Chapter 26 hold your hand
They see each other transparently, only a moment of complete understanding, but this moment is enough for them to live together harmoniously for ten or eight years.
A thought blooms and a thought fades.In this world of long mountains and rivers, you still have to go on by yourself after all.When people are on the journey, they must constantly redeem themselves.If you are not tired, there will be a warm nest; if you are not thirsty, there will be a gurgling mountain spring; if you are not cold, there will be a small red clay stove.In everyone's heart, there are several unknown dark wounds, waiting for time to restore them. When Zhang Ailing was in despair, she sought help. This seemingly humble choice did not affect her nobility in the slightest.The application she sent out was quickly replied by the art camp—willing to accept her.At this time, Zhang Ailing was like a lonely boat, and found a ferry where she could temporarily moor on the bank of the vast river.In mid-March 1956, Eileen Chang took the train from New York to Boston, then transferred to a bus to arrive at the beautiful New Hampshire, and entered the town of Petersburg.For Eileen Chang, despite the torment of this long migration, she finally had a place in her heart. Recalling the TV series "Once Upon a Time in Shanghai", Zhang Ailing, played by Liu Ruoying, walked alone in the snow with a simple suitcase.Wearing a windbreaker, with a cold expression, her world has been silent, but we are born to cry for her.She still wears a cheongsam, but there is no more gorgeous decoration, and the complicated peonies are replaced by simple plain flowers.What we saw was Eileen Chang who turned around. Yesterday was like snow and flowers, and she had been separated for thousands of years.All that was left of her was this dullness and coolness. When we arrived at the McDowell Literary and Art Camp, it was already late, and soft lights streamed from the windows of the house.Zhang Ailing felt a long-lost warmth, a quiet and soft warmth.This beautiful European estate has dozens of independent artist studios, libraries, dormitories, and halls for social use.These houses are either built on lawns or in forests, with an elegant, quiet and comfortable environment. It is said that the founder is the widow of a composer. Her charitable deeds have given many wandering artists in the world a place to settle down.It was here that Zhang Ailing was taken in, and her wandering soul had a refuge.A wooden house, a studio, simple but warm.The climate in the mountains is very cold and there is constant snow, but it is far away from the hustle and bustle and suitable for creation. A fire, a cup of coffee, a languid soul.Zhang Ailing tidied up her scattered mood and planned to find herself again in words.Her creative plan was to write a novel in English, titled "Pink Tears" ("Pink Tears"), which was published later.This work is an expanded version of the novel, which was popular in Shanghai back then and pushed her to a new extreme.Eileen Chang is confident in re-adapting this story, so that the gorgeous past that has been lost in time can be reappeared in the world. This is a quiet manor, with fixed meal times and free communication with friends.At that time, Zhang Ailing was very silent. She used to write quietly under the window of the wooden house alone.When she was tired, looking out the window at the quiet and clear mountains and forests, watching the animals roaming happily, Eileen Chang found a kind of peace back to nature.The night is as cool as water, and a bright moon hangs on the treetops. The faint light reminds her of the old house in Tianjin when she was a child.I don't know if the moon in Shanghai is still immersed in the evil sea and the world of mortals, enjoying itself.It's just that the people who used to be with each other are already in the middle of life and death, and there is no way to find them. The emotional world of Zhang Ailing, a talented woman in the Republic of China, is not destined to be so simple.Even if she is avoiding the troubles at this time, fate can also give her an unusual arrangement.It's not that she's sensationalizing, it's not that she shocks the world, it's not that she's lonely, it's that Yuelao has pulled the wrong red line, it's because fate is too incomprehensible.Zhang Ailing actually met the third man in her life here, an old American Lai Ya who was over sixty years old.If Hu Lancheng is Zhang Ailing's unforgettable memory, and Sang Hu is Zhang Ailing's fleeting cloud, then Lai Ya should be her vicissitudes. Laiya, a descendant of German immigrants, was regarded as a literary genius at a young age.His personality is free and easy, knowledgeable, and bold and unconstrained.Married once, has a daughter.But he, who is unrestrained and free by nature, could not adapt to the shackles of marriage, and later divorced.From then on, his life became more loose and casual, traveling around the world, selling calligraphy for a living. Lai Ya is very talented in literature, but she can't interpret the words to the peak.Especially when he was over sixty years old, his body and talent, as well as economics, luck and other aspects have all declined, and he even broke his leg and suffered several strokes.He came to the McDowell Literary and Art Camp, hoping to revive the literary glory when he was old, but unexpectedly, fate gave him an unexpected gift.In his later years, he was fortunate enough to meet Zhang Ailing, a Chinese prodigy