Chapter 2 two

When I met Teacher Ru Zhijuan in May this year, she also said: "I asked people about your situation. I asked you to be the deputy director of the literature department. You didn't take it right? You didn't take it right. You are young and have just made achievements in creation. Don't be seduced by the official position with a little achievement, it's useless." I thought, she didn't really care about me, she wouldn't ask people about my work in Beijing Film Studio, and she wouldn't say that to me frankly. I really hope that people who are respected and prestigious by young people can generously say to many young people: "You are a good young man..." Even if this young man is not very good, like me.But that sentence has a kind of restraint that makes a not-so-good young man work hard towards the good, and not develop at will in the bad way.Of course, that sentence could only be binding if it came from someone who was respected by the young man.

For this, and for a truth that I have learned from life through this, I am grateful to Teacher Ru Zhijuan. I met Mr. Huang Zongying two days later than I met Mr. Ru Zhijuan, because she did not come two days before the meeting. I met her on the stairs.I go upstairs and she goes downstairs.In her arms was a large stack of the fifth volume of "Selected Works of Mao Zedong" with a red plastic cover. A few volumes were lost, and I picked them up for her. She thanked her and asked, "Would you like to buy a copy?" I said, "Don't buy it." Ask again: "Why don't you buy it?"

I said: "Yes." She said: "It's definitely not like this. This is the first batch of plastic veneers!" I thought: This person is weird, I don’t want to buy it, why must I be mobilized to buy it!She replied: "I don't want to buy that. You can keep a copy of any great book!" She smiled and said, "That's a good answer. They asked me to help sell it, so I had no choice but to do my duty. But it took me a long time to sell it. Doesn't it make me feel a little bit disappointed that I can't sell even one copy?" I said, "Anyone who fulfills this obligation will be disappointed. Surely everyone has it now!"

She laughed again and said: "It seems that I have to 'return the jade to Zhao' and send it back to the conference affairs team! I'll tell them what you said just now - no matter how great a book is, it's okay to keep a copy. If you don't want to buy it That's right, new books are being sold on the first floor, why don't you save money and buy an extra book that you haven't bought before? Hurry up!" I immediately turned and went downstairs. Hearing someone shout from behind: "Huang Zongying!" I couldn't help but stop, and saw a person talking to her.

I suddenly realized that the passionate "salesman" in the fifth volume of "Selected Works of Mao Zedong" was actually the famous Huang Zongying! I still don't know her age for sure.But she must have been in her fifties at the time, but she didn't look like a woman in her fifties at all, and she was about ten years younger than her actual age.She was radiant, with a zest, openness, and optimism that never seemed to be shattered by the whetstones of life. In college, after I read her reportage "Little Girl Carrying the Great Banner", I consciously browsed through various old newspapers and periodicals, looking for her works to be read as model essays.She spoke very enthusiastically during the discussion.From what she said at the time, I concluded that she was a writer who paid great attention to going deep into life.

I remember that she said at the time: "As long as possible, I will try to go deep into life. Like an earthworm burrowing into the soil. There are many people and many things in life outside the circle of writers. It is really too much. The writer is so excited, the writer is so moved! I really want to travel all over China and go deep into all kinds of life!..." Thinking back on what she said today, I still think it makes sense.Whether it is a reportage writer or a novel writer, it is of great benefit to be familiar with all kinds of people and all kinds of life.Excluding the writer's literary skill and talent, how much life experience a writer has and how big a "creative garden" he has will determine how much a writer will achieve.

After the meeting, I suddenly had an idea that I wanted to ask her to talk to the students of Fudan Chinese Department about various problems in reportage writing.But I was also afraid that she would refuse, which made me "unable to step down."In the end, he mustered up the courage and asked her humbly. She said: "Oh, this is not allowed! I am really not that good at lecturing to you college students in the Chinese Department of Fudan University!" I said: "Many of my classmates like to read your reportage, I am asking you on their behalf!" She looked at me and said, "You seem to be sincere?"

