Chapter 7 Chapter 5 "Blue Review" - 1

It's a stupid paper, but it's run by nice people. - DH Lawrence She could write, the damned woman. — Rupert Brooke "Hoop Magazine" carried a column written by Filson Young in each issue. The title was "What Matters." This column was printed in italics to distinguish it from cluttered news. On October 23, 1912, the "Matters Matter" column was a little myth that began like this: "Once upon a time there was a young man and a young woman who loved each other, and both loved poetry, and decided to dedicate their lives to Their energies were devoted to improving and encouraging English poetry—especially that of young writers as unknown as themselves..” The story describes how they founded a magazine, devoted all their energy and time, to the “high ideals of permanent art” Realm" found its own joy.But at this time "their rainbow bridges (here the publishers) collapsed under their feet".They owed the printer £150, and had nothing but the perishable capital of youth.Filson Young said that if readers subscribe to Rhythm magazine for a year, their boats will be rocked.

This little kick to the "Tigers" was encouraged by Eddie Marsh, who sent it to Lankton and hoped they "wouldn't mind". — not at all, — "you're a sweet baby," Jack Murray wrote, imitating Eddie: "we think he's too cute." The most fruitless of a series of actions aimed at rocking the boat. Surprisingly, the magazine still maintained 5 issues under the name of "Rhythm", and then maintained 3 issues under the name of "Blue Review". Tiger's self-respect alone won't do it, and there's another publisher willing to help - because when Grenville escapes, the accounts show some small gain - and young people choose Rhythm because The English Review is too rich to have Hardy, James, Conrad, and Wells writing for it, and the contributors to Rhythm are willing to write for nothing in the hope of being noticed in the future, that is to say, "revenue" ’ Literally fictional—meaning only their work.

Murray's first thought after bankruptcy was to stall for time with the printers.They decided he must be rich, and thought they could get everything if they pressed hard enough. JA Spender persuaded him to file for bankruptcy because it was indeed Grenville's debt and the court could clarify that.The advice was sound, but perhaps the daughter of the Governor of the Bank of New Zealand saw the danger, and it was arranged that she pledge her living allowance as collateral to pay the printers.The second step was also taken by her: she visited Sack, the publisher of Jalbert Canaan, and Jack wrote: "'Tiger' thought Sack's approach to Rhythm was cute, and I think he I will take over the publishing business and try my best to do it well.”

Willie George's plan to start a company with £500 as capital failed, and by mid-November the "tigers" were confined to a gloomy flat at 57 Chernsley Road (Oriega lived at 59) 6 friends pooled £10 each to get them through November. At this unfortunate time, Catherine still wrote a new story—for Frank Hardy (1840-1928), British novelist and poet. ——Annotation ②Conrad (1857～1924), a British novelist, originally from Poland. ——Annotation ③ Chernsley Road, a place name in London. ——Annotation written by Reese, who recently took charge of a magazine devoted to fashion and royal life, "Hot Home".The story, titled "The House," is somewhat similar to her later short story set in London, but has a strangely autobiographical quality to do with her wishing to have a child, and Sobiewski's appearance at that time .

The tale of a weary handywoman shelters from the rain on the front porch of an empty house for sale that she and her lover recently visited.After falling asleep there, she dreamed that she had a wonderful wedding in the house--a happy and handsome husband, a boy and a nurse, a wood-burning fire and baked buns--but the dream turned into a nightmare .Downstairs she heard a voice calling, the voice of an old lover, "What is he doing there? - yes, it was his voice, something seemed to break in her - her lips were white. "She rushed down with "white lips" to prevent him from coming in, the front door slammed shut behind her, and the man who came to take out the garbage found her dead on the front porch: "I remember her face very well, yesterday she Visited the house with a young man.. After he left, she came back and laughed and said, 'We don't have enough money to decorate the house, we're just dreaming'."

In contrast to this are three of her New Zealand murder stories, published in Rhythm, that dissect the social isolation that is common in New Zealand, especially in remote areas, and are written in the context of total cultural isolation Written by: No one who reads these stories in London can know what is actually said. "The Woman in the Shop" is about a yellow-haired witch in a remote area who keeps a loaded gun all day long against strangers, almost as much a part of the landscape of that area as the stones, the mountains, and the lights.Al Underwood is a brutal-eyed colonial pub bum, completely at the mercy of his environment, almost in a state of madness.Millie, a childless backwoods woman, deeply sympathizes with a worn-out fugitive, and her sympathy turns to bloodlust when the fugitive begins to be hunted, as is the horrific event in her house. belong to this place.

Contrary to the New Age's belief that these stories represented a "continental" perversion of the principles of beauty, only a New Zealander could have written such a thing at the time.In Home Sweet Home, which appeared in the same issue of House, there were also articles on Murray and Catherine by Hugh Kingsmill and Enia Barnold, the former describing Murray as a young Substantial critic, recounts how Rhythm's publisher fled, leaving the "tigers" in debt.Those words, coming just a month after Grenville's arrest, were too much for his devoted friends Olega and Beatrice Hastings.

"New Times"'s answer to this is a passage signed "TKL": You become a nest of crickets, a group of crickets swarming on "Warm Home", or mice. The captain has disembarked, where is the ship? —Lookout, what's the matter with the ship?Yes, it's annoying that the captain abandons ship like that, but honestly, is he really that bad?Isn't there a little food left for the little mouse?What about those who depended on him for their livelihood? The article went on to ask who had been duped by Hoops Magazine, and of course no one cared about ladies in love—"Only Hanover Square would consider legal invalidity—perhaps the joke wasn't quite right. Of course I shouldn't mention it publicly, but I really hate rats." Also published in the same period ①Frank Harris (1856～1931), Irish journalist, writer, works include "Oscar Wilde", etc., he edited many Fewer magazines, mostly The Saturday Review. ——Annotation ① Hanover Square, the place where celebrities got married in London at that time. —Originally noted another signed article about Catherine in a more intense tone, entitled "The Changeling".Oriega also felt that this was going too far, and a few months later he was relieved of his position as a literary reviewer for Mrs. Hastings's magazine and started a column of his own, "Readers and Authors."The next year they broke up, and she went to Paris to make sure that the article on mice could do little harm to the "tigers," and in the months that followed generous funding poured in, and they discussed getting Rhythm on its feet— A name change was also part of the plan (according to Marsh, the word "rhythm" was too much for what was on the bookstall).