woman, and she has been with him for the rest of his life. At the time of meeting, Zhang Ailing was thirty-six years old, and she was in the prime of her life.Lai Ya is sixty-five years old, and she should be in her dying years.Maybe many people don't understand why the noble and beautiful Zhang Ailing wants such a poor and sick foreign old man, and what is there about him that deserves her appreciation and dedication.The lonely Zhang Ailing would never give herself to a man easily because of loneliness.What's more, she has been deeply hurt emotionally, what's more, she once said that she can no longer love others in this life.She refused to take the young and talented director Sang Hu, so why did she choose Laiya who has nothing? But they warmed each other up in those snowstorm days, in the snow-covered mountains and forests.This white-haired old man always wears white clothes and white trousers, and looks quite gentlemanly.His eloquence and humor infected this taciturn Chinese woman.As a result, they began to have contacts, gathered together to talk about culture, life, and experience, and the more they talked, the more they hit it off.Lai Ya is a person with a childlike innocence. He told Zhang Ailing the anecdotes he experienced in these years, which always made her extremely intoxicated and joyful. How long has it been since she smiled like this, and she doesn't know.Since leaving Shanghai, she has been rootless and living a life of no fixed place.She is really lonely, but she is not a woman who can find someone to talk to and snuggle at will to keep warm.She needs the blending of souls, and she needs to hold hands sincerely. Lai Ya is a wise and self-cultivated person, and a kind-hearted elder with a childlike innocence.His abundant thoughts are the greatest wealth.And these became the advantages to impress Eileen Chang.This woman who is about to wither is willing to bloom again for him.Maybe she will no longer be alluring, no longer peerless, but she has no regrets. They are together, in that warm cabin, snuggling up to each other for warmth.No one wants to guess whether there is really love between them.Zhang Ailing once said: "Love makes people forget time, and time makes people forget love." Perhaps at this time, Zhang Ailing has already forgotten everything in the world. She is just a lonely woman who needs a man who understands.She doesn't need to explain to anyone, she just is herself.She is also willing to bravely bear everything she has done. Some people say that Eileen Chang felt anxious about her uncertain future.Faced with various difficulties, she chose Laiya as her reliance.Is it really?How could an arrogant woman like her let herself fall into such a situation.Even if she wants to find a solid support, there is no need to choose Laiya. With Lai Ya's current age and all aspects of her situation, she couldn't give Eileen Chang real stability.Afterwards, Eileen Chang and Lai Ya lived together for eleven years, all thanks to her running around for a living and taking good care of him.It can be said that Lai Ya is so lucky to have Zhang Ailing by her side for the rest of her dismal life.Although Zhang Ailing has put in countless hardships for this relationship, her heart is not empty.This kind of austere happiness is much gentler than Hu Lancheng's gorgeous injury. "We are very close. I haven't finished a sentence yet, and I feel redundant." These are Zhang Ailing's words. She and Lai Ya have a tacit understanding, and it is because of this tacit understanding that they come together.A person who used to be complicated, in the end, only wants to live a simple and quiet life.She can no longer afford a love full of flowers and branches, the man who once promised her a safe life has already gone away.Now this old man can afford to give him plain truth. In fact, Zhang Ailing only thought about simple snuggling before, and did not intend to marry Lai Ya.And Lai Ya, who has always been at home all over the world and is used to a single life, never thought of staying for a certain woman.So when Lai Ya's time at the art camp came to an end, she had no choice but to leave.When he left, he couldn't make any promises, but Zhang Ailing gave him the little money he had when sending him off.Laiya went to another literary camp in upstate New York to stay, and she still lived the life of a prodigal son. When they parted, they never expected to see each other again.Because of the two duckweeds, in the time of flowing water, who knows when they will meet again.But they were destined to be together, and Zhang Ailing was surprised to find that she was pregnant.She wrote a letter to Laiya about the news, and Laiya was very excited and hesitated.Given his current situation, he was really unable to bear the disaster he caused, but he felt that he had to take responsibility.And Zhang Ailing is a beautiful and lovely woman, so he wrote to propose to her. Zhang Ailing once again packed her bags and embarked on the journey. This time, she was accompanied by the fetus in her womb.They went to a man who couldn't protect themselves. Although Laiya was willing to take responsibility, could he bear this responsibility?In the hot and cold world, even the days of fishing, woodcutters, farming and studying, and sitting and watching the clouds rise cannot be enjoyed peacefully.No matter how much confusion lies ahead, Zhang Ailing can only walk along this long and narrow time.Go to a place with him, and share the warmth and comfort with him.
