Chapter 13 11 House arrest (1970-1971, thirty-five to thirty-six years old)

The four years from the age of 31 to the age of 35, that is, the four years from 1966 to 1970, I summarize it as the "star sinking" period.During these days, "Wenxing" magazine and Wenxing Bookstore sank one after another, and myself—this anthropomorphic Wenxing—sinked as well.However, in 1970, the situation in "Xingshen" got worse, and that was the period when I was put under house arrest by the Kuomintang authorities, which lasted for 14 months until I was arrested. The situation has deteriorated to this point. In addition to my colorful anti-government "black background" in the past, the relationship with Peng Mingmin has constituted black on top of black, so that sinking on top of sinking, and finally sinking into prison went.

Peng Mingmin was at National Taiwan University ten years before me. When I was in National Taiwan University Law School, he did not teach me, but he taught many of my old classmates.After my book was published, I sent him a copy, and he wrote back to me, saying: "I have always loved reading your articles, and I agree with many of your opinions. I hope to have the opportunity to know you in the future." This letter Twenty-seven days after writing, on December 10, 1963, he met through Guo Xinsheng and invited me to dinner at Zhimei Building in Taipei. That was the first time we met officially.This man is knowledgeable, courteous, and uncle-like, which left a deep impression on me.From then on, I saw friendship with him as a teacher and friend.At that time, I was hosting "Wen Xing". Ten days before the dinner, I published his masterpiece in "Wen Xing" - "The Emotional Factors of Pan-African Thought". After reading this article, we can gain a comprehension by analogy from the turmoil of this thought.”Ten months after this subtle comprehension, the "Peng case" happened. Thirteen months later, he came back from a disaster. There are only "very few exceptions" left by my friends, and I am one of the exceptions, and I deserve to be the exception among the exceptions.Because I too have been persecuted.He was in a similar situation, so he became acquainted with Confucianism, and became more popular as time went by.

At that time, Chiang Kai-shek issued a secret order to drive me and Lu Xiaozhao out of "Wen Xing".To do business, I need to open a Type A account in the bank and receive a check.I once asked Xiao Mengneng for help, but Xiao Mengneng refused. Peng Mingmin knew about it and offered to help me. He wrote to Lu Xiaozhao and asked him to accompany me to the Yongle branch of Changhua Bank to open an account. It turned out that Peng Mingmin asked his brother Peng Minghui to secretly introduce me to pass the test. .At that time, I was struggling to make ends meet, selling books for a living, and Peng Mingmin also wrote letters for me to sell them to foreigners.Such kindnesses are too numerous to mention.In short, from the time he was released from prison to the time he smuggled out of Taiwan, within four years, I spent countless years of joy and sorrow with him in the dusk, in the middle of the night, when we were in touch with each other, and between drinking and chatting .This kind of feeling of adversity is unique to Peng Mingmin, but to me it is only seen, and aftertaste now, it suddenly feels like yesterday.

At that time, Peng Mingmin was struggling to make ends meet. Originally, he had a small piece of land in Zhongshan North Road Lane. He originally planned to build it and open a small restaurant with me, but it did not become a reality.He was followed day and night by people from the Bureau of Investigation, and sometimes he was so angry that he took pictures himself to collect evidence, and the cameras were all taken away.After I learned about it, Nai and Huang Shengchang (Huang San) took the pictures with long lenses, which made Peng Mingmin very happy. Peng Mingmin is proficient in four languages. In addition to being an international leader in space law, he is also very knowledgeable in other subjects.His taste in life is extremely elegant. Once he gave me the African violets he planted himself, and gave my girlfriend Xiaolei a puppy he raised himself, named Dudu. On January 15, 1970, Dudu unfortunately died of poisoning. I was busy with business, so I asked Wei Tingchao to visit Peng Mingmin and brought some beer and magazines.Unexpectedly, the court reported that only Mrs. Peng was at home.Eleven days later, Wei Tingchao arrived in a hurry, saying that Peng Mingmin had arrived in Sweden due to a foreign telegram!

After Peng Mingmin was smuggled into the country, I was immediately put under house arrest for several years, and was even imprisoned.The charges in the military court judgment are "Knowing that Peng Mingmin has a previous record of rebellion, and his rebellion has not faded, he still secretly associates with him" and helping him to smuggle.From then on, once you enter the prison door, it's as deep as the sea!During the four years of friendship between me and Peng Mingmin, because I was not his student, he revealed a lot of his thoughts to me "while we were connected with each other, and while drinking and drinking", but for others or others. unknown to his students.For example, I was puzzled by his behavior of "repenting" to Chiang Kai-shek in exchange for his release from prison.He finally revealed the truth. He said: "At first I refused to regret any mistakes and was going to go to jail. But when I thought about the woman's breasts, I had no choice but to surrender." Another time he told me that he I envy the author of the book "My Secret Life", because the author has fucked many women in his life.All these words were revealed to me by him during a glass of consonance, which shows the close relationship between the two.This relationship, Peng Mingmin later wrote "Peng Mingmin's Memoirs "The Taste of Freedom" Li Aoding's Preface" has relative memories.

