Chapter 5 return to sea
If memory has a scent, it is the scent of camphor, sweet and safe, like the well-remembered happiness, sweet and melancholy, like the forgotten sorrow.
The spring was late, and the time passed slowly.Many fragments worthy of aftertaste are blurred like fresh water and clear smoke in the end.What can be remembered is only the scenes that must not be forgotten in the years of life.In fact, the most beautiful thing in the world is the circulation of the four seasons. Let us enjoy the gorgeous spring flowers and the hazy autumn moon. Thinking about it now, those survivors of the former dynasty in the Republic of China era don't have to complain about others and live their lives dreaming of death.You know, the country has undergone countless changes, and the sea has changed countless times, but it just happened to be met by you.How many people have been choked by the smoky history, but as things change, time will heal all scars.At that time, the mountains and rivers were silent, and the prosperous world was peaceful. The sand gulls of heaven and earth are also as small as mustard seeds.Zhang Ailing's father, Zhang Tingzhong, indulged in the fireworks of the troubled times and gave up on himself.Zhang Ailing's mother, Huang Yifan, broke free from the barriers of the secular world and went away by ferry.Life is like a dream, but waking up from the dream is easier said than done.Even if you choose the path you want to go the most, you can't be completely free and easy. When Huang Yifan was studying abroad, although Zhang Ailing was only four years old, she had a very clear memory of her mother's sadness when she left. "My mother and my aunt went out to sea together. On the day of boarding the boat, she lay on the bamboo bed and wept bitterly. There were small twitching and glowing patches on the green skirt. The servant came several times to remind her that it was time, and she didn't seem to Hearing that, they didn't dare to speak anymore, pushed me forward, and told me to say, "Auntie, it's getting late." (I was adopted to another room, so I called it uncle and aunt.) She ignored me, just Crying. She sleeps there like the sea reflected in the glass of the cabin, little flakes of green, yet with the sea's endless tossing and mourning." It can be seen that Huang Yifan was not decisive in leaving, because she was reluctant.The mother's departure will inevitably bring some regrets to Eileen Chang's childhood, but she is used to it.After Huang Yifan left, Zhang Ting re-enclosed his concubine in the small mansion, and moved in grandiosely.Xiao Zhangying called this concubine his aunt, and when he was in the small mansion, Zhang Tingzhong took her there to play.So her arrival was no stranger to Xiao Zhangying. This concubine's background is far less noble than Huang Yifan's. She was originally a prostitute Zhang Tingzhong met when he was out looking for flowers and women.Zhang Tingzhong took care of him only because of his beauty and style.Now that the hostess here has gone abroad, she can be regarded as a rising star.Zhang Tingzhong smoked and smoked every day, as long as his concubine took care of him comfortably, he would not bother with other matters, big or small. Zhang Ailing briefly described the life when her aunt moved in in "Whispers". "After my mother left, my aunt and grandma moved in. The house is very lively, there are often banquets, and I call the note. I hide behind the curtain and peep, especially paying attention to the two sisters who are sixteen or seventeen years old who are sitting on the same sofa chair. Front bangs, wearing the same jade-colored jacket and trousers, leaning against each other in white, as if they were born together." The young Eileen Chang couldn't understand such a dusty scene, but she was curious and participated in their feast as a little host.The concubine did not like her younger brother Zhang Zijing, so she doted on Zhang Ailing very much.Every night I took her to a western restaurant called "Keshilin" to watch a dance, and gave her a snow-white cream cake.It wasn't until the moonlight dimmed that the servant was allowed to carry it home. The concubine also made a snow green velvet short jacket and long skirt for Xiao Zhangying, and said to her with a smile: "Look at how well I treat you! Your mother always makes clothes for you, and always uses old fabrics to make changes. Are you willing to use a whole piece of velvet? Do you like me or your mother?" An innocent and innocent child can't tell the complex emotions between people.She replied happily: "I like you." For this reason, after growing up, Zhang Ailing still felt that she should not be so ungrateful for profit.However, this is a little girl's true thoughts. After all, the concubine made her clothes not out of pure flattery. But after all, the concubine and Zhang Tingzhong are just a dewy love affair, which cannot last long.Although Zhang Tingzhong likes to pick the fragrant grasses from the ends of the world, when they are withered, he discards them casually and no longer misses them.In his heart, no one can replace Huang Yifan's position, but