Chapter 10 10. Rubbing shoulders

What is lost is always the most beautiful and precious, but when you really have it, you feel like you are holding a piece of beautiful jade, afraid that you will accidentally break it. Rather than being destined to lose it, it is better to never have it. In this world, there are too many things that cannot be predicted.Chen Xiao went out leisurely in the sunshine, and came back running in the rain at dusk.Riding overnight in a car to go to a certain city for a certain person, only to find that he has already left.Waiting for a winter snow since summer, this year's temperature has risen suddenly.It was agreed that we would never leave each other, and we would forget each other in just one spring.Many people hope that the other party can promise themselves, but they don't know that the promise will change with the passing years.How many promises are scattered in the wind and dust, and even the fragments cannot be found.And we are still stuck in the sweet dreams of the past, doing self-deceiving comfort.

Su Manshu claims to be able to control his own story, but he cannot predict the ending of the story.The same is true for us, many things, many emotions, only know the beginning, but don't know how to arrange the ending.When helpless, he will only flee in a hurry, throw the fault on others, and attribute the debt to himself.As for when to pay off and when to end, I haven't thought about it carefully.Some people like to sit alone in the dark without lighting a lamp, but they are afraid of the darkness of the night.Some people like to make a pot of tea and watch the buds bloom in the water without tasting it.Standing in a tall building and looking at everything in the world, people are really too small. Although all living beings exist in various forms like rocks, they can only write the joys and sorrows after all.

Rivers and lakes, what are rivers and lakes?Where are the rivers and lakes?Where there are people, there are rivers and lakes, and rivers and lakes are in people's hearts.There are many storms in the rivers and lakes. If the heart is really peaceful and peaceful, all the grievances and hatreds will disappear.If the heart cannot be calm and calm, every day will be a shadow of swords and swords.More than a hundred years ago, a man named Su Manshu wandered the world in a special way.Sometimes he wore cassocks, straw sandals and broken bowls, chanted moving poems, and wandered around;At that time, it seemed that many people in the world knew this character. He was half monk and half layman, and his behavior was very different from ordinary people.This is how he shows off his personality in such a dramatic way that no one can guess what he is thinking at any time.And Su Manshu never cared about other people's eyes, he only listened to his own heart, which would tell him how to exist in the world and where to go.

Su Manshu traveled from Shanghai to Hangzhou and lived in the "Hangzhou Vernacular News" office.Only one week later, he returned to Shanghai from Hangzhou.This is how he moved around in Jiangsu, Zhejiang and Shanghai, from this quiet town to that bustling city, always living in no fixed place.When you fall in love with someone, you will fall in love with the city where she lives. Su Manshu moves around in different cities and falls in love with different people.His love seems to be stronger than anyone else, but also weaker than anyone else.Putting on a suit, he is elegant and lingering in the place of fireworks. His talent and bearing have fascinated many women.In him, there is a chic and open-mindedness that secular men don't have. He can sing poems and compose music for a certain woman at any time, and he is affectionate and affectionate towards her, as if he is willing to give everything.But when those women wanted to abandon everything for him, he would fled weakly, using the Buddha's fate as an excuse, and failed his beauty time and time again.

When Su Manshu was in Nanjing, he met Jinfeng, a famous Qinhuai courtesan.This woman named Jinfeng is proficient in all kinds of piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, can sing and dance well, and her elegant and refined appearance deeply attracted Su Manshu.In fact, many brothel women have to receive professional training because of their good looks and spirituality. Their talents and temperament are often better than those of many ladies.In addition, they are in a brothel, and they are used to seeing noble businessmen coming and going from south to north. They have profound experience, and their inner maturity is even more charming.Su Manshu, who is wandering in the rivers and lakes, needs such an understanding woman. With just one eye and one sigh, they will know how to comfort these guests.