After I spent thirteen months in prison and was taken home into custody, things didn't get better. The "relatives and friends" were still in panic, not only did not dare to contact them, but some even wanted to "add insult to injury".When we met on a narrow road, some pretended not to see, and some simply ran away (guessing that after returning home, they must ask God to worship Buddha to protect them from being implicated because they met me). The most precious and still somewhat exceptional friends. Li Ao is one of the very few exceptional friends. Li Ao has nothing to do with the "Taiwan Self-Help Movement Declaration".However, Xie Congmin.After Wei Tingchao and I were arrested, the police officers felt that the "Manifesto" article was written too well (this should be attributed to Xie Congmin and Wei Tingchao), and it could not have been written by Taiwanese.After guessing and guessing, they even thought of Li Ao, and insisted that Li Ao wrote it for him.During the interrogation, they repeatedly questioned me about this, which made me dumbfounded.Therefore, Li Ao became the object of suspicion and attention of the secret agents.This is Li Ao's only "involvement" with the "Taiwan Self-Help Movement Declaration".

I knew Li Ao before the occurrence of the "Taiwan Self-Salvation Movement Declaration" case, and I had also been to his home.What impressed me the most there, besides the rich collection of books, was that he cleaned up the whole house by himself, spotlessly clean, including the bathroom and toilet.He does not have the dirty habits of traditional Chinese "literati". After my case happened, Li Ao was not only not timid, but even more kind. I knew that he did not agree with "Taiwan independence" and did not support "Taiwanese self-determination".The reason why he opposed the Kuomintang was not out of narrow political interests, but out of the profound philosophy of history and culture, and also out of the belief in democracy and freedom and the great spirit of human rights and humanity.His thinking is broad, deep, clear, rigorous and conscientious.

While I was in custody, Li Ao asked me to have a secret meeting once a month.Every time he would invite me to a high-end restaurant to enjoy a sumptuous meal, probably to encourage me to be rustic and nourish me.He was also afraid that my prison life would be too dry and boring, so he would bring me the latest issue of Playboy magazine, which was banned at the time, and lend it to me (he made it clear that it was "borrowed", not "given", so every time The capital must be returned to him at the next meeting, which I will do.)One night, Shen Zhiyue, the director of the Bureau of Investigation, invited the two of us to dinner. Before and after, we both thought it was very funny, and we laughed and laughed like two naughty boys.

From 1969, I began to prepare to leave Taiwan, and had to communicate with overseas parties.All correspondence must be taken out of the country and posted in the post, and incoming letters cannot be mailed, they can only be brought into Taiwan from overseas.To this end, some reliable friends are needed, and they will then entrust their reliable friends to bring them in and out.Li Ao is one of the few reliable friends.He has forwarded some important letters for me, but he may not know the purpose of my frequent contacts overseas.I didn't expect this to become one of the major crimes he was imprisoned for. I sincerely apologize, and it is difficult to express.

I am ready to leave Taiwan, knowing that if I succeed, I will live, and if I fail, I will die. When I saw him in late 1969, I knew it was the last time we would see each other, but I didn't dare tell him my plan (it was like I didn't tell my family, to save them from the felony of "failure to report").I still agreed on the time and place of the next secret meeting as usual, although I knew in my heart that whether I lived or died, I would break the appointment and he would never see me again.Before leaving, I secretly thanked, said goodbye and apologized to him in my heart.During my suffering, his kindness and righteousness to me will always be remembered in his heart, and he still remembers and thanked me from time to time.

After I arrived in Sweden, I kept in touch with him for a while.But most of the talks are light and private matters, not involving national affairs. When I was in prison, I once wrote an article "The Confusion of Totalism", which I secretly brought out when I was released from prison, and I sent the original manuscript to Li Ao, asking him to comment.He immediately wrote two opinions, which I value very much.When I left Taiwan in early 1970, I had no luggage, and what I could bring with me was extremely limited, and the two reviews by Li Ao were one of the very few things I took with me, and they are still kept in the United States. After I left Taiwan, Li Ao was closely monitored.A recorder was stolen from his home.After he found out, he took a picture of him, and also took pictures of the spy agents monitoring his house, and sent them all to me along with the wiretapping device parts.These photos and parts have been traveling with me for a long time, and they are still in the United States. Peng Mingmin has some things to add to these memories.First, as soon as the