Marsh had just successfully published the first volume of The Georgian Poets, which was selling fairly well, and when Murray needed a surety with which he could borrow £100 to finance Rhythm, Marsh immediately agreed. Murray told him, "You guarantee that we will pay back £3.16 a month for three years, and you know we will." When the artist Gwen Lavorat told Rupert Brooke that she hated Rhythm magazine, he defended it by saying: "Of course, it's very modern, run by capable young people under the age of 35." Yes." The newly famous writer DH Lawrence, who had just eloped to Italy with his professor's wife and desperately needed money, also wrote a letter agreeing to write a story for "Rhythm" for free - although the magazine is crazy, but the people are quite it is good.

Murray next tried to persuade Hugh Walpole, and soon wrote him a letter about a meeting of contributors to discuss some new grand plans.In an extremely warm and rational atmosphere, about 16 young artists took an oath to be loyal to the magazine. They will write for free. Murray will pay a loss of 10 pounds per month. Quantity distribution.Half of the nearly 64 pages of the magazine will contain poems, short stories, review articles, etc., and the rest will be reviewed by Gilbert Canaan on general books, DH Lawrence on German works, Murray on French books, and Catherine Mansfield even Comment on "clothes", which must have been decided by all the men in her absence.

Rupert Brooke, Walter de la Mar, WH Davies, etc. also write two or three times a year, all of whom are interested in the project, and two more to be approached - Ollie V. Annings ③ and ME Foster, Murray asked Walpole to persuade Foster ("he is one of the people we really need"), and thus, the May 1913 Blue Review by Published by Martin Sack Press, with Max Pilbaum's "On Doubt" as the front volume, Lawrence's "Tilted Rose" and Catherine's story. Gilbert Canaan experienced first-hand the gloom of their office-cum-apartment in Chernsley Road, where the lights had to be on all day, and one of Catherine's canaries died, and she wrote about Trowell. The novel can't be finished either.Gilbert advised them to find a cottage near his mill in Colesbury, and they did move in the spring, or Catherine moved alone, taking with her some old furniture which had belonged to Ida's mother, Murray was there for the weekend.It turns out that Catherine's letters, which give us a glimpse of their lives at the time, are far more lively and interesting than Murray's. The whole Blue Review period, though short and ineffective, marked a watershed in the Murrays' careers together, leading to their first encounter with Bloomsbury; The end of a general emotional relationship that belonged to their early life. ①Georgian poets refer to the famous poets in the early period of the reign of King George V (1910-1920). ——Annotation ② Hugh Walpole (1884～1941), British novelist and playwright, whose masterpieces include "The Dark Forest". ——Annotation ①Water de la Mar (1873～1956), British poet. ——Annotation ② WH Davies (1871～1940), a Welsh lyric writer. ——Annotation ③Olivier Arnings (1873～1961), British writer. ——Annotation ④ Colesbury, a place name on the outskirts of London. ——Annotation In the first year, Murray went to Catherine's distant relative Sidney Watlow's house, "to meet these Woolfs" ①.He wrote to Catherine: "I don't think much of them, they are one of those utterly incompetent Cambridges." Chernsley Street was visited by Gautier and George Banks, who had recently joined together to vent their hatred of the "Tigers," largely at the instigation of Sophie.They came unexpectedly and raged as soon as they walked through the door—Gautier demanded payment for paintings that appeared in Rhythm, Banksy came to return some paintings that Catherine had taken to Colesbury.Murray was slapped several times, the painting was torn off the wall, and the two walked away saying through gritted teeth, "This is just the beginning." They went around town threatening to "smash Murray's head off," but they Just a token one: Gautier and his friends pressed Middleton Murray's godlike head against the wall, contentedly throwing a brick to smash it to pieces. That same week Sobiniowski came, owed them both money, and Catherine now called him "a rather dangerous liar."He seemed to have been shaken off, at least for the next six years, and thus ended this dangerous experience of her