it's a pity that he intended to entrust the bright moon, but who knows that the bright moon shines in the ditch.Huang Yifan couldn't give her beautiful and soft feelings to such a man who couldn't understand his heart. The aunt left because she smashed Zhang Tingzhong's head with a spittoon when they were arguing.So someone from the clan spoke up and forced her to walk.It's not that the Ming media is marrying, her end can be foreseen as early as when she came.She had enjoyed a good time in this luxurious bungalow, and she didn't have much regret to be driven away.On the day of leaving, Xiao Zhangying sat on the window sill of the pavilion and saw two couch carts slowly coming out of the gate, all of which were silverware taken away by his concubine.The servants all said, "Now it's all right!" It can be seen that the concubine's wife is not popular in the mansion. After many years, her future is uncertain, but her future life may not be just a lonely one.The mother's departure never caused more ripples in Xiao Zhangying's heart, so the departure of his aunt and grandma was even more insignificant.The feeling of parting may not be deeply understood until she grows up.Some people are gone, like a ray of breeze, without hindrance.Some people leave, as if they want to take away their souls together, and it hurts deeply.The concubine belongs to the former category. For Xiao Zhangying, the slow driving that day was as common as watching a sunset. After the concubine left, the whole house suddenly became quiet from the hustle and bustle.And Zhang Tingzhong also caused rumors and rumors because of many scandals in recent years, such as smoking opium, whoring, and fighting with concubines.He felt that staying in Tianjin was boring. Looking back on the past, regrets welled up in his heart, so he decided to change his past.He wrote to Huang Yifan who was far away in the UK, admitting his mistake, promised to quit opium, and would never take concubines again. He only asked her to return to China and resettle her family in Shanghai. Huang Yifan actually agreed, but it's unclear why.Maybe it's been wandering for several years, I'm a little tired, and I want to go back to the old nest for a short roost.Maybe he wanted to come back and redo the final break with Zhang Ting.Or maybe it is missing a pair of children and returning home to renew this family relationship.In any case, she agreed, and later she said to Xiao Zhangying: "Some things will be understood when you grow up. I came back this time to talk to your father, and I came back just to take care of him." This year, Zhang Ying was eight years old, and her happy childhood in Tianjin came to an abrupt end.At that time, she didn't know that the city she was going to was called Shanghai Bund, and she didn't know that one day she would set off a magnificent wave of writing in this turbulent metropolis.Fortunately for her, fate gave her a chance to choose invisibly, which made her an extraordinary future.Because of this alluring woman, Shanghai Beach has another kind of stunning beauty. Xiao Zhangying boarded the boat bound for Shanghai, and the journey brought her unspeakable joy: "Traveling through the black water ocean and the green water ocean, it seems that it is indeed black and dark, and green and green, although it has never been described in the book. Seeing the praise of the sea also gives me a feeling of joy. I read it many times while sleeping in the cabin.” After arriving in Shanghai, this international metropolis is obviously more prosperous than Tianjin. "When I arrived in Shanghai, I sat in the carriage. I was very happy and happy. There were blue butterflies flying on the pink-based foreign gauze trousers. We lived in a small Shikumen house with red oil board walls. For me, that There is also a kind of tight red happiness." After his father Zhang Tingzhong arrived in Shanghai, he did not feel reborn.On the contrary, because of his physical and mental exhaustion and fatigue from the journey, he received excessive morphine injections, and he was very close to death.He sat alone on the balcony, listening to the sound of the rain outside the window, talking incomprehensibly, which made Xiao Zhangying feel scared.But all of this is without danger.Although Shanghai did not restore his prosperous family in the past, it continued to write his life. When Eileen Chang came to Shanghai, her surprise turned into fear. The servant told her that her mother and aunt were coming back, and she should be happy.Indeed, such a defenseless migration made her need a warm snuggle. Although her stubborn personality made her not timid and unfamiliar, she was still a child after all. Flowers bloom on the sea and flowers fall on the sea.Although this city does not have the sluggish spring air of Tianjin, it has dominated her life's destiny.Her most legendary story begins and ends with Shanghai Beach.At this moment, the sound of the Huangpu River is still there, and the ripples on the water are rippling with many unknown dynasties of the past.From nothing to something, from slow to urgent.what does it knowWhat else can you tell us?