Kuomintang authorities learned that Peng Mingmin had smuggled into Sweden, they immediately put me under house arrest. Day and night, a special car and a number of special personnel kept an eye on me.The urgent man-to-man monitoring was first sent by the police unit, and then the police headquarters relayed it, and "followed the prison" (followed and monitored) back and forth.During the fourteen months when I was under house arrest, the so-called special car was a taxi with the name of "Huabao" at first, then a taxi with the name of "Xingye", and finally a taxi with the name of "Yongjiong". They were all disguised as work cars of the Security Department of the Police Headquarters. At that time, the chief of the security department was Major General Wu Zhangjiong, and the taxi name was "Yongjiong", which obviously meant "Forever Wu Zhangjiong". In addition to a special car, there were usually three people One group, three groups per day, eight hours per group, closely watched me 24 hours a day. At that time, I lived on the top floor of the apartment on the fourth floor, and they rented two rooms in the farmhouse on the opposite side of the building. Parked at the door, facing away from my own car (Kelly's car is the same grade as a taxi after that, it is the second car I have ever used). Every time I go out, they follow, Li Ao step by step, Li Ao followed suit. In the past, when Peng Mingmin was being followed, he complained to me how annoying it was to be followed. I advised him, why do you mind? Just treat them as "dogs" and forget about it. Peng Mingmin said Li Ao you You don’t know what it’s like to not be followed, but when you are followed, you will know that it’s not that simple. Later, I was followed, and I thought it was quite fun. Those who were followed at the same time as me were Xie Congmin and Wei Tingchao. A person often conflicts with "these dogs". Xie Congmin said that he was followed for a long time, and he was a little nervous. He even felt as if someone was peeping at him when he was taking a shower. In a crowded place, he suddenly revealed his identity in public, pointed at his follower, and cursed him as a "running dog of the Kuomintang"! His follower reported it to the top, at that time Lu Jinbo, the director of the security department of the Taipei City Police Department (later promoted to do Chief of the Criminal Police Bureau) said: "Let him scold you, you have to endure it for a few days, they will have a few days to live! "Wei Tingchao's method of revenge is "reform through labor". He often puts on sneakers, eats and drinks enough, and suddenly runs to climb mountains. When they were taken to the mountain, they complained endlessly. Wei Tingchao had such a group of "mountain training", and "those dogs" had to carry bento water bottles and wear sneakers to serve them. Because Wei Tingchao calculated the shift time of "those dogs", they were always on the shift. Before going straight to the point, he created a temporary situation that made them not only unable to get off work, but also had to climb the mountain! Wei Tingchao also knew that "those dogs" often deliberately fell behind in order not to climb the mountain, and then lied to the superiors that the "rebels" were missing, so he climbed again. The speed is moderate, so that they cannot keep up. He also threatened that if you can clearly see me, you must follow me, if I climb you have to climb, if you desert, I will report you. Therefore, the regular "mountain climbing group" It is: Wei Tingchao has already reached the top of the mountain, sitting on a rock and waving, two people on the mountainside are still slowly climbing, chanting words (people from other provinces have words "(into meat) your mother", Taiwanese have words "fuck your mother "), very interesting. Later they couldn't take it anymore, but asked the people who followed me to talk to me, telling them that they were just following orders, they were poor people, please don't punish people like this. It happened that Wei Tingchao accidentally climbed a mountain one day and rolled down the mountain When he got down, his flesh was injured. I told him that they talked about human relations, so his "mountain training" came to an end. As for my revenge method, it was more "insidious". I was laughing and laughing with the people who followed me in principle , do not retaliate easily, everyone facilitates each other, I use the convenience to obtain information, and profit from it. As the saying goes: "Full fortune never comes singly, misfortune never comes singly. "This means that misfortune comes from both sides. I have a strange explanation for the double tones: when the misfortune itself comes, the ordinary person is matched with the other, and the other is to worry himself. Ordinary people immediately do direct distress when they encounter disasters. My own reaction, so the misfortune is added to the misfortune, and it will naturally be double. My method is: when I encounter a disaster, I tell myself first: "I am determined not to be knocked down by it, on the contrary, I will face it with a smile." . "In this way, I will have at least one misfortune less than others. It is not enough to never cooperate with misfortune. I have to give the misfortune itself "worth four fares" to be