of herself to take care of and protect the person she loves, no matter if he is older or younger than her .At least that's how I was, and that's how I spent my ten years. The days when Guanhua and I were busy and having fun while we were busy finally came to an end in 1975, and what followed was a catastrophe.In October of this year, Kissinger visited again. After the meeting with the chairman on the evening of October 12, I participated in sorting out the records until the early hours of the morning.I was too sleepy to continue.The "Tongtian" friend who was there suddenly said to me: "Don't doze off. I will tell you some news, and you will definitely wake up." I asked what the news was, and she said, "Deng Xiaoping is going to be criticized!" I woke up in shock and asked how is it possible?She told me that Chairman Mao criticized Tsinghua University's Liu Bing letter to them, and said that Comrade Deng Xiaoping was the backer. Things took a turn for the worse.When there was no movement in the whole country, the Ministry of Foreign Affairs took the lead in setting off an upsurge of criticizing right deviationists. On October 25, the party core group of the ministry held a meeting to study Chairman Mao's speech. At the meeting, some people criticized Guanhua's meeting with Kissinger in New York at the beginning of the month and the Japanese foreign minister's speech.The mistake in the conversation with Kissinger was that he delayed pointing out the U.S.-Soviet conspiracy to engage in a new Munich, and the ambassador spoke first.The mistake of meeting with the Japanese foreign minister was to rush to sign a peace treaty with Japan and add another meeting to the original meeting.It is said that this was all criticized by Chairman Mao.At the same time, it was announced that it would expand the scope and recall old, middle-aged and young representatives from embassies and consulates to study. We were completely taken aback by this sudden change in the situation.No one could figure out whether this was from Chairman Mao, but they dared not contradict it, so on October 27, Guanhua began to conduct inspections, against his will, to inspect the so-called right-leaning mistakes toward the United States and Japan that did not exist. up!At that time, I was going to accompany a royal delegation from Nepal to other places, and I was very worried about Guanhua.I remember sitting on the sofa with Guanhua for a long time before my departure.We all feel infinitely confused about the future of our country and our own destiny.I said that no matter how big the storm is, we must withstand it.Guanhua sighed and said that Premier Zhou was so seriously ill that no one could bear to talk to him about these things anymore.He has called Comrade Xiaoping several times for instructions, but he is powerless to deal with the situation. I can't ask him to come forward to stop the Ministry of Foreign Affairs. This time I have to resign myself to fate!I was silent, Guanhua said again: "Anyway, I have