I said, "It's sincere." She hesitated. I said again: "Don't worry, we will be very disciplined and we will never allow any classmate to mess with you." She said: "I'm not afraid of that. What's wrong with college students and a writer? It's nothing more than asking a few questions that embarrass me. Then I say 'no comment', what else can they do?" " I said, "You agreed?" She said, "Not really." I said, "You really disappoint me." She hesitated for a while, and said, "I'm really touched by your sincerity, aren't you pretending?"

I said, "It's not an act." She finally said: "Okay, I agree. But I have to give me a few days to prepare. It is not a casual thing to give lectures to you college students in the Chinese Department of Fudan University." She left her home for me address. On the day of the lecture, at around seven in the morning, a teacher from the Chinese Department and I took a jeep to pick her up.Walking into the yard, I saw her sitting on a small bench with a small notebook on her lap, concentrating on something. She spoke very well, and many students from other departments also went to listen, a total of more than 300 people.

I remember when she talked about details, she said: "What are details? Details are your 'beads'. If you want to wear a necklace, this necklace must be different from other people's. You must have at least a few of your 'beads'." ’. A precious bead can make a necklace sparkle. A good detail can make a work memorable.” I still remember that she gave an example: during the Japanese occupation of China, there was a Japanese military officer who raised a wolf dog. Every morning, the wolf dog carried a basket to the market.As soon as the wolf dog squats in front of any shop, the shop owner has to put the best chicken, duck and fish into the basket immediately, without daring to neglect the slightest, and it will last for several years.And the Japanese officer never showed up at the fair.The wolfdogs are very tame, and they don't grin their teeth when they see Chinese people like in some movies.But every Chinese avoids it like a tiger...

