Chapter 6 Time is like a song
Photos are nothing but broken shells of life; the years have passed, and the melon seeds are swallowed one by one, and everyone knows the taste, and the only thing left for everyone to see is the messy black and white melon seed shells.
The Bund this morning has just woken up.The high-rise buildings in the fog have faded away from the splendor and prosperity of the night, and are covered with hazy colors.On the banks of the Huangpu River, the sound of the siren breaks through the calm water surface, and the sunrise and flowers on the river are written into a sultry scene.All the memories of this city were opened in an instant.Those black and white images, as well as the past time, have never been forgotten. On both sides of the Huangpu River, countless ships sailed on the river, welcoming people back and seeing them off.Zhang Ailing's mother Huang Yifan and aunt Zhang Maoyuan returned to China on one of the ships.After rushing all the way, after a few years, I didn't know that the city had already elegantly put on a new costume. Xiao Zhangyong clearly remembered that on the day her mother came back, she clamored to put on the little red jacket she thought was the prettiest, but the first thing her mother said when she saw her was: "Why do you wear such a small dress for her? "Perhaps Huang Yifan, who has been influenced by European style for four years, has a very different taste from before.Furthermore, suddenly seeing that the daughter he had been parting from for a few years had grown up, he felt a kind of strange pity in his heart.Soon after, she made new clothes, and because of her mother's return, she bid farewell to her past life and started her life again in Shanghai. Zhang Tingzhong was very excited when he saw his wife came back, and vowed to change his past, and let everything in the past be dust.He was sent to the hospital for treatment, and the family seemed to have returned to the past, with no chaos and more peace.The whole family lived in a European-style house in Baolong Garden. Zhang Ailing described in "Whispers": "We moved to a garden house with dogs, flowers, and fairy tale books. The house suddenly added a lot of richness and beauty. My relatives and friends. My mother and a fat aunt sat on the piano bench together to imitate a love performance in a movie. I sat on the ground watching, laughed, and rolled around on the wolf fur mattress.” The color of the walls of the room can be adjusted and modified at will according to your own ideas.It is the first time to live in a self-made world, warm and close, Xiao Zhangying's inner joy is beyond words.She even wrote a letter to a little playmate in Tianjin, describing her new house and drawing a few pictures.At that time, she was full of creativity and longed for spiritual freedom.She understands that even a plant or a rock needs to grow in her own way in order to live out her pride and dignity. The mother began to care about Xiao Zhangying's growth, and let her learn painting, playing the piano, and learning English.She brought the romantic atmosphere of the West to this family.Xiao Zhangying seemed to live in a fairy-tale castle. She was infected by her mother's elegant and gorgeous temperament, and fell in love with such a warm and happy time.Childhood in Tianjin seems to have become a long time ago, locked into the photos of memories by fleeting years.Zhang Ailing later felt emotional about this period of life: "Probably the only period in my life where I have a western-style ladylike demeanor." My mother wore fashionable and beautiful dresses, played beautiful piano music, and told her that Britain is a beautiful city of fog, where romantic misty rain often falls.At that time, Xiao Zhangying's heart was filled with a kind of sentimentality.When she saw a flower in the book, she shed tears when she heard her mother talk about her unusual history and those flashy and cool past events.Deep down in Xiao Zhangying's heart, she already knows how the world is going, but she still can't express that feeling with proper language. At the age of eight, she read and.The fine lines of brocade words in it aroused her innate literary complex.This literary masterpiece called "The Great Master" has been with her writing career since then, and she will never leave it.I always feel that Zhang Ailing's astonishing talent has a great relationship with her reading since she was a child.A book called Red Mansions has made many lost and lost literati find their support, even if it is the remnant lotus and cold moon, it has artistic conception and elegance. Later Zhang Ailing said: "The things I hate in life: (1) the begonia has no fragrance; For her own opinion, she described the textual research as a crazy situation.Hence the saying: "Ten years of sleep obsession with textual research, won the name of Nightmare in the Red Chamber." Zhang Ailing read it before she was eight years old, and she was influenced by her father at that time.Every time she sees the bright moon hanging outside the window, shining thousands of miles away, she always thinks of many appearances in the past.Seeing the spring breeze blowing the willows, when the swallows came, they couldn't say a word.She didn't know that the classical complex was planted in her heart and had already taken root.However, the Western culture brought by her mother did not resist it. On the contrary, Eileen Chang skillfully blended them together and brought them into full play in the years to come. Because Huang