life with the Poles—a glimpse of the rebellious Catherine, who was often easily deceived by the opposite sex. A fate common to many of the women in her novels. By mid-summer, Murray had to tell Marsh and Walpole in desperation that sales were under £800, a loss of £15 a month. The "epoch-making short story" did not appear, and the "trash sent by the geniuses of contemporary British art" was unreadable.He himself can't wait to write a novel, and has been preparing for a year.A man named "Wulff" has sent a good story, but what good is that?Unless everyone is very interested in running a magazine. In a letter to Marsh, he said that he refused to declare bankruptcy, and that he was going to cooperate with creditors, take 100 pounds as life insurance, and pay them 7 shillings per pound, so that he could earn his own living and have time to write novels, Marsh's guarantee would not be threatened either, for he had just made arrangements with the bank to pay the debt; they would abandon Chernsley Street for a cheaper place.The end of the letter leaves a little leeway that Marsh could have prevented the gamble, but Marsh let the opportunity slip by. Typed letters were sent informing contributors that their work would not appear in the August issue of the magazine, and "Mr. Woolf" received such a letter, Murray said in a handwritten postscript that he would like published one of his stories, which was "certainly the best work we have ever received from a non-staff" (the first contact in a long and delicate relationship between the Murrays and the Woolfs), but he did not think England Not ready to accommodate an "honest literary magazine".Would he and Mrs. Woolf be willing to come and visit their abode far away in the country? "My wife didn't meet you at the Waterloo's, she would have loved to see you both." But it took three years for them to officially meet. That summer, DH Lawrence and Frieda returned to England after their elopement, having come from Germany, where Lawrence had just finished writing his short story "The Prussian Officer".He comes to the office for a visit, and then everyone meets, and the two unmarried couples immediately take a liking to each other."I didn't expect to communicate so quickly," Murray wrote. And Frieda, in her book, calls it "our only happy friendship." Seeing them make faces at each other on the top of a bus, Sticking out her tongue, she immediately liked them. Thus began the famous and dangerous friendship which influenced and sometimes almost controlled the life of Murray for the next twenty years and Catherine for the next three; members of the Literary Society. ——Annotation ② refers to Virginia Woolf. —Annotation is that from the very beginning, the beautiful black-haired Murray had a strong attraction to Fang Lunsi-this attraction is mentioned in the preface of the long-suppressed "Returned Girl in Love" ① power, writes of the "shuddering intimacy" between Gerald Clutch and Rupert Birchin when they met, in the blond Gerald Clitch More David Garnett, also blond--and Murray was by no means gay--he never forgot a nasty experience at Brookett High School.But Rupert Birchin's desire for his dark-haired friend can indeed be read in the Preface.Dangerous from Lawrence's jealousy at the outset, as the Prussian officer was from the young man's affection for his girlfriend, and from the poems he had written for her, this present friendship Still happy and happy. Laurence, who lived with Hobert Asquith at Blosterair, invited his new friends to visit there, and they did.Reading the opening pages of Sons and Lovers on the train home, the depth of the novel made Murray envious of Lawrence's genius, and he wrote in his diary much later that he had made "a fool, a jealous fool." ".In those days, everyone thought he was an epoch-making novelist. In August Lawrence and Frieda returned to Bavaria, and in October they lived happily and inexpensively in Italy.Lawrence wrote to Murray and Catherine urging them to go, but Murray was trapped by his debts and his job as a journalist in London, and he felt he could not live on Catherine's money.Lawrence scorned the idea, and ended up writing a letter in his pre-war gaiety, telling Murray that refusing to use Catherine's money meant only that he didn't trust her love. "You say she needs some little pleasures, and you can't bear to take them away, which means you don't have enough respect for her and