Chapter 23 half life love
We can't go back, we can't go back.Maybe love is not enthusiasm, nor nostalgia, but the years, and the years have become a part of life.
People say that those women in the Republic of China were unhappy all their lives.Xiao Hong with a tragic fate, Lu Xiaoman who passed away in desolation, Shi Pingmei who was short-lived in the pan, and Su Qing who ended in a sad end.There are many names that we know and don't know. They seem to be unhappy, wasting their time in the Mood for Love.Together with Zhang Ailing, the same is true.If youth is a gamble, then they are all women who are willing to gamble to lose, and end up lonely in the bright flowers, regardless of cause and effect. Some people have said that Zhang Ailing is the kind of woman who can be recognized at a glance when walking in the crowd.Tall and thin, with thoughts wrapped tightly in the cheongsam, a little aloof, a little desolate, a little flamboyant, a little cool.Losing Hu Lancheng, I have to endure the changes of the times, the blame of the people, and the vague feelings of missing Sang Hu.Zhang Ailing only felt that her life became more desolate, and the world of mortals didn't have much taste for her. Every night, under the lonely lamp, what accompanied her was words.And what she believes in is only words after all.Only when you are with words can you be at ease.These days, Zhang Ailing is still staying with her aunt. They moved out of Eddington apartment and lived in a two-bedroom house at No. 11 on the second floor of Chonghua New Village.During this period, mother Huang Yifan came back from abroad again.This once flourishing woman has experienced several vicissitudes, but she can't withstand the ravages of time. The life of his father Zhang Tingzhong is not what it used to be.He and Sun Yongfan still couldn't live without Afurong, relying on selling real estate and pawning things to maintain their huge expenses.The house became smaller and smaller, and finally settled in a hut of tens of square meters.The mansion back then was obliterated by the earth-shaking history, leaving only a pile of dust for their nostalgia. The mother came back this time and lived with Zhang Ailing and her aunt. The three desolate women cuddled together to keep warm.It's just that Huang Yifan only stayed in Shanghai for two years and went abroad again.She has long been unaccustomed to the chaotic environment of Shanghai. Her soul found a clean home abroad, and she never came back after leaving this time.Before leaving, Huang Yifan had a long talk with Zhang Ailing, she suggested that Zhang Ailing leave Shanghai and go to Hong Kong.She thinks that Shanghai's prosperity is not suitable for Eileen Chang's writing. Mother is gone, thousands of rivers and mountains, from now on the world is safe.Zhang Zijing wrote in her memoirs: "In 1938, my sister escaped from my father's house. In 1948, my mother left China. They never looked back." It was fate that prevented them from turning back. , It is the times that will not let them look back.They can only start a new life and interpret a new story in a new environment.Like it or not, happy or not. History has turned that heavy page, and everything is new.Shanghai, which is waiting to be rebuilt, is full of enthusiastic people.Xia Yan, one of the pioneers of China's New Culture Movement, is a famous writer of literature, film and drama.At that time, he was very concerned about the status quo of Shanghai's literary and art circles. At this time, Ke Ling recommended Zhang Ailing's novels to him, and Xia Yan appreciated them very much.Later, he recruited Tang Jichang and Gong Zhifang, and asked them to cooperate in launching a healthy tabloid. With Xia Yan's support, Tang Jichang and Gong Zhifang organized a "Yibao".They asked Zhang Ailing for a manuscript and got Zhang Ailing's permission, but Zhang Ailing had one requirement, that is, to publish the article under a pseudonym.Zhang Ailing, who wanted to come here to do her best, didn't want to cause trouble again. Hu Lancheng's incident caused her too much harm, and she needed to live a stable life.The pen name is used to resist the wind and rain of the world of mortals, a kind of self-protection. Zhang Ailing's pen name is Liang Jing.She learned the style of Zhang Hui novelist Zhang Henshui, and published it as she wrote it.And the novel she wrote this time is the most popular among readers after her silence.So far, among Eileen Chang's readers, many people love it alone.It tells a Shanghai story, which is in sync with Eileen Chang's era.Eighteen Springs, that is, the story was written eighteen years back in 1949. The name of this novel alone arouses readers' curiosity.After a few days of serialization, readers have begun to pay attention to it enthusiastically.Gong Zhifang was very optimistic about this film, and published a trailer a few days later, saying that Daoming is a famous work.Perhaps some readers who are familiar with Eileen Chang have guessed that Liang Jing is her.But these seem unimportant, they are only indulging in the storyline of the novel, and reading newspapers has become an indispensable expectation in life. It is about the deep-rooted love between Gu Manzhen, the commoner's daughter, and Shen Shijun, the son of the aristocratic family.But by fate, Shen Shijun rushed to Nanjing because of his father's sudden illness, but Manzhen was persecuted by her sister Manlu who always cared for