Chapter 12 Section 12

It was already the afternoon of the second day after Kang Nan received Jiang Yanrong's letter.The familiar handwriting on the envelope made his heart beat. He hadn't seen her since Jiang Yanrong failed the exam. In his imagination, she didn't know how miserable and disappointed she was.But he guards his own small room, and can neither visit her nor comfort her, so close to the world, he can't fly across!With great frustration, he waited for her to come, but when she didn't come, this letter did.Kang Nan held the letter, and an instinctive premonition made him dare not open it. Finally, he finally opened the envelope and pulled out the letter paper.The first thing that caught his eye was the poem, in a scrawled, almost illegible handwriting.After reading it, he hurriedly read the letter again. After reading it in one go, he felt as if he had been hit by a stick, and sat there blankly, not knowing what he was doing for a long time.Then, grabbing the letterhead, he read it again, before he came to his senses.

"Yan Rong!" He yelled in despair, burying his head in his hands.Then he jumped up. "Maybe it can be stopped!" he thought, hastily putting on his shoes.But immediately he was stunned again. "How to stop her? Go to her house?" He tied his shoelaces, and by this time he could not think about the consequences. "Yanrong, don't be stupid, wait for me!" He cried out in his heart, but he couldn't find the key to lock the door. "Why lock the door now!" He said angrily.His heart was beating wildly, and his brows were covered with cold sweat. "I wish she hadn't done it! I wish she hadn't done it! God, let me bear all the pain, spare her!" Rushing to the door, he was about to open the door when someone knocked on the door, and he opened it Door.Outside, Mrs. Jiang was standing proudly, sizing up the man in front of her with a pair of cold and sharp eyes. "Excuse me, who are you looking for?" Kang Nan asked, looking at this strange middle-aged woman.Her face was serious and her eyes were burning.Connan could almost feel the overwhelming arrogance in her.

"I am Jiang Yanrong's mother, you must be Mr. Kang!" Mrs. Jiang said coldly. "Oh," Kang Nan was taken aback, and thought quickly in his heart: "Yan Rong is over!" His lips lost color, his face was pale, and cold sweat rolled down his forehead.But without losing his composure, he led Mrs. Jiang in, closed the door, and asked timidly, "Jiang Yanrong——is he okay?" "She committed suicide, don't you know?" Sure enough, Kangnan's eyes turned dark, he held onto the table tremblingly, and asked in a trembling voice, "Is it safe?" "No, I've been rescued!" Mrs. Jiang said, continuing to look at Kangnan calmly. "Thank God!" Kang Nan cried in his heart: "Thank God!" He felt tears rushing into his eyes.Not wanting Mrs. Jiang to see his embarrassment, he walked away to make a cup of tea for Mrs. Jiang. His hands shook uncontrollably, so that the tea spilled out of the cup.Mrs. Jiang looked at him calmly, and said proudly:

"Mr. Kang, Yan Rong just told me about her and you." Her eyes pressed against Kang Nan, watching him from top to bottom, and Kang Nan lowered his eyes involuntarily. "Yes," he said, thinking about how to address Mrs. Jiang, and finally said as a junior: "Auntie..." "Don't be so polite," Mrs. Jiang interrupted him: "We are about the same age!" Connan blushed. "I want to know, did Yanrong write to you?" Mrs. Jiang asked. "I just received one." "I want to read it!" Kang Nan took the letter out of his pocket and handed it to Mrs. Jiang. Mrs. Jiang read it hastily and accepted the letter without saying a word. into the purse.She stared at Kang Nan and said aggressively: "It seems that you have been in love for a long time. Mr. Kang, you are also a father. Of course, it is not difficult to understand the hearts of parents. Yanrong is just a child. We eat A lot of hardships brought her up to the age of nineteen, if she died like this this time, how would you explain to us as parents?"

Kang Nan looked at Mrs. Jiang speechlessly, and felt that she had the power to control the overall situation.He murmured: "Believe me, I have no malice towards Jiang Yanrong. I didn't expect her to be so stupid!" I would have guessed that Yan Rong was a serious and silly kid who would be serious enough to commit suicide..." "That's not the case," Kang Nan felt irritated, he suppressed and said, "I never meant to play with her..." "Then , you were planning to marry her from the beginning?" "No, I know I'm not qualified..." "Since you know that you are not qualified, you still fall in love with her, so what are you doing if you are not playing?" Connan felt unable to explain, and he frowned.

"Mrs. Jiang," he said reluctantly, "I know I was wrong, but there is nothing to say about the occurrence of feelings. At the beginning, I tried my best and persuaded her, but..." He sighed , shook his head silently. "So, what's your plan for Yan Rong? You don't plan to marry her, and you play with her feelings..." "I didn't say I didn't plan to marry her!" Kang Nan argued. "Didn't you just say that you knew you couldn't marry her? Now it's changed again, isn't it? Well, then you plan to marry her? Excuse me, how old are you? Can you guarantee Yan Rong's Happiness? Yanrong is at home, she does nothing and can't bear any grievances. What kind of life can you give her? You promise that she will not suffer in the future and will live happily?"