The spring was late, and the time passed slowly.Many fragments worthy of aftertaste are blurred like fresh water and clear smoke in the end.What can be remembered is only the scenes that must not be forgotten in the years of life.In fact, the most beautiful thing in the world is the circulation of the four seasons. Let us enjoy the gorgeous spring flowers and the hazy autumn moon. Thinking about it now, those survivors of the former dynasty in the Republic of China era don't have to complain about others and live their lives dreaming of death.You know, the country has undergone countless changes, and the sea has changed countless times, but it just happened to be met by you.How many people have been choked by the smoky history, but as things change, time will heal all scars.At that time, the mountains and rivers were silent, and the prosperous world was peaceful. The sand gulls of heaven and earth are also as small as mustard seeds.Zhang Ailing's father, Zhang Tingzhong, indulged in the fireworks of the troubled times and gave up on himself.Zhang Ailing's mother, Huang Yifan, broke free from the barriers of the secular world and went away by ferry.Life is like a dream, but waking up from the dream is easier said than done.Even if you choose the path you want to go the most, you can't be completely free and easy. When Huang Yifan was studying abroad, although Zhang Ailing was only four years old, she had a very clear memory of her mother's sadness when she left. "My mother and my aunt went out to sea together. On the day of boarding the boat, she lay on the bamboo bed and wept bitterly. There were small twitching and glowing patches on the green skirt. The servant came several times to remind her that it was time, and she didn't seem to Hearing that, they didn't dare to speak anymore, pushed me forward, and told me to say, "Auntie, it's getting late." (I was adopted to another room, so I called it uncle and aunt.) She ignored me, just Crying. She sleeps there like the sea reflected in the glass of the cabin, little flakes of green, yet with the sea's endless tossing and mourning." It can be seen that Huang Yifan was not decisive in leaving, because she was reluctant.The mother's departure will inevitably bring some regrets to Eileen Chang's childhood, but she is used to it.After Huang Yifan left, Zhang Ting re-enclosed his concubine in the small mansion, and moved in grandiosely.Xiao Zhangying called this concubine his aunt, and when he was in the small mansion, Zhang Tingzhong took her there to play.So her arrival was no stranger to Xiao Zhangying. This concubine's background is far less noble than Huang Yifan's. She was originally a prostitute Zhang Tingzhong met when he was out looking for flowers and women.Zhang Tingzhong took care of him only because of his beauty and style.Now that the hostess here has gone abroad, she can be regarded as a rising star.Zhang Tingzhong smoked and smoked every day, as long as his concubine took care of him comfortably, he would not bother with other matters, big or small. Zhang Ailing briefly described the life when her aunt moved in in "Whispers". "After my mother left, my aunt and grandma moved in. The house is very lively, there are often banquets, and I call the note. I hide behind the curtain and peep, especially paying attention to the two sisters who are sixteen or seventeen years old who are sitting on the same sofa chair. Front bangs, wearing the same jade-colored jacket and trousers, leaning against each other in white, as if they were born together." The young Eileen Chang couldn't understand such a dusty scene, but she was curious and participated in their feast as a little host.The concubine did not like her younger brother Zhang Zijing, so she doted on Zhang Ailing very much.Every night I took her to a western restaurant called "Keshilin" to watch a dance, and gave her a snow-white cream cake.It wasn't until the moonlight dimmed that the servant was allowed to carry it home. The concubine also made a snow green velvet short jacket and long skirt for Xiao Zhangying, and said to her with a smile: "Look at how well I treat you! Your mother always makes clothes for you, and always uses old fabrics to make changes. Are you willing to use a whole piece of velvet? Do you like me or your mother?" An innocent and innocent child can't tell the complex emotions between people.She replied happily: "I like you." For this reason, after growing up, Zhang Ailing still felt that she should not be so ungrateful for profit.However, this is a little girl's true thoughts. After all, the concubine made her clothes not out of pure flattery. But after all, the concubine and Zhang Tingzhong are just a dewy love affair, which cannot last long.Although Zhang Tingzhong likes to pick the fragrant grasses from the ends of the world, when they are withered, he discards them casually and no longer misses them.In his heart, no one can replace Huang Yifan's position, but it's a pity that he intended to entrust the bright moon, but who knows that the bright