already prepared to resign from office. As long as we are together, I will 'go home and sell sweet potatoes'!" I suddenly became emotional and said: "No! Why should we be punished like this! We can Tell the chairman!" All subsequent mistakes were caused by this emotional excitement, and it was also because we did not understand the real political situation at that time.The criticism of the Ministry of Foreign Affairs has extended from Guanhua's foreign policy to Comrade He Ying's so-called "mistakes in dealing with the Cultural Revolution" and Comrade Huang Zhen's so-called "executing the wrong line in the embassy and attacking young cadres".A large number of veteran cadres are facing perilous crises again. I was really driven by my damned impulsiveness, sued the "Tongtian people" to Chairman Mao, and got support. On December 12, after meeting with President Ford of the United States, Chairman Mao said to the two conflicting parties: "The old guy is still useful. I am the oldest! Don't underestimate the old guy!" "You are rebels, forgive the old guy, and hold your hands high Don’t just tell me to get out!” After returning home from the Chairman, we felt that the situation was not that tense. We just said hello and did some self-criticism. Relationships are complicated! However, this complaint finally made me fall into an unfathomable black bottomless pit.I still don't know when and who started this trap.In short, we are deluded by some false phenomena, thinking that justice can defeat evil, but who would have expected that in the end, we ourselves would be convicted of "killing with a borrowed knife"! How difficult it is for a person to truly mature!To this day, I am still prone to being emotional and emotional, and this disastrous character has led to the death of myself and Guanhua.With the passage of time, Guanhua's philosophical sentiment: "Character is destiny" has become more and more deeply engraved on my heart.Guanhua and I are too similar in character and have the same temper, so when one person is emotionally impulsive, the other cannot use reason to restrain the possible evil consequences of this impulsiveness, especially in political games! This element of character in the tragedy of 1976 was an undeniable factor in the blunder.Many years later, an old friend of Guanhua said to him: "You only need to bear with it at that time, and it will be different in a few months!" Guanhua said: "I have endured for two years, and I can't bear it anymore !" I sighed and said, "Maybe it's all my fault!" Guanhua said emotionally, "Don't think that way, you are my pillar! People are targeting me!" 1975 had just come to an end, and great misfortune befell it.One week after New Year's Day, on January 8 of this year, Premier Zhou passed away!Over the years, I have seen that the relationship between Guanhua and Premier Zhou is a very cordial and tacit cooperation between superiors and subordinates, but it is also very reserved and calm.I have hardly seen any personal communication