A thought blooms and a thought fades.In this world of long mountains and rivers, you still have to go on by yourself after all.When people are on the journey, they must constantly redeem themselves.If you are not tired, there will be a warm nest; if you are not thirsty, there will be a gurgling mountain spring; if you are not cold, there will be a small red clay stove.In everyone's heart, there are several unknown dark wounds, waiting for time to restore them. When Zhang Ailing was in despair, she sought help. This seemingly humble choice did not affect her nobility in the slightest.The application she sent out was quickly replied by the art camp—willing to accept her.At this time, Zhang Ailing was like a lonely boat, and found a ferry where she could temporarily moor on the bank of the vast river.In mid-March 1956, Eileen Chang took the train from New York to Boston, then transferred to a bus to arrive at the beautiful New Hampshire, and entered the town of Petersburg.For Eileen Chang, despite the torment of this long migration, she finally had a place in her heart. Recalling the TV series "Once Upon a Time in Shanghai", Zhang Ailing, played by Liu Ruoying, walked alone in the snow with a simple suitcase.Wearing a windbreaker, with a cold expression, her world has been silent, but we are born to cry for her.She still wears a cheongsam, but there is no more gorgeous decoration, and the complicated peonies are replaced by simple plain flowers.What we saw was Eileen Chang who turned around. Yesterday was like snow and flowers, and she had been separated for thousands of years.All that was left of her was this dullness and coolness. When we arrived at the McDowell Literary and Art Camp, it was already late, and soft lights streamed from the windows of the house.Zhang Ailing felt a long-lost warmth, a quiet and soft warmth.This beautiful European estate has dozens of independent artist studios, libraries, dormitories, and halls for social use.These houses are either built on lawns or in forests, with an elegant, quiet and comfortable environment. It is said that the founder is the widow of a composer. Her charitable deeds have given many wandering artists in the world a place to settle down.It was here that Zhang Ailing was taken in, and her wandering soul had a refuge.A wooden house, a studio, simple but warm.The climate in the mountains is very cold and there is constant snow, but it is far away from the hustle and bustle and suitable for creation. A fire, a cup of coffee, a languid soul.Zhang Ailing tidied up her scattered mood and planned to find herself again in words.Her creative plan was to write a novel in English, titled "Pink Tears" ("Pink Tears"), which was published later.This work is an expanded version of the novel, which was popular in Shanghai back then and pushed her to a new extreme.Eileen Chang is confident in re-adapting this story, so that the gorgeous past that has been lost in time can be reappeared in the world. This is a quiet manor, with fixed meal times and free communication with friends.At that time, Zhang Ailing was very silent. She used to write quietly under the window of the wooden house alone.When she was tired, looking out the window at the quiet and clear mountains and forests, watching the animals roaming happily, Eileen Chang found a kind of peace back to nature.The night is as cool as water, and a bright moon hangs on the treetops. The faint light reminds her of the old house in Tianjin when she was a child.I don't know if the moon in Shanghai is still immersed in the evil sea and the world of mortals, enjoying itself.It's just that the people who used to be with each other are already in the middle of life and death, and there is no way to find them. The emotional world of Zhang Ailing, a talented woman in the Republic of China, is not destined to be so simple.Even if she is avoiding the troubles at this time, fate can also give her an unusual arrangement.It's not that she's sensationalizing, it's not that she shocks the world, it's not that she's lonely, it's that Yuelao has pulled the wrong red line, it's because fate is too incomprehensible.Zhang Ailing actually met the third man in her life here, an old American Lai Ya who was over sixty years old.If Hu Lancheng is Zhang Ailing's unforgettable memory, and Sang Hu is Zhang Ailing's fleeting cloud, then Lai Ya should be her vicissitudes. Laiya, a descendant of German immigrants, was regarded as a literary genius at a young age.His personality is free and easy, knowledgeable, and bold and unconstrained.Married once, has a daughter.But he, who is unrestrained and free by nature, could not adapt to the shackles of marriage, and later divorced.From then on, his life became more loose and casual, traveling around the world, selling calligraphy for a living. Lai Ya is very talented in literature, but she can't interpret the words to the peak.Especially when he was over sixty years old, his body and talent, as well as economics, luck and other aspects have all declined, and he even broke his leg and suffered several strokes.He came to the McDowell Literary and Art Camp, hoping to revive the literary glory when he was old, but unexpectedly, fate gave him an unexpected gift.In his later years, he was fortunate enough to meet Zhang Ailing, a Chinese prodigy woman, and she has been with him for the rest of his life. At the time of meeting, Zhang Ailing