her, and she fell into a terrible situation set up, and her long and miserable life began.In order to win the heart of her husband Zhu Hongcai, Man Lu did not hesitate to put her beautiful younger sister under house arrest because she did not want him to go out to find flowers and ask Liu.Zhu Hongcai ruined Manzhen's innocence until she gave birth to a child. At this time, things have changed. Facing Manzhen's sudden disappearance, Shen Shijun was extremely anxious.He asked Manlu about Manzhen's whereabouts, but Manlu lied to him that Manzhen was married and would never come back.Shen Shijun was disheartened and married a woman from an aristocratic family, while Manzhen knew that he had lost all hope, so after Manlu's death, he reluctantly married Zhu Hongcai.Such a story with many twists and turns, and a tragedy filled with righteous indignation, make readers follow the newspaper every day, wishing to share their sorrows and joys with them. Eighteen years later, Gu Manzhen and Shen Shijun met by chance, and the two cried together.Shen Shijun hopes to start again, but fate has already divided them into two worlds.Eighteen years, the vicissitudes of life several times.Manzhen said with tears: "Shijun, we can never go back, we can't go back." Just this sentence made many readers cry and sigh.Looking back on the past, Shen Shijun was deeply moved by that kind of regret that cannot be added. This one was later renamed by Eileen Chang.Missed once, missed half a lifetime of love.If it wasn't for the unexpected encounter eighteen years later, Shen Shijun probably wouldn't be able to let go of it for the rest of his life.And Gu Manzhen was able to see her former lover, so she could tell the cause of the past and tell her from the bottom of her heart. For her, it was also a relief.Although this ending made many readers sad.It's just that the past is like a dream, and who can turn back the years that have passed.Zhang Ailing didn't let them live to old age like enigmas, it is already merciful. Once published, it caused a sensation in Shanghai again.The description of the novel is too real to let the public get involved.They even had a lot of unusual reactions, moody.At that time, many cultural celebrities also sought after this novel.Sang Hu wrote a commendation speech and recommended it to readers, saying: "Liang Jing not only has outstanding writing talent, but also his meticulous writing attitude, which is also rare. In terms of style, his novels and prose have his own uniqueness. The face of Liang Jing... I read Liang Jing's new works, and it seems that he is changing. I think he still maintains the original bright and bright colors. At the same time, in terms of thoughts and feelings, he is also calmer and more stable than before. It's a welcome development for him." At that time, "Yi Bao" could receive a large number of letters from readers every day, and the grand occasion even surpassed Eileen Chang's achievements a few years ago.Tang Ji often saw such a fruitful result, so he wanted to take advantage of the victory and pursue it, and hurriedly asked Zhang Ailing for the next serialization.But Zhang Ailing didn't agree, she knew in her heart that if she is strong, she will be humiliated.It is impossible to write another transcendent novel in a short period of time. Half a year later, Zhang Ailing wrote another novella, which was serialized in "Yi Bao".However, as the times changed, Eileen Chang's theme and style had to change accordingly, which was a bit embarrassing for her, so she ended her writing in a hurry.Looking back on her vicissitudes and vicissitudes in the past few years, she also felt sad.Hu Lancheng has been gouged out of her heart, and the shame and sorrow he brought has also become a thing of the past.After so many years of depression, he was finally released.But why, she couldn't make herself really quiet and happy. She needs to turn around again, gorgeously and lonelyly, this time, it has nothing to do with others.She doesn't want to wither for anyone anymore, and she doesn't want to bloom for no reason anymore.In other words, Zhang Ailing never lowered her eyebrows for others.She was willing to humble Hu Lancheng at the beginning because she wanted to have a real love, burn herself with love, and fulfill her golden age.Therefore, from beginning to end, Zhang Ailing has no regrets.Even though she endured great grievances for this man, she admitted it. In the eyes of readers, Zhang Ailing's writing is like a pot of strong wine, and everyone who has tasted it is willing to drink it, and will not stop until drunk; it is a gorgeous and enchanting cheongsam, and everyone who has seen it is willing to drink. Be the vegetation under her skirt.Therefore, Zhang Ailing's works in each period will reach an extreme, and will be popular in Shanghai.She can't be silent, because what readers like is the magnificent Eileen Chang, and like her incomparable arrogance and colorful expression.If Eileen Chang took off her cheongsam and replaced it with a pot of tea, she would no longer be the Eileen Chang that readers love. She was confused and tired.She feels that she is no longer suitable for the current stage. Although she has successfully opened the curtain, she can't continue to perform, and she needs to leave early.She just took off the cheongsam that covered her body and left this familiar stage. Where should she go after all her charms have been washed away?