After citing this example, she said: "The artistic charm of the details provided to us by this period of life is that the Japanese officer must not show up. There is no need to spend pen and ink to write about his domineering as an invader. The wolf dog must be written She is very docile. And the Chinese people’s mentality of fearing a tiger like a tiger must be vividly written. Years are like a day! This is the reverse effect of literature and art..." After listening to her lecture, myself and my classmates, All feel benefited a lot. Later, I took a young editor of "Northern Literature" to her home to collect articles from her. Heilongjiang Province is sorry for Mr. Huang Zongying.In a certain year, the province's amateur literature and art propaganda team held a grand show, and the propaganda team of the Sixth Division of our Corps performed a small show.It happened that Mr. Huang Zongying was in Harbin. He watched it and was very happy. He said something about enthusiastically supporting the amateur creation of intellectual youths, affirming and praising the little play.Later, someone pointed out that the little play was written about "intermediate characters", which violated the "three outstanding" creative principles.Teacher Zongying's affirmation and praise, of course, has "ulterior motives".It became a "crime" and caused a moderate criticism. The young editor of "Northern Literature" was worried that Teacher Zongying would not welcome him if he had such a suspicion.After the meeting, Teacher Zongying didn't mention the matter of being criticized for no reason.On the contrary, the young editor couldn't help mentioning it himself, expressing apology on behalf of the literary and art circles in Heilongjiang Province. Teacher Zongying said: "Why should I be so worried about this matter? I should especially forgive the young people who criticized me. Young people were influenced by the ultra-left literary theory and did some wrong things. I believe them I will get to know myself better in the future. I was criticized in Harbin that time because of my background. Many people also went against their will. Don’t bring up the past again in the future.” Like Teacher Ru Zhijuan, she loves and tolerates young people.hold no grudges.I think celebrities should adopt this attitude towards youth.This is a kind of cultivation of personality, and it is a very respectable quality.Of course, there is an exception for those who have done things worthy of reflection and guilt but do not know how to repent, even young people.In fact, ordinary people should also be good at forgiving and tolerant.Holding grudges is a very bad psychology.It means that there will be an opportunity to retaliate.In the previous period of "investigating three types of people", some people turned over old accounts, so-and-so slapped me, kicked me, or posted a big-character poster of me during the "Cultural Revolution", wishing to push the other party into the "Cultural Revolution" In the circle of "three kinds of people" and then quickly.What are you doing! Almost ten years have passed since the "Cultural Revolution"!Do you want to remember it forever?Seventeen years ago, when I was seventeen or eighteen years old, I scolded you as a "dog" and put a high hat on your head once.If our party cadres are all so small-bellied, I think the hearts of the people will be lost!Fortunately, our Vice-Chairman Deng is magnanimous, and he never gave any instructions to "check up" how each of the billion Chinese people behaved in the "Criticism against Deng Movement"?If it is really done like this, wouldn't it be another "chicken crowing and dog jumping over the wall" across the country?To put it briefly, when I graduated, I went to Mr. Zongying's house to say goodbye. Teacher Zongying took the initiative to ask me: "Do you have any relatives in Beijing?" I said: "No." He asked again, "Are there any acquaintances and friends?" I said, "No." Teacher Zongying said: "Then you go to Beijing. You are not familiar with the place, but you are lonely enough. If you encounter any difficulties, there is no one to help you solve them. How about this, let me tell you about my two brothers Huang Zongjiang and Huang Zongluo If you have any difficulties, you can go to them." Then he wrote down two addresses and gave them to me. I said, "Is it necessary to have a letter from you?" She was about to leave the house in a hurry, and said, "It doesn't matter if you have a letter or not. Just tell them that you are my student!" I found the home of Mr. Huang Zongjiang according to the address Mr. Zongying wrote to me.My original intention was to find a place to stay. I think it would probably not be a problem for the great screenwriter of Bayi Film Studio to arrange a guest to stay for one night. Unexpectedly, the living conditions of Mr. Zong Jiang's house were beyond my surprise.In the depths of the courtyard, there seemed to be only two houses.The kitchen is connected at the back, and there is not enough sunlight.I didn't talk about "staying overnight", just said it was a courtesy visit. Teacher Zongjiang heard that I claimed to be a "student" of Teacher Zongying, so he put down the writing in progress, let me sit on the sofa, and he sat on a rattan chair to talk to me face to face. He asked me why I became a "student" of Teacher Zongying? I tell you the truth. He said: "I see, this Huang Zongying is a good teacher!" He asked me if I had a letter from Teacher Zongying? I said no. He shook his head and said: "Look at her, look at her, she is my student, but she won't let you bring a letter to me! I want to suspect that you are a little liar, and I will reject you. Now that I’m famous, don’t you want to worry about me?” I said, “Didn’t you already treat me as a guest?” He laughed and said, "It's because I trust my eyes! You look like a student, and you have no trace of a liar!" It made me laugh too. Seeing that my aunt had set the table, I got up and said goodbye. He didn't let me go, and said, "You young man is so unreasonable! You are my sister's student. You came to my house for the first time, and it was time for dinner. If you don't stay for this meal, no matter what you say It's all mine!" I have to stay. After a while, teacher Ruan Ruoshan came back, and their youngest daughter also came back.Together with my aunt, the five of us began to eat. Mr. Zong Jiang seemed very happy that day, and opened