between them, it is really "the friendship between gentlemen is as light as water".Many of Guanhua's principles of life seem to have been quietly and deeply influenced by Premier Zhou.For example, he never likes to visit and have dinner among senior leading cadres.Once, a senior leader of the army called several times to invite Guanhua and me to eat dog meat, and also introduced the wives of several of their leaders to me.Guanhua was really busy those days, and he was not used to this kind of social activities, so he politely declined.Later, because the leader invited me repeatedly and called my office directly, Guanhua said to me, "I'm sorry I won't go, so I will go alone, and you don't want to go!" Why do you think it’s better if I don’t go?” He said, “We’d better not visit more times, we’re so busy now, you go once and meet so many people, next time the second or third person invites you, you Do you want to go? Go, it’s a waste of time, and if you don’t go, you will offend people. Then you have to invite back. People say that I don’t recognize my relatives, but I think it’s still good. There’s no good in socializing too much. If you send things to each other in the future, things will get worse It’s better that you don’t get involved.” Later, when Guanhua was in adversity, an old friend of his came to see him and complained to him: “When you were on stage, so many leaders were willing to associate with you, you always Except for work, I never move around. I used to advise you to communicate more, but you didn’t listen. Now that you are in trouble, you don’t usually move around, and you can’t find someone to help you if you need help!” Guanhua said: “I don’t Regret. I don’t need to look for people everywhere now. What I want is justice, and I believe the Party Central Committee will be clear.” I can't help but think of an incident many years ago. In November 1971, we participated in the first Chinese delegation to New York to attend the 26th session of the UN General Assembly.At that time, Sino-US relations were still at a stage of confrontation, without any form of official or non-governmental exchanges.When I first arrived in the United States, it was surprisingly fresh.The young people in our delegation gathered together and said that they would bring back some American things to Premier Zhou. He was the founder of China's diplomatic breakthrough and entry into the United Nations.So, we bought a box of chocolates and a box of biscuits, which were foreign products that were never seen in China at that time.Back in Beijing, we gave these things to Xiao Gao, who was next to the Prime Minister, and lied that "it was given to the Prime Minister by Minister Qiao".At that time, we didn't understand the 30-year acquaintance between the Prime Minister and Guanhua. We thought that if Minister Qiao sent it, the Prime Minister would stay.Unexpectedly, things backfired.Not long after the items were sent to the Prime Minister, the Prime Minister once called a meeting of many