Chapter 25 Chapter 4 Lovesickness in the Bright Moon
The wind servant girl and the rain on the temples are not sure.Tired leaning on the magnolia to see the moon halo, it is easy to speak low and fragrant. A person's whole life is lived in the drama arranged by fate. If you ask the characters, no one knows how much time they spend as passers-by and how much time they spend as returnees.It seems that we have been walking, not because of the temptation of mountains and rivers, but because there are too many unknown promises waiting for us to go.The journey is like the wind, and we are just a small particle in the wind, maybe a dust, maybe a drop of water, maybe a flower or leaf, but eventually there will be a post station that will accommodate you and me who are wandering.Because of this, when we see a courtyard wall covered with green vines, we think it is home; when we see an ancient well mottled with moss, we think there is water; .
The human heart is always soft when it is firm, and tenacious when it is fragile.Don't you know that behind the elegance is haste, and calmness is hidden in the panic.It is said that women hurt spring and men mourn autumn. Nalan is not Song Yu, but he has Song Yu's feelings.At this time, he fell ill in an unknown station, in the fall of leaves.Memories are blurred during illness, how many past events, how many passers-by, are blurred into specious shadows.But some people have already engraved it in their hearts, even if the heart lake is disturbed, he is still sure to regroup to the original appearance.Nalan was lying on the hospital bed, smelling the autumn wind, the sadness, which was worse than the pain, penetrated into the bone marrow and spread to the internal organs.
"Don't think about the past with the bright moon, and know how to reduce the years." The bright moon has a heart, and it will never leave it in spring, summer, autumn and winter, but the bright moon also has hatred. If there is no hatred, the moon will be long and full.Nalan felt that he was the aging Cicada, whose gorgeous clothes had been stripped off by Sui Xu, standing on Ye's shoulder with scars, waiting for a desolation of silence.He used the remaining wings to wrap the softness in his heart, and the already vulnerable soul was even more traumatized.He can bury his head in the shell and listen to the world passing by like the wind, but he doesn't know whether his love with Shen Wan will have a future of seeing the light of day again.
Back in the capital, Nalan, who had regained his health, let himself devote himself to work like a spinning top.He hoped that he could forget about Jiangnan and the face imprinted in his mind while he was busy.The same position for many years, repeating a kind of monotony and boring, has already worn out his enthusiasm.If he had any nostalgia for his official career, it was in the distant yesterday.The idle chores and frequent trips made his already weak body even more powerless.The strings of life are becoming increasingly tense, and he feels that if he does not escape, one day he will face the end of the strings being broken.Frustration in official career also has sharp lethality. The frustrated Nalan had no choice but to drink to let go. He said: "It is true that people say that fame after death is not as good as a glass of wine in life."
However, after the pot of wine in Nalan's life was opened, it became weaker and weaker.One day, when it is as light as water, will he still be able to anesthetize his thoughts?The most heart-wrenching thing is the lovesickness between the two places. In the past, when he parted from his beloved wife, he would at least get together for a while, but he and Shen Wan were separated by a misty river bank, with no status, no vows, and he just left her in the south of the Yangtze River.She was left with a few volumes of thin words, a vague smiling face, and a symbol called Nalan, making her pretend to wait calmly every day.He even neglected that waiting is the last thing a woman can afford. Even if she has enough years to waste, she still can't afford to wait for an indefinite agreement.
Sai Hong is gone, when will the brocade be sent?I remember pretending to hold back tears in front of the lamp, but asked if the Ming Dynasty was going to go.