Chapter 50 5. My smoking cessation

Most of the smokers were confused for a while, made a great wish, determined to quit smoking, and had a duel with the smoker within a certain period of time. After ten days and a half months, they came to their senses.I went astray once, and suddenly quit smoking happily. After three weeks, I was blamed by my conscience and repented of my past mistakes.I swear, no longer depressed, no more misconduct, I will be a believer in smoking honestly, until I am old.At that time, maybe you will listen to the evil words of the three aunts and six women in the Jiande Society of the Youth Association and quit him, because when people come to this time, they are always nervous, unable to control themselves, and difficult to take responsibility.But as long as the will exists, and when right and wrong are clear, you will never be tempted again.Because after this lesson, I have fully understood that quitting smoking for no reason cuts off the happiness of our souls.According to Professor Haldane, a famous British biochemist, smoking is one of the four most influential inventions in human history.Among the other three inventions, I remember that one is the new technique of connecting monkey glands for youth and immortality.This is off topic.

During those three weeks, how comatose I was, how cowardly I was, knowing that a small cigarette was beneficial to my body and mind, but I didn't have the guts to take it and enjoy it. It is really an ugly history.Things have changed now, and in retrospect, I don't know why the coma lasted for three weeks.It would be too difficult to describe the psychological process during these three weeks in detail.Naturally, the first thing, the idea of ​​quitting smoking is a bit muddled at all.Why do you want to quit smoking in this world?I can't answer this question now.But our human behavior is always unreasonable. Sometimes we deliberately do things we shouldn’t do, sometimes we are too idle and have nothing to do, and we deliberately entrust ourselves with great responsibilities. Empty your body, mess up your nature, and prepare to be a man?Apart from this reason, I can't think of why I came up with such an obscene idea that day.This is really a bit like Tao Kan’s luck, or like the fitness exercise of modern people—literati and scholars have no firewood to cut, no water to draw, no cart to pull, and their hands are raised and lowered aimlessly in the air, exercising for exercise, It contributes nothing to social industrial production.Quitting smoking is probably a healthy exercise for a gentleman.

Of course, in the first three days, there seemed to be an embarrassing feeling in the mouth of the throat and even the upper part of the trachea.This is easy to do.I eat mints, drink Tieguanyin, and include French top throat lozenges.Within three days, the strange itching was completely eliminated.This is the first installment in the quitting journey, and it's no surprise that it's a purely physical struggle.Anyone who thinks that this is the only way to quit smoking forgets that smoking is a spiritual career; if you don't understand this truth, you are not worthy of talking about smoking at all.After three days, I entered the second phase of Soul Battle.At this point, I began to understand that there are two kinds of people who smoke in the world.There is no second period for these people to quit smoking. They quit smoking without any effort.It is said that they will not smoke if they want to, which is called "strong will".In fact, why does this kind of person smoke?If a person can quit a hobby, such as selling an old dress, then it is not a hobby at all.Smoking for this kind of people is indeed a kind of physical work, such as brushing teeth and washing the face, you can brush or not, there is no need in the heart, and there is no meaning in the soul.This kind of person has no spiritual demands other than washing his face, eating, and going home to hold the baby. At night, he will see the wives of the female members of the Jiande Society and go to bed peacefully.The words of Xin Jiaxuan, the poems of Wang Mojie, the music of Beethoven, and the songs of Wang Shifu have nothing to do with them.Isn't Lushan Waterfall just flowing water from top to bottom?How about reading Jiaxuan's poems and Moji's poems without smoking?Is it possible?

