Chapter 25 sea of people
Emphasize the flying side of life, somewhat superhuman temperament.Superman was born in an era.The stable side of life has eternal meaning.
In my memory, autumn is a season when there is no one else.Or to put it another way, no matter how many people there are, they can't match the cool and remote atmosphere.The mood and stories of this season are all dyed with a touch of frost.The once bustling city and the deep life seem to be much simpler and quieter, and the end can be seen at a glance. Of course, this season is also suitable for parting.Those originally flamboyant people seemed a little reserved and quiet.Zhang Ailing chose to leave Hong Kong in autumn because she accidentally lost her calm self.The mortal relationship in the world must go through hundreds of hardships and kalpas before it can be transformed into emptiness.This woman above the clouds, even if she is willing to wither in the dust, we will always look up to her. "Cleveland" President, this is the name of a ship.It was it that took Eileen Chang out of Hong Kong and sailed to the United States, but forgot to bring her back.This ship also carried many famous and unknown Chinese people, fulfilling their dreams of studying abroad.For Zhang Ailing, studying abroad was also a young and beautiful dream.When she was eighteen years old, she was admitted to the University of London, but failed because of the war. The mother and aunt's study abroad once left warm and romantic memories in Eileen Chang's heart.At that time, she even felt that the foreign style was elegant and free-spirited.In a foreign country, there is no need to exist in a regular manner, and there is no need to pretend to live.Here, there is more casualness and looseness, freedom and uninhibitedness.Ten years of ups and downs, the mountains are high and the autumn is far away, Zhang Ailing's romantic dream when she was young has long since disappeared.She chooses to cross the ocean now to bid farewell to the entangled years in the past.She once said that in order to change to a clean and tidy way of life, she wants to breathe freely under the blue sky and blue sea. The wine in the cup is gone, and the old things have become dust.The ship entered the country in San Francisco, and since then the United States has seen her flickering whereabouts for the rest of her life.Until a few years later, she was buried in this country.This is Dingsu, this woman from Shanghai, this talented woman who traveled through the smoke and rain of the Republic of China, and finally died lonely in a foreign country, with only her soul dreaming to return to her hometown.All this is many years later.Today's Zhang Ailing is just a woman with a loose heart. She lost her own country and wanted to settle down here. After a short stay in San Francisco, Eileen Chang went to New York.She is not unaccompanied, because there is someone waiting for her there, who is her best friend in this life——Yanying.Yan Ying has immigrated to the United States, and is doing a real estate business in New York, which is in full swing.Her life is just like her personality, bright and cheerful.People say that temperament determines destiny, and it is not wrong at all.Yan Ying and Zhang Ailing studied at the University of Hong Kong together, and later went to Shanghai together, but her life seems to have been smooth all the time.But even though Eileen Chang had great talent and became popular in Shanghai, she was always like a floating weed, rootless and rootless. I don't know, among these two women, who is living the real life?New York, capital of the world.A city of commerce and finance, a city of art and culture, honors the noble, refreshes the leisurely, desolate the humble, and treats the busy.Walking through the skyscrapers and feeling the confusion of neon colors can indeed make you forget your past and present lives, and you will be willing to be a dust in this city from now on, regardless of joys and sorrows. The prosperity of this city and everything is no longer a temptation to Eileen Chang.Her only joy is reuniting with her good friend Yan Ying.It seems that Yanying has become the only person in this world who can be trusted, the only one to rely on.In front of her, Zhang Ailing poured out her pent-up thoughts over the years.At that time, she felt a sense of relief.Afterwards, they wandered together in New York's streets, movie theaters, and food stores.This kind of happiness is as pure and warm as it was in Hong Kong and Shanghai back then. When Eileen Chang came to New York this time, there was one more person she wanted to meet, and that was Mr. Hu Shi.She had sent that copy to Hu Shi in Hong Kong