cadres of the Ministry of Foreign Affairs.I remember it was in the West Hall of the Great Hall of the People.After the meeting, the Prime Minister suddenly turned to Guanhua and asked him seriously: "Why did you give me a gift?" I came back and sent me biscuits and candies. You should know my rules, why did you send things? I want to ask you in front of everyone, you take the things back.” Guanhua was even more confused, saying that he had never sent these things to the Prime Minister thing.At this time, those of us involved in this matter had no choice but to admit that we did it, and used the name of Minister Qiao without saying hello to him.The Prime Minister's tone was much more gentle, and said: "It's your kindness, so forget it, give it to the staff to taste, it's from the United States! But don't do this in the future, I never accept gifts." However, behind this calmness, the Prime Minister and Guanhua cared for each other so affectionately. In the spring of 1974, after the operation, the Prime Minister started to recover very well, but unfortunately the disease relapsed after a few months.In the fall of the following year, when I came to New York to attend the UN General Assembly with the Chinese delegation led by Guanhua, the prime minister's condition worsened.Guanhua felt very heavy.When we were about to return home, Guanhua discussed with me about bringing something to the Prime Minister.I said, "Didn't you never give gifts to the Prime Minister?" Guanhua said with a gloomy expression, "But the Prime Minister is sick now! I think he will understand what I mean." So we bought a box of soda crackers and a large box of macadamia nuts out of our ten-dollar pocket money at the time.Guanhua said that the Prime Minister loves peanuts the most in his life, and he will definitely like this macadamia nut.He said that when passing through Paris, he would ask Comrade Zeng Tao to prepare some French croissants, which are the favorites of the Prime Minister and Comrade Deng Xiaoping. Back in Beijing, due to the political atmosphere at the time, we had to secretly ask the driver to deliver these items to the Premier Hospital.At that time, except for foreign guests, we, including Guanhua, could not see the Prime Minister anymore.He has been staying in No. 305 Hospital.After a while, the Prime Minister met the foreign guests in the hospital. It happened that Guanhua was accompanying him and I was the interpreter.After meeting the foreign guests, the Prime Minister asked Guanhua and I to stay for a while. He talked about other things. Guanhua asked the Prime Minister to take care of himself.Finally, the Prime Minister said to us emotionally: "I have received all the biscuits, nuts, and bread you sent. Guanhua knows that I never accept gifts. But this time I understand that you are sending condolences to the patients. So I accepted it. It’s rare for you to be thoughtful, I love food.” When I saw the tears in Guanhua’s eyes, he choked up and said, “Prime Minister, you must take