People say that those women in the Republic of China were unhappy all their lives.Xiao Hong with a tragic fate, Lu Xiaoman who passed away in desolation, Shi Pingmei who was short-lived in the pan, and Su Qing who ended in a sad end.There are many names that we know and don't know. They seem to be unhappy, wasting their time in the Mood for Love.Together with Zhang Ailing, the same is true.If youth is a gamble, then they are all women who are willing to gamble to lose, and end up lonely in the bright flowers, regardless of cause and effect. Some people have said that Zhang Ailing is the kind of woman who can be recognized at a glance when walking in the crowd.Tall and thin, with thoughts wrapped tightly in the cheongsam, a little aloof, a little desolate, a little flamboyant, a little cool.Losing Hu Lancheng, I have to endure the changes of the times, the blame of the people, and the vague feelings of missing Sang Hu.Zhang Ailing only felt that her life became more desolate, and the world of mortals didn't have much taste for her. Every night, under the lonely lamp, what accompanied her was words.And what she believes in is only words after all.Only when you are with words can you be at ease.These days, Zhang Ailing is still staying with her aunt. They moved out of Eddington apartment and lived in a two-bedroom house at No. 11 on the second floor of Chonghua New Village.During this period, mother Huang Yifan came back from abroad again.This once flourishing woman has experienced several vicissitudes, but she can't withstand the ravages of time. The life of his father Zhang Tingzhong is not what it used to be.He and Sun Yongfan still couldn't live without Afurong, relying on selling real estate and pawning things to maintain their huge expenses.The house became smaller and smaller, and finally settled in a hut of tens of square meters.The mansion back then was obliterated by the earth-shaking history, leaving only a pile of dust for their nostalgia. The mother came back this time and lived with Zhang Ailing and her aunt. The three desolate women cuddled together to keep warm.It's just that Huang Yifan only stayed in Shanghai for two years and went abroad again.She has long been unaccustomed to the chaotic environment of Shanghai. Her soul found a clean home abroad, and she never came back after leaving this time.Before leaving, Huang Yifan had a long talk with Zhang Ailing, she suggested that Zhang Ailing leave Shanghai and go to Hong Kong.She thinks that Shanghai's prosperity is not suitable for Eileen Chang's writing. Mother is gone, thousands of rivers and mountains, from now on the world is safe.Zhang Zijing wrote in her memoirs: "In 1938, my sister escaped from my father's house. In 1948, my mother left China. They never looked back." It was fate that prevented them from turning back. , It is the times that will not let them look back.They can only start a new life and interpret a new story in a new environment.Like it or not, happy or not. History has turned that heavy page, and everything is new.Shanghai, which is waiting to be rebuilt, is full of enthusiastic people.Xia Yan, one of the pioneers of China's New Culture Movement, is a famous writer of literature, film and drama.At that time, he was very concerned about the status quo of Shanghai's literary and art circles. At this time, Ke Ling recommended Zhang Ailing's novels to him, and Xia Yan appreciated them very much.Later, he recruited Tang Jichang and Gong Zhifang, and asked them to cooperate in launching a healthy tabloid. With Xia Yan's support, Tang Jichang and Gong Zhifang organized a "Yibao".They asked Zhang Ailing for a manuscript and got Zhang Ailing's permission, but Zhang Ailing had one requirement, that is, to publish the article under a pseudonym.Zhang Ailing, who wanted to come here to do her best, didn't want to cause trouble again. Hu Lancheng's incident caused her too much harm, and she needed to live a stable life.The pen name is used to resist the wind and rain of the world of mortals, a kind of self-protection. Zhang Ailing's pen name is Liang Jing.She learned the style of Zhang Hui novelist Zhang Henshui, and published it as she wrote it.And the novel she wrote this time is the most popular among readers after her silence.So far, among Eileen Chang's readers, many people love it alone.It tells a Shanghai story, which is in sync with Eileen Chang's era.Eighteen Springs, that is, the story was written eighteen years back in 1949. The name of this novel alone arouses readers' curiosity.After a few days of serialization, readers have begun to pay attention to it enthusiastically.Gong Zhifang was very optimistic about this film, and published a trailer a few days later, saying that Daoming is a famous work.Perhaps some readers who are familiar with Eileen Chang have guessed that Liang Jing is her.But these seem unimportant, they are only indulging in the storyline of the novel, and reading newspapers has become an indispensable expectation in life. It is about the deep-rooted love between Gu Manzhen, the commoner's daughter, and Shen Shijun, the son of the aristocratic family.But by fate, Shen Shijun rushed to Nanjing because of his father's sudden illness, but Manzhen was persecuted by her sister Manlu who always cared for her, and she fell into a terrible situation set up, and her long and miserable