It is said that women in brothels are ruthless, because they have entrusted their love, but they can't get the superimposition of their hearts.Kabukis are like tattoos engraved on their skin and hearts, which cannot be erased in their lifetime.With this humble imprint, they spent a long life in humiliation.A brothel is a vat of dyeing. Even if you are still pure and white, in the eyes of the world, you are still a woman who has been tossed around in the wind and dust, not as clean as a woman from a good family.These women have been deceived by each other and blinded by hypocrisy, so they don't want to believe that there will be true love in this world, and there will be a man who is willing to forget their past and thrush for it all his life.They are not ruthless, but they dare not use affection. Any affection is hurting themselves.

The men who come and go to the brothel every day are just passers-by, no matter what kind of status they come here, whether they are noble princes or wealthy businessmen, they are just passers-by.In the brothel, there is no need for true feelings, just play on the spot.Wearing good costumes and putting on heavy makeup when the lights first come on, each other is the truest and most false self.Maybe in the sensual wine glass, you can let go of all the constraints and troubles in the world, and here you can satisfy your boundless desires, you can cry and laugh loudly, without any pretense.Because they fell into the city overnight, and they are the most unfamiliar people to each other, it can be treated as if they never knew each other.

Su Manshu is a frequent visitor to the Qin Lou Chu Pavilion, and he seems to be really different from other secular men.Most of those men left because of desire, without any emotion. When the first ray of sunlight in the morning fell into the house through the window panes, they would leave in a hurry, but Su Manshu was for his own heart. From time to time, I had a night chat with a woman from a brothel and told my heartfelt heart.He sincerely loves and pities them, but he doesn't treat them lightly, because he regards them as his confidante.Maybe other men just treat them as playthings, treasures when they are needed, and old clothes when they are not.But Su Manshu respected them from beginning to end. In his eyes, people should be equal, there is no distinction between high and low.

But Su Manshu failed too many people after all. He and this kabuki named Jinfeng had a deep affection and had many good times together. We will be together forever", but Su Manshu treated each other in silence, and then fled in the usual way.He thought that taking off his suit and putting on his cassock was the perfect excuse.Cowardice is a hidden weapon, sharper than a sword, it cuts people invisible, thinking that there will be no pain without bleeding, but unexpectedly, Wuhen's wound is even more painful. Until later, Jinfeng married a businessman from another place. For her, it was a blessing to finally leave the brothel.But Su Manshu felt unspeakable sadness in his heart. Thinking of the love with Jinfeng in the past, he couldn't calm down, so he made a painting with his heart.The spring grass is like silk, the green lake is rippling, and the weeping willows are lingering. One person is lying on his back in a lonely boat, looking at the empty and vast harbor.I also wrote two poems on the painting, one: "The beautiful flowers are scattered and rainy, and they live up to the light and February. Do you know if Yulou wakes up from the spring dream, and some people worry about the willow like smoke." The second: "Take the phoenix paper and write about lovesickness, I don’t know the world. I’m sad all day long, but Mo Chou still has time to worry.” No matter in the painting or in the poem, there is a deep nostalgia for Jin Feng and endless sorrow of parting.

Is it true that people in the world are like this, what is lost is always the most beautiful and precious, but when you really have it, you feel like you are holding a piece of beautiful jade, afraid that you will accidentally break it, and it is better to never have it than to be doomed to lose it.Even so, there will still be regrets when letting go, especially seeing that piece of beautiful jade held in someone else's palm and worn on someone else's waist, it is really a kind of bitterness and regret that cannot be added.A brothel kabuki doesn't dare to give her sincerity to a man easily, once she hands it over, it's hard to get it back, and she can never take it back.Even if Jinfeng still loves Su Manshu, don't blame him for his fickleness at the beginning, meeting each other will only add sighs.The greatest regret in life is that the woman you love has been married to someone else; there is nothing more than that you love a man but have to marry another.

Although Su Manshu did not entrust Jinfeng to others with his own hands, his leaving meant abandoning her. After that, she was just a catkin in the wind and let herself drift. As for who would fall into it, it was beyond Su Manshu's control Come on, even Jinfeng herself can't control her own destiny.Jinfeng has no resentment in her heart, perhaps she understands better than anyone else that Su Manshu is only suitable for being in love, not staying together.In this way, they have been far away from now on, one day, they may still think of each other, and one day, they may have forgotten each other.