good care of your body! "On this day, when we left the hospital, the Prime Minister and Guanhua shook hands tightly. The time was short, but I saw the most sincere affection in their eyes.On the way home, Guanhua was silent all the way, I knew his heart was heavy. At last, the inevitable misfortune came. On the morning of January 8, Comrade Li Xiannian suddenly canceled a meeting with guests in charge of our Asia Department.I called Guanhua to ask what happened.He only said: "Maybe the Prime Minister's condition is not good." At noon, he was called by the Central Committee to the Great Hall of the People for a meeting.I knew something big had happened, and I didn't go to work in the afternoon to wait for him to come back, because he hadn't had time to eat when he left. When Guanhua came back, he was extremely sad. He said "The Prime Minister has gone", and he could no longer continue.After resting for a while, he told me that the central government had notified him to hold a meeting and set up a funeral committee.When he arrived at the Great Hall, he bumped into Liu Xiangping, then Minister of Health, on the steps.Liu told him that starting from the 7th, the prime minister's condition deteriorated.He himself was very sober, and he said that he would finally meet some comrades and have something to say.Originally scheduled to see Guanhua on the afternoon of the 7th, but he was already very tired at noon. The doctor advised him not to meet again in the afternoon and see you the next morning.The Prime Minister nodded in agreement.Unexpectedly, in the early morning of the 8th, his condition deteriorated sharply, and he failed to see Guanhua and several other comrades who had worked under his leadership for ten years.Guanhua cried, and Liu Xiangping also cried.I comforted him and said, "I know you are sad that you did not see the Prime Minister in the end. But you are one of the last people he misses, which is a kind of comfort." Before that, Guanhua took advantage of an opportunity to meet foreign guests, At the end of 1973, when the Prime Minister was criticized unfairly, he told the Prime Minister that his speech at the end of the meeting was also wrong. I am sorry for the Prime Minister and asked him to forgive me.The Prime Minister said very tolerantly: "Then how can you be blamed? That is the general situation. Everyone has talked about it. You have worked with me for decades and you are in charge of the United States. How can you not talk about it? Besides, I also made mistakes, so I can’t say that I can’t be criticized.” Guanhua felt guilty and blamed himself for failing to do anything when the Prime Minister needed help.The Prime Minister said: "Don't think like this. This is not something you can control." After the death of the Prime Minister, Guanhua only felt comforted by this incident. He had the opportunity to express his self-blame to the Prime Minister. Around the funeral of Premier Zhou, a major struggle took place within the central government at that