Chapter 24 Hua Xu's dream
"Dinglinglinglinglinglingling" rings the bell, and each word "ling" is a cold dot, connecting little by little to form a dotted line, cutting off time and space.
Hong Kong is really a bustling and prosperous city, where there are many gorgeous flowers and green grass.This city has been inseparable from water since ancient times, and it seems that there are undercurrents surging at any time.This is a city that cannot make promises, but it can satisfy the humble and proud wishes of many people.Walking in the street full of materialism, no one knows where you come from and where you are going.You can dream unscrupulously, or you can be alone as if nothing had happened. Ten years of spring and autumn, looking back on the past, it has been a sea of vicissitudes.Ten years ago, she left in a hurry from here. Ten years later, returning to the old place, is it a kind of return?Zhang Ailing chose to come to Hong Kong again, not only to escape the turmoil in Shanghai, but also to be able to live again in a familiar and unfamiliar environment.The noisy streets, hurried footsteps and indifferent expressions are what she wants to see.She knew that people in this city were too busy to take care of themselves, and only in this way could they not be disturbed. Many people don't understand that Eileen Chang has found her stage in Shanghai again, why she decided to turn around?After several years of ups and downs, she suffered humiliation and condemnation, and finally won a new sky with words, but she didn't want the hard-won honor, she silently abandoned everything alone, and chose to go to Hong Kong.Did she have a premonition?Or did she just want to leave. "The times are hasty, destruction is already underway, and greater destruction is to come." This is a sentence she said many years ago, and it is like a prophecy, covering the fate of all beings.Over the years, Eileen Chang has never felt stable, and the sense of urgency has been following her around, making her want to escape.The world is vast, and she fantasizes that she will be like floating clouds, drifting away into the world.In order to escape the memory and forget the past, she just wants to set off and start a distant journey. She chose to come to Hong Kong because she remembered her mother's parting words and applied to the University of Hong Kong to resume her studies.Maybe this is just an excuse, but this excuse can let her live temporarily.She applied to leave the country and held a certificate from the University of Hong Kong. The reason for going to Hong Kong was to "continue her studies interrupted by the war."Before leaving, she did not explain to anyone, including her younger brother Zhang Zijing.And she made an agreement with her aunt not to communicate or communicate with each other. It can be seen that her determination to forget everything, the desolation of leaving the world, has become an inescapable destiny.When the younger brother Zhang Zijing heard her sister leave, she felt lost and wept silently.Ke Ling and those cultural celebrities in Shanghai only found out later that she had gone to Hong Kong. They only regretted Zhang Ailing's choice. But is Zhang Ailing's departure right or wrong?Zhang Ailing's writing needs the nourishment of the land of Shanghai, leaving Shanghai, her writing will be eclipsed.Lost the gorgeous words, is she still the original Eileen Chang?Maybe her leaving was a mistake.But no matter what the result is, we must respect her choice and her wish. But Zhang Ailing's departure is also wise.If she stayed in Shanghai, she would no doubt face a "trial" later on.Those talented women of the Republic of China who were once magnificent have been devastated by the times, and the glamorous past has become an untouchable wound.Zhang Ailing is gone, the glory of this city does not belong to her, nor does the disgrace belong to her.She is her own and only her own. Before Zhang Ailing went to Hong Kong, she also went to Hangzhou West Lake.Facing the sparkling lake, clear water and green mountains, this poetic Jiangnan, which has been loved by literati of all ages, does not have much temptation for her.It seems that her coldness and desolation are incompatible with this soft city.The long Su Causeway and the elegant pavilions give her an intangible coolness and remoteness.Zhang Ailing's life has never been gentle and romantic, she belongs to the mighty wind and smoke of the Republic of China.So she had to go away, hide her loneliness in the noise, cover her pain. In 1952, 32-year-old Eileen Chang set foot on the land of Hong Kong, and her heart was full of twists and turns.Although such exile is bleak, she believes that this land will give her tired soul an inch of peace.The world is difficult, and life is full of bureaus.On the campus of HKU, the greenness and beauty of yesterday are still there, but her appearance has changed. After several twists and turns, Eileen Chang finally registered to repeat her studies at the University of Hong Kong in August of this year.But at this time, Zhang Ailing lost her source of income, and the few money and goods had been spent, and she began to fall into an embarrassing life.In desperation, Zhang Ailing had no choice but to go out to seek a job.It is said that she was invited by Yan Ying to go to Tokyo, but she hit a wall and returned to Hong Kong.And her hasty departure angered the school, which refused her re-enrolment. Eileen Chang is an arrogant woman, she came to Hong Kong this time, returning to school is just a reason.So the school's resistance to her was no longer a blow to her.She resolutely left, found a temporary residence by herself, and started her career.She once said: "Hong Kong is a beautiful but sad city." So it