Chapter 9 Nine, footprints

The world is full of disturbances, we are constantly looking for it, and we don't know where is the final destination.Maybe the original place is the corner where memory stays forever. Life is always walking. How many people are like flowers and trees growing at the intersection you must pass. After you get it, you will lose it, and if you have it, you will forget it.Whether it is a light or grand farewell, don't take the memory away, because any parting means that you are the end of the world and I am the end of the world.Time will eventually make each other grow old, whether all the past will return to zero one day.When we have nowhere to go, the years will write the end of the drama of life, including emotion and life.

Su Manshu seemed to be used to saying goodbye to people, seeing his back that was drifting away, he naturally attributed him to loneliness.In fact, there are many encounters in the world that become strangers in an instant.You don't have to have someone to like someone, even if you haven't said a word to each other or exchanged any eyes, this fate still exists quietly.Many times, facing the oncoming pedestrians in a hurry, we really have no way of identifying who is the person we have been looking for.I just watched Fanhua appear and exit again and again, staged the surprise of encounters and the confusion of turning around.

A person you admired for a long time when you were young, suddenly lost him one day, and then kept looking for him.Years are passing by, and you have lost your face due to the years. One day, the person you have been looking for for many years and has been looking forward to seeing will stand by your side.You have imagined countless times what it would be like to be shocked when you meet again, whether it is a hug or tears in your eyes, but you don't know that Shaoguang has changed everything, and you are no longer who you were then.A person you miss half your life, a person you want to see in your dreams and dreams, turns out to be so old, so old that he is just a stranger.You didn't even have the courage to recognize each other, so you chose to run away, hoping to erase all the memories of the past at this moment.Don't leave any trace of it. The surprise at the beginning and the infinite attachment at the beginning are like a joke deliberately fooled by God, which makes people feel at a loss and speechless.

In early spring and March, Su Manshu rushed from Hangzhou to Changsha to teach at Mingde Academy.One of the reasons why he teaches is because he likes this profession, he can pass on his thoughts to others, and let others infect him with his unique charm.Furthermore, he needs a job. His life has been very difficult. He needs money to buy cigarettes and candy.Perhaps Su Manshu is not an extremely extravagant person in terms of material life, but he cannot do without food and is greedy. Maybe eating can reduce his mental burden.Everyone has different ways of pastime in the face of pressure, or exiled mountains and rivers, or indulge in wine and sex, or self-enclosed.Su Manshu is an idiot who walks alone in the world of mortals. His dreams are shattered by reality again and again, but he still insists on being himself, loving what he loves, and tasting the bitter wine of life he has mixed.

This summer vacation, Su Manshu returned to Shanghai, and embarked on a cruise ship to the East with Chen Duxiu, and arrived in Japan in order to find his mother.Japan is his second hometown. He was born here in early autumn 23 years ago, and he had a deep love with a Japanese girl here when the cherry blossoms were in bloom 15 years ago, but every time it started, it ended in tragedy. end.Just like the cherry blossoms of that year, when they were in full bloom, they were ruthlessly destroyed by a storm, and they didn't even have time to sigh, leaving only endless regrets to the viewers.

Back then Su Manshu left with regret and guilt, but whenever he was at a loss, he would think of Japan, the island country that gave him tenderness and pain.People are always like this, no matter how hasty the days are, how far they go, when they are tired and lonely, they will stop and look back on the long journey in the past.Every scar on the body exists intact, and will not fade much due to time.But we are used to seeing these wounds, we are used to clinging to these wounds, to recall those good and broken days in the past.The world is full of disturbances, we are constantly looking for it, and we don't know where is the final destination.Maybe the original place is the corner where memory stays forever.

Su Man can't forget Japan, and he doesn't need to forget Japan. No matter where he is in the world or how long his heart wanders, he always wants to go back and have a look.Go back, go back to Japan, a lone goose flies across the vast sea, and arrives at the island country in the dream.There is the adoptive mother who gave him affection, even though her whereabouts are unknown; there is the chrysanthemum who gave him love, even though her soul has disappeared.Every time he thinks about it, Su Manshu's heart is both gentle and desolate. He likes this kind of silent pain, which doesn't need others to understand, it only stays in his heart, misses it alone, and is lonely alone.