before.After Hu Shi received it, he replied a long letter to Zhang Ailing and made detailed comments on it.He appreciated Zhang Ailing's talent and thought her works were of great literary value. It is said that the families of Zhang Ailing and Hu Shi have some connections.Zhang Ailing's grandfather, Zhang Peilun, knew Hu Shi's father, Hu Chuan, and helped him when his career was hindered.Later Zhang Peilun was demoted, and Hu Chuan also sent two hundred taels of silver to Zhang Peilun.Moreover, Mr. Hu Shi also played cards with Zhang Ailing's mother and aunt at the same table. Perhaps because of these reasons, Hu Shi paid special attention to Zhang Ailing. At this time, Hu Shi had left the political arena and came to New York to start his lonely and leisurely life.Here, he lived in seclusion and thanked guests behind closed doors.The decoration of the house is full of Chinese taste. In his free time, he basks in the sun under the eaves, drinks tea and reads a book. His life is really peaceful.Zhang Ailing wrote in the article recalling Hu Shi: "Mr. Shizhi wears a long robe. His wife has a little Anhui accent... her attitude is a bit jerky. I think she may always be Mr. Shizhi's student in some ways, which reminds me of reading immediately. of the rare bliss of old-fashioned marriages." In this distant foreign country, meeting old people and meeting Mr. Hu Shi, they evoked Zhang Ailing's faint yearning for her homeland.After that, Hu Shi always took good care of Zhang Ailing, fearing that she would be lonely, so he called several times to say hello.Zhang Ailing lived in Yanying's house for a period of time, reliving the beautiful dream in college.But Zhang Ailing knew that this was not a long-term solution. She came to the United States this time to live an independent life again, so she wanted to live alone. Later, Zhang Ailing moved to the women's dormitory run by the Salvation Army. The place is simple, but it is actually a place to help the poor.Although Yan Ying disagreed, Zhang Ailing was stubborn and never changed what she decided.The scene in the women's dormitory was indeed chaotic and desolate.Here, it is only a temporary stop.For Zhang Ailing, in this strange city, no one knows anyone, so she doesn't care what kind of environment she lives in. What touched Zhang Ailing was that one day, Mr. Hu Shi came here to visit her.Zhang Ailing invited him to sit in the living room, which was dark and as big as a school auditorium.Zhang Ailing smiled helplessly, but Hu Shi praised this place directly.Obviously, this is a relief to Zhang Ailing, who understands the hardships of a single woman in a foreign country.Such a talented woman should live a happy and stable life, but she can live comfortably in such a simple place.Hu Shi not only sympathized with Zhang Ailing, but also had a lot of admiration and appreciation. In the article recalling Hu Shi, Zhang Ailing described a scene of farewell in detail. After reading it, it was very touching and meaningful. "I sent me to the gate and stood on the steps talking. It was cold and windy, blowing across the street from the Hezhen River. Mr. Shizhi looked at the empty gray river at the corner of the street. There was fog on the river , I don't know why I kept looking at it with a smile, and I was stunned. He was tightly wrapped in a scarf, his neck was huddled in a half-worn black coat, his thick shoulders, his head and face were quite large, and he was condensed into a bronze bust. Like. I suddenly felt awe-inspiring, thinking: So it is really like what people say. And I always believe that all idols have 'clay feet', otherwise they will not be able to stand, it is unbelievable. I did not wear a coat when I came out, and the heating inside was too high I was only wearing a summer coat with a large collar, but it was not cold at all. After standing for a long time, I just felt the wind. I also looked up to the river and smiled, but there seemed to be a sad wind, separated by hundreds of miles. Thousands of miles were blown out from the depths of the times, blowing so hard that I couldn't open my eyes. That was the last time I saw Mr. Shizhi." This back view gave Zhang Ailing a feeling of being a fallen person in the world, and it was also engraved in her mind, which will never be forgotten.It's just that she didn't cry, but smiled stubbornly.She is really lonely, because after returning, she will face those downcast and unfamiliar faces again, and together with them, she will accept the grace and relief of this city.But she never felt that it was less than dignified.She is just a woman who wanders far away freely, wading through the water and singing, not afraid of the cold. For