Kang Sheng lowered his head, yes, this is what he thought, he couldn't guarantee it, he always thought that he could not give her happiness.At least, he is more than twenty years older than her. One day, he will leave her behind and leave her alone in the world. He can't bear to think about what will happen to his weak little face on that day! "Mr. Kang," Mrs. Jiang continued pressing, "Here, I want to ask you, what is true love? Do you want to possess Yanrong and deprive her of the happiness she can get? Is this called true love? " "You misunderstood, I never wanted to possess Yanrong..."

"Okay! This is what you said. If Yan Rong asks you, I hope you tell her the same! You don't want her, do you?" "Mrs. Jiang," Kang Nan blushed, "I love Yan Rong Rong, although I know that I am not worthy of love, I hope she is happy, even if it means sacrificing me..." "If there is no you, she will be happy. You are not loving her, you are destroying her! Think about it, what can you give her? Apart from the love you shouted? She is just a child, you have four Ten years old, Mr. Kang, you can't be too extreme! If Yanrong is your daughter, what would you think?"

"Mrs. Jiang, you are right." Kang Nan said weakly. "As long as you think Yan Rong will be happy, I will never hinder her." He turned his head and lit a cigarette to conceal the despair and sadness in his heart. "Okay," Mrs. Jiang stood up. "With your words, I feel at ease. Please understand the heart of being a parent and give Yanrong a way out! I believe you are a gentleman, and I also believe what you said that you don't want to possess Yanrong. With the heart of marrying her, letting go of her now is not a loss to you. Well, goodbye!" "Wait a minute," Kang Nan said, "Can I visit her once?" Mrs. Jiang sneered. "I don't think so, why bother!"

"Her—body—" Kang Nan said with difficulty, wanting to know Jiang Yanrong's current situation. "Mr. Kang, don't worry, Yanrong is my daughter, I definitely care about her more than you!" She walked to the door, then turned around and said: "If Yanrong comes to you, please remember what you promised me!" Opening the door, she walked away with her head held high. Kang Nan closed the door, fell into a chair, and covered his face with his hands. "Yan Rong! Xiao Rong! Rong Rong!" He shouted in despair: "I love you! I want you! I love you! I want you!" He put his head on the table, inserted his fingers into his hair, and squeezed pulling his hair.

When Mrs. Jiang returned home, it was already dusk.Jiang Yanrong just woke up and was staring at the ceiling in a daze.Now, her mind is clearer. She recalled what Mrs. Jiang said to her, and sighed secretly. She thought that her mother must oppose her and Kang Nan, but she did not expect her mother to agree.If she knew this earlier, why did she have to hide it from her mother? "I have a good mother." She thought, "Kangnan, don't worry, all problems are solved!" She closed her eyes, imagining the series of happy days with Kangnan in the future.Mrs. Jiang entered the door, and first went to the study to have a secret talk with Jiang Yangzhi.Then he walked to Jiang Yanrong's room. "Yanrong, are you better?" She asked, sitting on Yanrong's bedside. "Oh, Mom," Jiang Yanrong smiled softly, slightly shy: "I'm so sorry for doing such a stupid thing!" "Young people will be confused like this," Mrs. Jiang said with a smile, "When your uncle was in middle school, he committed suicide by swallowing a match for a girl, and fell in love with another girl three months later." Jiang Yanrong felt that her uncle's situation could not be mentioned together with her, so she changed the subject and asked: "Mom went out just now?" "Yanrong," Mrs. Jiang put away her smile, and looked at Jiang Yanrong seriously and gently. "I went to see Kangnan just now, now, tell me, how did you start falling in love?" Jiang Yan looked at Mrs. Jiang anxiously, a blush appeared on her pale face. "I don't know how to say it. I have a small book in my box, and there are fragments of records in it." "Okay, I'll read it later," Mrs. Jiang said, with a downcast face. "Yanrong, every girl will have a first love, and everyone's first love is full of sweet and good memories. Now, keep the memory of your first love, and then put it aside, don't think about it It's gone." "Mom," Jiang Yanrong said in panic, "What do you mean?" "Forget about Kang Nan, never talk to him again!" Mrs. Jiang said word by word. "Mom!" Jiang Yanrong looked at Mrs. Jiang