Yifan had stayed abroad and was a new woman in the early Republic of China, she had no formal education and experienced the pain of inequality between men and women. She did not want her daughter to repeat the same mistakes.In addition, she discovered very early on that her daughter has better talent and understanding than ordinary children. She hopes that her daughter can enter the school and receive a new type of education, so that this wonderful flower in the world can bloom quietly under the rain, dew and sunshine, and live up to its splendor. year. For the matter of going to school, Huang Yifan mentioned it to Zhang Tingzhong several times, but he couldn't get his approval.Zhang Tingzhong didn't agree, he didn't want to spend money on it, and maybe he still insisted on traditional thinking.The two quarreled over this, but Zhang Tingzhong was still stubborn and made a big fuss.Huang Yifan simply refused to communicate with him, and took his daughter to the Huang's Primary School run by the church while he was resting.Because Xiao Zhangying already had a solid foundation in Chinese studies, as soon as he entered, he was directly transferred to the sixth grade. This year, Xiao Zhang was ten years old.When filling out the enrollment certificate at the registration office, Huang Yifan hesitated for a while, always feeling that the word "Zhang Ying" sounded a little loud and not vivid.But I couldn't think of a better name in a short time, so I temporarily used the English name Eileen to "randomly" translate it into Chinese and write it as "Ai Ling".Huang Yifan thought at that time that it would not be too late to change it in the future.But she never expected that the name Zhang Ailing would become popular throughout Shanghai, and even write a deep and magnificent stroke in the history of Chinese literature. Perhaps it has been a long time, and the name Zhang Ailing has become a habit.Although she was always dissatisfied and even felt that her name was vulgar, she finally accepted it calmly.She once said such a sentence: "I would like to keep my vulgar name, as a warning to myself, try to get rid of the habit of literate people who chew on words, from rice, oil, salt, soap, water and the sun Go find the real life." After all, it is Zhang Ailing, even if she sinks into the world of mortals, she must be thorough. In the autumn of 1931, Eileen Chang attended Shanghai St. Mary's Girls' School.She has a very good literary talent, and her grades in other subjects are also very good.After going to school, she has been insisting on learning the piano.Life is like a song, and it always gives elegance and nobility to those who understand life and respect emotions.Years can't help but leave a moment of youth and spring for them. When Zhang Ailing began to learn to use words to express her thoughts, to adjust a cup of emotions, and to drink by herself, fate made another turn on its own initiative.Later, she realized that the joy and happiness of the family in the past few years have always been appearances.The mother before studying abroad could not accept his father's downfall, and the mother who returned from studying abroad despised his father's downfall even more. Zhang Tingzhong was too disappointing. After he was seriously ill and discharged from the hospital, he did not keep his promise and changed his mind to be a new man. Instead, he took up the bong with confidence and returned to his original self.He was also afraid that Huang Yifan would leave home again, so he resorted to tricks, refusing to pay for living expenses, and asked his wife to contribute money.His plan was that when Huang Yifan ran out of money and wanted to fly away, he would not have the wings to escort him. It is despicable to do so.Zhang Ailing was also deeply impressed by her parents' behavior. In many of her later novels, there were plots in which men tried to cheat women out of their money, such as,,,, and so on.It can be seen that the material of the novel comes from life. Although Eileen Chang is a genius, stories are needed to fill the genius behind it.Zhang Ailing's family background has undoubtedly become the source of creation, making her future writing more flesh and blood and touching. Parents finally divorced.After a long quarrel, Zhang Ailing even longed for her parents to end their tragic marriage as soon as possible.Her parents' divorce was not consulted, but she agreed in her heart.Because she understands that this family can no longer be maintained, and the more time passes, the more broken it will be. Zhang Tingzhong disagreed at first, but he was wrong first and regarded the promise as dust.When he wanted to save it again, Huang Yifan only said one sentence: "My heart is like a piece of wood!"Zhang Tingzhong signed the divorce agreement.This eye-catching stroke ended the Chinese-style sad marriage, completely dissolved a family, and let the freedom of two souls go.Zhang Ailing seems to have always been calm about her parents' divorce.But we all understand that her inner melancholy and hurt are unavoidable. Life is like a novel with ups and downs, with interlocking plots.If any step is missing, or if any place is deleted or modified, it will not be possible to reach the end according to the previous arrangement.Since it is doomed, there is no need to worry about gains and losses, just go with nature.No matter how many gullies there are in the road, they need to be filled by themselves.It is useless to escape, in this world, no one else can mature for you.