life began.In order to win the heart of her husband Zhu Hongcai, Man Lu did not hesitate to put her beautiful younger sister under house arrest because she did not want him to go out to find flowers and ask Liu.Zhu Hongcai ruined Manzhen's innocence until she gave birth to a child. At this time, things have changed. Facing Manzhen's sudden disappearance, Shen Shijun was extremely anxious.He asked Manlu about Manzhen's whereabouts, but Manlu lied to him that Manzhen was married and would never come back.Shen Shijun was disheartened and married a woman from an aristocratic family, while Manzhen knew that he had lost all hope, so after Manlu's death, he reluctantly married Zhu Hongcai.Such a story with many twists and turns, and a tragedy filled with righteous indignation, make readers follow the newspaper every day, wishing to share their sorrows and joys with them. Eighteen years later, Gu Manzhen and Shen Shijun met by chance, and the two cried together.Shen Shijun hopes to start again, but fate has already divided them into two worlds.Eighteen years, the vicissitudes of life several times.Manzhen said with tears: "Shijun, we can never go back, we can't go back." Just this sentence made many readers cry and sigh.Looking back on the past, Shen Shijun was deeply moved by that kind of regret that cannot be added. This one was later renamed by Eileen Chang.Missed once, missed half a lifetime of love.If it wasn't for the unexpected encounter eighteen years later, Shen Shijun probably wouldn't be able to let go of it for the rest of his life.And Gu Manzhen was able to see her former lover, so she could tell the cause of the past and tell her from the bottom of her heart. For her, it was also a relief.Although this ending made many readers sad.It's just that the past is like a dream, and who can turn back the years that have passed.Zhang Ailing didn't let them live to old age like enigmas, it is already merciful. Once published, it caused a sensation in Shanghai again.The description of the novel is too real to let the public get involved.They even had a lot of unusual reactions, moody.At that time, many cultural celebrities also sought after this novel.Sang Hu wrote a commendation speech and recommended it to readers, saying: "Liang Jing not only has outstanding writing talent, but also his meticulous writing attitude, which is also rare. In terms of style, his novels and prose have his own uniqueness. The face of Liang Jing... I read Liang Jing's new works, and it seems that he is changing. I think he still maintains the original bright and bright colors. At the same time, in terms of thoughts and feelings, he is also calmer and more stable than before. It's a welcome development for him." At that time, "Yi Bao" could receive a large number of letters from readers every day, and the grand occasion even surpassed Eileen Chang's achievements a few years ago.Tang Ji often saw such a fruitful result, so he wanted to take advantage of the victory and pursue it, and hurriedly asked Zhang Ailing for the next serialization.But Zhang Ailing didn't agree, she knew in her heart that if she is strong, she will be humiliated.It is impossible to write another transcendent novel in a short period of time. Half a year later, Zhang Ailing wrote another novella, which was serialized in "Yi Bao".However, as the times changed, Eileen Chang's theme and style had to change accordingly, which was a bit embarrassing for her, so she ended her writing in a hurry.Looking back on her vicissitudes and vicissitudes in the past few years, she also felt sad.Hu Lancheng has been gouged out of her heart, and the shame and sorrow he brought has also become a thing of the past.After so many years of depression, he was finally released.But why, she couldn't make herself really quiet and happy. She needs to turn around again, gorgeously and lonelyly, this time, it has nothing to do with others.She doesn't want to wither for anyone anymore, and she doesn't want to bloom for no reason anymore.In other words, Zhang Ailing never lowered her eyebrows for others.She was willing to humble Hu Lancheng at the beginning because she wanted to have a real love, burn herself with love, and fulfill her golden age.Therefore, from beginning to end, Zhang Ailing has no regrets.Even though she endured great grievances for this man, she admitted it. In the eyes of readers, Zhang Ailing's writing is like a pot of strong wine, and everyone who has tasted it is willing to drink it, and will not stop until drunk; it is a gorgeous and enchanting cheongsam, and everyone who has seen it is willing to drink. Be the vegetation under her skirt.Therefore, Zhang Ailing's works in each period will reach an extreme, and will be popular in Shanghai.She can't be silent, because what readers like is the magnificent Eileen Chang, and like her incomparable arrogance and colorful expression.If Eileen Chang took off her cheongsam and replaced it with a pot of tea, she would no longer be the Eileen Chang that readers love. She was confused and tired.She feels that she is no longer suitable for the current stage. Although she has successfully opened the curtain, she can't continue to perform, and she needs to leave early.She just took off the cheongsam that covered her body and left this familiar stage. Where should she go after all her charms have been washed away?