suspiciously: "You changed your mind!" "Yanrong, listen to my mother, there is no love in the world that can replace maternal love. Mom is for your own good, don't look into the reason, keep the beautiful impression of first love in your mind, and if you keep looking, you will find the beauty become ugly." "Mom, what do you mean? Have you seen Kang Nan?" Jiang Yanrong asked nervously, his face turned pale again. "Yes," Mrs. Jiang said slowly, "I saw Kang Nan." "What did he say to you?" "Do you have to listen? Yanrong?" Mrs. Jiang still said slowly: "I met him, and he told me that he has no intention of marrying you. He also advised you not to love him! Yanrong, he didn't Fall in love with you, you are in love with him!" "No! No! No!" Jiang Yanrong shouted, tears blinding her eyes: "He won't say that, he can't say that!" "He really said that! You should trust me, mom won't lie to you! Yanrong , He is a coward! He dare not take responsibility! He said he never wanted to marry you, never wanted you! Yanrong, he has no sincerity, he is just playing with you!" "No! No! No!" Jiang Yanrong shouted. "I'm going today, as long as he tells me: He loves you, he wants you, I will hand you over to him. But he said that he has no intention of marrying you, Yanrong, you have been deceived, you are too young! I There is absolutely no rumor, you can question him! Now, forget him, he is not worthy of your love!" "No! No! No!" Jiang Yanrong yelled, burying her head in the pillow and crying bitterly. Never once did she feel that Such heartbreak, such hatred, she beat the pillow, the feeling of humiliation made her blood throb.She believed Mrs. Jiang's words, because Mrs. Jiang never lied.She bit her lip until it bled, at this moment, she really wanted to tear Kang Nan apart!She never thought that Kang Nan would be so irresponsible and say that he had no intention of marrying her!Then, such an unforgettable love has become a joke!What kind of man is this!How terrible the world is!She cried, "Why don't I die, why don't I die!" Mrs. Jiang bent down and put her arms around her head. "Yan Rong, cry," she said softly, "I hope this crying can cut away your cancerous love like a knife. Cry, cry hard once, and then don't think about it again." "Mom! Mom!" Jiang Yanrong hugged her mother tightly, like a drowning man holding onto a piece of driftwood. "Mom!" Mrs. Jiang stroked her short hair lovingly, feeling sore in her nose. "Silly boy! Silly Yanrong! Why don't you trust your mother? If you told me about your love from the beginning and let me help you make up your mind, how could you let him lie for so long? Well, don't cry Yes. Yanrong, forget about it!" "Oh," Yan Rong cried, "How can I forget? How can I forget!" "Yan Rong," Mrs. Jiang suddenly became nervous. "Tell me, did he have a physical relationship with you?" Jiang Yanrong shook his head violently.Mrs. Jiang felt relieved, sighed and said, "It's not bad!" "Mom," Jiang Yanrong shook her head and said, "You don't know how much I love him, oh, how can he be so despicable!" She bit He clenched his teeth, beat the pillow and said, "I really want to kill him! Kill him! Kill him!" She cried and screamed for half an hour, and was finally conquered by fatigue. Her head was hurting violently, but her heart was hurting even more.She lay weakly on the bed, no longer crying or speaking, staring blankly at the window and the dark world outside the window.Outwardly, she was calm.However, inside, it was boiling like boiling water. "I loved you with all my heart, Kang Nan," she said repeatedly in her heart: "Now I hate you with all my heart! Look! I want revenge, I want revenge!" She looked up weakly, hoping She could recover her strength immediately, so she was going to scold him, question him, and even kill him!But her dizziness became worse, her limbs had no strength, and she was overwhelmed by weakness, and tears filled her eyes again. "God," she thought indiscriminately: "If you really exist, why don't you let me live and die? What kind of world is this? What kind of world?" Tears were dry, she closed her eyes in despair, bit tight lips.Three days later, Jiang Yanrong was still pale, haggard and weak, but she insisted on going to see Kang Nan once, insisting on scolding and scolding him, she grabbed Mrs. Jiang's hand and said, "Mom, this is the last time I see you." He, I will never be at peace if I don’t let out this breath, mother, let me go!” Mrs. Jiang shook her head, but Jiang Yangzhi, who was