is not easy to find a satisfactory job.During this job hunting process, she encountered too much coldness and indifference. But at this time, Zhang Ailing was no longer that little girl who had never experienced anything in the world.She is a young female writer whose works have been popular in Shanghai several times.Maybe that glory will fade with time, but the talent in her bones will stay with her until death.Soon, Eileen Chang found a job as a translator at the US Press Service in Hong Kong.She has a solid foundation in Chinese, coupled with her fluent knowledge of foreign languages, it is not difficult for her to translate works. Zhang Ailing successively translated works such as "Anthology of Emerson" and "Seven Great American Novels".For her, translating text is not of much interest, it is just a simple job.During this period, Zhang Ailing also wrote the movie scripts "Little Children" and "Happy Meeting Between North and South". The style of writing is much lighter, but it still does not lose its authentic flavor.Zhang Ailing, who has been washed away, is already afraid of the hustle and bustle in the world.What she wants is no longer fancy clothes and heavy colors, but natural light makeup. In Hong Kong, what made Zhang Ailing most happy was not the job, but the two friends she met, namely, Ms. Kwong Wenmei, who worked as an interpreter in the U.S. New Office, and her husband, Song Qi.Mr. Song Qi is the son of the famous dramatist Song Chunfang. He came to Hong Kong in 1948 and successively worked in the editorial department of the "Meixin Office", the Film and Mao Film Company and the Shaw Brothers Film Company.He is fond of Chinese classical literature, and has novel and unique research on it.It is also because of the Red Chamber that Zhang Ailing and he have the same interest and understanding. Song Qi and his wife lived in Shanghai in the 1940s.So they have long admired Zhang Ailing's name, and they have long been her enthusiastic readers.Unexpectedly, by chance and coincidence, they met in Hong Kong, and this friendship has been with them for life.They are all familiar with Zhang Ailing's emotional story, and they have mentioned it in the conversation, but Zhang Ailing is always speechless.Since then, the couple no longer mentioned her vicissitudes of the past. In Hong Kong, Zhang Ailing was unaccompanied, but Song Qi and his wife gave her a lot of help.In order to keep her a single woman from too much interference from the outside world, the couple helped Zhang Ailing rent a house close to home.In this way, there is frequent movement.They are all gentlemen, and they have settled in Shanghai together, which brought a lot of warmth to Zhang Ailing, who is in the world.Although Shanghai has hurt Zhang Ailing too much, Yueming in her hometown makes her miss her deeply. The temporary stability gave Zhang Ailing the idea of writing again.Words are always an inseparable complex in her heart.So whether she is proud or frustrated, she needs words to heal her hunger.This is the first time Zhang Ailing wrote a novel in English, and her work is .After finishing writing, Zhang Ailing was not very confident. She gave the first draft to Song Qi and his wife for review before sending it to the publishing agent in the United States. Zhang Ailing's talent has been recognized by McCarthy, director of the US and New Division.He thought Eileen Chang was a literary genius, and it was almost enviable that a Chinese could write English novels so well.This article was later published in the United States and received a good response from the reading circle.A book review said: "This moving book is the author's first English creation. The proficiency in English skills shown makes us envious of those who are born in English." Later, Eileen Chang translated it into Chinese and serialized it in Hong Kong's "World Today".Later, English and Chinese versions were published in Hong Kong, but the sales were very poor.Perhaps Zhang Ailing's writing style has changed too much, and readers who like her are still immersed in her "Red Rose, White Rose" and the book.They can't enter the bland and near-natural realm described by Zhang Ailing, or in other words, their tastes have long been fed by Zhang Ailing.Come for a cup of light tea, it tastes naturally dull. Then, Zhang Ailing wrote another book, which also received a cold reception.Zhang Ailing just wanted to change her style, trying to experiment with vassal politics, so that readers could smell the real breath of life.However, she failed, and readers still like her flowery themes of the Republic of China.Going thousands of miles, what you get in return is the ending that prosperity must decline.In fact, Zhang Ailing didn't put all her eggs in one basket, she just wanted to have a contest with fate and make an early turn on the road of life.However, everything is not as simple and satisfactory as imagined. Eileen Chang stayed in Hong Kong for three years.In the past three years, the only gratification for her is that she has met such good friends as Song Qi and his wife.And the taste of this city to her is really hard to describe.If she stays in Hong Kong and appreciates all kinds of beings here, with her talent, she will definitely be able to write magnificent works again.But her heart can never go back to the past, she can no longer accommodate the world, what she needs is the grace of the world. After several times, life is just a dream of Hua Xu, but it is too difficult to wake up from the dream.It turns out that what all sentient beings will never forget is Eileen Chang who was wrapped in a cheongsam in Shanghai.It turned out that the alleys of the years have been full of fireworks, and the other side she thought had no end.