moon shines in the ditch.Huang Yifan couldn't give her beautiful and soft feelings to such a man who couldn't understand his heart. The aunt left because she smashed Zhang Tingzhong's head with a spittoon when they were arguing.So someone from the clan spoke up and forced her to walk.It's not that the Ming media is marrying, her end can be foreseen as early as when she came.She had enjoyed a good time in this luxurious bungalow, and she didn't have much regret to be driven away.On the day of leaving, Xiao Zhangying sat on the window sill of the pavilion and saw two couch carts slowly coming out of the gate, all of which were silverware taken away by his concubine.The servants all said, "Now it's all right!" It can be seen that the concubine's wife is not popular in the mansion. After many years, her future is uncertain, but her future life may not be just a lonely one.The mother's departure never caused more ripples in Xiao Zhangying's heart, so the departure of his aunt and grandma was even more insignificant.The feeling of parting may not be deeply understood until she grows up.Some people are gone, like a ray of breeze, without hindrance.Some people leave, as if they want to take away their souls together, and it hurts deeply.The concubine belongs to the former category. For Xiao Zhangying, the slow driving that day was as common as watching a sunset. After the concubine left, the whole house suddenly became quiet from the hustle and bustle.And Zhang Tingzhong also caused rumors and rumors because of many scandals in recent years, such as smoking opium, whoring, and fighting with concubines.He felt that staying in Tianjin was boring. Looking back on the past, regrets welled up in his heart, so he decided to change his past.He wrote to Huang Yifan who was far away in the UK, admitting his mistake, promised to quit opium, and would never take concubines again. He only asked her to return to China and resettle her family in Shanghai. Huang Yifan actually agreed, but it's unclear why.Maybe it's been wandering for several years, I'm a little tired, and I want to go back to the old nest for a short roost.Maybe he wanted to come back and redo the final break with Zhang Ting.Or maybe it is missing a pair of children and returning home to renew this family relationship.In any case, she agreed, and later she said to Xiao Zhangying: "Some things will be understood when you grow up. I came back this time to talk to your father, and I came back just to take care of him." This year, Zhang Ying was eight years old, and her happy childhood in Tianjin came to an abrupt end.At that time, she didn't know that the city she was going to was called Shanghai Bund, and she didn't know that one day she would set off a magnificent wave of writing in this turbulent metropolis.Fortunately for her, fate gave her a chance to choose invisibly, which made her an extraordinary future.Because of this alluring woman, Shanghai Beach has another kind of stunning beauty. Xiao Zhangying boarded the boat bound for Shanghai, and the journey brought her unspeakable joy: "Traveling through the black water ocean and the green water ocean, it seems that it is indeed black and dark, and green and green, although it has never been described in the book. Seeing the praise of the sea also gives me a feeling of joy. I read it many times while sleeping in the cabin.” After arriving in Shanghai, this international metropolis is obviously more prosperous than Tianjin. "When I arrived in Shanghai, I sat in the carriage. I was very happy and happy. There were blue butterflies flying on the pink-based foreign gauze trousers. We lived in a small Shikumen house with red oil board walls. For me, that There is also a kind of tight red happiness." After his father Zhang Tingzhong arrived in Shanghai, he did not feel reborn.On the contrary, because of his physical and mental exhaustion and fatigue from the journey, he received excessive morphine injections, and he was very close to death.He sat alone on the balcony, listening to the sound of the rain outside the window, talking incomprehensibly, which made Xiao Zhangying feel scared.But all of this is without danger.Although Shanghai did not restore his prosperous family in the past, it continued to write his life. When Eileen Chang came to Shanghai, her surprise turned into fear. The servant told her that her mother and aunt were coming back, and she should be happy.Indeed, such a defenseless migration made her need a warm snuggle. Although her stubborn personality made her not timid and unfamiliar, she was still a child after all. Flowers bloom on the sea and flowers fall on the sea.Although this city does not have the sluggish spring air of Tianjin, it has dominated her life's destiny.Her most legendary story begins and ends with Shanghai Beach.At this moment, the sound of the Huangpu River is still there, and the ripples on the water are rippling with many unknown dynasties of the past.From nothing to something, from slow to urgent.what does it knowWhat else can you tell us?