The Bund this morning has just woken up.The high-rise buildings in the fog have faded away from the splendor and prosperity of the night, and are covered with hazy colors.On the banks of the Huangpu River, the sound of the siren breaks through the calm water surface, and the sunrise and flowers on the river are written into a sultry scene.All the memories of this city were opened in an instant.Those black and white images, as well as the past time, have never been forgotten. On both sides of the Huangpu River, countless ships sailed on the river, welcoming people back and seeing them off.Zhang Ailing's mother Huang Yifan and aunt Zhang Maoyuan returned to China on one of the ships.After rushing all the way, after a few years, I didn't know that the city had already elegantly put on a new costume. Xiao Zhangyong clearly remembered that on the day her mother came back, she clamored to put on the little red jacket she thought was the prettiest, but the first thing her mother said when she saw her was: "Why do you wear such a small dress for her? "Perhaps Huang Yifan, who has been influenced by European style for four years, has a very different taste from before.Furthermore, suddenly seeing that the daughter he had been parting from for a few years had grown up, he felt a kind of strange pity in his heart.Soon after, she made new clothes, and because of her mother's return, she bid farewell to her past life and started her life again in Shanghai. Zhang Tingzhong was very excited when he saw his wife came back, and vowed to change his past, and let everything in the past be dust.He was sent to the hospital for treatment, and the family seemed to have returned to the past, with no chaos and more peace.The whole family lived in a European-style house in Baolong Garden. Zhang Ailing described in "Whispers": "We moved to a garden house with dogs, flowers, and fairy tale books. The house suddenly added a lot of richness and beauty. My relatives and friends. My mother and a fat aunt sat on the piano bench together to imitate a love performance in a movie. I sat on the ground watching, laughed, and rolled around on the wolf fur mattress.” The color of the walls of the room can be adjusted and modified at will according to your own ideas.It is the first time to live in a self-made world, warm and close, Xiao Zhangying's inner joy is beyond words.She even wrote a letter to a little playmate in Tianjin, describing her new house and drawing a few pictures.At that time, she was full of creativity and longed for spiritual freedom.She understands that even a plant or a rock needs to grow in her own way in order to live out her pride and dignity. The mother began to care about Xiao Zhangying's growth, and let her learn painting, playing the piano, and learning English.She brought the romantic atmosphere of the West to this family.Xiao Zhangying seemed to live in a fairy-tale castle. She was infected by her mother's elegant and gorgeous temperament, and fell in love with such a warm and happy time.Childhood in Tianjin seems to have become a long time ago, locked into the photos of memories by fleeting years.Zhang Ailing later felt emotional about this period of life: "Probably the only period in my life where I have a western-style ladylike demeanor." My mother wore fashionable and beautiful dresses, played beautiful piano music, and told her that Britain is a beautiful city of fog, where romantic misty rain often falls.At that time, Xiao Zhangying's heart was filled with a kind of sentimentality.When she saw a flower in the book, she shed tears when she heard her mother talk about her unusual history and those flashy and cool past events.Deep down in Xiao Zhangying's heart, she already knows how the world is going, but she still can't express that feeling with proper language. At the age of eight, she read and.The fine lines of brocade words in it aroused her innate literary complex.This literary masterpiece called "The Great Master" has been with her writing career since then, and she will never leave it.I always feel that Zhang Ailing's astonishing talent has a great relationship with her reading since she was a child.A book called Red Mansions has made many lost and lost literati find their support, even if it is the remnant lotus and cold moon, it has artistic conception and elegance. Later Zhang Ailing said: "The things I hate in life: (1) the begonia has no fragrance; For her own opinion, she described the textual research as a crazy situation.Hence the saying: "Ten years of sleep obsession with textual research, won the name of Nightmare in the Red Chamber." Zhang Ailing read it before she was eight years old, and she was influenced by her father at that time.Every time she sees the bright moon hanging outside the window, shining thousands of miles away, she always thinks of many appearances in the past.Seeing the spring breeze blowing the willows, when the swallows came, they couldn't say a word.She didn't know that the classical complex was planted in her heart and had already taken root.However, the Western culture brought by her mother did not resist it. On the contrary, Eileen Chang skillfully blended them together and brought them into full play in the years to come. Because Huang Yifan had stayed abroad and was a new woman in the early Republic of China, she had no formal education and experienced the pain of