satisfied. What is "worth the fare" ? In the biography of Guan Yan in "Historical Records", Sima Qian said that Guan Zhong "turned good fortune from misfortune, and turned defeat into merit." important! "Unfavorable things in life are often nine out of ten." A low-handed man sighs at unsatisfactory things; a master can turn unsatisfactory things into his own benefit.A person has to cultivate to this level before he can be regarded as proficient.A person with a high degree of proficiency is equally happy whether he is in the gossip stove or outside the gossip stove.Based on this kind of outlook on life of a master and a strong man, during the process of being under house arrest by the Kuomintang, I have always been leisurely on the surface, but in my heart I have tried my best to turn it into my own benefit.One of the most interesting ones is a story about me eating a policeman. During the 14-month house arrest, the first to follow me were the policemen from the Daan Branch of the Taipei City Police Department. At the beginning, they were in groups of two. Especially lazy to go out.The police following me are at my door, lack of exercise (like Wei Tingchao's excessive exercise), more and more boring.The way they pass the boredom is chatting, teasing the children, watching the passers-by and looking up at my fourth floor.Of course, I can't know all their names. In order to distinguish them, I secretly nicknamed them one by one.There was a group of people nicknamed "Fatty" and "Boy", who seemed to be the most restless and impatient. I was on the fourth floor, through the blinds, and peeked at their every move with a telescope. It was really interesting. At 8:45 p.m. on April 7, 1970, there was a car crash downstairs, and soon someone knocked on the door. I opened the door and saw that it was "Fatty".According to their regulations, the prisoner is not allowed to deal with the prisoner, but the "fat man" finally spoke to me with embarrassment on his face. He said, "Mr. Li, I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry! Come on!" Excuse me, you know what I do. We are down there. Just now, one went to defecate and the other went to pee. No one was there. The naughty kid in the shop took the opportunity to run into our car, start the motor and learn how to drive. I rushed to the back of the car you parked below and crashed your car. Please give us the car keys, we promise to fix it for you, and we promise to fix it. Please forgive me, Mr. Li!” I smiled and said, “It’s okay, it’s okay, Wait for me to go down and have a look." When I went downstairs, I saw that the side of my car was hit, and my car was old at that time, so I thought to myself: "This time I was hit, so I have to overhaul it, make special repairs, make special repairs and make special repairs. Just once!" I said to "Fatty", "It's okay, it's okay, let's talk about it tomorrow, tomorrow you can ask the district police to come and talk to me." At that time, the district policeman was named Luo Yifei, a Hunan native, a nice guy who knew me well.The next day, he did come.He said that "Fatty" asked him to apologize, and said that "Fatty" would take my car away and return it to me after it was repaired.I asked him how the car was hit?He said that it wasn't that he went to poop and urinate at all, but that the "boy" couldn't drive and was bored downstairs. He asked the "fat man" to teach him how to drive. So I rushed out and rushed to Uncle Li's car. I said: "'Fatty' got into trouble, and he still wants to hide it from the world. It's fucking disgusting. I want to clean them up.I want to repair this car myself, I don’t want them to repair it, they repair it, they just find the garage of the nearby common people, eat the common people, and they won’t give you money after repairing it, how can this work!I have to fix it myself.How much is the repair, and they will compensate me according to the facts. Seeing that I insisted, the district police had no choice but to ask me to issue an estimate to him, and then left. In those few days, I have leftover journals as follows: April 7 (Tuesday) Crash at 8:45 p.m. April 8 (Wednesday) Officer Luo is here.Thank you Ye Wei.Half-day training for police officers to use binoculars and bugs. April 9 (Thursday) Thank you for coming in the afternoon, and said to investigate my affairs with some committee. April 15 (Wednesday) [The district police officer came,] I handed him the estimate for the repair of the crashed car, and insisted that my insurance company cannot pay for it, and at the same time, they were not allowed to pick up the car for me, because I did not believe that they would not lie to the garage. [Because the superiors sent him to investigate a few things about me, and to win my trust,] the district police officers wrote and filled out the report in front of me, saying that Li Ao had no means of living and was in a bad mood, so he refused to answer.Unable to complete the task, I would like to ask the original whistleblower to investigate. He also said that every time he rang the doorbell, he would not open the door.Double-click to open. The valuation sheet was issued by "China Domestic Automobile Co., Ltd.", and the cost is 5,500 yuan for sheet metal; 1,500 yuan for spray paint; 900 yuan for a front bumper; 80 yuan for each