yourself." At this point, Lawrence clearly saw Catherine as Murray's wife and wanted to help them both, although he may not have understood the Beecham family's temper.He said, "You insulted her, a dissatisfied woman must want something to enjoy, and a woman who loves a man can sleep on the floor." They should come to Italy and live well for 7 pounds 10p a month , and was honored as sir when she went out--more than enough for Catherine. As for writing, Murray could do "reviews," essays like Walter Pater or something like that; he had to ask Westminster to let him write two columns a week from abroad.He should spend Catherine's last penny and let her do the housework herself (but Frieda hired a servant for £1 a month), he must not be stupid and lazy; about you." The problem was that if Jack had been brave enough to live on Catherine's money instead of paying St. Catlin's debts with it, the bankruptcy court officials would follow, even if they fled abroad.In that case, would the president of the Bank of New Zealand still pay? So the Murrays didn't go to Italy, but they did always plan to spend Christmas abroad.Murray couldn't wait to write that novel, to finish a piece before his twenty-fifth birthday, and he finally decided to go to Paris.If he can't make money in Italy, maybe in Paris?If Westminster couldn't help him, perhaps other magazines could -- the Times Literary Supplement, for example. ① "Women in Love", one of DH Lawrence's main works. ——Annotation ① Clutch and Burchin are both characters in "Women in Love". ——Annotation ②David Garnett (1892～1981), a British novelist, is a friend of Lawrence. His father, the novelist Edward Garnett, once helped guide writers such as DH Lawrence and FM Ford. ——Annotation ③ Prussian officer, a character in DH Lawrence's novel "Prussian Officer". ——Annotation ④ "Sons and Lovers", an important novel by Lawrence. ——Annotation for a rash trip To tell the truth, my friends, changing places is not an option. Paris is indeed an authority on fashion, but authorities cannot create! ..the best advice that can be given to young English writers is to avoid Paris and stop reading French.The best preparation for writing a masterpiece in English is to live in England, read, write and, above all, talk in English. ——AR Oriega Murray wrote in his diary in October 1913: "It is very strange how I should have such an inarticulate childlike belief that once across the English Channel inspiration will continue to flow, and thoughts will mature and deep, The language will also become fluent.” Catherine was still looking for a new start and was preparing to leave London, so one night in December they went to Paris.Murray, with little hope of earning his living by sending manuscripts back to London, had a hasty conversation with the editor of the Times Literary Supplement, who said he would do what he could to help. Ada said the move was an escape, and that they had taken her mother's furniture across the Channel, so she remembered it well.Murray told Marsh that he left because he couldn't bear the life of his creditors harassing him.They would not accept seven shillings a pound for life insurance for a man from Oxford. But Marsh was also one of the creditors. The bank suddenly asked him to accept the security deposit. He wrote to ask what happened to Jack, but the reply he received was extremely embarrassing and vague. It was not until the second letter that he explained the matter clearly. Before coming to Paris, Murray left £19 in the bank for Buckley to pay. Perhaps two issues of his magazine have been paid, but now he only makes £3 a week and is a defendant in a bankruptcy suit and he can't pay the other. Two issues, can Marsh help? In London, he earned £12 a week working as a journalist, but spent £25 shipping furniture and luggage. He rented a flat in Paris, and started working on that great Stendhal-like book, and he found that his articles for the Literary Supplement hadn't been published, so they had to spend all of Catherine's living expenses themselves, and that's why There will be bankruptcy proceedings. It seems that Jandir followed them to Paris, where he was also laboring on an autobiographical novel and gave Catherine an Oxford volume of English poetry.Hiding from his creditors was no secret to him. In February, JA Spender wrote to Murray to serve as the art critic of "Westminster". He went back to London to discuss the matter and