inequality between men and women. She did not want her daughter to repeat the same mistakes.In addition, she discovered very early on that her daughter has better talent and understanding than ordinary children. She hopes that her daughter can enter the school and receive a new type of education, so that this wonderful flower in the world can bloom quietly under the rain, dew and sunshine, and live up to its splendor. year. For the matter of going to school, Huang Yifan mentioned it to Zhang Tingzhong several times, but he couldn't get his approval.Zhang Tingzhong didn't agree, he didn't want to spend money on it, and maybe he still insisted on traditional thinking.The two quarreled over this, but Zhang Tingzhong was still stubborn and made a big fuss.Huang Yifan simply refused to communicate with him, and took his daughter to the Huang's Primary School run by the church while he was resting.Because Xiao Zhangying already had a solid foundation in Chinese studies, as soon as he entered, he was directly transferred to the sixth grade. This year, Xiao Zhang was ten years old.When filling out the enrollment certificate at the registration office, Huang Yifan hesitated for a while, always feeling that the word "Zhang Ying" sounded a little loud and not vivid.But I couldn't think of a better name in a short time, so I temporarily used the English name Eileen to "randomly" translate it into Chinese and write it as "Ai Ling".Huang Yifan thought at that time that it would not be too late to change it in the future.But she never expected that the name Zhang Ailing would become popular throughout Shanghai, and even write a deep and magnificent stroke in the history of Chinese literature. Perhaps it has been a long time, and the name Zhang Ailing has become a habit.Although she was always dissatisfied and even felt that her name was vulgar, she finally accepted it calmly.She once said such a sentence: "I would like to keep my vulgar name, as a warning to myself, try to get rid of the habit of literate people who chew on words, from rice, oil, salt, soap, water and the sun Go find the real life." After all, it is Zhang Ailing, even if she sinks into the world of mortals, she must be thorough. In the autumn of 1931, Eileen Chang attended Shanghai St. Mary's Girls' School.She has a very good literary talent, and her grades in other subjects are also very good.After going to school, she has been insisting on learning the piano.Life is like a song, and it always gives elegance and nobility to those who understand life and respect emotions.Years can't help but leave a moment of youth and spring for them. When Zhang Ailing began to learn to use words to express her thoughts, to adjust a cup of emotions, and to drink by herself, fate made another turn on its own initiative.Later, she realized that the joy and happiness of the family in the past few years have always been appearances.The mother before studying abroad could not accept his father's downfall, and the mother who returned from studying abroad despised his father's downfall even more. Zhang Tingzhong was too disappointing. After he was seriously ill and discharged from the hospital, he did not keep his promise and changed his mind to be a new man. Instead, he took up the bong with confidence and returned to his original self.He was also afraid that Huang Yifan would leave home again, so he resorted to tricks, refusing to pay for living expenses, and asked his wife to contribute money.His plan was that when Huang Yifan ran out of money and wanted to fly away, he would not have the wings to escort him. It is despicable to do so.Zhang Ailing was also deeply impressed by her parents' behavior. In many of her later novels, there were plots in which men tried to cheat women out of their money, such as,,,, and so on.It can be seen that the material of the novel comes from life. Although Eileen Chang is a genius, stories are needed to fill the genius behind it.Zhang Ailing's family background has undoubtedly become the source of creation, making her future writing more flesh and blood and touching. Parents finally divorced.After a long quarrel, Zhang Ailing even longed for her parents to end their tragic marriage as soon as possible.Her parents' divorce was not consulted, but she agreed in her heart.Because she understands that this family can no longer be maintained, and the more time passes, the more broken it will be. Zhang Tingzhong disagreed at first, but he was wrong first and regarded the promise as dust.When he wanted to save it again, Huang Yifan only said one sentence: "My heart is like a piece of wood!"Zhang Tingzhong signed the divorce agreement.This eye-catching stroke ended the Chinese-style sad marriage, completely dissolved a family, and let the freedom of two souls go.Zhang Ailing seems to have always been calm about her parents' divorce.But we all understand that her inner melancholy and hurt are unavoidable. Life is like a novel with ups and downs, with interlocking plots.If any step is missing, or if any place is deleted or modified, it will not be possible to reach the end according to the previous arrangement.Since it is doomed, there is no need to worry about gains and losses, just go with nature.No matter how many gullies there are in the road, they need to be filled by themselves.It is useless to escape, in this world, no one else can mature for you.