time.Due to the power of the "Gang of Four", the State Council issued a series of bans to prevent the masses from going to Tiananmen Square to mourn the Prime Minister.The people of the whole country and the people of Beijing were so angry that they ignored the ban. From day to night, tens of thousands of people flocked to Tiananmen Square.In those days Guanhua was busy with the funeral committee, and at the same time was very excited for the people's rise.On a Saturday night after the death of the Prime Minister, Zhao Jia, who was working in the Department of American and Asian Affairs at the time, came to see us and was very excited when he talked about the scene of Tiananmen Square.Guanhua stood up and said, "Let's go, let's go to Tiananmen too." Zhao Jia and I reminded him that the "central government" has a ban, and ordinary people are not allowed to go. He is a senior cadre, and if he is found out, he will cause trouble.Guanhua said: "What are you afraid of? What is the crime of mourning the Prime Minister?" So the driver Lao Yang drove, and Zhao Jia and I accompanied Guanhua to Tiananmen Square.It was eight or nine o'clock in the evening.The days and nights of winter are long, and the surroundings of Tiananmen Square are already pitch black. It seems that the relevant departments have deliberately extinguished part of the lights.But the square was full of voices, and many people read the eulogy with flashlights, and there was an endless stream of wreaths outside the venue.Although it was a dark night, there was order and enthusiasm.Lao Yang parked his car at the east gate of the Great Hall of the People, and the four of us entered the square.Guanhua was quickly recognized by people, so many people gathered around to welcome him to the mass mourning.Afraid of accidents, Lao Yang insisted on pulling Guanhua back to the car.I was also afraid of causing political disasters, so I advised him to go home. The next day is Sunday.After waking up in the morning, Guanhua felt depressed.After ten o'clock, he couldn't sit still, and must ask Lao Yang to drive him to Tiananmen Square.When we arrived, the assembled crowd almost filled the wide square, and the monument was covered with wreaths.Guanhua and I walked up to the monument.光天化日之下，冠华当然被一眼认出来了。人们欢迎他，说了许多感人的话。从纪念碑往下走时，碰上了几位新闻电影制片厂的记者正在现场采访。他们惊异地发现了冠华，抢先几步，倒退着自上而下拍他往下走的镜头。我问他：“把你拍进去怕不怕惹麻烦。叫他们不要拍吧！”可他却说：“拍吧，就拍我乔冠华在天安门和群众一起 悼念总理。”如果“新影”还保留了当年的资料的话，我真想重温一次当年在重重阴霾下冠华的气魄。做梦都想不到的是不到一年之后那些真正做过对不起总理事情的人竟摇身一变大讲如何忠于总理，继而利用手中的权利把“反总理”的帽子扣在冠华头上。80年代初，黄镇同志在谈到这段往事时曾气愤地说：“老乔对总理的感情我知道。总理去世后他去天安门都告诉过我。”然而，当有人决意要把冠华置于死地时，又有谁会尊重历史事实呢？ 冠华为总理的后事投进了全部身心全部感情。那天，他护送总理去八宝山火化，晚上又护送总理去劳动人民文化宫。我一整天没有见到冠华。傍晚，杜修贤同志来电话，他在八宝山为总理照了最后的像。电话中，老杜的声音听起来似乎苍老了许多，他说：“你这些天要多照顾点乔老爷，我怕他挺不住了。今天在八宝山他太难过了。我还从来没见他这样动感情。你知道，当总理的遗体要推进去火化时，大家哭得厉害极了。我的镜头一片模糊，什么都看不清了。乔老爷扶着总理的灵柩哭着说：'总理，你一生没有孩子。今天让我充当你的晚辈送你一程吧！'在场的人听他这些话哭得更伤心了。我当时真怕老乔顶不住了。”我听着老杜的电话也落泪了。我深知冠华是在巨大的政治压力下忘情地为总理送行的。就在总理逝世前一个半月的1975年11月下旬，外交部“率先”开始了“反击右倾翻案风”运动。当时，在外交部的党组会上，有人指着冠华，声色俱厉地说：“外交部这次批右倾，外交上的代表就是你乔部长。