Hong Kong is really a bustling and prosperous city, where there are many gorgeous flowers and green grass.This city has been inseparable from water since ancient times, and it seems that there are undercurrents surging at any time.This is a city that cannot make promises, but it can satisfy the humble and proud wishes of many people.Walking in the street full of materialism, no one knows where you come from and where you are going.You can dream unscrupulously, or you can be alone as if nothing had happened. Ten years of spring and autumn, looking back on the past, it has been a sea of vicissitudes.Ten years ago, she left in a hurry from here. Ten years later, returning to the old place, is it a kind of return?Zhang Ailing chose to come to Hong Kong again, not only to escape the turmoil in Shanghai, but also to be able to live again in a familiar and unfamiliar environment.The noisy streets, hurried footsteps and indifferent expressions are what she wants to see.She knew that people in this city were too busy to take care of themselves, and only in this way could they not be disturbed. Many people don't understand that Eileen Chang has found her stage in Shanghai again, why she decided to turn around?After several years of ups and downs, she suffered humiliation and condemnation, and finally won a new sky with words, but she didn't want the hard-won honor, she silently abandoned everything alone, and chose to go to Hong Kong.Did she have a premonition?Or did she just want to leave. "The times are hasty, destruction is already underway, and greater destruction is to come." This is a sentence she said many years ago, and it is like a prophecy, covering the fate of all beings.Over the years, Eileen Chang has never felt stable, and the sense of urgency has been following her around, making her want to escape.The world is vast, and she fantasizes that she will be like floating clouds, drifting away into the world.In order to escape the memory and forget the past, she just wants to set off and start a distant journey. She chose to come to Hong Kong because she remembered her mother's parting words and applied to the University of Hong Kong to resume her studies.Maybe this is just an excuse, but this excuse can let her live temporarily.She applied to leave the country and held a certificate from the University of Hong Kong. The reason for going to Hong Kong was to "continue her studies interrupted by the war."Before leaving, she did not explain to anyone, including her younger brother Zhang Zijing.And she made an agreement with her aunt not to communicate or communicate with each other. It can be seen that her determination to forget everything, the desolation of leaving the world, has become an inescapable destiny.When the younger brother Zhang Zijing heard her sister leave, she felt lost and wept silently.Ke Ling and those cultural celebrities in Shanghai only found out later that she had gone to Hong Kong. They only regretted Zhang Ailing's choice. But is Zhang Ailing's departure right or wrong?Zhang Ailing's writing needs the nourishment of the land of Shanghai, leaving Shanghai, her writing will be eclipsed.Lost the gorgeous words, is she still the original Eileen Chang?Maybe her leaving was a mistake.But no matter what the result is, we must respect her choice and her wish. But Zhang Ailing's departure is also wise.If she stayed in Shanghai, she would no doubt face a "trial" later on.Those talented women of the Republic of China who were once magnificent have been devastated by the times, and the glamorous past has become an untouchable wound.Zhang Ailing is gone, the glory of this city does not belong to her, nor does the disgrace belong to her.She is her own and only her own. Before Zhang Ailing went to Hong Kong, she also went to Hangzhou West Lake.Facing the sparkling lake, clear water and green mountains, this poetic Jiangnan, which has been loved by literati of all ages, does not have much temptation for her.It seems that her coldness and desolation are incompatible with this soft city.The long Su Causeway and the elegant pavilions give her an intangible coolness and remoteness.Zhang Ailing's life has never been gentle and romantic, she belongs to the mighty wind and smoke of the Republic of China.So she had to go away, hide her loneliness in the noise, cover her pain. In 1952, 32-year-old Eileen Chang set foot on the land of Hong Kong, and her heart was full of twists and turns.Although such exile is bleak, she believes that this land will give her tired soul an inch of peace.The world is difficult, and life is full of bureaus.On the campus of HKU, the greenness and beauty of yesterday are still there, but her appearance has changed. After several twists and turns, Eileen Chang finally registered to repeat her studies at the University of Hong Kong in August of this year.But at this time, Zhang Ailing lost her source of income, and the few money and goods had been spent, and she began to fall into an embarrassing life.In desperation, Zhang Ailing had no choice but to go out to seek a job.It is said that she was invited by Yan Ying to go to Tokyo, but she hit a wall and returned to Hong Kong.And her hasty departure angered the school, which refused her re-enrolment. Eileen Chang is an arrogant woman, she came to Hong Kong this time, returning to school is just a reason.So the school's resistance to her was no longer a blow to her.She resolutely left, found a temporary residence by herself, and started her career.She once said: "Hong Kong is a beautiful but sad city." So it is not easy to find a satisfactory job.During this job hunting process, she encountered too