corner lamp; and galvanized strips on the body. A group of 700 yuan, a total of 8,180 yuan.Eight thousand one hundred and eighty yuan was not a small amount fifteen years ago. The police officers in charge of the district saw it and said that this money was not affordable for "fat people" and "boys". Farewell again. A day or two later, the district police came again. He said that their research results showed that Mr. Li's car was only slightly damaged on the side of the buttocks. Why did Mr. Li have to repair the whole thing?Even the front insurance cup needs to be replaced with a new one, and the entire body needs to be repainted. They say that Mr. Li is eating tofu.I said that I, Mr. Li, did not eat tofu, but hedgehogs.You police eat the common people all day long, and you will be eaten back by the common people today.You go back and tell the director of the Da’an Branch, tell him to be more sensible, and obediently send the money, otherwise I will write to his superior. The letter reads, “You sent people to follow me. It’s difficult for you. But the people you sent to follow me had a little too much shit and pee, one went to defecate, the other went to pee, and my car was hit. I beg you to withdraw the people who follow me now, it is an extravagant request, But I beg you to carefully select and send some operators who have less shit and urine, and you should give it convenience, so thank you immeasurably!" The district policeman laughed and smiled wryly after hearing this, and went back to think of a way. On May 1, he came again.Said that the chief of the Da’an branch gave in, and he ordered the police to collect the money, which was enough for the price you Mr. Li offered. I got your Mr. Li’s car, we caught a taxi driver, he was willing to admit that he hit the car, our police just mediate, the driver will pay you Mr. Li, and the date of the settlement must be backdated by 23 days. On the day of the collision, I wonder if Mr. Li can make a difference and reconcile in this way?Talking about handing over the "reconciliation letter" that I had already written and 8,180 yuan in cash, I smiled and said that this is easy, so everyone can fake it!So, I signed the "Reconciliation Letter" that the other party had already signed.The person who reconciled with me was called "Zhang Songde". Until today, twenty-seven years later, I still don't know who and what the taxi driver "Zhang Songde" who reconciled with me looked like.Both of us have such light skills in our lives, and we can make peace in terms of self-collision in the midst of flying clouds and fog. I really can't help but admire the director of the Da'an Branch Bureau!After I signed it, I wrote the following on my "Reconciliation Letter": Police officer Luo kept me a copy of the triplicate of this book, and I signed a receipt.The police want to play a fake show to avoid disaster when they lose money, and their intentions are also suffering. On May 1, 1970, those who "sit at home behind closed doors and get money from the ground" were like this, and the money from the police came into my hands. On the third day after the reconciliation, the car was repaired, and I have the remaining diary as follows: May 3 (Sunday) Follow Xiao Cao. May 5 (Tuesday) Duan came from Taichung and told You Youjin to resign from the police force, saying that the police had said that Li Ao would smuggle into Yunyun this month.Ridiculous! Today, I went to Ximen with Lei and was followed very closely. The fat police officer (the perpetrator) saw that the car had been repaired today, and said to Xiao Ba, "It's even better than before!" Xiao Ba said, "Thanks to you." It is said that the police station apportioned 3,000 yuan for this compensation, and the balance was apportioned by the police. The unlucky "fat man" was finally transferred away soon.Later, the Police Headquarters sent someone to replace the police and took over all the follow-up duties.One day, the "Old Zheng" (Zheng Shida) who followed me from the police chief revealed to me: "When the 'fat man' was about to hand over, he said: Be careful of that Li, that guy is extremely insidious. On the day of the crash, he went downstairs, grinning. , he kept saying that it's okay, but it didn't matter for a long time, but he insisted on our police until he paid him a lot of money. Don't think that Li ate our police and used the money to repair the car. In fact, we found out that his car was insured with full insurance, and the insurance company didn’t dare to find out who hit his car, so they had to pay for it, so all the car repairs were filial piety from the insurance company. Someone Li took our money, All of them went to buy floral clothes for his little girlfriend. Mr. Li is the most powerful guy in the world, you have to be careful!" I laughed out loud.I said: "This is called 'The Police and the People's Family'!" During the days when I was "followed and imprisoned" by the Kuomintang, the secretary-general of "Amnesty International", Martin Aina, went to Taiwan.Wei Tingchao and Xie Congmin came to my house and invited me to see Martin together.I said that I, Li Ao, have a lot of airs, especially against foreign devils. If Martin really comes to help us, please invite him to my house to see me. I will not go to see him.After hearing what