你在纽约同基辛格谈判时抵制毛主席最新指示：'美苏在搞慕尼黑阴谋'。你在同日本外相谈中日和约时右倾妥协！你的错误是1973年总理右倾错误的重复和延续！”一个半月后，冠华顶着政治上灭顶之灾全身心投入地送总理最后一程。果然，就在丧事完毕后不久，外交部的“反击右倾翻案风”又一次掀起高潮，有人讥讽地在会上说：“乔部长，听说你在八宝山说要当总理的儿子给他送终，你可真是个孝子贤孙啊！”然而，此后又过了十个月，当形势发生巨变时，同一些人却又慷慨激昂地批判冠华“反对周总理”。今天，当我的心已平静下来可以面对无情的历史时，我已不再激动，留给我的只是苦涩的清醒和心灵的一片空白。 周总理丧事的最后一件事是劳动人民文化宫的三天群众悼念。各国使领馆也前去向总理的骨灰告别。当时“四人帮”控制的中央把守灵规格压得很低，每天只有一位级别低的政治局委员守灵。给外交部的“指示”是上、下午只需有一名部级领导轮流值班。如果按此执行，每个正、副部长只需守半天灵。当时，冠华很悲愤。他在党组会上说：“这是最后一次为总理送行了。我们可以排一下班，按中央说的办。但我本人准备三天全部时间都在场。”他对我说：“各国使节来向总理告别，外交部长怎么可以不在场呢！这种规定太过分了！”1月中旬的北京，寒风凛冽。在大门洞开的大殿里，温度降至零下，冠华已劳累一周，仍坚持在灵堂替总理守了三天灵。各国的使节在向新中国外交的奠基人周总理作最后告别时都见到了中国外交部的部长，世界各国的朋友一起为中国外交事业的这颗巨星的陨落默哀悼念。三天过后，冠华终于心力交瘁，发高烧住进了北京医院。住院期间，外交部要召开“反击右倾翻案风”动员大会，要求冠华出来主持会议。冠华因病请假，其他两位副部长也生病。最后在动员大会上，有人讽刺说：“外交部不景气，部长们病了好几个。不过今天早上给北京医院打电话问乔部长病情，医院说他今天的体温是36.5℃。”言下之意自然是冠华假装生病，抵制运动。我参加会议后到医院告诉他，他长叹一声说：“随他们去吧！总理不在了，一切都不一样了。”不知为什么我当时联想到1957年，冠华几乎被打成右派，是周总理爱惜人才，把他保下来了。即使这样，到了1958年反对右倾机会主义周总理处境困难时，冠华还是被定为犯有右倾错误，受到“党内严重警告”处分。以前冠华对我讲到那段时期时曾感慨地说：“那时候真鬼都不上门啊！连带有亲戚关系的也怕沾边，不来了。”我有一种直觉，现在周总理不在了，能像总理那样了解冠华的又有谁呢？“反击右倾翻案风”的运动正紧锣密鼓地在外交部展开，等待着冠华的将是怎样一条铺满荆棘的道路！后来的事实证实了我的不祥预兆。冠华是个从不设防的人，他能够在国际舞台上叱咤风云，却无法应付政治生活中的阴谋与陷阱，最后为此付出了宝贵的生命。不过当我今天回顾这段历史时，一切荣辱都已成为过眼云烟，永远留下的是无情的历史和公正的人民在审视着每一个曾在历史上留下足迹的人物的功过。我相信周总理和冠华此时都在天堂，他们都已超脱了人间的烦恼，终于可以毫无顾虑地促膝长谈了。 总理逝世之后，外交部的政治形势急转直下。在中央各部委中，所谓“反击右倾翻案风”在外交部大概是发难最早的。如今，周总理已不在人世，冠华一生中足以信赖支持的力量失去了，我们在急风骤雨中飘荡、挣扎，试图渡过又一次的政治危机。身为一部之长，冠华还想竭力保护老干部不至于再次受冲击。但是，冠华和我都缺乏参与当时那种复杂的政治斗 争和角逐所需的深谋远虑，更不懂得尔虞我诈的手段。我们又极容易感情激动，为情绪所支配做错事情。因而当一场巨大的政治阴谋和陷阱铺设在我们面前时，我们身不由己地陷了进去，这也许是冠华所说的“性格就是命运”吧！这一段往事虽已成历史，但它永远沉甸甸地压在我的心头。 1976年5月下旬开始，一个矛头针对冠华的计谋就一步紧似一步地展开了。当时“四人帮”正是嚣张一时，大权在握。5月下旬在中央的一次会议上，江青、张春桥等人指责冠华在外交部不认真“批邓”，应当对部内“不团结”负责并做检查。我们对这突然的袭击迷惑不解，因为在此之前，毛主席曾多次支持过冠华和我，说外交部的问题是造反派要整一批老干部。虽然，这与当时“批邓”整老干部的全国总形势恰恰背道而驰，但我们以及部内的许多老同志却兴奋不已，天真地以为外交部这一方土地在那场铺天盖地而来的“批邓”、“反右”的运动中可以奇迹般地把“造反派”的威风压下去，保住老干部不受迫害。此时此刻，在迷惑不解的同时，我们意识到，这种奇迹正如海市蜃楼般地突然消失了，外交部终究不是世外桃源。 从这时开始，冠华的压力与日俱增。6月1日的“成都之行”成为对他发起总攻的一个信号。这年的6月2日，尼泊尔国王访问成都、西藏。我们政府方面的主要负责人以及外交部的冠华和韩念龙副部长都去成都同国王会谈。这时，周总理已去世，邓小平同志蒙难去职，政府有了一位新的领导。出发之前，我们感到不解的第一件事是一反过去周总理、小平同志的习惯，新的领导人不愿意与外交部领导同机赴成都。6月1日凌晨，礼宾司接到通知要外交部人员早上先赴成都。而当我们清晨出发飞抵成都，刚刚到达住所时，省里有关部门来电话通知说领导人的专机也即将到达，相差仅两三个小时。当时，四川省的主要领导是赵紫阳、段君毅同志，电话是通知段君毅同志立即返回机场。我们外交部一行路途劳顿刚刚到达金牛坝宾馆，还未来得及喝上一口水，吃上一口饭，因此四川省的领导与冠华、韩念龙等同志商量后决定刚刚到达的外交部领导就不必立即再折回机场迎接领导人了。本来这是情理之中的安排，而且也并非冠华一人所决定，没想到几天之后，有人利用此事掀起轩然大波，成为冠华对抗“中央”的第一个罪状。偏偏又因为午饭后，外交部的许多同志第一次到成都，想去看看杜甫草堂。而当时这些历史古迹都已关闭，不允许参观。因此大家央求冠华、韩念龙同志出面要求省里关照为我们开放几个小时。冠华其实很疲劳很想休息，他自己多次去过草堂；但看到那么多年轻同志想去他还是答应了大家要求。冠华计算了一下时间，按我们上午的经验，领导人大约要到下午五点左右到达宾馆，因此他关照说四点半之前必须赶回，在宾馆迎候北京来的领导人。又谁能料到领导人到达后汽车走的是一条战备公路，比我们穿过充满游行队伍的市区要快了一个多小时。因此他在我们回宾馆前半小时已到达。于是，冠华的另一大罪状是“蔑视中央领导”，不仅不去机场迎接，也不在宾馆迎候，而是“带了身边人”（指我）去逛杜甫草堂。6月5日，当我们回到北京时，这些消息显然已先行传到部里。外交部院内贴满了大字报，指责冠华在成都的这些“严重错误”。在这些恶意的歪曲中伤之中还捏造了一条“花边新闻”，说冠华去杜甫草堂后在那里由“中国第一摄影师”（指杜修贤同志）为他和“身边人”照“黄色照片”。一时部内哗然，纷纷好奇地猜测冠华和我在杜甫圣像前照了什么见不得人的照片。而实际上，只是我们面对面地坐在一张一米多直径的石桌两旁说笑休息。当然全无“黄色”可言。“谎言重复千遍即成真理”，处于冠华的位置，我们又不能把照片去贴在大字报上让大家来鉴别。有一点是明确的，我们知道这都是搞垮冠华的前奏。 从成都回京的第三天，6月7日晚，当时的中央政治局召开了有关外交部问题会议，会上江青、张春桥、毛远新等人严厉地批评冠华不抓外交部的“批邓”运动，而是“打内战”，责令他回去开会，做检查。回家后冠华百思不得其解，给当时任毛主席联络员的毛远新打了个电话，问他为什么一切都变了。