lived with Gordon Campbell. A lawyer friend of Campbell said that if Murray Go to bankruptcy court right away, the officials there will understand it's not his fault and treat him well; if not, they'll order his arrest.So he went at once, and sure enough he was seen as the injured party, and made him feel that bankruptcy was an accident that happens to gentlemen.All in all, going to Oxford is still good.With no other options, a job in London is just a few quid a week, while in Paris it's next to nothing.But they signed a one-year rental contract in Paris, and mentioned the "Times" to prove their identity, this time there is no escape, they need 30 pounds to cancel the lease, and they have to sell everything.Murray once went so far as to be wandering the brothels of Paris, peddling all their precious wares, when Francis Calco ran into him.Murray described this in his novel "Still Life".So Ada's mother's carved oak desk, writing desk, carved screen, and many of her various things remained in disreputable places in Paris. Murray's only gain from Paris was knowing that London was where he should stay, while Catherine took ① Stendhal (1783-1842), a French writer, and translated Stendhal; Alma Monastery, etc. ——Annotation back to one of her longer stories, named after a poem by Coleridge, about how two shy people meet on a train, both longing to touch and kiss each other, but afraid to "destroy each other". This mood", but dreamed of getting married in a country house, and finally the dream ended, and Edna did not come (she was only 17 years old).A telegram disillusioned Henry ②.The novel is neither aggressive nor all maudlin, and daydreaming, as learned from Coleridge, is a crucial method of writing. The story has a strange, half-dark sense of unreality that permeates her diary, written in Paris and in her first weeks back in London, where she writes: Today the world is falling apart and I am waiting Jack and Ida, sewing like my mother used to--threading the needle with my heart, it's horrible.But what could be scarier than something that can dissolve itself into something real?Does this scare me? I was waiting for Ida to come, she was so late, everything was hanging in the air, not even the bird and the chimney, and I was secretly afraid. At a time when not only Catherine but all of Europe, even birds and chimneys, had good reason to be secretly terrified, one could not help finding some dim sense of impending doom in this strange and misplaced spectacle.Catherine's situation is even more special: she is sick, but she doesn't know it; she is dissatisfied with Murray, and at the same time, her feelings begin to turn to Ada, because Ada is going to leave, she is called to Rhodesia to take care of her father, and she does not know when she will be able to take care of her father. return.One of them expressed the sentimentality caused by the impending long separation when she wrote: "Have I ruined her happy life? Am I to blame? She gave herself to me, and I should make her happy. ’ This is the first mention in the diary of this unusual, mysterious relationship of love and hate: Catherine soothes the exhausted Ida: “..not as I usually do, but with a little kiss, Just the loving kiss one likes to give a tired child. 'Oh,' she sighs, 'I've dreamed about this' (I've been feeling a bit sick)". "No one knows, or can know, what a burden Ida is to me... The greatest happiness I feel in Paris is to be free from her." Ada, whom Catherine needed and hated, was leaving, and March 27 was their parting day, which was also the day Murray was publicly arraigned in bankruptcy court, so it's no wonder everything was up in the air.Catherine's poem "Encounter" was also written on that day, expressing the idea that her and Ada's lives have been linked to each other by an iron ring. From that day on, Murray was a bankrupt with outstanding debts, and Catherine was in debt to Ida, who seemed to have written nothing for months. She had suffered from lung disease for three years, the "pleurisy" seemed to be coming back again, and the tuberculosis bacillus was invading the body, although no one noticed it. For the sake of frugality, they moved into two dark rooms on the top floor of Eddie Croft. There were two tables, two chairs, bamboo mats on the floor, a smelly hall, and the most common toilet. Almost immediately (despite his efforts to establish himself as an art critic) Murray developed