Su Manshu went east to Japan this time to find his adoptive mother, Hehexian. Although she was Su Manshu's adoptive mother, she was the first person her mother called since Su Manshu became sensible.Maybe he didn't know that he had a mother named Ruozi, that tragic woman had a secret relationship with Su Jiesheng, and left after giving birth to Su Manshu.Before the age of five, Su Manshu grew up under the tender care of Hehexian. At that time, he was a cherry blossom tree planted in Japan. He might be weak, but he had a suitable soil and water.At the age of six, my father took me back to my hometown in Guangzhou. This cherry tree could not adapt to the climate in south of the Five Ridges, so it had to wither gradually.

When he left Japan at the age of six, Su Manshu began his ups and downs life, went to a temple to become a monk, drifted into the world of mortals, and tasted the bitterness of the world in the turbulent and chaotic times.When he was fifteen, he went back to Japan to find his adoptive mother Kawaisen, who took him to his birthplace - Yingshan Village not far from Yokohama.It was in this beautiful small mountain village that he met Juzi and tasted the sweetness of love for the first time.If it wasn't for Su Manshu's uncle who broke them up with some inexplicable reasons, would Su Manshu and Juzi spend their time together in that small mountain village in Japan?

Fifteen years old, a young man who just knows things, maybe he only knows how to love, but he doesn't know how to stay together.With his unrestrained personality, a small foreign mountain village, and an ordinary Japanese girl, can he be kept?Maybe he is willing to spend a year or two for her, waiting for the flowers to bloom and fall under the cherry tree, and waiting for the tide to come and go in the sound of the waves.After a long time, Su Manshu will definitely get tired of this simplicity and tranquility, not because he is ruthless, but because he is destined to be a wandering lone goose, flying across thousands of rivers and mountains all his life.

How can a talented and learned Chinese, living in troubled times, disregard the safety of the nation and enjoy himself in the Japanese island country alone.Cherry blossoms are romantic, love is sweet, people live with a mission and should have many pursuits, how can they let go of their responsibilities and turn away when life is not over.Their love is that bitter green fruit, which will be picked before it is ripe, and the green taste will remain in the memory for a lifetime. Eight years later, the 23-year-old Su Manshu once again mourned this love, feeling that regrets were superfluous.He understands better than anyone else that even if Chrysanthemum did not die back then, the course of his life might have changed, but the ending would still be the same.How cowardly human nature is, they only like to find reasons for their mistakes. How many people fall in love with such a sentence: how much love, you can start over.Yes, how much love can be repeated, how many people are worth waiting for a lifetime.In the world of mortals, there are countless encounters and countless partings every day, and every day is interpreting different joys and sorrows, no one will be the eternity of the other.Don't you know how many people Su Manshu has loved and how many emotions he has had in the past eight years, but he knows very well that he can't make promises, so he loves with restraint, and then leaves lonely. Hehexian, this dignified and virtuous Japanese woman, could only wait alone in a small mountain village because Jaishan Su left.Planting a few cherry trees, spending long days in leisure, occasionally looking at the distant sailing boats, wondering if they are carrying the children she misses.It is said that she married someone else when she had nothing to rely on, and her humble life was scarred by fate, and the pain was beyond words.We have no way of knowing the scene when Su Manshu found Hehe Xian, it should be a touching picture.He Hexian is tied to all Su Manshu's dreams in Japan, so that his lost and broken dreams can be found again.In the years to come, he will need to rely on these dreams to maintain the beautiful yearning for Sakura in his heart. Coming and going, rivers and lakes wind and rain, footprints wandering, just met at the intersection, and now we have to part ways.There are thousands of words in my heart, but the speechless eyes and smiles are worthless.Su Manshu made arrangements for Hehexian, and returned to Shanghai as if fulfilling a long-cherished wish.When he arrived in Shanghai, he wanted to study Buddhism at Liuyun Temple, but failed.It's autumn again, and the fallen leaves are flying, and each leaf has a kind of quiet beauty from another world.On the road in autumn, some people have learned to be quiet, and some people are still walking.