much coldness and indifference. But at this time, Zhang Ailing was no longer that little girl who had never experienced anything in the world.She is a young female writer whose works have been popular in Shanghai several times.Maybe that glory will fade with time, but the talent in her bones will stay with her until death.Soon, Eileen Chang found a job as a translator at the US Press Service in Hong Kong.She has a solid foundation in Chinese, coupled with her fluent knowledge of foreign languages, it is not difficult for her to translate works. Zhang Ailing successively translated works such as "Anthology of Emerson" and "Seven Great American Novels".For her, translating text is not of much interest, it is just a simple job.During this period, Zhang Ailing also wrote the movie scripts "Little Children" and "Happy Meeting Between North and South". The style of writing is much lighter, but it still does not lose its authentic flavor.Zhang Ailing, who has been washed away, is already afraid of the hustle and bustle in the world.What she wants is no longer fancy clothes and heavy colors, but natural light makeup. In Hong Kong, what made Zhang Ailing most happy was not the job, but the two friends she met, namely, Ms. Kwong Wenmei, who worked as an interpreter in the U.S. New Office, and her husband, Song Qi.Mr. Song Qi is the son of the famous dramatist Song Chunfang. He came to Hong Kong in 1948 and successively worked in the editorial department of the "Meixin Office", the Film and Mao Film Company and the Shaw Brothers Film Company.He is fond of Chinese classical literature, and has novel and unique research on it.It is also because of the Red Chamber that Zhang Ailing and he have the same interest and understanding. Song Qi and his wife lived in Shanghai in the 1940s.So they have long admired Zhang Ailing's name, and they have long been her enthusiastic readers.Unexpectedly, by chance and coincidence, they met in Hong Kong, and this friendship has been with them for life.They are all familiar with Zhang Ailing's emotional story, and they have mentioned it in the conversation, but Zhang Ailing is always speechless.Since then, the couple no longer mentioned her vicissitudes of the past. In Hong Kong, Zhang Ailing was unaccompanied, but Song Qi and his wife gave her a lot of help.In order to keep her a single woman from too much interference from the outside world, the couple helped Zhang Ailing rent a house close to home.In this way, there is frequent movement.They are all gentlemen, and they have settled in Shanghai together, which brought a lot of warmth to Zhang Ailing, who is in the world.Although Shanghai has hurt Zhang Ailing too much, Yueming in her hometown makes her miss her deeply. The temporary stability gave Zhang Ailing the idea of writing again.Words are always an inseparable complex in her heart.So whether she is proud or frustrated, she needs words to heal her hunger.This is the first time Zhang Ailing wrote a novel in English, and her work is .After finishing writing, Zhang Ailing was not very confident. She gave the first draft to Song Qi and his wife for review before sending it to the publishing agent in the United States. Zhang Ailing's talent has been recognized by McCarthy, director of the US and New Division.He thought Eileen Chang was a literary genius, and it was almost enviable that a Chinese could write English novels so well.This article was later published in the United States and received a good response from the reading circle.A book review said: "This moving book is the author's first English creation. The proficiency in English skills shown makes us envious of those who are born in English." Later, Eileen Chang translated it into Chinese and serialized it in Hong Kong's "World Today".Later, English and Chinese versions were published in Hong Kong, but the sales were very poor.Perhaps Zhang Ailing's writing style has changed too much, and readers who like her are still immersed in her "Red Rose, White Rose" and the book.They can't enter the bland and near-natural realm described by Zhang Ailing, or in other words, their tastes have long been fed by Zhang Ailing.Come for a cup of light tea, it tastes naturally dull. Then, Zhang Ailing wrote another book, which also received a cold reception.Zhang Ailing just wanted to change her style, trying to experiment with vassal politics, so that readers could smell the real breath of life.However, she failed, and readers still like her flowery themes of the Republic of China.Going thousands of miles, what you get in return is the ending that prosperity must decline.In fact, Zhang Ailing didn't put all her eggs in one basket, she just wanted to have a contest with fate and make an early turn on the road of life.However, everything is not as simple and satisfactory as imagined. Eileen Chang stayed in Hong Kong for three years.In the past three years, the only gratification for her is that she has met such good friends as Song Qi and his wife.And the taste of this city to her is really hard to describe.If she stays in Hong Kong and appreciates all kinds of beings here, with her talent, she will definitely be able to write magnificent works again.But her heart can never go back to the past, she can no longer accommodate the world, what she needs is the grace of the world. After several times, life is just a dream of Hua Xu, but it is too difficult to wake up from the dream.It turns out that what all sentient beings will never forget is Eileen Chang who was wrapped in a cheongsam in Shanghai.It turned out that the alleys of the years have been full of fireworks, and the other side she thought had no end.