peritonitis, followed by Catherine's a week later.She fell on the chair, her face was pale, she could not speak, and her heart was beating violently.Dr. Croft-Hill tended them lovingly, but ignored the real danger, for she looked so good. ①Edna is the heroine in the story. ——Annotation ②Henry is the hero in the story. ——Annotation ① Eddie Clover, a place name in London. ——Annotation Soon Murray had to write back to Eddie Marsh: "I'm afraid to receive your letter. I don't know why I can't write a letter. I don't have a penny. I haven't had a penny since I came back." He wanted to be in the museum. or a job in a gallery; his income from Westminster has dwindled to £4 a week, but the Literary Supplement will be accepting some of his contributions in August, so that, by September, when he is paid He could pay £10, and he added, astonishingly, that Catherine wanted to "be on the stage, but this bloody career doesn't work without a backer." Perhaps the real reason for Murray's reduced income is that he's written a long, long-winded book of fiction with no secrets.The main character is Maurice Temple - a young writer who has eloped with the editor's wife and thus has no source of income. She is older than him and has some money of her own (something like Catherine). The theme of the novel is about the country good life. In "Still Life" you can catch a glimpse or two of Frances Calco (Dupont), George Banks, and Frederick Goodyear, who is Dan in the book. Danny Beecham, who fell in love with Anne because Maurice loved her, and then quit his job to find them in Paris (Danny Beecham was also Gordon Campbell).There's a lot of discussion in the book, basically long speeches rather than real dialogue.Catherine's comment was a brief sentence written in her diary: "'Mr. Temple, I'm afraid you are getting too psychographic.' Then I went out to buy bacon." She herself still wrote nothing at this point. DH Lawrence and his wife came back from Italy in June, ready to get married. He was very happy and confident. The publisher gave him an advance payment of 300 pounds for his next novel. The two were very happy and seemed to have the whole world. They came to Eddie Croft for dinner, and Catherine, of course, complained about the squalor of her and Jack's living conditions, resulting in a fight and a move again.They found a nice little house in Chelson, and signed the deed only to find that it was infested with bedbugs and had to be treated with kerosene and brimstone. On July 13, 1914, Lawrence and Frieda were married at the Cansington Registry - Jack, Catherine and Gordon Campbell were present as witnesses. The Murrays must have been very envious, when Frieda had the sudden idea of ​​giving her wedding ring to Catherine, and Catherine was so moved that she put it on and wore it ever since—"Even when we were married She refused to take it off, and she wore it when she died and was buried at Fontainebleau."Therefore, what Catherine wears on her left hand is actually a symbol of a broken marriage. Back at Campbell's house in Sherwood, the four of them posed for a wedding anniversary photo in the backyard, looking bourgeois.Little did they expect what happened two weeks ago!In Sarajevo, the shooting of a middle school student ignited the fuse that plunged the world into war, changing their lives forever. The war broke out, August was full of unbelievable events, and at one point Murray signed up for the cycling camp with initiate Kingsmill because he loved cycling.Dr. Croft-Hill examined him the next day, said he was overworked and in need of rest, and issued him a certificate stating that he had peritonitis and was "suspected of tuberculosis." During that fateful summer, Jack and Catherine planned a vacation like everyone else: the novelist JD Belfort found them a cottage in Cornwall for part of September.Catherine wrote in her diary on August 30: "We plan to go to Cornwall tomorrow, .. tell ① Fontainebleau, a suburb of Paris." The assassination of Sarajevo led to the declaration of war on Serbia by Austria on July 23, thus triggering the First World War. ——Annotation ③Cornwall, a county name in southwestern England.