standing aside, said: “Okay, let her go, see if she won’t do it this time. Desperate!" "When you feel better." Mrs. Jiang said. "No! I can't bear it!" Mrs. Jiang had no choice but to ask Jiang Lin to send Jiang Yanrong away.But, behind Jiang Yanrong's back, she told Jiang Lin to monitor them and set a limit of half an hour to come back.She worriedly said to Jiang Yanrong: "I'm afraid that when you see him, you will be deceived by his sweet words again! Remember, this man is a poisonous snake, you can scold him, but never listen to any of his words Talk!" Jiang Yanrong nodded, and got on the tricycle with Jiang Lin.In the car, Jiang Yanrong said to Jiang Lin: "I want to see him alone, you can wait for me on campus, okay?" "Mom wants me..." Jiang Lin said anxiously. "Please!" "Okay!" Jiang Lin looked at his sister sympathetically, and then said, "But, don't be fooled by him again! Sister, he definitely doesn't love you, tell you, if my girlfriend I committed suicide, then, I will go to see her with the knife on my neck! He loves you, will he know that you committed suicide and not come to see you?" "You are right, I have woken up from my dream now!" Jiang Yanrong said, "I just need to ask him, where is his conscience?" When Jiang Yanrong knocked on Kangnan's door, Kangnan was pacing up and down in the room, From early morning until late at night.Mrs. Jiang's sharp words kept ringing in his ears, yes, what is real love?In order to love Jiang Yanrong, he had to retreat?He is not qualified to love Jiang Yanrong, he cannot hinder Jiang Yanrong's happiness!Yes, this is all true!All are right!He should sacrifice for her, even if he sends himself into the 18th floor of hell!But, can Jiang Yanrong really be happy if he leaves him?Who can guarantee?His mind was disorganized and contradictory, he longed to see her, but he was not entitled to visit, he could only struggle with himself in the house.He didn't know what Mrs. Jiang would say to Jiang Yanrong after she went back, but he knew for a fact that Yanrong had already left him, and he could never get her again! "If you really get happiness, everything is worth it! What if you can't? Why bother me?" He angrily slapped the table and his own destiny. There was a knock on the door, and he opened it, feeling dizzy immediately.Jiang Yanrong stood there, pale, thin, and haggard.He stabilized himself first, then pulled her in and closed the door.He was startled by her haggardness, which seemed like a little finger could push her down.But her face was angry and serious, and there was a mad fire in her black eyes, which Connan felt could melt anything.He pushed a chair for her, and she immediately fell into the chair involuntarily. Kang Nan turned his head, concealed the tears welling up in his eyes, and said in a trembling voice: "Yanrong, are you ready?" Jiang Yanrong stared at him fixedly, without saying a word, only gritted his teeth after a long time and said: "Kangnan, hello..." After saying these two words, her voice was choked up, and tears rushed into her eyes. It took her a long time to control her voice, and said word by word : "Kangnan, I always thought you were an upright person, who knew you were a despicable and shameless devil!" Kang Nan shook his body, his eyes darkened.Jiang Yanrong's face was full of tears, and she continued: "Tell my mother that you have no intention of marrying me! Kangnan, you played with my feelings, and you actually have the heart to deceive me. Where's your conscience? You..." She choked up and said Speechless, his face became increasingly pale.Kang Nan rushed to her, grabbed her hand, and crouched at her feet.Her hand was as cold as ice, and she was trembling violently. As soon as his hand touched hers, she quickly withdrew it and said sharply: "You are not allowed to touch me!" Then, she looked at his face with tears in her eyes, raised her hand, and slapped him hard on the face.Kang Nan was stunned for a moment, grabbed her hand, and left behind Mrs. Jiang's warning before leaving, and said angrily, "I never said I had no intention of marrying you!" "You said, you must say Yes! Mom never creates something out of nothing!" She shook her head in pain, her tearful eyes were like two cold stars through the water mist, staring at him with endless sadness and resentment, which knocked him down, he was eager says: "Do you believe that I will say this? I only said that I know I am not qualified to marry you. I said that I did not want to possess you..." "What's