I said, both of them thought it was reasonable, and they passed it on to Martin.Martin has the courage to do good, and he agreed to come to my house, visit my house, and "visit guests".So, we agreed to come one night.At that time, although I was too busy to take care of myself, I really wanted to ask Martin to do something for Bo Yang in prison. In order to deepen Martin's impression, I asked Xiaolei to call Bo Yang's wife Ai Gong's public phone (my family is afraid of wiretapping), and asked her if she would Reluctant to meet Martin.Ai Mei said on the phone that she would like to come, but when the time came, she broke the appointment.Why I missed the appointment, I still don't know. When Martin arrived in Taiwan, the Kuomintang hated and feared him, so they sent three people to follow him.At that time, there were three people following me, two people each following Wei Tingchao and Xie Congmin.After Martin and the others went upstairs, everyone looked down from the window on the fourth floor, and saw a large gathering of stalkers and horses from all walks of life below. It was so interesting!I pointed them out and said, "Look, the door opposite my house has become a police station!" Everyone looked down and smiled, feeling deeply that the Kuomintang has a good law and order, and its real name is well-deserved.In this "visiting guest", I handed over some photos of being "incarcerated" and the list of Taiyuan Prison to Martin.I didn't tell him how to deal with it, and he didn't say how to deal with it.Everything seemed tacit.This list includes quite a few friends of mine or people we know well today.Like Liu Zhensong, Cai Jinhe, Lin Shuyang, Chen Shuiquan, Lei Zhengbin, Yuan Jintao, Luo Xianyi.Xi Changan, Ke Qihua, Shi Mingzheng, Zhuang Kuanyu, Chen Zuohu, Shi Mingde, Sun Yicang, Hu Xuegu (Hu Xuyi), Wu Yaozong, Mei Jimin and so on.During their dark prison life, they never dreamed that each of their names had been transferred to the "international good people" in the eyes of the Kuomintang through the hands of Li Ao.Not only did they not expect it, even the Kuomintang did not expect it.The Kuomintang never dreamed that under the great task of "following" Li Ao around the clock, Li Ao could still "harm" them quietly. They really don't know how powerful Li is! This list of Taiyuan Prison is a simple album written in one fold on ten-lined lined paper. Because it was smuggled out, there are many creases and it is a bit worn out.It was given to me by Meng Juezi (Meng Xiangke).Meng Juezi never asked me how to use it, and I never said how to deal with it.Because of this kind of tacit understanding, after everyone was arrested one after another, I, like Meng Juezi, said: "Put the responsibility for 'leaking confidential information' completely on you (Li Ao) yourself, so as to relieve me (Meng Juezi)." Judgment)." Therefore, this case was fortunately "judicious" on Li Ao's body.Meng Juezi was locked up for a while and then released; Cai Maotang (deceased, who taught Taiwanese at the Stanford Center) who submitted the list to him was also released soon. A few days before I was arrested on March 19, 1971, I was sitting on the toilet watching "News World", and saw an article "Calling Taiwan Traitors" in "News World" by Bu Shaofu, a cultural agent of the Kuomintang. One of the quotations mentioned Taiwan independence elements "announced a batch of lists of political prisoners detained in Taiwan". .After I was arrested, when I was interrogated, the Kuomintang took out a "Taiwan Independence League Organ Chronicle" - "Taiwan Youth" issue 120, and saw the big list of "Taiwan Taiyuan Prison 'Political Prisoners' List" The title, I suddenly realized! After being arrested, my home was ransacked twice, and many documents and letters were confiscated. Some fragments left by luck, I can see some traces of this period of house arrest: January 26, 1970 (Monday) 1. [Postscript] Wei Tingchao came early in the morning and said that Peng Mingmin had been smuggled out of Sweden and was given political asylum in Sweden. The family members had received a telegram last night. It was amazing to hear it! 2. Wu Xiangxiang came in the afternoon and said that Yang Xikun had confirmed this at the Peking University Alumni Association yesterday. January 28 (Wednesday) 1. Wang Gan (Wang Gan was the director of the Taipei Station of the Investigation Bureau, and then the director of the Public Relations Office of the Investigation Bureau) called in the afternoon and arrived at my home at about 4 pm.He came at 3:50 and sat until 4:40.He first said that last year the Bureau of Investigation handled many major cases and was extremely busy, so he was unable to visit me.I said, "Your business is booming." He said, "It's a pity that everything is secret." We looked at each other and smiled.Wang Gan asked me to help him a little bit. Think about it, if there is a familiar foreigner who can be better than Peng.I said: "It seems that there is a New York Times reporter FOX (Bao Defu), the one you sent more than 20 special agents to detain him at the airport for five hours last time." He laughed and asked me if I would run away, I said, "First, I want to run, and I did in 1964 and 1965. Second, I want to run, and I won't run behind Peng Mingmin." January 29 (Thursday) 1. [Remarks] In the evening, when the district police came, I ate fried rice with eggs at home, so I asked him to have it with me by the way.He seemed to have something to hide.Finally, the higher-ups issued an order to arrest a one-armed man named Peng Mingmin, who is now ordered to check the taxis in the area, whether he has ever taken such a passenger, etc.I said you have to ask the doctor in "The French Open" to find it, because he is an expert in finding one-armed people... 