—Annotation Me, Is there a God? I Don't trust Jack, I feel old tonight, oh, I wish I had a lover who would take care of me, love me, hold me, comfort me, stop thinking." She doesn't have anyone in particular on her mind, but she will soon meet a Russian friend of DH Lawrence, a mysterious figure who will soon become very important in her life - not a lover, but somewhat like a father, and like a distant An admirer of her, someone who sometimes disapproves of her behaviour.For a long time Catherine did not know how to spell his name—Kotlensky, also known as Curt. The war is on, Murray needs motherly care, and Catherine longs for something different from Jack, though she doesn't know exactly what that is.Eddie Marsh got a letter from St. Merlin in Cornwall, telling him that Jack couldn't enlist because of his bad eyesight, and he couldn't find a job, so they decided to live in the country, which was cheaper. "Write hard and hope that within three years peace will come." At the same time, because he only had 4 pounds, he could not send the 10 pounds he had promised.Marsh replied in his typical fashion, sending a check for £5, but by this time they had left Cornwall, and it was only forwarded to them wrapped in a handkerchief.They remained for some time at Lay, in vain attempt to find a cottage which rented at five shillings a week.The check fell out when Murray tried to use the handkerchief at Chelsea. "I don't know why you're doing it, Eddie, are you trying to add fuel to the flames? Of course not, but it annoys me." By this time the Laurences had rented a cottage in Chesham, and left Colesbury was not far from Canaan's Mill, where the Murrays went for a weekend and found a farmhouse nearby, too. Villa Rose was located in ④, which suited them perfectly: the house was small, dark and damp, and the toilet was outside. But with Lawrence's help, the house was finally refurbished, and it soon became the scene of those intensely intellectual debates that Gordon Campbell once called "the wonderful Dostoevsky evenings that Mansfield always精神不佳。”坎贝尔妻子去了爱尔兰，因而他总是下乡来，在这家或那家度周末。三个男人常常把整个周末都花在思辨性讨论上，就是此时凯瑟琳对安妮?埃斯特尔?赖斯说，“默里哪怕煎香肠时也想着上帝。”她觉得这些男人太严肃，有天晚上她对贝阿特丽丝?坎贝尔嚷道：“我需要音乐，灯光和人，”而她却在这儿做果酱或用茶中把花园里邻居的鸡鸭赶出去。 他们不久就发现劳伦斯有些变了，他同弗丽达的关系受到恋母情结的困扰，对战争的失望正在渐渐地毁灭他。他看上去病得不轻，新蓄的胡髭更显得脸色发青。他常常同弗丽达大吵大闹，每当她一开始思念自己留在诺丁汉的孩子时，他就大发雷霆，事实上他已患了肺玻杰克和凯瑟琳现在可以就近观察劳伦斯的婚姻，却为之大惑不解，默里在日记中写道：我想得越多——凯和坎贝尔也有同感——就越难理解这是怎么回事。他并不能得到肉体上很大的满足，他们这方面完全不对头，弗丽达说他“像公狗对待母狗”那样占有她。昨晚上他说甚至现在人们也会感到一种双方面的“羞愧”，他常常渴望弗丽达，而她对他却没有一点欲望，他只得承认这一点，并感到无可奈何。说真的，我觉得她一点也不爱他。她不过是爱上了他是一位了不起的名作家这么一个概念，仅此而已。劳伦斯竟然允许她用那虚①莱，以及彻斯汉姆、柯尔斯伯里、里，均为伦敦附近地名。——译注②莱，以及彻斯汉姆、柯尔斯伯里、里，均为伦敦附近地名。——译注③莱，以及彻斯汉姆、柯尔斯伯里、里，均为伦敦附近地名。——译注④莱，以及彻斯汉姆、柯尔斯伯里、里，均为伦敦附近地名。——译注假的对自己孩子的“爱”来凌驾于他之上，真让我讨厌。我尽量避免去惹她，她愚蠢至极，固执得让人难以忍受，不明白劳伦斯为什么能忍耐下去。凯瑟琳也相信弗痛恨她，我认为弗对凯瑟琳非常嫉妒。 他们的新朋友柯特来同劳伦斯夫妇共度周末，却发现吃中饭时空气紧张，因为女主人为被她抛弃的孩子感到悲伤。柯特从不知道如何隐瞒真话，他具有一种有用的才能，能使朋友们感到自己的渺小和微不足道，感到良心的谴责。他只需站起身来，用自己那坚定的俄国语调发表一些具有道德份量的看法。这次他也不客气地告诉女主人（他过去只见过她一次），既然她离开了自己的孩子同劳伦斯结婚，就没有必要再去为孩子而有什么怨在同已婚朋友的交情中，柯特一辈子都习惯站在夫妇某一方的立常他是劳伦斯的终身好友，因此也成为弗丽达的敌人，很长一段时期，他似乎也是凯瑟琳的好友，她在困难时的避风港，她唯一能信任的人。默里说，柯特的信念是“凯瑟琳永不会做错事”，其实是默里自己这样认为。默里从未提及终于有一天柯特不再是凯瑟琳的朋友，但至少目前他是的。在渐渐疏远杰克时，她常常倚靠他，但是拒绝了他求爱的表示，那似乎是由他的某种误解造成的。 并不是柯特本人，而是他的默认，使凯瑟琳在玫瑰别墅时开始疏远默里。 她渐渐觉得弗朗西斯?卡尔科——她前一个冬天同他在巴黎呆过一段时间，让他给自己授课，因为她“不会说法语”——有她所需要的代替杰克的东西。 卡尔科此时一直与默里通信，凯瑟琳读了他的信，喜欢他“温暖的情感生活”，她希望他是自己的朋友。 到了1914年圣诞节，默里和凯瑟琳两人都明白该分手了，因为她破坏了一项不成文的原则，偷看了他的一本红色小笔记本，读到他告诉戈登?坎贝尔的话，说不知道她是否“对于自己仅是一种满足”。因此她在日记中（12月18日）写道：“这使我下了决心，这使我得到自由，我不再继续演这出戏了..”此时她自己已开始与卡尔科通信，并告诉杰克，但他并不真感兴趣。（默里深知卡尔科为人，确信如果凯瑟琳去找他，总有一天会失望地回来的。）不久以后，凯瑟琳又写道：一天晚上杰克同戈登在一起，我已上了床，他说他真正想要的是一个能控制他的女人——是的，这是他真正想要的。他又说我很顺从，是的，我顺从他，现在也一直如此，但我这样做是因为并未感到自己的迫切需要，现在我仍然因为习惯而顺从他，但每次都带着一种反抗，我称之为“告别”顺从，似乎总觉得是最后一次。 到了狂欢的季节，曾经计划举行三次晚会，结果只兑现了两次，在这4栋以艺术为中心的房子里，共有三位小说家，一位短篇小说家在勤奋工作。 默里骑车去位于贝林顿的别墅，听弗丽达说劳伦斯正在写一篇有关三代人婚姻的小说，其中用马洛①和非尔丁②的手法描绘了一次真正的英国式婚礼，小说将取名。劳伦斯不久就会有一间舒适的顶楼工作间，弗丽达①马洛（1564～1593），英国剧作家。——译注②菲尔丁（1707～1754），18世纪英国最杰出的小说家。——译注正在替他准备，这使默里十分羡慕，他只能在棚子里创作。吉尔伯特?迦南在柯尔斯伯里的磨坊里接待了一位客人，年轻的犹太画家马克?格特勒，后者正忙着催促他写一本题名《门德尔》的小说。在默里的别墅里，凯瑟琳也正在写短篇故事以及沃里希奥芬系列，她不时撕毁自己已写好的作品。 第一次晚会是23日在劳伦斯家，欢快的宴会，房间装饰着常青树枝和檞寄生。柯特用像乌拉尔山③吹来的寒风似的嗓音唱了希伯来歌曲，当劳伦斯宣称小说不是“角色的创作”时，几乎发生了“谋杀性的娱乐”（默里的话）。 听到劳伦斯说的话，肚里灌满了酒的默里把手一挥，宣布如果劳伦斯创作出了角色，他就“每天几次”脱帽向劳伦斯致敬（这是那晚默里上床前昏头昏脑写下的）。 圣诞节的夜晚，同样一伙人聚集在迦南家，晚会分别在他的长房间和圆房间内举行。他弹着自动钢琴，而默里开始非常清楚地意识到自己和格特勒之间存在着敌意。大家都喝醉了，没人能切开烤乳猪，但饭后还是演了两出短剧，在第一出戏中，没人为默里想出一个角色，柯特一直催他设计一出“戏中戏”，这样才演了第二出。 默里把概念付诸表演（他和凯瑟琳的实际情况），而“劳伦斯、弗丽达和凯瑟琳都开始怀着好奇心了解到我的真实意图。” 杰克将扮演一个玩世不恭的丈夫，他妻子（由凯瑟琳扮演）有一种出于情感的渴望，想去安慰一个伤感的外国人（柯特），但却受到另一位强壮、狂热情人的诱惑（格特勒），但后来又同丈夫和好了。默里虽然喝得醉醺醺，这最后一点对他却是至关重要的。戏继续演下去，遭到抛弃的柯特躺在地板上死了，自杀了。格特勒和凯瑟琳之间的爱情戏让大家觉得过于真实了些，先是劳伦斯把默里拉到一边，带着极其严肃和关心的口吻告诉他不要再继续这样暴露自己，把他带出房子，走到路上，说，“我们并非不爱你。” 接着弗丽达来干涉了：凯瑟琳开始亲吻格特勒（在戏中），当劳伦斯夫妇说“你不爱他”时，她回答，“不，我爱他，我爱，”而且拒绝表演回到默里身边去的情节。