the difference!" "It's different. Your mother thinks that I possess you as a kind of selfish desire. If you really love you, you should leave you so that you can find happiness. Otherwise, I will destroy you and harm you. Do you understand? I don’t care about anything in the world, I just want you to be happy! Leaving you is a sacrifice to me. You haven’t understood me for so long? If even you are misunderstood that I am deceiving you and playing with you, I can still I hope there is someone in this world who can understand me! Okay! Yan Rong, you hate me, I know, keep hating, if hating me brings you happiness! Your mother’s words are too strong, she forced me to say I don’t want to possess you, but I say that I don’t possess you, but I don’t mean that I don’t love you! If I really played with you on purpose, for so long, from estrus to courtesy, have I violated you at all? Yan Rong, If I say that I have no intention of marrying you, that I don't want you...or any irresponsible words, I will die immediately!" He clenched that little cold hand, and tears filled him with excitement and sadness. Turning her head away, she said with difficulty: "Think what you want! Yan Rong, think what you want!" Jiang Yanrong looked at him, tears stopped on her eyelashes, she thought about it, and reassessed the matter.Kang Nan took out a cigarette and finally lit it. He took a deep puff depressed, stood up, walked to the window, and tried his best to calm himself down. People in their forties should not be so excited. He took a puff of smoke out of the window and said in a low voice: "What can I give you except the love I shouted in words! This is what your mother said, yes, I have nothing but this heart, now, you too Belittle this heart! I can't guarantee you a comfortable life, I don't deserve you! I don't deserve it, I don't deserve it, do you understand?" "Kangnan, you know that my happiness depends on you, and you are still going to leave me You know that the days without you are a series of darkness and despair, and you know that I am not a secular girl who pursues comfort! Why don't you dare to say to my mother: 'I love her! I want her! I want her !' Are you really so cowardly? Are you really a Luoting described by Turgenev?" Kang Nan quickly turned around to face her. "I was wrong, I dare not say it, I thought I was not qualified to say it, now I understand!" He walked to Jiang Yanrong's side, knelt down and looked at her: "You hit me! I really deserve to die!" They looked at each other, and then, Jiang Yanrong fell into his arms crying, Kang Nan kissed her fiercely, her eyes, eyebrows, cheeks, and lips, he hugged her, hugged her tightly, kissed her ear Side murmured: "I see it clearly, let all the forces of opposition come, let all the blows come, I will kill you!" They hugged, Jiang Yanrong's small body twitched and trembled in his arms, her pale face Tears were scattered, Kang Nan held her face, stared at her thin cheeks and haggard eyes, feeling uncontrollable pain, tears poured out of his eyes, he pressed her head tightly to his chest, Trembling deeply. "Think about it, I almost lost you! Your mother forbade me to visit you, you...why are you so stupid? Why do you do such a stupid thing?" He kissed her hair: "You are not well yet, are you? Very sad ?" "Physical sadness is limited, but the heart is the real sadness." "Still hate me?" She looked at him. "Yes, I hate that you have no courage!" Connan sighed. "If I have never been married, if I am twenty years younger than now, you can see if I have the courage." The sound of high-heeled shoes came from the corridor, and they both realized who was coming. Before Jiang Yanrong could stand up from Kang Nan's arms, the door was pushed open immediately.Mrs. Jiang stood at the door, looking at the situation of Jiang Yanrong and Kang Nan, her face turned pale with anger, she sneered: "Hmph, I guessed this situation, where is Xiaolin?" "On campus." Jiang Yan said timidly, leaving Kang Nan's embrace. Mrs. Jiang walked in, closed the door, looked at Jiang Yanrong contemptuously and angrily, and said: "You scold him, blame him, what are you doing here now!" "Mom!" Jiang Yan called out uneasily and lowered her head. "Mr. Kang, haven't you committed enough crimes?" Mrs. Jiang looked at Kang Nan closely: "You said that you have no intention of marrying her..." "Mrs. Jiang!" Kang Nan said seriously: "I didn't say that, I just said I have no intention of possessing her if she leaves me