2. The district police went downstairs. I saw him go straight into the small shop opposite, and there were many people in it, so I knew something was wrong.Soon Xiao Kui came over and said, "Why do you have a 007 downstairs?" I changed the topic, because everyone was playing cards tonight, so as not to spoil the fun!While I was winning, I paid attention to the activities downstairs, and finally the door was ajar and the lights were on all night. 3. Reread "The Biography of Adeno" before going to bed, and read the story of being persecuted by totalitarians. January 30 (Friday) 1. [Postscript] Strangers at the gate! 2. Xiaohua called and said that Manager Fan and others went downstairs last night. After being carefully examined, it was definitely confirmed that it was 007. 3. Inform all friends, "Don't blame if you don't come, you have to take responsibility for yourself." 4. Fatty Wei called "Congratulations". 5. Passing by the police station in the afternoon, I found out that the district policeman was not there. The person on duty at the station said that he had "special duty", and I understood better. 6. When I came back to Wenyue, I called Wang Gan, saying why did people from Peng Mingmin's house come to my house?I'm not like Peng Mingmin—you watched him for a year or so, but his mother had money to support him; if you watched me for a year and a half, you couldn't scare me, but you scared away my friends, then I I was starving to death, so I had to pack up my bedding first and live in your bureau!Please ask Director Shen, what is going on?After a while, Wang called back, saying that Director Shen said that he was not in their bureau, and that he would inquire about it for me. 7. I even joked with Wang Gan: "This time for winter defense, I will pay extra!" January 31 (Saturday) 9. Afternoon information: As soon as Peng left, the police headquartered the district police to check whether I was at home (the morning of the 24th), and then the special service team came to my house to watch for three or four days, and then decided to kick the ball to the city police station because of too many responsibilities. , the city police station kicked it to the Daan branch again, so the city police station, the Daan branch and my district police station formed a special case joint team. There is one team leader and eight members (one of them is the district policeman, who is reassigned to special service [special service], exempted from other duties, and specially participates in surveillance work).In addition to the regular salary, each team member will receive an additional 24 yuan per day, and 720 yuan per month. This monitoring is set by default for at least three months, and the monthly expenditure for eight people is 5,760 yuan. Yuan.Other follow-up fares are reported separately, and the salary of the team leader and above is unknown.The same people under surveillance, besides me, are Xie Congmin from Tonghua Street and Hui from Heping East Road (it was later found out that she was Mrs. Peng), with a total monthly budget of 50,000 yuan.The method of monitoring is a team of two people, changing shifts every four hours, 24 hours a day, and keeping records of the situation. 'First, Yi Li, the director of the police station.Both Xie and Xie were in the jurisdiction. For fear of further disaster, the police in Jian's district forced Li and Xie to move.My district police said there was nothing I could do. ("Li Ao owns the house! How can you force him not to live in his own house?") Afterwards, the director of the sub-bureau interviewed the district police, and the district police said three points: 1. Li Ao's house was mortgaged, and the economic situation was not good, so he had no money to escape (this The point has been considered by the director of the branch bureau that Li Ao can accept outside help).two.Li Ao is the smartest person. If he wants to run, he will run ahead of (Peng), not behind.3. Because Li Ao is the smartest, so he won't leave now, and there is no one to arrest him. If he is arrested once he leaves, it will be bad for him (the director of the two-point branch agrees). 10. The district police reported to the branch chief first, and because he knew me, the branch chief allowed him to come to my house or take my car.But he asked the branch chief: "If Li Ao goes to the tourist hotel, and I have no money and dirt, what should I do?" The branch chief said: "Then you wait for him at the door." 11. The district police knew me and understood me, so he was very lax when he was on duty. He even said: "Li Ao is going to run away, but he won't run away when I am on duty. Li Ao is a good friend." Therefore, he was warned by his superiors.There may even be other policemen who request to be assigned to a team with him for the sake of safety. 