毛远新用十分冷淡而犀利的口气对他说：“你自己想想，现在中央要集中批邓，你在外交部干什么了？你从来没有联系外交实际批右，批邓，你自己跟着邓小平有没有错误？为什么不揭发，不作检讨？你组织外交部转移'批邓'方向，打内战。还想利用中央来帮你打内战。”尽管我至今仍不明白这究竟是怎样的一出戏，谁是这出戏的真正导演，但戏要以乔冠华的悲剧性垮台为结局这一点是明确的。正在批乔浪潮一步步升级时，紧接着来的一场暴风雨是8月初在通知外国驻华使馆地震期间安排留守人员，其他人员、家属由中国方面提供方便暂时离开北京的问题上，当时的“中央”终于把冠华放到了被打倒的位置上。 这年的7月28日，唐山发生大地震，波及北京。在毫无准备的情况下，开始两天，北京的居民只得露宿街头。外国驻华使馆也不例外，因为我们无法向他们提供足够的帐篷，他们都露宿在使馆室外空地上。冠华此时正承受着巨大的政治压力，但对外他仍是外交部长，代表中国政府对外国使馆人员的安全负责。地震发生后部内的几位副部长迁入了四十二号宾馆在大草坪上搭起的红丝绒帐篷居住。冠华却坚持住在家里。司机老杨劝他也暂时住到宾馆草坪去，他却说：“此刻是中央随时要找我的时候。一百多个外国使、领馆的安全尚无保障，我怎么能只顾自己安全搬到宾馆草坪上去？只要有一个外国使馆人员伤亡，我如何向世界交代？”7月30日晚，纪登奎同志在钓鱼台国宾馆宴请柬埔寨客人英萨利。当时，有两个高级代表团正在北京访问，一个是英萨利，另一个是伊朗公主阿什拉芙。由于突发地震，中央决定立即派专机送他们提前去外地访问。这天晚上，纪登奎同志宴请英萨利为他送行，冠华参加。宴会中途，工作人员送进一张纸条。纪登奎看后神色紧张，随即递给冠华。纸条是中办主任汪东兴传来的，内容说根据震情预告，未来廿四小时内以通县大厂回族自治县为震中，可能发生七级以上大地震。看了这个通报，纪、乔都无心应酬客人，匆匆结束宴会后叮嘱礼宾司次日一早一定要送走钓鱼台的两批外宾。冠华回到家里把那份震情通报告诉我后，就立即在地图上找到大厂回族自治县并测量了它和北京的距离。他十分焦急，他说北京可能在第一冲击波上，如果真是有大地震，后果比唐山更严重，必须立即采取措施保护各国使领馆。于是，他通知值班室半小时后在四十二号宾馆草坪上召开紧急党组会议。我陪他去宾馆，党组在草坪上开会，我也已疲惫不堪，从家里搬了个躺椅在主楼边的便道上休息等候。会议开了一个多小时就散了。回家路上，冠华说，党组决定连夜通知各国使馆留下留守人员，其他人，尤其是妇女儿童，由中国民航提供专机暂时撤往广州、上海，待震情稳定后再回北京。有愿意提前休假的，中国方面也将协助解决机票。冠华说他打电话未找到当时的政府主要领导，只好告诉秘书了。由于时间紧迫，因此党组决定一面通知使馆及民航，一面呈文给中央，一定要赶在可能的大地震发生前尽可能撤出大部分外国使、领馆人员。他说震情通报不一定准确，但宁可信其有不可信其无，切不可掉以轻心。要尽一切可能不使一个在华外国人在地震中受伤。 办完这件事已是凌晨时分，冠华已精疲力竭。自从地震发生后，他白天奔走于外交部几个宿舍区的临时地震棚看望部内人员，视察生活安排。晚上还要处理繁忙的外交文件及防震事宜，一晚睡不上三四小时。由于他拒绝迁往宾馆草坪上舒适的大帐篷，我只好像北京所有老百姓一样，想方设法弄来塑料布，用几根竹竿在院子中央搭了一个地震棚，里面放入两张躺椅权且作为床铺。谁知一下雨，粘上的塑料布都开胶了，雨水从棚外渗进来，根本无法休息。这天午夜天晴，我催他抓紧时间休息，他倒在躺椅中就睡着了。 第二天一早，冠华又亲自督促外国人撤离的工作。当时驻华使领馆的官员、家属都对中国方面如此为他们安危着想，在短短的几个小时内协助上千人员撤离地震危险区十分感动。一切进行得井井有条，到中午时已大部分完成。冠华终于松了口气，对我说：“这件大事办好了，我肩上的担子松了许多。这几天真怕外国使馆出事啊！”我说：“外国人倒安全了。我们这个院子可很危险。万一真有大地震，四面房子塌下来，尤其是那个高大的烟囱倒下来就全完了。”冠华说：“想不了那么多了。谁叫我肩上责任重啊！” 本来，在正常的情况下，一个外交部长置个人安危于不顾，为了全体在华外交人员的安全，如此负责，如此果断，难道不是一个优秀中国共产党领导干部的楷模吗？然而，谁又能想到，当那个预报的大地震并未出现后，冠华的这一片心竟被利用，遭人指责成了他的“严重错误”。 31日晚上八九点钟时，那个可怕的震情通报所预测的廿四小时已安然过去，北京并未发生大地震。我们都感到无比的轻松。此时保密机响了，冠华接过电话后，我发现他的神情越来越严肃，只听他说：“我确实没有想到……好吧，我们明天就开会……这是我的错误……我向中央作检讨……”我紧张起来，问他出什么事了。他带着困惑的神情说是国务院的那位主要领导来电话，批评他未经中央批准，擅自撤离外国驻华使、领馆人员，这是“严重无组织、无纪律”，是“在地震面前惊慌失措的表现”，是“有失国家尊严”。我感到同样困惑。震情通报是中央办公厅发的，当然不能不信。那么面对北京廿四小时内可能发生七级以上大地震的预报，一个外交部长难道应当不闻不问，或者坐等文件层层报批，丧失时机，这才是维护国家尊严吗？而如果要采取措施，北京又有什么地方可庇护上千的外国人员和他们的妇幼家属使其免受伤害呢？中央不是在此之前已决定把国家的贵宾也立即转移去广州、上海吗？再说，假如那个预报是准确的，那么使馆人员不撤，后果又该是多么可怕？ ! 从第二天开始，外交部党组天天开会批判冠华“在地震问题上的严重错误”。党组个别几个人显然事先已知道内情，一上来就“上纲上线”批乔。但开始时党组大多数同志认为把责任推给冠华一人是不公正的。大家说30日晚上的决定是党组全体的决定，也电话报了中央领导的秘书，这么紧急的事不可能按常规一道道批示，不能说无组织无纪律；既然是集体的决定，如果要写检讨，应当以党组名义写，也不应由冠华一人承担。由于大多数成员持此观点，给中央的第一个“检讨”是以外交部党组名义写的。但过了一两天，显然有人给党组成员“吹风”了，许多人开始沉默，逐渐地把“罪责”推到了冠华一个人头上。张春桥更是气势汹汹地在冠华的“检讨”上“批示”说他的“错误不是孤立的、偶然的，要和'批邓'联系起来”。过了几天，国务院的主要领导突然莅临外交部，名义上仍是一把手的外交部长的冠华事先竟一无所知。至此，外交部大字报中已提出了把乔冠华拉下马的口号。一切都很明白，冠华是“四人帮”大权在握时被推到被批判的位子上的。但是，两个多月之后，当冠华在巴黎听到粉碎“四人帮”的消息后，饮酒庆贺时，他又怎能想到此时在国内那些不久之前还同“四人帮”一起整他的人们已经乘冠华在国外的时机把他挂到了“四人帮”的线上去了。10月17日，冠华回到北京，我去机场接他。我告诉他由于中央的表态，部内已形成打倒他的形势。我至今仍难以忘却他那忠贞不渝的天真态度。他说：“打倒'四人帮'是大事。我个人受点审查不要紧。我们也有错误嘛！我们没有想到这么快可以打倒'四人帮'。三四月份想利用他们内部矛盾保住外交部，这至少是机会主义、实用主义的表现。我应该向中央检查。其他的事都是可以说得清楚的。有人可能要利用形势向中央诬告，我回来了就好了。该我检查的错误我会检查的。该说清楚的也会说清楚的。”