to be happy! But now I want to assure you that I can give her happiness, and I beg you to allow us to marry!" Mrs. Jiang looked at Kang Nan in astonishment, this change was something she had never expected.From the very beginning, from Jiang Yanrong committing suicide by taking poison to her confession of her love affair with Kang Nan, Mrs. Jiang consciously got involved in a terrible turmoil.She has only one firm thought, that this love is abnormal, unreasonable, pathological and unnatural.She knew that Jiang Yanrong was a child who loved fantasy, and she must have made her fantasy into an idol, mixed this idol with Kang Nan, and then blindly fell in love with this illusion of herself.And Kang Nan must be a male teacher with no morals, taking advantage of Yan Rong's weakness to easily win the girl's heart.Therefore, she firmly believed that she wanted to rescue Jiang Yanrong, she must rescue it, and when she met Kang Nan, she was even more sure, and felt that Kang Nan's words were flashing, and he obviously did not have the determination to marry Jiang Yanrong at the risk of the world .So she was sure about saving Yan Rong, and concluded that Kang Nan would never dare to do anything hard, and would never have the sincerity to marry Yan Rong. She had seen too many men in their forties, and knew that they would only play with girls and not Willing to take on family responsibilities, especially if it comes at a price.Kang Nan's proposal made her very surprised, and then, anger rose from the bottom of her heart.Oh, what a man who is overreaching himself. He has a wife and is over forty years old, yet he wants to marry Xiao Yanrong who is not yet an adult!She is not a snobbish mother, but she looked down on Kang Nan, and she concluded that Yan Rong would never be happy following him.After looking at Kang Nan for a while, she smiled coldly and said, "Why did your tone change again?" She turned her head, and said coldly to Jiang Yanrong, "Yanrong, how did you beg him to want you? " "Oh, Mom." Jiang Yanrong said, her face turned even paler. "Mrs. Jiang," Kang Nan was angry when he saw Mrs. Jiang torture Yanrong, he said firmly, "Please believe in my sincerity in loving Jiang Yanrong, please allow me to marry her, and I will absolutely do my best to take care of her and love her for the rest of my life! I didn't force myself to say this, I used to be afraid that I wouldn't be good enough for her..." "Now do you think I'm good enough for her?" Mrs. Jiang asked. Connan blushed, he paused and said: "Maybe everyone thinks it's not good enough, but as long as Yanrong thinks it's good enough, I can't care about anything else!" Mrs. Jiang looked at Kang Nan, who stood upright, with a sense of challenge, which made Mrs. Jiang more angry.Turning around, she looked at Jiang Yanrong sharply, and said sternly, "You want to marry this person, don't you?" Jiang Yanrong lowered her head. "Speak up!" Mrs. Jiang pressed, "Isn't it?" "Oh, mom," Jiang Yanrong glanced at his mother, and said softly, "If mom agrees." "What if I don't agree?" Mrs. Jiang asked. Jiang Yanrong bowed his head in silence, and after a long time, he said softly: "Mom said not to interfere with my marriage." "Okay, I said so, so you are determined to marry him?" Jiang Yanrong didn't speak.Mrs. Jiang turned to Kang Nan angrily. "Are you really sincere in marrying Yanrong?" "Yes." "Can you guarantee Yanrong's happiness? Guarantee that she will not suffer?" Kang Nan glanced at Jiang Yanrong. "I promise," he said. "Okay, then, within three days, you should write a written proposal letter to Yanrong's father and me. It should state that you promise that she will never suffer and be absolutely happy in the future. If your letter doesn't come within three days After writing the letter, you have to take full responsibility for the letter, and if there is anything wrong with Yan Rong in the future, I will only ask you!" Kang Nan looked at that in anger but still used his The thinking Mrs. Jiang knew that she had met a very strong person.It is almost impossible to guarantee one's future, who can predict fate?Who can fully arrange his future?He glanced at Jiang Yanrong again, the latter was looking at him quietly, with pure trust and stubborn affection in his eyes, just such a glance, he felt a convulsion, and he immediately understood that it was not her who could not leave now It's not his problem, but he can't do without her at all!He nodded and looked at Mrs. Jiang firmly: "Within