12. The district police revealed: "The higher-ups are just afraid that you will run away. As long as you don't run away and you gamble at home, not only will we not catch you, but we will welcome you very much!" Thirteenth, the police in the district can make money from guarding, and they want to arrange guarding, and he will give him a guarantee: pay him all the guarding fees, and if Li Ao runs away, he is willing to be beheaded.He is willing to give me half of the custody fee. ... Then I thought about it, the higher-ups must have suspected that he was in collusion with me, so I had this whimsical idea. After such a discussion, I would not be able to get the extra money of twenty-four yuan a day.So dispel this idea. 14. The district police also said: The higher-ups offered a reward of 10,000 yuan to anyone who provided information about Peng's important activities from December 20th to January 20th. 15. He also said that now my photo has been secretly distributed at various important exits, for fear of my smuggling. 16. He said that he was at my house on the evening of the 29th, and he was ordered not to say anything, so he only made an unspeakable expression, so that I knew it.He said that everything he said should be kept secret. 17. He originally made an appointment with Peng Mingmin at ten o'clock this morning, but now he "broke the appointment". February 1 (Sunday) Six, Mrs. Philips met with an American school in the afternoon and said that Li Hanxiang could not leave the country. One of the reasons was that he was with Mrs. PhiliPs jointly managed to smuggle Li Ao!How ridiculous!It's really mom's! 7. Compared with Wei Fat, Liao Wenyi's return and Peng Mingmin's departure for KMT's gains and losses.Fatty Wei said: "The one who can pee is brought back; the one who can shit is escaped." We couldn't stop laughing. 8. News about Peng Mingmin's wanted arrest has been published in all newspapers today, and the content is uniform, so it is natural to publish the news uniformly. February 3 "Tuesday" 九、今晚搬出民家，改由计程车、摩托车摆在楼下监视。我夜一点进小营回家，利用自后开来的其他车灯光，看到 （一）车内二人，一睡一醒； （二）车为浅蓝色，字号'哗宝一五一五一四九二”。 十一、今晚有车来驻，思及杜甫“宾至”诗中二句：“岂有文章惊海内，漫劳车马驻江干。”正前句写我，后句写特务也！ 2月4日《星期三） 五、致王兆民信： 二叔、婶：前次被捕，承义为作保，至感。官方以彭明敏偷渡出境，似恐我将援例，现以九人小组，日夜在楼下监视，行动不便。旧年当前，此次失礼矣。工部“闻斛斯六宫未归”诗：“本为卖文活，翻令室倒悬。”息影四年，而校事诛求如此，思之可叹。此颂双安。刘叔前乞代致意。1970年2月4日午。 2月5日（星期四） 二、今为阴历除夕，仍整日监视，原以为会“新年停火三天”，——去年监视彭时曾停火三天。 2月10日（星期二） 四、致吴亮言一信： 亮言先生：旧年承赐礼品，至感至谢。国民党以彭明敏教授偷渡至瑞典，似恐我将重演故事也，自上月二十九日晚饭起，即派员九人轮流全天候监视，昨夜起，且明显加派计程车跟踪，后果如何，尚未可卜。失礼之处，想蒙谅解。我既为朋友所浼，自不愿浼人，特此奉闻：在国民党混头脑没清醒前，朋友暂以保持距离为宜。冬日气候多变，务乞珍重。万语千言从何说起，世乱如麻，尚不知闹 到什么样子也！1970年2月10日。李敖敬上。 3月5日（星期四） 二、将一月来日记寄三三，并附识如下： “台北半月记”加半月记 昔日戏言彭宅事，今朝皆到眼前来。 岛国风光行看尽，偏安气量总难开。 尚想旧仇怜公仆，也曾加班送钱财。 诚知此恨人人有，雨夜独听梅吕哀。 不计韵律，改元稹诗如上，聊写被软禁始末。此册但写此一事件，其他个人生活、舆论资料、消息来去，暂不与也。一月日记成，远寄三三，以答故人。1970年3月5日，李敖在台湾台北。 April 16 致“小Y” Y：今天是足不下楼的第八天，换句话说，也就是治安人员看不到我的第八天。我叫小八明天替我找个理发的人来，连理发都不出门，其闭关之心可想。在家心静如水，（“臣门如市，臣心如水”？）每天洗热水澡二次，偶看电视、听唱片，然后就是吃饭以外的全天做工（写来看去剪东贴西）。洗澡的次数不少于丘吉尔，做工的时数不少于胡佛（每天十五时）。董仲舒当年不窥园，我因无园可窥，可算不窥，有时天气阴晴都不知道！——“坐牢于我何有哉？老子先坐给你们看！”……1970年4月16日。敖之。 October 6 致“小Y” Y：四月十六号回你四月九号信后，半年不通音讯。港方有人来，胆小乏味，约我在舞厅见，甚至不敢到我家来看看受难者，我谢绝之。这种朋友，还是随他去吧。八个多月来，一直被house arrest，修养功深，连楼下的贵党侦骑都交相佩眼，认为看得枯燥之极，直如“守灵”一般，——我在楼上一如死人，毫无动静，可一连多日足不出户。不过虽不出户，一出则不乏惊人之举，如9月4日半夜，我忽约来The New York Times兼Time－Life的Correspondent Denald H.Shapiro和The Associated Press的Chrrespondent Leonard Pratt跑到新店安坑监狱，去兴师动众地接雷震出狱，害得他们无法封锁这一消息。我曾对他们说：“抓人看人是你们的势力范围，可是煽动国际舆论是我的势力范围，——今天我要施展我的势力范围。雷震轰轰烈烈进去，不可以偷偷摸摸出来。他进去的时候是老虎，出来的时候不该是老鼠。所以我来了。广东话说'不是猛龙不过江'，你们看着办吧！”……1970年10月6日夜四时。敖之。 October 29 致魏廷朝 魏胖：以下成绩，得以具体化，皆拜国民党软禁之“赐”也！ 一、苦其心志地锻炼，更成熟。锻炼自己可应大难、任大事，并充分做这一准备。 二、专注于世界性大目标地研究，瞩目于新世界、大世界，而不斤斤于一个江河日下的政权、一个老人政治、一个小岛。 三、对于人情冷暖，有更清楚的测验。 四、对曾经磨难的榜样，有更大的兴味去体认。 五、能过孤独生活，且在孤独中忙个不停，自得其乐，得到不怕孤立的本领。 六、全天候做工，没有假日。增加了做工的时间，自然效果也相对地看好。 ... 1971年1月2日 致刘绍唐 绍唐兄：我被“软禁”眼看就快一年了。上月我家发现被偷装的侦听器，我不动声色，把它转到联合国人权委员会。警总“抓”我去，逼我缴出销案，我说这个是要不回来了，等我找到第二个，一定给你们，弄得他们也没办法。当天我在“口供”中已明白表示我已无所顾惜，“政府”如想不把人丢到海外，就不要逼我。这次“中国大陆问题研讨会”，美国代表们由哥伦比亚大学的奥森伯格出面，请我吃饭，正是我被抓问后的第二天。当天晚上蒋经国请他们吃饭，奥森伯格们曾以我的处境问蒋是否于人权构成迫害，蒋不否认，但说“Repressive”而已，他的英文可真不错！我这边你还是不要来。如有卖书的机会，请代我把握。我手边有《古今图书集成》一套，《大汉和辞典卜一套，《文星》丛刊一套，《文星》集刊二套，《中华古籍》丛刊、“金陵丛书”、《榕村全集》等多套。1971年三月2日夜。敖之。 March 11 对待诸葛亮的三方式 一、三顾茅庐，请出来帮忙。 二、不顾茅庐，不理他，弃人才于地，但也不干扰他。 三、包围茅庐，软禁他。 国民党对李先生，显然属于第三方式。 国民党笨死了。 3月12日 不忍于现状，连现状都没有 艾德诺曾长年以忍耐为武器。 许多场合是，如不忍于现状，则连现状也没有了。 March 13 lonely 孤寂并不是看不到人，看不到“朋友”。在人群中，你常常发现只有你自己在想你想的，关切你想的。别人的面孔可能很友善、声音可能很亲切，可是那只局限于众生生活与世俗生活，除此以外，他们立刻变得无知、冰冷、麻木、比邻犹若天涯、相逢如不相识。 孤寂是要自己决定、自己排遣、自己应付难题、自己面对斧钺；孤寂是没有人可以商量、没有人可以倾心。不错，你有熟面孔，可是你怕引起他们的茫然、乏味与丑恶一面，影响到他们安全，他们有限的热心与关切，你也不得不拒绝，因为他们太软弱，他们非但无助于你，反易自伤其手（乃至终于露出人的丑恶一面，——每个人都有的那躲藏的一面）。 孤寂是处于荒原，孤寂是独行坟场，孤寂是在什么声音都没有的时候看月亮。 March 14 朋友和“敌人” 朋友——亡命的亡命、被抓的被抓、远飏的远飏、自保的自保。一两个偶一见面的，竟又是来求助于你的，至少是增加你负荷的。总之，此一二偶一见面者，其见面也出于不得已。人道如斯，几乎已令人失去对friendship的信仰了。 “敌人”——环伺也、警告也、干扰也、穷缠也，迄无止境。他们简直要变成你的朋友了。“你不跟俺们交朋友？好！俺们把你的朋友全赶走，你不交俺们还交谁？”难道有朝一日，你岂要建立起对“敌人”的信仰吗？“敌人”至少有一点是值得信托的，——就是他们绝不变，绝不像朋友一般地忘记你。他跟你永不分离。 March 15 也许是绝笔 孟胡：吾已彻底被Houses arrest，吾不得出，人（除小八、小蕾外）不得入。吾已声明，如此日子久了，如此枯燥生活，必然会把吾之“赵四小姐”逼跑，那时警总理该配济一二“花木兰”来，才算公平。闲话休言，至少二个月内，你不要来。Remember remember. 1971年3月15夜，“自费张学良”亲笔（也许是绝笔）。 18日[跟踪我的]小郑说，保安处共有“花木兰”六人，都丑得要命。 到了3月19日晚上，跟踪我的林组长（林业振）上楼来敲门，低声对我说：“处（保安处）里要请李先生现在去一趟，派黑轿车来，就在楼下。”他因为跟踪久了，对我不无交情，补了一句：“情况很麻烦，你要有心理准备。”我点了头，请他门外等我，我走进卧室，把早有准备的一包十万现金给了小蕾，并还给她一包照片——她二十岁时我用“拍立得”相机为她照的裸照。嘱咐她现金备用、照片不能给第三者看到，所以改由她保管。嘱咐过后，就相拥而别。从此，我结束了软禁的岁月，走上漫长坐牢的日子。