this parting, Eileen Chang hadn't communicated with Hu Shih for several years.Later, through a letter, and after a long time, I heard the bad news about Hu Shi.Mr. Hu Shi passed away suddenly in 1962 after giving a speech at a banquet.Zhang Ailing said that he died without a disease, a blessed person.It is also appropriate to take Mr. Hu Shi as a person. I will never forget this strange city, this warm meeting in the cold.At this time, Zhang Ailing gradually faded away from her gorgeousness and became a quiet and confused viewer.In this crowded, noble and elegant city, she played a humble and desolate role.No one knows her, even if she has a peerless talent and a romantic appearance, she can only act in a one-man show.She is like a cloud pine on a steep cliff, like a star in the vast Milky Way, hiding her tenacity and brilliance in her heart. After all, the women's dormitory run by the Salvation Army is not a permanent place to live.Out of desperation, Eileen Chang sought help from the McDowell Literary Camp in New Hampshire. On February 13, 1956, she formally applied: "Dear Sir/Madam: I am a writer from Hong Kong, I immigrated here in accordance with the Refugee Act issued in 1953. I came to this country in October last year. I have no other source of income except writing income. The current economic pressure forced me to apply for free shelter at the Art Camp. In order to allow me to finish the novel I have been writing. I do not hesitate to ask for permission to live in the literary camp from March 13th to June 30th, and hope to continue after May 15th when the winter season ends. Stay in your camp. Sincerely, Eileen Chang." This is Zhang Ailing, as if any mortal could not follow in her footsteps.She can stand upright on the water, or bend over the dust.This wealthy lady from aristocratic family now only asks for a wooden house that can shelter from wind and snow.Maybe many people will shed sad tears for her when they read this text.However, she is disdainful, even if there is only one color left in her life, she can still stand alone among the beauties and red flowers, with a variety of charms. She left, leaving alone in that snowy season.She knew that she could not find stability in this world even if she had crossed the sea of people, she would rather go on in such a meager way.When the flowers are gone, even the heart is buried.When Chunyan returns in the future, where will she be?
In my memory, autumn is a season when there is no one else.Or to put it another way, no matter how many people there are, they can't match the cool and remote atmosphere.The mood and stories of this season are all dyed with a touch of frost.The once bustling city and the deep life seem to be much simpler and quieter, and the end can be seen at a glance. Of course, this season is also suitable for parting.Those originally flamboyant people seemed a little reserved and quiet.Zhang Ailing chose to leave Hong Kong in autumn because she accidentally lost her calm self.The mortal relationship in the world must go through hundreds of hardships and kalpas before it can be transformed into emptiness.This woman above the clouds, even if she is willing to wither in the dust, we will always look up to her. "Cleveland" President, this is the name of a ship.It was it that took Eileen Chang out of Hong Kong and sailed to the United States, but forgot to bring her back.This ship also carried many famous and unknown Chinese people, fulfilling their dreams of studying abroad.For Zhang Ailing, studying abroad was also a young and beautiful dream.When she was eighteen years old, she was admitted to the University of London, but failed because of the war. The mother and aunt's study abroad once left warm and romantic memories in Eileen Chang's heart.At that time, she even felt that the foreign style was elegant and free-spirited.In a foreign country, there is no need to exist in a regular manner, and there is no need to pretend to live.Here, there is more casualness and looseness, freedom and uninhibitedness.Ten years of ups and downs, the mountains are high and the autumn is far away, Zhang Ailing's romantic dream when she was young has long since disappeared.She chooses to cross the ocean now to bid farewell to the entangled years in the past.She once said that in order to change to a clean and tidy way of life, she wants to breathe freely under the blue sky and blue sea. The wine in the cup is gone, and the old things have become dust.The ship entered the country in San Francisco, and since then the United States has seen her flickering whereabouts for the rest of her life.Until a few years later, she was buried in this country.This is Dingsu, this