three days, I will definitely post the letter!" Mrs. Jiang looked at Kang Nan sharply, almost passing through his body, looking into his heart.She didn't believe this man, and she didn't believe that a middle-aged man would have true feelings for a little girl.I swear to each other, desperate love belongs to young people. After middle age, people's feelings also slip into a stable trough. Most of them will not be as impulsive as young people.Could it be that this man was really moved by Yan Rong?She looked at him, not believing that her decades of experience in reading people would make mistakes. Kang Nan's expression was firm and steady, and she couldn't see through him. "This is a cunning and powerful character," she thought, and intuitively felt that the person in front of her was a great enemy of hers, and also a vulture, coveting the wild goose like a little chick.Maternal vigilance terrified her, but she wanted to protect her goose like a mother protects her chicks, no matter what.With her head held high, she was ready to spread her wings to protect the wild goose, and to fight the vulture. "Okay!" She gritted her teeth and said, "We'll wait for your letter to come! Yanrong, come back with me now! Don't come here until the letter arrives!" Jiang Yanrong looked at Kang Nan silently, still so trusting and affectionate, which caused a strong impact in Kang Nan's heart.He glanced back at her, and told her with his eyes as much as possible: "Don't worry, I don't want the whole world, but I want you!" He saw that Jiang Yanrong understood him, and a gratified light flashed across her face, Then he followed Mrs. Jiang out of the room. With Jiang Yanrong, they found Jiang Lin, and they went home in a tricycle. Mrs. Jiang said confidently: "Yanrong, I assure you that Kang Nan will never dare to write this letter, you should give up on this person as soon as possible! " Jiang Yanrong didn't say a word, Mrs. Jiang turned to look at her.Her pale little face glowed with radiance, and there was firm trust in her eyes.Those two shining eyes seemed to have a hint of contempt for her mother's confidence, and they said softly there: "He can write! He can write!" The next three days, for Mrs. She was extremely disturbed, although she believed that Kang Nan did not dare to write this letter, but if he really wrote it, would she really marry Yan Rong to him?If she regrets not marrying again, she will violate her promise, and she has always followed her word!Contrary to Mrs. Jiang, Jiang Yanrong seemed extremely calm. She quietly waited for Kang Nan's letter, and she knew that this letter would definitely come! This is the low tide period for the whole family. The Jiang family was shrouded in a dark fog. Even Jiang Lin, who loves to laugh and make trouble, was silent, and Yan Ruo, who loves to act like a baby, also quietly hid aside. The storm is coming.Jiang Yangzhi's big work had come to a standstill, and he paced up and down the room all day with his hands behind his back, sighing and shaking his head.For dealing with this kind of thing, he felt that he was an imbecile, so he left it to Mrs. Jiang to deal with it.However, recently, from Yanrong taking poison, he almost lost this daughter, and then found that her heart has been wandering outside, which made Jiang Yangzhi suddenly realize that he has neglected this daughter too much for decades.Mrs. Jiang read Jiang Yanrong's Miscellaneous Notes, which is actually equivalent to a fragmented diary, which records the history of her and Kang Nan's love, and also records the neglect she received in the family and her pursuit of emotional life. eager.Jiang Yangzhi also read this book, and he couldn't help looking at Jiang Yanrong with a new perspective. How strange, after being a father and daughter for more than ten years, he realized that he didn't know Jiang Yanrong at all before!Those frank records reminded him of his preference for Jiang Lin, and also reminded him of his dereliction of duty father.Those sad sentences and strong feelings made him feel guilty and sad, especially when he found out that he loves Jiang Yanrong so much!Love this daughter who has abandoned her parents.He felt that Jiang Yanrong fell in love with Kang Nan because he lacked the love of his parents and blindly grabbed someone who gave her a little warmth, which made him feel Jiang Yanrong's loveliness and pity even more.He knew that he had the responsibility to save Jiang Yanrong, and he wanted to make up for the