因此弗丽达把格特勒带到外面路上，对他说凯瑟琳是个坏女人，引诱了他，于是格特勒痛哭起来。“我们谈论着这出戏，一起上了床，”默里在日记中写道，“但是气氛太不寻常，非常像一部陀斯妥耶夫斯基的小说。” 这也给劳伦斯的小说提供了一个情节，马克?格特勒将这件事讲给卡林顿①听，说“柯尔斯伯里所有的作家都想把它写进自己的作品”，但只有劳伦斯一人做到了；吉尔伯特?迦南告诉奥特琳?莫瑞尔夫人这件事，说它“像陀斯妥耶夫斯基小说的一个章节”，将这种情感的尽情发泄同“我们经历的那可怕的几个月”相联系。像大家一样，他认为战争很快就将结束。 默里家的晚会根本就未举行，先是推迟，后来干脆取消了，也许是陀斯妥耶夫斯基起了作用。无论如何，此时凯瑟琳一心想的只是那位写信给她，说“噢，夫人，你们生活在阳光下”的法国士兵。 弗朗西斯?卡尔科在格雷军事占领区，担任军队通信员。如果有些殖民地人的胆量，就可以去那儿看他。凯瑟琳称之为“三年田园式的”与杰克的共同生活似乎已经结束，她想过一种“我认为更适合我的生活”，因此她在③乌拉尔山，俄国一山脉，也是欧亚二洲的分界线。——译注①卡林顿，布卢姆斯伯里成员之一。——译注日记中处处提到这位杰克比她更为了解的法国人，他像她一样，也出生在阳光灿烂的南太平洋地区。 她为他拍了照片，还给他寄去一绺头发。当她和杰克在炉火前做爱时，她“竭力想忘记他，却很难做到”。在杰克的房间里时，她闭上眼睛，贴着他的脸庞，梦想着，结果发现这样非常可怕（“我觉得自己背叛了弗朗西斯，几乎不能入睡”）。凯瑟琳并不是唯一沉溺于幻想的人，劳伦斯的确认真地说过要聚拢一些朋友，乘船离开这个充满战争的肮脏世界，在一个有着“真正像样生活”的小岛上建立一个殖民地。这个灿烂的憧憬称为雷纳宁，得名于柯特的一首感伤的希伯来歌曲。而据柯特说只有凯瑟琳——虽然幻想着遇上好男人，而并不幻想去海岛上过像样的生活——四处搜集了许多有关海岛的详情。从那以后，劳伦斯感到伤心失望，再也不提此事了。 她想要写作的愿望反映了她生活的紧张感，1月12日写完的名叫《勇敢的爱》的长篇故事则是后来凯瑟琳再次用到的枯燥程式的原版：一位年轻妇人突然产生了浪漫的激情，爱上了一个比自己丈夫更富有异国情调和想象力的男人，但理智恢复后又回到自己家中。这是“谨慎的妻子”的主题，几乎是她本人生活方式的直接模仿或移植，因其自我流露而值得一读。同米弟尔①的悲惨的幽会发生在马赛一个悲惨的地方，这篇故事奇怪地预示即将到来的她自己在法国的幽会。 在接下来的几个星期中，默里受到了一连串一个比一个厉害的打击，首先劳伦斯夫妇走了，有人答应让他们使用苏塞克斯的一个别墅；他正在惋惜这一损失时，戈登?坎贝尔又无故失约，事后又不作任何解释，突然跑来宣布结束他的友情，发生此事时，凯瑟琳又恰好下决心离开他。这时，凯瑟琳的弟弟正好从新西兰来加入一个英国军团，在伦敦同她会面，给了她去巴黎度一个星期的10英镑，这更使默里的处境一败涂地。 莱斯利写给父母亲的信（2月21日）讲的则是完全另一回事，从信中可以看出凯瑟琳将自己的生活置于不同“部分”的技巧自从1909年以来丝毫没有减退。莱斯利只有21岁，他的信散发着青春的气息，充满对父母的深情。 他从贝尔姨妈奢侈豪华的家里给父母写信，告诉他们自己去银行看基先生，离开他办公室时，“想不到竟然撞上正好前来取钱的凯瑟琳。她看上去非常健康，见到我高兴极了，根本没想到我会来”。于是他们一起吃午饭，信里接下来是一大篇谎言：她同JM默里比从前更加相爱，这是件大好事。 又同一家月刊签订了新的合同，撰稿报道战况，他们有希望得到一小笔收入，虽然这种事极其费神，因为他们习惯随意写作。他们周末去巴黎搜集素材，我可能有一段时间见不到她。 默里2月15日去维多利亚车站送走了凯瑟琳，回来后染上了流感，自己去了格雷汉姆，在那儿病倒了，劳伦斯细心地照料他。毫无疑问劳伦斯无意中抓住了一个替默里按摩的机会，与《埃伦的杖杆》①中描写的罗登?里利所做的事情极为相似，而默里像过去一样茫然无知，没有意识到劳伦斯对他的依恋之情。此时凯瑟琳戴着迷人的皮手筒，还有不可缺少的笔记本，将这一充满战争时期讽刺意味的越轨想法付诸实施，后来则将其写进了名为《一次①米弟尔，即该小说中的情人。——译注①《埃伦的仗杆》，劳伦斯的短篇小说。——译注轻率的旅行》的故事中。 难道所有这些带笑的声音都是去参加战争的吗？这些黑黝黝的树林中隐现着——桦树和桉树的白色树干，显得异常神秘。这些水汪汪的田地上有大鸟飞过——这些河流呈现绿色和蓝色——难道战斗在这儿进行过吗？——我们经过多么美丽的墓地啊，它们在阳光下闪耀，似乎布满了矢车菊、罂粟花和雏菊，在这种季节哪儿来这么多花呢？但那根本就不是花，是系在士兵们墓地上的一束束丝带。 4天以后，她迷住了几个威严的上校，获准进入“军事地带”，她住进了卡尔科下士在格雷的住所，一切都非常神秘，激动人心：“房间，小灯，木头天花板..弗朗西斯几乎没穿衣服，用一把铜火钳拨火..用我的象牙刷子梳头。”“爱的行为本身倒像是偶然性的”，他们谈了那么多。 卡尔科不知道她在日记中写了些什么，1938年在他的作品《20年代的山貂》中叙述说“至少我这方面是极其认真的，在那样一个地方，大家都互相认识，如果我的意图并非绝对正确，毫无私心，我根本就不会建议让那年轻的澳大利亚人①来我这儿了。”他白天一直值勤，只有晚上才能舒舒服服地同她闲聊一阵。 在默里的《静物画》中，杜邦这个角色是卡尔科的再现，他告诉莫里斯，爱一个女人绝对不能超过三四天，但是在这三四天之内，他“绝对不能想别的事情，绝对不能离开她一分钟，这样了解她直至内心最深处，然后同她一刀两断，不要同她藕断丝连，让那些你尚未了解的地方把你牵挂着”。这段话在小说的第十页上，很可能是在格雷发生的插曲之前写的，后来加进去不像是默里的作风。 凯瑟琳在格雷呆了4天后，默里收到一封电报，说她次日早晨抵达维多利亚车站（2月25日），谨慎的妻子回来了。“她举止奇怪，头发剪短了，防备他人几乎近于好斗，我不敢想象她是回到我身边来。”在玫瑰别墅，两人之间那种疲惫的休战渐渐变成讲和，他们决定去伦敦找房子。 此时，她居然还写出了与《勇敢的爱》截然不同的《小家庭教师》，还有《春天的画》，她“孤独女士”的主题转变成为艺术。不久，在愉快地拜访了劳伦斯夫妇后，她知道自己必须重回巴黎，这次是为了写作。她可以使用卡尔科在鲜花码头①的寓所，他仍然在格雷。 这次她写的信欢快有趣，她现在爱着杰克，想同他分享一切。令人惊讶的是她现在同住在诺汉斯路②13号的贝阿特丽斯?海斯汀斯好上了，后者离开奥列加后，狂热地爱上了温德姆?刘易斯③，后来又同麦克斯?雅科布④，莫迪利阿尼⑤，毕加索打得火热。凯给默里写信说，“贝阿特丽斯的寓所真热①卡尔科当时以为凯瑟琳是澳大利亚人。——译注①鲜花码头和诺汉斯路，均为巴黎地名。——译注②鲜花码头和诺汉斯路，均为巴黎地名。——译注③温德姆?刘易斯（1882～1957），英国画家，作家，旋涡画派的创始人。代表作有小说《上帝的猢狲》，画《巴塞罗那的投降》等。——译注④麦克斯?雅科布（1876～1944），法国作家，与超现实主义及立体画派有密切联系。——译注⑤莫迪利阿尼（1884～1920），意大利著名画家。——译注闹，忠心耿耿的麦克斯?雅科布替她跑腿买东西..她打发走了达多（莫迪利阿尼），把她圣女般的心肠放在毕加索身上，他就住在附近。虽然她仍然异常美丽，仍有着金色的头发，小脑袋仍十分可爱，但她已经毁了。” 这听上去一点也不像《我非常讨厌耗子》和《善变者》的作者，凯瑟琳这么快就同她成为朋友，肯定不大知道那回事。她堕落的原因是：“我走到餐柜前，喝着科涅克白兰地，直到醉得不省人事，亲爱的。”凯瑟琳同她一起醉过一回，发誓再也不这样喝酒了。3月21日她俩大吵了一通，彼此永远分手了。（但是1918年她们又不可避免地打了一次交道。）三天以后，凯瑟琳“扑进我第一本小说张开的怀抱之中”，她已开始写她以卡罗里为背景的故事，取名《芦荟》，后经过修改加工成为《序曲》。 她现在已挣脱了不能写作的魔咒，但是找谁去发表作品呢？ “不，你不会在《新时代》上找到任何我写的东西，我绝不会送给他们一行字。我认为奥列加太卑鄙了。”她终于在自己的作品中找到了“真正的自我”，却没有地方将其展示出来。 当她不在时，默里高兴地装饰好了几个房间，盼望重新开始。凯瑟琳带着未完成的《芦荟》回来，整个4月份她都住在那儿，但发现自己不能在这两间房子里继续呆下去，于是5月间又回到鲜花码头，回到那些在信中多次描绘过的美妙景致中去了。一天早上她听见看门人对别人说她是“弗朗西斯?卡尔科”的情妇，还听说他马上要回巴黎，于是赶快逃走了，并向杰克保证她现在一点也不把他放在心上。5月19日，她又回到伦敦，故事也写好了。第二年，发生了一场灾难，改变了她整个生活和价值观念，她又重新开始修改小说，但仍然没有达到她期待的效果。只是到了1917年，受到狄欧克里特的影响和另一位作家同行的鼓励才改成《序曲》。 卡尔科回来后，发现客人走时留下了一个漂亮的英国瓷器盆，非常高兴。 这时他当了飞行员，没有去土耳其。一年以后，写了小说《纯真》，其中将凯瑟琳描写为“维妮”，一个四处搜寻猎物的剽窃者：还有“贝阿特丽斯”，她最后谋杀了维妮，但是卡尔科只听说过海斯汀斯，所以外貌似乎是以乔治?班克斯为原型。卡尔科自己是米洛，他同一位年轻朋友在圣?米歇尔林荫路上的一家咖啡馆同维妮初次会面。 凯瑟琳成为名作家后，卡尔科在《20年代的山貂》中回忆这一段交往，将其描绘成友情，“虽然有些疯狂，但却绝对真诚”，他那时确实以为她是澳大利亚人。 对任何不理解这一友情的人，我都能诚实地宣称其中最为重要的是凯瑟琳?曼斯菲尔德和我两人对诗的共同爱好。这些诗描写了夜晚、雨，以及存在的荒谬和危险——总而言之，我们共同爱好那悲伤的浪漫情调，其中异国风味掺杂着美感，当然也少不了一些幽默，一点幻灭。我们俩都出生于遥远的国度，相隔仅咫尺海水和一些岛屿，我们不由自主地感到一些亲和力，这多亏了具有讽刺意味的命运的巧妙安排。 生活忽视了一切，同样也不希望我们的交往能够长久。但是多亏凯瑟琳?曼斯菲尔德，我才写出了自己最好的书，因为她在某种程度上为我提供了其中的素材。如果人们在《纯真》中维妮身上认出了她的话，我认为她只代表了此角色纯真无瑕的一面。..在米洛的性格中也能找到我自己的影子，但仅限于他同维妮奇特地交换双重个性时。 后来得知默里在《处在两个世界间》中描述了格雷那一小段插曲，卡尔科说，“这很伤脑筋，我并不知道默里了解此事。” 阿卡西亚路和波琳别墅 大部分人都认为等到我训练完后，就不再会有人被送往前线了，就是有的话，也已是夏季，会有更多的野餐，所以不用发愁！ ——莱斯利给父母的信 1915年2月1日