a bottle of some famous wine for me.I get drunk after drinking alcohol, and my good intentions are hard to get rid of. After taking a couple of sips, my face turns red. Their youngest daughter stared at me with a pursed smile, much to my embarrassment.After eating, it was already dark.I want to leave. Teacher Zongjiang is afraid that I am really drunk, so he will let me eat a pear and drink a cup of tea before leaving. Over tea, he asked me where I lived. I lied and prevaricated. He asked me again if I had any difficulties. I only had ten yuan left in my pocket, and I wanted to borrow twenty yuan from him, but I was ashamed to ask. He drove me all the way to the Luoguxiang bus stop. I spent that night at the train station. It has been eight years since I came to Beijing.The first house I went to in Beijing was Mr. Zong Jiang’s house. I ate at Mr. Zong Jiang’s house for the first meal, and what I received was the hospitality of the guests.For eight years, I never saw him again.From time to time, someone forwarded a message to me: "Huang Zongjiang asks you hello and asks you to go to his house to play." Have you had dinner?" As I wrote this, I couldn't help but think that after finishing this article, I must definitely visit him, it has been eight years, it is too unreasonable.I am not sociable, and I am afraid of disturbing others, so I am a bit reclusive.However, other people's care, help, and care for themselves, once, a little, are always in my heart, and I dare not forget it lightly.Whoever forgets is indifferent. I am not good at communication, it is really unwilling to communicate.My reluctance to socialize is actually a "passive resistance" to a kind of communication in the current society.Today's Chinese people seem to have become a "leisure class". Open your eyes and look around us, how many people spend their energy and time in the social arena without hesitation.Unlike other foreigners, their communication is pure communication.Open your eyes a little more, and look around us, how many people are under the cover of socializing, covering up various personal attempts. In the past, tax so-and-so was a "social butterfly", specifically referring to women.Today, the male "social butterfly" in our country has sprung up like mushrooms after a spring rain.It can be said that all fronts are blooming.The kind of "friendship between gentlemen" advocated by our ancestors seems to be a bit "pedantic" in this era, while "friendship between villainous people" has become very fashionable.If you give it to me, you have to give me this kind of benefit.I give it to you, and I will repay you that favor.Everyone wants to take advantage of all kinds of benefits. With a billion people, how can so many benefits be distributed equally?Not enough points, and you can't print and distribute coupons, so whoever has the ability will get it!It may not be possible to get it by real skills, but it often takes no effort to get it by communication.The literary world is supposed to be a "pure land", but it has always been disconnected with fame and fortune. The constant "love relationship" and the unbreakable "vulgar roots" are inevitable. The influence of the wind of communication.So I often think, just write novels honestly, if you can write it, write it, if you can't write it, let it go.Don't visit this one today and "visit" that one tomorrow.Become a habit, fall into the stream of male "social butterfly", that's not so good! I spent the night at Beijing Station, and the next morning I washed my face in the bathroom on the second floor of the station hall, and walked out of Beijing Station like a "civilized blind stream". I think, as a future Beijing citizen, I have to find a place to live in Beijing anyway.I can't live in the train station like a "blind stream" for three days in a row.That is too sorry for the Fudan University graduation certificate in my schoolbag.I have quite a few educated youth friends in Beijing.But when I was with them in the Great Northern Wilderness, I never thought that one day I would become a citizen of Beijing, and I never remembered the address of any of them. Suddenly, I remembered that a Beijing educated youth in a wood processing factory once told me that his sister seemed to be working as a salesperson in a shoe and hat store in Dashilan, and decided to try his luck. There are several large and small shoe and hat stores in Dashilan, so I asked them one by one.I don't know her name, but only her brother's name, so it's really hard to find someone like this. There is always a way out.My luck was not bad, and I finally found her. She heard from me that she lived with her brother in a wood processing factory and was very affectionate to me, so she asked for leave and took me home.Her family lives at No. 11 Cha'er Hutong, Dashilan.There are two huts, her father is paralyzed on the bed and lives in the outer room, and she and her mother live in the inner room, sleeping on a very narrow double bed.She guessed that I didn't have breakfast, so she cooked for me in a hurry. After a while, she will have the meal ready. I ate silently, feeling full in my stomach and intestines. Although I had only had one meal at Teacher Zongjiang’s house from yesterday to today, I couldn’t eat anything. I couldn’t bear to disappoint her kindness and forced to eat. She looked at me quietly.Suddenly got up to find a photo album, and sat down opposite me to look through it again.He took out one, handed it to me, and asked with a smile, "Is that you in the photo?" I put down the chopsticks, took a look, and sure enough it was me.It was taken with her brother, each riding a tall horse, very majestic. I looked at the photo emotionally and said, "It's me." I thought to myself, I don't know where should I go after this meal is over? She took back the photo and asked, "Why are you frowning? After graduating from university, you are assigned to Beijing again. Is there anything else that doesn't go your way?" I think, my friend's sister is my sister.Tell the truth!Maybe she can really help me find a place to live.He told her about his temporary not-so-good situation. She thought for a while and said, "You see, we don't have a place for you to live in. How about this, you stay at my boyfriend's house!I'll take you there after you finish your meal! "It had to be like this. I can have a place to live temporarily, and I don't want to eat a bite of food.