fault he had caused, and give her the father's love again.However, he immediately discovered that he didn't know what to do to make Jiang Yanrong understand, he couldn't express his feelings and thoughts, and he couldn't even talk to Jiang Yanrong!Mrs. Jiang always said to him: "You are a father, please persuade her! Tell her not to be so stupid and fall for Kang Nan's tricks!" He was at a loss as to how to persuade her.He has always been clumsy in conversation, and he has only two kinds of conversation, one is to teach people, and the other is to make speeches.Otherwise, it's just a lighthearted joke.Let him persuade a girl with emotion, he really doesn't have the ability.On the morning of the third day when they waited for the letter, Jiang Yangzhi decided to talk to Jiang Yanrong.He called Jiang Yanrong over, hoping to tell Jiang Yanrong easily and sincerely how his parents loved her and wanted her to stay in this warm home and stop being blindly deceived by others.However, before he could speak, Jiang Yanrong looked at him patiently, passively, and ready to be scolded.Behind this wink, Jiang Yangzhi could still feel a kind of rebellion and a kind of stubborn stubbornness.Sighing, Jiang Yangzhi could only ask softly: "Yanrong, what do you love about Kangnan? I heard from my mother that he is not beautiful, nor is he chic, nor is there anything special about him." Jiang Yanrong lowered her eyes, then said softly: "Dad, when love happens, there is no reason to explain it, and it cannot be explained. Dad, you don't know how to measure love with worldly eyes!" "But, have you ever thought that your love is inappropriate?" It’s common sense, you will be attacked by others?” “I can’t control others,” Jiang Yanrong said stubbornly: “This is my own business and has nothing to do with others, right? People live for themselves, not for others And live, don't you?" "No, you don't understand, people have to live for others! People can't be separated from this society. When the whole world criticizes you, you won't live happily. Moreover, people不能只凭爱情生活，你还会需要很多东西，包括父母、兄弟、姐妹，和朋友！”“如果这些人因为我爱上了康南而离弃我，那不是我的过失。爸爸！”江雁容固执的说。 “这不是谁的过失的问题，而是事实问题，造成孤立的事实后，你会发现痛苦超过你所想像的！” “我并不要孤立，如果大家逼我孤立，我就只好孤立！”江雁容说，眼睛里已充满了泪水。 “雁容，”江仰止无可奈何的叹口气：“把眼界放宽一点，你会发现世界上的男人多得很……” “爸爸，”江雁容打断了他，鲁莽的说：“世界上的女人也多得很，你怎么单单娶了妈妈？” 江仰止哑然无言，半天后才说： “你如果坚持这么做，你就一点都不顾虑你会伤了父母的心？”江雁容满眼泪水，她低下头，猛然醒悟，以父母和康南相提并论，她是如此偏向于康南！在她心里，属于父母的地位原只这么狭小！十九年的爱护养育，却敌不住康南的吸引力！她把父母和康南放在她心里的天平上，诧异的发现康南的那一端竟重了那么多！是的，她是个不孝的孩子，难怪江太太总感慨着养儿女的无用，十九年来的抚养，她羽毛未丰，已经想振翅离巢了。望着父亲斑白的头发，和少见的，伤感的脸色，她竟不肯说出放弃康南的话。她哀求的望了父亲一眼，低低的说：“爸爸，我不好，你们原谅我吧！我知道不该伤了你们的心，但是，要不然我的心就将碎成粉末！”她哭了，逃开了父亲，钻进自己的卧室里去了。 江仰止看着她的背影，觉得眼中酸涩。孩子长成了，有他们自己的思想和意志，他们就不再属于父母了。儿女可以不顾虑是否伤了父母的心，但做父母的，又怎忍让儿女的心碎成粉末？他感到自己的心意动摇，主要的，他发现江雁容内在的东西越多，他就越加深爱这个女儿。这变成他心中的一股压力，使他不忍也不能看到她痛苦挣扎。 江太太走进来，问：“怎么样？你劝了她吗？” 江仰止无可奈何的摇摇头。 “她已经一往情深了，我们的力量已太小了。” “是吗？”江太太挺起了背脊：“你看吧！不顾一切，我要阻止这件事！首先，我算定他不敢写那封信！他是个小人，他不会把一张追求学生的字据落在我手里，也不敢负责任！你看吧！”但是，下午三点钟，信准时寄到了。江仰止打开来细看，字迹劲健有力，文笔清丽优雅，辞句谦恭恳切，全信竟无懈可击！他的求婚看来是真切的，对江雁容的情感也颇真挚。江仰止看完，把信递给江太太，叹口气说： “这个人人品姑且不论，才华确实很高。” 江太太狠狠的盯了江仰止一眼，生气的说： “什么才华！会写几句诗词对仗的玩意，这在四十几岁的人来说，几乎人人能写！”看完信，她为自己的判断错误而生气，厉声说：“雁容，过来！” 事实上，江雁容根本就站在她旁边，她冷冷的看着江雁容说：“好，康南的求婚信已经来了，我曾经答应过不干涉你的婚姻，现在，你是不是决定嫁给这个人？” 江雁容在江太太的盛气下有些瑟缩，但她知道现在不是畏缩的时候，她望着榻榻米，轻轻的点了两下头。 “好！”江太太咬咬牙：“既然你已经认定了嫁他，我就守信不干涉你，你去通知康南，叫他一个月之内把你娶过去，不过，记住，从此你算是和江家脱离了关系！以后你不许承认是江仰止的女儿，也永远不许再走进我的家门！” “哦，妈妈！”江雁容低喊，抬头望着江太太，乞求的说：“不！妈妈，别做得那么绝！” “我的话已经完了，你只有在家庭和康南中选一条路，要不然和康南断绝，要不然和家庭断绝！” “不！妈妈！不！”江雁容哀求的抓住母亲的袖子，泪水盈眶。“不要这样，妈妈！” “你希望怎么样？嫁给康南，让人人都知道江仰止有一个康南那样的女婿？哼？雁容，你也未免太打如意算盘了。假如你珍惜这个家，假如你还爱爸爸妈妈和你的弟弟妹妹，你就和康南断绝！”“不！”江雁容摇着头，泪如雨下：“我不能！我不能！” “雁容，”江仰止插进来说：“想想看，你有个很好的家，爸爸妈妈都爱你，弟弟妹妹也舍不得你离开，想想看，十九年的恩情，你是不是这么容易斩断？如果你回到爸爸妈妈的怀抱里来，我相信，半年内你就会忘了康南……” “不！不！不！”江雁容绝望的摇着她的头。 “好！”江太太气极了，这就是抚育儿女的好处！当他们要离开的时候，对这个家的温情竟这样少！父母弟妹加起来，还敌不过一个康南！“好！”她颤声说：“你滚吧！叫康南马上把你娶过去，我不想再见到你！就算我没有你这个女儿！去通知康南，一个月之内不迎娶就作罢论！现在，从我面前滚开吧！” “哦，妈妈。哦，妈妈！不要！”江雁容哭着喊，跪倒在江太太脚前，双手抓紧了江太太的旗袍下摆，把面颊紧挨在江太太的腿上。“妈妈，妈妈！” 江太太俯头看着江雁容，一线希望又从心底萌起，她抚摩着江雁容的头发，鼻子里酸酸的。 “雁容，”她柔声说：“再想想，你舍得离开这个家？连那只小白猫，都是你亲手喂大的，后院里的茑萝，还是你读初二那年从学校里弄回来的种子……就算你对父母没有感情，你对这些也一无留恋吗？雁若跟你睡惯了，到现在还要揽住你的脖子睡，她夜里总是怕黑，有了你才觉得安全……这些，你都不顾了？”“妈妈！哦，妈妈！”江雁容喊。 “你舍不得？是不是？好孩子，告诉妈妈，你愿意留下来，愿意和康南断绝！爸爸妈妈也有许多地方对不起你，让我们再重新开始，重新过一段新生活，好不好？来，说，你愿意和康南断绝！”“哦，妈妈，”江雁容断断续续的说：“别逼我，妈妈，我做不到！妈妈哦！”她摇着头，泪水弄了江太太一身。 “好，”江太太的背脊又挺直了：“妈妈这样对你说，都不能让你转变！那么，起来吧！去嫁给康南去！以后永远不要叫我做妈妈！我白养了你，白带了你！滚！”她把腿从江雁容手臂里拔出来，毅然的抬抬头，走到里面去了。 失去了倚靠，江雁容倒在地下，把头埋在手腕里，哭着低声喊：“上帝哦，我宁愿死！” 江仰止走过去，眼角是湿润的。他托起江雁容的头，江雁容那对充满了泪的眼睛正哀求的看着他。他摇摇头，叹了口气，感慨的念了两句：“世间多少痴儿女，可怜天下父母心！”然后，他站起身，跄踉的走开说：“起来吧！雁容，做爸爸的答应你和他结婚了！”