Chapter 58 Twenty-three, a new page (3)

With this major premise, it is not difficult to accept criticism.It's not something Zhuge Liang can understand with the nonsense about calcium content and bone hardness after the fact. While waiting for processing, I read a lot of Western literature.I love reading Dickens.I especially love to read. "This is the age of light, this is the age of darkness; people go to heaven, people go directly to hell..." (not the original text) The sentence pattern is deeply rooted in my heart.From Di, I understand more and more that life is full of trials, and good people have to go through dangers, fate is unpredictable, a crisis, misfortune, life and death, separated by a thin layer of paper, and in the end, light overcomes darkness, and people must stand firm and not lose faith.Dickens's writings have greatly helped me through the special period of 1957-1958, although my experience has nothing to do with what Dickens wrote.

I also re-read The Course of Suffering.Its protagonist and story are extremely unfamiliar to me, but its inscription, who wants to "wash three times in blood, three times in alkaline water, three times in clean water..." moved me very much.Compared with nine such washings, my days are considered comfortable enough. When I talked with those literary friends with whom I have a good personal relationship, we also agreed that we should accept criticism, dry our souls, and remove the stinky mildew, so that we can have an infinitely bright future.Especially thinking of my spiritual crisis in the 738 factory, I think that my criticism is very timely and very necessary. This is the main point, and the others are trivial and trivial.

And I believe that through such a huge shock, such an unprecedented and thunderous event, which cannot be done or even dared to be imagined anywhere except here, Chinese society will take on a new look, and this place will become the brightest place in the world.For a great cause, it is worth sacrificing a small literati. I wrote a letter to Ruifang in Taiyuan, explaining in detail what is necessary, correct and beneficial for my critical help.However, she did not believe this at all, although she also read Dickens and Tolstoy.At school, she refused to accept that she was made a representative of the "five qi" of "official, arrogant, charming, twilight, and resentful". She did not hesitate to break with the school leaders and left the school.Now everything is clear, if I were like her, if I didn't have so many bizarre literary confessions, if I didn't have a set of extremely "left" concepts, habits and thinking patterns, if I didn't see it myself Just crawling, frantically reviewing, rambling, and recognizing everything, it is absolutely impossible to label me as a rightist.My de facto extreme leftism and stupidity have failed so many leading comrades who actually wanted to protect me.In the final analysis, of course, the situation and practices at that time determined the fate of many people, but the last straw that broke the donkey was added by Wang Meng himself.In this sense, it is not too much to say that Wang Meng himself labeled himself a rightist.