was thirty-six years old, and she was in the prime of her life.Lai Ya is sixty-five years old, and she should be in her dying years.Maybe many people don't understand why the noble and beautiful Zhang Ailing wants such a poor and sick foreign old man, and what is there about him that deserves her appreciation and dedication.The lonely Zhang Ailing would never give herself to a man easily because of loneliness.What's more, she has been deeply hurt emotionally, what's more, she once said that she can no longer love others in this life.She refused to take the young and talented director Sang Hu, so why did she choose Laiya who has nothing? But they warmed each other up in those snowstorm days, in the snow-covered mountains and forests.This white-haired old man always wears white clothes and white trousers, and looks quite gentlemanly.His eloquence and humor infected this taciturn Chinese woman.As a result, they began to have contacts, gathered together to talk about culture, life, and experience, and the more they talked, the more they hit it off.Lai Ya is a person with a childlike innocence. He told Zhang Ailing the anecdotes he experienced in these years, which always made her extremely intoxicated and joyful. How long has it been since she smiled like this, and she doesn't know.Since leaving Shanghai, she has been rootless and living a life of no fixed place.She is really lonely, but she is not a woman who can find someone to talk to and snuggle at will to keep warm.She needs the blending of souls, and she needs to hold hands sincerely. Lai Ya is a wise and self-cultivated person, and a kind-hearted elder with a childlike innocence.His abundant thoughts are the greatest wealth.And these became the advantages to impress Eileen Chang.This woman who is about to wither is willing to bloom again for him.Maybe she will no longer be alluring, no longer peerless, but she has no regrets. They are together, in that warm cabin, snuggling up to each other for warmth.No one wants to guess whether there is really love between them.Zhang Ailing once said: "Love makes people forget time, and time makes people forget love." Perhaps at this time, Zhang Ailing has already forgotten everything in the world. She is just a lonely woman who needs a man who understands.She doesn't need to explain to anyone, she just is herself.She is also willing to bravely bear everything she has done. Some people say that Eileen Chang felt anxious about her uncertain future.Faced with various difficulties, she chose Laiya as her reliance.Is it really?How could an arrogant woman like her let herself fall into such a situation.Even if she wants to find a solid support, there is no need to choose Laiya. With Lai Ya's current age and all aspects of her situation, she couldn't give Eileen Chang real stability.Afterwards, Eileen Chang and Lai Ya lived together for eleven years, all thanks to her running around for a living and taking good care of him.It can be said that Lai Ya is so lucky to have Zhang Ailing by her side for the rest of her dismal life.Although Zhang Ailing has put in countless hardships for this relationship, her heart is not empty.This kind of austere happiness is much gentler than Hu Lancheng's gorgeous injury. "We are very close. I haven't finished a sentence yet, and I feel redundant." These are Zhang Ailing's words. She and Lai Ya have a tacit understanding, and it is because of this tacit understanding that they come together.A person who used to be complicated, in the end, only wants to live a simple and quiet life.She can no longer afford a love full of flowers and branches, the man who once promised her a safe life has already gone away.Now this old man can afford to give him plain truth. In fact, Zhang Ailing only thought about simple snuggling before, and did not intend to marry Lai Ya.And Lai Ya, who has always been at home all over the world and is used to a single life, never thought of staying for a certain woman.So when Lai Ya's time at the art camp came to an end, she had no choice but to leave.When he left, he couldn't make any promises, but Zhang Ailing gave him the little money he had when sending him off.Laiya went to another literary camp in upstate New York to stay, and she still lived the life of a prodigal son. When they parted, they never expected to see each other again.Because of the two duckweeds, in the time of flowing water, who knows when they will meet again.But they were destined to be together, and Zhang Ailing was surprised to find that she was pregnant.She wrote a letter to Laiya about the news, and Laiya was very excited and hesitated.Given his current situation, he was really unable to bear the disaster he caused, but he felt that he had to take responsibility.And Zhang Ailing is a beautiful and lovely woman, so he wrote to propose to her. Zhang Ailing once again packed her bags and embarked on the journey. This time, she was accompanied by the fetus in her womb.They went to a man who couldn't protect themselves. Although Laiya was willing to take responsibility, could he bear this responsibility?In the hot and cold world, even the days of fishing, woodcutters, farming and studying, and sitting and watching the clouds rise cannot be enjoyed peacefully.No matter how much confusion lies ahead, Zhang Ailing can only walk along this long and narrow time.Go to a place with him, and share the warmth and comfort with him.