But for those who really know how to smoke, there is a problem in quitting smoking, which is not expected by the members of the Jiande Society.For our group of real smokers, within three days of quitting smoking, the meaninglessness and unkindness towards ourselves will surface.Reason and common sense should ask: why, politically, socially, morally, physically, or psychologically, one should not smoke, but deliberately bury his own intelligence, violate conscience, and kill nature, so that we cannot achieve That blissful situation?Everyone knows that a writer must be full of energy, free-spirited, open-minded, and full of rhymes before he can produce good writing, and he must be able to comprehend when reading, with no obstacles in his mind, and only when his mind wanders in the middle can he be considered reading.How can such a state of mind be achieved without smoking?At this time of meeting, we feel that reaching for a cigarette is the only reasonable behavior; it is vulgar to stuff a piece of brown sugar into our mouth.I can cite one or two things as proof.

My friend Mr. B came to Shanghai from Beiping.We haven't seen each other for three years.In Peking, we used to hang out in the morning and evening, especially at night, smoking and chatting about literature, philosophy, modern art, and how to transform the human universe.Now he's here, and we're talking by the fireside at home.What they talked about was nothing more than the current situation of Zaiping's old friends and the coldness of the world.Every time I come to a wonderful place, I always want to reach out a hand to get a cigarette, but on the surface, I can only stand up and sit down, or change the sitting position. Mr. B, however, swallowed the clouds and mist naturally, seeming to be enjoying himself a lot.I have already told him that I quit smoking, so I am too embarrassed to relapse on the spot.Having said that, I just feel unhappy in my heart, and suddenly feel as if I have lost something.My mind is very clear, every time Mr. B talks loudly, I can answer "yes", but in fact, I wish I could talk with him with the same excitement.After talking like this for an hour or two, I still refused to relapse, and my friend said goodbye.On "strong will" and "perseverance", I am a triumphant victor, but I only feel unhappy in my heart.A few days later, Mr. B sent a letter on the way, saying that I have been different recently, not as excited and cheerful as before, and my conversation is not as good as before. He said that maybe the air in Shanghai is too bad.To this day, I still regret not smoking that night.

Another night, we are in a meeting, which will be once a week as usual.After the dinner, someone reads the paper, and as a discussion, it's usually always a kind of smoking convention.This time it is Mr. C's turn to read the thesis, the title is "Religion and Revolution", and there are many humorous words in the article.I remember Mr. C said that Feng Yuxiang joined the Northern Methodist Society, but Chiang Kai-shek joined the Southern Methodist Society.Some people say that if this is the case, Wu Peifu will soon join the Western School of the United States and the United States.During this kind of nonsense, the smoke in the room thickens layer by layer, which is the time when the dark fragrance is floating and whimsical.Mr. H, the poet, is sitting in the middle, reclining on a reclining chair, and is learning to release smoke rings, and the smoke rings are released one after another, and the poetic flavor is probably also rising layer by layer.I was the only non-smoker, and felt as if I was living alone and put into danger.At this time, quitting smoking is becoming more and more meaningless.I suddenly realized that I was too comatose.I searched for the reasons why I decided to quit smoking at the beginning, but I couldn't find a reason.

Since then, my conscience has been disturbed from time to time.Because I think that the value of thinking lies in the sense of excitement, but how can the soul of non-smoking be excited?One afternoon, I went to visit a Western lady.The lady is sitting at the table, smoking in one hand and leaning on her lap with the other, with her body slightly turned outwards, quite charming.I think it's time to wake up.She invited me with a cigarette case.Slowly and calmly, I took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, knowing that with one stroke, I had attained the Dao again. When I came back, I immediately asked the waiter to buy a box of white tin bags.There is a burnt spot at the right end of my desk, where I put my cigarettes.Because smoking seldom stops, I engraved an inscription saying "Xiyin Pool" next to it.I originally planned that it would take about seven or eight years to burn through the two-inch thick tabletop, but when I decided to quit smoking, it was a pity that the "xiyin pond" was only half a lifetime deep.So when I put the cigarettes repeatedly this time, my heart was very happy.Because although there is still a long way to go, it can be carried on day by day.Later, due to moving house, the study room was small, the desk had to be sold, and the "Xiyin Pond" disappeared. This was the first regret in Yu's life.