woman from Shanghai, this talented woman who traveled through the smoke and rain of the Republic of China, and finally died lonely in a foreign country, with only her soul dreaming to return to her hometown.All this is many years later.Today's Zhang Ailing is just a woman with a loose heart. She lost her own country and wanted to settle down here. After a short stay in San Francisco, Eileen Chang went to New York.She is not unaccompanied, because there is someone waiting for her there, who is her best friend in this life——Yanying.Yan Ying has immigrated to the United States, and is doing a real estate business in New York, which is in full swing.Her life is just like her personality, bright and cheerful.People say that temperament determines destiny, and it is not wrong at all.Yan Ying and Zhang Ailing studied at the University of Hong Kong together, and later went to Shanghai together, but her life seems to have been smooth all the time.But even though Eileen Chang had great talent and became popular in Shanghai, she was always like a floating weed, rootless and rootless. I don't know, among these two women, who is living the real life?New York, capital of the world.A city of commerce and finance, a city of art and culture, honors the noble, refreshes the leisurely, desolate the humble, and treats the busy.Walking through the skyscrapers and feeling the confusion of neon colors can indeed make you forget your past and present lives, and you will be willing to be a dust in this city from now on, regardless of joys and sorrows. The prosperity of this city and everything is no longer a temptation to Eileen Chang.Her only joy is reuniting with her good friend Yan Ying.It seems that Yanying has become the only person in this world who can be trusted, the only one to rely on.In front of her, Zhang Ailing poured out her pent-up thoughts over the years.At that time, she felt a sense of relief.Afterwards, they wandered together in New York's streets, movie theaters, and food stores.This kind of happiness is as pure and warm as it was in Hong Kong and Shanghai back then. When Eileen Chang came to New York this time, there was one more person she wanted to meet, and that was Mr. Hu Shi.She had sent that copy to Hu Shi in Hong Kong before.After Hu Shi received it, he replied a long letter to Zhang Ailing and made detailed comments on it.He appreciated Zhang Ailing's talent and thought her works were of great literary value. It is said that the families of Zhang Ailing and Hu Shi have some connections.Zhang Ailing's grandfather, Zhang Peilun, knew Hu Shi's father, Hu Chuan, and helped him when his career was hindered.Later Zhang Peilun was demoted, and Hu Chuan also sent two hundred taels of silver to Zhang Peilun.Moreover, Mr. Hu Shi also played cards with Zhang Ailing's mother and aunt at the same table. Perhaps because of these reasons, Hu Shi paid special attention to Zhang Ailing. At this time, Hu Shi had left the political arena and came to New York to start his lonely and leisurely life.Here, he lived in seclusion and thanked guests behind closed doors.The decoration of the house is full of Chinese taste. In his free time, he basks in the sun under the eaves, drinks tea and reads a book. His life is really peaceful.Zhang Ailing wrote in the article recalling Hu Shi: "Mr. Shizhi wears a long robe. His wife has a little Anhui accent... her attitude is a bit jerky. I think she may always be Mr. Shizhi's student in some ways, which reminds me of reading immediately. of the rare bliss of old-fashioned marriages." In this distant foreign country, meeting old people and meeting Mr. Hu Shi, they evoked Zhang Ailing's faint yearning for her homeland.After that, Hu Shi always took good care of Zhang Ailing, fearing that she would be lonely, so he called several times to say hello.Zhang Ailing lived in Yanying's house for a period of time, reliving the beautiful dream in college.But Zhang Ailing knew that this was not a long-term solution. She came to the United States this time to live an independent life again, so she wanted to live alone. Later, Zhang Ailing moved to the women's dormitory run by the Salvation Army. The place is simple, but it is actually a place to help the poor.Although Yan Ying disagreed, Zhang Ailing was stubborn and never changed what she decided.The scene in the women's dormitory was indeed chaotic and desolate.Here, it is only a temporary stop.For Zhang Ailing, in this strange city, no one knows anyone, so she doesn't care what kind of environment she lives in. What touched Zhang Ailing was that one day, Mr. Hu Shi came here to visit her.Zhang Ailing invited him to sit in the living room, which was dark and as big as a school auditorium.Zhang Ailing smiled helplessly, but Hu Shi praised this place directly.Obviously, this is a relief to Zhang Ailing, who understands the hardships of a single woman in a foreign country.Such a talented woman should live a happy and stable life, but she can live comfortably in such a simple place.Hu Shi not only sympathized with Zhang Ailing, but also had a lot of admiration and appreciation. In the article recalling Hu Shi, Zhang Ailing described a scene of farewell in detail. After reading it, it was very touching and meaningful. "I sent me to the gate and stood on the steps talking. It was cold and windy, blowing across the street from the Hezhen River. Mr. Shizhi looked at the empty gray river at the corner of the street. There was fog on the river , I don't know why I kept looking at it with a smile, and I was stunned. He was tightly wrapped in a scarf, his neck was huddled in a half-worn black coat, his thick shoulders, his head and face were quite large, and he was condensed into a bronze bust. Like. I suddenly felt awe-inspiring, thinking: So it is really like what people say. And I always believe that all idols have 'clay feet', otherwise they will not be able to stand, it is unbelievable. I did not wear a coat when I came out, and the heating inside was too high I was only wearing a summer coat with a large collar, but it was not cold at all. After standing for a long time, I just felt the wind. I also looked up to the river and smiled, but there seemed to be a sad wind, separated by hundreds of miles. Thousands of miles were blown out from the depths of the times, blowing so hard that I couldn't open my eyes. That was the last time I saw Mr. Shizhi." This back view gave Zhang Ailing a feeling of being a fallen person in the world, and it was also engraved in her mind, which will never be forgotten.It's just that she didn't cry, but smiled stubbornly.She is really lonely, because after returning, she will face those downcast and unfamiliar faces again, and together with them, she will accept the grace and relief of this city.But she never felt that it was less than dignified.She is just a woman who wanders far away freely, wading through the water and singing, not afraid of the cold. For this parting, Eileen Chang hadn't communicated with Hu Shih for several years.Later, through a letter, and after a long time, I heard the bad news about Hu Shi.Mr. Hu Shi passed away suddenly in 1962 after giving a speech at a banquet.Zhang Ailing said that he died without a disease, a blessed person.It is also appropriate to take Mr. Hu Shi as a person. I will never forget this strange city, this warm meeting in the cold.At this time, Zhang Ailing gradually faded away from her gorgeousness and became a quiet and confused viewer.In this crowded, noble and elegant city, she played a humble and desolate role.No one knows her, even if she has a peerless talent and a romantic appearance, she can only act in a one-man show.She is like a cloud pine on a steep cliff, like a star in the vast Milky Way, hiding her tenacity and brilliance in her heart. After all, the women's dormitory run by the Salvation Army is not a permanent place to live.Out of desperation, Eileen Chang sought help from the McDowell Literary Camp in New Hampshire. On February 13, 1956, she formally applied: "Dear Sir/Madam: I am a writer from Hong Kong, I immigrated here in accordance with the Refugee Act issued in 1953. I came to this country in October last year. I have no other source of income except writing income. The current economic pressure forced me to apply for free shelter at the Art Camp. In order to allow me to finish the novel I have been writing. I do not hesitate to ask for permission to live in the literary camp from March 13th to June 30th, and hope to continue after May 15th when the winter season ends. Stay in your camp. Sincerely, Eileen Chang." This is Zhang Ailing, as if any mortal could not follow in her footsteps.She can stand upright on the water, or bend over the dust.This wealthy lady from aristocratic family now only asks for a wooden house that can shelter from wind and snow.Maybe many people will shed sad tears for her when they read this text.However, she is disdainful, even if there is only one color left in her life, she can still stand alone among the beauties and red flowers, with a variety of charms. She left, leaving alone in that snowy season.She knew that she could not find stability in this world even if she had crossed the sea of people, she would rather go on in such a meager way.When the flowers are gone, even the heart is buried.When Chunyan returns in the future, where will she be?